Don't Fear the Reaper

Call me Gal . 26. Don't condone - How'd I ever get so off my rocks? How'd I ever get so lost

[rseptrum]

au thingy from my last post

[444angelshooters]

[thedisastergalv2]

Are you still out there?

Believe it or not I'm still alive, I'm 28 now which is so weird to say. I'm still married and still no children. I live near Pittsburgh now and have gotten weirdly into baseball, like I usually go to a lot of Pirates games into baseball. I'm still not very healthy mentally but now I'm on medication that seems to work pretty well for me. A nice mix of pristiq, seroquel, and vistaril. I think about this blog pretty often and Sol even more often, hell I bring her up sometimes at work. Which I got the most sterotypical alt/queer person job I'm a barista which I actually seem to enjoy a lot suprisingly.

So much has changed and yet at the same time it seems like nothing has changed.

[thedisastergalv2]

I forgot to tell you guys! From now on I am no longer Gal, my name is now Doc Holliday. Why? Because I tested positive for tuberculosis apparently today. However, since I answered no to all of the risk factor questions they marked me down as negative and let me go. It doesn’t matter either way I don’t have health insurance so even if I 100% had it I couldn’t go to see a doctor. But yeah call me Doc. Nah, I’m just kidding I’m still the Gal you know and love, but I’m serious about the tuberculosis thing. It’s funny because my test last week came back negative but this week it apparently came back positive. I guess we will figure out if I actually have it if I die? Also apparently nurses don’t like it if you are laughing the entire time they’re freaking out and trying to determine if you have tb, there is also apparently nothing in the books about what it means if you tested negative a week ago but positive the next?

[thedisastergalv2]

Going through my old posts and found this one. So funny story... this was not a false positive like the nurses told me! With my current job it was found that I tested positive on the Gold test, meaning that I have been exposed to TB at some point! I have the virus in my body just dormant and hopefully it will never activate lol

[welcome-to-alice-in-helll]

[gh6stly]

is anybody gonna match my freak *we commit an armed robbery at a big bank in ski masks, completely covering our bodies and tracks and securing a tight alibi, then run away and experience everything fun together we can imagine, then go to the middle of the deep woods by a pretty waterfall and follow through with our suicide pact*

[thedisastergalv2]

We're fucking broke lol. I have a shopping addiction and he was a bachelor for a while with no plans on marrying and bought dumb shit. I paid for the wedding on credit cards (it's all under 10k) because we didn't know when the next time we'd have the opportunity was so we just jumped. Now our car is breaking. I feel like the scared little helpless girl I used to be, who listened to her mother sob about how she needed to pay 4k of bills with only $4 in the bank account. We want to start a family one day and we just will never be able to afford it. All I've ever wanted is to be a mom and I just will never be able to be one and it's fucking heartbreaking. I'd be 12 weeks pregnant tomorrow and my womb is empty, I've been bleeding for nearly a week straight yay birth control. I wonder a lot about my baby... I miss it lots I've got my ultrasound picture right beside me you can't tell there was anything there really. It took them a while to even find the pregnancy and then we were told it wasn't viable... Life fucking sucks I still think about killing myself nearly every day but I don't think it's my time yet. Or maybe it's way past my time and I just can't tell lol

[thedisastergalv2]

I'm married fuckers

[thedisastergalv2]

Soooo lots has changed in my life! I quit flying, I moved, I got a new job, I got engaged, got pregnant, and lost the pregnacy. Isn't life fucking weird?

[jupiterfoxx]

you're in his dms, my blood's on his basement floor. we are not the same.

[jennifersminds]

the feminine urge to destroy every part of you that’s like your mother

[thegentlemanstar]

Why rickrolling is problematic

The post got a bit long so I put it under a readmore. This is important, please read

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[thegentlemanstar]

this post is going around again today for some reason i’m glad people are spreading awareness

[uss-edsall]

[andshecanproveitwasolidrighthook]

dark radiohead im a normal person. i’m average. i know exactly what i’m doing here i feel like i belong here

[ndiecity-deactivated20241101]

affirmations to tell yourself when you walk inside a store

[skittyminecraft]

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