|you live a long time yet.|

Love of love written by the broken hearted, love of life written by the dead

[the-fallen-stars]

You can’t see me here and suddenly I remeber how the devils in the details. Every last part of me I tried.

An incapable possibility of equalibrium unless I act it.

But that dosent mean I’m sane

It’s simply for show

For everyone to applaud me. …..

Mmmm not me

My parents

How they wish they WISH I was theirs.

And I’d would have love to take it.

But I can’t

I want to be loved I want to be free I want to be ME

But I can’t .

God how I can’t and it. Disgusts me

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Incomplete.

And incompetent

Why am I so bad?…. Why am I like this?.

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Don’t look at me

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Pedo grandfather found dead on the floor

Congradudolences!!! ✨

……

I sound like a peice of shit

But fuvk it I don’t care.

I care for my grandmother

But I don’t get why the very man who made everyone’s life hell just-

Is mourned for like this.

I don’t get it.

Everyone kinda hated him.

Then he drops dead on the floor

I like to think he hit his head again.

No matter!

I can’t help but grin behind backs

It feels good

GOOD.

IM GLAD!

JUST SAY YOUR GLAD FUCKING HELL STRAIGHT TO IT

Full chest

YOUR GLAD HES DEAD.

….wont take away the worms in my mouth but .

He’s gone.

That’s fine.

Let me be coffee in hand and smile on my face and I’m

Happy

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Subservience.

…..has that all that’s been ingrained to me?

Is that ALL????

where did my fight go? My fear my panick?….

How bad does it have to be …

No

It’s there. Oh it’s still there alright.

Gnawing on scraps but it’s there….

It’s all there. It’s angry. It sobs. It cries it claws at its own ground but it dosent DARE speak out for now.

It will be useful oneday.

One day it will be

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My stomach aches as I think

…..

I wish no harm. I want to protect. Defend.anything….. my arms will still be open. Because kind is all I can be.

….even if it hurts .

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Not for me not for you. I wonder for who then.

….you don’t

Need to care

And it must be so

F R E E I N G .

I don’t want to care about me either but look where I am.

Then again that’s just what my past makes me do. …. I want to think the air plane example of “if the oxygen masks falls you take care of yourself first then the person next to you”

But I can’t . I can’t somehow. I’d suffocate trying first before I let them feel an instant without breath.

But it’s not for me. It’s not for you

I could kill

I should kill

I should kill it all with my teeth and hands and just cradle it.

Cradle it so fucking tight I’d squeeze the life outta it by mistake.

Too gentle.

Too gentle

Too SOFT.

I hate it.

I hate it I hate it I hateit

[beefcliff]

5.

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[the-fallen-stars]

Your looking at obsession my dear.

You cannot fathom the thought of being alone …stop looking for bones.

That’s a dogs job.

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With no other reference all you have left is to scream.

You look unwell. You look as if you’re actively dying and unlike the rest this is all yourself.

Eating yourself from the inside out.

You weren’t thinking before until now.

And it’s beautiful. I could just admire you!

Continue please

You won’t die. I’ve kept my word. But you will suffer as long as you writhe.

There will be no freedom.

No solution.

Nothing. You will start if scratch. And you will fall one way or another.

But still dosent mean there is a chance you won’t!

Please entertain me.

[the-fallen-stars]

These bitches can’t keep one day together for one person but it wasn’t like I expected them too

Especially with dad

Already they got the dog another cardiac arrest early morning

Dads pissed the fuck off and threatened divorce and said fuck everyone

Moms pissed because of said thing and because he left our brother at the mall

Sure got hair done-

But their all

Just a mess

But that’s the best thing about not expecting anything special

The disappointment hurts a lot less so your just numb to it

Im so on a roll :3

I’ll be fine hopefully-

[the-fallen-stars]

I’ve never been apart of it

What connection do I hold aside from third party ?.

Im alone

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Tormented him for some time,he’s so full of love now

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Weird yeah?

Who knows

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I hate her.

But I have to keep taking care of her.

She’s so far gone