you’re playing tonight and i’ve been dying to see you up close and personal—i’ve scored front row, backstage, personal meet and greet, everything i ever dreamed of, but seeing you this close, this real, this hot, hard, heavy, gorgeous, i could faint
your show was phenomenal, they always are, your fingers are magical and your voice is angelic and your eyes, your eyes are everything, mesmerising, hypnotic, drawing me in
we’re backstage together now and you’ve changed out of your show clothes, freshly showered, cold water dripping off your hair, plain black tee and easy grey sweats, smudged liner still lingering, glitter on your cheeks—i want to red your lips, your throat, your fingers, your everything, show you how much i want you, show you how much i’ve always wanted you
you’re teaching me guitar, letting me hold your precious girl as you sit behind me, calloused fingers over mine, guiding my careless ones over the fret while my other hand lies limp over the strings. you strum for me and sing for me, gentle and low, your voice brushing so close to my ear, your lips touching my skin just so, but not so quick that it could be mistaken for something more—
not unless i want to, of course. i lean back into you, my neck falling back as your fingers press into mine. the guitar goes soon enough, and your hands slip over my waist instead as you trace your lips over my throat, singing a song only our bodies can hear. you touch me up my waist, my ribs, my breasts, so gentle, so soft, right until you get to my throat and you touch me there so gently and squeeze…
and i’m absolutely gone, baby, i’m absolutely yours. i—ah fuck—which makes you laugh and hold your hand over my mouth. shhh, you laugh, and i laugh under your palm, but your other hand keeps going underneath my shirt, under my bra, squeezing, pinching, tugging, i—oh—i can’t keep quiet for you, but you find that funny, shushing me every couple of seconds as you drag your fingers across my lips and slip them into my rude little mouth—shh, shh, be a good girl for me baby, there’s a girl—
i’ll be so good for you, i promise, i’ll do whatever you want and i’ll let you use me however you want. you ask me to kneel, i’m there, right between your legs like a good girl, and you laugh again because it’s cute, and you take hold of my jaw and kiss me so hard i see stars.
it’s so fast after that, nothing gentle, nothing soft, but you are soft and hard all at once, so pretty when you’re holding me down like that, so handsome when you drag your teeth over my skin, so soft when you push against my body, so hard when your fingers find my slick, my pliant, my open… you open me up for you and i blossom like a tawdry little rose, pretty pink for you and so fucking wet—you laugh again, but it’s not because it’s funny, you sound half delirious with happiness.
you put your mouth on me and i lose my mind.
i arch into you, i buck and rock and thrust and you hold my hips down, patting me like i’m a worried horse—steady girl—and you lick and lave and love into me and i-i-i-oh…baby!