just some thoughts

u have to guess what this is about cause i dont know

[thatsduckmyluck]

you asked me one time if I believed in soulmates. and I told you I've never believed in them. and that's true. I've never believed in soulmates. but up until now, I believed in you

[thatsduckmyluck]

is love alongside hate even a possibility? can that be realistically fathomed in this world that we live in? you say you love me, but act in hatred. so, which is the true reality? or is it both?

when a woman says she loves her husband, but acts in a way to make him uncomfortable or unhappy, is that really love? is it hatred? or is it both?

if a woman tells her daughter every day how much she loves her for who she is, but then disciplines her for her likes, her dislikes, her personality, her hobbies, her friends, her sexuality, everything that makes her herself. is that love or is that hatred? or is it both?

i think it's possible to feel both love and hatred toward a person, at the same time. but when you act only in hatred, they will never truly believe you love them. and there is a point at which that becomes true

[thatsduckmyluck]

It wasn't the break up that broke my heart. It was how you treated me afterwards.

[thatsduckmyluck]

you posted that you were sorry on your story. you couldn't even say it to my face

[thatsduckmyluck]

telling someone you're sorry for hurting them, but not making an effort to do better in the future is manipulation

[thatsduckmyluck]

I find it interesting how many people, in an argument, will just pretend that they were confused as soon as they realize they were wrong. They'd rather pretend they're stupid than admit to being at fault.

[thatsduckmyluck]

I think one of the most overlooked events of the early 21st century was when Nicolas Cage broke into the National Archives museum and literally stole the Declaration of Independence. He didn't get arrested or anything, and he was even able to continue his successful career as an actor. I'm honestly shocked that more people aren't talking about this.

[thatsduckmyluck]

Some words of advice for you during quarantine, from none other than John Mulaney, the high-waisted and feminine-hipped man himself:

"Think of some weird, slow activities to fill the day."

[thatsduckmyluck]

I'm happy living my disciplined life

I'm perfectly okay working every day and staying in my house

I feel no urge, no longing, to go out and "experience life," as you keep saying

I am experiencing life, and it's a life I'm very happy with

It's just not the life you're experiencing

I'm happy, and I'm well versed in my knowledge of the world

I'm fine doing my own thing and having things my way

Don't tell me how to live my life

Don't tell me what to do

Don't pretend like you know who I am and what I need

When really, you barely even know me

Maybe we've talked a lot, but I've hardly ever talked to you about my feelings

I've hardly ever talked to you about my desires and my likes and my dislikes

My comforts and my anxieties

So stop trying to tell me who I am

Because you have no idea

[thatsduckmyluck]

Is there actually any way to friendzone someone without hurting their feelings at all or is that just an impossibility? Like, I'm genuinely curious if there're any specific words or techniques someone could use to harmlessly friendzone someone. Or is the average person's emotional scale just too easy to tip in the wrong direction?

[thatsduckmyluck]

If he really wanted you back, he would have said so by now.

[thatsduckmyluck]

You know that dream where you're standing at the edge of a rooftop high in the sky, and a sudden gust of wind or some force unbeknownst to you sweeps you off of your feet and you go tumbling over the edge? That dream where, as you're falling, your only thought is, "What will it feel like when I land?" That dream where you pay no attention to the magnificent feeling of the wind whipping past you and your clothes fluttering by your sides, because you're too preoccupied with the fear of impact? That dream where you're falling through the air, tumbling and free wheeling like a leaf in the wind, so afraid of the future that you can't even realize the magnificence of the remarkable now? That dream where you jolt awake a second before you hit the ground, sweat causing your pajamas to cling to your skin? Yes, *that* dream.

That's the scariest dream that I've ever had. But it's also my favorite.

[thatsduckmyluck]

don't you dare ask me to apologize when we all know it was your wretchedness that got us into this horrible mess to begin with

[thatsduckmyluck]

Music is a marvelous thing. The creeping tendrils of song make their way into my ears, rattling my brain. The notes drift their way around my head, thrumming softly. I watch the lyrics dance around my feet, coaxing me into a trance. My heartbeat syncs to the beat of the ever sounding music, and I hum along to the tune. It's all so peaceful and so calming. So serene and so captivating. So strong yet so fragile. So absolutely beautiful.

[thatsduckmyluck]

Fred Degrace portrait sketch! What do you guys think?

I'm really proud of this drawing. I'm not very familiar with drawing faces, but I think this turned out really good.

You guys should go like the Instagram post of this on @ beavertonhigh.artists .

[thatsduckmyluck]

If you ever don't know what to say, don't say anything. Silence says more than you ever could.

[thatsduckmyluck]

Pls follow my tiktok (@ minabeana). I've currently only got 5 followers. Goal is 7, pls. <3

EDIT: I got to 50 followers yay 😆