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Laura Hollis from Carmilla Written by Annabell

[danviers]

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     Carmilla rolled beneath the sheets, flipped herself messily onto her front so as to cower away from the sunlight peeking through the half drawn drapes that dared to cast a solitary stripe of daylight along her slumbering person. The desire to avoid the invading light was nothing strange to her, no matter how much she’d come to enjoy the warmth of it on her skin as she basked in it.

     Human or not, she supposed she’d never be a morning kind of person, and the sporadic nightmares that had kept her tossing and turning ever since the day her mother had ascended could always attest to the fact.

     “Its disturbing.”

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Ever since leaving Silas, many things had changed. Without either really needing to ask where the other wanted to go, Paris went from being a dreamland to reality in the blink of an eye. Their current place of residence was somewhere Carmilla used to stay (or so the journalist assumed), and even though the ex-vampire called it ‘less than ideal’, Laura begged to differ. Another thing that had changed was her schedule; despite the supernatural chaos that Silas essentially breathed, classes helped to form some kind of pattern: when to wake up, when to be somewhere. Now though, with almost nothing to stop her from sheer laziness, she found herself more than happy to basically follow her girlfriend’s sleeping patterns.

Carmilla, however, (thankfully), had not changed. Not...entirely, at least. Despite all the challenges and obstacles faced with being human, she was still as grumpy and overdramatic as always. Who knew complaining as often as Carm did could become something--dare she say-- cute?

“Downright unsettling.” Laura murmurs with a tired chuckle, barely suppressing a yawn before shifting herself so she could properly see and be amused by her girlfriend’s reaction. As odd as it would probably sound if voiced, she didn’t really mind Carmilla’s complaints. Yes, a good majority of it was eye roll worthy, but it was part of a side that had been buried deep beneath the layers of defense and snark that had been built throughout the centuries. Now, Carm could focus on the important things--like complain about the amount of tourists invading her favorite cafe, for example. 

“If it bothers you that much, I’d advise staying indoors all day-” She paused, a smirk beginning to appear. “-as torturous as that might be.”

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"I never knew daylight could be so violent."

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“–That sounds almost endearing, if not a bit…intimidating.”

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ｆｌｏｒｅｎｃｅ ＆ ｔｈｅ ｍａｃｈｉｎｅ ｓｔａｒｔｅｒｓ

"There is no way out."

"I never wanted anything from you."

"I like to keep to myself, thank you."

"I was dead when I woke up this morning."

"My heart is hollow now."

"They're coming to get you."

"There's a drumming noise inside my head."

"Tell me what you want me to say."

"Leave all your love behind and run."

"There's no light in your eyes."

"I'l be dead before the day is done."

"It's over. And I'm going under."

"It's peaceful in the deep. No need to pray, no need to speak."

"I found the devil in me looking for heaven."

"A kiss with a fist is better than none."

"You are the space in my bed."

"If you're gone, I will not belong here."

"I was just looking for a breath of life."

"I can stay in the dark if you need me to."

"I don't want your money. I don't want your crown. I've come to burn your kingdom down."

"Whose side are you on?"

"Sooner or later, you love the things you lose."

"Would you leave me if I told you what I've done?"

"Never let me go."

"All your love will be exorcised."

"I can hear your heart beat."

"What has been done can not be undone."

"You left me in the dark. What was I supposed to do?"

"I'm damned if I do, and I'm damned if I don't."

"You'll carry it with you if you want to survive.'

"A thousand armies couldn't keep me out."

"The room was so quiet..."

"Things go wrong no matter what I do!"

"You were a falling star, and I caught you."

"You're my head, you're my heart."

"Though the pressure's hard to take, it's the only way I can escape."

"It's hard to dance with the devil on your back."

"You don't have to be afraid anymore."

"They're in my head. They won't shut up."

"I never knew daylight could be so violent."

"What's the point in living?"

"They were there when I woke up this morning."

"I know I can count on you."

"Sometimes I just feel like saying I don't care."

"I'm always in this twilight in the shadow of your heart."

"I started to hear it again.."

"I can't leave the past behind."

"You've got the love I need."

"The dog days are over."

"You can't choose what fades away and what stays."

"Life is just too much."

"I was looking to get a dream of life again."

"I'm not giving up. I'm just giving in."

