“I talked to God... he must’ve felt me.” -Fab
My heart was in the shape of a contortionist. I’d faced so much turmoil, heartache, disloyalty and so many outside forces weighing me down. I walked down the aisle after promising “I Do” to God and a man whom I believed the universe had aligned me with. Every single guarantee ...breached within 365 days. But my mom never raised a quitter. Like many women in my position I realized that I’d misinterpreted the many lessons of the matriarchal figures in my life. I kept watering a plant that was dead thinking I held the key to its reincarnation. By the time I realized what I’d done or neglected to do, the damage was insurmountable. I had physical and emotional changes occur. The marriage was over, I was alone, I’d put on over 40 lbs of added weight, I didn’t want to go into public, I started suffering from anxiety and I detached from those who really cared for me. I was trapped in my own head. I’d given myself a complex.
After going through the healthy stages of grief, I decided to pick myself up and get myself on the right track. I promised myself that I’d find ME and never allow ME to drift into the realm of the bottomless chasm of disparity again. I changed my routine, I changed my diet, and most importantly, I changed my mindset.
I decided to secure the bag. It had been within my reach the entire time. It was me!
I started living for myself. I took the necessary steps to find my happiness. My cup was finally full! I was finally hydrated after being in a dehydrated situation with nothing in my cup but broken promises and false assurances. It was the best feeling in the world.
After I loved and deepened the bond with myself, I decided to finally open the door to the many possibilities of love. The love that I vowed to never give up on...
Alexa....Play “That’s the Way Love Goes”
Like a Moth to a flame, burned by the fire 🎶
My love is blind can’t you see my desire. 🎵
Groove with me for a moment. Lol!
Close your eyes and paint this picture with me. (After you read this of course).
Almond butter toned skin,
towers you like a maple tree (that you’d want to climb😉),
THE 👏🏾 MOST 👏🏾 AMAZING👏🏾 SMILE.
Good GOD! Won’t he do it!
Now slather on the confidence, charm, wit, intellect, pragmatism and will. Stir in the consciousness, militant, and defiant stance to the systemic oppression of our black brothers and sisters. Sprinkle in the generosity, patience, optimism, respect and throw in chunks of communication.
Now let it cool with the sweet aroma of Love wafting in the air.
He’s absolutely yummy in every aspect.
A doting father and staunch protector. What can I say, he’s the definition of a man and I’ll choose him over and over again in each lifetime.
How did I come to know of such a man?
He found me in the sea 😛. What can I say, our destinies had impeccable timing. He stakes his claim DAILY and makes all of his intentions clear! I’m reminded on my beauty, of my intelligence, my parental skills and of my impact on society every. single. day. He has without a doubt secured the bag!
Remember the scene from Waiting to Exhale when Loretta exhaled? Yup, that is me. But I get to exhale on a regular basis.
At every opportunity I get I’m going to unravel a new layer of this man. I plan to live in unison with him in hopes that we both continue to shed parts of our former selves in order for our souls to grow and flourish collectively.
I hope you have your space boots because we’re headed past the moon.
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