Low volume sitcom at 4am
Insomnia strikes again
I feel you next to me
Whisper sweet nothings to me please
Its all I remember
When you’re gone
Am I asleep yet, dreaming?
I’m not sure
The two seem similar as of late
It feels like yesterday
That we hopped that fence in Carmel
To get in the jacuzzi at 1am
It was so warm, so unlike you
We talked about our fondness of each other
And yet
I forget what you said
In New York I was happy
It wasn’t because of him, I suppose
But if not, why does it hurt so bad
I guess it’s because
He gave me a dream I only imagine at 4am
One with doormen, a townhouse in Tribeca, shopping on 5th Ave
And the stability I crave
I saw my larger than life dream come true
And he left and took that dream with him
But it’s still here, in my mind
It always will be
Until the day it’s no longer a dream
Maybe it wasn’t time, and he wasn’t right
But I wanted it so bad
It was right in front of me, ripped away
Like many other things in my life
Patience isn’t easy
I’m barely figuring that out
I remember how badly I wanted to be 20
When I was only 13
I wanted to have a career and be a grown up
Now all I want is a man that will treat me like I’m 13 forever
Between the laughs on television
And your words in my mind
I try to forget how it was
Any of the could’ve’s or would’ve’s
Or the broken promises
And there I am again
Alone
