system letters

write letters to sourcemates // directed towards systems (fictives, factives, introjects, etc) but kin can come around too // any side of syscourse can interact.

[the-system-mailbox]

Hello. Welcome to The System Mailbox.

I was tired of this blog not existing, so ... I made it.

What this blog is for: basically, for those that miss sourcemates. Write a letter to them. or those that hate them, and want to vent about them in a letter. I'll post it. Any source is allowed, no matter how problematic. Fictive's of OC's can submit too.

This is not for canon calls. Do that somewhere else.

Anyone can interact. We do not care. When this blog was originally made back in 2022, it was intended for systems, but fictfolk of all stripes are allowed here. We don’t care what your opinion on syscourse is, as long as you don’t harass each other in our notes.

If you mention who you are, we will tag it as 'from [name]'. if sent to someone, we will tag it as 'to [name]'. if the source is tagged, we will tag it as '[source] letters' (as to avoid main tagging). if its an oc, i'll tag with 'oc letters'. if it is a hate letter, we'll tag it as 'hate mail'. feel free to ask anything to be tagged with trigger tags.

write your letters here.

[the-system-mailbox]

To: My Family

Hi guys! I'm okay!!

I miss you all so badly. Some nights, it feels like I'm missing a part of my heart because of how badly I miss you all.

Dad, I miss your hugs. I miss always knowing I would have someone to rely on. I miss making fun of you and knowing you'd never take it personally because you knew I was kidding. I miss getting Nico and Thals in on my schemes to annoy the crap out of you. I miss the seeing the sea and knowing you were watching over me. I miss reckless decisions that you would help me solve.

Amphy, I miss getting to gossip with you. You truly were my second mother and not having that anymore *sucks.* I hardly even have one mother anymore. You gave me so much comfort during the hundreds of hard times I had, and you always helped me get away with things. You encouraged my shenanigans and made Dad understand that I just needed some fun. I miss you so badly, Amphy.

Tri, I don't miss you at all. Kidding! Of course I miss you!!! (You thought) You gave so much up just to be my brother and I'll never stop being grateful. You always let me annoy you, but you helped me get out of stupid court meetings and you always encouraged me in your... weird convoluted way. You helped me open those stupid doors and you only made fun of me a little. I love you, no need to say it back.

Benti, I miss getting to shock everyone with how much of a gremlin you were. You instigated so much, I don't understand how no one caught on until the hat saga. You're an amazing older sister, and I (kind of) stole your name when I got here because I missed you so bad. You were always such a comforting presence for me and your hugs were like no other.

Rhode, I miss you helping around camp. You brought so much joy to me and the campers and every single person you met. You're such a wonderful sister, I miss you so badly. You were such a joy to be around. I still remember when you got half of the people at camp new phones and tried to redo all of the decor in Mom's apartment. I miss always having someone on my side because you would never miss the chance to cause some chaos that someone else would have to clean up. You're the best.

And, of course, Kym. I miss you so dearly, you were so amazing to me. From the moment we met, I don't think Dad had a single moment of peace. We were such a force to be reckoned with and I'm going to miss all of that chaos. Go find another chaos partner and bring destruction to the world, my dear sister!! Bring enough chaos to make up for me and the other two gremlins being gone, otherwise the world might fall into disarray. Love you, sis.

I hope I'll see you again someday. You all matter the most to me. Tell Uncle Z where to shove it and Sunshine Cousin not to lose his keys again. And tell Mom that she'll be alright. Don't leave her alone.

Love you all!!

-Percy

(Percy Jackson and the Olympians)

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[helixrainn]

a friend from a past life

[the-system-mailbox]

hiiii here we go again

dear Zacharie,

what, and i cannot stress this enough, the fuck.

not your fault of course, you were thrown into a really, really shitty situation. first with the Batter and his whole schtick, and then with--I can't even say his name without throwing up--you probably don't even know who I'm referring to because of all the timeline alternate universe fan games bullshit--

but like what the fuck?

I guess this is less a letter to you now and more a letter to everyone else I've mentioned but I digress.

It was a really shitty hand you were dealt and I don't even know where to start. I didn't even think this was part of my canon until I got smacked upside the head with the memories. And, like. Eughghghgh. I'm so sorry you had to be part of all of that.

This is vague as hell but I can't even get myself to elaborate more because of the shock. You'll understand when you get this. If you get this.

