Put On Your Mask And Fake It Till You Make It

I have been diagnosed with many forms of Depression, anxiety, and trauma. I have an atypical response to meds and so after 5 years of trial and error, it’s been decided I can’t take meds. This is part of my coping method. I in no way shape or form support bodily harm or suicide. I am just giving my thoughts. If anyone wants someone to talk to I'm always down.

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I miss the days when I didn’t feel as if I needed someone else to fill the void inside me.

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I’m tired of people passing me off like I’m nothing more than a waste of time.

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I one day hope that I don’t want to die anymore. And most days, I don’t want to. But the longer the nights get, the more stress I have, it makes me just wish I killed myself in the seventh grade like I planned on doing.

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I want help so bad but no one gives a fuck

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The worst feeling is knowing that you are truly alone in this world.

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I am just straight up fuckin sad

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It’s 7pm and I’m about to go to bed because everyone has ignored me and I’m sick of being awake.

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Might fuck around and kill myself

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The only thing I can count on anymore is my depression and my razor

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Torn between wanting sex and not being attractive enough for sex

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Love never hurt you. Someone who didn’t know how to love hurt you. Don’t blame love for something it never did.

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My heart is broken but my mind is strong. I’ll make it through this hellish time without you

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I’ll never be worth the struggle

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Even if he does keep you a secret from everyone and tells you not to tell anyone about your relationship, he at least tells you that you’re pretty at night. So that makes up for everything, right?

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Why can’t I have the same love returned that I give out to everyone else? Why am I so unworthy of love?

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I should be angry but I think I’m just use to the abuse at this point.

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Weighed myself in at a 130 pounds today. Guess who’s gonna stop eating for the next 3 days