Issues I suffer from and my bad traits:
Being phony: not being as good at the things I say I can do which I have actively worked on and tried to do better. I embellish my talent and am good at selling it and then it’s a half baked product. I am also working on improving my voice so it sounds better again. Keeping commitments and going when I say I’ll go.
First and foremost I suffer from resentment. I have a lot of unforgiveness in my heart and resentments I am working through.
false guilt about the past: Feeling things happened that didnt and being way more guilty about stuff I don’t need to think twice about. Gods already forgiven me why am I angry or guilty?
Day dreaming: I often dream about the future and dont enjoy the present. I say I want to do this and this and this and it’s an issue because it’s Gods plan and purpose for me. Working on living for god and not living for me or my idea of how I want to be or look. There’s a difference between hope and day dreaming.
Gluttony: I have way to much but am working on using what I have before I get more. This has spoken to me because god and I have had this talk about how I overspend beyond our means and act selfish and frivolous.
Projecting and control: When I tell people what to do I often think it’s the stuff I should be doing that I tell grown adults to do. I also suffer from control and I am working on that. I don’t want to give anyone advice that dosent ask for it thats messed up they are an adult and often times it’s viewed as rude and not helpful. often times when I am controlling it’s because I want those things for myself.
Being a taker: I often take more than I give. It’s hard to work on that in my income but I am working on paying bills and helping out more. I am also seeking another job in case and a real job something I can be proud of because I’m a 30 year old adult.
Self righteousness: sometimes I feel I am better than others and this I have worked on for a while. I don’t want to think that way and it’s been a struggle working on this. I think and have had this attitude about me that im better than everyone else and everyone has sin. Everyone goes through stuff. I have issues and it’s okay to have issues but work on them. Just because I’m working on me and others aren’t dosent make me better than them. They will eventually see it and work on themselves.
Honesty: I feel I am honest. I try to be that way always about how im feeling I used to be a liar but I have worked on that.
Gratitude: i have worked on this and I am blessed and thankful and I try to be this way. It’s hard to always feel this way but that’s how I dealt with negativity.
Admittance: i have admitted a lot to myself and thats a big deal to me. Talking and being open and honest.
Trust: this has gotten better i have more trust in god then ever. I also got a devotional today because it’s been hard again but we are working on this.
trusting he has a plan and a place for me has been difficult but we’re doing it.
I feel I am trustworthy as a person at least I try to be.
I will keep working on inventory. I had to write this down for accountability and ownership and to work the program im in.
