I'm not your plaything anymore

I died before I ever had the chance to live, and now I haunt my own remains.

[traumadreaming]

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DID system / ~25 years old / they / europe

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[traumadreaming]

Aint no way that the abuser I was engaged to and who sexually assaulted me now works as an advocate for sexual assault victims. Aint NO WAY

[hazyhhh]

[weird-coby-core]

Jan 22, 2026

[barbifranco]

[traumadreaming]

Freakinh the FUCK out cause i feel like ive forgotten eveeything again even though I KNOW stuffhappened and I KNOW ive talked about it to therapist n even a few very very close friends like i know theseth7ngs arent SECRETSanymore so why is my brain empty why is my memory blank why is it gone what happened to it why do.i suddenly feel like everything was just. Erased. And the small stuff i do remember feels like im just imagining even when i know theres proof theres so much but. Its all gone??? Gone??

[flutedsleeves]

Katsuhide Morimoto & Jun Takahashi, Penetrating Light - Grace

[traumadreaming]

Ew why did I suddenly experience an Emotion again. And why did I only now realize I've lowkey been completely suppressing and Not Feeling Basically Anything. Hm. I don't think I will unpack this, actually.

[unorcadox]

[khristian-ity-blog]

i am better than i was. i will be better than i am.

[slut-meat]

[fehck]

[mimzyz]

[metamorphesque]

Dracula, Bram Stoker

[traumadreaming]

I cant fucking believe the reason im posting on this fuckass blog again is because of, get this, not trauma stuff, nothing like that im doing well- but because of a fucking ed relapse slowly happening just because. I lost some weight recently without intending to (basically just life circumstances stuff) but now im fixating on it and my brain is like. Hey hey hey what if... what if u... continued... teehee... chat this is BULLSHIT how am I doing better otherwise for the most part but THIS is the thing that made my brain start getting worse again. BRO.

[itmeansalot]

We all have that one friend who low-key will look nice on the cross

[paralelpark]

postponing suicide like it's some side chore. like maybe i get to it one day, but i'm fine w it bothering me every day and just not doing anything about it, like that one dirty mug that's been sitting on my nightstand forever. it just made its place there. who am i to do anything about it?