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trans he/him | i make vents sometimes

[the-crows-are-rotting]

this is a vent blog. dont expect usual joy and whimsy here

[the-crows-are-rotting]

i wish i took those messages as a sign to leave him

[gl1tt3rgh0ul]

can feel the decay of my heart seeping out through my ribs

[aesungaia]

Everyone's Friend

[the-crows-are-rotting]

i fucked up

[unfiltereddddmess]

[the-crows-are-rotting]

im fucking stuck somewhere that makes me feel so much anxiety and dread and with people who abused me when i was younger. i hate being here. and i cant get out

[the-crows-are-rotting]

it feels like im always like this whenever im stuck at home

[traumabody]

has anyone else realized really late that actually both their parents were shitty, but one of them was loud-and-obvious-shitty whereas the other had more of a quiet-neglect thing going on

[the-crows-are-rotting]

cant even tell her to stop either because i already know she wont listen. she never does

[the-crows-are-rotting]

ok do we just . not know what boundaries are anymore?????

[the-crows-are-rotting]

anyone else have that crushing sense of dread?

[the-crows-are-rotting]

gotta love . the guilt and shame

[traumabody]

i will never stop mourning the life i lost actually

[traumabody]

all i wanted in life was love and now i am terrified of it

[the-crows-are-rotting]

honestly thought itd be easier being told that what i experienced was abuse + neglect. guess not

[the-crows-are-rotting]

trauma didnt make us stronger. it made us overly wary of everyone. paranoid. defensive and in some cases reactive.

it took everything we couldve been and tore it apart.