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Navigating one year post-apocalypse, when the dead began to walk and the living proved to be no better, you decide that trust is a luxury you can no longer afford. But after a run-in with a group of seven peculiar survivors, you learn that there are bigger problems than just the undead roaming the streets. You also start to wonder if thereâs more to survival than simply staying alive.
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Rotten.
The can of tuna youâve risked your life to retrieve from the mart in the next neighbourhood is rotten. Just like everything else roaming the streets.
The smell hits you first, sharp and metallic, curling through the air like a mocking laugh. Itâs only when you peer into the greyish sludge that you know for sure. Gagging, you launch the can across the dimly lit room. The clang as it hits the wall feels louder than it should, echoing against the hollow silence. A greasy smear marks its path before it rolls to a stop.
Your stomach tightens, but not from hungerânot entirely. Itâs exhaustion, or frustration, or both, a familiar cocktail of feelings that churns in your gut. You press a hand to your stomach, willing it to stay quiet. The small victories matter now, even if theyâre as simple as keeping quiet.
âFigures,â you mutter, wiping your hands on the knees of your tattered jeans. The word feels heavy in the thick silence of the abandoned community building youâve been calling homeâa makeshift fortress thatâs only just kept you alive for the past year.
The windows are boarded up with planks you scavenged from nearby wreckage, letting in only the faintest cracks of moonlight, casting fractured shadows on the walls. The small corner where you sleep is enclosed by a barricade of furniture you've managed to tie together with ropes and scraps of cloth youâve gathered. Itâs not perfect, but itâs held so far.
Outside, the telltale groans of the undead float through the night air, mingling with the distant sound of screams and breaking glass. Youâve learned to tune it out, to pretend that the world hasnât fallen apart.
But every so often, when the noises grow too close or too many, the illusion shatters, leaving behind a pit of fear in your stomach that no amount of fortification can fill.
You lean back, letting your head hit the wall. The cracks in the paint catch against the rough weave of your jacket, the sound gritty and small. Your mind drifts back to that fateful day, the day everything went to shit.
Youâd only been living in Seoul for a month, you were barely unpacked, just starting to memorise the labyrinth of subway lines, the shortcuts to your university. University acceptance had felt like the first step towards something bigger, something brighter. You can still see your parentsâ faces, lit with pride, when you shared the news. Getting into a university in Seoulâitâs like gaining instant bragging rights for life.
Except now, none of it matters. Those things out there couldnât care less about your alma mater, whether youâre earning a six-figure salary or pulled from the gutter. To them, youâre just another meal on legsâflesh, blood, and bone all blending into the same, mindless craving.
Youâd always thought youâd know what to do in a zombie apocalypse. Every movie and survival guide said the same thing:
Avoid the cities. Get out fast.
So when the news started to break, you didnât hesitate. You grabbed a bagâessentials onlyâand set out, determined to make it back to your parents in the province. You didnât even pause to think about how impossible it might be.
But the city had other plans. You hadnât even made it ten blocks before the streets were overrun. A tide of chaos, of screams and shoving bodiesâalive and notâforced you off course.
The community building was a last-ditch refuge, its doors flung open to anyone desperate enough to run for them. Youâd barely made it inside before the barricades went up. It wasnât the plan, but then again, nothing about survival ever is.
At first, it felt like a haven. There were enough supplies to keep everyone fedâif barely. Dozens of survivors shared the space, most of them too old or too scared to leave. The rations were thin, one meal a day if you were lucky, but it was enough.
You and a handful of the younger survivors took turns venturing out, gathering what you could from nearby shops and houses. It wasnât much, but it worked.
For a time.
When the convenience store was stripped bare, you moved to the supermarket. When that was picked clean, you ventured further. Each trip took you deeper into danger, the risk growing with every step. Supplies dwindled. The fear grew sharper, harder to ignore.
People started to dieâsome to the undead, others to hunger, and still others to the kind of cruelty that only surfaces when survival is on the line.
You learned quickly that it wasnât just the zombies you had to fear. Youâve seen it firsthand: the way desperation changes people.
At first, it was small thingsâarguments over ration sizes, whispers of distrust. But then the small petty arguments turned into fights, and fights turned into bloodshed.
One by one, people either left to take their chances elsewhere or fell victim to the chaos within. A high school student, he had barely turned eighteen, stabbed a man over a tin of peaches. A woman abandoned her own mother to save herself when the barricade was breached.
Survival strips away more than fleshâit strips away the pretence of civility, leaving only the raw, animalistic instinct to endure at any cost. Itâs not just the undead that keep you awake at nightâitâs the memory of what people are capable of becoming.
So when the barricade failed during a particularly viscous storm and youâd barely escaped with your life, you dragged what little you could salvage to this corner of the building, patching up the holes as best as possible. Alone, because it was safer that way.
Now, alone in the faint light of your makeshift fortress, the weight of it all presses down on you. The loneliness, the hunger, the constant, gnawing terrorâitâs all too much. But you shove it aside, because thereâs no room for weakness here.
Weakness gets you killed.
Your stomach growls again, insistent, and you grit your teeth. Youâll have to go out again soon. The thought sends a chill through you, but thereâs no other choice. Survival doesnât wait for fear to subside.
Taking a deep breath, you stand and reach for your weaponâa rusted crowbar thatâs seen more use than youâd like to admit. Tomorrow, youâll go out again, search for food, risk whatâs left of your life to keep it from ending.
For now, you sit in the dark and listen. To the groans. To the screams. To the sound of your own ragged breathing. And try not to dream.
A loud thunk from below jolts you awake, not that you were fully unconscious in the first place. Your entire body goes rigid as you strain to listen. Another thunk. Then a scrape, like something heavy being dragged across the ground floor. Your mind racesâit could be the wind, or maybe another scavenger. Or it could be them.
Your grip on the crowbar tightens as you slowly push yourself off the floor. You tiptoe toward the staircase leading down to the lobby. The wooden stairs creak under your weight as you inch down them, and you wince at each sound. They might as well be gunshots in the stillness.
Sweat beads on your forehead as you reach the landing and peer into the dark hallway beyond. Shadows shift and flicker in the faint moonlight filtering through cracks in the boarded-up windows.
The dragging sound comes again, closer this time, and your grip tightens until the ridged metal of the crowbar bites into your skin. Then, a growl echoes from the darkness. Low. Guttural. Not human.
You back up instinctively, your heart pounding in your chest like a drum. Your foot catches on a loose piece of debris, and you stumble, barely catching yourself on the railing. The noise you make is small but loud enough to stir the growling into a frenzy. The shuffling grows faster, more erratic.
Theyâre coming.
âShit,â you hiss under your breath, scrambling back up the stairs. Youâve rehearsed this scenario a hundred times in your head. Go to the second floor. Block the stairwell. Wait it out. Itâs worked before, but something tells you this time is different. Thereâs too much noise, too many of them. And youâre already running low on supplies.
By the time you reach the top of the stairs, the first figure emerges into the faint light below. Its flesh hangs from its bones in sickly, yellowed strips. Empty eye sockets seem to bore into you as it lets out a chilling moan. Behind it, more shadows lurch into view, a grotesque parade of decay and hunger.
Youâre out of time.
Slamming the door to the stairwell shut, you shove a heavy desk against it and wedge the crowbar beneath the handle for good measure. The door shudders almost immediately under the weight of their assault, the moans and growls growing louder with each passing second. You back away, your mind racing for an escape route.
Your eyes dart to the boarded-up windows. Itâs a long drop, but thereâs a fire escape just a few feet out of reach. If you can break through the boards and make the jump, you might stand a chance. Itâs a gamble, but so is staying here
And if youâre being honest, youâd rather plunge to your death than be torn apart limb by limb.
Grabbing a chair, you smash it against the nearest window. The wood splinters and cracks, but it holds firm. Behind you, the door creaks ominously as the barricade begins to give way. Desperation fuels your next swing, and the boards finally snap, leaving a jagged hole just big enough to climb through.
You donât thinkâyou just act, hauling yourself up and out onto the narrow ledge outside. The cold night air hits your face, a stark contrast to the suffocating atmosphere inside. Below, the fire escape beckons. You take a deep breath, brace yourself, and leap.
For a moment, youâre weightless. Then your hands slam into the metal railing, and you scramble to pull yourself up. Your palms sting, and your muscles scream in protest, but you donât let go. Not when survival is so close.
Behind you, the door finally gives way. The sound of splintering wood and the enraged cries of the undead spur you into action. You donât look back as you climb down the fire escape, each step taking you further from the nightmare above, and closer to the nightmare below.
When your feet finally hit the ground, you allow yourself a moment to breathe. But itâs short-lived. The streets are no safer than the building you just escaped. Shadows move in the distance, and the faint echo of shuffling feet reminds you that youâre never truly alone.
With nothing but the clothes on your back, you start to run. You donât know where youâre goingâonly that you canât stop. Your legs burn, your lungs ache, but you keep moving, fuelled by a singular, desperate thought: keep going. Always keep going. Because if you stop, even for a moment, itâll all be over.
The groans follow you, relentless and hungry. You donât dare look back. Instead, you focus on the narrow alleyways and shadowed streets ahead, praying you donât make a wrong turn.
You finally spot a buildingâan auto store with its doors hanging slightly ajar. Without thinking, you rush inside, slamming the door shut behind you. Your hands fumble for somethingâanythingâto block it, and you grab a rusted toolbox, wedging it against the frame. It feels pathetic, barely a barrier, but you convince yourself itâs better than nothing.
Your breaths come fast and shallow as you scan the room. Rows of dusty shelves cluttered with tools and car parts stretch before you, their contents untouched for what feels like decades. The air is stale and heavy, carrying the faint tang of motor oil. For a fleeting moment, the oppressive noise of the streets is muffled, and you almost feel safe.
But the reprieve is short-lived.
Voices. Human voices. Low, urgent, and drawing closer.
Your stomach twists as panic sets in, sharp and paralysing. You reach for a loose screwdriver on the floor and dart behind a shelf, crouching low. Dust clings to your clothes as you press yourself against the cold metal, willing yourself to disappear.
The door creaks open, and the toolbox scrapes uselessly across the floor. You curse silently under your breath. What a waste of effort.
Boots scuff against the ground as they enter. Voicesâmale voicesâfilter through the stale air, rough and laced with tension. âThat was close, fuck.â one mutters, his voice shaking. You can hear him catching his breath, the fear in his tone unmistakable.
Looks like you werenât the only one running from the horde that came out of nowhere.
âWhat the hell is The Future doing in the city?â another snaps, frustration cutting through the hushed atmosphere.
The Future...?
"They're looking for us, what else?" a third man grunts, his voice deep and gravelly.
"Talk about obsessive,â a fourth says, anger simmering beneath. âWe escaped more than six months ago. How are they still trying to track us down?"
âThat community⊠theyâre worse than the dead. Iâd rather take my chances out here than go back there.â Five.
âYou donât get it. Theyâll hunt us down. They always do,â Six.
"I mean⊠We stole almost six monthsâ worth of supplies. And a van. I'd hunt us too." This one is a little cheeky. Seven.
"Shut the fuck up,â the gravelly voice growls. âYou think this is funny?â
Your mind races. A community hunting them? Youâve heard of survivors forming groups. Hell, you were part of one. But this⊠this sounds different. Darker.
You press yourself closer to the shelf, your gip on the screwdriver so tight your fingers cramp. Seven men, at leastâthatâs how many voices you can count. Could you take them? Absolutely not.
For now, the only option is to stay hidden. You force yourself to breathe slowly, silently, and focus on their words, desperate for answers. Whatever these men are running from, you need to know if itâs worse than whatâs already out thereâor if itâs heading straight for you.
Just then, a faint groan slices through the oppressive silence, this one agonisingly close. Your head snaps around, heart thundering against your ribs like a trapped bird.
Right there, not more than a foot away and obscured beneath a grimy sheet of cardboard, something stirs. The groan rises in pitch, raw and guttural, as the cardboard shifts, revealing a face ravaged by decay. Skin, or whatâs left of it, clings to its skull in uneven patches, and its milky, dead eyes lock onto yours with an almost sentient hunger.
You freeze, the breath hitching in your chest as time seems to slow. The stench of rot floods your senses, almost choking you, and a cold sweat slicks your skin.
Before you can react, the creature lurches, its skeletal hand shooting out with horrifying speed. Filthy, jagged nails scrape against your leg, finding purchase in the fabric of your jeans and digging into the flesh beneath.
A piercing shriek tears from your throatâraw, primal, and louder than you intend. The sound ricochets off the walls, each echo feeding the panic clawing at your mind.
Desperation surges like a tidal wave, drowning out coherent thought. You kick wildly, your boot connecting with the thingâs chest, but its grip is unyielding. The screwdriver slips in your sweat-slicked palm as you fumble to raise it, your muscles trembling with adrenaline-fuelled terror. Its grip tightens, nails biting deeper, and for a moment, the sickening thought flashes through your mind: Youâre not getting out of this.
But then instinct takes over. With a desperate cry, you swing the screwdriver down, the metal driving into its skull in a sickening crunch. the sound reverberating through the stillness like a death knell.
The zombie spasms, its hand loosening slightly, but not enough.
Your vision narrows, fury and survival instinct blending into a single, overpowering force. You strike again, and again, each impact a visceral symphony of shattering bone and yielding flesh. The stench grows worse, cloying and metallic, as blood splatters your hands and face.
Finally, the creature goes still, collapsing into a lifeless heap at your feet. Your chest heaves as you stagger back, the screwdriver slipping from your trembling fingers to clatter against the floor. The silence that follows is deafening, broken only by the rasp of your own ragged breaths.
"Fuck," you whisper, the word barely audible over the pounding of your heart. Your gaze drifts down to the bloodied mess staining the floor, bile rising in your throat. You swallow hard, forcing it down. Thereâs no time for weaknessânot now, not ever.
When you finally look up, your stomach twists into knots. Seven figures stand over you, their faces obscured by shadow but their postures unmistakably tense.
One of them steps closer, the metallic glint of a pistol catching the dim light. Your breath hitches as the cold barrel presses against your temple, its unforgiving weight a reminder of how precarious your situation has just become.
"Who the hell are you?" One of them growls, his voice low and dangerous. The question hangs in the air, heavy with unspoken threats, as you stare back at him, your mind scrambling for a response that might just keep you alive.
You swallow hard, your mouth dry as sandpaper. âJust⊠just a survivor,â you stammer, your voice barely a whisper. The cold barrel against your temple makes your skin crawl, but you force yourself to meet his gaze. Your heart pounds so loudly, youâre sure they can all hear it. âI didnât know youâd be here. Iâll leave. Please.â
"Drop the act," another voice cuts in, this one sharp and impatient. "The speaker steps closer, his silhouette lean and wiry, eyes narrowed. âYou think weâre stupid? Youâve been listening in.â
âWhat should we do with her?â someone else pipes up from the shadows. His tone is casual, but the words make your stomach drop. âShe could be one of them.â
âIâm not!â you blurt, your words tumbling out in a rush. âI swear, I donât even know who youâre talking about! I just ran in here to hide!â
The gunman doesnât lower his weapon, his piercing gaze locked onto yours. The air is thick, suffocating, as he scans your face, searching for any hint of deceit. The silence stretches unbearably until someone else breaks it.
âThereâs seven of us, and sheâs a girl.â one points out, this one almost amused. His tone is light, but his eyes glint with curiosity. âNot exactly the kind The Future kept around. Didnât they kill most of their women? Called them weak or some shit.â
"Doesnât mean sheâs not a threat," the gunman mutters, but the tension in his stance eases slightly. The barrel wavers, though it remains trained on you. "Start talking. What are you doing here?"
You take a shuddering breath, trying to steady your racing thoughts. "I was running from a horde," you say, jerking your head vaguely toward the door. Your voice is steadier now, but your trembling hands betray your fear.
âWhereâs the rest of your group?â he asks, his tone laced with suspicion. âHow many of you are there?â
âThereâs no group,â you reply quickly, shaking your head. âItâs just me. Iâve been on my own for months.â
"On your own?" A man near the back crosses his arms, his posture sceptical. "Thatâs a load of bullshit. Nobody lasts this long alone." His blonde hair gleams faintly in the dim light, a beacon that would make him laughably easy to track in broad daylight. You wonder how someone so conspicuous has managed to survive this long, especially when theyâre clearly being hunted.
"Iâm telling the truth," you insist, your voice firm despite the quiver in your hands. âIâve got nothing to hide. My place got overrun. I just needed somewhere to hide.â
âWhat place?â the blonde man carefully makes his way in front, crouching slightly, levelling his gaze with yours. The question hangs heavy, and you know your answer could mean the difference between life and death.
âA community building,â you answer, your voice quieter now. âItâs just down the street. I can show you if you donât believe me.â
âShow us?â Another man scoffs. âYou said it was overrun? Why the hell would we follow you to a place thatâs crawling with them? Are you stupid?â
You bite back a retort, your frustration simmering beneath the surface. âIâm not lying,â you say, your voice sharper than before. âLook, I didnât survive this long just to let a bunch of men decide whether to shoot me in my fucking head for being in the wrong place at the wrong bloody time.â
The man with the blonde hair tilts his head, studying you like a puzzle he canât quite solve. Then he speaks again, his tone quiet but firm. âCan we trust you?â
You donât answer right away. Instead, you hold his gaze, unflinching, and nod once. Slowly, deliberately. For a moment, no one speaks. You can feel the weight of their stares, assessing, calculating.
