Junkie Ramblings

Delve deep inside the brain of a neurotic junkie.

[theamazingjunkie]

Cognitive Dissonance Concerning Christianity

"Lamentations of a Fool, Cognitive Dissonance and The Power of Something Great"

                                             -BMD

1

After listening to song after song of shameless artists, deciphering their meanings, you hear an odd melody that moves you like no other because the song of faith has more significance than a song composed of mere human creativity. Sounds that display such heavenly beauty should not be muted so lightly.

2

After studying the vast knowledge of great men, contemplating their works, you find yourself returning to words that give even greater knowledge because the words of truth are more significant than mere speculation. Something that speaks into your ears, confirming its majesty, should not be scoffed at so lightly.

3

After endlessly reaching out for human contact, hoping to receive love that fills a void, you find yourself reminiscing of a love that was unjust to the human laws of give and take because undeserved love is more significant than a love that must be sought and earned. Something so gracious, sacred and everlasting should not be trampled on so lightly.

4

After tasting the sweetness of wine, it begins to taste bitter, and you yearn to return to the righteous cup of living water because gulping wine to satisfy a strong thirst is counterproductive. Something that is free yet so powerful should not be passed up so lightly.

5

After years of longing for someone to speak to and finding only idle chatter you hear the quiet whisper of someone through the silence because sometimes you must be silent to hear. Something so subtle yet profound should not be ignored so lightly.

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more DMT stuff...may have posted some of these before

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DMT

[ramshacklechild]

It’s not that I don’t appreciate my life sober, but it’s like there are two different people battling inside of me. I want to be good, do good, be a worker among workers, a friend among friends. But there’s also this part of me that is so dissatisfied with everything, If I’m not living on the verge of death, I feel like I’m not really living.

Nic Sheff (via ramshacklechild)

Reblogging again because so true

(via drugqueennicole)

[theamazingjunkie]

The Hacker's Manifesto

This is an interesting read:

"Another one got caught today, it's all over the papers. "Teenager Arrested in Computer Crime Scandal", "Hacker Arrested after Bank Tampering"... Damn kids. They're all alike. But did you, in your three-piece psychology and 1950's technobrain, ever take a look behind the eyes of the hacker? Did you ever wonder what made him tick, what forces shaped him, what may have molded him? I am a hacker, enter my world... Mine is a world that begins with school... I'm smarter than most of the other kids, this crap they teach us bores me... Damn underachiever. They're all alike. I'm in junior high or high school. I've listened to teachers explain for the fifteenth time how to reduce a fraction. I understand it. "No, Ms. Smith, I didn't show my work. I did it in my head..." Damn kid. Probably copied it. They're all alike. I made a discovery today. I found a computer. Wait a second, this is cool. It does what I want it to. If it makes a mistake, it's because I screwed it up. Not because it doesn't like me... Or feels threatened by me... Or thinks I'm a smart ass... Or doesn't like teaching and shouldn't be here... Damn kid. All he does is play games. They're all alike. And then it happened... a door opened to a world... rushing through the phone line like heroin through an addict's veins, an electronic pulse is sent out, a refuge from the day-to-day incompetency’s is sought... a board is found. "This is it... this is where I belong..." I know everyone here... even if I've never met them, never talked to them, may never hear from them again... I know you all... Damn kid. Tying up the phone line again. They're all alike... You bet your ass we're all alike... we've been spoon-fed baby food at school when we hungered for steak... the bits of meat that you did let slip through were pre-chewed and tasteless. We've been dominated by sadists, or ignored by the apathetic. The few that had something to teach found us will- ing pupils, but those few are like drops of water in the desert. This is our world now... the world of the electron and the switch, the beauty of the baud. We make use of a service already existing without paying for what could be dirt-cheap if it wasn't run by profiteering gluttons, and you call us criminals. We explore... and you call us criminals. We seek after knowledge... and you call us criminals. We exist without skin color, without nationality, without religious bias... and you call us criminals. You build atomic bombs, you wage wars, you murder, cheat, and lie to us and try to make us believe it's for our own good, yet we're the criminals. Yes, I am a criminal. My crime is that of curiosity. My crime is that of judging people by what they say and think, not what they look like. My crime is that of outsmarting you, something that you will never forgive me for. I am a hacker, and this is my manifesto. You may stop this individual, but you can't stop us all... after all, we're all alike."

