You, Me, and DID

No one in my real life knows about my DID and I needed an outlet, so here we are. Body is in early 20’s, asks and anons welcome<3

[quotemadness]

“We don’t create a fantasy world to escape reality, we create it to be able to stay.”

— Lynda Barry (via quotemadness)

[mosaic-system]

[id there is a city with a sunset in the background on one fourth of the picture. The other part of the image in white on a purple background reads “this user has known their a system longer than they’ve been publicly” end id]

💜Welcome to our safe space💜

We’re glad to have you here

🤎❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🖤

Tagging system

Please read description carrd (Out of order) for DNI, alter intros, and a lil about us!

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Please ask us about:

- Psychology (we’re in the process of becoming a licensed psychologist!)

- Videogames (we like horror, adventure, and rpg games) (Current Fav: Overwatch, Roots of Pacha)

-Movies (Current fav is Hush)

- Anime (Current fav is Jujutsu Kaisen)

-Art (we love creating acrylic and digital art)

[fandom-trash-goblin]

we've got a life to love living.

[teaboot]

advice that has literally saved and improved my life

[kunosoura]

I think it’s normal for people to be mad at each other sometimes even if they’re close friends or family or intimate with each other. Like I think that’s a normal and healthy part of relationships that can happen sometimes

[kunosoura]

“Why were you on Mad At Me island” because at the time I was mad at you and yet our friendship has weathered that without trouble

[tiredragedemon]

I went to Mad At You island because my feelings are my problem. I needed to stomp down the beach until I could sit and watch the sunrise. I built a sandcastle and did some thinking. Then I boarded the good ship You Matter To Me and sailed it all the way to meet you on the Let’s Talk Shore of I Love You Island.

[ruhaniya]

when i‘m trying to go to sleep but then i remember and remember and remember and remember

[theory-and-deactivated20251216]

I mean, blame me being new to Tumblr, but I've been seeing some really weird takes on this website, so just a few reminders:

DID used to be called MPD. The change was officialized in the DSM-IV in 1994 and in the ICD-11 way back in the ancient year of... 2022. So yes, some modern research on DID is going to call it MPD.

Authors do not update the terminology in all of their papers when the officially used terminology changes

Some of the only research we have about certain phenomena (such as "fictives" or epochal division/system resets) is in older papers that refer to the disorder as MPD

MPD is not an offensive term, just not very good at describing the experience

In fact, MPD was renamed to DID because "multiple personality disorder" is how the disorder presents itself externally but not how it should be treated. "...it is a disorder characterized by the presence of two or more identities or personality states that recurrently take control of the individual's behavior accompanied by an inability to remember important personal information ... it is a disorder characterized by identity fragmentation rather than a proliferation of separate personalities" [24]:529 of the DSM-IV (italics/color mine)

Psychosis and delusions are legitimate mental conditions that do not make you a worse person or an untrustworthy person, and if you are think that having delusions makes you an inherently worse person, then you have some unaddressed ableism to work on

Fictives are not inherently delusional, but without source separation, you can put yourself into delusion, which makes your symptoms harder to treat

Final fusion is not the only means of recovery, but functional multiplicity also requires source separation and acknowledgment that you are one person with many different dissociative states

Yes, your experiences are valid; however, the validity of an experience does not justify your choices of how to deal with that experience

Offended by my take on recovery? Feel free to block me!

[lustcannibalism]

they should invent a way for me to do tasks without the mind torture

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

good luck to anyone who struggles around the holidays. sending some love.

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

still true in 2025. much love, 2018 me.

[teaboot]

I’m relatively new to the concept of plurality and headmates and systems but I think I might have thought of something funny and if it is okay I would like to share it. Would anyone in the community be willing to peer review

[teaboot]

[mosaic-system]

No you right 😅

I love the other joke of labeling ourselves, because DID is borne out of trauma,

A nervous system

*ba dum tsssh*

[slfcare]

reasons people might be looking at you in public (that aren’t negative)

they like what you’re wearing.

you look like someone they know.

they recognize a piece of clothing or accessory you’re wearing.

they think you’re beautiful or attractive.

they’re not actually looking at you; they’re completely zoned out.

they're bored and people-watching.

they recognize you from somewhere.

they’re hesitating to ask you something or give you a compliment.

they’ve seen you in that same place before.

you caught their eye.

you look like how they imagined a fictional character to look.

you’re actively reminding them of something completely unrelated and they’re thinking about it.

they’re admiring one of your visual qualities (smile, stance, hairstyle).

