I Solens Øjne

27. Atheist. Wanna be philosopher and pseudo-intellectual. Transgender history, language, and philosophy/literature.

[gliklofhameln]

A Jewish Wedding — Jacques Joseph Maquart (1803-1873), French.

[catboybiologist]

Tapping the sign.

[apas-95]

uooooogh the christian God is actually deer skull and raccoon salmon in pickup truck ooooooooooooooo and She (god) (usually refererd to as Male but im Queering it) talked to me in parking lot and said uh h Life Is Decay Anr Rotting and Sunlight is actually the souls of deer skull and i was like woah but im just little old me from somewhere in the contiguous USA and She (god) (Queering it) said being Yourself is th e most important thing and that i should Vote

[ayeforscotland]

“Shame must change sides.”

Gisele Pelicot is one of the bravest and most heroic people alive.

[markadoo]

Personal advertisements in Gay Community News: Highlights from December

[tea-feathers-maat]

So after I made my posts the other day about feeling excluded for being trans, I decided I was being dumb by complaining about it to the Internet instead of.... you know, bringing it up with my friend who was there. So I've deleted the posts, of course, and asked her if I was being crazy.

And she saw the same thing!!! She told me that she'd been bothered at the time because people were actively ignoring me when I spoke, and had tried (and failed for reasons not her fault) to include me more.

I just. I can't express how relieved I am. I felt like I was going crazy; I was so scared I was being just dramatic and stupid.

She actually said it might not have been because I was trans - apparently people in academia are regularly dicks to people who aren't, and she's seen this same group be shitty to a mutual friend of ours who's /also/ not in academia- but tbh, I don't care. That was an /awful/ experience- I was having legitimate flashbacks to when I was being regularly clocked and mistreated for being trans. Like, I can't express how painful it was- I could feel it physically in my body.

Anyway. So I'm not hanging out with that group again, haha. Don't touch hot stoves and all that. Like, if they want to be shitty towards me... I think it's dumb of them, but I feel better about it now I know for sure it's happening. I can handle an honest-to-God bully, I just can't handle being gaslit about it.

... it's kind of funny, because thinking about it, I haven't been as horribly traumatized by being called a tranny or a faggot as I have been by the subtle social exclusion people have enacted against me. I think it's because the former is direct - you know it's happening - and the latter is subtle. It keeps you guessing. It turns the blame back on you; what did you do that these people are pretending like you don't exist? Are you even sure it's happening at all?

Anyway. I'm okay now, I know a little more about my world, and I feel (mostly) safe again. I'm going to work out for a bit and try to shake off the last of the nervous energy in my body.

[saintjosie]

it’s disheartening to see an overwhelming majority of white queer people fail to recognize that the communities they build so closely imitate the structures of oppression they have claimed to leave behind, while loudly proclaiming allyship for people of color.

i’ve been on a ton of different platforms now and even though i interact with a lot of trans people, i’ve noticed that i often find myself othered by trans fem communities. the exclusion is subtle because i am east asian, pretty, and passing. and because i am pretty and passing, i often receive recognition and admiration from other trans fems. and because i am east asian as opposed to someone with black or brown skin, i am often accepted into white circles.

but i am not white. and the subtle exclusion comes from my distaste of jokes that fail to account for privilege, from speaking up when white creators speak over other people of color, from simply having a different perspective

because i am not white. and i have never been.

i’ve lived my entire life being nearly accepted by the white people around me. and the subtle exclusion that has been a staple of my life hasn’t gone away because racism still exists within queer communities.

it’s not enough to be loud about fighting oppression.

you also have to fucking do it.

[tea-feathers-maat]

And then cis people think your refusal to be out and proud about being trans is a sign of low confidence and something to be cured! And it's like, no, actually most cis people- and a number of nonbinary and trans people- are transphobic. Yes, even the liberal ones. Sorry for not wanting to expose myself to that, ig.

[tea-feathers-maat]

Troubling because the emotions I'm feeling are very much against my cognitive philosophy on interpersonal relationships, but... I'm doing my best. What more do you want from this transgender bigot.

[allthegeopolitics]

https://www.commondreams.org/news/gaza-2669142495

!!!

UN Expert Fears 'Almost the Entire Population' of Gaza Exterminated If Israel Not Stopped | Common Dreams

UN expert warns without cease-fire, Israel could exterminate almost entire population in Gaza. Death toll could reach 335,500 by year end. S

[el-shab-hussein]

"If deaths continue at this rate—about 23,000 a month—there would be an additional 149,500 deaths by the end of the year, some six and half months from the initial mid-June estimate. Using the method, the total deaths since the conflict began would be estimated at about 335,500 in total."

[tea-feathers-maat]

I always get cranky, impulse, and easily annoyed when I'm hungry, and I never realize that I've been hungry until I've eaten.

[collapsedsquid]

[kaijuno]

Kamloops, BC

[aorryn47]

When I was a server, I worked with a girl that I'll call Beatrice. She was nice enough, but many of my interactions with her left me scratching my head and thinking, "Surely, you cannot be this clueless?"

I would often help her balance out her cash and tips at the end of the night - a feat for which she thought me a wizard. Our chef loved to mess with her and once convinced her that steak wasn't dairy free because it came from cows.

But really the icing on the cake happened one night when she ran up to me, clearly in distress, and said, "Oh my god. I was thirsty, so I took a drink, but then I swallowed an ice cube! Am I going to be ok?!"

I froze. I blinked. I stared into her eyes that were saucers of fear and concern. "Yes, Beatrice," I said, "Ice cubes are just frozen water. Your body will melt it into water in your stomach."

Her shoulders dropped as she sighed with relief, "Oh thank god. I was so worried I'd have to go to the hospital." She sauntered off with a spring in her step, all earthly anxieties assuaged in that moment.

I stared after her, and then promptly got chided for forgetting to bring bread to a table.

[maedictus]

More drawings of east asian Beren and Lúthien

[princesskuragina]

My last post was being snarky but here's my genuine pronoun etiquette opinion in case you actually want to know: it's pretty much never a good idea to directly ask someone their pronouns in front of a group of people, especially if you're in a position of authority, i.e. a teacher. The stakes of this question are very high for some people and you are putting them on the spot to decide what they want to share and what is safe to share. If you have decided you want to ask for pronouns at all, you can introduce yourself with your own to remind people that they can share theirs if they want to. And for the love of god whatever you do please do not just single out the most gender non-conforming or "trans looking" (to you) person and ask only them and no one else

[argumate]

*Gollum voice* I don’t cook and I don’t clean, let me show you how I got this Ring,