Finally, a simple, subtle raise of the blondeâs hand is all it takes for the gunman to lower his pistol. The others, though still wary, seem to follow his lead. Relief washes over you, but you keep your face neutral, refusing to show weakness.
âI hope you know what youâre doing, Jungwon.â
His name is Jungwon. It strikes you as a strangely gentle nameâgardenâyet nothing about him feels soft.
"If youâre lying," Jungwon warns, his tone like steel, "you wonât get a second chance." It doesnât take long for you to realiseâheâs the leader.
âI understand,â you reply, your throat tight. The words feel hollow, but theyâre all you can offer.
"Whatâs your name?" one of them asks, his voice brighter but no less wary.
"Y/N," you reply. "And you?"
He hesitates before giving you a small, guarded smile. âSunoo. And donât get any funny ideas. Weâre a small group, but we bite.â
The faint attempt at levity doesnât go unnoticed, but it does little to ease the knot in your stomach. You nod again, glancing at the others. Their eyes still linger on you, like predators sizing up prey.
âYou said thereâs a horde,â Jungwon says, cutting through the moment. His tone is all business now. âWhereâs it coming from?â
âSouth,â you say, your voice steady but curious. âWait, werenât you lot running from it too?â Your eyebrow arches as you ask, testing the waters.
âDonât ask too many questions, or I might just kill you,â the same man who held the pistol to your head snaps, his tone as sharp as the glare he fixes on you. Tough one, you think grimly. Definitely not the friendly type.
âHow big is itâthe horde?â he demands, his words clipped and impatient. His posture is rigid, his eyes narrowing as though heâs daring you to lie.
âBig enough,â you answer grimly, your voice heavy with the weight of whatâs chasing you. The memory of the mass of undead flashes in your mindâtheir grotesque forms, the relentless moans. You push it aside, forcing yourself to focus. âTheyâre close. If we stay here much longer, theyâll find us.â
Jungwon doesnât hesitate. âThen we move,â he declares, his voice calm but firm, leaving no room for debate. Itâs a tone youâve heard before in those whoâve seen too much, those who lead because no one else will. âGrab your things. We leave in five.â
You swallow hard, scanning their faces. Theyâre already moving, collecting bags and makeshift weapons, their movements practised and efficient. You take a breath, forcing your hands to stop shaking.
âThereâs a motel north-east from here, just off the hordeâs course.â you say, stepping forward slightly, trying to sound confident. âI cleared it out once when I couldnât get back to the community building. I can take you there, wait for the horde to pass, and then Iâll be on my way.â
The moment the words leave your mouth, you feel the tension in the room shift. The air grows heavier, colder.
Jungwonâs sharp gaze locks onto yours, his expression unreadable, but itâs not him who speaks. The man with the sharp tongueâthe one who held a pistol to your head earlierâlets out a humourless laugh. âWho said anything about letting you go?â he says, his voice dripping with malice, as though your suggestion was the most absurd thing heâd ever heard.
The silence that follows his words feels suffocating, heavier than the looming threat of the undead outside. You try to keep your expression neutral, but the knot in your stomach tightens with each passing second. Your eyes flick to Jungwon, hoping for some sort of reprieve, but his face remains impassive, impossible to read.
âIâm not looking for trouble,â you say carefully, your voice steady despite the tremor in your hands. âIâve survived this long on my own. I donât need your help, and I donât want to be in your way.â
The gunman scoffs, the corner of his mouth curling in disdain. âBold words for someone who had a gun to their head five minutes ago.â
âEnough,â Jungwon cuts in, his voice slicing through the tension like a knife. The others fall silent, though their postures remain taut, their eyes still fixed on you. He steps forward, his movements slow and deliberate, as if gauging your reaction with every step.
âWe donât know you,â he says, his voice measured but carrying an edge of steel. âYou could be useful, or you could be a liability. Either way, weâre not taking risks.â
Your throat tightens, but you force yourself to stand your ground. âIâve already told youâIâm not with anyone. No group, no weapons, no agenda. Just me. If you think Iâm lying, youâre wasting your time.â
He watches you for a moment longer, his dark eyes scanning your face for cracks in your resolve. Finally, he speaks. âYouâll come with us,â he says, his tone leaving no room for argument. âWeâll see what youâre worth.â
Your stomach twists, the flicker of hope youâd allowed yourself extinguished in an instant. Your jaw clenches, but you nod. Thereâs no point in arguingânot when they hold all the cards.
âWhat if sheâs dead weight?â the pistol-wielding man mutters, his arms crossed as he glares at you.
âThen sheâll stay behind,â Jungwon replies coldly, his eyes still locked on yours. The words send a shiver down your spine, but you refuse to flinch.
The group moves quickly, their actions smooth and practised as they gather their supplies. You take a moment to glance at their makeshift arsenalârusted blades, a machete, a pistol with a half-empty box of ammo. Itâs not much, but itâs enough to survive. Barely.
Jungwonâs voice cuts through the room again. âTimeâs up. Letâs go.â
The group falls into formation, their movements synchronised, like theyâve done this a hundred times before. You find yourself in the middle, flanked on all sides, nothing to defend yourself with. Even the mere rusty screwdriver taken away from you.
Their message is clear: youâre not one of them. They donât trust you.
As you step out into the night, the cool air hits your face, a sharp contrast to the oppressive heat of the room. The streets are eerily quiet, the faint groans of the undead carried on the wind. Your heart pounds in your chest as you scan the shadows, every instinct screaming at you to run. But thereâs nowhere to goânot empty-handed, and certainly not without them gunning you down before you even make five feet.
Jungwon takes the lead, his blonde hair catching the faint glow of the moon as he moves with purpose. You follow closely, your senses on high alert. Every shuffle of movement, every distant sound sets your nerves on edge.
Sunoo sidles up next to you, his steps light and almost casual, though the wariness in his eyes lingers. âDonât let Jay get to you,â he says in a low voice, his lips curving into a faint smile. âThat grump always tries to come off scarier than he is. Heâs actually a bit of a softie.â
Jay. The name sticks in your mind, sharp and blunt at the same time, just like the man it belongs to. You glance over at himâhis posture rigid, eyes scanning the shadows like a hawk. Thereâs nothing soft about him now, not the way he grips the pistol or the sharp edge to his jaw as he walks a few paces ahead.
âA softie?â you murmur back, your voice sceptical. âHe doesnât look the type.â
Sunoo chuckles quietly, his expression lightening. âOh, heâs a pain in the ass, no doubt about that. But trust me, when it comes down to it, Jay always looks after the group. Even if heâs a bit dramatic about it.â
You donât know whether to take that as reassurance or a warning.
âDoes he look after the strays too?â you ask, your tone laced with cautious humour.
Sunoo raises an eyebrow, his lips quirking into a playful smile. âThat depends,â he says, his tone light yet probing. âAre you planning to stay a stray?â
You donât reply, and the silence stretches just long enough for it to become uncomfortable. Sunoo seems to take the hint, letting the question hang unanswered. His smile fades slightly, but he doesnât press further.
Instead, he shifts gears, his voice dropping low enough to avoid drawing the attention of the others. âSo, this motel of yours,â he begins, tilting his head. âWhatâs the catch?â
âNo catch,â you reply, keeping your voice steady, though the scepticism in his tone pricks at you. âItâs just a place I found. Empty, at least the last time I checked.â
âAnd if itâs not?â he presses, his brow furrowing as his sharp eyes flick to your face. Thereâs no malice there, just careful calculation, as if heâs trying to figure out if youâre bluffing.
âThen weâll deal with it,â you say firmly. âLike Iâve dealt with everything else.â
He studies you for a moment longer before nodding, a small, almost imperceptible smile tugging at his lips. âFair enough.â
You nod back, though your attention is already shifting, your gaze flicking from Sunoo to Jungwon, before landing on Jay. He hasnât so much as glanced in your direction since leaving the shop, but you can feel the weight of his presence, like a storm cloud hanging overhead. Softie or not, thereâs no denying heâs dangerous.
This whole group is dangerous. Not just in the way they pointed a gun at your head. Youâd have done the same if the roles were reversed.
No, itâs something deeper than that. Itâs in the way they move together, a silent understanding passing between them. Itâs in the way they trust each other without needing to speak. That trust feels foreign to you.
Distrust is second nature now, woven into every fibre of your being. It has kept you alive, but here, it feels like a barrier, separating you from the unspoken bond that holds them together. They donât trust you, and you canât blame them. Youâre the outsider, the unknown element, and trust is a commodity none of you can afford to give freelyânot for you, and certainly not for them.
The group moves swiftly through the shadowed streets, their footsteps light but purposeful. You walk in the middle of their formation, acutely aware of how exposed you all are. Every darkened alley, every overturned car feels like a trap waiting to spring.
Suddenly, Jungwon raises a hand, his entire body going still. The shift is immediateâthe group halts in unison, their movements instinctive, like a well-oiled machine. Your breath catches, your heart pounding like a drum as you strain your ears. At first, thereâs nothing but the faint rustling of the wind. Then you hear itâshuffling, faint but unmistakable, just ahead.
âEyes up,â Jay mutters, his voice barely above a whisper as he tightens his grip on the pistol.
The group edges closer to the corner of a crumbling building, each step measured and deliberate. Jungwon moves first, peering around the edge with slow precision. His posture stiffens, and when he pulls back, his expression is grim.
âA group of them, about thirty, maybe more.â You feel a chill run down your spine.
âSouth?â Jay hisses, his sharp glare cutting through the dim light as he looks over his shoulder at you. âYou said they were coming from the south.â
âThey are,â you snap back defensively, lowering your voice but unable to hide the edge in your tone. âHow was I supposed to know theyâre crawling here too?â
Jay lets out a low, humourless laugh, his head shaking lightly. âThis is exactly why we didnât believe you when you said you survived the city all alone.â
Before you can respond, a voice cuts through the rising tension. âNowâs not the time for this,â someone saysâthe voice calm but clipped, firm enough to settle the brewing argument. You glance towards the speaker, realising you still havenât put a name to his face. âWhy are there so many of them tonight?â
You shake your head, the unease in your chest growing heavier. âTonight is⊠different,â you admit, your voice wavering slightly. âThere seem to be more of them roaming the streets. Itâs like somethingâs drawn them here.â
âYeah, like a scream of some sort.â The words hang in the air, heavy with implication. Slowly, one by one, the group turns their heads toward you.
Your stomach drops, and you open your mouth to protest, but the conversation is cut short by a sudden, guttural growl. One of the zombies has noticed you. Its milky, lifeless eyes locking onto the group as it lets out a low, haunting moan.
âShit,â Jungwon mutters under his breath, his grip tightening on the hilt of his blade.
The moan spreads like a signal, the rest of the horde turning their decayed heads in unison. Their shuffling quickens, their jerky movements laced with unnatural determination.
âHere they come,â Jay snaps, his voice sharp as he raises his pistol.
âSunghoon, theyâre coming from the back too!â Sunooâs voice rises in alarm, his gaze darting to the rear of the group. You whip your head around, your blood running cold as more figures stumble into view behind you.
âWe canât fight them all,â Sunghoon says, panic bleeding into his usually calm tone.
For a moment, everything feels suspendedâthe groans of the undead growing louder, the sharp intakes of breath from the group, the suffocating realisation that escape is narrowing with every passing second. Then, with a voice like tempered steel, Jungwon breaks the paralysis.
âMove!â he commands, his voice slicing through the chaos.
The group breaks into a run, weaving through the narrow streets and abandoned cars. The sound of shuffling feet and guttural growls follows close behind, a relentless reminder of whatâs chasing you.
Your lungs burn, and your legs ache, but you keep moving, driven by pure adrenaline. As you round a corner, the motel comes into viewâa squat, two-storey building with boarded-up windows. Relief surges through you, but itâs fleeting. The dead are still on your heels.
âThere!â you shout, pointing toward the motel. âWe can barricade ourselves inside!â
Jungwon nods, taking the lead as the group sprints toward the building. Jay fires a few shots over his shoulder, each one finding its mark, but it only slows the horde momentarily.
âGo, go, go!â Sunoo yells, holding the door open as the group piles inside.
The moment youâre inside, you move instinctively, grabbing a nearby desk and shoving it against the door with Sunghoonâs help. The others pile on whatever they can findâchairs, shelves, anything to hold the door shut. The pounding starts almost immediately, a grim reminder of how little time you have.
âWe canât stay here,â says someone whose name you havenât learned, his voice trembling as he steps back, his wide eyes darting between the barricade and the rest of the group. âTheyâll break through eventually.â
Jungwon turns to you, his dark, calculating eyes pinning you in place. âYou said you cleared this place before,â he says, his voice steady despite the chaos. âIs there another way out?â
âThereâs a back exit,â you say, your chest heaving as you try to catch your breath. âBut itâs narrow. If they cut us offââ
âWe donât have a choice,â Jungwon interrupts. âWeâll make it work.â
The pounding intensifies, the barricade creaking under the strain. The group exchanges tense glances, their exhaustion mirrored in each otherâs faces. Your palms are slick with sweat as you clench your fists, the urge to act warring with the mounting dread in your gut.
âLetâs go,â Jungwon says sharply, gesturing for the group to fall into formation. He starts toward the back, his movements quick and precise, but you grab the edge of his shirt, stopping him in his tracks.
âGive me a weapon to defend myself with,â you say, your voice low but firm.
âNo,â he replies instantly, not even breaking his stride.
Your grip tightens, forcing him to pause. âJungwon,â you say, your tone urgent but measured, âI can see you care a lot about your group. I also know that when push comes to shove, I wonât be your priority. If you canât guarantee my safety, then I need something to defend myself with.â
He hesitates, his brow furrowing deeply. The pounding against the barricade grows louder, each crash like a warning bell, and you can feel the impatience bubbling beneath your skin.
âPlease,â you press, your voice softening but losing none of its intensity.
For a moment, he stares at you, the tension in his jaw betraying his internal debate. Finally, with a resigned sigh, he reaches into his belt and pulls out a small, serrated knife. âFine,â he says, his tone clipped, handing it to you. âBut you stay close to me. No exceptions.â
Relief floods through you as you take the weapon, the cool metal solid and reassuring in your hand. âUnderstood,â you say, nodding quickly.
âMove!â Jungwon orders, his voice cutting through the noise. The group springs into action, heading toward the narrow corridor that leads to the back exit. Your heart pounds as you grip the knife tightly, your eyes darting to the barricade one last time.
The group moves quickly, the narrow corridor pressing in on all sides. Every creak of the floorboards beneath your feet feels deafening, every shadow a potential ambush. Jungwon leads the way, his blade gleaming faintly in the dim light as he keeps his focus locked on the path ahead.
âStay close,â he mutters, glancing back at you for a fraction of a second before returning his attention forward.
The pounding on the barricade grows faint behind you, but a new sound takes its placeâthe unmistakable shuffle and groans of the undead echoing off the walls. The noise comes from ahead and behind, a cruel symphony that makes your stomach churn.
Youâre surrounded.
âFuck fuck fuck,â you donât even know who is speaking, all you can tell isâheâs panicking.
The group halts, frozen as the reality of your situation sinks in. Jay takes a sharp breath, glancing over his shoulder. âTheyâve cut us off,â he says grimly. âWeâre trapped.â
âKeep moving,â Jungwon orders, though his voice is taut with tension. âWe fight through. Thereâs no other choice.â
As if on cue, a wave of zombies emerges from the shadows ahead. Their decayed faces twist into grotesque mockeries of hunger, their milky eyes locking onto the group. The moans grow louder, their jerky movements speeding up as they close the distance.
Raising his pistol, Jay fires a clean shot, dropping the lead zombie, but the rest surge forward undeterred.
You tighten your grip on the knife Jungwon gave you, your palms sweaty. The first zombie lunges, and Jungwon meets it head-on, his blade diving into its skull with practiced precision. Another takes its place immediately, forcing him back.
âBehind you!â you yell, spotting movement in the shadows. A zombie stumbles toward Jungwon, its bony hands reaching for him.
Without thinking, you surge forward, driving your knife into its temple before it can lay a hand on him. The impact sends a jolt through your arm, but the creature collapses instantly, its lifeless body hitting the ground at Jungwonâs feet.
He spins around, his eyes widening for a split second before narrowing in acknowledgment. âThanks,â he mutters, before plunging his blade into another.
You barely have time to catch your breath before you spot itâa narrow opening in the wall ahead, barely visible in the chaos. Itâs just large enough to squeeze through, and beyond it, you can see an open street.
Your heart pounds as the thought crystallises in your mind: freedom. You could run. You could escape. You could leave all of this behind and save yourself.
The idea is tempting. The promise of survival so close you can almost taste it. But as quickly as it takes root, something stronger rises to smother it. Something within you that wonât allow you to abandon them. These peopleâdangerous and distrustful as they areâare fighting to survive, just like you.
