Tea For Your Troubles

Hello i'm Envy and I'm a Guy. Welcome to my transformation journal. last Month 2/19 I came out to family and some friends about being a Trans Man. I wanted a blog to record my journey from the beginning so here it is.

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QUESTION

Any guys out there with PCOS? I have it and growing up it caused me to grow a beard, and hair EVERYWHERE, Because of this I had a very heard childhood. When I came out and even before then, I would see guys excited to be getting facial hair for the first time. I can’t be excited for it, I hate it, I have so much trauma from it that i can’t even think of growing it out.  So my question is, any other guys have a bad relationship with their beards because of PCOS?   

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so this is a thing

a bunch of moms are making letters+audio recordings of affirming, validating letters to queer/trans* people who don’t get that kind of support from their moms

i would say more about it but

im kind of busy in this puddle of tears on the floor so

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In case any of my followers don’t have this kind of support from home…

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my mom did this and if you need an honourary mother i promise she would be happy to talk to you

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Journal Entry #2

So I can’t bind at all. I hurt my shoulders in a wreck a few years ago an, I can’t paint, lift heavy things, or lift my arms above my head anymore. So I can’t slip on a chest binder.  I’ve seen a few posts around saying that if you don’t bind or hide your boobs your not “trans” enough. These people never take in consideration a person's ability to bind or not, and honestly it comes across ableist and classest (some people can’t afford safe binders). I have a huge chest DDs and i can’t bind or do much other than wear a comfortable sports bra, it doesn’t make me any less of a man. I keep seeing so much hate for those who can’t bind and it was making feel just horrible, any other people out there that can’t/don’t bind? How do you ease your dysphoria, or do you not have Dysphoria? or do you know of any binders for people with shoulder injuries? 

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If you are FTM and you can’t bind don’t want to bind you are still valid.

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Journal Entry #1

So I came out... it didn’t go well. Not as bad as some people's experiences seeing as i’m alive and not kicked out of the place i’m staying. But It wasn’t a GOOD experience. My mom is pretty cool and chill, at least I thought she was. A a family friend came out a few years ago and mom calls him and checks in with him and he helps her with computer stuff, never once having a problem with him being trans.  She was fine with that, so was my dad. Then I made a post because even now talking about it outloud scares me. Mom sees it and we talk. Now my parents are older and my dad a LOT older than my mom, hes 89, and they both live in Arkansas while I live in California. I honestly thought it wouldn’t be a big deal to them... I was wrong.  Mom tells me, that I’m not allowed to tell my dad, he is not to know, and if I want to transition then I need to wait until he dies. Yeah your read right, I have to wait to transition until he dies, and if I do transition, not to come back to the house, because it would upset him. Now my dad’s health isn’t all that good, but I don’t want to wait to be me. It takes years to transition, and I already feel like i’ve wasted my life hiding and figuring shit out. So no I’m not going to wait. It hurts knowing I may never see my dad again before he passes away, and no I can’t just tell him over the phone because he’s deaf and can’t hear so I need mom to tell him things I say.... and she wont. I don’t know if my dad would handle it well, I think a few years ago he would have, but now? I don’t know, he has early alzheimer's, he still knows us and has most of his memories but hes just not the same, maybe that's why mom doesn’t want me to transition... but my dad is still lucid enough to drive and work out in his wood shop. I don’t know if shes IS worried about my dad or if she is the one with the problem, I don’t know. Its just a shitty situation. Maybe I should wait, but i'm tired of putting my life on hold for others. 

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before you leave your house. ftm checklist.

- Can you breathe in your binder?

- Do you have a sports bra with you for the emergency?

- Phone charger?

- Water?

- Lunch (school/work)

- Money?

- ID?

and now something special.

you look so handsome today. i am honored to walk the same earth with such an attractive young man. i hope you have a good day.