Race Me To The Stars

Just a clusterfuck of madness // Female // 27 // Nowhere, USA

[daddystinygirll]

The fear of abandonment isn’t just about people leaving, it’s the gut-wrenching belief that you aren’t worth staying for.

[professionallyunstable-deactiva]

i hate myself a little extra when i open up to someone.

[worthless-mess]

[worthless-mess]

"You’re so polite" thanks i was raised in constant fear of upsetting people.

[worthless-mess]

"Are you ok?" I'm actually tired bro. From the bottom of my heart I'm tired

[bpderanged]

I feel like I need to constantly apologize just for existing.

[vilea777]

sorry i cant hang out i forgot how to mimic human like behaviour

[void-ext]

i feel so fucking alone, it’s just sad.

[aspdist]

when the "it is what it is" mentality wears off and every second of pain you've ever felt resurfaces on a random Tuesday

[professionallyunstable-deactiva]

opening up is like talking to a cop, everything you say can and will be used against you.

[aladybugonacherrystem-deactivat]

[bpderanged]

Dear younger self,

you stupid fucking cunt.

[forestaflame]

overestimating how much you mean to someone really fucks you in the head

[junetheraccoon]

do you guys also ruin every good thing in your life or is that just me

[bpdbimbo]

sorry for showing symptoms of the disorder i told you multiple times I have. Do you want me to kill myself?

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[meteortrails]

I really do love the way Caldwell plays Bev and the way he like, beautifully subtly portrays the way that Bev is simultaneously willingly stepping up to the plate to bear responsibility far beyond his years and also clinging onto his childhood and immaturity in a way?? like there’s so many moments where Bev reaches into himself and finds the strength to do the hard thing bc there is no other option, and then immediately after is kinda just desperate for one of his family to hold him and tell him he did good, that it’ll be ok. all those moments where it’s glaringly clear that Bev just wants his mom and dad, for them to come and set everything right like they always do and take the weight off his shoulders. but they can’t, so he gets back up and he does what needs to be done and he goofs around in the meantime to hold onto some part of what that weightlessness felt like.