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this is now a subsys blog, full sys blog is a wip. pro-endos fuck off. update probably next year -dryadmich horde

[the-archived]

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[check out before you leave]

Wip intro, update to be made soon

formerly @thepetrichorcollective

alter blogs:

@de-rune / @lesbian-aurora, @legend-of-vax, @desired-destruction, @rr-roth, @mollymaukerleaf, @aroacedata, @tate-nova, @cas-ofthe-bees, @sypphic / @youryanderex, @pomelo-tea and @bleu-flame

subsys blogs

@archived-pokemon, @thegameboysystem

links

Taglist(link), everything is a wip

[the-archived]

Hello ! I know this is a long shot, but I recently saw a call for fire emblem fictives .

Hi! This side blog is going to become a subsystem blog since our whole system has had major changes

But yes our introjects are always happy to find sourcemates

I myself (corrin), am the most active fictive from fire emblem but we have others!

If youd like, we can talk elsewhere ^^

[blue-arsenal-deactivated2026031]

Not really in the mood to keep running this account but I also don't wanna leave it so maybe it can stop being dead with some more mods?

Anyway, mod applications are open! Just message me here or on @saccharinefreaks

[cpunkwitch]

My visa limit is 2500 and if I can pay it off I'll probably lose my card.

I need to pay this off as well as pay for medication and food at the very least.

Any help would be appreciated be it donations, commissions, buying from my store or what have you.

It's stressing me out to the point its making me physically ill which is only triggering more flares in my conditions that I really don't need.

If I'm accepted into uni I'd like to not have so much credit card debt let alone only being able to use that by the upcoming fall semester. I'd like to be able to go to my classes instead of rotting in bed but without medication and with all this stress I'm honestly scared wherever I get heatstroke this summer it'll just kill me before that.

There are a lot of things available on my kofi, it accepts PayPal and stripe among others both of which I have accounts set up with.

Examples of my art exist on @spirits-art and on my Instagram cassderolo.

I offer tarot readings, art prints, sensory friendly (pride) bracelets and more.

Seriously anything helps my situation right now.

Support Cass/Sparrow ❤️. ko-fi.com/witchboy95541

Support Cass/Sparrow On Ko-fi. Ko-fi lets you support the people and causes you love with small donations

It's rare that I do any drag shows, it's be nice if I got book once a month but it's more like once in a blue moon ATP. I'm trying to get booked for more, they pay decently especially with tips from the audience. But only for a side gig.

Still out of a job and job hunting, wish me luck I suppose.

[spirits-art]

Disabled artist - comms open!

[disabled artist - comms open]

Hi! I'm spirit, I'm an artist, physically disabled, 21, and taking commissions! My main is @gravediggerss

Right now I have a visa debt to pay off and medication to buy but I don't have the money.

I have more than just art commissions open on my kofi, such as bracelets, art prints, tarot and more, and I'd be incredibly grateful for any help.

Support Cass/Sparrow on Ko-fi! ❤️. ko-fi.com/witchboy95541

Support Cass/Sparrow On Ko-fi. Ko-fi lets you support the people and causes you love with small donations

[dracu-asks]

My inbox is open and waiting! Come ask a vamp!

Don't worry, I don't bite.

Looking forward to hearing from all ghouls, mansters, "normies" and anyone in-between!

Ask whatever you'd like or just come hang out and chat! Count fabulous is around here somewhere too.

You can also support my art on @/spirits-art.

[kennedy-coining]

Made a community for general atypical dysphoria !

Anti Endo Atypical Dysphoria • Community on Tumblr

A community for people and terms that describe atypical dysphoria (dissomei, desirdae, viscernae, etc). Anti endo.

Edit: if you're gonna come break my dni and ask why I do this, I don't care what you have to say or your excuses, I'm gonna steal from you and make a safe space for trauma survivors.

