It's not a far trek to the cemetery, a path Lucas could walk with his eyes closed. Up the hill, he's drawn ever closer to the two graves, side by side, forlorn and serene against the eternal blue sky.
A nod to his mother is first, a beautiful sunflower and a loaf of bread laid before it like offerings before an altar. He traces over the grave's letters lightly, their indentations practically written into his skin from such familiarity. He lowers his head for just a moment, before turning to the other grave. He doesn't need to say anything to Mother today. Lucas knows she understands.
Faltering before Claus's stone, Lucas kneels, but finds his legs betray him as he ends up sitting against the cool rock. These letters are not as familiar, but they still haunt his dreams at night.
Beloved son of Flint and Hinawa
A blessing, carved into the stone. Claus deserves to rest for eternity. But yet Lucas can't help but come back and speak to him.
"Hi, Claus." Already his voice is choked, and he closes his eyes so he doesn't have to see his surroundings. "It's been a while." There's no response but the wind, rusting through the flower fields.
"I hope you're doing fine." He continues. "I'm...well, I'm managing. As much as I can. I never was as strong as you." A shakey laugh escapes him, a desperate attempt at keeping his calm. "I'm pretty tired, I guess I can say that. Though I've been sleeping the day away a lot. You used to always get so mad at that..."
Used to. Because Lucas hadn't seen Claus in three years before his death.
The words he was going to speak run dry, and he finds himself freezing.
The Claus that died in his arms was practically a stranger to him. Those mismatched, tired eyes weren't the same verdant green, always brimming with life. His hair had been uncared for rather than tenderly brushed. He had been pale and grim - and he looked so old. It spoiled that notion in his head of eternal youth that his brother's ten year old self, living on in his memories, embodied, and suddenly Lucas is uncomfortable.
He is speaking to a stranger.
"...I wish I could have known you." He whispers out. "But then again, I wish for a lot of things."
He's quiet now. There's nothing more he could say.