I'm rather stealthy for a fat girl

Sandy - 41 - Resident of Earth This blog was originally built as a healthblr/fitblr, but then I found HAES and Fat Acceptance. And now I've escaped from the "diet culture." This blog has always been the occasional repository for Harry Potter fangirl posts, cats, dogs, video games, and other crap I occasionally obsess about... and that won't change! You can still pop over to my mainstream blog The Zaftig Ninja but I don't write on there much these days, or you can find me on Instagram and Twitter. My course is now set clearly on a path toward Body Trust, Radical Fat Acceptance and Activism, Health at Every Size (HAES), and (hopefully one day) loving my body as it without constantly wanting to change it. See ya around :)

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Trying to see myself through someone else's eyes is challenging. The fiancé took this picture while we were at a restaurant on Friday. He thinks he's so sneaky, always tryna snap a pic of me on the sly, but I usually catch him. Hence this face you see here. Idk why I didn't just smile. He saw me there, sitting across the table from him at the TGIFridays, and thought, "Man, I love her, she is so beautiful... I wanna remember this." Seeing the telltale angle of his iPhone, my brain clicks into old habits, whispering, "Fuck, he's taking my picture, that angle is all wrong, allllll my chins will show," so I make *the face*. I'm trying to let it go, the residual artifacts of self hatred. It's so hard, though, and recurrent depression def doesn't help. Decades of never feeling like my body is right. That perpetual shame of feeling too big, too poufy, too lumpy, curves in the "wrong" places, not ENOUGH while simultaneously being TOO MUCH. I'm trying to let it go. Thank you to @theaudi0slave for helping me just a little bit more on that road to self acceptance. ❤️ #selfie #fatandfree #fatacceptance #selfacceptance #fatty #selfesteem #haes #bodyacceptance #riotsnotdiets #fatgirlscan #bodypositive #depression #fatpositive https://www.instagram.com/p/BqFYKkKgcn5/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=dhb5bb7pb7g0

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I did, did you? #vote https://www.instagram.com/p/Bp3OtbhAb3l/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=iqmvma99zol0

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I made a thing! Thanks so much to @persialou for the awesome *FREE* #crochet pattern for this Black Cat Slouch Hat ❤️🐱 #selfie #fibernerd #fiberart https://www.instagram.com/p/BpKtE1WB7sn/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=lxzlshm42fsb

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Sweet haul from #RileyRose today. That #avocado bag is a lunch tote but I'm totally gonna use it as a purse. https://www.instagram.com/p/BnCQ3uHBD32/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=16v2oo79hpi0c

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He made me leave the house on a #Sunday I still love him, though. #selfie #couplesstuff

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I love it that Wahlberg goes with the furniture. #catsofinstagram #selfie #orangecat #tattoos

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Mmmmm... Romaine, cabbage, cucumber, sweet onion, green bell pepper, grape tomatoes, avocado, and grilled sweet corn. Topped off with lime vinaigrette and a mexican cheese blend. #lunchtime #foodporn

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#pokemon #pokemongo #communityday #teaminstinct (at Greendale Gazebo Park)

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It's officially official... we're #engaged 💍 #selfie #love (at Milwaukee County Zoo)

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What the... is it the summer heat? My hair is growing so fast, y'all! #blondehair #pinkhair #tattoos #selfie

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Kitty! With the collar and bell, he's not so sneaky anymore #catsofinstagram #orangecat #selfie #bringbackthescrunchie

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#dogsofinstagram #hounds

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#dogsofinstagram #hounds #rolloverimcrowded

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We had a great time and ate some delicious food from the food trucks at Nights in June at the zoo. The otters were hiding but we'll see them soon. #datenight #zoo #milwaukee #zoopass (at Milwaukee County Zoo)

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Hawaiian grilled chicken and pineapple with coconut jasmine rice and 'Ohana style risotto. Sooooo good! #grilling #summer #foodporn #yummy