random obligatory vent post
a lot has happened in the past idk how many years that has made it difficult to draw, and now i have 0 motivation for it. like i'm literally going to college for an art degree hoping that it'd get me back in the groove....... it hasn't so far. like, i've been stuck in this huge fucking art block since i started being friends w/ someone that was incredibly toxic to me and it has stuck with me even after getting out of that situation.
my husband keeps telling me to just... Do It. but he doesn't understand how hard it is, even after telling me to continue drawing more nnoites. I WANT TO. but. i can't. even trying to draw personal OC art is impossible for me.
i got a new screen tablet, an ipad, in hopes that this thought process would change, but every time i even so much as touch the pen for it i want to rip out my hair in frustration cause nothing comes to mind anymore.
atp i'm beginning to think that there is no hope at the end of this tunnel