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What I've Coded

Here are some applications that I've programmed myself (with the help of my search bar, at times). They are beginner programs but they provided me with good practice. A good bit of these were made for school. If you're new too you should try some of them.

Hockey Statistics (Visual Basic) - http://pastebin.com/8XH3C54d, http://pastebin.com/6W6HhpKW

Basic User Interface (C#) - http://pastebin.com/BGqb1ZjP

Apartment Rent (Visual Basic) - http://pastebin.com/xn7J5fru

Rock, Paper, Scissors (Python) - http://pastebin.com/3x9AkfiG

Weekly Pay Calculator (C#) - http://pastebin.com/AV0jsXcp

Calculates Weekly Pay from Annual Salary (C#) - http://pastebin.com/sagCcFAU

Gets and Displays Employee Info, Benefits and Pay (C#) - http://pastebin.com/sXVww9Fm

ATM Machine (C#) - http://pastebin.com/xhtceFc3

Simple Snack Machine (C#) - http://pastebin.com/3mGXCZBH

Calculator (C#) - http://pastebin.com/M7NLQFPw

Reverse Text (C#) - http://pastebin.com/bctmQfjD

Count Number of Vowels in String - http://pastebin.com/UPizwjXF

Shoutbox (C#) - http://pastebin.com/ppS5c8kr

Doxer's Logbook - http://pastebin.com/VLZfEbSE

Very Simple Calculator (Visual Basic) - http://pastebin.com/1XLCjy4U

Very Simple Calculator (Python) - http://pastebin.com/TPGypGKi

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Junkie's Thought for The Day

nanos gigantum humeris insidentes (Dwarfs sitting on the shoulders of giants)

Don't compare yourself to those who know more than you. Use their knowledge, mistakes and discoveries to further establish what you already know. Become greater by being less than.

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My Thoughts on The Death Penalty

I have very strong views on the death penalty. I am strongly against it for various reasons. One reason is that it baffles me that some people can be so self-righteous that they think they are in a position to sentence someone else to death. They put themselves up higher than the criminal but the truth is that they've never walked in that person's shoes. They don't know what brought the person to commit their crime. I just hate it when I see people standing outside with signs when a man is being executed. The signs say things like "you're going straight to Hell". I mean I would understand if it were the victim's family holding up signs but these are just mere spectators. The crime committed did not affect them personally.

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Philosophy is for All

Philosophy is one of those subjects that anyone can participate in. Why? Because there is no right or wrong in philosophy. And if you say someone is not intelligent enough to discuss philosophy, I'm sure there's a philosopher out there who would question what intelligence even really is. Philosophy isn't all about learning the thoughts of guys like Aristotle. It's more about thinking for yourself. Who's to say that one philosopher is more accurate than the other? What is truth anyways? There is no absolute truth. Truth is dependent on the one declaring what is true and what is not true. Perception is unique to each individual. I really do appreciate some of the ancient philosophers though. Socrates is my favorite.

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I Fail at True Religion

I won't claim to be an expert on all religions though I do have an interest in reading about different religions. I am a Bible expert and I have the ability to systematically reveal the flaws in hasty and ignorant comments about the Bible. I know all the verses people try to pull to try and take a stab at Christianity. I have the ability to understand the deeper meanings of Bible verses. I understand the Bible as a whole...I don't read er sticker theology.

So what are my religious beliefs? The Bible answers it for me:

Pure and undefiled religion before our God and Father is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself unstained by the world. -James 1:27

The real question is not what I believe. The question is how do I measure up to the standard set by my religion? I am a Junkie. I would bring shame on Christians to ever call myself a Christian. Yes, it is possible to to have faith in something without practicing it. It really comes down to spirituality. Do you feel that God is real? Does your heart attest to the message of the gospel? When you read the Bible does it cut down into your soul or do you merely scoff? The truth is is that I am very open-minded and I have very good critical thinking skills. I can see other forms of spirituality from the perspective of those who practice it. Being a psychonaut, I've even dove into things like shamanism. Drugs certainly potentate spiritual convictions (not religious). I believe drugs like shrooms, DXM, LSD and DMT can help us better understand what's out there. Psychedelic drugs have saved me from being a naive Christian. I talk about drugs so much because they might as well be my God. I worship them by doing them, I tell others about them and I put my trust in them. I can't live up to the religion in James chapter one, but I can worship whatever I choose and do so freely.

