[sweetsteeths]

person: hey you ok?

me, dissociating: 

[praying]

[impowderblue]

tomorrow is december, which means i’ve succesfully wasted almost an entire year again

[frightvale]

[peachtearsb]

i understand why van gogh cut off his ear and shot himself in the middle of an open field like i get it now

[shoppingstars]

that dissociation feel when things shouldn’t move but for some reason they are

[itsborderlinebitch]

borderline nightmares

- message delivered - message read - when ur fave “needs space” - when ppl pick on u for being dramatic - when u just gotta - explaining splitting to nt friends - anyone finding ur journal - when ppl ask why youre “copying them” - when ppl ask why you are “so clingy” - when ppl say they will listen and stay and ur like o god i know it isn’t true but u still end up believing the same bullshit - when u cant help but forgive people who have pushed u passed ur boundries and fucked u over - when u cant feel - when u can feel - when u wanna disassociate but ppl wont stop talking to u - when u cant stop disassociating - disassociating during lectures/class/tests - “tell me about yourself” - “whats your sexuality?” -“ha! every1 does that… ur normal dont WORRY”

[etrogim-deactivated20200109]

i like to pretend i’m a heartless apathetic b*tch but in reality i’m a baby who cares a fucking lot and emotionally invests myself in everything and is hurt 98.3% of the time

[princessgothicc-deactivated2026]

Im trying to prove a point to my mum

Repost if school has caused:

Anxiety Depression Suicidal thoughts Social anxiety Eating disorders Self harm Stress

[missingwigs]

i arrive at the thanksgiving dinner

talk: less smile: more me: doesn’t let them know what i’m against or what i’m for

[cardinalfeng]

I am forcibly removed from the room where it happens.

[sicklygrl]

no offense mom but i don’t want to exist anymore i want to disappear into the sky thanks for raising me

[turing-tested]

someone i care about: isnt in constant contact with me, pays attention to someone else

my brain: they actually hate you and and bored of you

me, inhaling gently because while its important to acknowledge how i feel, its better for my emotional health if i also acknowledge that what i am feeling is a result of my disorder and not rational: actually they have other things in their life besides me and im glad that they have enough love in their heart for other people who care about them too

[dissociating-boy-blog]

my room looks like something out of an apocalypse video game, thanks @ my 6 month long depression cycle

[urbanthropologie]

ways to start feeling again

sit in the sun without anything to do, feel the heat of the rays hit your skin, realize that this sunlight has travelled a very long way to reach you

walk around barefoot and try to feel as much of the ground under your feet as you can, notice every rock and blade of grass

sit quietly for a while and notice the touch of breath in your nostrils, feel how the air gets cooler as you inhale and warmer as you exhale

drive around aimlessly and blast some of your favorite songs, scream/sing along to them and feel the vibrations of your favorite lyrics as they change the air in your throat and around you, feel that the music is healing you from the inside out

stay away from alcohol or drugs for a few days, try to be as aware and present as you can in every moment, stop trying to numb or dull your senses

eat a few meals without any distractions, notice every bite and taste every flavor that covers your tongue, be grateful for it all

look up at the stars and the moon, understand how small we all are and how immense the universe is, realize what a miracle everything is, let your heart swell with amazement and admiration for life itself

[kinomatika]

ok this is actually cool bc doing all of this is a technique called “mindful thinking” that is extremely useful for people with anxiety disorders and dissociation disorders and stuff!

[burnishable]

[smelbo-deactivated20190119]

sensory overload? more like

if i hear another noise ever again im going to flip my fucking shit

[opheliabpd]

How I Control Splitting

These are some of the ways I have learnt to cope with my splitting. While they may not work for everyone or in every instance, hopefully someone will find some use in these strategies.

When I feel myself splitting on someone, I acknowledge it. I tell myself that I’m splitting, and that it’s the disorder speaking, not me.

If I’m splitting on a person, I try to distance myself from them to stop me lashing out. Being around them just increases the chances that I’m going to say something I regret and make things harder on both of us.