Just me

[thoughtkick]

“You deserve the love you keep trying to give everyone else.”

— Unknown

[thatwitchybitch21]

I can't whine about being fat and wanting to be a gym girly again without taking action or it's just talk.

I finally had day 1 back. I did 25 minutes on the treadmill and 30 on machines. I'll do longer walking, but with my knee still healing from the fracture and I get about 8-10k steps at work, I don't wanna hurt it.

I did have a few tears on the way there...being a big girl and going somewhere you know you are being judged is HARD. But day 1 is over with and I feel good. THIS FEELING is why I love going to the gym. I'm also not telling anyone IRL that I'm going, I want people to notice from results 💪🏽

[thatwitchybitch21]

This popped up in my memories on the facebooks from 5 years ago.

I need this feeling/motivation back.

I was a gym girly and feeling amazing.

I was getting up at 5:30 am 4 days a week and doing the thing.

Sometimes I feel like she's gone 🫤

[thatwitchybitch21]

House: cleaned✅️

Laundry: done✅️

Lawn mowed:❌️ it rained

Sunflowers: fail

The website said they were still in bloom, but we drove over an hour each way, and they were all dead 😒.

Right now I have Raymond on in the background, but T and I are having a movie and game night. Rummikub and some horror movie.

It's storming, Kaya is on my lap and I'm doing my dot book.

The plants are outside getting the rain water

Candles lit

This is the peace I want in life 😌

[thatwitchybitch21]

I am READY to get out of work for the weekend. 45 more minutes.

The plans? A girls weekend with T! Facials and a movie tonight. Tomorrow we might be coming home with a little pet and then trying to get some nice sunset sunflower photos.

Her and I did go see Spiderman on Wednesday.... I fell asleep 🤦🏽‍♀️. What I saw was good, but A told me I missed alot. I knew going after work that was gonna happen.

My knee is still bothering me a bit. I need to wear the brace, like rn I'm not. How long does a fractured kneecap take to heal??? I know weight is also a big issue 🫤.

[thatwitchybitch21]

Hi ☺️

[cosmonautroger]

[thatwitchybitch21]

There's an adult fused glass class that I want to take, but I feel guilty if I do. It's a day after work, so I'd go straight from work there and not get out until 8. A is a senior and doing his own thing alot of the time, but if he's not, I'd feel guilty him sitting at home and me out having fun. Is that normal or am I putting too much mom guilt on myself?

[04k96]

[thatwitchybitch21]

Today after work I worked with my cards and did a new to me spread a dear friend posted about. I am moving in the right direction and need to keep going. I do need to let go of the past and rest when I feel like life is taking over. I'm working on my goals and know what I want. I'll get there. I really like this deck, more than my other 2.

[thatwitchybitch21]

I love the disco balls I got from the dollar tree, I put them on my plant stand right where the sunlight will hit them.

House is cleaned and the dogs nails are done. I was going to do more, but I need to rest my knee. Matilda is on in the background...growing up I felt connected to how she didn't fit in with her family.

Tomorrow morning is senior material pickup at 10 am, so I won't be into work until after that.

Oh I keep that Halloween stuff up all year, but I'm ready 🎃

[peaceoftina]

[thatwitchybitch21]

I got woken up by the rain at 6 am. I scrolled a little but once I made eye contact with the dogs, it was time to get up. I spent a few hours cleaning and then took a 2 hour nap before lunch.

Aldi had crab cakes this week, so I'm warming one up with a spinach salad. For dinner I'll be making veggie soup with ground turkey/beef. I forgot the ground meat at the store, so I'm defrosting some burgers to crumble up.

Kaya hasn't been listening and I'm sure it's because lack of attention lately. With the kids gone and I've been busy at work and my parents. I'm spending the weekend mostly at home, so she will be getting cuddles and her nails done. Might even paint them 😆

I'm trying to be positive instead of all depressed with the kids gone. I can eat whatever I want for dinner without having to ask other people, I can have a box of mini ice cream sandwiches in the freezer without them all disappearing, the house is exactly how I want it and SO clean. I have a simmer pot going.

Is it weird I have absolutely no interest in dating? Like at all?

[thatwitchybitch21]

Friday vibes are hitting hard this morning

Atleast it will be a good day at work, I'm needed for billing and not doing my normal job.

I'm dragging to get ready tho and I need to be out the door in 20 min

TGIF!

[thatwitchybitch21]

Last week when I was dropping something off to my brother, sis in law mentioned being free yesterday or today. Yesterday I texted and asked if she wanted to do dinner for tomorrow (today) and she said "that could work" ... ummm ok, you told me Wednesday or Thursday. I didn't reply. It's 2:30 and she hasn't said anything. I hope she forgot. I'd rather stay home. We haven't been cool since her comments about my mama in Alaska.

[seashellronan]

you know when the wind does the blowy thing and the leaves on the ground blow in a circle and you feel halloween in your heart

[thatwitchybitch21]

Truthful Tuesday a day late

I have thick skin. Being a bigger girl my whole life you just gotta. That and be funny. My point. It sucks having shitty co-workers. I get people have parties and I'm one of the owner's kid, I get you don't wanna invite me. But handing out invites infront of me and talking about it so much is pretty shitty. The party was last weekend and it's still getting talked about. Cool.

There's this new guy at work and he's pretty cool. Don't get me wrong, I've learned my lesson about dating and work, but just flirting is fun. Well D is a huge flirt and throwing herself at him and he likes it. So that flirting is done cuz instant eww. I know my worth and I'm not a backup. Thing is she is married....if I was skinnier or prettier. Whatever. I'm just feeling very blah and defeated today. And here I am looking all cute, too cute to be sad in my dad's office. 🫤