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[exsanguisdraconis]

anamorphosis-and-isolate:

Albert Camus from The Rebel

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I really miss ya’ll on here. I miss Laur. I wish I could actually get back on here for longer than a day, but my depression’s been hitting me pretty hard lately. I know that’s not an excuse. I don’t even have one. And saying “I’m sorry” does nothing and I’m tired of being sorry all the time. 

I’ll be back soon. I hope. 

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      There hadn’t been a lot of time to acclimatise to the new realms of human existence, in comparison to the time Carmilla had spent living her life in shadow and bloody footprints and mystery.

     She’d had her fill of food – real, wonderful food that did more than simply cleanse her palate after a hearty bag of O Neg, or something equally as enticing. She’d even tried to rise in the mornings like any human being would, but it had proven difficult, and no amount of revitalising mortality could change any former vampire’s longing for luxury and relaxation.

    Carmilla gave a long sigh, an accompanying shrug. “Netflix does have a certain appeal. You know, getting used to wielding human strength and breathing again is kind of tiring…”

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Out of all of the changes that had occurred within a short period, Carmilla’s mortality pretty much took the whole cake. Seeing how the ex-vampire reacted to seemingly small things--the shift in temperature, the taste of certain food--reminded Laura that no matter how different things might be for herself, it was nothing compared to Carm’s change. 

“You know that excuse won’t last for too much longer, right?” She jokes, leaning in and kissing her softly. Embracing her adorably human girlfriend at the waist, digits playfully danced at her lower back. “Netflix it is, ma chéri.”

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@theuselesscarmilla

Sun, sand, and Carmilla. That was the plan for today--now she just had to tell her girlfriend. Who was totally going to agree wholeheartedly that spending an entire day out in the sun with dozens of other people (rowdy kids included) that it could be called a ‘good idea’.

“Sooooo?” She asks in an annoyingly chipper voice. “Whaddya say--beach day? Or another Netflix binge watch day?” ‘Cause really both options sound equally appealing; Carmilla would be involved. 

Put a 👍 in my ask if you like how I play my muse

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     The last vestiges of the bitterest of wrath Carmilla had felt seemed to fade away with Laura’s explanation, or idea, or whatever it was, displaced at the souring mention of Vordenberg. The facts were all there, though; the library was sentient ( perhaps even empathetic, as morbid as the thought was ), and it had played it’s own metaphorical hand in some way or another, and most importantly, Laura was alive. Good. Then perhaps her plans for a monolithic book burning were off the cards.

     But there was something else that made the vampire bristle, that disturbed her. Alternate dimensions carried boundless possibilities in theory, countless dangers, especially ( in her own singular,  linear experience of time ) where Vordenbergs were concerned. Carmilla let Laura go, long enough to watch her attempt to scrub rust red blood from the palm of her hand, but refused to move away.

     “That’s where you were? What do you mean, darker? Laura —— are you sure you’re fine? God, if he even came anywhere near you…”

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Laura wasn’t a fan of lying. Even if she could lie (which was questionable even for herself), there’s no way she could go through with it without feeling terrible afterwards (or before she’d even finished it). 

That’s why she continued to scrub and press into her palm, focusing too much on the coagulated bits that just didn’t want to come off. Of course Carmilla had questions. And Laura had answers. But in order to successfully cross that bridge, she’d have to tell her the...minor change in that ‘verse. 

“--What? No, no. God no, Carm. I didn’t even see him.” She shook her head slowly, gaze flickering between the floor and the concerned vampire. 

“When I say darker, I mean...like, seeing my own picture in the Silas obituary. That wasn’t the worst part though. I mean...how bad could it be, me not being around, right?” She asks that in a mocking tone. Letting out a slow exhale, she tosses the cloth aside, hands immediately finding comfort in her girlfriend’s grasp. “Well...there, everyone had just...given up. There was no hope, nobody fighting to stop the Dean from opening the Gates. And you...” She pauses, gauging the vampire’s reaction from what she said so far. Talking about all this wasn’t going to cause some sort of time-space distortion, but it could still bring a lot of old wounds up for Carm. 

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(in)Corporeal

@carmillaseries this little webseries has inspired me to do so much over the last few years. Here’s to a fantastic finale

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[tarajaws]

inktober day 20, hollstein

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Gonna hold off on replies for now to watch some Firefly and eat something. When I come back, I’ll work on those starters!

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