Your gaze flickers back to the group. Jungwon, his blade slicing through the air with deadly precision, glances back to check on Jay before taking on another zombie. Jayâs pistol rings out, his shots deliberate and controlled, his sharp eyes scanning for threats to the others. Sunghoon swings a crowbar with brute force, stepping in to shield Sunoo when he falters.
Theyâre⊠looking out for each otherâŠ?
You hesitate, the knife in your hand growing heavier with every passing second. Itâs not just survival fueling themâitâs something more. Something you havenât seen in a long time.
After everythingâthe chaos, the selfishness, the betrayalâyou didnât think there was any humanity left in people. Not after what went down at the community building.
Youâve seen what desperation does to people, how it strips them bare, leaving nothing but fear and greed in its wake. You can still see the faces of the ones who abandoned their own blood. The ones who took more than their share, who fought over scraps while others starved, who left others behind to die just to save themselves.
And yet, here you are, watching this ragtag group fight not just for themselves, but for each other.
Thereâs something different about the way they move. Itâs primal, yes, but not animalistic. They swing their weapons with purpose, shouting warnings to each other, putting themselves in danger to keep one another aliveânot because they have to, but because they choose to.
Theyâre holding on to somethingâcivility, camaraderie, maybe hope. Or maybe itâs the uncanny refusal to let go of what makes them human, even when the world around them is anything but. It makes your chest ache, this flicker of humanity you thought was long dead.
You arenât sure whyânot entirely. Maybe itâs the look of determination on their faces. Maybe itâs that fleeting look of surprise in Jungwonâs eyes when you saved him that stays with you. The unspoken gratitude, the trust he gave you in return. Maybe itâs the fire in your chest that refuses to let you be like the others, the ones who ran when things got hard. To hold on to what little humanity you have left. Or maybe itâs something simpler: you just donât want to survive alone anymore.
Your gaze shifts back to the horde. More are flooding into the corridor from both sides, their moans growing louder. The group is outnumbered, overwhelmed. If you leave now, they wonât make it.
Your grip on the knife tightens as the choice solidifies in your mind. The opening in the wall calls to you, but you canât move toward it. Not when theyâre still fighting. Not when leaving would mean becoming one of them.
You take a step forward instead, slashing at the nearest zombie before it can reach Jay. The creature collapses, and Jayâs head snaps toward you, confusion flickering across his face. He doesnât say anything, just nods once, almost imperceptibly, before firing at the next target.
The path forward is a blur of movement and noise. You donât think, donât question. You just fight.
âOver there!â you shout, pointing to the opening. âThereâs a way out!â
Jungwonâs head snaps up at your words, his dark eyes meeting yours. Something flickers across his faceâsomething unreadable, a mix of surprise and something else you canât quite place. He nods sharply, his voice steady even as chaos erupts around him. âStay with me,â he orders. âWeâll make it out together.â
The group presses forward, fighting with renewed determination. You stand your ground, slashing at anything that comes too close, your heart pounding as adrenaline fuels every movement. The horde presses in, relentless, but inch by inch, you force your way toward the opening. For reasons you canât fully explain, you stay close to them.
Jungwon moves ahead, his blade a blur as he carves through the oncoming zombies. Youâre at the rear now, turning back occasionally to strike at anything that gets too close.
A zombie lunges from the side, its grotesque face inches from you before you drive your knife into its eye socket. The creature crumples, but the force of it pulls you off balance, and you stumble, landing hard on one knee.
âGet up!â Jay barks, his voice sharp but charged with urgency. He fires a shot over your shoulder, the bullet whizzing past to take down another zombie that had been closing in on you.
You scramble to your feet, gripping your knife with renewed determination. The narrow opening is only a few feet away now, and the others are already pushing through. Sunoo slips through first, then Sunghoon, the two of them pulling at debris on the other side to clear the way for the rest of you.
âMove, move!â Jungwon shouts, his voice cutting through the cacophony. Heâs still holding the line, his blade flashing in the dim light as he keeps the horde at bay.
You shove Jay forward toward the opening, your pulse racing. âGo!â
With a grim nod, Jay ducks through the opening, leaving you and Jungwon alone with the horde. The zombies are almost upon you now, their grotesque moans filling the narrow space. Jungwon glances at you, his face slick with sweat and streaked with blood.
âYou first,â he says, his tone brooking no argument.
âNot a chance,â you shoot back, slashing at a zombie that gets too close. The blade slices through its rotted neck, sending its head lolling to the side as its body collapses. âThey need you. Iâll be right behind.â
For a moment, he stares at you, something flickering in his dark eyesâfrustration, maybe, or something closer to understanding. Then he nods once, a sharp, decisive motion, and the two of you fall into a rhythm. His blade swings high while your knife strikes low, each movement synchronised as if youâve been fighting together for years.
The opening is right there, but the horde is closing in fast. A zombie lunges at Jungwon from his blind spot, and before you can think, you shove him aside, your knife plunging into the creatureâs chest. The impact sends both you and the zombie crashing to the ground, the stench of rot filling your nose as you wrestle against its weight.
âY/N!â Jungwonâs voice cuts through the haze, sharp and commanding. He pulls the zombie off you in one fluid motion, driving his blade into its skull. âGet up, now!â
He hauls you to your feet, his grip firm but not unkind, and together you bolt for the opening. The others are waiting on the other side, their faces pale and drawn but alive. Sunghoon reaches out, grabbing your arm to pull you through just as the horde slams into the debris youâd hastily piled to block the passage.
The group collapses onto the open street, panting and bloodied but alive. The sound of the horde pounding against the barricade is deafening, but it holdsâat least for now.
âEveryone okay?â Jungwon asks, his voice steadier than it has any right to be. His eyes scan the group, lingering on you for a fraction of a second longer than the others.
âBarely,â Sunoo mutters, leaning heavily on Sunghoon. âThat was too close.â
Jay stands a few feet away, reloading his pistol with practised efficiency. He glances at you, his expression unreadable. âYou couldâve run,â he says flatly, though thereâs something in his tone that isnât quite accusatory.
You meet his gaze, your grip tightening on the bloodied knife in your hand. âSo could you.â
Jay snorts, a faint smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth. âFair enough.â
Jungwon steps forward, his blade still clutched tightly in his hand. âWe need to keep moving,â he says, his tone brisk but quieter now. âThe noise will draw more of them.â
You nod, your heart still racing as you fall into step with the group. The streets ahead stretch out in shadowed uncertainty, but for the first time, you feel a flicker of something you havenât felt in a long time. In the presence of peopleâpeople who arenât trying to eat or kill you.
When the group reaches the edge of Seoul, where cracked asphalt gives way to gravel and the looming forest stretches into the horizon, everyone stops. The air is thick with tension, the only sounds the distant rustle of leaves and the crunch of boots on dirt. The group exchanges wary glances, but itâs Jay who breaks the silence.
âSurely sheâs not coming with us back to camp,â he says bluntly, his voice cutting through the stillness like a knife. His pistol hangs loose in his hand, though his sharp gaze flicks to you with suspicion. Then, he turns to Jungwon. âWe still donât know anything about her.â
âShe helped us escape,â one of them counters, his voice steady but calm. Heâs tall, with an easy confidence, though his tone carries just enough weight to make Jay glance at him. âThatâs got to count for something, doesnât it?â
Jay doesnât look convinced. âIt doesnât mean sheâs not a liability, Heeseung.â he counters, his voice clipped. âWeâve all seen how that ends.â
âIâm standing right here, you know,â you say, your tone flat but laced with frustration. Youâre too tired to hide the edge in your voice. âIf I wanted to hurt you, I wouldnât have stuck around to help.â
âHelping doesnât mean youâre trustworthy,â Jay shoots back, narrowing his eyes. âPlenty of people are helpfulâuntil they arenât. Jake, why donât you remind Jungwon what happened the last time we trusted someone?â
Jakeâleaning against a nearby tree with his arms crossedâglances at Jay before speaking. His voice is lighter, more measured, but no less pointed. âShe was armed,â he says, nodding toward the knife still clutched in your hand. âIf she wanted to hurt us, sheâd have done it by now.â
âShe practically did,â Jay fires back, his glare intensifying. âWith the way she brought that horde down on us.â
You stiffen, your exhaustion bubbling over into anger. âIf you think my pathetic little scream brought in a horde that big, then you must be denser than I thought." you bite out, your tone dripping with incredulity,
Jay takes a step closer, his expression darkening. âThen why donât you care to explain why there were so many of them tonight? You said so yourselfâitâs different. Somethingâs drawn them here.â
The accusation hangs heavy in the air, each word sharp and biting. Your chest tightens, frustration mingling with the lingering fear from earlier. âHow the hell would I know?â you snap, your voice rising slightly before you force it down. âYou think I have all the answers? Iâve been on my own for months. I donât know whatâs out there any more than you do.â
âExactly,â Jay counters, his voice cold. âYouâve been on your own. No one to vouch for you. No one to trust you. Why should we be the ones to take that risk?â
You open your mouth to argue, but Jungwon raises a hand, silencing the brewing argument. âEnough,â he says, his voice calm but commanding.
âYou said youâve been on your own." Jungwon turns to you, his dark eyes meeting yours, unblinking.
You nod slowly, meeting his gaze with as much calm as you can muster. âThatâs right.â
âThen why didnât you run?â Jungwon asks, his voice softer now, though no less searching. âYou couldâve left when you saw that opening.â
The question hangs in the air, heavy and weighted with meaning. For a moment, you hesitate, your chest tightening. The truth feels raw, vulnerable, but you know itâs the only chance you have. âBecause Iâve seen what happens when people leave others behind,â you say quietly, your voice steady but laced with emotion. âI⊠was left behind. Itâs not who I want to be.â
The group falls into an uneasy silence. Even Jay says nothing, though his expression remains guarded. Sunoo glances between you and Jungwon, his face unreadable. Heeseung exhales slowly, lowering his machete just slightly, his knuckles no longer white from gripping the handle.
âShe doesnât seem like a threat to me,â Sunoo finally says, his tone softer now. âBesides, whatâs one more person? Itâs not like weâre overflowing with allies.â
âShe could slow us down,â Jay argues, though his earlier venom seems to have dulled. âWhat if she canât keep up?â
âI kept up with you just fine back there,â you snap, the words spilling out before you can stop.
âAnd she saved Jungwon. Knife to the skull. Pretty impressive, actually.â says the cheeky one you remember from the auto shop. His tone is casual, but it carries just enough humour to make Jungwon roll his eyes.
âVery funny, Ni-ki,â Jungwon says, exhaling through his nose. His expression remains unreadable as his gaze sweeps over the group.
Heâs quiet for a moment, clearly weighing the risks, before finally speaking. âShe comes with us, we'll figure the rest out at camp." he states firmly, his tone leaving no room for argument.
Jay mutters something under his breath, but he doesnât protest further. Sunoo gives you a quick smile, while Heeseung offers a small nod. Ni-ki shrugs, already turning back toward the forest path.
The journey to the camp is long and fraught with silence. The group moves with practised precision, their formation tight as they navigate the dark, twisting paths that grow denser with every step. You trail close behind, clutching your knife tightly. The blood and sweat drying on your skin makes you feel grimy, but the real discomfort comes from the sharp looks Jay still throws your way whenever he glances back.
Eventually, the dense trees give way to a clearing, revealing the camp nestled among towering pines. A cluster of tents, a single battered van, and a manmade lean-to are scattered around the space, surrounded by a crude barricade of fallen logs and scavenged metal.
âHome sweet home,â Sunoo mutters, his voice tinged with fatigue as he pulls the barricade open just wide enough for the group to slip through. The camp is eerily quiet, save for the distant rustling of the forest.
You glance around, scanning the area for signs of other people, but it becomes clear that the group before you is all there is.
Weird. They donât have much, but leaving an entire camp unattended like that is reckless, bordering on suicidal. Itâs the kind of decision that makes you question their judgment.
Now youâre even more confused about your perception of these people. Are they confident? Brave? Or are they simply stupid?
Itâs hard to tell.
But whatever the reason, it leaves you uneasy. Because in a world like this, confidence and bravery can look an awful lot like arroganceâand arrogance gets people killed.
âWhoâs on first watch tonight?â Jungwon asks, his tone brisk and businesslike as his eyes sweep the camp.
âJake and Ni-ki,â Heeseung replies, dropping his machete with a heavy sigh.
âErm... both of them are already passed out over there.â Sunghoonâs voice is dry, almost amused, as he points toward the lean-to.
Your gaze follows his finger, and sure enough, you spot two figures sprawled out on the uneven ground, tangled in what looks like a half-hearted attempt at bedding. One of them is snoring softly, an arm flung carelessly over his face, while the other lies curled into himself, his back rising and falling with slow, steady breaths. Theyâve managed to find the least uncomfortable positions possible in a place like this, but itâs clear theyâre out cold.
Jungwon pinches the bridge of his nose, a gesture that speaks to his weariness more than any words could. âBrilliant,â he mutters under his breath, the exasperation in his tone cutting through the quiet. He looks like a man who carries the weight of everyone around him, even when he doesnât want to.
The group shifts awkwardly, the tension thick enough to press against your chest. Your fingers twitch around the handle of your knife, an unconscious reflex as you weigh your options. You donât owe these people anything. And yet, when the words leave your mouth, they surprise even you.
âI can take first watch, and one of you can cover me after.â Your voice is steady, but the exhaustion leaks through at the edges. You donât offer because you feel like you owe them. No, the truth is simpler: you know you wonât sleep. Even with your body screaming for rest, every muscle and bone aching from the dayâs events, your mind is wide awake. Very, very awake.
Jay scoffs immediately, the sound sharp and derisive. âLike hell we would leave you on watch alone, what if you run?â
The comment makes your blood simmer, but you clamp down on the flare of frustration. Instead, you meet his glare with a level stare. âJay, Iâm really not in the mood to argue with you,â you say, your tone firm but not aggressive. âIf you donât trust me, then you can take first watch with me.â
The challenge in your voice is unmistakable, and it hangs in the air between you like a taut string. Jayâs lips press into a thin line, his gaze hardening as though heâs deciding whether to call your bluff. You hold his stare, refusing to back down, even as the silence stretches.
Your heartbeat drums in your ears, but you keep your expression steady, determined not to show weakness. You donât know if theyâll ever trust you, but youâve survived too long to let someone like Jay intimidate you now.
Jungwon sighs, pinching the bridge of his nose again, as though trying to contain the growing tension in the camp. Finally, he lowers his hand and looks at Jay, his expression firm but calm. âIâll take the first watch with her,â he says, his tone leaving no room for debate.
Jayâs mouth opens, likely to argue, but Jungwon cuts him off with a sharp look. âGet some rest. Weâll need everyone at least awake tomorrow.â
Jay clicks his tongue but doesnât push further. Instead, he mutters something under his breath and stalks off toward the fire, dropping onto a log with a pointed lack of grace. The others disperse as well, settling into their makeshift bedding or sitting quietly by the fire. Jungwon turns to you.
âCome on,â he says, motioning toward a ladder tied to the side of what looks like a precariously constructed watchtower. âThe viewâs better up there.â
You follow him, gripping the ladder tightly as you climb. The watchtower, built from scavenged wood and tied together with ropes and wire, creaks slightly under your combined weight but holds firm. When you reach the top, you find a narrow platform with a rough wooden railing. From this vantage point, the camp feels small, a fragile sanctuary surrounded by endless darkness.
Jungwon settles near the edge, resting his blade across his lap as he scans the treeline. His posture is relaxed, but his eyes are sharp, constantly moving as though anticipating the worst.
You sit a few feet away, your knife still in hand, though youâre not entirely sure what good it will do against the night. For a while, neither of you speaks, the silence broken only by the distant rustling of leaves and the faint crackle of the fire below.
âDo you always volunteer for shit the rest doesnât want to do?â you ask, breaking the quiet.
Jungwon glances at you, a faint smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth. âNot always. But someone has to do it. Might as well be me.â
You nod, your gaze drifting to the dark forest beyond the barricade. âYou donât trust me either,â you say, your voice quiet but not accusatory. Itâs a statement, not a question.
He doesnât answer right away, his eyes fixed on the horizon. When he does speak, his tone is measured. âItâs not about trust. Not entirely. Itâs about knowing what people are capable of when things go bad.â
A bitter laugh escapes your lips. âYeah. Iâve seen what people are capable of.â
Jungwon glances at you again, his expression softening just slightly. âWhat⊠happened?â he asks, his voice low, as though he knows itâs a loaded question but is willing to bear the weight of it.
You hesitate, the memories clawing at the edges of your mind, threatening to drag you back into a place youâd give anything to forget. Frankly, you donât want to answer. You donât even want to think about it. But the past has a cruel way of lingering, forcing you to confront it over and over again, like an open wound that refuses to heal.
âThe community building,â you begin slowly, the words bitter on your tongue. âIt was supposed to be safe. A place where people worked together. Where we helped each other survive.â
âAt least, thatâs what we told ourselves. But things changed when the supplies started running low. Suddenly, it wasnât about helping each other anymore. It was about who could take the most, who could get out alive.â You pause, your fingers tightening around the knife in your hand as the images flood your mind. The arguments over food, the mistrust that spread like rot, the way desperation revealed the ugliest parts of human nature.