[faesblood]

Give me notes for motivation so I'll do stuff

For every ten (10) notes I'll make a userbox for one of my blogs

For every twenty five (25) notes I'll queue a flag post on one of my coining blogs

For every thirty five (35) notes I'll queue an id pack/npt post on any number of my blogs

For every fifty (50) notes I'll finish retheming one of my blogs under construction

For every eighty (80) notes I'll finish a rentry

For every hundredth (100) note I'll clean a part of my room

[the-archived]

Currently working on a new system blog

This will become a blog for a subsys that wants to keep this name

Does need to be revamped though

[fwus]

I was reading your name list and saw you had V labeled as a name and was wondering if this was about the number? If so I'd advise you to not go by that anymore! Number names are closed for RAMCOA survivors.

I get you mean well by sending in this ask but this is just !! Not a good thing to spread !!! /lh having people going by number names who AREN'T ramcoa survivors is actually a good thing as it helps hide survivors who may still want to use their numbered names from people with bad intentions or helps keep them safe. If only ramcoa survivors went by number names it would be putting them in A LOT of danger.

We used to think the same thing you do!!! But we had a survivor explain to us how using and normalizing number names really helps keep them and other survivors safe because people don't automatically just assume they're a ramcoa survivor which once again helps hide them from people who have bad intentions. Once again I understand that this was probably sent with good intentions, but only having ramcoa survivors go by number names can put them in danger and out them, at least this is what we've had multiple people explain to us since a few of us in the council have names that are numbers ^--^

[traumadreaming]

What Anon is doing here is posing a really invasive, shitty question- this is not "caring about survivors" in any sense- What anon is ACTUALLY saying is,

"You need to reveal to me whether you went through ramcoa/programming right now."

The thing about sending asks like this is that no matter how well-intentioned the person asking it is, without fail, THIS is the real sentiment every single time. Because, by asking things like "hey maybe don't use (number name) it's only for ramcoa survivors" or "hey so why are you using (number name), those are just for ramcoa survivors if you didn't know" what you are doing is creating a dilemma where the person receiving the ask has only two choices, and both are bad.

Either they admit they are NOT a ramcoa survivor, in which case it's an attempt at making them look ignorant or like an asshole for """harming survivors of ramcoa""" knowingly.

OR, they have to state, publicly, in response, "I actually AM a ramcoa survivor"- information which you have absolutely NO "right to know", and information you've now forced someone to reveal about themselves, potentially exposing the person to further harm and abuse.

The only real options these questions leave open are "look bad" or "reveal trauma". There's usually a good reason for why someone might not disclose their specific trauma history online and ultimately, you are NOT entitled to ANY of this information about ANYONE.

If anything, asks like these harm actual ramcoa survivors more than random people without ramcoa trauma using number names does. Fuck off with that self-righteous energy, you don't give a shit about victims, what you are doing is acting entitled, fishing for trauma details you absolutely do not need to know, AND trying to make people look bad by insinuating that they must be "harming ACTUAL victims" by using number names because they won't tell YOU whether they went through that trauma or not. Fuck off. You don't get to parade around as an "advocate of ramcoa survivors" when you're ACTIVELY putting other potential survivors AT RISK by creating a situation where they're forced to reveal their trauma just to justify the usage of a fucking NUMBER as their name. YOU, anon, are harming ramcoa survivors far more than non-ramcoa-survivors using number names are. Reflect on that a little, please and thank you.

[stoplookingatheredawg]

ALL OF THIS!!!

[traumadreaming]

Re: prev tags, I only saw the reblog now but yes, my initial rant included/includes ALL forms of number names, whether that's "IV", "eleven", "33" or anything else.

I'll put it behind the cut since I usually am a bit long-winded when it comes to expressing myself, but I actually expanded a LOT on my thoughts and opinions about number names (and honestly ANY other names that """signify programming""") being used by non-survivors.

CW for the use of 2nd person (a.k.a. addressing "you" hypothetically), when it's NOT addressed at anyone specific, not the person im reblogging from or anyone else for that matter except maaaaybe the person who sent OP the original ask, although I would hope they've learned at this point as well.

So.

I see why people have opinions about why non-survivors shouldn't use them, and to some extent, I can sort of agree with some of the points commonly raised as an argumemt against non-OEA survivors using number names. I understand the points made about dehumanization, and how it may feel invasive or uncomfortable to some survivors, when non-survivors use names like these.

