HEY! I have no self control! @lallyphant @residentanchor @hiddendreamer67 I wrote a fic!
@lefaystrent i loved your dialogue so much i hope you don’t mind i used it for this it’s just such good characterisation
wordcount: 6800ish words
ships: so platonic everything’s platonic so much dlampr
characters: Patton, Logan, Virgil, Remus, Roman, Deceit
Warnings: starvation, touch starved Patton, isolation, internalised self-doubt and self-hatred, some standard Remus related/intrusive thoughts, little bit of body horror/disturbing imagery, Exactly 2 Swears. just be careful yall
genre: angst, hurt/comfort
Patton strove to be many things. A nuisance was not one of them.
He loved his family. He loved how hard everyone tried with each other. He loved their quirks and habits and would do anything for them.
Those limits were beginning to be pushed, however.
He sat on the sofa rubbing his hands up and down his arms as Roman, the last of the group to go upstairs to bed after movie night, got up from the couch and ruffled his hair as he went by.
“G’night, Pat,” he said, just loud enough to cover up the desperate squeak that left Patton’s lips at the contact.
“Goodnight, Roman,” Patton forced out, smiling as the prince ascended the stairs.
He felt a little less cold now.
There were a few ins and outs as to how the sides worked in their own individual ways that they hadn’t exactly disclosed to each other yet. Patton didn’t want to rush in, busting down everyone’s walls and discovering everyone’s secrets, but he was getting a little tired of keeping his under wraps.
But Logan wasn’t touchy-feely.
Too much contact could overwhelm Virgil.
Roman was often ‘too busy’ to stop.
And Patton didn’t really want to reach out any further than that.
His arms wrapped around his stomach as it growled.
“C’mon,” he told it firmly. “We’re fine. I’m fine. Let’s go eat something.”
Eating something kind of helped. But it did nothing to the true hunger that plagued him.
Patton put it out of mind as best he could and trudged up to bed, wrapping himself in blankets and surrounding himself with stuffed toys and trying to remember what real touch felt like.