mybeautifulmisconception

i guess this is gonna be just for me. i like that thought. something just for me. 

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My Input

I am personally disgusted by the behavior of many individuals that have been involved in the Arkn mythos. Constant bickering, blaming, and arguing has led to people getting hurt, playing victim, hurting others, and ultimately causing what we have created here to fall in on itself. I am absolutely disappointed in what I have seen in my absence.

I love this Mythos. I love our story. I love the sense of community and trust we had in the past. But, over petty reasons, individuals who I will not call out, creators and fans, our structure we have built has fell.

I did not want to post my opinion on this, but I have to. I feel as one of the main creators, I simply cannot go to the side about this. I have watched my friends lose each other, learn to hate each other, and not set examples for those who watch us and look up to us. And for this I am sorry.

I am apologizing to all of the fans who have seen us fall apart. You deserve so much more than what we have given you, and for that I am sorry. I am apologizing for my silence while this issue progressed, because that may have worsened it. But most of all, I am sorry that we weren't what you all wanted us to be. People that brought each other together instead of tearing apart.

I am currently working on a personal project entitled "WhiteRidge" which I hope will be enjoyable for you all. I will be completing Mayhem Theory, in my own time, and with my own storyline. It pains me that many plans we had for our story, and we had many, will not come to fruition because of the splintering of our community. But I will try to give the best ending possible to Gabriel, Raziel, Azazel, Phoenix, and Chamuel. I owe you all at least that.

Afterward, I believe my work in this mythos will cease. I will still be an active fan and member on the sidelines, but with the current events I feel that it is time for new members to take leadership and make their own stories and characters much like we did. Make the new Mythos your own.

I love this story, and I will always remember it. Thank you all so much for your support, friendship, and community.

Tristan S. D. (The Arbiter)

"Every moment of light and dark is a miracle."

— Walter “Walt” Whitman

[comradesaucegay]

sHOW US THE JESUS

here he is in all his glory

[champagnemoon]

[thighetician]

(1983)

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2016

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Words to replace said, except this actually helps

I got pretty fed up with looking for words to replace said because they weren’t sorted in a way I could easily use/find them for the right time. So I did some myself.

IN RESPONSE TO Acknowledged Answered Protested

INPUT/JOIN CONVERSATION/ASK Added Implored Inquired Insisted Proposed Queried Questioned Recommended Testified

GUILTY/RELUCTANCE/SORRY Admitted Apologized Conceded Confessed Professed

FOR SOMEONE ELSE Advised Criticized Suggested

JUST CHECKING Affirmed Agreed Alleged Confirmed

LOUD Announced Chanted Crowed

LEWD/CUTE/SECRET SPY FEEL Appealed Disclosed Moaned

ANGRY FUCK OFF MATE WANNA FIGHT Argued Barked Challenged Cursed Fumed Growled Hissed Roared Swore

SMARTASS Articulated Asserted Assured Avowed Claimed Commanded Cross-examined Demanded Digressed Directed Foretold Instructed Interrupted Predicted Proclaimed Quoted Theorized

ASSHOLE Bellowed Boasted Bragged

NERVOUS TRAINWRECK Babbled Bawled Mumbled Sputtered Stammered Stuttered

SUAVE MOTHERFUCKER Bargained Divulged Disclosed Exhorted

FIRST OFF Began

LASTLY Concluded Concurred

WEAK PUSY Begged Blurted Complained Cried Faltered Fretted

HAPPY/LOL Cajoled Exclaimed Gushed Jested Joked Laughed

WEIRDLY HAPPY/EXCITED Extolled Jabbered Raved

BRUH, CHILL Cautioned Warned

ACTUALLY, YOU’RE WRONG Chided Contended Corrected Countered Debated Elaborated Objected Ranted Retorted

CHILL SAVAGE Commented Continued Observed Surmised

LISTEN BUDDY Enunciated Explained Elaborated Hinted Implied Lectured Reiterated Recited Reminded Stressed

BRUH I NEED U AND U NEED ME Confided Offered Urged

FINE Consented Decided

TOO EMO FULL OF EMOTIONS Croaked Lamented Pledged Sobbed Sympathized Wailed Whimpered

JUST SAYING Declared Decreed Mentioned Noted Pointed out Postulated Speculated Stated Told Vouched

WASN’T ME Denied Lied

EVIL SMARTASS Dictated Equivocated Ordered Reprimanded Threatened

BORED Droned Sighed

SHHHH IT’S QUIET TIME Echoed Mumbled Murmured Muttered Uttered Whispered

DRAMA QUEEN Exaggerated Panted Pleaded Prayed Preached

OH SHIT Gasped Marveled Screamed Screeched Shouted Shrieked Yelped Yelled

ANNOYED Grumbled Grunted Jeered Quipped Scolded Snapped Snarled Sneered

ANNOYING Nagged

I DON’T REALLY CARE BUT WHATEVER Guessed Ventured

I’M DRUNK OR JUST BEING WEIRDLY EXPRESSIVE FOR A POINT/SARCASM Hooted Howled Yowled

I WONDER Pondered Voiced Wondered

OH, YEAH, WHOOPS Recalled Recited Remembered

SURPRISE BITCH Revealed

IT SEEMS FAKE BUT OKAY/HA ACTUALLY FUNNY BUT I DON’T WANT TO LAUGH OUT LOUD Scoffed Snickered Snorted

BITCHY Tattled Taunted Teased

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reblog to save a writer 

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Reblog because the titles for each category are comedy gold.

