A Room Full of Stars

a place for my abstract, stream-of-consciousness pieces. writings and musics and videos and artworks coming soon. (I promise I'm not crazy! This is where I post writing experiments and abstract interpretations and exaggerated representations of my own thoughts. It's art! (even if it's shit))

[chickensnack]

reposting this comic i drew 6 years ago in honor of new broters eve

featuring the birth of everyone’s favorite meme

[coelasquid]

A national treasure.

[thecosmiceternity]

Moonbeam

down dark sidewalks

down dark sidewalks

to bend of bay

there stands a figure

unknown

down dark sidewalks

with pale resolve

awash with light

in the dead of night

down dark sidewalks

down dark sidewalks

the figure moves

but only slightly

only slightly

one minute, it’s there

the next it’s not

down dark sidewalks

look towards the sky

like a barking dog

panicked and frantic

at that incandescent face

with the thousand-yard stare

down dark sidewalks

inside their houses

the lights are off

rows and rows of them

indistinguishable from one another

it is cold outside

and dark

hidden surreptitiously behind the clouds

the moon’s eyes twitch about.

the tender smile of a feminine face

it’s magnificence is utterly petrifying

as the dim, barren street is bathed in its glow

down dark sidewalks

down dark sidewalks

[hot-saucer-man]

Listen to my new pretty ass solo ambient album

[thecosmiceternity]

beautiful 

[diazeparadise]

[hornyonmainstreet]

Thanks snake.

[squidbot-deactivated20161114]

Thanks Snake.

[moontouched-moogle]

[thecosmiceternity]

And So It Goes...

a greedy face with rows of metal teeth

beckoning, calling, pleading

no response ever comes

clasp your hands

speak into the dark

shed those tears once again

there is nobody listening

a cosmic sigh - that is the most you will receive

it is a fickle creature

(as are you)

and so it goes…

[thecosmiceternity]

Good Hunter, have you seen the thread of light? Just a hair, a fleeting thing, yet I clung to it, steeped as I was in the stench of blood and beasts. I never wanted to know, what it really was. Really, I didn’t! Even in this darkest of nights, I see…the moonlight...

Ludwig, the Holy Blade; “Bloodborne”

[thecosmiceternity]

A Fleeting Thing

nothing’s going to happen

not without a siren to warn us

it’s never going to be

it is whatever it could have been

nothing more

pitiful, really

this is the way the world turns

round and round

uncaring

no use setting yourself up for disappointment

a woeful phantom that merely exists

atemporal

pale and lunar

just a feeling, a fleeting abstraction

internalized

it could never have been anything more

[thecosmiceternity]

The Sound of Water

eyes like stars

a magical place

a magical face

don’t drop the valuables

(priceless)

just killing time

walking along

i’m at your service

on hand and foot

nauseous again

as the realization sets in

and i am aware of myself

a cold wind blows

from you to me

a painful truth

beating it’s frozen wings

(never enough time)

it’s like i’m back again

better than before

i promise you

take me back

(all take and no give)

absurd and strange

listen close;

the sound of water

you can hear it too

[thecosmiceternity]

The Night Terror

you plague my thoughts

cling to them ceaselessly

i close my eyes and there you are

wonderful sprites dancing,

dancing

dancing

playfully

bizarre delusions and incoherent musings

are all i can offer

worthless, that’s all

the trees, they bear down on us

comfort us

comfort me

eyes like mirrors

reflect my despicable form back at me

disgusting notions worm their way into my brain

the buzzing and churning of the machines

it speaks to me

horrid unending thoughts

confuse and baffle

i no longer have any control

(they will wash over you and all you can do is acknowledge them)

[gothicprep]

[moon-pepper]

comrade

[thecosmiceternity]

2:30 in the Morning

i run outside in the cold with my arms flailing around screaming like an idiot. 

it feels good. you should try it sometime. people give me funny looks, but i don’t care what they think nothing they say can hurt me i’ve got my armor on after all.

(retreat into the woods the jig is up everyone)

(they know! oh god they know my terrible secret they can smell the fear on me)

how could they have discovered the truth? how did they realize i was faking it the whole time? 

ummm uhhh i don’t know what to do all i can do is run faster and flail harder and scream louder until my screaming drowns out their laughter and disgust.

(where has the time gone? i’m just not the one, am i?)

[thecosmiceternity]

from “Welcome to the NHK”

[thecosmiceternity]

The Machine

a life support system that speaks to you every evening in incomprehensible advertisements and corporate slogans trying to sell you the newest hottest cheapest appliance for your extravagant suburban home.

as you choke on your own final fading breaths, you see the reflection in the mirror and are overcome with indescribable rage. you realize that you’ve wasted your entire meaningless existence on trivial anxieties and superficial successes and all this time the life was gradually being sucked out of you by vampires until you were nothing more than a hollow desiccated husk. 

the machine repeats it’s phrases and cliches and slogans at you non-stop as your cancerous body tries it’s very best to keep itself going for just one more moment. CLICK CLICK CLICK CLICK CLICK CLICK CLICK CLICK

it goes in and it goes out it goes in and it goes out it goes in and it goes out it goes in and it goes out it goes in and it goes out it goes in and it goes out it goes in and it goes out it goes in and it goes out it goes in and it goes out it goes in and it goes out it goes in and it goes out it goes in and it goes out it goes in and it goes out it goes in and it goes out it goes in and it goes out it goes in and it goes out it goes in and it goes out it goes in and it goe

be instrumental

be instrumental

don’t stop moving

those feelings you had were false. you were living in a fantasy.

[thecosmiceternity]

Analyze

actions

have consequences

how can i be sure if i did the right thing?

(when are you coming back?)

made an unpleasant face

said the wrong words

(...all i have)

become a person others want to be around

(how can i?)

be desired

be wanted

be valued

(i am nothing)

be perfect

be instrumental

(there is no one...)

i saw a light at the end of the tunnel

but then it left 

as quickly as it appeared

(what did i do wrong?)

responsibilities upon responsibilities

i have not fulfilled

ignored epiphanies

(just don’t leave)

they’ve all flown away

[thecosmiceternity]

Say The Wrong Things

always i say the wrong things...

did i do something wrong?

i don’t know how to say the right words. i wish i did.

always speaking incorrectly...

i’m sorry.

[thecosmiceternity]

disregard everything that's been posted previously on this web space. this is now a place dedicated to the analysis and deconstruction of skeleton memes.

[thecosmiceternity]

The Voices That Leak From The Mirror

pitiful degenerate 

inhuman filth

what are the words leaking from the mirror?

it’s like they all know your name

that reflection is particularly gruesome

are you satisfied?

is this what you wanted?

(it was just a joke, didn’t mean to scare you off)

liars, all of them

bitter and resentful

what did they expect?

who could meet those standards?

in the woods at night

i can hear you sleeping

i can hear you screaming

covered all in mold

body half-eaten

what’s going on inside your skull?

are you disappointed?

can’t say i blame you

things uncontrollable

work against us...