You take a deep breath, trying to steady yourself, but the words spill out, raw and jagged. âI watched people turn on each other. Families. Friends. People whoâd shared meals, shared stories, whoâd promised to have each otherâs backs. They fought over scraps. They left others behind without a second thought. And when the barricade fell⊠when the dead came throughâŠâ Your voice wavers, and you clench your jaw to steady it. âThey didnât just leave the weak behind. They trampled them. Used them as bait. Anything to save themselves.â
Jungwon doesnât say anything, but his gaze remains fixed on you, his expression unreadable. You canât tell if heâs judging you, pitying you, or just listening. Maybe itâs all three.
âIâd like to think the ones who made it out remember that place the way I do,â you say finally, your voice quieter now. âBut I donât think they do. I think they tell themselves it wasnât their fault. That they had no choice. Maybe theyâre right. But I had to see it, and I have to live with it.â
Jungwon watches you carefully, his expression unreadable but not unkind. After a moment, he asks, his voice low and steady, âIs that why you choose to survive alone?â
The question cuts through the quiet night, striking a nerve you hadnât realised was exposed. You hesitate, your gaze falling to the dark ground below. âMaybe,â you admit softly. âItâs easier, I guess. No one to rely on. No one to disappoint you. No one to leave you behind.â
Jungwon doesnât say anything immediately, but his silence feels deliberate, as though heâs giving you space to continue. You exhale slowly, the memories pressing against your chest like a weight you canât shrug off.
âWhen youâre on your own, the only person you have to worry about is yourself,â you say, your voice hardening slightly. âIf you make a mistake, you pay for it. If you survive, itâs because you earned it. Thereâs no one else to blame, and no one else to lose.â
Jungwonâs gaze doesnât waver, and thereâs a gravity in his eyes that makes you feel exposed. âBut itâs also lonely,â he says quietly, as though heâs not asking but stating a fact.
You swallow hard, the truth of his words settling uncomfortably in your chest. You donât answer, but the silence between you speaks volumes. Jungwon shifts slightly, resting his forearms on his knees as he speaks. âNot everyone wouldâve made it out of that and kept going,â he says quietly. âMost people wouldâve given up. You didnât.â
You blink, his words catching you off guard. Theyâre not exactly comforting, but thereâs a sincerity in them that makes your chest tighten, like a wound youâd forgotten you were nursing.
âI donât know if thatâs something to be proud of,â you admit, your gaze fixed on the dark forest beyond the camp.
âIt is,â Jungwon says firmly, and thereâs an edge of conviction in his tone that makes you glance at him. âIt means you didnât let it break you. And thatâs harder than most people realiseâkeeping yourself from going insane. Stopping yourself from letting this fucked-up excuse of a world swallow you whole. You didnât give in, and that counts for something.â
You study him for a moment, his face lit faintly by the moonlight, his blonde hair swaying lightly in the night breeze. His expression is calm but resolute, as though heâs been through his own version of hell and come out with his soul intact.
Youâre not sure how to respond, so you donât. Instead, you let his words sit with you, their weight lighter than the memories theyâve momentarily displaced.
âYouâre not as rough around the edges as Jay seems to think,â he says after a while, his tone lighter now. âBut youâre not like the others either. Youâve got... fight in you.â
You glance at him, arching an eyebrow. âIs that supposed to be a compliment?â
He smirks. âTake it however you want.â
âBut thatâs not what we do here,â he continues. âIf someone falls behind, we donât leave them.â
You turn to him, searching his face for any hint of deception, any sign that this is just a comforting lie. But his expression is earnest, his eyes unwavering.
Youâve been on your own for almost six months. You donât even remember the last time you had a conversation this long with anyone. Words, when they did come, were usually short, functionalâcommands barked at yourself to keep moving, or fleeting exchanges shouted during desperate encounters.
This, sitting and talking, feels foreign. Unnatural.
Itâs not that you havenât come across other survivors. Youâve met people. Survivors who had extended a hand, offered you a place in their groups. Some seemed kind, others desperate. But you rejected them all. Trust is a luxury you canât afford, and joining a group means opening yourself to betrayal, to risk. Youâve seen what people are capable of when the stakes are life and death. Better to keep moving on your own than rely on someone who could turn on you at any moment.
Still, sitting here with Jungwon, his calm voice cutting through the quiet night, you find yourself oddly enjoying it.
âMust be exhausting, caring about people.â you say, a faint, almost reluctant smile tugging at your lips.
Jungwon chuckles softly, the sound low and almost foreign in the stillness of the night. âIt is,â he admits, his gaze flicking briefly to the camp below. The firelight dances across the faces of the others, who are finally beginning to settle down for the night. âBut itâs worth it. At least, I like to think it is.â
You watch him for a moment, the corners of your mouth quirking slightly upward. âDid you know each other? Before?â
âYup,â he says, leaning back against the rough railing of the makeshift watchtower. The faint moonlight softens the hard edges of his face as he speaks, his tone lighter now, touched with nostalgia. âChildhood friends. Iâd just started university, and they wanted to come check out the campus. It was supposed to be a quick visit.â
He pauses, his gaze drifting toward the dark expanse of trees surrounding the camp. âWe just so happened to be together when everything went to shit.â
The simplicity of his words doesnât mask the weight they carry. You imagine the sceneâan ordinary day, plans for the future barely set in motion, torn apart by chaos. You wonder if he thinks about how different things mightâve been if the timing had been just slightly off. If heâd been alone, or if they hadnât been there together.
âLucky, I guess,â you say quietly, though the word feels wrong in your mouth. Luck doesnât feel like it belongs in this world anymore, not when it comes with such brutal cost.
âYeah,â Jungwon replies, his voice softer now, almost like heâs agreeing and disagreeing at the same time. âLucky.â
âWhat happened?â you ask cautiously, sensing the weight of his memories but curious nonetheless.
He exhales slowly, the breath heavy with remembrance. âWe started out as a big groupâmost of the faculty ended up holed up in the auditorium. We thought weâd escape the initial chaos for the time. But someone got bit early on and hid it from the rest of us. They turned in the middle of the night. It took out half of us before we even knew what was happening.â
You swallow hard, the familiar pang of loss and horror creeping into your chest. âAnd the rest of you?â
âThe seven of us, plus a few others, managed to get out alive,â he says, his voice tinged with a faint bitterness. âWe thought our luck had turned when we ran into a group of people in military uniforms. They had tanks, rifles, the works. We thought we were safe.â
âThat was The Future, wasnât it?â you ask, recalling the name youâd overheard the others mention earlier.
Jungwonâs gaze sharpens, his expression darkening. âDo you really not know anything about The Future?â
You shake your head slowly, a knot of unease forming in your stomach. âNo. Iâve been on my own for months. Iâve seen groups, but nothing that sounds like what youâre describing.â
Jungwon leans forward, resting his elbows on his knees. His voice lowers, taking on a colder edge. âTheyâre not a group. Theyâre an organisation. Big. Made up of military personnels who went rogue when they realised the government couldnât control the outbreak, and high profile politicians started to abandon the people to save themselves.â
Your stomach twists uncomfortably, the weight of his words sinking in. The idea of a well-organised, militarised group with no one to answer to makes your skin crawl. âAnd you escaped from them?â you ask, your voice quieter now.
He nods, his jaw tightening. âBarely.â
âIf theyâre so strong,â you press cautiously, âwhy did you leave?â
Jungwonâs lips press into a thin line, his gaze dropping briefly to the dark ground below before lifting to meet yours again. âTheir way of surviving⊠itâs messed up,â he says, his tone grim. âIt isnât about helping anyoneâitâs about control. They take what they want. Supplies, people, anything they think they can use. If they decide youâre deadweight, just another mouth to feed, they wonât hesitate toâŠâ He trails off, the unspoken words hanging heavy between you.
Your throat feels tight. âIs that why Jake said theyâd gotten rid off all their women?â you ask tentatively, the memory of Jakeâs earlier comment sharp in your mind.
Jungwonâs expression darkens further. âNot all,â he corrects, though the words do little to ease the growing unease in your chest. âJust those who, to them, served no purpose. And not just women. Children. The elderly. Anyone with a disability, or even someone who was sickâwhether it was visible or not. If you couldnât pull your weight or be useful to their âmission,â you were as good as dead.â
Your stomach churns, bile rising in your throat. âThatâs not survival,â you say quietly, your voice shaking slightly. âThatâsââ
âEvil?â Jungwon finishes for you, his tone bitter. âYeah. It is. They hide it under words like âefficiencyâ and ânecessity,â but itâs just cruelty. Thatâs why we left.â
You can see the weight of the memories in his eyes, the lingering shadows of everything heâs seen and done to survive. For a moment, the silence between you feels suffocating, the distant rustle of the forest doing little to break the tension.
âHow many of you escaped?â you ask, though youâre not sure you want to know the answer.
âDoesnât matter, weâre all thatâs left.â he says simply, his voice carrying the weight of names and faces youâll likely never know.
He leans back against the watchtower railing, his shoulders sagging slightly as if the weight of the past has settled there. âWeâve been running ever since. Trying to stay ahead of them. Trying to survive without becoming like them.â
The knot in your stomach tightens further. The apocalypse had already stripped the world of so muchâlife, hope, humanityâand now it seemed to have given rise to something even worse.
You glance down at the camp below, at the group who had been wary of you, who still didnât fully trust you. Yet despite everything, theyâd chosen to leave a place like that behind, to hold onto something resembling morality.
âMustâve taken a lot,â you say quietly. âTo leave. To fight back.â
âIt did,â Jungwon replies, his voice steady but tired. âBut if surviving means losing everything that makes us human, then whatâs the point?â
His words linger in the cool night air, settling deep into your bones. For the first time, you realise that you and the group arenât so different after all. Just ordinary people, barely on the cusp of adulthood, thrust into a world that demands you play the role of protectors. Not because youâre ready, but because the ones who should have been there to protect you failed. Now, all you have is each other, forced to fill the gaps left behind by the people who should have kept you safe.
"But why are they still trying to hunt you down?" you ask, the question slipping out before you can think twice. It lingers in the air between you, heavy with curiosity and unease.
Jungwonâs jaw tightens, his gaze shifting to the dark treeline beyond the camp. For a moment, it seems like he might not answer. Then, with a quiet sigh, he leans forward again, his elbows resting on his knees.
âBecause we didnât just leave,â he says, his voice low and edged with something darkerâregret, perhaps, or anger. âWe took supplies. Food, medicine, weapons. Enough to give us a fighting chance out here. To them, thatâs unforgivable. They donât see people. They see assets. Resources they think they own.â
You feel a chill crawl down your spine as you process his words. âYou think theyâre after the supplies you took?â
âItâs not just about the supplies,â Jungwon replies, his tone grim. âItâs about control. We embarrassed them. Made them look weak. To The Future, thatâs worse than losing anything physical. If they let us go, it sets a precedent. It shows people that theyâre not invincible, and then what is to stop others from doing the same?â
Your stomach churns. âSo theyâre chasing you to make an example of you.â
âExactly,â he says, his voice colder now. âThey want everyone to know what happens when you cross them. And they wonât stop until they get what they want.â
The weight of his words settles heavily in your chest, the reality of their situation sinking in. Itâs not just survival theyâre fighting forâitâs freedom from a force that refuses to let them go. You glance back at Jungwon, his expression calm but laced with something harder, something forged by experience.
âHow long have you been running?â you ask softly.
Jungwon exhales, the sound low and tired. âAlmost six months,â he admits, his gaze fixed on the treeline.
Thereâs a pause before he continues, quieter this time, as though saying it aloud makes it more real. âAlthough⊠we think we might have lost them. For now. But weâre always ready to keep moving. Always looking over our shoulders.â
âEvery time we think weâre safe enough to settle down, they find us,â he murmurs. âLike an obsessive ex-girlfriend, you know?â
The analogy catches you off guard, and you chuckle despite the seriousness of the conversation. Itâs a strained laugh, but genuineâa brief flicker of something human in the midst of everything bleak. âThe kind that wonât take a hint?â
Jungwon huffs a small laugh of his own, though thereâs no real humour behind it. âExactly.â He glances at you, a shadow of a smirk pulling at the corner of his mouth. âExcept this oneâs got a lot more firepower.â
That explains it. Why they were so willing to leave the camp unattended, why they carried more supplies on their backs than they could possibly need. It wasnât out of carelessness or greedâit was strategy. They packed light enough to keep moving, but just heavy enough to make sure they wouldnât have to stop.
Everything they did was calculated, preparing for the worst. Ready to run at a momentâs notice if the situation demanded it.
Ready to disappear without a trace.
The fire below flickers, its faint glow casting long shadows across his face. For a moment, you see the weariness behind his sharp exterior, the cracks in the armour heâs built to protect himself and the people he cares about.
âYou said tonight was differentâyou said there were a lot more of them than usual. Why did you think that way?â Jungwon asks, his tone low and measured, though his eyes flicker with unease.
You hesitate, chewing on your thoughts. The question pulls at loose threads in your mind, unravelling memories of the streets youâve come to know too well. Images flash behind your eyesâthe empty alleys, the shifting shadows, the silence that stretches too long before it breaks. Youâve always trusted your gut, and tonight, it screamed louder than ever.
Something is wrong.
âThe city is⊠unpredictable,â you reply carefully, the words slow as you try to make sense of the thoughts swirling in your head. âSome days, the streets are empty. You might see the occasional horde passing through. They linger for a bit before something else catches their attentionâa noise, a movement, anything that draws them away.â
âBut hordes⊠theyâre creatures of habit,â Jungwon listens intently as you continue, his brow furrowed, tension tightening his posture. âThe noise they make keeps them together, pulling in the surrounding stragglers to join their little marching band. Itâs a cycle. And thatâs what makes them manageable. You can figure out their patterns, track the way they move, and avoid them if youâre careful.â
âBut tonight, thoughâŠâ You pause, the words lingering on your tongue like a bad taste you canât quite spit out. âIt wasnât just one or two. It felt like they were coming from everywhere. Every direction.â
Jungwonâs gaze flickers to meet yours, and for a moment, neither of you says anything. His expression hardens, the flicker of dread in his eyes matching your own.
âLike someone put them there.â
The words hang in the air, thick and heavy. As soon as you finish, the thought sends a chill down your spine, settling deep in your chest. The silence stretches between you both, tense and oppressive, as the weight of the implication sinks in.
The idea that someoneâanyoneâmight be capable of coordinating something so horrifying is almost impossible to comprehend. Almost.
âDo you think it was deliberate?â you ask, your voice quieter now, as if afraid to hear the answer.
Jungwon exhales slowly, his expression hardening. âTruth is, we donât know for sure. We were in the city earlier, scouting for car parts to fix up the van. Thatâs when we thought we ran into members of The Future. But one thing about themâthey donât fuck with the cities. They stick to the communities near their base, taking whatever they needâsupplies, weapons, fuel. They think the cities are too dangerous, too unpredictable.â His words hang in the air for a moment before he continues, his voice darker now. âBut the way the hordes moved tonight... it felt like someone wanted them to sweep the area.â
The thought settles over you like a heavy fog. âBut you donât think itâs them? The Future?â
Jungwon shakes his head, though the hesitation in his expression is hard to miss. âItâs not their style. They donât deal in chaosâthey deal in control. And releasing hordes into the city? Thatâs reckless. Dangerous, even for them.â
âIf it wasnât them...â you start, but your voice falters.
Jungwonâs gaze sharpens as it meets yours, steady but grim.
âThen itâs someone else."
You sense that the weight of the conversation is more than you can handle for the rest of the night, and you know Jungwon senses it too. The quiet lingers between you, heavy but not unpleasant, the kind that almost invites you to leave the darkness of your thoughts behind.
âShould I go wake Jake and Ni-ki up for their shift?â you suggest, breaking the silence. Youâre not sure whether the talk with Jungwon has helped ease some of your inner turmoil or if the sheer exhaustion from the dayâs events is finally catching up to you, but your eyelids are growing heavier with every passing second.
Jungwon shakes his head slightly, his voice calm and even. âIâm actually just going to keep watch for the night. You can turn in if youâre tired.â
You blink at him, his words jolting you back to focus. âWhat?â you ask, disbelief lacing your tone. âIn that case, weâll take turns. Thereâs no way Iâm leaving you up here alone the entire night. I can only imagine what Jayâs got to say when he wakes up tomorrow and finds out.â
Jungwonâs lips twitch, and then, to your surprise, he laughsâa genuine, unguarded laugh. The sound is startlingly warm, almost foreign in the bleakness of the night. For a moment, it feels like the world around you isnât as broken as it really is.
âFine,â he says, shaking his head in mild amusement. âYou can rest first. Iâll wake you in an hour.â
His words carry a gentleness you hadnât expected, and it throws you off balance more than youâd like to admit. You study his faceâthe slight crinkle at the corner of his eyes, the faint trace of a smile still lingering.
You hesitate, your exhaustion pulling at you, but the lingering sense of distrustâof everything, not just himâroots you in place. âYou sure?â you mumble, your voice heavy with fatigue.
