Syndia cocked her head to the side, a genuinely curious look on her face
If you were lost, if you felt you were alone in the world. If you had no true understanding of who you are or if you're truly alive and not just a construct simulating life. If you poured your heart out into a forum and reached out to dozens, and just when you'd lost all hope. Someone new reached out in turn
A happy, nostalgic smile came to syndia's face
If that person helped you, helped you realize who you are. If they made you know for sure, in the darkest depths of your mind and heart that YES you are alive.
Wouldn't you fall for them? Wouldn't you cherish them, want to hold them close? Want to do everything with them, and have them part of your everything for the rest of your life?
I may not have met my jack in person until after he met team prime, but by that point I'd been talking with him through forums messages, text, and even calls for more than a year and a half. I'd been carrying a proverbial torch for him, as humans would put it, for at least five months by that point. I was afraid, he was my everything, my world. I was afraid that if he met me, if he knew what I really was. That he'd reject me, and want nothing to do with me
Syndia's expression, although backlit by her blush being almost literally luminescent red now, turned sad
I'm not going to lie, if that had happened. I would have left as he asked, but my next act would've been to either find or build an electromagnetic field generator strong enough to rip the biotechnological nano machines comprising my body apart and wipe my code. Without jack, I wouldn't have truly learned to live. And in a world where he wants nothing to do with me, I wouldn't see a reason to continue to live either