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reading mary oliver again in bits and pieces to slow down the days

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i don't even binge watch shows that i Love but im binge watching classes now

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watched sita ramam.

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My notebook has remained blank for months

thanks to the light you shower

around me. I have no use

for my pen, which lies

languorously without grief.

Nothing is better than to live

a storyless life that needs

no writing for meaning—

when I am gone, let others say

they lost a happy man,

though no one can tell how happy I was.

- Ha Jin, "Missed Time"

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"aisa toh nahi tha ki usse zyada khoobsurat ladki maine dekhi nahi thi"

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I asked for very little from life, and even this little was denied me. A nearby field, a ray of sunlight, a little bit of calm along with a bit of bread, not to feel oppressed by the knowledge that I exist, not to demand anything from others, and not to have others demand anything from me – this was denied me, like the spare change we might deny a beggar not because we’re mean-hearted but because we don’t feel like unbuttoning our coat."

- Fernando Pessoa, The Book of Disquiet

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"I enjoy the breeze I'm given and the soul I was given to enjoy it with, and I no longer question or seek."

- Fernando Pessoa, The Book of Disquiet

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"you shouldn't distort the rules because of an individual." uncle, that's gojo satoru.

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"because i'm the size of what i see

and not the size of my stature."

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"ryomen sukuna. his current cursed energy is currently inferior to gojo." Just how powerful is Gojo because. . .

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"We can look so very far into the past, and not a day into the future. All this we must reckon with by ourselves."

- Janice Pariat, Everything The Light Touches

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"Could it think, the heart would stop beating."

- Fernando Pessoa, The Book of Disquiet

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special thankyou to hosaka and mikoto for being the braincells of the show <3

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The Journey by Mary Oliver

One day you finally knew

what you had to do, and began,

though the voices around you

kept shouting

their bad advice —

though the whole house

began to tremble

and you felt the old tug

at your ankles.

"Mend my life!"

each voice cried.

But you didn't stop.

You knew what you had to do,

though the wind pried

with its stiff fingers

at the very foundations —

though their melancholy

was terrible.

It was already late

enough, and a wild night,

and the road full of fallen

branches and stones.

But little by little,

as you left their voices behind,

the stars began to burn

through the sheet of clouds,

and there was a new voice,

which you slowly recognized as your own,

that kept you company

as you strode deeper and deeper

into the world,

determined to do

the only thing you could do —

determined to save

the only life you could save.

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not getting over zaid's character in laila majnu (2018)

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good to see wilmon back and leaving everyone staring in the hallway