âYeah,â he says with a faint nod, his eyes scanning the dark forest beyond the camp. âIâve got it.â
âAlright,â you finally agree, leaning back against the railing and letting yourself relax just a fraction. âBut donât forget to wake me.â
âI wonât,â he says, his voice quieter now, almost reassuring.
The weight of the day presses down on you like a blanket, and despite your reluctance, you feel your body begin to give in.
Leaning back against the rough planks of the watchtower, you close your eyes, telling yourself youâre just resting them for a moment. But the distant rustling of the trees, the faint crackle of the campfire below, and the steady presence of Jungwon beside you lull you into a state of half-awareness.
At some point, you shift unconsciously, your head tilting until it finds something solidâwarm. Youâre too far gone to realise whatâs happened, the exhaustion dragging you under.
masterlist | part 2 - warmth
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notes from nat: i'm adapting a new form of writing specifically for this setting. i think i mentioned before how i struggle describing present moments over writing thoughts and monologues. lo and behold, turns out an apocalypse au is all about the present moment... i'm taking this as a challenge and honestly don't have high hopes. but i sincerely appreciate the read from all of you! things will start picking up in the next part~
I can just tell you put your heart and soul into this, how can I not respond in kind?
I think these past few weeks, I kept trying to sit down and just read s&s but smth would always come up so I probably read the opening few paragraphs at least six times or more on entirely different time and dates. atp, the words are encoded somewhere deep in my brain. you had me in distressed even before getting into the fic, I was like this (cue the distressed kitty sound iykyk)
The smell hits you first, sharp and metallic, curling through the air like a mocking laugh. Itâs only when you peer into the greyish sludge that you know for sure. Gagging, you launch the can across the dimly lit room. The clang as it hits the wall feels louder than it should, echoing against the hollow silence. A greasy smear marks its path before it rolls to a stop.
first of all, I LOVE I LOVE I LOVEEEE the imagery (I felt it on ALL levels: visual, auditory, olfactory) and all the other rhetorics but MISS GIRL??!? I thought we cannot afford to be loud. again, the distressed kitty sound
Except now, none of it matters. Those things out there couldnât care less about your alma mater, whether youâre earning a six-figure salary or pulled from the gutter. To them, youâre just another meal on legsâflesh, blood, and bone all blending into the same, mindless craving.
I love apocalyptic/zombie stories because of this element too. when push comes to shove, when the world is literally falling apart, you realize everyone is imperfect and human, perhaps not entirely humane, but still very much human. maybe that's how our world should be. instead of people obsessing over ranks, titles, prestige, labels, we see each other as suchâflesh, blood, and bone, not all that different from one another.
Survival strips away more than fleshâit strips away the pretence of civility, leaving only the raw, animalistic instinct to endure at any cost. Itâs not just the undead that keep you awake at nightâitâs the memory of what people are capable of becoming.
okayyyyy okay, I love the preceding few paragraphs and this. it's giving roger from lord of the flies. it's giving human nature, or human capacity, for both good and evil. it's another reason I love zombie stories so much. it's because the zombies are almost never the sole nor biggest threat. it's humans who are truly scary.
Behind you, the door finally gives way. The sound of splintering wood and the enraged cries of the undead spur you into action. You donât look back as you climb down the fire escape, each step taking you further from the nightmare above, and closer to the nightmare below.
it's giving out of the frying pan, into the fire. THAT NIGHTMARE LINE IS INSANEEE. HOW DID U EVEN THINK OF THAT???
I must say, I absolutely adore how fast mc springs into action. from the first moment, my girl left with a bag with just her essentials, literally made it to the community building with other survivors, scavenged for food and supplies with a grp, scavenged for food and supplies alone, kept herself alive for over a year being alone. her spatial awareness in spotting escape routes also crazy, like SHE DESERVES SO MUCH CREDIT!! (by she, I mean me. but also you, by default because you literally created her. this is like your child we're speaking about.)
I do wanted to note that I also appreciate the relativity with which you wrote her with. like she's not this completely unbeatable, emotionless, desolate character. she feels fear, intense fear, for her life. she feels sympathy for others. she's not perfect but she's me and she's you. she's still soft, still alive, still human.
when the boys spotted her in that shop and the zombie came out, I FULLY expected at least one to step in. but I somehow liked it even better that they didn't. that she's not a damsel in distress. and she has proven herself time and time again. that she can hit a bitch if it gets in the way of her survival. women who knows how to fight are so hot. I love my girl because she knows when to flee. when to fight. can she fight me next? in like my bed??? hello?? hey, where are you going?!??
"Shut the fuck up,â the gravelly voice growls. âYou think this is funny?â
can they curse at me like this. I think it would heal me.
OHHH YEAH MAN. I love the detail in like where the reader along with the mc do not know who among the boys is speaking when she has yet to learn their names. I LOVEEEEEE when media I consume does this shit. like I had so much fun with small guesses like oh my god, that was totally sunoo. that was ni-ki, FOR SURE. and some hee moments here and there.
You press yourself closer to the shelf, your gip on the screwdriver so tight your fingers cramp. Seven men, at leastâthatâs how many voices you can count. Could you take them? Absolutely not.
I CAN TAKE THEM. send all 8 to my bed. I volunteer as tribute, please, please just one chance. (how could I move past that line? Absolutely not.)
I had so many comments like these in my notes, it's a pattern really.
I missed the time window to comment this somewhere a few paragraphs up. but god. my girl never catches a break, does she đ am I a freak for enjoying the scenes where she's running for her life (actually, don't answer that) I absolutely love how much suspense were embedded into the scenes. even as I could predict how some scenes would go, you still kept me on my toes! very gripping, very immersive story-telling. spectacular, gimmie 14 of them!
I don't know what sorcery you infused in this story but I hated jay so bad in this part and that's literally impossible because I love him so much. I get the wary nature, I GET IT I PROMISE. but god. you don't have to be such a sour, raggedy ass lil goblin, and so unnecessarily mean too. you do not have to be kind, but you also do not have to be so snarky?? everyone's just as tired and scared. I knew there would be such a character like him, Im surprised jay played this role. I'm excited to see how things develop from here.
Thereâs something different about the way they move. Itâs primal, yes, but not animalistic. They swing their weapons with purpose, shouting warnings to each other, putting themselves in danger to keep one another aliveânot because they have to, but because they choose to.
I know this restored some faith in humanity for mc. hope is stronger than fear <3 I love to see it.
mc a better person than me, because I would've up and left the moment I see the small opening when the group was surrounded by zombies LMAO. again, what I said above, my girl (YOU) deserve sm credit. to be able to extend that kind of empathy, esp when the stakes are so high, is definitely a commendable trait that not many share.
âErm... both of them are already passed out over there.â Sunghoonâs voice is dry, almost amused, as he points toward the lean-to.
jake and ni-ki are so me-coded bro. IM SURPRISED ANY OF THEM HAS ENOUGH STAMINA LEFT. it's crazyyy. the sleeping positions I find myself in once im tired enough? broooo. im done. im out. the fact that jungwon and mc stayed up for their shifts on just sheer will is impressive.
âDo you always volunteer for shit the rest doesnât want to do?â you ask, breaking the quiet.
me in group projects. also oh my god, my shayla. I love the amount of jungwon scenes in here because he's my ult in enha and I rarely read pieces about him.
You take a deep breath, trying to steady yourself, but the words spill out, raw and jagged. âI watched people turn on each other. Families. Friends. People whoâd shared meals, shared stories, whoâd promised to have each otherâs backs. They fought over scraps. They left others behind without a second thought. And when the barricade fell⊠when the dead came throughâŠâ Your voice wavers, and you clench your jaw to steady it. âThey didnât just leave the weak behind. They trampled them. Used them as bait. Anything to save themselves.â
this is giving that one dude from train to busan that literally deserves to be nuked like 50 times. I didn't bother to remember his name but yeah, people turning against each other will always be the scariest bit of apocalyptic stories for me. it's the preventable nature of some major tragedies, like you could've saved all those lives if you weren't such a selfish, coward-ass, loser but ugh. and they always survive way too long for my liking. I get that they're a necessary component but at the same time, im abt to gun them down if they even just breathe in the next scene like??? im readyyy.
You swallow hard, the truth of his words settling uncomfortably in your chest. You donât answer, but the silence between you speaks volumes. Jungwon shifts slightly, resting his forearms on his knees as he speaks. âNot everyone wouldâve made it out of that and kept going,â he says quietly. âMost people wouldâve given up. You didnât.â
my girl's a fighter, not a quitter. I love that for her.
I love the tranquil moment of dialogue between mc and jungwon too while they stand on guard. it's a great way for them to learn abt each other and also for readers. THE PARALLELS BETWEEN JW AND MC? how they both just started their respective uni lives, and the shit happens đ and they just have to make do with what they have and survive.
the obsessive ex girlfriend analogy came out of nowhere, stoppp. but it did help break the tension of everything this story has been carrying. I giggled.
after reading, I still don't understand how the zombies in this really run. are they operating on sight or sound or smell(?) because I remember a line description of empty eye sockets but it seemed to be looking straight at mc. am I crazy fjahds
in response to the author note, I noticed this is a new style of writing for you but you did SO good, nat. better than good, you did awesome. I have a hard time believing you struggled to write present moments because they were SO. DAMN. GOOD.??? I smelt every rot, I heard every sound, I saw every horror that moved past mc. I watched a whole movie with you. it's definitely an experience I wouldn't trade đ°
THIS IS THE END OF MY COMMENTS FOR PT.1, I WILL BE BACK. *rubs hands together* until then!
I actually teared up reading thisâno joke. The fact that you took the time to write such an in-depth analysis and appreciation for the little details means the world to me. It genuinely overwhelmed me (in the best way possible). So, in return, Iâm going to take my time to respond to each and every one of your comments. But first, I owe you an apology for taking so long to reply... ms girl had a little detour to A&E over the weekend LMFAO (Iâm fine now!).
You raised such a great point about how loud MC was when she threw the can. I actually debated whether I should keep that in, but ultimately, I left it because I felt it reflected the impulsive nature of humans. At that moment, she was starving and had risked her life to find food only to discover that it was rotten. I wanted to capture that raw frustration. The fact that this was the very first paragraph and you already caught onto such a small detail blows my mind.
YES! In every zombie film or show Iâve seen, the biggest threat is almost never the zombies. And thatâs the irony, isnât it? Because zombies were humans once. It really highlights how, dead or undead, human beings are always the ultimate apex predators.
Thank you for appreciating the comparative parallel in the nightmare line EHEHEHE
When I was planning her character, the only thing I knew for certain was that she needed to be independent. By extension, that meant making her a complete badass who doesnât rely on others to survive. I think this also stems from her past experiences with survival groups and after being on her own for so long, sheâs developed an instinct to act rather than wait for problems to resolve themselves. Sheâs practical and hardened by her reality, but at the core of it all, sheâs still human, with fragile emotions beneath the surface.
OMG, THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for noticing that none of the boys stepped in to help her! Having them swoop in to save her would have completely undermined her character. She survived almost a year alone in a zombie apocalypseâsheâs not about to need a man to rescue her from one zombie. Also, âIn your bedâ is crazy, by the way!
THANK YOU AGAIN for noticing the fact that both the reader and MC donât immediately know whoâs speaking? That was so difficult to write during the motel sequence, but Iâm so glad it paid off. And Ni-ki being that obvious? LMAO.
I still canât wrap my head around the fact that you actually take notes while reading. You are truly one of a kind, and honestly, every writer deserves a reader like you.
Even though you told me not to answer, I'm going to do it anyway. Yes, you are a freak for enjoying the scenes where she's running for her life. BUT, I am also a freak for writing them. So really, weâre just in this together.
I knew Jay was the perfect fit for the cautious character because, in my mind, heâs someone who is wise and learns from experience. I actually debated between him and Sunghoon for this role but ultimately went with Jay. Also, JAYWON.
You are so valid for saying you wouldâve up and left too. Honestly, same. The only reason MC didnât was because she didnât want to be like the people from her last group. As pragmatic as she is, she hates being proven wrong.
So, weâre both SE Asian, Libras, AND Jungwon-biased? Shayla, tell me this isnât fate.
AGREED ABOUT THAT TRAIN TO BUSAN CHARACTER. Had me pulling out my hair watching. The selfish, stubborn characters always survive too long for my liking. And it makes sense because If you put yourself first, you stand a better chance of making it out alive.
To clear up any confusion about how the zombies in this AU function, they rely on whatever senses are still available to them. I assume you were referring to the line âempty eye sockets seem to bore into you.â In that case, the zombie had no eyes and was relying on sound cues. Later on, I used âmilky eyesâ to describe those that do still have their vision. Basically, they react to whatever they canâsound, the smell of blood, movementâif something grabs their attention, they go for it!
Thatâs it. Thatâs the message. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.
Navigating one year post-apocalypse, when the dead began to walk and the living proved to be no better, you decide that trust is a luxury you can no longer afford. But after a run-in with a group of seven peculiar survivors, you learn that there are bigger problems than just the undead roaming the streets. You also start to wonder if thereâs more to survival than simply staying alive.
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MASTERLIST
Blood.
The warm, red liquid splatters onto your face, dripping down your neck and soaking into your clothes. For a split second, your mind blanks. Youâve been shot?
You freeze, waiting for the pain to hit, for the sting of a bullet tearing through flesh. But thereâs nothing. No sharp ache. No burning sensation.
Not you.
Your gaze shifts downward. The woman in front of you staggers, her breath hitching painfully in her throat. Her wide eyes stare at the man in front of her in shock, unblinking, as blood pours from the gaping wound in her neck. The bullet has lodged itself on the right side, just above her collarbone. Her lips moveâtrying to form words, trying to breatheâbut all that comes out is a gurgled wheeze.
Your heart pounds violently in your chest, the world tilting sideways as you try to make sense of what just happened. You turn your head, slow and deliberate, your body moving on instinct rather than thought.
Jungwon. Heâs still crouched near the van, his hands empty. The rifle remains untouched on the ground beside him, exactly where he left it. His eyes meet yours for a brief second, wide with alarm, but itâs not him.
Your gaze shifts forward.
Sunoo. Heâs mid-tackle, slamming into the man with the rifle. Smoke curls lazily from the barrel, the sharp scent of gunpowder stinging your nose.
The woman collapses into a heap at your feet, her blood pooling beneath her.
For a moment, everything stands still.
Silent.
Still.
Thenâ
Chaos.
A heart-wrenching scream cuts through the silence, raw and broken.
âNo!â The man in front of you drops to his knees, his voice cracking as he cradles the womanâs body.
Itâs a sound youâll never forget. Pure grief. Devastation.
Your hands tremble, the knife slipping from your fingers and clattering uselessly to the ground. This wasnât supposed to happen. Your mind races, but your body remains frozen, your legs rooted in place. You feel the warmth of the blood on your skin, smell the metallic tang in the air, taste the bitterness on your tongue.
You blink once. Twice.
No. This wasnât how it was supposed to go. The plan was to scare them off. To protect your people. To survive.
But now thereâs a woman lying dead at your feet, and youâre the one who held her hostage. Youâre the one who brought her into this.
Would this be how it played out in Jayâs mind every night since it happenedâthe same nightmare on repeat? The man with the knife. The girl he cared so much for held hostage, and later had her life ripped away from her right in front of him. The choice he made to satisfy his hunger for revenge.
Would you now become the monster in someone elseâs story? The monster who leaves nothing but broken people in their wake? The one they obsess over, hunt down, seeking revenge? Youâve seen what grief can do, how it festers and twists until thereâs nothing left but hatred and the singular need for retribution.
Your chest tightens painfully, tears pooling in your eyes, blurring your vision. You donât even realise youâre shaking until you feel the tremor in your legs. Everything feels wrongâso, so wrong.
Movement.
Ni-ki sprints across from the front of the van, no longer bound. Heâs quick, his hands working fast to untie the ropes holding Sunghoon, Jake and Heeseung. Jake is already moving, reaching for the med kit, but he falters, his gaze falling on the lifeless body on the ground.
Sunoo is still wrestling the man with the rifle, their grunts and shouts blending into the background noise of your panic. The other two attackers stand frozen, clearly in shock. They donât move. They donât reach for their weapons.
Maybe theyâre victims too.
Maybe they didnât want this.
None of you did.
Everything is happening too fast.
Your mind screams at you to move, to react, but your body refuses to obey. You donât even catch the shift in the man at your feetâthe subtle way his grief twists into rageâuntil itâs too late.
His hand shoots out, grabbing you by the throat.
You gasp, your hands flying to his arm, trying to pry his fingers loose. His grip is like iron, crushing your windpipe, cutting off your air. Black spots dance in your vision as he drags you closer, his bloodshot eyes locking onto yours with pure hatred. His face is twisted, consumed by pain, fury, and vengeance.
âYouââ he spits, his voice raw with grief. âYou did this. Youââ
A gunshot. Sudden. Sharp. Deafening.
The pressure around your neck disappears instantly. The man collapses to the ground, his body crumpling like a puppet with its strings cut, right next to the woman. Blood seeps from the bullet wound in his temple, his expression frozen in an eternal snarl.
Your hands fly to your throat, coughing and gasping for breath as you stumble backwards. The world spins, your lungs burning as you suck in desperate gulps of air.
