[the-blessed-felines]

Hi I’ve been dead onljne for ages but I have a doctor’s appointment today and I so badly don’t want to go. I switched to overnight shifts since it was scheduled so I got up at like 7:30 last night and the appointment is at 4pm today. Weirdly haven’t gotten any reminder e-mails/calls/texts which makes me think maybe I got the day wrong so I have to call and check. It’s just a routine physical checkup I’m too tired to think of anything I wanted to bring up, and it’s kinda expensive to get there and back. But it’s in 2 hours so I can’t cancel. Probably doesn’t help that I’m freshly showered in basically pajamas. I want to take a short nap but if I’m due for sleep and try to nap I’m just out for 8 hours and no alarm will wake me. I wasn’t going to post this but it is really so representative of me trying to do things that I just thought ok I’m being ridiculous just make one call and show up, and then I tried to call and got an error message I’ve never heard before saying I couldn’t call this number from this line, and now I’m realizing I’ve never made calls from this phone, so now I’m thinking of asking a roommate to try test calling her, and thinking of what am I gonna do when I can’t call and I need to be leaving for the appointment in an hour if it’s happening. I could probably ask to borrow hers to call but then eghhh

[raptorkiidart]

sharing this ink moth i drew as a gift for a friend :^) i don’t do ink illustrations very often but the process of building up shadows is so therapeutic

[the-blessed-felines]

My therapist has started responding again but it’s absolutely not helpful. I went into everything and she’s just like “thanks for sharing, sounds like you’re going through a lot” and it’s like yeah that’s why I’m here?? You’re supposed to help or something? So far every response is like venting to a friend who told you you could but then got busy right after they said that and feels bad saying no now but obviously doesn’t want to talk. I think I’m allowed to request a new therapist through this thing but that’s intimidating

[c3rvida3]

The post with the free PDF of Stone Butch Blues is circulating again, and I've failed to see anyone mention this, so: Yes, Leslie Feinberg is an LGBT+ icon and hir novel is an indispensable piece of history that has helped so many lesbians and transmascs understand the cultural context of their identities. I am not arguing against that. However, it contains at least seven or eight, more if I recall correctly, rape scenes and references to rape and sexual assault within the first like 100 pages alone, so if you're someone who's sensitive to that, this may not be a piece of media you can safely engage with.

The copy of Stone Butch Blues given to me by an elder ten or so years ago had all of the sexual assault scenes highlighted so that anyone reading it could either choose to skip it or at least have warning, so maybe we could do something like that for a PDF?

[c3rvida3]

A follower of mine was able to go through and create a highlighted version!

Here are the links: 

Drive

UFile

I haven't been able to personally verify that every little thing is highlighted, so if something is missing, e-mail me at [email protected] and I can see about having it edited in!

[c3rvida3]

Oh! Worth noting that instances of police brutality have also been highlighted, if that was a concern for you.

[inthetags]

reblog and put in the tags your fav line from any song without revealing its title

[the-blessed-felines]

I signed up for on of those online therapy things right after Christmas and it’s supposed to be two messages a day and I’ve gotten 2 messages so far, one of which was her explaining how things would work. And she took some time off on/after New Years which ok fine, and then the day he was marked as back she just sent a message to be like “im so behind now, I’ll get to you as soon as I can” which okay, but that was Monday and I’m starting to be like, ok I’m paying for this monthly. And I had just started to really get into bigger stuff the day before she was going to be back. So I don’t know if she’s just taking time to have a thoughtful response to everything I said because it was kind of a lot or if she just like forgot or thinks I haven’t really needed to talk because I haven’t messaged her since she said she was behind.

[the-blessed-felines]

I finally did but I was literally just sitting here not taking my miracle brain meds like “I’m too tired for functioning, I just wanna vibe today”

[frevin]

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[the-blessed-felines]

Are you actually horrible at posing for pictures or are you just aware that failure to appear sufficiently uncomfortable with being photographed will make people feel more at ease with dissecting your appearance and personality

[shaggytwodope-deactivated202104]

sorry but were NOT still talking shit about anish kapoor nearly in 2021. this time we learn from our mistakes

[shaggytwodope-deactivated202104]

@yoursaltness​ ok so i dont have the original post that detailed exactly why, actually, anish kapoor did not deserve all the shit he got, because i can only find stuff against kapoor by looking him up (which is part of the problem..) but basically what i recall on this (do NOT quote me bc this is just my recollection of reading a much better overview of this issue which i cant find anymore):

1. the pigment anish kapoor copyrighted, vantablack, was never originally going to be made for public use, and therefore he wasnt “stealing” its use from other artists

2. vantablack was not an art pigment in the first place and generally not useable for most art, and was not made for art.

