Breath, dreams, silence, invincible calm... You will triumph. @the-most-courageous-thing - Tumblr Blog

It’s been forever since I posted here but since tumblr’s deader than it used to be, maybe it’s a better place to put the ramblings and intentions I need to get out. This year has been insane. I’ve felt like I’m living in a soap opera every day. I never imagined my life to be so dramatic or so tragic. I never imagined refusing a gossip magazine printed my horror story. It is bizarre that in such circumstances you still have to live your life. You have no choice but to pick yourself up, brush your teeth, buy bread and milk and pay your gas bill. And then you have to move on and think of the future. I’ve spent so long focusing on surviving the present that the concept has seemed wholly unreal. But here I am, planning for it. No one gains from my staying in bed all day, letting the same few thoughts run riot in my head. No one gains from me not bothering to eat or brush my teeth. If the only person benefiting from me doing a little more than that is me, that’s enough. I might not always manage to believe I matter, but I may as well not live in suffering. And if by pulling myself out of this rut I can get to the place I dream of being in the next few years, then I will benefit others, and that’s a goal I can get behind. With that in mind, some small goals for the next few days: - put in my Steiner school applications - work out a study plan for my remaining exams this year - contact student advice about my options for next year - cook something for myself every day, no matter how simple - see a friend - leave the house and stand in the sunshine, at least once a day

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There must be something in books, something we can’t imagine, to make a woman stay in a burning house; there must be something there. You don’t stay for nothing.

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