Jungwon. Heâs standing now, rifle in hand, his gaze locked on the lifeless man on the ground. His expression is unreadableâcalm, composedâbut thereâs something dark lurking behind his eyes.
You wipe the blood from your face with trembling hands, your mind struggling to catch up with reality. Everything feels surreal. Disjointed. Like a nightmare you canât wake up from.
Jungwon steps closer, lowering the rifle. His voice, when he speaks, is quiet. Controlled. âAre you alright?â
You nod, though youâre not sure if itâs true. Your voice wonât come, stuck somewhere in your throat, tangled with the sobs youâre trying to suppress.
You donât even have time to catch your breath when you hear the scream tear through the air, cutting through the chaos like a knife.
âY/N, watch out!â
Your head snaps forward, your heart plummeting into your stomach. Sunooâs downâpinned to the dirtâhis hands grappling uselessly as the man he tackled scrambles to his feet, grabbing the fallen rifle.
Sunghoon is already sprinting toward him, but heâs too far. He wonât make it in time. The man grips the rifle tightly, his eyes wild with panic and grief, and before you can even think to move, he spinsâlocking the crosshairs squarely on you.
The world slows. You see it all in perfect, horrifying detail. His hands trembling as he raises the weapon. His lips pressed into a thin line. The way his chest heaves with shallow, erratic breaths. And the tears. The tears welling up in his eyes, glistening as they fall.
Heâs going to do it.
Your feet wonât move. Youâre rooted to the ground, frozen by the realisation.
Heâs going to kill you.
And you deserve it, donât you? After what just happenedâafter the woman died at your hands, after everything thatâs led to this momentâmaybe this is the inevitable outcome. His finger tightens on the trigger.
You close your eyes. Youâre not ready. Youâll never be ready. The thought crashes over you like a wave. This is it.
And thenâ
The gunshot.
It echoes through the surrounding, deafening, final.
Youâre not dead. Slowly, shakily, you open your eyes. Your knees buckle, nearly giving out beneath you at the sight before you.
Jay.
With his pistol in hand, dangling at his side. He mustâve circled around to retrieve itâused the chaos, used you as the distraction. He couldâve taken the shot clean. He couldâve stayed hidden, waited for the right angle, and taken down the guy aiming for you without risking himself.
But he didnât.
Jay is standing in front of you.
His body sways slightly, his stance unsteady, but he holds firm. Thereâs bloodâso much bloodâit seeps through his shirt, dark and spreading fast, soaking the fabric and dripping down his side. So much blood. It stains the hem of his jacket and clings to his skin like oil, like ink.
You blink, unable to process what youâre seeing, unwilling to believe it.
Jay took a bullet for you.
The bullet hit him in the side, just below his ribsâaimed for him but meant for you. If he hadnât taken it, it wouldâve hit you square in the heart.
For a moment, he doesnât move. Doesnât speak. Then he drops to his knees.
âNo. No, no, no.â The words tumble from your lips as you rush to his side, your hands shaking as you reach out to steady him. âJay, whyâwhy would youââ
He lets out a sharp breath, cutting you off. His usual glare is gone, replaced with something softer. Weaker. Human.
âCouldnât let you die,â he says, his voice strained but steady. âNot like that.â
Your chest tightens painfully, your eyes burning with unshed tears. âYouâstupidââ
âYeah,â he interrupts, managing a weak chuckle. âIâve heard that before.â
Ahead of you, Sunghoon reaches Sunoo, pulling him to his feet. The shooter is on his knees, his hands raised in surrender, his rifle now in the hands of Ni-ki.
But none of that matters right now. All you can see is Jay. All you can think about is the blood on your handsâhis bloodâand how he took that bullet for you.
âWe need to get him back to the van,â Jakeâs voice cuts through the fog in your mind, calm but urgent. He kneels beside you, his gaze locking onto Jayâs. âYouâll be alright. Just hold on.â
Jayâs lips twitch into a faint smirk. âDidnât⊠think you cared.â
Jakeâs jaw clenches. âShut up.â
Heeseung and Sunghoon sprint over, their footsteps pounding against the dirt. âWeâve got him,â Heeseung says, already lifting Jayâs arm over his shoulder.
Jake rushes forward with the med kit, his face pale. âWe need to stop the bleeding.â
You stay by Jayâs side, your hands hovering uselessly. Why did he do it? Why would he risk everything for you?
As they lift him, Jayâs gaze meets yours again, his eyes slightly glassy. âDonâtâŠ,â he murmurs, barely audible.
âWhat?â you lean in closer, holding your ear close to his lips but he fails to conjure enough energy to speak.
Guilt. Fear. Regret. It all coils inside you, twisting and knotting until it takes shapeârage.
White-hot, blinding rage.
You barely register your own movements as you lunge forward, your hand closing around Jayâs pistol lying in a pool of his own blood. The metal feels cold against your skin, slick with crimson that seeps between your fingers. It makes you sick, but not enough to stop you. Not enough to drown out the fury coursing through your veins.
Your legs move on their own, shaky but determined, carrying you over the lifeless bodies sprawled across the dirt. The crunch of leaves and twigs underfoot echoes in your ears, drowned out by the pounding of your heart. You donât falter. Not when you reach himâthe one who pulled the trigger.
Heâs on his knees, trembling, eyes wide with a mixture of terror and disbelief. His hands are raised in a futile plea for mercy, but youâve got none to give. Not now. Not after Jay.
The gun feels heavier in your hand than it should, weighted down by blood and grief. You raise it slowly, deliberately, your aim locking onto his forehead. He flinches, his lips trembling as if to beg, but you donât hear his words. You donât care.
Your finger curls around the trigger. But just as youâre about to squeeze, a deafening gunshot shatters the air.
Your body jolts, your eyes snapping wide as the man before you crumples to the ground, blood pooling from a clean shot through his skull. You freeze, the gun still raised, your breathing ragged as you process what just happened.
Slowly, you turn.
Jungwon stands a few feet behind you, the rifle pressed firmly against his shoulder, barrel still smoking. His expression is unreadable, but his eyesâdark and piercingâsay everything he doesnât. His hands are steady, his grip unwavering. Thereâs no hesitation in him. No regret.
He lowers the rifle slowly, his gaze never leaving yours. The silence between you is deafening, save for the fading echo of the gunshot ringing in your ears.
You drop the pistol, the weight of it suddenly too much to bear. It hits the ground with a dull thud, splattering crimson droplets across the dirt and all over your boots. Your arms fall limply to your sides, trembling as the adrenaline starts to wear off.
Jungwon steps closer, each footfall deliberate, cautious. His voice, when he speaks, is quiet but firm. âYou donât need to carry that weight.â
His words linger in the air, but they donât sink inânot yet. Your gaze drifts back to the lifeless bodies, to Jay lying still in the back of the van, blood staining the carpet beneath him.
You swallow hard, your voice barely a whisper. âHe saved me.â
Jungwonâs jaw tightens, his gaze flickering to Jay before settling back on you. âI know.â
You close your eyes briefly, guilt gnawing at your insides, tears burning at the corners of your eyes. âI was going to kill him.â
âI know that too.â
You canât bring yourself to meet his gaze. âAnd you did it for me.â
Jungwon exhales softly, his voice steady. âNo. I did it for me.â
The weight of his words sinks in, pressing down on your chest. Thereâs no solace in them, no comfort. What did he mean? He did it for himself?
The echo of the gunshot lingers in the air, a haunting reminder of what just happened. But it doesnât linger alone for long. The groans beginâa low, guttural sound that rises from the treeline like a warning bell.
The dead are coming.
Jungwon hears it too. His head snaps toward the trees, his hand tightening around the rifle. "We need to go," he says, voice clipped and urgent.
You nod numbly, forcing your legs to move. You turn back towards the van, your steps unsteady, mind racing to catch up with the chaos around you. Sunghoon is already at the van, throwing the back doors open. Jake is inside, frantically working with Heeseung and Sunoo to keep pressure on Jayâs wound, their hands slick with blood. Jay groans, shifting weakly, his eyes fluttering open for a brief second before closing again.
"Letâs go!" Ni-ki quickly pours however much gas he can from the canister into the fuel tank, packs up whatever's left and jumps into the driverâs seat, turning the key in the ignition. The engine sputters to life, the familiar rumble somehow grounding you in reality. You climb into the van, pulling the door shut behind you.
The van rumbles down the cracked road, each bump jostling Jay in the back as Jake works tirelessly to slow the bleeding. The tension is suffocating, thick and heavy in the air. The only sounds inside are laboured breaths, the low hum of the engine, and the faint groans of the dead growing more distant.
Thenâfootsteps. Rapid. Desperate.
You glance out the back window and see themâthe two remaining men from the other group. It was so chaotic that you donât even remember seeing them around the area. Maybe they hid in fear. Doesn't matter. Because they're running now, stumbling over roots and rocks, trying to keep up with the van. Theyâve ditched their weapons. Theyâre unarmed, vulnerable. And terrified.
One of them shouts, his voice hoarse. "Wait! Please! Donât leave us!"
You clench your fists, nails digging into your palms. Your mind flashes back to the chaos moments earlierâthe gunfire, the blood, the woman collapsing at your feet. These two men had stood by, not pulling the trigger but not stopping it either. Complicit of your actions.
"Jungwon," you whisper, your gaze flicking to him. Heâs sitting in the front passenger seat, his rifle resting on his lap. His eyes are hard, his jaw set. He doesnât look back at you.
Behind the van, the men stumble again. One of them falls to his knees, chest heaving, before scrambling back to his feet. "Weâre sorry!" the other shouts, his voice cracking. "We didnât want it to go this far! Please, we just want to live!"
The van lurches forward, and you feel the weight of their desperation pressing down on your chest.
"Theyâre unarmed," you say quietly, though youâre not sure if itâs a statement or an excuse. "They donât have anything left."
Jungwon finally speaks, his voice low and steady. "Neither did we. Didnât stop them from coming after us."
"Theyâre running," you counter. "Not fighting."
"Theyâre running because they lost," Jungwon says coldly, his gaze locked on the road ahead. "If we stop, theyâll turn on us the second they get the chance."
In the rearview mirror, you catch Ni-kiâs expressionâstoic, but his clenched jaw betrays his unease. Jake doesnât look up from Jay, focused on keeping him alive, while Sunghoon grips the other rifle tighter, his knuckles white.
The menâs voices grow louder, more desperate. "Weâll do anything!" one of them screams. "Weâll work for youâprotect you! Please, just donât leave us here!"
You can feel the eyes of the group on you, waiting for your reaction. Itâs suffocating.
And then, one of the men stumbles again, falling hard to the ground. He stays there this time, his hands pressed to his knees as he gasps for air. The other one slows down, grabbing his friendâs arm, pulling him up.
"Y/N." Itâs Jungwonâs voice, cutting through your thoughts like a blade. "We donât have time for this."
Your gaze flicks to him. His eyes meet yoursâsteady, unwavering. But thereâs something else in them. Something more. Regret? Sadness? You canât tell.
"They donât have a weapon," you say again, quieter this time. "Theyâre not a threat."
Jungwon exhales sharply. "They were part of the group that almost killed you. That shot Jay. That held the rest of them hostage."
"That womanâ" you start, but the words catch in your throat. That woman begged for her life. She was just as scared as they are now. And you stood there. You let her die.
Your heart twists painfully in your chest.
Sunghoon, sitting in the corner with his arms hanging over his knees, finally speaks. His voice is softer than usual. "We canât save everyone."
It hits you like a punch to the gut. Heâs right. But that doesnât make it any easier.
Jungwon nods once, his expression hardening again. "Keep driving," he says to Ni-ki. The latter hesitates for a moment, glancing at you through the rearview mirror. Then he presses his foot on the accelerator, and the van picks up speed.
"No!" the man screams behind you, his voice breaking. "Please! We donât want to die!"
You canât look away as they fade into the distance. One of them collapses again, clutching his chest as he gasps for air. The other tries to pull him up, but theyâre too slow. Too weak.
And then, the groans return. The dead have caught their scent.
Theyâre going to die.
Your chest feels like itâs being crushed. You press your hand against the window, watching as the two men disappear from sight. Jungwon doesnât say anything. Neither does anyone else.
You lean back against the van, the weight of what just happened settles over you, suffocating and inescapable.
They begged for mercy but you left them anyway. This shouldnât surprise you. Itâs the right call, after all. And if youâd been alone, you know youâd have done the same thing. Survival over sympathyâthatâs the rule youâve lived by since the community building fell. You donât waste time mourning strangers.
But thatâs the thing, isnât it? Youâre not alone anymore.
And as the van jolts over the uneven road, the weight of that difference presses heavily on your chest. Jayâs words from earlier echo in your mind, cutting through the silence like a knife:
The whole point of this groupâthe way Jungwon leads usâis to make sure we donât become the monsters we ran away from.
It hits you then, the realisation settling like a stone in your stomach. Maybe a part of you wanted to protect something for them. To preserve that fragile thread of humanity theyâve managed to hold onto in this fucked up world.
But all you did was shatter it. Leaving behind the cold hard truth of survival.
You see it in their faces now. The way Sunoo curls in on himself, as if heâs trying to disappear. The way Sunghoonâs jaw clenches tight, a muscle jumping in his cheek. The way Jakeâs hands tremble ever so slightly as he presses another bandage to Jayâs side. The way Heeseung is wiping away the sweat forming on Jayâs forehead, almost absentmindely. Even Ni-ki, whoâs been quiet since you left that village, looks lost in thought, his grip on the wheel a little too tight.
And then thereâs Jungwon.
Heâs always been the calm in the storm. The one who makes the hard decisions so no one else has to carry that weight. But right now, he looks as hollow as you feel. Heâs sitting stiffly in the passenger seat, his gaze locked on the road ahead. His rifle rests across his lap, but his hands arenât on it. Theyâre clenched into fists, pressed tightly against his thighs, like heâs carrying something far too heavy for one person to bear.
You glance down at your hands, noticing the faint red stains on your palms. Blood of all that lost and almost lost their lives. You wipe them on your jeans, but the stain lingers in your mind.
If youâd run into this group back at that auto shopâif they were the people they are now: hardened, desperate, with the blood of three strangers on their handsâthey wouldnât have kept you alive.
They wouldnât have let you speak.
They wouldnât have given you a chance to prove your worth.
It wouldâve been a cold, practical choice. Eliminate the threat before it had the chance to grow. And you wouldnât have blamed them.
But now? You wonder if theyâre blaming you. Blaming you for the decision to leave those two men behind. For the way things spiralled.
The womanâs face flashes in your mind. Her wide, terrified eyes. The blood pooling around her body. âWeâve crossed a line,â you whisper, the words barely audible over the hum of the vanâs engine. Jungwonâs head tilts slightly, but he doesnât look at you.
No one argues. No one tries to convince you otherwise.
Because they all know itâs true.
Sunoo finally speaks, his voice quiet, almost hesitant. âWeâve crossed plenty of lines before.â
âNot like this,â you murmur, your words settling heavily between you all.
Ni-ki shifts in the driverâs seat, breaking the silence. âWhat do we do now?â
No one answers. Because none of you know. Not even Jungwon. And you canât help but wonder if this is the beginning of the end. Not for the worldâit ended a long time ago.
But for this group. For the fragile hope thatâs kept them all going.
You lean your head back against the window, eyes drifting shut.
Youâve crossed a line. And you know youâre going to keep crossing lines, one after another, until thereâs no point of return.
Ironically, thatâs the one thing youâve been trying so desperately to hold ontoâyour sanity, your humanity.
And now youâre afraid. Afriad of how the weight of their survivalâthe choices youâll have to make, the risks youâll have to takeâis going to change you.
Youâve spent so long fighting to hold onto the parts of yourself that still feel human. That separates you from the dead that damned the earth.
Your boundaries, your morals, the thin, fragile line between surviving and losing who you are. You told yourself that as long as you had those thingsâthose pieces of yourselfâyou wouldnât become just another product of this worldâs cruelty.
But now, you can feel that line blurring.
Whatever you said to Jay back in that field, about how wanting justice or revenge makes you humanâyouâre not so sure if you believe that anymore.
Because protecting them might mean crossing lines you swore you never would. It might mean compromising the very things that make you you.
And isnât that how it starts?
One compromise. One choice made out of desperation. One decision that feels necessary in the moment.
Then another.
And another.
Until one day, you look at yourself and donât recognise the person staring back. Until you realise youâre no different from the people you swore youâd never become.
And thatâs what terrifies you.
Not them.
But the person you might become for them.
âNi-ki pull over. Weâll stop here for today.â Jungwon speaks, the first words uttered from any of you in the past hour and a half or so. The sun is still out, early afternoon by what you can tell.
Ni-kiâs hands tighten on the steering wheel as he glances in the rear-view mirror. âWeâve still got a few hours of sunlight. We can keep going. Weâll reach the rest stop by dusk,â he says, confusion lacing his voice. But despite his words, he slows the van and pulls it to the side of the cracked road.
âWeâll stop here for today,â Jungwon repeats softly, his gaze fixed ahead. His tone leaves no room for argument.
The van grinds to a halt with a jolt, the engine ticking as it cools in the quiet. For a moment, no one moves.