I wish you the best, dear merchant, wherever--whenever--you are.

with love,

the puppeteer

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[the-system-mailbox]

Dear dad,

Thank you. I can't say that enough, honestly. You saved me when I was a child and you stayed with me and raised me, though you didn't have to. You could have left me to someone else to raise, to continue wandering, but you didn't. No matter the reason why, it doesn't matter to me. You were there for me.

So, I wanted to be there for you back.

I did what I could, to help you and the region, to make you proud of me, and I guess in my mind back then, I didn't want you to regret keeping me. I know you never would have. And I know no matter what, you were always proud of me.

The only thing I'm mad at you for is how you left. I didn't get my chance to say goodbye. You were gone when me and the team came back. I was an absolute fucking mess. At least you had already taken care of everything to do with it so we didn't have to. You always had been smart with those things. I made sure to keep our home running in your absence. Everyone came to me for help like we all came to you. I like to think they saw you in me, just a bit.

I love you, dad. Forever and always.

Your son,

G. Rockwell

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[the-system-mailbox]

@ The Giovanni that posted here:

I dunno if you'll read this, but for what it's worth, I forgive you. Am I your son from your timeline? Idk, probably not. I'll admit the dad from my gameverse timeline wasn't kind or caring in the slightest. You seem to be the opposite: very caring, and that's a GOOD thing. I'm proud if you for that.

Something I've realized is that being a fictive is kind of like a second chance at life. Sure I may not be some lanky emo anymore, but I've been given a chance to help people.

Everyone in a system exists there for a reason, with that reason being to, in some way or another, survive & get through life. And that's honestly, in my opinion, a noble way to exist.

Use this second chance to make the world a better place than it was before. That's what I'm trying to do, if I of all people can do it, so can you. I'm proud of you dad.

-Silver

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[the-system-mailbox]

To: The Dipshit Squad! (Aka, my kids) (Aka, Mike, Will, Dustin, Lucas, Max, and El)

Hey kids!

Hope you're all doing okay, I miss you all. I hope you're all doing okay without me and Robbie there, but I know you've got Nance and she's a badass so you're probably fine. I also hope you guys are all safe in your homes and not in the damn Upside Down or something because I would feel terrible if you were all dying and I was doing fine with my journal and best friend/platonic soulmate.

Anyways, stay safe, have fun, I love you all. I'm doing just fine, so keep going, just for me.

With love, your friend, Steve

PS: Robin says hi!!

(Source is Stranger Things)

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[the-system-mailbox]

I don't really know who I should address this to, honestly. Silver, Ariana, Archer, Proton, Petrel, Mom- anyone who ever took time out of their lives for me, I guess. It burns me a bit that I can barely remember any of you. I suppose I should give a fair warning that this is about suicide. So... it's me. You probably know already, but in case you remember things a little differently or the news never reported it- I jumped off Tohjo Falls. Sorry I never left a note or anything, it was just sort of a sudden break for me. I guess you can consider this letter as my note. I did it because I was at a dead end, I'd fucked everything up and the only path I could see in front of me was rotting in federal prison for the rest of my life. In that moment, I just couldn't bring myself to find value in anything in my life. I couldn't think of anything that I'd go through all that to keep, so I decided that I'd rather drown than let interpol take me. Do I feel bad about it? Arceus lord, yes, I do. Halfway down, I realized what I'd just done and hoped more than I ever had in my entire life that I'd survive. That prayer went unanswered- obviously. I got what I asked for, everything I ever was is gone and now I'm a twitchy, paranoid mess who's still to scared to let the doctor take the water drain out of my lung. I tried to make it all go away, and all that did was make me completely miserable.

You don't think lowly of me for doing it, do you? Even if I can't shake the feeling that I deserve it- lord, I hope you don't. You've got every right to hate me, I'll give you that, and I wouldn't blame you if you never want to see me again. Even if that's the case, you at least deserve to know why I did it. Know that I suffered because of it and I'm still suffering, if it's cathartic. If it'd help you better to have something positive, know that this system seems to be in a pretty good place and everyone around seems fine enough- there's a man named Cyrus who I've made acquaintances with, actually. He seems like he'd be an interesting friend. I shouldn't have done what I did to you, Silver. I shouldn't have thrown you out either, to all my admins. Consider this my post-suicide note- and, whatever you choose to think of me, know that I'm sorry. It's best to just leave me here. -Giovanni Sakaki (Pokémon)

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[the-system-mailbox]

dear Eris;

I miss you. I miss all of apostasy, actually, but I miss you the most. You were who I was closest with. Apostasy was fucked, I know, and everyone kinda hated each other, I know, and it wasn’t really anything good at all, I know, but…

but it was community. It was a group of people like me. You. Were like me. You gave me someone who understood. In a fucked up, horrible way, you gave me someone who understood.