However, I'd also argue that it's not healthy for ANYONE socially, mentally, or emotionally, if we start excluding people from using number names because it feels a little weird to us as it relates to our (-our, as in us as survivors,-) trauma in an intricate way, when there is a very, VERY simple solution; Just do not interact with non-survivors who use number names, if it makes you as a survivor yourself, uncomfortable. (You as in hypothetical, not at anyone specific) A fairly simplistic example is that, no survivor can tell people to stop going by names like "rain" or "storm" just because all their abuse ONLY took place during rain or storms as a manner of conditioning. EVEN IF those words are triggering, no survivor had the right to demand someone stop going by a name because it relates to severe and complex trauma to you. You can include them in a DNI or block them, but you CANNOT demand someone to change their name because the name, in your mind, is intricately connected to the form of severe conditioning you experienced. It's like telling every Steve or Joe in the world to never go by their names again because the man who practically tortured you as a child was named Steve Joe.

"But they're NUMBERS not real words or names like rain or steve-" technically, every single letter in the alphabet is its own word that describes a letter/sound it is supposed to make, just as every number is a word for the concept of that number (go ahead, TRY describing the number "sixty seven" out loud to someone without using a single numerical word OR gesture whatsoever to aid you. It won't be that easy). So, are we also going to start denying people from going by one-letter names, nicknames, or initials? Sorry, anyone who shortens "Jay" to "J" or just goes by "CJ" or "M", Because from what I understand, letters and letter combinations are absolutely used when naming conditioned/programmed alters too, often in combination with numbers on top of that. And what about numbers in other languages? "Isa" and "Nio" both mean numbers in non-english languages (isa=1 in tagalog & nio=9 in swedish) and I have seen MULTIPLE people go by these, just because they're a pleasant-sounding combination of letters in many different languages in general, whether they knew it meant a number in some language or not. Shall we also police those? No? Isn't it the exact same though? It's STILL a number, isn't it? Or could it just be that it only matters to people when you can recognize it as a number in english? What of ACTUAL NAMES which are very much IN USE like "Uno", which also mean a number (one in italian&spanish) despite ALSO being used as a name? (Wikipedia link to Uno as a given name)

Besides, WHAT exactly is the harm dome to survivors by number names being used by non-survivors? As an OEA victim myself who HAS multiple alters who were "given" numbers instead of names, I've yet to see ANY credible reason as to why it hurts me if someone chooses to go by "eleven" or "11" or "XI" for that matter. I'm serious- not a single argument has actually managed to address this for me whatsoever. At best, I've seen people stumble over their words, then bring up something about misrepresenting survivors or giving an inaccurate image/portrayal of OEA/ramcoa to people, or once again repeating that it "harms survivors" without actually ever explaining what about it is so harmful- at BEST it's "well, it includes non-OEA survivors in spaces they don't belong in and makes other people assume they are survivors when they aren't and therefore something something resources and community" which actually never manages to answer my question either.

"Explanations" such as these are all ALWAYS hypotheticals, not to mention the fact, that MOST PEOPLE do not automatically assume "ah yes, this person, who goes by the name 'four', was brutally abused in childhood, developed a dissociative disorder which was further exploited by abusers via extreme conditioning and this must be a name the abusers gave this specific fragment of the disorder in order to keep track of each of them!" Like... that's REALLY not what most people jump to. They MIGHT think of something like stranger things and assume that the person is a fan and wanted to mimic their favourite character. They MIGHT think that the person's parents fall into the same camp of weird quirky name givers as Elon Musk or whoever. They MIGHT think it's just a weird little quirk. Because the truth is that most people do not jump to the "extreme and methodical abuse in childhood" conclusion on MOST topics, and this becomes quite clear when you spend any amount of time OUTSIDE trauma/DID/ptsd/mental illness communities both offline and online. It is an image YOU draw mentally because either it's something you went through yourself, or something you choose to surround yourself with and interact with. There's nothing wrong with that- but, a degree of self-awareness and ability to see beyond your own bubble on this is absolutely necessary.