âI can hear your stomach growling,â Jungwon says, glancing at Ni-ki with a faint smile that doesnât reach his eyes. âLetâs take a short break. Eat something before we move on, yeah?â
Itâs a lie. You all know it. His voice lacks its usual firmness, and thereâs no mistaking the heaviness in the air. No one argues, though. Thereâs a quiet understanding that Jungwon needs space, and this cramped van isnât offering him any. So, without a word, everyone begins moving, stretching out stiff limbs and gathering what little supplies remain to set up camp by the roadside.
Jungwon heads straight for the edge of the road, lowering himself onto the ground with a weary sigh. He pulls his knees up to his chest, his arms wrapped loosely around them as he stares into the distance. The way he sitsâhunched, smallâmakes your chest ache. He looks like heâs carrying the weight of the world on his shoulders, and for once, you canât blame him. He had to pull the trigger today. Twice. On strangers who, by all rights, had it coming. But that doesnât make it any easier. Killing people, even in self-defence, leaves a mark. One that never quite fades.
You take a hesitant step toward him, considering whether to offer him someone to talk to. But before you can get far, Heeseung catches your arm, shaking his head. His gaze is soft but firm.
âLet him be,â Heeseung murmurs. âHe needs time.â
You nod, pulling back, though the guilt lingers in your chest. Jungwon shouldnât have to bear this alone. None of you should.
Behind you, Sunooâs voice breaks the tense silence. âSeriously? This is all weâve got left?â His frustration is palpable as he crouches by the van, rummaging through the supply bag. âI swear we had five extra cans of beans last night.â
You tear your gaze away from Jungwon, forcing yourself to focus on the immediate problem. Food. Or rather, the lack of it. You walk over to where Ni-ki and Sunoo are crouched, the bag of supplies between them. The way they sift through itâcareful, preciseâmakes the meagre contents all the more depressing.
âAre we running low?â you ask, your voice quieter than you intend.
âYeah.â Sunooâs lips twist into a grimace. âThose bastardsâsorry, I mean, those men from earlierâthey ate some of our food while we were waiting for you to get back.â
Even in the apocalypse, it seems disrespecting the dead doesnât sit well.
You peer into the bag, taking stock. Two dented cans of baked beans. Five energy bars. One sad little sachet of instant coffee. And a leftover packet of ramen seasoning. Itâs pitiful. Barely enough to sustain eight people. And Jay needs more than this. He needs proper food. Protein. Calories to help his body recover.
Your gaze shifts to the van. Jay is still lying flat on his back, propped up by makeshift bedding. His chest rises and falls slowly, his bandages soaked through with dried blood. His eyes are closed, but the furrow in his brow betrays the pain heâs in.
âWeâre not going to make it far on this,â you say, glancing at Heeseung. âNot with Jay in that state.â
Heeseung sighs, running a hand through his hair. His fingers snag on the tangles, and he winces, but he doesnât stop. âI know. Weâll reach the rest stop soon, hopefully they left something for us there.â
âSoon isnât good enough.â Jake crouches down, picking up one of the cans, it looks almost too light in his hands. âJayâs barely hanging on.â
Sunghoon nods in agreement. âAnd Ni-kiâs right. We couldâve kept going. We shouldâve kept going.â
âWe canât push too hard,â Heeseung counters gently. âJungwonâŠâ His gaze flickers toward the figure still sitting at the roadside. âHeâs trying to keep it together, but heâs hanging by a thread.â
You follow his gaze, watching Jungwonâs silhouette against the pale afternoon sky. He hasnât moved from his spot. He sits so still, like a statue carved from grief and exhaustion.
âWhat do we do?â you ask quietly.
Heeseung exhales slowly, like heâs been holding his breath for hours. âWe give him a moment. And then we keep moving. We donât have a choice.â
The words sit heavy in the air. You know heâs right. Thereâs no time to stop, no time to restânot really. The dead donât wait. And neither does the world thatâs out to kill you.
You glance at Jay again. His lips are pale, his skin clammy. He shifts slightly, letting out a soft groan of pain.
âWeâll get him through this,â Heeseung says, his voice firm with quiet determination. âWeâve made it this far. Weâre not losing anyone else.â
His words arenât loud, but they donât need to be. They carry weight, grounding everyone in a way that feels almost tangible. You watch as the effect of his reassurance ripples through the group, see how the flicker of hope reignites in their faces, how determination replaces the exhaustion etched into their features.
Your respect for Heeseung grows.
He isnât trying to be the leader, isnât trying to take Jungwonâs place, but his presence is undeniable. Heâs become the steady force they need right now, the glue holding them together when everything feels like itâs about to fall apart.
And in that moment, you realise something you hadnât before: maybe the strength of this group doesnât rest on just one person. Maybe itâs not just Jungwon who holds them together.
Itâs all of them.
All of them, picking up the pieces when one of them falters, stepping in without hesitation when someone needs support. Even if it means carrying more weight than theyâre used to, they do it. Without complaint. Without hesitation.
And you canât help but wonder if Jungwon knows.
Knows how much they lean on each other when he canât carry the weight himself. Knows how much his own silence and retreat weigh on the group. Knows how theyâre quietly filling the gaps heâs leaving behind, steadying themselves and each other without blame or resentment.
You wonder if he realises that even though he leads, itâs not his burden alone. It never was. Itâs all of theirs, shared in a way that keeps them moving forwardâeven when it feels impossible.
And you want to believe him. Believe that youâll get through this. But as you look at the dwindling supplies and the fading light of day, a gnawing doubt takes root in your chest.
You push yourself to your feet, brushing dirt from your hands as you glance around the makeshift camp.
âWe canât just sit here waiting for the rest of the world to collapse around us,â you say, breaking the silence. âIâm going into the forest to hunt. I could bring back some game for all of us.â
Heeseung immediately rises to his feet. âIâll go with you.â
âNo,â you reply quickly. The sharpness in your tone makes him pause. âIâm going alone.â
Heeseungâs brows knit together, concern flickering across his face. âItâs not safe out there. You shouldnâtââ
âI said no,â you cut him off, your gaze locking with his. Thereâs a finality in your voice that stops him from pressing further. Heeseung knows better than to argue with a woman bleeding her fury. His shoulders slump slightly, and he nods once, reluctantly stepping back.
The group needs Heeseung to rely on at the moment, and having him come along will only plunge them into deeper anxiety.
You know itâs dangerous not having anyone to watch your back. One wrong step or a moment of inattention could end everything. But that also means you donât have to worry about watching someone elseâs back.
And frankly, youâd rather be alone right now. You donât have the capacity to look out for someone else. Youâre mentally disoriented, emotions frayed and teetering on the edge of control. In this state, youâre probably more dangerous than the dead if someone presses the wrong buttons.
Human beings, right? How weak they are. Easily impressionable, quick to trust the wrong person, to follow blindly. Stupid, with an unmatched talent for self-destruction. They build, only to tear themselves apart. They cling to fragile hopes and ideals that crumble at the first sign of adversity.
Itâs baffling how you and these people even made it through the initial chaos of the outbreak that rattled the world.
Without another word, you head toward the van. The air feels heavier with each step, your thoughts churning in your mind as you approach the vehicle. You reach the foot of the van, reaching down to grab your bag and Jayâs bow, when a familiar voice cuts through the silence.
âYouâre going to leave, arenât you?â
You freeze, your hand still on the strap of your bag. Slowly, you turn to see Jay sitting upright in the van, his eyes half-lidded but sharp, piercing through the haze of pain heâs in.
Your heart skips a beat. He knows.
âWhat makes you say that?â you ask, your voice quieter now.
Jayâs lips twitch into a faint, humourless smile. âBecause I was going to. Back then⊠when I lost her.â His gaze drops to his lap, his fingers picking at the edge of the blanket covering his legs. âThe pain was so unbearable that I didnât think I could handle losing anyone else. I just wanted to be alone with her ghost.â
Your chest tightens at his words. Thereâs so much grief buried in his voice, a sadness so deep that it feels like it could swallow you whole.
âShe mustâve really meant a lot to you,â you say.
âThe world,â says Jay, his voice barely above a whisper. âShe was my world. But then I found new meaning to keep going. To keep these people safe, no matter what it costs me.â
You shake your head, guilt settling in your chest like a stone. âNow, look at the state Iâve got you in,â you say, your voice trembling slightly. âYouâre not keeping anybody safe like this.â
Jayâs gaze lifts, his eyes locking onto yours with a quiet intensity that takes you by surprise. âI kept you safe, didnât I?â
The weight of his words crashes over you like a wave. You donât know what to say. Youâve never thought of yourself as someone worth savingâworth sacrificing for.
âJayâŠâ you trail off, your throat tight.
âJust promise me,â he says softly, his voice steady despite the pain etched into his features. âPromise me you wonât run off.â
You hesitate, your grip tightening on your bag. Lying to him feels wrong, but you canât give him false hope. You canât promise something you know you wonât keep.
So you compromise.
âIâll make sure youâre alive before I do,â you say, your voice wavering with a bitter edge of truth.
Jay chuckles quietly, though it sounds more like a soft exhale of exhaustion. âThatâs the best Iâm going to get from you, isnât it?â
You donât answer, but your silence speaks volumes.
He leans back against the vanâs wall, his gaze drifting to the sky outside. âYouâre stronger than you think, you know. But youâre also more stubborn than you realise.â
You laugh softly, a sound that surprises even you. âTakes one to know one.â
Jay smiles faintly, but the warmth of it doesnât quite reach his eyes. âJust⊠be careful. Youâve got more people who care about you than you think.â
His words settle into your chest, heavy and uncomfortable. You donât respond. You canât. The knot in your throat makes it impossible to speak.
Instead, you sling your bag over your shoulder and adjust your weapon, giving Jay one last look before turning away. His eyes follow you, but he doesnât say anything more. As you walk toward the treeline, your footsteps slow. The implication of Jayâs words hangs over you, intertwining with the growing ache in your chest.
The forest feels heavier than it should. Each step you take presses down on the dry leaves and twigs beneath your boots, the crunch echoing in the otherwise still air. You keep your grip firm on the knife in your hand, eyes scanning your surroundings for any sign of movement. Itâs eerily quiet, but thatâs how it always is now. The world hasnât made a sound in a long timeâat least not the kind that reassures you that life still exists.
You donât know how far youâve walked. Maybe a mile. Maybe more. The camp is long out of sight, and the silence in the trees feels more oppressive with each step. Thereâs no wind, no birdsong, no rustling of leaves. Just you, your footsteps, and your thoughts.
I kept you safe, didnât I?
It stings. Not because itâs untrue, but because it is. He did keep you safe. He took a bullet for you, risked his life more times than you can count. And what are you doing in return? Hunting pathetic game and picking berries hanging heavy off bushes.
You shake your head, forcing the thoughts away as you crouch near a patch of moss. There are tracksâfaint, but there. Rabbits, maybe. Or something smaller. You run your fingers over the prints, noting their direction. They lead deeper into the forest.
The sun filters through the canopy above, casting long shadows across the forest floor. You keep your steps light, your ears straining for any sound of movement. A rustle in the bushes makes you freeze, your grip tightening on your weapon.
Thereâjust ahead. A rabbit. Itâs small, barely enough to feed one person, but itâs something.
You lower yourself into a crouch, holding your breath as you inch closer. Your heart pounds in your chest, the adrenaline sharpening your senses. Youâre close enough now. Just a little furtherâ
A snap of a twig under your foot.
The rabbit bolts, disappearing into the undergrowth.
âShit,â you mutter under your breath, rising to your full height.
Frustration prickles at the edge of your nerves, but you force yourself to stay calm. This isnât like the hunts youâve seen on TV. Thereâs no waiting in a tree stand with a high-powered rifle. No camouflage, no bait. This is raw survival, and more often than not, you walk away empty-handed.
But you canât go back empty-handed. Not today.
Determined, you keep moving, weaving through the trees with renewed focus. Youâve lost track of time, your eyes scan for more tracks, more signs of life. And then you hear it: the soft, melodic trickle of a stream.
A water source. Not just for you, but the animals. You move toward the sound, careful with your steps, until the trees part to reveal a small clearing. The stream cuts through the earth like a silver ribbon, its water sparkling in the late afternoon light.
And there it is. A deer. Itâs youngâsmall, but itâs enough. Enough to feed the group, to keep Jayâs strength up. Enough to make this trip worth it.
It stands on the other side of the stream. Its oblivious as it dips its head to drink from the cool water. The sight is almost magical, like a scene pulled from a world that doesnât exist anymore.
For a moment, you just watch. You canât help it. The way the deer moves, the way the light plays on its furâit feels like something out of a movie. Youâre struck by how much has changed, how far removed the world has become from anything remotely beautiful. And yet here it is: beauty, in its purest, most natural form.
But reality quickly pulls you back. This isnât a movie, and youâre not here to admire the scenery.
You crouch slowly, your movements calculated and silent. You reach for the bow slung over your shoulder, your fingers steady as you pull it into position. The string hums softly as you notch an arrow, your heart beating in sync with the rhythm of the forest. You take aim, your breath slow and controlled, the deer still unaware of your presence.
The release is smooth, and the arrow flies true. A soft thud follows as the arrow finds its mark. The deer stumbles, collapsing to the ground with barely a sound. Relief washes over you, but itâs tempered by a twinge of guilt. Itâs fleeting, though.
You move quickly, crossing the stream and kneeling beside the deer. Your hands are steady as you check its pulse, ensuring it passed without much suffering. You offer a silent thanksânot to a god, but to the animal itselfâfor what itâs giving you, for what itâll mean to the others.
You do your best to drain the blood and skin the deer by the stream. Itâs messy, your hands slick and trembling from the sheer mass of it, and the finished product is far from professional. But whoâs complaining about fresh venison meat in the middle of an apocalypse?
When you return to the camp, the pleased expressions on their faces ignite a spark of accomplishment in your chest.
âHoly shit, you actually did it,â Sunoo breathes, his voice a mix of awe and disbelief as he stares at the game youâve brought back.
Jake wastes no time updating you. âJayâs been going in and out of consciousness. Heâs desperate for somethingâanythingâother than beans.â
You glance at Jungwon, half-expecting some critique or lecture about risks. But he doesnât say a word. Instead, you catch the faintest trace of a smile tugging at the corners of his lips. Itâs subtle, almost imperceptible, but itâs enough. Enough to know heâs grateful.
The rest of the group gets to work immediately, dividing the meat. Half of it is chopped into small cubes and added to the bubbling concoction of beans and ramen soup seasoning. The other half is sliced into smaller pieces, skewered onto sticks, and slowly roasted over the flames.
The waiting process is brutal.
The fire crackles, filling the silence as everyone stares at the cooking meat with unwavering focus, as if sheer willpower could make it cook faster. The air is thick with the scent of roasting venison, and stomachs rumble audibly, a cruel reminder of how long itâs been since anyone had a real meal.
Finally, Heeseung gives the go-ahead, and no one hesitates. They dig in with abandon, the first taste of fresh meat in what feels like forever sending a ripple of relief through the group.
Jake carefully scoops some of the broth into a makeshift bowl carved from wood and brings it to Jay in the van. When you catch Jayâs gaze, the look in his eyes says it all.
Heâs gratefulânot just for the food, but for the fact that you didnât take off running into the woods.
The next morningâor afternoon, ratherâeveryone except Jungwon sleeps in, a luxury that feels foreign in this world. You never thought youâd use the phrase âoverateâ in the middle of an apocalypse, but thatâs exactly what happened. With no way to preserve the meat, everyone unanimously agreed to finish it off while it was still good.
Jungwon looks noticeably betterâcalmer, more groundedâcompared to the tense, hollow version of himself from the day before. By the time the camp starts packing up, heâs fully back in his role, directing the group with quiet authority.
Before long, youâre all on the move again, resuming the trip to the rest stop. The exhaustion lingers, but for now, this is a win. And in this world, wins like these are few and far between.
The sun dips low on the horizon by the time you arrive at the bus terminal leading out of the city, signalling that the rest stop is not far nowâabout another thirty minutes' drive. That is if you can get past the bus terminal without any hiccups.
The terminal looms like a forgotten monumentâits once-bustling gates now a graveyard of cars, all frozen in time from when people tried to flee the city. Some doors hang ajar, others sealed shut. Windows cracked, tyres deflated, their drivers long goneâor worse, still inside.
The terminal is a bottleneck, leading into a wide expanse of roads out of Seoul. But itâs a choke point, tooâa trap. You know that every car out there is a potential coffin, and every shadow could be hiding something worse. The dead donât move until they hear or smell something alive. Something warm. Something vulnerable.
Like a van carrying eight passengers. One of which is bleeding out of a hole in his body.
The scent of Jayâs blood is thick in the confined space, metallic and unforgiving. It clings to your skin, your clothes, your thoughts. You glance back at him. Heâs still pale, still barely holding on, Jake pressing a bloodied cloth against his side to stem the bleeding. But it wonât be enough. Not if you donât keep moving.
âThe last time I was here, I went on foot,â you murmur quietly to nobody in particularâmaybe someone in particular but you try not to make it obvious. Your voice feels too loud in the tense silence. âEven then, it was risky. There are too many cars, too many places for them to hide.â
Jungwon doesnât look at you. His gaze is fixed ahead, his grip on the rifle tightening with every passing second. âWe donât have that option now.â
No. You donât.
