god i wish gay people were real

- Basil / Vasyl - . he/xe/It . 20 . white . Dutch . . transmasc . queer . alterhuman . . auDHD . HC-DID system . phys disabled . incredibly mentally ill.

[the-sunbird-chronicles]

HELLO

Okay now that I have your attention,

Welcome to the sunbird chronicles blog! This will be a blog for anything and everything I want to shout into the void that isn't neatly strictly art, DID, or trauma-related. It's just gonna be for random stuff! Fandom, personal stuff, you name it (my specific blogs are as follows; @parlour-of-silhouettes for DID stuff, @ragdoll1745 for art, and @traumaedge for heavy venting). I found myself missing tumblr after being very active on it for a number of years and then forgetting about it, so I wanna try and breathe life back into this little old blog here.

SO,

Identity-related business first, i guess

My name is Basil, or Vasyl, or Damien, or Helios, depending on who, and when, you ask. I'm queer in a million ways, disabled, mentally ill in a million ways, and I am 20 years old. I am autistic, have ADHD, NPD, STPD and HC-DID, and I am physically disabled (FND) and use a wheelchair and cane. I consider myself generally punk + cripplepunk, and i consider being called eccentric a compliment. I also identify as alterhuman (a sunbird/vampire combination, to be precise). For me, this is purely a psychological thing. I believe my brain took this route to cope with near-constant dehumanisation. It is not in any way a spiritual thing to me. I don't care nor judge people for whom it is spiritual but like, just be aware that's not the case for me.

Less fun identity-related business

I am a HC-DID system, an ITBC victim, and an OEA/RAMCOA survivor. Between the latter two I personally prefer the team OEA, but use whatever for me, I guess. Though I'm fine with both, I prefer the term parts over alters, and I actively dislike the term headmates (for myself; I do not give a shit about what others use for themselves). I have NPD, STPD, and FND, the latter of which I use a cane and wheelchair for. Please talk about mobility aids with me, I love discussing that stuff. Also, ranting about the shitty health services is one of my specialties at this point.

MY SHIT. SHIT I LOVE. MY TRASH HEAP OF AUTISM

(this part got stupid long, so BAM gonna put a break here)

My SPECIAL INTERESTS are, in some vague approximate order of intensity;

TRAINS, trams, metros, any public transit. I will not stop about trains once I start.

Language and linguistics. I love language. It's my baby.

As a little sub-interest to language, vocal synths have a special place in my heart, too.

Music and art as a whole. I am intense about music in particular though.

A sub-interest here is House of Leaves. intense about that too.

The Markiplier Ego universe and anything attached to it. Talk to me about Actor. talk to me about Actor please i'm normal

My HYPERFIXATIONS are, currently, again in the same vague order of intensity/relevant...ness;

History, but like, specifically the 19th and 20th century. I get zoomies whenever I think about it.

Military stuff; specifically how armies are structured, and historical militaries and wars (ties into the 19th/20th century interest) (yes i WAS an insufferable world wars fixated autistic in high school history classes why do you ask)

The Hermitverse (the Life Series, Hermitcraft itself, Evo SMP, Empires SMP vaguely, anything in that MCYT direction)

Lies of P

The Magnus Archives

Welcome to Night Vale

Guchiry and the characters associated with it

FNAF (this one returns like a boomerang every half a year or so)

Dream SMP rarely rears its ugly head but it's generally not very long-lasting. Just be warned you may, potentially, maybe, see blips of it every now and then.

Bungou Stray Dogs was REALLY intense for a while and then just.. disappeared.. but I don't trust it to stay away, so I'm listing it here :D

Honkai Star Rail (similar story as FNAF here)

Shit I love but in, like, a normal way I guess

Video essays

Literary analysis

To combine those, big analyses of video games

Jacob Geller video essays. Enough said.

Rain World

Christianity (from an outside perspective; also, no, this is NOT a normal interest, but I don't want to make it feel special)

Seraph of the End

My Hero Academia

Red Dead Redemption 2

Uh yeah I think that's all! (wipes sweat from brow) I hope you enjoy your stay :)

[schizoetic]

Some ways people helped me while I was in psychosis:

Remaining calm since everything was amplified to me. Yelling at me could do something like trigger my mind to think nuclear bombs are falling

Listening to me without intentionally confirming my delusions or feeding them. This kept me safe from spiraling

Being kind. No matter how unwell I was I could still detect kindness

Having someone to advocate for me

Simply keeping me company. A silent distraction from a mind full of delusions goes a long way

Letting me vent however I needed to (as long as I wasn't an endangerment to myself or others)