As for non-survivors "invading communities" by using number names? I have not seen it happen. Not even ONCE. First of all, people who use number names fall into three camps on this matter: people who openly state they ARE a survivor of OEA, people who openly express that they are NOT a survivor of OEA, and people who do not specify. I have NEVER seen a single person who openly states they are NOT an oea survivor "invade survivor spaces" in ANY WAY. Of course there are cases like those rαdqυeer/trαnsιd freaks who attempt to do that from time to time regardless, but it's not the numbers that are a problem with them whatsoever, and using THEM to point fingers at as a "see, they ARE doing it!" When we are only talking about people going by number names is absolutely ridiculous because there is FAR MORE wrong with them than just the damn names they choose to try to play pretend with trauma.

And, my initial rant as a response to the ask OP got should explain pretty damn plain and clear why we have absolutely NO right to question those who do not specify. Because YOU DO NOT KNOW. And you do not NEED TO KNOW. I'm being so real here- it does NOT matter whether someone goes by "four", "6", "XIV", "seventy-eight", "33-651", "A-53X" or "Ω/6" or ANY OTHER name including a number, combination of numbers, a singular letter, a singular greek letter, or ANYTHING ELSE like that- the assumption that a name like that is associated with programming/extreme abusive conditioning is a conclusion YOU drew and assumed EVERYONE else draws, too, when the vast majority of people will never even think about the possibility. And this is no way to justify trying to dig for trauma details from someone just because YOU feel entitled to know, because YOU feel like you have the authority to tell people what names they can and cannot go by based on whether they did or did not go through severe trauma. You do not.

To anyone who still thinks sending asks like the one OP received is in any way justified, let me ask you this; are YOU willing to be the reason someone may be traumatized for good from looking up what ramcoa/OEA means because they had never heard of it before and just went by a number name because it felt cool? Are YOU willing to be the reason that they search it up, and learn from whichever (often flawed) source first comes up? Are YOU willing to be the reason someone goes, looks up what 'ramcoa' means, finds Svali's writings, and either believes it all or goes 'this is actual bullshit, all these people are delusional and stupid and none of these forms of abuse EVER actually happen at all'? Because that's JUST as much a possibility of what COULD happen, if you do end up sending an ask like the one seen in the original post to someone who's never even heard of the term ramcoa. And there are far, FAAAAAR more people who do not know what it means, than there are those who DO know.

Moreover, if you found the person you feel entitled to question like this in a Dissociative/trauma-adjacent space online, and they are going by a number name and HAVE heard of ramcoa and therefore are unlikely to actually believe the completely unreliable sources, PLENTY of which exist out there- why, then, would you ask in the first place? We circle RIGHT back to the dilemma I explained in my initial rant- you are putting them in a position that either tries to make them look bad, OR they are forced to admit to trauma which you are NOT entitled to know about in the first place. There's literally no way out of that part, I'm serious. NOBODY in the entire World Wide Web has ANY right to know the specifics and details of ANYONE ELSE'S trauma, or even whether that trauma exists at all. Not even other survivors.

Let me explain it once more in a bit more elaborate way. Have you heard of that one OLD tumblr post? The complimenting someone else's shoelaces as a catchphrase one? The one where if you suspect someone else you meet IRL of having a tumblr blog, you are supposed to compliment their shoelaces, and if they respond with "thanks, I got them from the president", that's the secret phrase that confirms they DO have a blog on here? Yeah?

Well, trying to make number names into oea/ramcoa survivors-ONLY thing, as a concept, works similarly, except with the shoelaces thing, admitting you had a tumblr back in like 2014, the absolute worst consequence you could face would be some embarrassment of someone finding your cringy superwholock fandom posts.

With OEA, what you are asking someone to confirm is whether they suffer from severe memory loss, dissociation, (C-)ptsd, an unstable sense of identity, and basically, you are asking them to confirm to you directly whether they are prone to being a target of further abuse and harm because it has happened before. By now we know very well that those with a trauma history are more prone to ending up in further traumatic situations, especially in the form of social relationships. You are asking "Are you a good target to abuse?" Even IF you are NOT thinking about abusing them yourself. You are trying to get them to PUBLICLY put that target onto themselves.

