Mahi

An absolute trash writer who lives to romanticize everything. She/Her | 17

[the-depressed-muffin]

The Crows™ as The Wicked King quotes:

Nina: Revenge is sweet, but ice cream is sweeter.

Matthias: It seems I have singular a taste for women who threaten me.

Jesper: Yes, my great Wylan, my darling god. I will be as sober as a stone carving, just as soon as I can.

Wylan: I'm not sure I sleep, but I do dream.

Inej: Watching my back is the perfect opportunity to stick a knife in it.

Kaz: Legends need not concern themselves with something as small as happiness.

[the-depressed-muffin]

Lahore is like that old friend that you grew distant with over the years, but if they called you at three in the morning, you'd still answer.

[the-depressed-muffin]

Head of a Guillotined Man, Théodore Géricault, 1818

There's noise all around me

My feet drag along

The gallows are singing,

"Another one gone!"

My lips cracked and purple

My hands tied in chains

I'm thrown on my deathbed

With nothing to gain

They told me to pray and to wish and believe

Look where it got me, they call me a thief

But they don't know the weeping, the hunger, the cries

The helpless demands in a child's eyes

[thegirlthatcriesacademia]

‘You should have seen this coming,’ they said. I did see it coming. I saw it coming the way you see a train coming when you’re tied to the tracks.

Margaret Andrews

[quotemadness]

“I’m not totally mad at you. I’m just sad. You’re all locked up in that little world of yours, and when I try knocking on the door, you just sort of look up for a second and go right back inside.”

— Haruki Murakami

[the-depressed-muffin]

First of all, I can't believe I ever ruined a perfectly fine book like this.

Moving on. If you can't guess from my chicken scratch handwriting and the various indentations made in the paper, I was angry as hell when writing this. I'd forgotten all about this until my mother passed this book to me today (thankfully she didn't bother flipping open the very first page 💀) it goes as follows (forgive me for the lack of punctuation, I wasn't really thinking when writing this. Obviously. Also, I'm gonna include the writing on the backside of this page too because it's a whole rant 💀💀💀):

The thing is our interests differ nothing more, nothing less. I'm ordinary [insert Hannah Montana singing "I'm just an ordinary girl"] like you and I mean that but when you tell me I'm not supposed to do what I love than that doesn't get any good for me now does it? My life was decided for me before I was born my name, my family even my religion. I never objected to anything (???). The only thing I get to decide was my thing (wtf does this even mean past me??) . My interests and even that right is not given to me. I have to live bounded (???) to narrow minds and society why? Because everyone does. Not one person in this shell of a place thinks like me (I'm not like other girls~) they are all narrow minded and thick. Just like they were brought up to be. It's their mistake that their parents taught them this and they just blindly followed. Just like... [Discontinued]

So, wow. Keep in mind that I wrote this soon after I turned, twelve, maybe? Yeah. Funny thing is, no matter how hard I try, I can't for the life of me remember what the hell I was raging about here. Looking back on it, I sound so entitled and bratty. But those feelings I had back then must've been overwhelming for me to ruin my book like this. My point is, I'm older now and when I look back at these things, I remember the feeling of anger but never the cause. In a sense I've moved on but these words etched down will never show that, they will forever be the words of a prepubescent kid who was angry at the world. It's scary and amazing at the same time. I can go back to all I've wrote over the years and see different versions of me in the writings from a new perspective, but the me in those writings remains the same.

