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2002hondacivicwithac

play this at my wedding or funeral I don’t care where but just plAY IT

spectralpinecone-deactivated202

I reblog this a lot but it gives me chills every time i hear it

dudedevon

Was this Twenty-One Pilots? Definitely sounds like it.

thelittlestagemanager

This has cycled through my blog like 4 times now and I’ll continue to reblog it every time

naturaekos

Hang in there. It is astonishing how short a time it can take for very wonderful things to happen.

Frances Hodgson Burnett (via naturaekos)

naturaekos

Hiding your hurt only intensifies it. Problems grow in the dark and only become bigger and bigger, but when exposed to the light of truth, they shrink. You are only as sick as your secrets. So take off your mask, stop pretending you’re perfect and walk into freedom.

Rick Warren (via naturaekos)

278vibes

Everybody’s watching her, but she’s looking at you

(via 278vibes)

meanwhilepoetry

I wish someone had warned me when I was younger, now I stay up all night and weep; the ghosts of everything you have loved and lost come back to haunt you in your sleep.

Nikita Gill (via meanwhilepoetry)

Tryin’

Been trying too damn hard, lately.

Too hard to force myself to fit in this little box that society and peers have all told me I should fit perfectly in.

Too hard to the point where I have forgotten purpose behind my actions, thoughts and words.

Too hard to get other people on my side, to get them to like me, to get them to want to be with me.

How do I let time pass, all the while letting my actions seem effortless and not so forced? How do I pretend like I don’t care, when in reality, my heart is pounding out of my chest, my palms are shaking and my breathing is heavy. Nerves take over, and impulse overrides any precautionary, processed, logical thought.

But... How?

How do I find happiness? How do I try to not find happiness? I’m lost. I feel like I’m ready for it, finally and surely ready. And yet, nothing has changed. Nothing has proven or shown to me that I’m deserving, that I’m worthy of being loved or cared for. And why? Am I still not ready? Am I just moving with haste, or are the cards not in my favor? Or, have they ever been?

This could just be a momentary lapse of slight insecurity. Only time will tell if this shall soon pass.

Right?

#hey tumblr #haven't posted in a while #but what's up #5.28.16

weloveshortvideos

theadventuresofders

Every time.

tacoarmy

mangoes

mancomes

I just feel really displaced and like things aren’t how they should be.

joobear

theadventuresofders

Omg.

I’m not really sure how I feel about all of this now. I guess this is what it means to lose sight of what matters. Time to get back on track.

#eyes on the prize #don't lose focus

loldmldr-deactivated20171108

Still have this feeling I’m not good/fit for relationships cause there’s never a time when I’m level-headed/feeling confident in myself and it gets in the way and it stupidly makes me push away people. This sucks. Why do I have to be this way and how do I fix it

theadventuresofders

Basically me right now.

#gdi

Countdown 2015

Last night was unreal.

I think about how much I’ve changed since New Year’s Eve 2014, and how I’ve grown immensely in such a short length of time. Last year, I was in the midst of going through a terrible breakup, so I spent the night walking along the Huntington Beach Pier with my roommate as the clock turned midnight, and that was it. I felt alone. This year, I spent it being surrounded by the best group of friends I could ask for, and I was surrounded by love.

A year is only 365 days, and to think I’ve grown the most in these days than my other 7,600 and some days that I’ve spent on this Earth. I’ve overcome many obstacles I couldn’t even think to face in 2014. But here I am, alive and in good standing with the people around me.

I couldn’t possibly be more blessed to have maintained such strong friendships, regardless of those who are on CG or not, and to have been able to form new bonds with different people.

At Countdown, what I learned most about myself is that I have doubt when it comes to going after things I really want wholeheartedly. I feel a need to sit and think about my options and weigh one out over the other, while time passes by and in some cases, I’ve lost my chance. By the end of the night, I didn’t care anymore. I spoke to people I’ve never met, I did things I would have never thought, and forced myself to be carefree so I was able to let go of feeling self-conscious.

I’ve never felt so alive, so free, so happy. For the first time in a long time, I feel like I’m even closer to finding myself. Life is coming together, and though some days may be harder than others, it’s all about letting go of the bad, and taking the good out of things. There’s good in everything, and in everyone. You just have to find it; if you can’t, you can only move on and hope for the better.

I’m so thankful for 2015, because not only was it one of the shittiest years I’ve known, it’s also turned out to be one of the most rewarding. And frankly, that’s all I can ask for. Growth. Optimism. Courage. Faith.

Cheers to many more years that are better than the rest.

#dailylog #jan 1 #NYE #countdown