evermore

romanticising simple life aurora, she/her

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the girl who’s always in local bookstore ☀︎︎

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“ wish i could turn you back into a stranger “

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she’s all the time at the cafe during summer

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friendships.

More recently i’ve had a lot of thoughts about friendships. About my current ones, about what i’m looking for in friendships, how i can be a better in those relations and when things are bad for me. And it’s crazy how complicated friendships actually are.

I think that in order to have a great friends you kinda need to become your own friend first. Like you need to be sort of independent and not bored on your own. Just know how to enjoy time alone so you can keep hearing balance in your future friendships.

So the first step is working on yourself and analyse a little bit your old friendships. Like why thing went the way they did and what behaviours you liked or disliked. And also how you behaved and notice your mistakes. You kinda need time for yourself and just do a thinking process. And this is really uncomfortable and maybe a little bit painful, but you need to get through a hard part of it.

After that you kinda need to think about what your want. Like how do you want it to be. What are you looking for. For example: you might come to conclusion that you want someone whose really independent, so you bought have your own life but still support each other.

And now how to find right people. You can’t predict that. Like you might find them in your everyday environment or maybe it’s the random person you’ll meet in a coffee shop. No one knows that.

But also not every friendship you have need to be this deep life long relation. Like you can become a friends with a employee from a place you’re often at. You can have a quick but still nice conversations with them, but outside this place you have your own life. And those friendships are important too.

“ sharing beds like the little kids. and laughing ‘til our ribs get tough “

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“ out on the main streets. completing your mission “

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memory loss.

Memory loss is the weirdest thing my trauma has caused. I don’t know how and when it happened. Why i just forget it? Why is everything blurry? I don’t have any specific memory from my childhood at all. And if i somehow remember sth how do i know it’s real? how do i know it’s not my imagination.

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people who has similar music taste but it’s not exactly the same so you share songs that non of you would listen otherwise >>>

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𓂀 she only cares art and her closest friends 𓂀

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☘︎︎ good habits to include in your life ☘︎︎

— reading

— organising your time

— exercising, going on walks etc.

— journaling

— eating healthier

— keeping your place clean and fresh

— limiting time you spend on your phone

— taking time for self care

— listening/watching things that will help you grow as a person or educate you in new topics (podcasts etc)

— letting yourself has days only for you and just relax

— not doing work in your bed

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Codependency.

Codependency is probably one of the worst thing you can have in a relation with someone. At first it just seems like you’re a perfect duo that it’s always there for other. But when the honeymoon ends it’s becoming exhausting. You too scared to say sth wrong, you can’t make decisions for yourself and you can’t live without them. With time you become more and more exhausted and miserable and after that you lose yourself

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“ and sometimes in the pouring rain, he’ll fall in the mud and get up again. “

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Alone.

I think that most people don’t really see difference between being alone and being lonely. Like those thing are associated with isolation and has negative connotations. They are not necessarily wrong and i see what they mean. But they aren’t right too.

Being alone isn’t a bad things at all. I believe that in order to being able to have stable relations in your life you need to know how to function when u’re completely alone. And in order to have that skill you need to spend time alone, maybe even lonely. It’s extremely hard process and it’s just straight up hurtful. You have too much time to think about yourself and your whole life. You start overanalyse everything you ever did and it hurts. But this is when you grow. You start to see your mistakes and you know how to avoid making them again. And after you take everything you could, you come to these beautiful peace in your head. Next step is to use those things you learn in your future. And it’s not like you need to be completely lonely during process of thinking. But you need this one moment in which you only have closest people next to you. People who helps you grow. I don’t want to romanticise this process because there is nothing pretty about it. It’s like a hurricane, but the peace after it is one of the best thing you can experience.

i was thinking about it a lot recently and decided to share part of my thoughts about this topic :)

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♫ i’m doing good, i’m on some new shit ♫

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how to improve your life and become the “it girl” ♥︎

— focus on taking care of mind instead of blindly trying to be “aesthetic”

— stop staying on your phone all time

— do small workouts 3-4 times in a week. examples: meditation, scratching, yoga

— chose healthier options in your everyday meals, but treat yourself once in a while

— experience small adventures by yourself

— find small hobbies that helps you clear your mind. examples: drawing, reading, journaling

— plan your days

— let yourself has a weak moments. don’t beat yourself up for having worse time. it’s okay to not feel alright all the time!!

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take care of yourself ♡´･ᴗ･`♡