Just Give It One More Try

Simon Desjardins. Eighteen. Still the same, normal "nerd". Been far away, for far too long. But now, I'm back. "Stop thinking about The easy way out There's no need to go and blow the candle out Cause you're not done You're far too young And the best is yet to come"

[thathighschoolnerd]

Text: Hey, it's me, brookie. just in case i'm not in your phone anymore so... thank you for the other night, i'm trying to get out okay? so don't worry.

[Text]: Don’t do anything stupid or dangerous, alright? 

[thathighschoolnerd]

It would be absolutely great if my brother could stop touching my stuff.

[misha-twopointoh]

Good. 

[thathighschoolnerd]

Oh my Lord.. Oh my Lord...Someone take this creepy child away from me. 

Please.. 

[thathighschoolnerd]

It would be absolutely great if my brother could stop touching my stuff.

[misha-twopointoh]

Verpiss dich.

[thathighschoolnerd]

Um.. alright.. I'm.. sorry. 

[thathighschoolnerd]

It would be absolutely great if my brother could stop touching my stuff.

[misha-twopointoh]

Little?

[thathighschoolnerd]

Um, yeah.. It's.. You're both shorter and younger and therefore.. Look, I didn't mean it as an insult, I'm sorry if it sounded like one.. 

[thathighschoolnerd]

It would be absolutely great if my brother could stop touching my stuff.

[misha-twopointoh]

On the contrary, I find I’m at my happiest when I’m violent. Maybe I’m just abnormal though.

Caring is stupid. Just like you. 

[thathighschoolnerd]

No, no.. I guess that's possible and doesn't make you any stranger. People do have many different opinions and the same things don't make everyone happy, so.. 

That's pretty alright.. I do respect your opinion, little man. 

[thathighschoolnerd]

It would be absolutely great if my brother could stop touching my stuff.

[misha-twopointoh]

And why is violence bad?

…

[thathighschoolnerd]

It's just is a.. negative thing. People are usually violent when they are really angry. Most of the time they don't know what they are doing, but they just hope that it will make them feel better.. Maybe it kind of does for a while, but then they slowly start to realize what they actually did and... and that might make them feel kind of.. worse than before. Violence isn't healthy.. And it's just bad in general for people. 

I'm not, uh..I'm not sure if I should be sorry for that, since.. caring is quite a normal thing.. 

[thathighschoolnerd]

It would be absolutely great if my brother could stop touching my stuff.

[misha-twopointoh]

Well, for starters you won’t set your brother on fire because it’s “dangerous” and “rude”.

And you all … care too much. It makes you weak.

[thathighschoolnerd]

Well, it kind of is. Plus, it might cause a lot of trouble, funeral and I'd maybe end up in jail. It's not right to just.. burn someone because of little things that might seem to be bigger than they actually are, in our eyes.. It's, yeah.. it's really violent. 

Oh, um... 

[thathighschoolnerd]

It would be absolutely great if my brother could stop touching my stuff.

[hanna-vaughn]

You couldn’t bore me.  You’re a ball of babbling and facts.

[thathighschoolnerd]

I'm glad you say so.. I'd really not want anyone to fall asleep in the midst of the conversation because I'm saying something they couldn't care less about. 

So, um.. how are you today? 

[thathighschoolnerd]

It would be absolutely great if my brother could stop touching my stuff.

[hanna-vaughn]

No, no. I don’t see any cheese in my future. One thing I know about cheese that it has like bacteria on it, like living bacteria. I think it was bacteria, it might have been something else. It’s kinda gross if you think about it. 

[thathighschoolnerd]

I won't bring up the whole story about cheese, since that.. might actually not sound interesting to you, and I'm not.. I'm not trying to bore you here.. But indeed, if you say it in that way, it kind of sounds gross. 

[thathighschoolnerd]

It would be absolutely great if my brother could stop touching my stuff.

[misha-twopointoh]

Normal people are boring.

[thathighschoolnerd]

Why do you think so? 

[thathighschoolnerd]

It would be absolutely great if my brother could stop touching my stuff.

[dahliaxblackbourne]

Then maybe tell him?

[thathighschoolnerd]

I, uh.. I would, but it's kind of difficult to have a conversation with him right now, since he's... not really in the mood. 

[thathighschoolnerd]

It would be absolutely great if my brother could stop touching my stuff.

[misha-twopointoh]

You know what’s a good way to make people stop being moody?

Stab them. 

[thathighschoolnerd]

I really.. appreciate your ideas and admire your knowledge on.. dealing with people, but.. I don't.. I'm not sure that hurting anyone badly is a good idea. They are all people after all and.. sometimes they just are moody. It's normal.. 

[thathighschoolnerd]

It would be absolutely great if my brother could stop touching my stuff.

[hanna-vaughn]

Cheese is very nutritious. I think. I don’t actually know all that much about cheese…. Thanks, Simon. 

[thathighschoolnerd]

Yeah, I don't.. I don't really think that you should know all that much about cheese after all. I mean, unless... you want to be someone who works with.. cheese, in the future. Like, if you'd want to make cheese, you should probably know something about it, but I'm not sure if that's actually your dream job or a nice hobby, even though it might be, so..

[thathighschoolnerd]

It would be absolutely great if my brother could stop touching my stuff.

[misha-twopointoh]

Well, he wouldn’t touch your stuff anymore, so it would make at least one thing better.

[thathighschoolnerd]

Um, if the wounds would be too serious, I don't think, uh.. I don't think he'd be able to touch anything. Therefore, I guess.. talking about it would be enough. But I'm going to do that once he stops being... you know, moody. 

[thathighschoolnerd]

It would be absolutely great if my brother could stop touching my stuff.

[hanna-vaughn]

So, you do like me then?

[thathighschoolnerd]

I, um.. yes. You seem to be a nice person and you're quite funny, you know and um, you like cheese and cheese is good, so.. I know it maybe wasn't the best reason, but um, yeah. 

[thathighschoolnerd]

It would be absolutely great if my brother could stop touching my stuff.

[jessieomaley]

Shhh. Shhh. Just shhhh. Silence. How’re you otherwise?

[thathighschoolnerd]

I, uh.. sorry. 

Not bad, really. Except that I'm kind of not having the best time with my brother, everything is rather fine. I've been working in a library for a while, you know, summer job, because I just didn't feel like being at home doing nothing everyday.. Also, the school is starting soon and for some reasons it makes me glad, because I missed a lot last year and uh, I just kind of want to catch up on everything and finally graduate. Besides that, uh.. my mom decided to stay for long in Evanston, since she really likes it here, Mira is back and the weather is still nice, so I guess I can say that everything is pretty good.. Um, how about you? I'm really glad to see you again, Jessie. 

[thathighschoolnerd]

It would be absolutely great if my brother could stop touching my stuff.

[misha-twopointoh]

Light him on fire.

[thathighschoolnerd]

I don't, uh.. I don't think that lighting anyone on fire would.. actually be helpful in this, or just any other situation, considering that it wouldn't make anything better and just get you into more trouble.. Plus, uh.. it was really such a sin, so.. violence is quite unnecessary.. But um, thank you for the advice anyways.