And by trying to make number names an oea-survivor-only thing- imagine it as shoelaces. If being on tumblr was so cringe that people literally stopped wearing ANY shoes with ANY laces if they did NOT use tumblr, anyone with shoes that have ANY laces at all would now be instantly recognizable as a tumblr user. And while that hypothetical reality isn't particularly harmful because even 2014 tumblr was just a silly kinda cringe website, the same is NOT the case for survivors of abuse. Do you WANT severe abuse survivors to be INSTANTLY recognizable as easy targets and victims for those looking to actively harm others? Because there are ALWAYS people crawling around in trauma spaces LOOKING to find good victims, and ALL that gatekeeping number names does, is put a bigger and clearer target on people who use them.

Anyway. That's my take on names as it relates to conditioning/programming/tbmc. "Programmed-only", "oea/ramcoa-only", etc names do not exist and SHOULD not exist to begin with because of the clear-as-day target it puts onto people. Not a single argument has managed to explain what about number names actually harms survivors either so far- what is being taken away from us as survivors? In what way am I being negatively affected? How is my ability to heal, my safety, or my general ability to live my life being affected? If you have an answer to ANY of these, feel free to present the argument, but do remember "I feel weird that someone uses a name that I THINK is inherently and explicitly related to a specific form of abuse and YOU should too!" Is not a take I'm willing to consider even once. On this matter, your discomfort is YOURS to deal with. Again, just because your abuser was called Steve doesn't mean nobody can ever be called Steve again, no matter what, given name or not. Same concept.

[desactivated12342837-deactivate]

Someone should coin a better word for traumagenic to separate ourselves from end0 shit

[the-archived]

Formataex/formataper traumatica

Formatae ex = formed from

Formatae per = formed by

Traumatica = traumatic

Shortening it -

Formaetrau(mex)

A firmaetramex system is a system formed from any and all types/variants of trauma, formaetrau systems are entirely disconnected from the Endogenic/mix origin/non traumagenic system community. The term is to be an alternative for traumagenic to avoid any and all Endo association.

[desirdaemorgue]

Desirimmortal

[pt: desirimmortal. end pt]

A desirdae (link) term for those who desire/yearn/want to be immortal.

Some examples of why would be:

being immortal in source

for fun

etc.

this term does not support harmful/unethical transitioning.

tags: @desirdae-archive

[desirdaemorgue]

Desiramnesia

[pt: desiramnesia. end pt]

A desirdae (link) term for those who desire/yearn/want to have more or less amnesia.

Some examples of why would be:

to feel more valid

trauma

etc.

this term does not support harmful/unethical transitioning.

tags: @desirdae-archive, @thecorporatetower

[sadowife-deactivated20241222]

✦ Yandere System …

A flag for systems who identify with the yandere trope.

✦ Yandere Alter …

A flag for alters who identify with the yandere trope.

[sysboxes]

[Text: This system likes collecting pins and stickers.]

Like/Reblog if you save or use

[mogaipos]

We haven't been too active in the mogai community, leaving our older blogs and our more 'recent' ones currently loosing activity, mostly due to a lack of motivation and stuff but we were in it for a good few years and met a lot of awesome coiners because of it.

@decayednightmaremogai , @seraphim-coinz , @rwuffles , are just a few and we absolutely love them

Also we aren't sure anymore if our newest flag coining blog counts as mogai or not but it's a bit inspired by the Kirby in wonderland system who we adored in the mogai community before they left

We miss them </3

[ ♡ ] @decayednightmaremogai @seraphim-coinz @rwuffles

[mogaipos]

Our oldest blog in the mogai community was wateryourgender, we've since had other blogs but we're more active in the community on hoard blogs.

We miss the old days on that blog sometimes, we like looking back at old flags we made on there and on archival-arrival, we made some pretty good flags and terms in the past

Does feel a bit like we faded out and aren't remembered since people we were in the community with back then also left by now, but we're still so happy to see so many people coining and so many good new terms and flags

We met one of our partner systems through the mogai community and it's exciting to see other people connect through it too!

- dryadmich-horde

[ ♡ ]