3. stuart semple already was going to release his pigments before the anish kapoor copyright happened, and just jumped on it as a publicity stunt.

the root of the issue is that stuart semple, a white british artist, painted himself as this big proletariat hero SAVING ART from the evil indian rich person, even though semple is rich himself, and his use of an artist of color as a stepping stone for publicity while villainizing him as greedy and selfish was cheered on by everyone everywhere - including me! i also fell for it!

i dont exactly care about kapoor. hes a very rich man, which i despise, and i dont hold his art in my heart either. but its more about the fact that we all fell into the trap of making a man of colors whole career into a big old farce for the benefit of a white competitor, and if we can do it to a VERY RICH man of color, then were doing it to people of color everywhere who dont have kapoors millions. so thats the issue for me ig

i like to believe that if the kapoor/semple feud happened today i would be smart and discerning enough to actually look into the facts instead of jumping on the bandwagon of treating people of color as cartoon villains the moment a white person paints them like such in the media. but idk that i really would, and maybe id fall for it again. i think its a good reminder that just because someone is telling a good story, or an entertaining or satisfying one, doesnt mean the story is true, and that we shouldnt question it when its about the real world.

oh yeah, also, millionaire semple didnt pay his employees, who were fellow artists. proletariat hero indeed! this is from 2014, the kapoor drama started in 2016, so i wouldnt be surprised if he started it not just for the benefit of his own reputation and publicity for his product, but also to build himself a better image after defrauding smaller artists.

[dionysusbisexual]

Thank you! This is v fucked up and makes sense

[shaggytwodope-deactivated202104]

thanks for bringing this up! i didnt know kapoor was also jewish. it really does make everything about this worse huh

[the-blessed-felines]

Trying to sew without adderal now is just like. It’s been 2 hours. I’ve cut out 7 trapezoids. I Am Exhausted.

[the-blessed-felines]

Whenever I do get the strong motivation to do stuff I do get a reminder that my lack of productivity over quarantine is largely due to not having my meds and everything being way harder than it should be

[the-blessed-felines]

Trying to sew without adderal now is just like. It’s been 2 hours. I’ve cut out 7 trapezoids. I Am Exhausted.

[the-blessed-felines]

It’s honestly astounding how much people on here will start making a billion assumptions and start dissecting like 3 lighthearted tweets and jump to the worst conclusions of everyone involved and make them into these strawmen to make essay length posts about, and then really act like it’s other people who make a personality out of misusing progressive language to earn some points on the internet.

[iliothermia]

[benepla-deactivated20200506]

just delete your amazon account tbh. even past the boycott. Fuck it. Go to stores. don’t go on IMDB go on Wikipedia or watch a movie’s extra features (which are usually much more in depth and are probably on YouTube/putlocker). Fuck audible, go to a bookstore. I really think Amazon and it’s subsidiaries have thrived because Americans live for convenience and quickness. Would you rather live conveniently or ethically?

[beachdeath]

p.s. libby does everything audible does and more 100% free of charge with a library card

[axelfloyd]

I agree w the Amazon boycott, but ppl should be aware that a chuck of the physical infastructure is owned by Amazon. Their servers host millions of websites -- this is actually how they make the majority of profits. I recommend reading Kashmir Hill's piece on how blocking Amazon is nearly immpossible to get a full idea of their scope.

[beachdeath]

yes, kashmir’s article “I Tried to Block Amazon From My Life. It Was Impossible” is excellent journalism and required reading, as is her whole series on trying to live without the “big five” of apple, microsoft, facebook, google, and amazon.

[the-blessed-felines]

Also Amazon’s one of the only available options for delivered groceries that are covered by food stamps. (Walmart is the other)

[the-blessed-felines]

When covid ends I just want to go to drag shows and get one of those ridiculously over the top milkshake jugs where there’s an entire other dessert on top.

[the-blessed-felines]

U ever just like...I don’t want to be a person that does this thing, I just want to do the thing.