Terrified Heart

one thing about me? i'm leaving my margin notes in the tags.

[farahhaboub]

$550 is still missing… if only 22 people donate $25 each, we can finally save my sister and get her the treatment she desperately needs. My sister has now gone 4 days without her medication while she is still in intensive care, and her condition is getting worse instead of improving after the surgery. Please, we are begging you not to leave her alone in this condition.💔

Every hour without treatment is terrifying us. We already fought so hard just to get her through surgery, and now we are scared of losing her because we cannot afford the medicine she urgently needs. The donations are very few, and people keep ignoring our cries while my sister suffers in pain in the ICU.😔💔

I am exhausted from begging every single day, but I cannot stop because my sister’s life depends on it. Please, even a small donation can make a huge difference for her right now. If 22 kind people donate only $25, we can reach the amount needed and help my sister continue fighting to survive.🙏😔💔

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[voiceofaboud]

THIS IS AN UNBEARABLY BRUTAL DAY FOR GAZA.

[voiceofaboud]

[voiceofaboud]

There is heavy bombing near the camp where my family is living. Sadly, I am in the hospital, far away from my little siblings.

[voiceofaboud]

All I want is to get them somewhere safe. Please skip your coffee today and leave a donation. Please don’t give up on us.

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[creamsiclemelt]

i was gonna ask you...

[v4mpgrrl]

my vampire show...... the futility of it all ;-; i have to be very careful whom i let in with armand sat inside. grace telling louis not to let it inside after lestat has spent pauls entirely funeral forcing himself inside of louis -> armand chiding louis for keeping the door of his apartment unlocked as he lets himself in -> armand faux coy at being invited inside when sexual placation was louis' only option for armand not to kill him and claudia. its all sooooo futile. THE VAMPIRE IS IN THE HOUSE!!!!!!!!!! and the concept of consensual admittance is a myth so is any distinguishable boundary btwn home (which cannot function as refuge) and not-home. the role of each originary space is to prime louis for extra-familial abuse: the dpdls as representative of the 'hat[s he] is forced to wear' pushing him into lestat's arms and lestat's failures as his vampiric father priming him for armand's predation.

[v4mpgrrl]

Yeah basically

[lesbianlandry]

shane hollander as kermit the frog

[himejoshevik]

this post positing that shane and ilya's relationship frustrates people bc it's difficult to assign heteronormative roles to them bc of their neck and neck rivalry is interesting to me but i don't think it's ultimately true! bc there is simply never ever a question of who is more masculine Especially among hockey players. Who's more masc the guy all over tmz since day one with beautiful women on his arm or the guy who only eats brown rice and salmon? Dont make me laugh.

[himejoshevik]

Like shane is in an environment so fiercely and precariously masculine that it's gay as fuck to eat tofu. And he's telling hayden don't call women chicks. the second they are out of the closet as a couple it's not a question. which is part of why the prospect of coming out is so destabilizing for shane in a way that it isn't for ilya. there's no more plausible deniability for him; it's confirmation of what people already say behind closed doors: that he fundamentally, despite a life time of effort, does not live up to the standards of masculinity that surround him. standards that are 10000x exacerbated by being racialized bc the stakes are that much higher; it's not just his prowess/masculinity but that of all asian men since he's been designated representative. saw trap!

[himejoshevik]

Actually i’m saying kind of the exact opposite of this. In-universe everyone esp everyone in the homophobic professional sports world would not only ask the question (who’s the man? meaning: who tops) but instantly be able to answer it, and they would be able to answer it correctly!!! And that seriously impacts the plot and how shane views himself ! THAT is actually the operative tension of heated rivalry!! that’s why it’s so significant that sex/penetration is such a widely used metaphor for winning and losing! we can’t just set these things aside for a fantasy where coming out magically exempts you from living in a patriarchal world. this is the meat of the story

[himejoshevik]

Also i think the original post is no longer up but it also suggested that kip and scott are more palatable to straight people bc the clear and extreme differential in economic status (millionaire hockey player / regular guy) is easy to gender and therefore palatable to straight people but i don’t think that’s true either. i recall someone saying that the dudebro hockey podcasters were thrilled to find out gay couples could switch roles lol and they’re certainly. CERTAINLY. more palatable to the millennial white gym gays they represent And also every day on here heated rivalry fandom makes clear how uncomfortable and unrealistic and even potentially morally degrading they find fixed preferences and D/s dynamics like in the collective imagination shane constantly has to atone for the sin of being asian and submissive by being sufficiently masc and “walking ilya like a dog” and ilya has to atone for the sin of dominance by being secretly submissive deep down

