Bitterness is the Spiritual Cancer of this Generation
I think its safer for us to believe that we are most afraid of ourselves than we are of others. Why? Because we know we are our own worst enemy and fear makes the wolf grow stronger. Over the past few months of my life I have replayed the story of Jonah over and over in my head. I wonder what it was like for those terrified men on the boat when Jonah told them he knew who was causing the storm. Only for the answer to be well….himself. I think of the audacity that someone would have to have in order to sleep in the midst of troubles that they themselves have caused and of which are affecting other individuals. Yet. Let’s just be real for a moment. Jonah is us. God calls us to one place and then we go and take a huge detour and then grumble and complain about our life and how much better it could be. Bitterness. Man. It will do things to a person nothing else can. Consider most of Jonah chapter 4.
“Bitterness is the spiritual cancer of this Christian generation”
So often we blame other people for the problems in the church or in the case of Jonah, God Himself: “O Lord, is not this what I said when I was yet in my country? That is why I made haste to flee to Tarshish; for I knew that you are a gracious God and merciful, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love, relenting from disaster. Therefore now, O Lord, please take my life from me, for it is better for me to die than to live” And the Lord said, “Do you do well to be angry?”
Almost from the get go of the story we learn a few things about Jonah.
#1: He was a servant of the Lord (or better put, a prophet)
#2: He knew what the Lord was requiring of Him
#3: He directly rebelled against what God had asked of Him
#4: His rebellion caused repercussions for the men in the boat
#5: He knew the heart of God towards His repentant people
These are just a few of the obvious signs of a heart that is not positioned correctly before the Lord. Now, we could spend ample amounts of time discussing the obvious implications of this story, but I think there is far more to the story of Jonah then just a heart that is set on aiming on just not wanting to do what the Lord is asking (ie: rebellion). At the heart of this story is a heart that I believe went wrong way before the Lord came to Jonah….because wether we want to admit it or not: a heart that knows God is good and yet seeks to not live with an attitude and life that exemplifies such proves the persons heart became calloused at some point in time.
In the book of James, chapter 1 leading up to verse 14 we are warned of the difference between a person who has a pure heart before the Lord and genuinely understands what it means to follow Christ faithfully verses someone who still wishes to chase after their own selfish desires. We are then warned in verse 15 of the ultimate implications of our prideful selves, “Then desire when it has conceived gives birth to sin, and sin when it is fully grown brings forth death”. This is not a pretty picture of mankind….but….nor is it a bad picture of mankind. You see…
Something was stirring in the heart of Jonah before the Lord asked him to go to Ninevah, we know this because even after he did what the Lord was asking him, he responded to God like he did in the beginning of chapter 4, “for I knew that you are a gracious God….” Jonah knew the heart of God towards these people, yet chose an attitude of bitterness and anger over an attitude of joy and compassion for the people of Ninevah. Something obviously grabbed hold of Jonah’s heart before he even stepped into the boat. I read this story and I must stop and ask myself….
What have I let grab ahold of my heart before the Lord asks me to step into the boat He has called me to get on?
Cause the reality of things is this: what we bring with us is just as detrimental as what we pick up along the way. We don’t know the full back drop of Jonah’s life before he hops on that boat but what we do know is that something must have gone wrong long before God called Him to Ninevah.
I have to stop and interject myself into this story because if I fail to do so….I fail to miss out on the beauty of grace I believe God wants to communicate to us through Jonah but first we must understand….bitterness is ugly.
Bitterness is not only ugly it is also most often hard to trace.
Bitterness loves to be suppressed.
Bitterness not only loves to hide, it breeds anger.
Bitterness will hold us hostage and turn us into victims instead of victors.
Ultimately, bitterness is a result of our lack of faith and trust in God’s ultimate purpose, plan and provision.