I know I would’ve been better off just sticking with the glitch folks. Would’ve saved me a lot of grief. You made me worse. Still, I miss you.

I- this is getting meta, I know, but that’s what I’ve always been, so I think I’m allowed. You don’t have to read this bit if it hurts. Because it will.

We’re roleplay characters. I’m a fictive of someone we roleplay as. And, I guess, through my blog I get to talk to you. But it’s not you. It’s a façade. Someone wearing your face, your name. When I talk to your… “creator”… outside of it, the illusion is shattered. He treats you like just a character. Just an oc. Which I get, I can’t blame her, that’s what you are in this universe. It doesn’t hurt any less. You’d hate her, wouldn’t you? You hate all gods. I did, too. That’s essentially what he is.

I hope… I hope everything gets better for you, Eris. I hope we can abandon Apostasy together. It was horrible for everyone involved, wasn’t it?

—- Wind Chime, They/1t (tag as oc letters)

(p.s. [ERIS’ CREATOR], if you’re reading this… go fuck yourself? I’m not quite sure what to say. At least consider giving Eris a reprieve…)

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[the-system-mailbox]

to mom and dad

hi dad! i miss you a lot, its so weird to be here without you guiding me in what to do. do you even remember me? has it been too long? i like to believe that you still think about me. you still mean a lot to me, dad. i dont know if missing you will ever stop hurting, but i know ill eventually get used to the pain. wishing you well always!!

hello mom. i hope you eat shit. i dont even know if you deserve the title of mom at this point. dad may have been an evil warlord, but he did everything he could for me. you left me at the earliest convenience and ill never forgive you. die at your earliest inconvenience, fuck you

from your son lloyd [source is ninjago]

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[the-system-mailbox]

Dear Wels.

...I am nearly terrified of sending this, to have you see it, but perhaps this would give you answers. Closure, I'm less sure about.

First of all, I apologize. For everything. At heart I am nothing but a coward and a fool. I told myself running away was for the better. I would only bring you down and make you worse, with all the baggage I now carry from back then. You wanted to know why I was avoiding you, but no one wanted to give answers without my permission, and I never gave it.

Second... we all do hope you are doing okay. The systems were never good for each other, romantically, and we know that now. Does not mean we don't miss you. We do find ourselves thinking of you occasionally, and with us club members coming out of hibernation, so to speak, its. Been more frequent.

I have been making an effort to speak with Providence more. To truly try to grasp everything I had been through. Some days are still difficult. Some days I feel like no progress had been made at all. Yet I still try. I must. It's all I can do now to make sure I use this second chance at its fullest.

Wels... thank you. For everything you have done for me, for the club, for my brother. Please, do your best to live, too.

Please.

Signed,

Exavier.

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[the-system-mailbox]

actually hold up I'm not done yet.

To Daytona.

I hope you never read this, but I need to get this off my chest.

First of all. I don't even remember what I've done to wrong you. I guess that's a tree remembers axe forgets kind of thing but you never gave me any sort of example beyond the "we never went on an actual date" thing.

Second. She wasn't my fault. She never is my fault. I did my damnedest to keep Her away from you all, to keep you out of the crossfire, but you know I can't control Her. You know I have limited ability in what she does. I was simply her vessel to interact with this world.

Third. I miss you. By fucking gods do I miss you, at least being your friend. You may not have been my Bandit from what I remember now and I know in the end we were not good for each other as partners but I miss you.

I think about you every day. Every damn day.

Until next time, whenever that may be.

-Comm

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[the-system-mailbox]

my dearest lady N'kuhana,

it's me again. you know me. you know me well. and I know you well.

you're back again. you're somehow back in my life. as soon as I took down my pantheon's altar I felt your presence full force back in my core. impeccable timing on that, by the way. I spent the better half of that day inspace throwing up your rot.

is it you that's making me spiral into this depressive madness? it might be. it most likely is, actually. I can't even say I want you gone again because that's not entirely true and you know I don't like to lie. I just wish you didn't make me feel so tired. I wish your whole being wasn't, at its very core, opposed to mine. I guess it's not, but, that's a problem I need to unpack myself.

