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the Restraint I am exhibiting rn I deserve a sainthood

yeah that's definitely what that means. we were all so stupid to think extensively referencing the film with the first gay portrayal of sherlock holmes indicated something else. your explanation is much more reasonable.

#watching bbc Sherlock feels like watching a brilliant friend develop a drug problem #but not a fun drug like heroin or meth #one of the weird drugs like ketamine #where they still seem more or less functional #but get caught in weird delusions #where shit like amoral genius mind-controlling previously unknown sisters seem like a good idea

Chez Léon

I don't know who this guy is. Or why he's a person, not a place. I also don't know why he's also Deanne Shuh.

#tian guan ci fu #to be clear this is a me problem #I am ignorant #transliteration is confusing #and the multitude of transliteration systems makes it more confusing #has everyone agreed on pinyin?

anxietyproblem

#I see that you've been spying on me

Let's normalize continuing abandoned podfics.

#fanfic #podfic

theconcealedweapon

#brilliant thing to see on a Monday morning

dragon-in-a-fez

accidentally said "invasive thoughts" instead of "intrusive thoughts" today and actually I think I'm onto something. this thought does not belong here and it is harming the local ecosystem

everythingwsnormalhere

PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD IF YOU HATE THE NEW UPDATE REBLOG THIS POST

[ PT; please for the love of god if you hate the new update reblog this post ]

I am organizing a lights out protest on tumblr, from March 20th 6AM UTC until March 21st 6AM UTC. It is best if as many tumblr users as possible can join this protest, as a mass downtime in users is the only way the tumblr staff will listen to us.

If you cherish this hellsite, participate. Do your bit. Every person counts.

Thank you for reading, and to @staff @changes: give us our tumblr back, or the people will migrate somewhere else. This is a threat.

animentality

fox-moblin

Wouldn’t leave my mind sorry

#now i'm crying

going2hell4everythingbutbeingbi

things to say after fucking up egregiously

pack it up boys we've made a social blunder

let's run that again

one more time normal style

I'm going to become a statistic

further proof god is out to get me

it's because I tore my acl senior year

I couldn't do it for religious reasons

my ex took my talent in the divorce

good thing nobody saw that (said directly to someone who definitely saw it)

I accidentally went off my anxiety/depression med (an SMS,) and I am noticing some alarming things. I am very, very overweight and eat when I am not hungry. My house is also a full-on hoard. It is a fire hazard. I don't need a lot of this stuff, and the rest of it could be much better organized (any organization would be nice, really. It's just lumped in piles of everything.) I did not notice or care about the overeating or hoarding while I was still taking my medicine.

However, since I'm off the medicine I've been a bitch to my wife and blurting out my negative thoughts without meaning to.

I would like to improve my health and organize my house, but I'm afraid of my coworkers hearing me blurt out "I wish I could fucking die."

I'm thinking about cutting my pills in half (when I get my refill,) and seeing if I can find a better balance.

#mental health #psych meds

I know I'm the "factory seconds" version of a certain kind of employee, but you can't afford to hire the version of me without scratches and dents.

#worksona

defilerwyrm

Growth capitalism is a deranged fantasy for lunatics.

Year 1, your business makes a million dollars in profit. Great start!

Year 2, you make another million. Oh no! Your business is failing because you didn't make more than last year!

Okay, say year 2 you make $2 mil. Now you're profitable!

Then year 3 you make $3 mil. Oh no! Your business is failing! But wait, you made more money than last year right? Sure, but you didn't make ENOUGH more than last year so actually your business is actively tanking! Time to sell off shares and dismantle it for parts! You should have made $4 mil in profit to be profitable, you fool!

If you're not making more money every year by an ever-increasing exponent, the business is failing!

Absolute degenerate LUNACY

augustdementhe

#we loooooove the methodology of a cancer cell

#constant expansion at all costs!! go go go go go!! what do you mean the body has died

^^^^^^^^^^^

no no it's worse than that.

If you make $4 million on that third year, you are STILL failing. Because the idea is not that you grow your profit every year, the idea is that you should grow YOUR GROWTH.

Like, if the "Year over year" income from year 2-compared-to-year-1 grew by 100%, then the YoY from 3-to-2 is supposed to have grown more than that 100%. You are supposed to accelerate your growth, all the time. If you keep growing the same rate every year, consistently? you are failing.

It's

FUCKING

BONKERS

thedepthsofmyshame

This is all I see when I look at 'business', and then I wonder what I don't know, because many, many seemingly-intelligent people with far more education in the subject all think it's okay.

What do they know that I don't? I don't feel like I can ask my employer's president to explain to me why he thinks this is all a good idea. I would have to explain why it doesn't seem possible and explain any logical contradictions and then call out any hand-waving. I'm not sure I would have a job or a real explanation at the end of that process.

Do I need to go get an MBA to understand why they all think this is okay? That seems like a waste of money, but I suppose I could try it.

My biggest fear is that all the people in the management class don't think that capitalism is sustainable, simply because they don't think about it at all.

lizardywizard

What I'm increasingly learning from this whole "AI" bubble, and looking at the bubbles that have occurred in the past:

It's greed, sheer greed, and the pump-and-dump mindset. The people actually making money off these companies don't care one bit for their workers, the future of society or the environment, or even - this is crucial - the survival of the companies themselves. What they want is to get in early, grow their profits as fast as possible, then ditch and repeat.

It's why companies that could be moderately profitable are being killed off. Slow, steady growth is boring to these people; they have everything they could ever want materially, and so they want challenge. They want the thrill of gambling with the world's assets. They want to screw everyone over, take the money and run to their bunkers. Or properties in New Zealand.

And everyone else? Well, they're making their money by sucking up. As long as they can keep the investors and CEOs sweet, they get a slice of the pie. Some of them probably know it won't last forever, but what's their alternative: fight the system and end up broke or in jail? When they're doing pretty good for themselves?

Better to push down your conscience and live another day. Because the people at the top have ensured that if you fall off the corporate ladder, if you want to do anything except work to make their numbers go up, you won't have enough to feed your family, or yourself. Infrastructure? Public services? Health and safety regulations? All things that can be sacrificed or strip-mined for the sake of the numbers.

It's obscene. And yeah, it's the mindset of the cancer cell. They don't actually care if the host (the rest of society) survives; they think they can survive without it, somehow, alone, these "self-made men" who haven't done a thing but exploit others.

#this is the truth that terrifies me #because how do we fight this cancer?

outsidewolves

Cleaning the pantry and finding things I don’t recall buying

#I can't stop laughing at my desk

rosefinchie

how it all feels lately

#same

I have a Master's degree in computer science, and I've historically been interested in making computing accessible. I've taught basic usability at the senior center and tutored introductory programming. I've encouraged people not to be afraid of technology, and insisted that computing is for everyone.

This was a mistake on my part. We should have been like a medieval guild, jealously guarding our secrets from the "commoners" by necessity, to keep our knowledge out of the hands of the "nobles" (i.e., capitalists.)

#we should be wizards #but we're digital serfs #and the capitalists are using our magic to oppress #late stage capitalism #makes the bene tleilax seem sensible

chrisbenwaht

swawesome flow dude

#perfectly Shitty but not at all shitty.#it's like Polish and polish

ampervadasz

Unmute !

pumpkinsforsale

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