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maybe I'll be myself this time_ >[18] [he] "You are truly an enigma" — said my friend

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An archive of some sorts—a combination of @personnumbersixthousand on insta and my personal twt of @5thsndand999. I've abandoned my other instagram for now, but I feel no obligation to go back. No one there truly knows us anyway, and at this rate, they never will. We both, and the others, will work on this tumblr page. I'll still post on my other socials—or not—we'll see.

Oh, and if it's important... @antleredbird & @featheredfallow for my art accounts.

For now, welcome to... me. Or atleast I hope this is what it is. If I led you here, be glad. I consider you know me well enough to show you this.

TAGS: [#nathannathanielnath #txtpost #pixpost #N1st #N2nd #N3rd #N4th #N5th #N6th]

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Officially over. Damn damn damn damn... truly 18 now

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I should really tend to my stuff already .. hmm.. work work work work

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Hello world of nsfw I am here

[dictionaryofobscuresorrows]

watashiato

n. curiosity about the impact you’ve had on the lives of the people you know, wondering which of your harmless actions or long-forgotten words might have altered the plot of their stories in ways you’ll never get to see.

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Less than a day now...

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AHHHH SIX HOURS

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Less than a day now...

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You know the drill. Every time I go active somewhere I always spam for a little while lel... I just have a lot on my mind right now sighs loudly. From comms, planning, my bday, PRINCE BIRTHDAY HI, college... I think I was right when I said 2026 is #notmyyear but we'll see.

Oh and I also thought of copying some of my docs here maybe. Since it takes less time then copying it onto my SoulBook---but I'll still do that when I have the time. I guess if you think of it, this blog is kind of like a digital SoulBook but without the collages and other stuff. Just more of me.

And the others. coughs and looks around. Anyway

June really does just have a certain gloom to it.

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Bruh

I've been thinking of this blog recently and I never even realized I still had it... thought I deleted it sometime last year but well here we are. I'll probably revise my pinned, tags, and stuff... don't tell the others but I lowkey get confused on everyone's numbers giggles

Except for The 1st and 6th.. they're like the most obvious ones... I don't even know who's speaking right now. Anyway.. uermm.. yeah. Holy hell it is June and I'm turning 18 hahahah ok

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Just a few more hours.. oh god . . And all I'm doing is being autistic about chamber (and occasionally tejo) I love yoi so much . Also I might buy the BP JUST for the atlas skinline it looks sooooo cool AND THERES AN OUTLAW so. .. heh

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Quick rant about... intimacy, in a sense

I hate how any talk of sex in my grade is always so inherently... sexual. I mean yes, it's sex, but it's like they don't even acknowledge the fact that it's not always just about pleasure. I get it... we're teens, everyone around here is basically a horndog.. but come on.

It's a simple concept that they fail to grasp, their small, closed-minded selves can't even comprehend the simplicity of "making love." COME ON... we're almost 18. I don't know... I have poor vocabulary so I can't fully express my... disdain for it.

Even the talk around kinks are so... blegh. People who weren't in the conversation butt in—with INCORRECT knowledge on it, mind you—and they make the most random assumptions known to man. HOW ABOUT YOU LISTEN IN ON THE FULL FUCKING CONVERSATION FIRST... these people I swear... Some even fetishize things that they SHOULDN'T. Things that they will never understand. And yet they treat me like this... Not to mention their incapbailty of understanding what CNC is. Or even non-con (which i understand isn't the same as CNC? from what I've seen). It's such a taboo topic I know, and it's important to be properly educated before you go against/support it. These people won't even begin to understand... none of them...

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I think about how my classmates would react when they see me again .. not that they would even care. Just no one ever takes me seriously .. can't wait to get out of this damn school and cut everyone off (it has already started!)

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I neeeeed to save money for the bundle (and perhaps the bp if it's good enough) again. THIS IS THE ONLY GOOD THING TJAT COMES OUT OF SCHOOL STARTING thank you. Give me that cash yes yeeeds

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Okay... so much on my mind now. I don't know how people do this and how you get FAMOUS on personal blogs. Anyway, it's not that I'm chasing fame...... but it'd be nice to get some recognition.

Back to what I was initially going to say.... guess who's gonna be a senior in 2 days.. yeah whatever I really don't care about this year anymore and I just want to get it over with.. I'm so tired of our stupid guidance counselor and honestly most of admin. Can't wait to get out of there!!!