Do I sound crazy? It's two in the morning, forgive me if I do 😅

[shisasan]

𝙹𝚞𝚕𝚢 𝟷, 𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟺, 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙳𝚒𝚊𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜 𝙾𝚏 𝙵𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚣 𝙺𝚊𝚏𝚔𝚊, 𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟺-𝟷𝟿𝟸𝟹

[primulaceas]

Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood

[the-depressed-muffin]

My father once raised a question that many fathers might think of, but never ask. He asked us, why we always prepared stuff for mother's day but never for father's day. Being as young as we were, we didn't even know "Father's Day" existed. We'd only ever seen billboards, advertisements and shows dedicated to mothers. That year we all got him something, because fathers rarely get the love reserved for mothers. Happy father's day Baba, for being an immeasurable source of knowledge, laughs and love for us. For giving us everything we wished for and more but keeping us humble too. If it wasn't for you, I would've still been the same meek kid getting beat up by her younger sister 😂 For all the difference and all the similarities we've shared over the years, I love you all the more. I keep in my heart all the stories, the songs and the quips. I wish we'd had more time together, but I hope to do well to do your memory justice. Watch over me, forever yours, Babi

[vendetta06]

relevant

[the-depressed-muffin]

You know that scene in The Breakfast Club when the Janitor is telling Vernon exactly why he became a teacher, how he thought he'd have days off, summer vacation, mini me's but he ended up having to do real work and little to show for it and now he was bitter about it and took it out on the students by trying to assert his dominance on them? I think that's true for a lot of teachers.

[dontwanttobeanamericanidiot]

It is. I just went through the education program and the amount of people this applies to is scary. This should apply to no one. If u want to be a teacher, do it for the love of ur subject and the love of the students. Not to go through a power trip over people younger than u. Who will look up to u and see hey if I want power all I have to do is become a teacher. If u want to know how dangerous this is, look at the number of teachers at the capitol riots in the us back in January. It was a lot. And that’s what we r teaching students, impressionable minds, is ok. It’s fucked up and it needs to change. Now.

[the-depressed-muffin]

Things my Teachers™ have actually said and my thoughts as they said it:

• "Back in our day, we would be scared to make eye contact with our teachers. If our pencil fell down during a lecture, we didn't pick it up until the lecture ended." (But what if...you had to write something??? What if the Frightening Being called you out on not writing??? I'm confused)

• "You need to upgrade yourself!" (I'm not software???)

• "Teachers are your spiritual parents." (I don't have the mental capacity to unpack that at nine in the morning)

• [After I corrected a mistake they made] "Kids these days are very bold. If our teacher made a mistake, we'd copy it as it was, not to embarrass them." (Okay??? You do you hun)

• "I became a teacher because I think our country needs a better generation of students." (You severely overestimated your own importance in the circle of life. Say less)

• "You can't even hit kids these days because they complain to their parents. Too pampered. Our teachers used to hit us with canes and we wouldn't say a word." (Your. Teachers. Abused. You. Stop glorifying it)

• "I expected more from you, as ***'s sibling." (I'm going to k word myself)

[the-depressed-muffin]

As a child, I was lucky to have teachers who rooted for me to be the best version of myself. To learn as I knew best, as long as I learned. Who taught me what ambition was instead of telling me the way I did things was wrong. As I grew up, I saw less and less of teachers like that and I wish that wasn't the case. We need more teachers who make you want to do good even if it's only to earn their validation.

[the-depressed-muffin]

Society needs more teachers who genuinely care about their students growth and mental health instead of just viewing them as numbers who could "ruin the result." So many teachers nowadays are more like corporate CEOs, (pushing their students to the point of exhaustion, trying to get the same result from everyone regardless of the way they function, disregarding any and all opinions they might have, trying to force the narrative that they cannot, under any circumstance, be wrong), rather than being mentors.

[the-depressed-muffin]

You know that scene in The Breakfast Club when the Janitor is telling Vernon exactly why he became a teacher, how he thought he'd have days off, summer vacation, mini me's but he ended up having to do real work and little to show for it and now he was bitter about it and took it out on the students by trying to assert his dominance on them? I think that's true for a lot of teachers.

[targuzzler-deactivated20180224]

are you a philosopher

boy im dumb as shit

[pochowek]

“boy im dumb as shit” is just rephrased Socrates’s “I know that I know nothing“ so whats the truth

[the-depressed-muffin]

Okay but imagine...