[hazemsuhail]

​Please don't scroll past. This is my brother, Samer. He’s fighting a critical illness, and the treatment that could save his life is completely out of our reach. We are running out of time. Reblogging costs nothing, but it could literally save his life today. Please be his miracle. 💔 DONATION

[hazemsuhail]

I know everyone is busy scrolling.

But behind this post is a real family and a brother named Samer who urgently needs treatment.

[hazemsuhail]

My brother Samer's time is running out. We can't afford the treatment he needs to stay alive.

Please do something. 🙏

[hazemsuhail]

One share could reach the right person.

One donation could save my brother Samer.

[madamepestilence]

gazavetters #75

[fundraisersharer]

! Please share and help hazem! !

[distantvoices]

Myha'la by Lian Benoit for Them Magazine February 2026. Styled Dione Davis.

[northgazaupdates]

Rest peacefully, little Omar

It is with a broken heart that we have to share the worst news imaginable with the NGU community. This weekend, the IOF bombed the neighborhood of Yahya Al-Habil and his family. Little Omar, Yahya’s 7-year-old brother who we have mentioned often, was martyred.

Both of Yahya’s brothers Khalil and Mohammed were being treated in different departments for the severe injuries they sustained from this attack, and did not get the chance to say goodbye to Omar. Their wounds were devastating, and both remain in very poor condition.

They now require ongoing, very expensive medical care, the sum of which for both their treatments is $10,000 usd. Donations have become stagnant and their situation is extremely desperate. Please help them survive and try to rebuild their lives.

Current: $8,012 of $15,480 usd—updated 28 Feb

Need to raise: $7,468 usd

Help Khalils family get a better life

Hello, my name is Khalil, I'm 19 years old, from Gaza.

Previous updates are available here; vetting information in the last reblog; Khalil encourages anyone with questions to contact him on WhatsApp at [phone] for more information

[northgazaupdates]

NEW URGENT TEMPORARY GOAL

Shrapnel damage from the bombardment that killed his baby brother caused injuries to Khalil's liver and kidneys. The untreated damage has progressed to the point that they are losing their ability to function. He urgently needs 3 rounds of treatment to combat the effects of his deteriorating liver and kidneys’

These organs perform vital functions in the body. The body cannot function without them. If Khalil does not receive emergency intervention soon, he will die!

The first round is $1000 usd—let’s get this round paid for so we can get Khalil the help he needs!!!

Current: $8,024 out of $9,012 usd (2 March)

Need to raise: $988 usd

[snoopyoftheday]

snoopy of the day

[greedydemands]

the way ppl talk about shane and ilya's sex life on here is unbearable like i don't understand the need to sublimate all of ilya's desires under shane's when that's not even what either of them are attracted to. ilya isn't sitting around waiting for shane to tell him what to do or come up with crazy unbelievable kinks like spanking that somehow shock ilya. i understand that most people in fandom are women or afab and there is no denying that penetration can be a touchy or scary or violent thing for a lot of us like same but at a certain point you really do just need to contend w these hang ups about penetration and domination if you're going to engage this much with anal sex, and you have to be able to separate yourself from these sexual fictions. if you can't, which is fine, then find texts that don't require you to deal with a dominating penetrating man instead of this endless cycle of always erasing any individual or fulfilling sexual desire for canonically staunch tops. it's the same pattern every time where you guys talk about dom tops as if this is a carnal sin they need to atone for by making them little more than sentient dildos or sex robots with no sexual desire that the canonically staunch bottom doesn't encode onto them. it's boring! and it shows up everywhere. the walk him like a dog edit was cute and funny, but almost immediately it got reduced to an excuse to write ilya as if he can't have individual characterization or subjectivity if he "must" top shane. you need to contend with why you think that the penetrating person respecting liking and loving their partner means that they can't possibly enjoy sex for Themselves and must be a service top or submissive or lacking human free will. why does everyyyyyy sexual character and sexual relationship need to be flattened into nothing? ilya's sado-dominance is one of the most straightforward aspects of his characterization and the entire point, the sexual dynamic is the point! there reaches a certain point of self projection onto another creator's original characters where you should just write ur own ocs or an autobiography

