Diary

thoughts, feelings, experiences, memories

[crystalspink]

help, nostalgia is eating me alive

[leave-me-hypnotized-love]

“If we get out of here, I don’t want to see how things go, I don’t want to take things slow… Because the way it goes, is that you’re always the one.”

[luckylluminati]

Shine on, you beautiful being,

and if they cannot handle your light,

let their eyes burn.

[the-suicide-doll]

I had all and then most of you

Some and now none of you

[the-suicide-doll]

Take me back to the night we met

[the-suicide-doll]

I don't know what I'm supposed to do, haunted by the ghost of you

[crystalspink]

[the-suicide-doll]

you can keep judging me

and you can keep comparing me

as if i don't do that enough already to myself

every. single. day.

[the-suicide-doll]

there was nothing beautiful about me breaking down

i know you wanted to paint me as this crying angel

but all I feel is nothing and my heart is now hollow

you are lying to yourself

# stop romanticizing depression

[the-suicide-doll]

why do i drink when i know its bad for your liver

why do i smoke when i know its bad for your lungs

why do i cut when i know u can bleed to death

maybe its because i want to destroy my health before i finally destroy myself

[the-suicide-doll]

and all I had control over was where the next slit was going to be,

and all i could feel was my own fist against my cheekbone,

because why can't life be the way I want it to be and why does pain have to feel so blunt,

and why is the razor not sharp enough

to make me feel something more than this

and why do people behave in a way that

makes me lose all hope in something better than this

and why arent the curtains darker

[lonelynotlonely]

[the-suicide-doll]

and if i only could

make a deal with God

I'd get him to swap our places

[the-suicide-doll]

last night i dreamt that somebody loved me

-The Smiths, 1987

[hancarolyn]

goin home to be ugly in peace is one of my fav things to do

[soft-pics]

[lyjerria]

Accept the fact that you will grow apart from people you’ve had significant relationships with. Understand when someone no longer positively affects your life. Let them go. Don’t hinder your growth.