[thecrashzone]

i’m not gonna talk to anyone here directly so you don’t need a name or pronouns.

this account will contain negative shit like dissociating, bpd splitting, npd crashing, bipolar depressive crap, aspd misanthropy, ocd intrusive & suicidal thoughts probably among other things mental health related, incl. yan mentality.

ig i should say. block don’t report. and i don’t like radqueers.

[smrulovesyaoi]

Any bipolars in the house ??? WOOOOOHOOOO

*goes into hiding for a billion years*

[karua007]

i am the scum of the earth. i should just fucking end it, shouldn’t i?

[miata-landmine]

I ' m crashing harder than a lead balloon .

[pissmamiii]

sick to my fucking stomach for all the times i begged to be loved and seen by anyone lmao

[tabathastan]

I think one of the worst symptoms of bpd is the lack of emotional permanence no matter how many good and loving people you have in your life the second you are alone it feels like you were never loved and it was all just a figment of your imagination

[cluster-a-culture]

PPD culture is... yeah, paranoia is scary, but it's also tiring and filled with hatred. It's probably not the same for every pwPPD, I personally am full of hatred. I hate humans and humans hate me, this is the truth of the world. Everyone is trying to hurt me, because they hate me, so I hate them back. Even if someone's my “friend”, they'll come to hate me sooner or later. And talking about that with anyone? It would just make them hate me and want to hurt me. Exhausting.

[cherryhinano]

deadass how does one communicate with people like i gen need advice

i tell someone not to bring up my literal singular trigger? they do it anyway

i tell someone that something they did bothers me? they defend themselves//do it again//complain abt me to their other friends

like how do i tell ppl that they're upsetting me when i've lit been trained by half the people i talk to that i will only ever be punished for doing so ???

[pansyfemme]

sorry for displaying suicidal tendancies do you still think im hot

[luguuuu]

[luguuuu]

how to beg for attention without seeming pathetic

[midnightglances]

no it’s fine, it’s just that being vulnerable is scary and disgusting and makes me want to die haha lol so funny am I right?

[thecrashzone]

internal self harm <3. can’t do it externally so i end up doing it internally. as in headspace. i can’t even remember how many times i’ve done it now. it’s definitely more but it’s at least the third time to my recollection lol.

[thecrashzone]

frustrating when the person who you spoke to about pretty much anything you don’t feel like you can talk to them as easily anymore. it’s probably partially to do with the fact we haven’t spoken as much for a while now because of some irl stuff on their end but like! now idk who to talk to!

yes there’s other people i do talk to, but i can’t talk to them about everything and it’s kinda digging at me to the point it’s distressing. i need to talk to someone but there IS no one.

and if i do say that publically people are gonna be like “oh you can talk to me!” but i cant. just talk to you like that just because you said i can.. that’s not how that works..

[thecrashzone]

why does it always feel like nobody is here when i need them. why does everyone have something to do that keeps them away from me. unless it’s on purpose.

[thecrashzone]

it’s so cold. and i feel sick.

[thecrashzone]

i <3 being an active suicide risk.