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reblog for future reference

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I didn’t realize I needed this until now.

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ohh my god, reblogging for the titles XDXDXD

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i’ll give you a flower if you’d like

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_8

my only fear is that this my emotions will be forgotten again

that my surrender to you will become in vain

and this blood i am beginning to spill will become a false communion

and this prayer

that my comfort while sleeping next to you

is not based in fallacy

but truth

[hansskastorp]

[studiominimalista]

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_7

i’ll wrap myself up

with all that is left of me

and i’ll give it to you

and i know it isn’t enough

-T

photograph taken in paris, france. june 2015. 

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_6

i know i’m cold darling

but for you

i’d throw myself into hell

and light myself on fire

-T

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_5

you can tell the motive of a person

from the way their lips touch yours

/lust

thrusts pressure on and into–

/emptiness

feels like the air they breath through their mouth–

/hate

grinds your teeth against theirs–

and love

love–

is patient, kind

gentle with their hands on yours

treating you like a work of art

caressing your cheek

as a single tear falls

i hadn’t felt this in a long time

this is what love is

and should be

-T

[cathesis]

dear future love of my life,,

i don’t want you to be rich or model-gorgeous. i don’t want you to be a celebrity. i don’t want lights or cameras or action.

i want you.

i want the giggles at 2 am and the cuddles at night.

i want the moments that make us cry and the ones that make us smile.

i want long silences where we stare into each other’s eyes. i want coffee in the morning, with your arm around my waist. i want your dimples, your freckles, your imperfections. i want your weird little quirks, your funny little habits, your favorites, your tastes. show me who you really are.

i want real.

i want blushes and heart flips and butterflies. i want warm hugs and intertwined fingers and gentle hands. i want to feel breathless when i’m around you. i want to wonder if what i’m feeling is pure happiness, or if this is what dying feels like.

i want adventures. i want weird casual dates, raiding shops at night, seeing movies and aquariums and book shops. i want to look at the stars and tell you how much you remind me of them.

i want silly faces, loud laughter. i want moments where we can tease each other. i want to push you playfully and laugh when you push back. i want to feel you, even when you’re not there.

i want wild.

i want roller coaster rides and crazy nights. i want sweet moments, touching noses, hugging when we say hello. i want smiles at goodbyes, even though it hurts to see you leave. i want rough. i want pain. i want to love you so much that i hate the feeling. i want to need you as much as i need air, as much as i need dreams, as much as i need snow flakes and good books and cozy memories.

i want you to mean more than just someone who’s passing by.

i don’t want you to be a stranger later on in life. i want you to be the person who makes me wonder how i survived without you before. i want you to be the person who makes me imagine weddings in color, living life together, having adventures for years to come. i want to wonder why i’m thinking these thinks. i want you to be the person who makes me question my sanity.

i want you to be my friend. i want you to mean more to me than someone i make out with for fun. i want you to be one of my best friends, i want you to know me and feel when i’m not okay, and hug me when i’m sad.

i want love.

not the cheesy, cliché kind. i want the love that i feel when i see you smile. i want the love that i feel when you brush my skin. i want the love that i feel when you make me laugh, make me cry, make me smile in my sleep. i want the love between souls, between friends, between secrets. not the happily ever after love, but the kind that ends and starts again with every beat of my heart. the kind that makes me ask myself what’s happening to my mind, what’s happening to my heart, what’s happening to me? what’s happening? i want the love that makes me have nightmares of losing you, dreams of seeing you laugh. i want the love that makes me think of you, in the back of my mind, even when i’m not thinking of you at all.

i want the love that makes it okay not to be with you all the time. i want the love that lingers in the air like the scent of freshly baked cookies and blooming flowers. i want the love that comforts me. that makes me feel like it will be there no matter what.

i want hate.

i want moments where we fight. moments where we get drunk, light cigarettes. i want us to collapse on the floor, breathing hard. i want us to tumble like a waterfall, clash like a thunderstorm, but come together perfectly like the words in a thrilling story. i want us to yell. to not always be happy. to not always be okay.

but at the end of it all i want us to still miss each other.

it’s probably not realistic…. but hey. they say love takes time, right?

and oh, dear future love of my life,,

…. i’d give all of my time for you.

[lumituomi]

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_4

for all that I know

is i fell backwards for you

and both of us flew

-T

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how i'm feeling as i set out to college

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_3

you see,

when i think of you,

the one i’m waiting for,

i already feel your arms around me

i feel your breath.

i see your crooked smile as you wake up to my face.

i touch the wrinkles on your hands as we grow old.

i hear your voice singing as your feet wrap around mine under the sheets.

and see your breath in the cold winter air.

you see,

when i think of you,

the one i’m waiting for,

i already know you are here with me.

-T

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