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angel, 23, DID haver. non-traumagenics DNI

[tarnished-angelcoric]

INTRO

Hello! You can refer to us as Angel, and our collective pronouns are they/them. I am a DID system just trying to find healing and community, and to feel a little bit less like a freak in a world that’s already hurt us so deeply. Our body is 23 years old; we are employed and not in school. We are physically disabled and have mental illnesses other than DID; you may see me talk about how these different factors interact. I am professionally diagnosed and in therapy; educated self-DX is welcome and supported here!

For privacy reasons, we will not tag our posts with which alter is fronting. If we do mention our alters by name, it will be with an emoji or a nickname. If we are talking one-on-one, you’re free to ask who you’re speaking to, but do remember that we are not obligated to disclose that. If you don’t know who specifically is fronting, just refer to us as Angel.

This is a side blog; we interact from d******b (censored for privacy). If you’re not sure if we’re following you, feel free to ask!

BYF:

I will frequently alternate between I and we when talking about the system. Apologies if it gets confusing.

If you need to message us, you are always welcome to. Whether you have a question, need a safe adult to talk to, or just want some cat pictures to cheer you up, we’ll do our best to help. We try to be a friend, but do note that we will have certain boundaries with you if you are a minor, for obvious reasons.

Due to the nature of being a system, there will be discussions of trauma and abuse. Things will be tagged as needed (usually as just “[trigger]” or “[trigger] tw”). If you need anything tagged, anything at all, just let us know.

I try to always add image descriptions to my posts, but reblogs are hit or miss. If there is anything else I can incorporate to make my blog more accessible, please let me know!

I am always, always open to answering questions about having DID. Don’t worry about being too nosy - if I’m not comfortable answering it, I’ll let you know. The only hard limit is this: do not ask about details of our trauma.

Please do not use typing quirks with us - if you do, please provide a translation. Asks/messages with no translation will be ignored and likely deleted. They’re very difficult for us to read, and cause many issues for us.

In a similar vein, please use tone tags with us! We struggle a LOT with reading tone over text, and tone tags are what we use to prevent miscommunication. Just sticking with the basics (/j, /s, /lh, /gen) is totally fine, but you’re welcome to use other ones (I don’t have all of them memorised, so I may have to ask what they mean).

I’m always open to a civil discussion. Every system is different, and therefore has different opinions; as long as yours are not harming anybody or being intentionally aggressive, I’m always open to chat. On that note, please remember that we’re working on our own issues as well, including aggression. If we’re overstepping or being needlessly rude, please let us know.

Note that since I am employed and self-sufficient, I cannot always be online. On top of that, memory issues tend to interfere with socializing. It may take some time for us to respond to messages. If it’s been more than a day or two, feel free to shoot us another one; we may have forgotten!

DNI:

Bigot (racist, trans/homophobe, antisemite, etc)

Porn/NSFW/kink blog

Ana/mia/ED blog

Anti-BLM, “all lives matter” supporter

TERF/”gender critical”/radfem, anti-neopronoun/xenogender

Pro-ship/”anti-anti”/think fiction doesn’t affect reality, support incest/unhealthy ages gaps/etc. or are neutral on the matter

Harry Potter/Hetalia/Attack on Titan/Vivziepop fans/supporters

DSMP/jschlatt/related fans/supporters

[NO]MAP aka pedophile

Endo/tulpa/non-traumagenic system or supporter

Support/believe in the idea of “narcissistic abuse”

We will block people at our own discretion, and no we do not owe you an explanation.

This DNI may be subject to change whenever. If you’re curious about why something is on the list, or need clarification, feel free to ask.

This blog used to be very syscourse-heavy, but we are stepping away from posting that content. Still, it may appear occasionally as educational posts. If you need that (or anything else) tagged, please let us know.

[one-voice-of-many]

Idk maybe that's why

[havingcompassion-deactivated202]

If you see me looking zoned out it’s cuz im having a therapy session with myself in my head

[zeros-sys]

as a system of colour, I just want to set stuff straight about alter race.

alters can have different skin colours to the body, but that does not make them a different race than the body. skin colour is just part of someone's appearance while race has multiple factors to it such as culture.

being a poc is an experience that only someone who is bodily a poc will understand, hence why "alter race" is just impossible.

it's like how an adult alter in a minor bodied system will not have the same mentality as an actual adult since the brain only has the experience of a minor to base that alter off of.

also I know that I've been focusing on poc, but this applies to any race

[69constellationsinatrenchcoat-d]

My brain at six years old when something traumatic happened

[tarnished-angelcoric]

the funniest thing about being a system is

[syspunk-safe-zone]

"You wouldn't split from that" <- You don't know me, you don't know what my threshold is, you don't know what my support system is, you don't know what my current environment is, you don't know what my past history is, you don't know me.

"I split because I temporarily lost my favourite blanket."

"I split because I temporarily lost my most treasured possession that brought me comfort, safety, and security while in a violent and unstable environment with no support system and where theft and destruction of property were very reoccurring and severe issues."

Both sentences are just as valid. You don't owe anyone context, an explanation, or more information if you don't want to. Triggers, stress, and trauma are all subjective in how they affect people. Everybody handles things differently, everybody has different situations, has different histories, has different experiences.