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I'm no Expert but I Love Science

nanos gigantum humeris insidentes

I am fascinated by how the brain works and how the drugs we take (legal and non-legal) affect our brain chemistry. I believe taking psychoactive drugs is like a form of hacking. You are tweaking your brain to do something that it's not meant to do. Actually it depends on the drug. Pharmaceuticals, if taken correctly, can actually fix things like chemical imbalances. Illicit drugs on the other hand abuse what's meant to be natural in your brain. Meth for example, it mimics the feel good chemical called dopamine and causes an extreme excess of dopamine. Now whether that is a good thing or not is up to the user. It is fact though that these neurons can be damaged though the plasticity of the brain allows new neurons to be created. It's hard for me to find good articles sometimes but here's something that is related and explains a little better: Neuroplasticity and Addiction Recovery Isn't that amazing that the human brain can bounce back from chemical brain damage? Another thing that I like about brain chemistry is how it can explain the unexplainable. It can answer questions like, what makes us have spiritual experiences or do i have a soul? I won't go too much into this now because that's more philosophy but the human brain can answer a lot of age old questions. The more we understand about the brain, the more we understand about ourselves and humanity as a whole. Your brain and the way it's built is what makes you who you are. The chemicals in your brain explain feelings like love and despair. It's my opinion, scientifically speaking, that the idea of our selves (or souls) are manifested through the brain. I'm not saying that the soul is not a literal thing though I'm also not saying that it is. I'm just saying that science offers the possibility of explaining things philosophers have been writing about for years. I like science because it is concrete though I am still open to mysteries that are unexplainable by science. The mysteries of the brain are endless. The brain is a mystery in itself. The only thing more seemingly limitless than the brain is the universe. I won't pretend to be an expert in things like astronomy but it's impossible to not have an interest in the universe. Astronomy is really something that I'd like to brush up on or rather start from the basics.

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drug themed anime pictures

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cool pics of anime girls and their owls

[neetbird]

Existence is fundamentally informational, entirely computable, described digitally, information-based, and is itself a computer computing its own evolution. The best proof one needs to confirm this is that existence allows functional computers to exist. The only proof you need for the existence of...

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Snorting Concerta (For Educational Purposes)

First of all, I don't nor do I recommend snorting Concerta. But if you were going to do this in a dream or something, you'd at least want to do it right. ;> First, put the pill under your tongue for about 3 minutes and let the first layer dissolve. If it's the 36 mg pill it should turn pink. I think the higher doses are already pink and they turn white. Once the pill has changed colors, let it dry in front of a fan or something. You could also blow on it. Now you need to break the pill in half. This will make peeling the outer-coating off a lot easier. You could use a pill splitter for this but most of us don't have one. I personally use the battery to my laptop or I just use my teeth. Once the pill is broken in half, you can start peeling the outer coating. The 36 mg pill has a pink outer coating (below the first layer). Swallow the coating or let it dissolve under your tongue. It would be wasteful to throw it out. Now the pill should look kind of powdery but still in 2 chunks. What I do to crush the pill is get a penny and a mirror. I press down really hard with the penny until it breaks into smaller chunks. Once the chunks are really small I use my bank card to turn it into a fine powder. If it's going up your nose, you'll need it to be pretty powdery and not chunky. Keep in mind that this will take a while. Now make thin lines of the powder and get part of a straw. Plug one nostril, put the straw in your nose a little and sniff with the nostril you are using. It will burn slightly. Keep sniffing a few times to make sure it all goes up there. I've heard people say that snorting water or using nasal spray will help the absorption of the pill. Do this before snorting.