[creatures-of-the-abyss]

System Accountability is Mandatory

The point of system accountability isn't that you have to apologize for things you didn't do, the point is that if you can't make amends for someone you can't separate yourself from, then people will separate themselves from you as a whole. If one headmate is a jerk and no one in the system acknowledges it or doesn't take responsibility for it, then the system as a whole is a jerk. Think of it like a family. If your brother is an asshole to me and you can't even acknowledge that it sucks or present solutions as to how to limit your brother being an asshole to me, then I'm not going near your family including you.

[reimeichan]

Switching doesn't typically feel like I'm being taken over or whatever. Usually it's a subtle thing, like a slight energy shift, or a mood change, or even something I'm not at all aware of internally but I noticed my posture change or my facial muscles adjust. I once described it to my partner as being like my mindset changed, except with the change it felt like I struggled to understand or connect with what I was thinking or feeling or doing or saying previously. Sometimes it even feels like I'm putting on a character when I switch, as if I'm acting in a play, or maybe even I'm just having to put on something akin to "customer service voice". Or like, maybe I still feel exactly the same internally but I can tell that outwardly I'm acting differently somehow. I've experienced both what I call external switching, where I am outwardly acting and/or speaking differently, and internal switching, where how I'm thinking and feeling are different, and sometimes I may have externally switched without the internal switch or vice-versa. Switching for me doesn't always present the same way and trying to describe something so intangible and abstract is difficult. I wish it was easier for me to explain my experiences to the people around me so that they can better understand what I'm going through and maybe even relate to what I'm saying, and... idk, maybe show that DID isn't all that scary? Or maybe I'm hoping if I'm able to explain my experiences better then maybe others may have a better understanding of what they're going through as well? Something along those lines I guess.

[mosaic-system]

A lot of lower dissociative barrier switches feel like this to us! Especially the customer service voice and especially if the switch was not complete

[iapislazuli]

idk what traumatized or mentally ill person needs to hear this but dreams (especially the really disturbing ones you dont want to talk about to anybody) arent some deep peek into your psyche or a sign of your True Desires or whatever theyre quite literally your brain making fruit salad with whatever it can find on the shelf. just putting all that shit in a blender and hitting obliterate. its fine, youre fine, youre not a weirdo for it

[leafsea]

[theweirdwideweb]

[rimonoroni2]

unfortunately very true. Doing Better does not always mean never being upset or never being triggered or never having trouble. often Doing Better means experiencing those things and being able to keep going/cope healthily/move on. if you’re in a bubble with no sensation, if you’re numbing yourself out, that’s not what recovering really is. it won’t help you have a happier life it’ll just make your world smaller and smaller until you can’t fit anywhere anymore. gotta learn to make peace with the hard stuff too, that’s the only way to keep going

[rockergiirl]

*getting a tarot reading* the tower, a-another tower, and... a plane

[patricia-taxxon]

ive found that partially treated mental illness can sometimes look to uninvolved onlookers like faked mental illness.

[patricia-taxxon]

"someone who really has pOCD would be disgusted and horrified at their intrusive thoughts" or maybe i'm in therapy & am going by the books, being radically ambivalent to my intrusive thoughts instead of wasting energy mentally washing my paws of sin. i'm not going to perform my rock bottom for you for the sake of being believed.

[patricia-taxxon]

also like... something something, being afraid of healing because you're afraid of letting go of the stability of misery, letting go of the narrative you made up to feel worthy of attention, letting go of your "sympathy cred," this narrative has probably killed a few ppl.

[cheeseanonioncrisps]

Generally if you find yourself demanding to know why strangers aren't living more miserable lives, you're probably in the wrong.

[vaspider]

"I'm not going to perform my rock bottom for you for the sake of being believed."

Holy fuck. Tattoo that one on your bones.

That's good.

[loveyourlovelysoul]

What you call self-sabotage might just be your body saying: "Familiar pain feels safer than unfamiliar peace"

What you call procrastination might just be your body saying: "I'm overwhelmed and everything feels too much"

What you call anxiety might just be your body saying: "I've been in danger before, and I don't know if it's over yet"

What you call neediness might just be your body saying: "I didn't get what I needed, and I'm still longing"

What you call overreacting might just be your body saying: "This feels like danger to me because it once was"

What you call emotional instability might just be your body saying: "I was never taught that feeling emotions could be safe"

What you call resistance might just be your body saying: "I don't feel safe enough to do what you want me to"

What you call laziness might just be your body saying: "I'm frozen because I had to work hard for too long"*

What you call numbness might just be your body saying: "I had to shut down to keep you safe"

What you call avoidance might just be your body saying: "Im not ready to face this yet. I need slower exposure to it"

(the.trauma.educator on ig)

*gentle reminder that body gets tired also after doing mentally draining work/job (which includes feeling stressed too, not just studying or working 9-5 in front of a computer -which holds responsabilities, anyway)