You see friends. Jonah knew exactly what God would do once he got to Ninevah and proclaimed the truth: “That is why I made haste to flee to Tarshish; for I knew that you are a gracious God….” He knew that God would show mercy on the people and ultimately use him to restore the land to a place of righteousness. He knew God’s heart towards repentant people. He knew that God’s love is never far enough away to not reach one single person. Yet…..somehow Jonah’s heart was not in the right place long before this conversation with God in chapter 4. We know this because of how he responded: “therefore now, O Lord, please take my life from me, for it is better for me to die than to live”. This is a huge red flag. Something is going on deep in the heart of Jonah and although we don’t know with absolute certainty what it is, I believe we are left to search out the truth of the matter for a better, bigger picture to be seen: God’s grace.
Bitterness is sneaky. It is not a vibrant, loud, obvious - blood craving criminal. It does its job best when it can convince us to abandon the truth we know will set us free. Bitterness comes when we fail to identify that we have become unthankful with our circumstances, and have instead placed our own wishes, desires and plans before the sovereignty of God.
Look at what Paul had to say in Philippians 4:11-12: “I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.”
We have no need to fear anything if we have truthfully placed our cares in His hands and if we wanted to be really honest with ourselves we would look at this verse and paraphrase what Paul is saying like this: I am not saying this because I am in need, because truthfully speaking, to follow Christ and to have Christ is really all I need.
Bitterness comes when we embrace discontentment over the perfected will of God being working out in all circumstances.
Looking at this story of Jonah we see that he was not in fact content with the will of God being accomplished. Even despite him knowing what God was going to do. Maybe Jonah thought that there was a better way for God to go about how He accomplished His will among the people of Ninevah? We don’t know this with absolute certainty, but we can clearly see in Jonah’s attitude that his heart was no in the wrong place…. so much so that he would have rather died? How did Jonah become this way? Where did things go wrong? I am convinced of this….
Long before the first chapter of this story was penned for us to read and glean from. Long before we were able to peer into Jonah’s life there was something far more encompassing, far more stretching and far more glorious to take hold of than the consequences of disobedience was the remarkable, transforming, miraculous power of GRACE. I don’t know about you but my knees buckle and my body begins to come alive more and more when I realize just how present God’s grace is within this story.
Yeah. Jonah messed up. Big time. Yeah. He failed to be content in ALL circumstances. Why else would he have problems with the way God handled things? Shouldn’t he trust that if it’s in Gods hands that it’s going to be taken care of in the best way possible? The obvious answer is yes, but the bigger answer is: Jonah is us and the larger implication of this story is this:
Everything about this story is ultimately not about Jonah.
In fact. With all the stories in the bible, it’s not about the individual, it’s about us. It’s about humanity. It’s about our desperate need for the redemptive power and grace of God to not only be recognized in earth, but be allowed to work in our own lives. Because wether we want God’s grace or not….wether we feel like we deserve it…..we need it and we need it badly.
The story of Jonah is a picture of the gracious nature of God’s heart towards humanity. I mean after all, wasn’t the story of Jonah about him going to the people of Ninevah and asking them to repent of their wicked ways and pursue the ways of righteousness? And didn’t the people responded to his message and turn from their ways? They in fact did. Yet. Isn’t it quite daunting that the very same man who preached a message of repentance turned angry and bitter and wanted God to kill him when he should have looked at his own heart and saw that his sin was just as ugly and bad as theirs? This is huge and shows us that: a heart that knows God is good and yet seeks to not live with an attitude and life that exemplifies such proves the persons heart became calloused at some point in time.
I’m not entirely sure when Jonah’s heart lost sight of the goodness and grace of God but he did. I’m not sure why exactly that he got angry and bitter but he did. I’m not even entirely sure why he would feel so grave about what happened that he would want to die….but again….he did. So. I ask you to do what I’ve done with this story and ask yourself:
In what ways have I become like Jonah?
Dig deep, let your roots grow deep as you contemplate your need for God’s grace, and if you’ve thought you’ve reached the bottom, dig deeper.
Cause the deeper we dig into the grace of God despite our humanity and fragility, the more we see our need for Him, the more we see just how marvelous, how far reaching, and redemptive the power of grace is.
Blessings.