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Two of my Notable DXM Experiences

My third experience with DXM ended up with a hospital trip. I went to walmart about 7 in the morning. It had been a really long time since I had done DXM so I wasn't really sure what to expect. I bought a bottle of Tussin Maximum strength and went outside to drink it. I found a secluded spot and started drinking; I chased it Mountain Dew Code Red. This was seriously the longest I had to wait for a tussin' trip. Or at least it seemed that way. I just sat on a sidewalk in front of one of the empty stores and waited to feel something. About thirty minutes into it, I kind of got a peaceful feeling but that may have been just being outside with no one around. I think it was an hour when it really started to kick in. Keep in mind I wasn't keeping time. I decided to walk around and it felt a bit like being drunk except things just looked different. I remember going to sit down in the grass and I started singing songs. A women pulled up in front of me and asked if I was okay. I gave her what meant to be and thumbs up sign and she left. I actually just lifted my index finger because I was too disoriented to figure out how to make a thumbs up sign. I wonder if she thought I was sticking up my middle finger up at her. Anyways, for some reason I decided to go in and buy more. I think I bought the wrong kind that only contained gaunifisen because it just ended up making me sick. While I was drinking the second bottle, a guy came up to me and asked me if I had a light. I'm pretty sure he was a junkie like me. Anyways, like an idiot, I went back into the store. I started going up to random people and talking to them about philosophical things. I followed this one guy around while he was buying beer. I kind of came to what I was doing so I picked up some marsh mellows to look like a legitimate customer. I walked to the front of the store and fell right in front of two of the store managers. They were looking at me like I was crazy. They asked me if I was going to buy those marsh mellows and I just kept saying that they looked familiar to me. I asked them not to call the cops and they said they weren't. Then I went to go sit on a bench and I started asking people if they knew my pin number to my debit card. I wanted to buy more cough medicine but I couldn't remember my pin number. I even went to a payphone and called my bank requesting my pin. I got into this long confusing conversation with the guy on the phone and I even blacked out for a moment. I then proceeded to go sit back down on the bench but I started feeling sick. I went outside and threw up. Not long after, an ambulance showed up and I was taken to the hospital. I could go on and on but I'm sure no one is that interested. My third most memorable trip is something that I barely remember. I drank an 8 oz bottle before I went to the gaming center and I played some games there. When I got home my Dad could tell I was robotripping. I remember talking with him and then later smoking some weed. Actually, I don't remember smoking the weed but I was told I smoked weed. Then I remember my Dad telling me I needed to go to bed. My step mom said I was lying in the floor. I laid on one of the chairs and leaned back and said the mothership just dropped me off. I don't really remember the rest. lol but I do know it was a trip to several dimensions. TL;DR DXM is awesome. Post your experiences.

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4 Steps to Hacking with Nmap

Here's a post I made on http://hikineet.proboards.com/.

*Disclaimer* Google.com is used hypothetically in this tutorial. I am in no way suggesting that you use these methods on google nor am I suggesting that they would even work. I am not responsible for any hacking that you attempt illegally. This tutorial is for those who are interested in ethical pentesting.

Footprinting

Port Scanning

OS Fingerprinting

Banner Grabbing

Your first step in hacking a target is footprinting or information gathering. You want to gather as much information about your target as possible. So say you think you're 1337 and you're going to hack google. You would at least need the IP address of the server. To do this, open up cmd and type ping www.google.com Now that you have the IP address, open up zenmap. Zenmap is the GUI version of nmap. Now type the IP address where it says target. In zenmap you would type: nmap -T4 -A -v 74.125.225.176 Where it says profile, select quick scan. In most cases, intense scan should be avoided since it would raise flags. Now click scan and wait for it to finish. You should get something like this: PORT STATE SERVICE 80/tcp open http 443/tcp open http Port 80 is the port for internet. Port 443 is for HTTPs. You can google any ports that you do not know. Now we move onto OS fingerprinting. If you're just doing a test on your own site, you can simply do an intense scan to see if your OS shows up. A safer way to do this would be to type something in the url such as: google.com/pagethatdoesntexist If that doesn't work for you then use intense scan at your own risk. Here's where the fun part comes in. Banner grabbing is where we will actually try to exploit the server. So let's say that port 21 (FTP) is open on your target. You would type the following in cmd: telnet www.site.com 21 This will tell you what version of FTP server is running. Now that you have this information, you can write your own exploit or google exploits for the server. Remember that there is no magic button for hacking. And sites like google.com would take vast computer and programming skills to exploit. Don't get too frustrated if things don't always work out. The most important thing is to continue learning and you will eventually have the skills you need.