BIG EDIT: THIS IS FOR THE CHARACTER PROFILE SIDE BLOG
Hey everyone! This is a heads up that once I'm done with everyone's updated profiles on toyhouse this blog will be either deleted or emptied out!
I will have the toyhouse link tagged to my main blog when that happens so everyone will still be able to see and check on their favorite characters, and hopefully see new information about them!
Ashoal had gotten himself away from the kitchen and the grey stranger that had invaded his home. The cerulean couldnt take it any more! This was his home! How were they getting in? Even with Viktor and Rutaci in just the other rooms, he didnt feel safe anymore. These things could find him anywhere he hid, from the library all the way out here in the abandoned church on the edge of the desert, they always found them.
Ashoal groaned and wiped the angry tears from his eyes, emotions easily overpowering him as he started to well up and cry as he paced the long hall between overturned pews. "what am i going to do Ammare? I dont want them to get you too, I dont want them to be able to hurt you like theyve hurt us" he rambled to the grub in his stomach, one hand carefully resting on the large bump
"i wont let them hurt you.... I promise" he whispered, taking a deep breath and turning on his heel only to stop in his tracks when a sudden wetness could be felt running down his leg. His eyes went wide as they glanced down to the almost clear liquid soaking the inner leg of his pants and starting to lightly pool where the cotton couldnt contain it anymore.
Initially embarrassment set in, how could he have not felt the need to use the bathroom? Wouldnt he have felt something along those lines long before this happened? Then it dawned on him. He'd already taken care of that before he went into the kitchen.
With a shaky hand he rubbed his stomach, feeling the grub inside shifting before getting a soft twinge of pain. Something in the back of his mind told him it was time. No....no it's too soon, the book said i still had another couple of weeks!
"Ru..V-Vik..." he called out, hoping someone would hear him as his voice shook. "Ruta?! Viktor?! " He panicked. He wasnt ready, he didnt feel SAFE..... but the grub decided now would be the best time.
Ash swallowed and carefully sat himself on the nearest pew with a shaky breath. He had to make sure they heard him....
Viktor showed up only a moment after the second call. Both his keen hearing and the speed of his movements were both helpful in arriving to help for the birth. His eyes were wide with worry as he approached Ashoal's side to help him to the nest.
"Lets get you settled in, it's best if you're as comfortable as you can be," Viktor said gently, offering his arm. He'd heard the yelling and had considered going after the faceless intruder, but his matesprit and offspring's health and well being came first.
It was early for this to be starting, but from what little he could find on the subject, most of the danger from being under developed was passed for Ammare, and it was easier now than if the grub were coming too late instead.
"If it gets too bad I can carry you, but I didn't vvish to imply you couldn't on your ovvn. There should still be some time before that. Just breath and move slovvly if you need to. RU, BE A DEAR AND GET SOME VVARM TOVVELS."
Ashoal looked up to Viktor with fear in his eyes, hand reaching out and gratefully taking the jades hand when it was close enough. With help, ashoal was back on his feet and pressing as tightly to his mates side as possible.
Viktor knew what to do, far more than Ash, and that quelled the fear in his mind for the time being "alright....i..... Thank you" he stammered softly, looking up to Viktor as they moved back to the nest room meeting Rutaci on the way.
Tonight was going to be a long one, but Ashoal knew deep down that with his mates beside him, everything would be okay.
I dont have any proper pictures but Vekkoh is based off a kinabalu flying gecko. Hes supposed to be black with what look like galaxies down his back with a dark purple inside his mouth
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A word of caution Not all trolls like to tell about their past
I'm going to tell you know I don't know how to say this right, and to be saying it at all has been weighing heavily on my mind.......
If everyone remembers, at the beginning of the year, I had a hiatus for a while where I was working on myself and my mental health.
This was due to my husband leaving me.
I have been torn up in a way that I never felt I could recover from and in a way I have not. So I have been in a severe depression that has had me contemplating ending my life on more than one occasion and with the most recent round of anon's going through and telling me I should kill myself, I have never been lower.
My mental health has been declining, my urge to do anything in life has been waning, and I don't know what to do with my life anymore. I am a broken woman and though everyone knows me as a happy bubbly person most of the time, the good feelings anon, the person who leaves paragraphs in your ask box or your DMs reminding you that you deserve love and you deserve to be happy......I'm not.
As I write these words I'm currently crying and forcing myself to go through with typing these things out. with making sure everyone who even cares an inkling about me hears what I've had to say, how I feel.
My depression feels like it is trying to kill me, and the guilt I feel about not being able to remember who I've replied to, where an RP is, or if I was even supposed to write a starter has been dragging me deeper and deeper into the hole that is eating me inside.
I am going to be leaving tumblr by the end of August. I will still have my blog up....still have my characters and our memories where you can see them and what few stories I have posted in Shuska's Storybook, but for all intents and purposes I will be gone.
I am doing this, NOT to hurt myself or kill myself, but for my mental health and the need to move on from things that have been weighing me down.
I will be posting this a few different times, so know that it may show up on your dash more than once and I'm sorry if its a bother to you, but I don't want to just post once and no one see what's going on.....
I'll be making a discord group soon and once it is made I'll link it to this for those who want to stay in contact but I just..... I can't stay here anymore..... not without going under and loosing the battle that I've been fighting for so long
tl;dr : My depression is bad and getting worse and I'm leaving tumblr.
EDIT: Here is the link to the discord if you want to keep in contact
https://discord.gg/N4zWvpaYfZ
when I publish my novel I want you all to swear to me that youâre going to write uncomfortably erotic fic about characters I didnât intend to have sexual tensionÂ
Name: Khirot Martos
Blood: Violet
Height: 5'3"
Favorite book Genera: fantasy
Favorite spot: Comfy corner
Moirail: none
Matesprit: none
Kismesis:none
A Bit about Them:
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A word of caution Not all trolls like to tell about their past