[tarnished-angelcoric]

As a fellow working adult system, can I ask about what kind of job you have? We're finding it extremely difficult to agree on any kind of job and actually just turned in our 2 weeks at the current one because several alters are deeply unhappy with it. I feel like none of us can agree on what we want, especially long term career stuff. How did you find your work? Is it fulfilling enough for everyone? If someone doesn't like it, how do you manage to cope with that?

Sorry for all the questions, just been very stressful job hunting when no one likes anything and I was wondering if you had any advice/ your experience with it.

-In Calus

no thats so real. honestly, finding work,, really sucks jdbsjdbjd its definitely not easy. we're in a position where we kind of Have to work to support ourselves, theres really not any way around it. ill try and answer all of your questions in order.

so we work in retail at a mall, which is. a monster all of its own, but its what we have. we've had other jobs too: food service (dont recommend, sucks ass), food delivery (stuck with this for 2 yrs and honestly wouldve stayed longer if we hadnt moved, this one was actually pretty okay), and at an animal shelter (had to leave bc we're physically disabled also and the work put too much strain on the body, but otherwise really liked it, work was pretty solo so socializing wasnt an issue). honestly id say retail isnt an Ideal job for a system unless youre relatively under control, it can certainly go haywire. only reason we have this job is bc we had just moved and were Desperate for work, applied to a billion places and took the first one that got back to us lol. *i* personally dont mind it. we dont all share the same opinions about it, but we are mostly in agreement that you gotta do what you gotta do, yknow? this probably isnt a lifetime career for us, but itll hold us until we can find one.

our system is a little bit tricky in the fact that im the one whos fronting the majority of the time, and so for the most part, the bodys life is "my" life. almost everybody else really only fronts on occasion, and so i tend to take the lead on bodily decisions. i dont want to call it "my" life, but when it comes to things like that (especially work), thats kind of how it is yknow? and since im almost always fronting, i tend to be the one that deals with work unless its a rare occasion where im triggered enough to be pulled from front.

i wouldnt say that our job is fulfilling to everyone, i dont think? there are certainly those of us who dont like it, especially the social aspect. those parts tend to not front during work, unless something goes awry and they Need to be pulled forward – though, we've been in therapy long enough that those of us who Dont mind working can handle it okay.

its really just a thing of. we Cannot move back in with family, thats Not an option. and unfortunately, in order to Not move back in with family, we Have to work. we dont really have any other viable options. so none of us really Love our job, but we do what we have to in order to survive. n so even the parts that Hate work will do it if they have to. a lot of it just comes down to us being realistic with ourselves and knowing that we have to do things we dont like sometimes in order to make ends meet. n obviously our situation is different from some peoples in the sense that i as the host am almost always fronting and rarely leave front, so mostly everybody else doesnt have to worry too much about work because i can usually handle it.

finding a proper Lifelong Career has always been harder for us, n we tend to hop around between things quite a bit. its again a thing where its Mostly up to me, because ill be the main one dealing with it, but its still hard to come to a consensus that everyone will like. we still havent found that answer, truthfully. we liked helping at the shelter, bc it was pretty solitary work and didnt require a lot of socializing, but unfortunately it doesnt seem to be a good option with the direction our physical health is going.

i wish i could say that it was easy, i wish i could give you the magic puzzle piece to solve the problem. but for us it really is just a matter of Life Sucks But You Do What You Gotta, and that will have to do until we can find something better. i wish you guys the best of luck with finding something that works for you, and you can always talk to us if you have any questions or need anything <3

other working systems feel free to weigh in if you have anything to offer!

[shitbl0gger]

[fairie-angel-deactivated2024080]

Me, age 6, playing with my imaginary friends (they can take over my body and I don’t remember it)

[lorelei-system]

It’s interesting how there are at least 2 types of “I don’t remember that.”

1. Not remembering until the memory gets triggered/ you are confronted with evidence, and then you do remember.

2. Absolutely no evidence will bring back the memory. The memory does not exist anymore. That wasn’t me. Nope. Didn’t happen.

And then there’s “I have been told about this, and while I do not remember it, I know that it is factually correct. How do I know? I don’t know.”

I don’t even know what my point is, it’s just interesting to think about. Memories are weird, dissociation is weird. The way the highly traumatized young mind deals with memories is weird.

[companionplanting]

host as a kid: Oh man, it's really easy for me to slip into character and become a whole different person! I even get lost in the character and truly believe I'm them. I even lose track of how long I've been pretending to be a character. This must mean I'm a gonna be a great actor when I grow up :)

host as an adult: why can't i remember my childhood

[three-in-one]

Actually, I need people to understand that we have amnesia. Not the full mind wipe amnesia that people often think of when they hear the word. We are going to forget things easily and often. No, I won't always be able to tell when or if something happened. No, I won't always remember what I've already done or what I'm supposed to do. No, I won't always remember that one memory from 5 years ago. WE HAVE FUCKING AMNESIA

[cccat-in-a-meat-sack]

”I want to know your headcount” “I want to know who’s fronting” so do I, get in line

[one-voice-of-many]

Idk maybe that's why

[oursystemblog]

ALAS

[npdtea]