In love with Eddie?

March I 27 | those two want to be married SO bad | I follow from @platonicallymarried.

[lustcannibalism]

ok I endured it. now what!!!!!!!!!

[fedzzzart]

intertwined🤍

[buddiesblr]

now that the "competition" is out of the way (insp)

[chenfordsbee]

Eddie + being concerned for Buck in s9

[kira-kui-n]

"get him pregnant" well thats not my thing but to each their own

"get her pregnant" *takes up my sword and shield* i wont let you do that to her. ......................

[knownqueerbaiter]

they literally killed off bobby nash.

[knownqueerbaiter]

[knownqueerbaiter]

and then ppl were theorizing he wasn’t really dead somehow and this show that loved to do “ripped from the headlines” cases used a case where, in real life, mother was convinced her dead child was actually alive and was CORRECT, but changed the on-show ending so that he was dead the whole time and she was just crazy with grief and needed to give up. like it genuinely felt like getting told to fuck off lol

[bucksbeagle]

he literally admitted to his sister that he used his ex boyfriend in an effort to feel better about missing his best friend. and sex is literally the only thing that made him feel better about missing eddie and be able to sleep in the house btw.

[bucksbeagle]

he tries to use ravi the entire episode to help tend to the wound of missing eddie because having a friend should help him with missing eddie right. but what helps him literally sleep at night is a bunch of alcohol and then sex. and he nearly gets back together with tommy. because ultimately what he’s trying to replace with eddie’s departure is not a best friendship but a romantic partnership. just without the sex. and then when he’s called out about his feelings he freaks the fuck out about it and gives a verbal admission without realizing it and says “i dont have to sleep with everyone i have feelings for” and then makes such severe denying claims to his own sister.

[meatdiaz]

also… we’re not ready for silver fox eddie diaz…

[meatdiaz]

i love buck and eddie and i love how they love each other and i miss them so bad oh my god it’s like a physical ache somewhere deep inside me do you remember how they look at each other

[gloomydiaz]

I want to build a house with you, tell me it’s a whole life too

Explicit | Buddie | chapter 4/5 | 7k | tags: miscommunication, living together, light angst, domesticity, getting together (eventually)

'We made a cake!' says Theo.  'Really? What kind?' asks Maddie. 'Chocolate raspberry with ganache,' says Theo, except he pronounces it gah-natch. 'Ooh my favorite,' says Maddie, 'are you going to have the first slice?' 'No,' Theo shakes his head traitorously, 'we're giving Eddie the first one because it's his party.' Maddie's eyes flick to Buck, her eyebrows raised, and Buck is so glad Eddie is facing away from them but he can still see that the tips of his ears have gone pink. 'Lucky Eddie,' says Maddie as Eddie bends at the knees to set Theo on his feet, 'shall we wait outside so him and Buck can get it ready?' 'Yeah,' says Theo and Maddie lets of Buck so he can take her hand, stepping out into the yard, 'I'm going to have the second slice. Then Chris can have the next one and Buck can—.' Eddie sidles over to Buck, fully in the kitchen now, as Buck gets the raspberries out of the fridge and fetches the cake from where he'd stored it out of reach of tiny hands. Buck turns on the tap, the water running cold so he can wash the fruit and Eddie leans back against the cabinets so he can watch him. 'It's my party is it?' he says. 'Yeah, I mean, it was your idea,' Buck shrugs, fresh raspberries rinsed and sitting in the colander, the cake set on the countertop next to the sink. 'Thank you,' says Eddie. Buck is carefully placing the raspberries in concentric rings on top of the cake now. It's delicate work, he can't look away from it. 'You're welcome.' Eddie takes hold of Buck's wrist, the last raspberry pinched between his thumb and index finger, bringing Buck's hand to his mouth. His tongue is wet, hot against Buck's fingertips as he snags the fruit, lingering a second too long before he leans back, chewing, his lips staining red and grinning. Buck swallows, his mouth full of spit and he can almost taste the tart, dusty softness of the raspberry himself, the juice bursting across his own tongue. 'Do you need help?' says Eddie and he's still got his fingers circled warm and strong around Buck's wrist. 'No, I've got it,' says Buck and he risks a glance but it's just Eddie looking at Buck like he always does.