[greedydemands]

and honestly tbh tbsfr to be completely truthful the "shane invents [literally any sexual thing] in his own crazy mind and doesnt have to self awareness or knowledge to know that [spanking? consent play? roleplay?] existed until it came to him in a dream" is getting a lot ableist and a likkle racialized. an autistic person having a hyperfixation doesn't mean that they don't know how to use the internet or have never like existed in society before. even if you ignore that ilya did in fact teach him everything he knows about sex and everything he likes about sex and shane's sexual development is always in conversation with and guided by ilya: EVEN if you ignore that--which most people do anyway--there is still a line between riffing off said sexual exploration and kinkiness versus what is increasingly just infantilization. he is not a child. under or unnegotiated doesn't mean that shane is never aware of what he's asking for or wants and he is not trying to have sex solely for himself or interested in doing something that isnt equally good for Ilya beyond fandom's reduction of their sex life to solely shane's orgasms. that is not the type of sex he's having or wants to have and just because he is learning this for the first time doesn't mean that he doesn't recognize himself as a sexual being. he's not stupid or a child! just because he doesn't have the exact word for it doesn't mean he isn't self aware and must be flabbergasted when ilya gives him what he asks for lol again there's a line between writing him as coy and bratty and writing him as if its his first day on earth when they're 29 and fucking since teens. shane did not sprout his dildos or butt plugs from thin air, he is an adult man with the wherewithal to google how long it's safe to drive with a plug in and how to prepare himself for anal sex. even when he had sex he hated with women, he still tried to at least be good at oral. he can be kinky and come up w crazy roleplay scenarios without this incessant demeaning of autistic people's self awareness and capacity for growth and Knowing More Than One Thing even if they don't care about those other things as much! which. doesn't even count here because being ilya's sub bottom is like. shane's final boss hyperfixation. he was not in fact born yesterday

[8-bitbasil]

Claudia was everything. I loved her unconditionally.

[healthyscratches]

I THINK LOVE IS SOMETHING / THAT HAPPENS TO OTHER PEOPLE - Michael Gray Bulla // Heated Rivalry

[yuna-is-tired-sm]

𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘰𝘧 𝘚𝘪𝘩𝘢𝘮 𝘏𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘢𝘯, 𝘢 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘮𝘦𝘳 𝘮𝘦𝘮𝘣𝘦𝘳 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘚𝘶𝘥𝘢𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘦 𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘭𝘪𝘢𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵, 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘣𝘺 𝘏𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘪’𝘴 𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘢𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘳𝘶𝘯𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢 𝘮𝘰𝘣𝘪𝘭𝘦 𝘬𝘪𝘵𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘩𝘶𝘯𝘨𝘳𝘺 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘰𝘧 𝘈𝘭-𝘍𝘢𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘳, 𝘚𝘶𝘥𝘢𝘯.

𝘋𝘰 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘚𝘶𝘥𝘢𝘯.

[cupcakesandrumpunch]

Sudan’s RSF in execution spree in El-Fasher including woman MP

The RSF announced on Sunday evening that it had taken control of El-Fasher, while activists decry the executions and the dire humanitarian s

[op-la]

idk if you use twitter but have you seen this https://x.com/claudiascoven/status/1978179192278728929?t=d6cxvj6i1Fk9E5YQ0eUJaw&s=19

uhhh i tried!

[kyorusns]

he say i'm crazy, don't i know it // cobra

[youtube]

[shaker-m-safi]

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My name is Shaker, I’m from Gaza.

Our family has lost everything in the recent war — our home was destroyed, our cars and belongings are gone, and my father was martyred during the Israeli attacks.

💔🙏 Every donation, no matter how small, can bring back hope and give my brother a chance to live.

Now, my little brother is fighting for his life. He suffers from severe kidney failure and needs regular dialysis. Doctors said he urgently needs a life-saving surgery that costs $5,000.

After losing everything, we have no way to cover this amount. We are reaching out with hope that kind hearts around the world can help us.

Please stand with us in this difficult time.

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