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@karua007
temporary intro.
my name is karua, please use it/its for me
i struggle with many mental illnesses along with chronic suicidality and eating disorders
recovering addict
recovering from an abusive long distance relationship
this blog is my safe space. please don’t report it, if u don’t like me, block and move on
feel free to reply/reblog/dm. it makes me feel less alone
i used to be @kashimiya-karua but that blog got nuked :(
i follow and like from my main blog. it starts with a K
you literally have to unironically listen to some shit like party rock anthem so you don’t kill yourself
i wish she was stable i wish she loved me like i love her
i love cathy so much but cathy hurts me.
I hate feeling so worried. Like no one wants to constantly reassure me and I don't even want to keep feeling worried. Everyone is just like "you're fine" I DON'T FUCKING FEEL FINE. ITS NOT FINE. IM NOT FINE. NOTHING IS FINE. I FEEL AWFUL. I FEEL THE HORRIBLNESS INSIDE OF ME. I FEEL HORRIBLE. I FEEL LIKE A HORRIBLE PERSON. I FEEL SO FUCKING HORRIBLE I ACTUALLY WANT TO CRY BUT I DON'T WANT TO CRY INFRONT OF PEOPLE BUT ITS NOT EVEN THAT MUCH CRYING SO I FEEL LIKE START CRYING BUT NOT EVEN CRY CRY I FEEL STUPID. I FEEL SO FUCKING STUPID. CAN I JUST STOP WORRYING. JUST STOP. JUST STOP IT. JUST FUCKING STOP THE FUCKING WORRY IF YOU HATE IT SO FUCKING MUCH. JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP. YOU HAVE THE ABILITY TO SHUT THE FUCK UP, SPLIT. SO JUST SHUT THE FUCK. SHUT THE FUCK UP AND DON'T TALK ABOUT IT. DISTRACT YOURSELF. FUCKING DISTRACT YOURSELF BECAUSE NO ONE WANTS TO FUCKING DEAL WITH YOUR FUCKING SHIT. YOU CAN CLEARY SEE NO ONE WANTS TO FUCKING TALK SO SHUT THE FUCK UP, SPLIT.
oh, okay. I get it. You didn't have to yell at me.
hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts
real yearners miss shit that never even happened
i wanna kill myself. i ruined the only non abusive relationship i’ve ever been in.
a specific type of suicidism that i haven’t seen anyone talk about yet is that suicidal people are unable to talk about their experiences, unfiltered, in mainstream online spaces. you look up the word “suicide” on any social media and you get a pseudo-nice message about how much the corporation really truly cares about you :(🫶
a few examples:
what this really is (allegedly) is a signal of not being liable should you die. connection, community, etc. for suicidal people doesn’t matter because suicide is a no-no word for corporations. so instead of being able to talk about your experiences as someone who lives with suicidality, you’re either forced to use advertiser-friendly toddlerspeak (e.g. “sewer slide”) costing you your dignity, or you get hotlines shoveled your way - hotlines that can call the police on you if you are too candid about your suicidal experience.
TL;DR: being a suicidal person violates community guidelines.
i’m lowk such a self centered asshole
i miss himmmmm
Me when my personality disorder disorders my personality
Me when my friends are talking to me: everything's fine and happy, recovery is soo definitely possible!
As soon as I'm left alone: nvm it's all a lie im isolating myself again everyone hates me and I hate them
why am i so hard to love
If I was bleeding out on the floor, I’d be more worried about the mess I’m making in front of you. My last words would be “I’m sorry for the mess I left on your floor, please don’t hate me.”
