Tayas thoughts

Taya. Ironically panexueal. Musician. Gemini. Analysing everything.

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Remember, that all your anger pass. So what is the point of keeping it every time?

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My addictions beside smoking

1. Water 2. Air 3. Food, especially waffles and potatoes 4. Weekly Shameless episodes 5. Long and a little bit awkward convos with right people 6. People in general 7. Sleep 8. Music!!!! 9. Work process. Like ooooh my god, smoking not the only weakness that controls me. You see theese things are my choise. JUST.AS.FUCKING.SMOKING. 

like why is this even bothering y’all

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Want you back..

I feel like you grew faster that me. I feel like at the moment you are older and smarter than me. Does that mean that i am not worth you? Earlier i thought you were “not enough” for me, but ichanged my mind. And i want you back. I think you are beautiful, and i still think you are extreamly smart and interesting person. You know what the funny thing is? You don’t need me. Ha-ha, what a funny thing

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Yay lesbian dreams. Well.. kinda

I had a dream in which i was a man, or just a man-ish girl. I don't remember much of a story, but in the end we were at a mass joga class, where i layed next to a very innocent young girl. And i started kissing her. Not like the descent mini-lip-to-lip kiss, i was kissing her neck gently and then kissed her on her lips. She enjoyed it, for sure. And now i am sad af, because i am a really awkward bisexual, who does not knows how to find people, that want to date. That's the whole another story. About that kiss. I don't know, i just love kissing, so it is pretty much like mocking dream, bcs i know, i aint got noone in real life.

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What is happening

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Some time ago i thought i would be better without you, but i realised my mistake. I miss you so much, but at the same time i can't forgive you. You probably don't think about me. Fuck.. i love you. I want you in my life. I want to hug you, kiss you, cry with you. I want to feel you. Thats it - I don't want to think. I want to feel. Sad.

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reblog if you're a lesbian who loves & supports bi girls or a bi girl who loves & supports lesbians

a lot of people try to pit us against each other, let’s show our solidarity!

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Usually teenagers have such a problem as lowered self esteem. Now imagine how terrible it is to have too high self esteem. It's not nice at all, trusts me, i know. Also why is lowered self esteem more acceptable and ever more romanticized that the high one?¿ Aj vont tu anderstend zis bat aj cent.

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Yay flue fashion

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Update

Feeling when you start studying in new school is like whring first word on a new white page. You feel the need to make it perfectly, but you fuck up eventually.

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“Family gatherings” aka “90% of the people here are racist”

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”..and homophobic”

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“and sexist”

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“and claim to be none of these things”

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“they’re just joking”

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“you’re just going through a phase”

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“you’ll get used to it”

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“so do you have a boyfriend yet?“ 

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“Where’s your girlfriend? I though you were a ladies man?”

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K pop

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Update: pink hair, that was supposed to be purple, but who cares. I'm rebel, that disappoints people anyway.

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I'm pansexual

And there is nothing you can do about it

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Literally sorry not sorry

I’m sorry, but also am I am not. Maybe i wasn’t patient, but you challanged me without even realising it. Maybe my jokes were mean sometimes, but i never left you, you were my friend till the end. I said “no. Stop.”, when i felt, that you dont need me, i felt physically how i am annoying you. And after that you said so many bad things about me, like the time we were friends was just nothing. Like you were suffering all this time. But when i ask myself did i ever have a best friend? I think of you. You are the only one, who understood me. So i’m not sorry, but also i am.

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Erotic dreams

In the past month i have had too many romantic/erotic dreams with a friend/ ex crush of mine, who hasnt texted me not even once. Is that ok? Its very sad, to see your dreams coming true, then waking up and realising it was not true and you still are you, just like yesterday and he still doesn't think about you.