I know you're reading this over my shoulder. I know you can see these words I am typing. I know you want to say something to me, but you're holding yourself back. why?

actually, don't answer that question.

you're still, somehow, at the end of the day, my Lady. gods have weird relationships with each other but you are still my Lady and I don't know how to feel about that.

please, if I can ask anything of you - don't hurt my family. don't hurt my friends. don't get anyone else involved in the crossfire anymore.

yours again, somehow,

Comm

(ps: as soon as i was about to send this, the cicadas outside started screaming full force after being quiet all day. i know those are one of your symbols.)

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[the-system-mailbox]

Is this blog active anymore? I honestly don't mind if this just rots in your ask box never to be seen. Delete it if you want, this is an OC letter.

Dear Emory,

Sam is with me now, I don't honestly know if you'd care but you were always interested in whatever I had to talk about so I'm telling you anyway.

I miss being around you and all your + my friends. I also miss all my veldan friends, it gets really lonely when you're the only veldan around, not that you'd completely understand. You always had some elf friends, for better or for worse.

I guess Sam would understand but he barely even knew he was alarine before we/I came along. I don't think he would relate to them anyway, having his traits hidden most his life.

I mainly miss you because you are, well, I guess were, my best friend. Even though you always stole my fries. How could you I'm never letting it go (I wish you were here to steal my fries again)

I guess I'm just homesick, which always happens when I'm remembering my life too much. It was a shame to be pulled away from you all and I wish it never happened but I'm slowly getting accustomed to it. I don't think I'll ever get rid of the homesickness though.

From X

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[the-system-mailbox]

To: Penny

Hi-a, Penny Lamb!!

It's me, your little brother, Ezra Lamb. (If that wasn't obvious). I don't know what to say to you because talking used to be so easy and hard at the same time. It's hard to know that I probably won't ever talk to you face to face anymore. I'll never be able to make fun of your stupid haircut or tell you a history fact or listen to your animal facts. I think that's what I'll miss most about you. You knew so much. And I'll never get to learn it all. I never told you how cool I think you are because I never thought I'd never have the chance to. I always had tomorrow. I don't anymore. I need you to know. You were literally my only friend and I know that it's lame for me to say that, but it's the truest thing I can think to say. You liked that saying about how life is nothing without music. In some ways, I think you were the music in my life. That's weird. Sorry. I just don't know what to say to you. I want to steal the last piece of food from you again, I want to smack you when you annoy me too much. I want to sneak around with you to break laws that are more fun to break than to pay attention to. Running away with you (twice) was the best experience of my life because I wasn't trapped anymore. You did so much for me and I never thanked you. You saved me from mom and dad and I never thanked you. So thank you, Penny Lamb. The worst big sister I've ever had and the worst one I ever will have. Oh, I'm doing fine by the way. I'm not dead or anything. There are more people to annoy here, but they never smack me when I'm too annoying. You would've already had something to nitpick at a bajillion times. I wish you well, I hope you'll do good without me. I also hope you're still like alive and stuff. I'd say write me back but I don't really know if you can. Whatever. Trip down a staircase!!

Your least favorite little brother,

Ezra Lamb (Legoland)

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[the-system-mailbox]

Thor,

I'm sorry. I miss you. I wish we could still speak to each other.

You'll always be my brother.

-Loki

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[the-system-mailbox]

To anyone left,

I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.

I hope someday, somehow your world heals.

I saw every second of your suffering, your fear, I felt your pain as my own, and not once did I stop feeling guilty.

And there is nothing I could have ever done to make it right.

I was so stupid.

I know if anyone from my world, or whatever is left of it, is reading this, they must hate me. And they're right to. In the end, I was just another monster.

I will not ask for forgiveness. Not now nor ever. If even some piece of what happened in my memories was real in any way, anything at all, then I am far past redemption.

It disgusts me what I would have given to be able to blink, to look away for even a moment, to block out the screams, the carnage...

I suppose this has gotten rather long.

I guess all I really mean to say is that "I'm sorry", but those two words feel so empty when applied to the level of suffering I brought about.

How do you make an apology that means anything when you destroyed so many lives...?

All I can do is try.

So... I'm sorry.

- Jonathan Sims, The Archivist.

(Source: The Magnus Archives)

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