the Pluto system

*like 9 different anxiety disorders* *7 personalities* *1 awkward person* System: PLUTO a BPD developed system

[thearrowteam]

Your persecutors aren't evil and deserve to be loved and have a voice in the system

[the-pluto-system]

THANKYOU VERY MUCH

[thearrowteam]

"Persecutors"

Okay I've mentioned how I disagree with how Tumblr (and really every online DID community I've been a part of) views persecutors. For starters hi, this is Izabella, I am an alter that would usually be considered a persecutor. I lash out, I don't think before I speak, I've hurt people (including myself), I'm mean sometimes, all in all sometimes I do terrible things. And sure I've grown a lot and I regret a lot of the hurtful things I've done, I try to apologize for these things when I can.

Every part/alter acts a certain way for a reason. Using the term persecutor I found tends to diminish the reason that persecutors do what they do. Parts that lash out exist for a reason. They don't do it because they like to, everybody has a motive. I lash out because I was trying to escalate things before anyone else had the chance to.

Ignoring your persecutor alters is incredibly harmful. So many systems demonize their alters and lock them away. You cannot lock away your parts, it is harmful. No matter how awful it is you have to accept them because they're a part of you. Dismissing or endorsing their actions helps nobody and will only hurt you in the long run.

My suggestion is just, talk to them. Understand their motives, give them a say in the system and make them feel like they belong there. If you shun them away and say that they're horrible they'll keep lashing out. They lash out the same way a depressed teenager does. The longer you wait the worse it gets. These are alters that need help.

Tumblr has a way of demonizing them as well. Making them seem awful and horrible and also just labeling them as an alter you don't like. One of my biggest regrets is labeling one of us a persecutor. We let our persecutors decide they want to go by that term (I did not decide to as I felt constraint by that role but that's a different topic). One alter we chose the term for, he felt so awful and that he had to stay within the bounds of his role that he couldn't accept his actions or why he did them and eventually went dormant instead.

Don't demonize persecutors. They are not bad. They are not awful. They are hurting. They are doing what they think is right. Talk to them, learn from them, odds are they have something important to contribute to the system.

Every alter or part or whatever you want to call it has a reason to exist. Find out theirs.

[dirtylittledamsel-osdd]

Is there a term you would prefer?

[thearrowteam]

Me personally I like to use protector. There’s a whole other thing about the focus in the DID community of knowing your alters roles too. Honestly the problem here is not the role persecutor it is the demonization of the role.

- Izabella

[the-pluto-system]

We are trying to find a term for ours to use. She's a teen and she's been through some things. She's a s*xual protector and had taken all the damage from any s*xual assult. She's so strong but yeah she lashes out. Sending love to prosecutors and alters who don't like that title ❤️💪

[hauntinglesbian]

people caring?!? about me?!?? impossible

[adirabennett2-blog]

[the-dissociated-bones]

Me when I wanna do something but my headmates say no

[the-iska-collective]

me, in any situation where i have to speak.

[asteriesystem]

Quick note that:

Having child alters that use “little speak” does not make your system fake

Having alters with odd typing quirks (i.e special fonts) does not make your system fake

Having weak communication does not make your system fake

Not knowing every little detail about all your alters does not make your system fake

Having “stereotypical alters” (i.e having an “evil” alter) does not make your system fake

Having a simplistic headspace does not mean your system is fake

Having a lot of fictives does not mean your system is fake

Knowing you have DID/OSDD or being diagnosed at a “younger” age than normal does not mean you’re any less valid

If you’re trans, having alters that identify as the gender you were assigned at birth does not make you fake or invalid

Not having “blackout” amnesia everytime another alter fronts is normal

Every system is different, therefore systems with different styles or behavior shouldn’t be chalked up as “fake”.

[dulcethope-deactivated20220719]

Not to sound selfish, but unfortunately quarantine has made it extremely harder for people with mental disorders. 

[waywardhumanoidgay-deactivated2]

Do you ever just realize you're alive and how horrible an idea that probably was for your mental health?

[kaizendid-deactivated20200409]

Me, the host, trying to enter our inner world that the other parts describe so detailed:

[thelatestkate]

March 2020 Illustrations ヽ(• ‿ •)ノ

[whitepeopletwitter]

[thesolarsystem]

wait you guys have headspaces?

[anxietyproblem]

[trappeds0ull-deactivated2020072]

wow

[femur-theif]

This hit me like a sack of bricks but this is what I needed to hear, thank you

[30-minute-memes]

Meirl

[accidentalchaosentity]

-mad improv skills

-how to walk silently

-how to calm yourself down from a panic attack

-how to cry quietly

- how to act happy or unbothered

- how to make people you don’t like, like you

Not to mention the inability to stand up for yourself

[kankri-is-a-transmed]

and the inability to make decisions for yourself

[moved-check-bio]

To flinch whenever someone raises a hand

[lesbian-pokemaster-deactivated2]

- how to be fucking cynical

- how to panic whenever your friends treat you slightly different then usual because you think they’re mad at you

- how to hide things pretty well

[the-indescribable-system]

Where is the lie? - Cassy/Jamie

[foggy-mirror]

I relate,, to all of these

[the-pluto-system]

How to end up getting into abusive relationships

[bpd-diary-confessions]

Dear Diary #73

Relationships are hard. 

Especially when the other doesn’t understand what sexual trauma you’ve previously been through.

[the-pluto-system]

Everything I've ever wanted everything I was living for has been cancelled becuase of the corona virus and there is nothing left for me to have hope for. There is nothing left for me to feel joy about. There is nothing left for me to feel alive for. Thanks for stealing the last few strands of coping I had.