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I have a little epilogue also to come but that’s it! Thank you to everyone who has read and commented on this❣️love you all 🥰

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[girlfailure-poetics]

I have kind of a niche political view on tumblr, which is that I think misogyny is bad even when it’s just hurting women

[girlfailure-poetics]

and I don’t even think it needs to have a singular benefit for men for feminism and the abolition of patriarchy to be worthwhile

[girlfailure-poetics]

in fact the abolition of patriarchy could be a net loss for men and I would still think that feminism and the abolition of patriarchy was worth it

[glorious-spoon]

thinking about mother's boy again, as one does, and i love so much buck's desperate bargaining for eddie's life, because it's not out of character at all. he's not giving up or giving in or admitting defeat. it's an absolutely calculated, clear-eyed assessment of the situation: eddie is alone, almost certainly unarmed, expecting no danger from bonnie or earl. if buck screams for help, she'll put a bullet in his head and then go out and do the same to eddie. if eddie knows he's there, he won't leave. bonnie can make him leave, and she will, as long as buck plays on her sympathies just right.

buck does not at that point realistically expect to survive. but his chances - of talking bonnie around, of another opening to escape - are better if eddie leaves now. and even if he doesn't make it out alive, he can make sure that eddie does. so that's what he tries to do.

(and yeah, of course eddie realizes he's there, of course they save each other in the end - but they were lucky, and it easily could have gone the other way.)

idk! i feel like it often gets treated as this Dark Night Of The Soul moment for buck where he gives up in despair because he doesn't think he's worth saving, but i don't think it is! i think it's the exact same ruthless pragmatism that drives a lot of buck's risky choices, and for that reason i actually also think that eddie, if he ever found out, would understand even if he hated it.

[creekfiend]

relational trauma has to be healed relationally. the best way to practice having relatively "safe" interactions with ppl is joining a hobby group/club/whatever. I've recently joined like ten Fancy Leather Bag groups on fb out of deep curiosity and interest and the communities ppl will build around literally everything I swear to god. I've seen multiple ladies in these purse groups being like "thank you everyone in this hobby for getting me through my chemotherapy" like ... sometimes we dismiss the middle aged purse lady demographic but you know what they have got is a functional community where they support each other that just happens to be centered around purses. having now read many posts from these groups for several weeks I can see that the object being collected IS important, and is certainly the superifival draw into the space as well as something that provides an immediate shared interest, the actual benefit of localish hobby/collecting spaces is largely community and social support.

those of us who are Very Online Only could stand to learn from this sort of thing I think. it doesn't have to be purses it could be anything. but like. (gestures at the purse ladies who are getting each other through chemotherapy) Shared Interest Facebook Group And/Or Subreddit has it for you. i think.

[creekfiend]

this is actually my first step of learning emotional regulation. yes yes, restful sleep and physiologically appropriate exercise and getting outside and eating nutritious meals. these are all good. but also MEET. YOUR. SOCIAL. NEEDS. you need the relational foundation to cushion you while you work on these skills! i know it's really scary because we all have relational trauma but that doesn't mean we don't have a need for social connection and support!!!

[glorious-spoon]

eddie diaz is the kind of guy who'd figure out he's in love with his best friend, immediately decide that he can't possibly admit this to anyone, and then try to stealthily get advice on how to proceed from said best friend without admitting why he needs it.

he's trying to woo buck with advice buck gave him while under the impression eddie is pursuing someone else. this is going GREAT (not).

[glorious-spoon]

eventually buck asks how it's going with this mystery person and eddie is like NOT GREAT. >:(

and buck, so, so earnestly and sincerely, tells him, well, whoever they are they're an idiot (eddie has been deliberately fudging the pronouns in his quest for advice. buck is NOT thinking about it), you're a catch.

so eddie finally reaches his breaking point and yells, IT'S YOU, OKAY, YOU'RE THE IDIOT, and huh, it turns out that's all he had to do to get buck to kiss him stupid(er).

[glorious-spoon]

i am kind of into the idea of buck not ever exactly admitting his feelings so much as quietly shifting his assessment of the situation from 'of course i'm not in love with eddie, he's straight and that's preposterous' to 'well whatever, there's obviously no point in paying any attention to the fact that i'm in love with eddie, because he's straight'.

anyway the thing is he gets to the second stage and is like. oh. well, shit, obviously everyone (including eddie) knows this and we're all just politely not mentioning it. let's just carry on.

[poughkeepsiesjr]

the reason why "the trials and tribulations of evan buckley: a tragedy in 97 acts" works so well is because it's a line that could've only been written by someone carnally familiar with fanfiction.net circa 2011 and performed by the former star of Step Up: Revolution

[poughkeepsiesjr]

the reason why "the trials and tribulations of evan buckley: a tragedy in 97 acts" works so well is because it's a line that could've only been written by someone carnally familiar with fanfiction.net circa 2011 and performed by the former star of Step Up: Revolution