Talking to me in good spirits. In psychosis a bad mood is contagious

Reminding me to take my medication or softly reinforcing their importance

Not acting like I'm unruly and viewing me with eyes of compassion

Providing me with basic comforts like food, drinks and clothing

Playing calming music

Laughing with me and not at me

Gently encouraging personal hygiene

Accepting that nonsensical ramblings or writings happen

Understanding that delusions may hold very big power over someone and can persuade someone to do things out of "character"

Being supportive of my being sober

Guiding me away from toxic individuals who don't have my best interest at heart

Not holding grudges no matter how embarrassing I may be when I was lost in my mind

Joining me outside to feel the comforts of the outdoors (once I was stable with mental health support)

Providing hugs as long as it was consensual

Most importantly I was seen as a person. Someone with as many complexities as anyone else

[schizosupport]

I think this is a very good list. Ofc no experience is ever universal, and I would be cautious about reminding people to take their medication, if you don't know their personal relationship to medication. I know that for me and many others, it can be very triggering when people check in whether we took our medication, when we're already in crisis.

In any case, very good list, just wanted to add a word of caution to allies, that unless you are quite confident that the person has an ok relationship to their medication and simply struggles to remember and prioritize it during active psychosis, it may be more triggering than helpful to bring it up.

[lakemojave]

You know that whatever character did those problematic things isn't like. Real, right?

[lakemojave]

You are aware that a fictional character is just a rhetorical construct designed to fulfill a narrative/thematic purpose right? That their actions are written by an author who wants to use them to explore complex ideas and moral gray areas within the safe confines of fiction right? That they aren't a real person who has killed real people right?

[cecelovesrats]

flat

[graphicdesignevident]

INCLUDES ALL CLUSTER A, CLUSTER B, CLUSTER C, FLAGS!!

⌏this is my first post on this account,, I've been wanting to make a blog for stuff I find/make for a while, so I thought why not do it now lmao!! ( intro coming soon though. ) ⌌

MADE BY ME!! :DD - I did steal the moving border on them from https://blinkies.cafe/ So please know that!! ( you can also make your own blinkies on there!! )

⇢ creds not needed,, but please like or re-blog!! I'd really appreciate it!! :))

CLUSTER A:

CLUSTER B:

CLUSTER C:

links to the original posters flags I used: (some may be re posts because of archived things, or broken links idk)

{ STPD - PPD - SZPD } { HPD - NPD - BPD - ASPD } { OCPD - AVPD - DPD }

[angrydino42-and-avathecannibal]

The Post Traumatic Manifesto - Weevildoing Userboxes

All images/characters/songs/etc belong to @weevildoing (obviously)

Machine Girl - Art by @weevildoing

Disposable Girl - Art by SABEN/SABENADF

Irreverent Girl - Art by FIEND/6KUROS

Splitter Girl - Art by VALENDAR

Fainéant Girl - Art by MNK_MND

Caliber Girl - Art by CALIGI

Chocolate-Box Girl - Art by FERALJAYCE

Taxidermy Girl - Art by CATASTROTHY

Chemical Girl - Art by TOYDRILL

Refraction Girl - Art by BIRDIEARTS

Nurse Parallel, PMHNP - Art by @weevildoing

[system-box]

[lgbtqiauserboxes]

[genderlesspersonx]

Black hole/Quasar // Graphics

✧─── ･ ｡ﾟ★: *.✦ .* :★. ───✧

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[ivy-vinezz]

yay more Minecraft achievements except this time they are sfawtde themed :)

hi I am grieving very hard right now d3r I miss you man

Ver 1

inspired by this post

[ivy-vinezz]

here take some Minecraft achievements cause my bus is stuck in the snow -_-

･ ⟢ ⋮ Free to use, credit not required but appreciated. Reposts/Edits/Recolours/adding to Masterlists or hoards allowed.

Sfawtde ver

[the-sunbird-chronicles]

I feel like I was doomed to hyperfixation as soon as it turned out Regrator is essentially just chronically ill tbh. People can pry this chronically ill, self destructive, queer, traumatised, NPD having little Bastard™ from my cold dead hands. He's mine now. Sorry guys.

[adoelhome]

Hi

I love them

Bye

[anxeious]

[largishcat]

anyone else get embarrassed when their self indulgent daydreams are like too self-indulgent? like oh jeez the telepaths are going to judge me

[kosmogrl]

[fictfrenzy]

@funnier-with-stpd

[thecloudservice]

No matter where you go, everyone is always connected.

╰┈➤ ⌞ VICTORIANVOLTOI ⌝ ⓘ A voltoi term for when you are permanently, unchangingly, victorian. This can manifest as being permanently in the victorian era, permanently being part of the victorian aesthetic, permanently taking part in victorian culture, or otherwise. Either way, you are certainly, without a doubt, forever victorian. ⓘ Self indulgent. ✉︎ Tagging @radiomogai