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Change

       A spur of a blank moment, when you realize it is time for something new, add a little more of this or less of it. Change is inevitable, we may not always like it, but we have to confront it. We might feel a little lost, alone, and the fear of not being able to adapt to the change will creep into your mind causing yourself to back out. In other cases, they wanted change for a hope that there will be happiness waiting on the other side. They disregard the consequences that they might encounter, I admire those kind of people, risk takers. They want to progress in their lives, so they made actions to do it. We may not always pick the right path or the one that we want to take. In the end, you should know how to live with it and make the journey yours, own it until you’ll be able to love it. Moreover don’t try to impose someone’s own version of change because it may not workout for you. Find the solution within you, not from other people.

       In times of hopeless or homesick moments, you’re not forbidden to ask for encouragement to the people in the past or now. Talk to them because being in that state is normal my dear, and you won’t get through it by yourself. If the case that you’re thinking of them, don’t be scared to get energy from them. Also, know that I’ll be here praying for your expedition for change will come through in ways you won’t understand, so that you’ll be able to say that you lived through it.

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It was a fun day to shoot with friends

Photographer: Irma De Jesus

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Festival of Freights

      It is that time of the year, wherein the creaks of the door, the wind from the window, and the gregarious sounds of footsteps makes us nervous, yes indeed, it is Halloween. In our school, the auditorium, 4th, and 5th floor were transformed into a hunted hotel, and the people behind it surely did their job especially with the great feedback they got, proud of them. Also, I was lucky enough to be asked to host the event with one of my best friends, Tala Endaya. For this party, she dressed up as a boy scout, although she is really part of it, and I dressed up as a witchy bitchy.

       During the event, Horror films were shown, which made by the high school department, and they are not to be missed. Different bands played and along with a Dj, they hyped up the crowd. A lot of people dressed up as the characters from I.T., some even went overboard by dressing up as the canal from the movie, I find it very funny. Awards were given to people who dressed up exceptionally, all of the awarded individuals really deserved it because the effort put into was amazing. A lip sync performance was delivered by Jade So, and everyone went wild when she changes into a new outfit while performing. The food was Halloween themed graveyards, bloody band-aids, and dirty cotton buds. However, the appearance is, the food tastes delicious. The student showcased their artwork too, and the good thing is that they were selling it.  The after party was so hyped everyone was dancing, and someone led a train of people to dance. In all the event was a success, it was SPOOKTACULAR! 

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Move

       It will never be the same again. It hurts, but no matter how hard I try to put it back the way it was before. the feeling will be different. Instead, it will be much better than it was because of the experiences it gained, I gained. Maybe somethings are meant to be broken into pieces, so a lot of people will benefit from the shreds. In this life, some people not yet realized that victories and defeats are not important in the world’s innovation, but we should dwell on the actions that should be done in order to move on to the next one.          One of the reasons why people get often hurt because they give attention on what they didn’t achieve, allowing themselves to be obsessed with the glory and fame that winning carries. Moreover, obsessions ruin their movement and their purpose on doing the things they do. Forgetting their motive why they started their journey.          Let us not be blinded with the artificial pleasure that victory brings, but instead focus more on moving forward. In this way, it can bring more changes, and try to constantly remind yourself or even others of what we are doing to not lost track of what is our purpose.

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Bad Genius (2017)

      Basically, this movie is about what I’m going to do on my future exams, just kidding tempted though. It had tackled a lot of concepts with this movie, and I like how intense the scenes are, they made the exam rooms looked like a battlefield. I actually find it a bit funny because the measures they do just to cheat, maybe because I really try hard to study and find it quite easy to answer an exam. The movie showed the value of money, friendship, and integrity. It all comes down to the concept of Mutualism, they get the answers and Lynn earns money.       Lynn is a very smart and wise girl. She made the school to let her study for free, I guess one of the pros of being smart and actually attaining proper knowledge through studying. It is actually a slippery slope, it started with Grace, then Pat, and finally it became a bunch of people cheating off on Lynn’s answers. Moreover, they upgraded to the big league and Lynn became a monster for yearning to earn money to pay for her expenses and to treat her dad. Her modus was blown by her competitor for the scholarship, Banks because he could not handle the guilt of someone cheating. However, he got involved in the crime too, and like Lynn, he became obsessed with making money.  In the end, Lynn had come to her senses and take responsibilities of the actions she had been doing.       In all, the movie was good, it totally replicated what would anyone wanted to do in desperate times, I just wish they somehow showed the good side of exams and what kind of measures would be applied if they have done such crimes. 

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Philippine Red Cross Million Volunteer 4

      Achievement unlocked! Running a 5k all alone, I feel independent by doing so. It is also my first time running a Million Volunteer Run held by the Red Cross, and I think it is not going to be my last either. The thing is that this was introduced to me by my school, iAcademy also they are a bonus point reward if we join. Nevertheless, I was not forced to do it, and I really wanted to run. I researched about the MV4 and what is the purpose for this event to happen, how HUMSS of me. I was actually even motivated when I learned that the past events of such had helped the Red Cross to improve their services to the communities that had been in need of guidance. For me I think it is overwhelming, due to the fact that a lot of people are gathering together in making such change for the greater good.          In joining this run, it gave me this sense of duty to become part of the change that the red cross does. It was fulfilling and I felt healthy after finishing the 5k. The package for the run comes with a singlet of the race, a ribbon with a tag that you should wear during the race, a free sample of Milcu deodorant powder, and of course the race bib, which has a raffle ticket to it and other stubs. There are also instructions on how you should wash the singlet, which I think is very odd because not a lot of packages so far put in instructions on how to wash the given shirts, which is a good thing. However, I saw some with the runner’s card, but I didn’t get one. I also got the use my Elite Atmos Band, which detects my heartbeat, the distance, and also footsteps. It affordable, and you could track your progress with the app that is free in google store and play store.

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/L E V/

       Love is such a strong word, one that is often overrated by people nowadays. Is it really possible for some people to instantly fall in love, or act willingly enough to show affection? Forgive my bewilderment with love, or my innocence with it. I have never encountered anything like it before. I have experienced love from other people, but it was often mistaken by lust. I know of the word ‘love’, yet it is only a word for me. It was only a concept in which I have observed towards people, objects, and more.

         The problem is that sometimes we think we want to love or be loved, but in reality, we are just fond of the idea of it. Only a few people realize this, and this was even pointed out for me. Love is only a term until you decide to let an individual give importance to it, and allow yourself to be influenced by its power. That is when you realize that it is not just a word, but rather it is a state wherein you feel its force letting you express these emotions of yours. It has the control that can set your lips free from the lock, and be able to say what you feel. It is a signal that your heart is open to surrender to someone without feeling any anxiety.

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Your song

As I walked into your room I could smell your scent, and I instantly felt home. The curtains were open, the warm rays of the sun penetrated inside your room, and music sheets and scratch papers scattered on the floor and a pool around you. I saw you at your desk wearing the sweater I bought you, and your brows were narrow. I knew I was not to disturb you, but the clingy woman you love just rebelled. As I insert my arms into yours and put my head into your shoulders, I dipped my head into your neck for seconds, and I sneak a peek on your desk and found my name on the top of the paper, but no lyrics were written. Suddenly you turned your body against me, and looked me in the eyes. I looked into your brown eyes, and they were shining as the rays of the sun hit them. I touched you face, my fingers explored its structure as if it were trying to remember it. Abruptly my heart ache, a good one, and shivers ran through my body. It shocked me that you embraced me, it was like the you yearned for me, and the ones that you usually give if disasters happened. After it you said the first lyrics you thought for the song you’ve written me.

“lost and daze, but then I saw your face. Unexpectedly you wrote the song I was supposed to write, my love there is so much power in you”

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We will be Queen and King driving through that tunnel, feeling infinite. For nothing will drive us away. We are lovers and that is a fact.

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The Perks of Being A Wallflower

                 The book and the movie served as a time machine because it perfectly describes the early 1990s. I felt nostalgic watching and reading it, and the songs that were suggested will make you feel that you are living in their era. I was so hooked to it that I just have to listen to it. Luckily someone made a playlist in Spotify with the songs in it, thank you smallgirlspr! Let us not forget the incredible books Bill had suggested to Charlie. I am currently working my way up to a new book list, and some of the books were from Bill. Stephen Chbosky had written concepts faced when growing up and experiencing adulting. I definitely felt inclined with Charlie when I was starting in a new school. I had noticed that some of the dramas, issues, and parties has some similarities to the culture today. At this time moment, I know a lot of people including me is pressured to ensure ourselves a college of our choice and be able to have a safe school. I think that the reason I liked this book is because I could totally picture myself and my own gang when Charlie is with his. I could truly say that “I swear in that moment I feel we are infinite.”

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<Candese Jean Flores ft. Irma De Jesus>

Take me back to Laguna

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Smile

             The two corners of the mouth are in upward position, a little peek or none at all of the teeth, and how the eyes can emit an emotion. It is amazing how a small gesture can have a massive effect to someone. The society today is not exactly showing much evident compassion, we are living in a community that has a lot of social issues that is getting out of control and adding news ones. Not everyone has exactly the capacity to handle and make solutions to the ordeals of life, and the ones who are trying can use a little kindness. Being exposed to the problems can have so much negative connotation toward humanity. You may not know who they are, but having the effort to smile to a stranger or to the people who you know. Can assure them that there is still sympathy to this society. By the end of it all human being needs to feel that someone cares for them, and by doing that smile can make them feel like it. Let us all make it a goal and put more effort to smile to almost everyone we pass by, so that little by little humanity can be better.