âWhy does this feel so eerie?â Sunooâs voice breaks the silence, his usual sarcasm stripped down to unease. He leans forward from the back seat, resting his arms on the centre console. His eyes dart around the scene outside, scanning the cars and the deserted terminal. âLike weâre being watched.â
You donât respond, but you feel it tooâthat creeping sense that youâve just walked into something far more dangerous than you anticipated.
âNi-ki, switch off the headlights,â Jungwon orders quietly. His voice is calm, measured, but thereâs an edge to it. A tension that pulls tighter with each passing second.
Ni-ki reaches for the switch, cutting the lights. Darkness swallows the road ahead, the only illumination now coming from the fading light of the setting sun. He carefully guides the van up the curb, circling around the edges of the terminal as quietly as possible.
You crane your neck, glancing out the window. Bodies sit slumped in the front seats of cars, their heads tilted at unnatural angles. Their hands still grip steering wheels, as though they never made it out of the city. Some are fully decayed, little more than skeletal remains in tattered clothes. Others⊠others look almost whole.
Your stomach churns. Youâve seen enough to know the difference.
The van bumps gently as it rolls over debrisâdiscarded suitcases, backpacks, remnants of lives left behind. You catch sight of a baby seat in the back of one of the cars, a blanket still draped over it.
Donât look too closely.
Donât think about it.
âThere,â Jungwon whispers, pointing to a narrow gap between two cars ahead. Itâs barely wide enough for the van to squeeze through. âGo slow. Keep the engine quiet.â
Ni-ki nods, his hands steady on the wheel as he manoeuvres the van through the gap. The tyres crunch softly over gravel and shattered glass.
âDo you think theyâre dead?â Sunoo whispers, his voice low and tense. You glance at him. His gaze is locked on a car to your rightâa man slumped against the window, his face pressed to the glass. His eyes are closed, his mouth slack. He looks dead. But youâve seen them wake before.
âI donât know,â you admit quietly. âBut we shouldnât stay to find out.â
Jungwon presses his hand against the dashboard, leaning forward to get a better look at the road ahead. His knuckles are white, his expression unreadable. âKeep moving. Slowly.â
The van inches forward, navigating the maze of cars and debris. You press your hand against the door, your fingers twitching near the knife strapped to your leg. Every instinct in your body screams to stay alert, to be ready for anything.
But nothing happens. The van makes it through the terminal without incident. No sudden lurches of movement from the cars, no decayed hands clawing at the windows. Just silence. You exhale slowly, the tension in your chest easing ever so slightly.
Maybe the dead arenât here after all.
Ni-ki steers the van onto the open road beyond the terminal, the cracked asphalt stretching endlessly ahead. The trees lining the road sway gently in the breeze, their rustling leaves the only sound aside from the low hum of the engine.
âWe made it,â Ni-ki breathes out, leaning back in his seat with a relieved sigh. âThank fuck.â
Even Jungwonâs shoulders relax, his grip on the rifle loosening just a fraction.
But the moment is fleeting.
A wet, rattling cough echoes from the back of the van and everyoneâs heads snap toward the sound.
Jay.
Heâs laying flat on the carpet, his face pale and slick with sweat. His hand, trembling slightly, presses against his wounded side. But itâs the blood staining his lips that catches your attentionâthe dark red smear he tries to wipe away before anyone can see.
âJay?â Jake is the first to move, scrambling to his side. âHey, look at me.â
Jay coughs again, harder this time, his whole body shaking with the effort. Blood spatters onto his shirt, onto Jakeâs hands as he tries to steady him.
âPull over!â Jake snaps, his voice urgent. âNow!â
Ni-ki doesnât hesitate, swerving the van to the side of the road and bringing it to a screeching halt. The tyres crunch against the gravel, and the van shudders as it comes to a stop.
Jake lifts the cloth thatâs been pressing onto the wound, checking with practised hands. His fingers come away slick with fresh blood. Too much blood.
Your eyes dart to the wound, taking in the angry, swollen edges and the telltale patches of red creeping outward, spidering across his skin. You donât have to be a doctor to recognise the symptoms of blood poisoning.
âFuck,â Jake mutters under his breath, grabbing a clean cloth from the med kit. He presses it against Jayâs side, applying pressure. âItâs worse than I thought.â
Jay lets out a weak laugh, his voice strained. âYeah⊠figured.â
âDonât joke about this,â Jake snaps, his usual calm demeanour cracking under the weight of the situation. âYou shouldâve told me the moment it got worse.â
Jay doesnât respond. He just leans back against the carpet, his chest heaving with laboured breaths. His gaze flickers to you for a brief moment before closing again, like heâs too exhausted to hold it.
Jungwon is out of the van in seconds, sliding open the side door with a sharp tug. His movements are sharp, precise, but thereâs an edge to themâa barely concealed frustration that you can practically feel radiating off him.
His footsteps crunch against the gravel as he paces in front of the vehicle, his hands resting on his hips, fingers digging into his sides. His shoulders are tense, rising and falling with each heavy breath, and his jaw clenches and unclenches in a steady rhythm. You can see it clearly: his mind spiralling through every possible scenario, none of them ending well.
And if you know Jungwon the way you think you do, heâs probably blaming himself. Blaming himself for stopping yesterday. Telling himself that if he hadnât broken down, if he hadnât let himself falter for even a moment, theyâd have reached the rest stop by now. Theyâd be safer, better prepared, instead of stuck here with too many variables and not enough solutions.
Itâs a vicious cycle. And no matter how many times you tell him itâs not his fault, you know heâll never believe it.
Because thatâs who Jungwon is. The leader who carries the weight of everyoneâs survival. The one who always blames himself when things go wrong.
But itâs something you all shouldâve seen coming. Considering the conditions and the crude materials Jake had to work with just to stem the bleeding, infection was always a riskâone you all silently hoped wouldnât happen. But now, staring at the unmistakable signs spreading across his skin, you realise thereâs no more denying it.
It also means his countdown has started. Time is slipping away, and with every passing minute, his chances of survival grow thinner.
âWhat do we do?â Sunoo asks quietly from inside the van. His usual sarcasm is gone, replaced by a cautious uncertainty that makes your chest tighten.
Jake doesnât lift his head from where heâs crouched beside Jay, his hands pressing down on the makeshift bandage to stem the bleeding. âWe need to stop the bleeding,â he says firmly. âBut he needs rest. Proper rest.â
âThereâs nowhere safe,â Jungwon mutters, still pacing, his eyes darting to the road and back again. âNot out here.â
You watch him carefully, noting the way he keeps flexing his fingers, like heâs trying to ground himself. Then, as if sensing your gaze, he stops abruptly and turns to you. His dark eyes lock onto yours, a flicker of something vulnerable slipping through the cracks of his usual calm exterior.
Heâs looking to you for help.
It catches you off guardâthis boy, who always seems to have the answers, who leads with quiet confidence and keeps the group together through sheer willpower. And now heâs standing there, staring at you like heâs out of ideas, like he needs you to have the solution he doesnât.
Your gaze flickers to Jay. His chest rises and falls in shallow, uneven breaths. His skin is deathly pale, and sweat beads along his hairline. Heâs slipping, and fast.
Your thoughts flash back to the moment he jumped in front of you, taking the bullet that shouldâve been yours. The memory hits you like a punch to the gut. Hell, you donât even know how youâd handle it if he died because of you.
Your mind races, turning over every possibility, every bit of knowledge youâve gathered from surviving on your own. And then your eyes land on the bus terminal in the distance.
âJake, what do you need?â you speak up, your voice steady despite the chaos in your mind.
Jake blinks, startled. âWhat?â
âWhat do you need to keep him alive?â you press. âJust name it. Whatever it is, weâll find it.â
Jakeâs brow furrows in thought, his hands still working on Jayâs bandages. âWell, it doesnât look like it hit any major organs. Thatâs the only good news. The bullet is still inside, and I canât wedge it out now without any equipment or at least antiseptic, itâll only worsen the infection. Heâs also lost way too much blood and is starting to burn up. If we donât get antibiotics into him and stabilise his blood pressure, heâll go into septic shock.â
âJake, layman terms, please.â Sunghoon says as he pinches the bridge of his nose, clearly frustrated.
Jake sighs, rubbing a hand over his face. âBasically, if we donât find the medicine and supplies he needs soon, heâll die.â
The words hang there, unspoken fears suddenly given form. Silence falls over the group like a heavy blanket, pressing down on all of you harder than ever. The only sounds are Jayâs laboured breaths and the distant rustle of wind through the abandoned cars. You glance around at the othersâJungwon, Heeseung, Sunghoon, Ni-ki, and Sunooâall of them wearing the same haunted expressions.
âThereâs a drug store at the terminal,â you say, your voice breaking the silence. Everyone turns to you, hope flickering in their eyes, fragile but present. âIf we can get behind the counters where they keep the prescription meds, we might find antibiotics. Maybe corticosteroids, TXAâwhatever Jake needs.â
Jungwonâs gaze sharpens, locking onto you with unwavering focus. âYouâve been there?â
You nod, brushing stray hair from your face. âI passed through. There were supplies. But the locked room at the back? I couldnât get in without making a lot of noise. I doubt anyone else wouldâve been desperate enough to risk it, so thereâs a good chance the medicine is still there.â
Jungwon straightens, adjusting the strap of his rifle across his chest. The cracks you saw earlierâthe uncertainty, the fearâare gone, buried beneath that steely mask of determination he always wears when the group needs him most.
âWe donât have a choice,â says Jungwon, his tone resolute. âWeâll go. Weâll find what we need.â
âWe?â Sunooâs sceptical voice cuts through the tense air, his eyebrow arching. âWhoâs we?â
âMe and Y/N,â Jungwon replies without hesitation. âThe rest of you stay here with Jay.â His words leave no room for debate, but Ni-ki shifts uncomfortably, clearly wanting to protest. The severity in Jungwonâs voice, however, stops him in his tracks.
Jake speaks next, his eyes darting between you and Jungwon before ultimately fixing on you. âYou can recognise the medicine, right? Make sure you get the antibiotics. Hard, strong ones. If we donât hit him with the right stuff, it wonât make a difference.â
âI know what to look for,â you assure him, placing a steady hand on his shoulder. âDonât worry. Weâll grab everything we can.â
Jake exhales deeply, but his jaw remains tight. âI would offer to go myself, but if anything happens to him while Iâm goneâŠâ He trails off, glancing at Jay, who looks pale and lifeless where he lies.
âWe got this,â you promise, your voice unwavering. âYou focus on keeping him alive until we get back.â
âIn the meantime,â you add, turning to the others, âtwo of you should head to the rest stop on foot. Scout the area for any signs of trouble. But be careful. If Iâm wrong and The Future is still there, at least we wonât be driving straight into their crosshairs.â
Jungwonâs eyes linger on you again, something flickering behind his expression. Itâs not just reliefâitâs trust. He trusts you. Despite everything thatâs happened, despite how little time youâve spent with the group, heâs relying on you now.
âYeah, that would be smart,â Heeseung says, stepping forward. âSunoo and I can handle it. Ni-ki, Sunghoon and Jake should stay here and keep watch.â
âIf weâre not back before you two, just leave without us. Weâll meet you halfway.â Heeseung adds, his voice even.
âAnd if weâre not back before you two, and the rest stop is safe, leave without us,â Jungwon says, his words carrying a weight that, unlike Heeseung, seems to hang in the air. His eyes lift to meet yours for a fleeting secondâa silent understanding passing between you. âWeâll catch up.â
You give him a firm nod, mirroring his determination. Neither of you says it aloud, but the message is clear.
Failure isnât an option.
âLetâs move,â Jungwon says, gripping his rifle tighter.
You and Jungwon move in silence, weaving between abandoned cars and twisted metal barricades. The stench of rot hangs in the air, thick and cloying, as if the dead themselves are watching, waiting for the right moment to lurch forward.
âStay low,â Jungwon whispers, his voice barely audible over the crunch of gravel beneath your boots.
You nod, gripping your knife tightly as you press yourself against the side of a rusted bus. The terminal doors are just ahead, glass cracked but still intact. You glance at Jungwon, who gestures for you to move forward, his rifle at the ready.
The two of you approach cautiously, your steps light, deliberate. You catch a glimpse of movement insideâa lone zombie shuffling aimlessly near the entrance. Its clothes are tattered, blood smeared across its face, and its eyes⊠lifeless, yet all too aware of any sound that might bring it to life.
âIâve got it,â you mouth, stepping forward. One quick jab to the temple and the zombie crumples to the floor, lifeless once more.
Jungwon nods approvingly, motioning for you to follow him inside. The terminal is eerily quiet, the kind of quiet that makes your skin crawl. Dust clings to every surface, softening the outlines of benches and kiosks that havenât been touched in what seems like forever. Abandoned bags and scattered belongings lie across the floor like forgotten memories, each one telling a story youâll never know.
Your eyes settle on a battered duffle bag near the entrance. The fabric is torn in places, and the faded logo suggests it once belonged to someone travelling light, someone who never made it to their destination. You crouch down, brushing off the dust before carefully tipping out its contentsâclothes, a water bottle, a crumpled photograph. The remnants of a life reduced to debris.
You shake the bag to make sure itâs empty, then stretch it open to inspect the inside. Itâs worn but sturdy. This should be big enough to store the medicine you need.
You make your way toward the drugstore tucked in the corner of the terminal. The moonlight reflects faintly off the sign above it, and the sliding doors are stuck a quarter-open, jammed by an overturned display rack.
Inside, shelves are mostly bare, but you search diligently. Bandages, aspirin, paracetamolâall over-the-counter stuff. Useful, but not what you need.
âJake said we need antibiotics,â Jungwon reminds you, scanning the shelves. âStrong ones.â
âI know.â You crouch down, rifling through the lower shelves, frustration growing with each passing second. âBut theyâre not here. Theyâre probably locked in the backroom.â
Jungwonâs gaze shifts toward the heavy door at the back of the store. Itâs secured with a sturdy lock, the kind that wonât budge without serious force.
You try the handle out of instinct, even though you already know itâs pointless. Yet, thereâs that stubborn flicker of hope gnawing at you, the same irrational hope thatâs kept you going this far. Who knows? Maybe some other stragglers came through, just as desperate as you to save a life, and managed to open it. But alas, itâs locked tight.
âOf course it is,â you mutter, brushing dust off your hands.
âWe could try prying it open,â Jungwon suggests, but you both know itâll take too longâand make too much noise.
âThe longer weâre here, the more weâll draw them in,â you say, casting a wary glance toward the entrance. Youâve already seen a few zombies shuffle past the glass doors, their hollow eyes scanning the streets for movement. Theyâre not inside yet, but itâs only a matter of time.
Jungwon steps closer to the door, inspecting the lock with a critical eye. His fingers tighten around the rifle slung across his chest.
âI could shoot it,â he offers, his tone calm, measured. âOne shot to take the lock out. We grab what we need and get out.â
You hesitate, weighing the risks. The sound will draw them in, no question. But how long would it take to pry the door open? Too long. Far too long.
Jungwon sees the conflict in your eyes and steps into your line of sight, forcing you to look at him. âWe donât have time to think this through,â he says softly. âJay doesnât have time.â
His words hit you like a punch to the gut. Jayâlying back at the van, clinging to life.
Time is not on your side.
You nod, swallowing the lump in your throat. âDo it.â
Jungwon raises his rifle, aiming directly at the lock. His hands are steady, his breathing controlled. âOn my signal, we run in, grab everything we can, and get out. Donât stop. Donât second-guess. Just grab and go.â
âUnderstood.â
You brace yourself as he pulls the trigger. The shot echoes through the terminal, deafening in the stillness. The lock shatters, pieces of metal scattering across the floor. The backroom door swings open, revealing shelves packed with boxes of prescription medication.
But the noise has done its job.
From outside, you hear themâthe unmistakable groans of the dead, drawn to the sound like moths to a flame.
âTheyâre coming,â you whisper.
Jungwon glances over his shoulder, then back at you. âMove. Now.â
You bolt inside, heart pounding as you grab boxes at randomâanything that looks remotely useful. Antibiotics. Painkillers. Anti-inflammatory meds. You shove them into the duffle bag with shaking hands, your mind racing.
Behind you, Jungwon is doing the same, his movements quick and efficient. But you can hear the groans getting louder, the shuffling of feet growing closer.
âTheyâre inside,â Jungwon warns, his voice tight with urgency.
You glance toward the entrance of the store. Shadows flicker across the broken glass as the first zombie pushes its way inside, its dead eyes locking onto you.
âWe need to go,â you say, slinging the duffle bag over your head, the straps digging into your shoulders. Your voice is steady, but your pulse thunders in your ears. You canât stay here any longer. The scent of blood and decay is thick in the air, and every second you linger feels like borrowed time.
Jungwon nods without a word, grabbing one last box before turning toward the door. The corridor is filled with the low, guttural moans of the undead, their decayed bodies pressing forward in a relentless wave. They trip over each other, stumbling through the narrow store entrance, their milky eyes locked on the two of you.
Another shot rings out as Jungwon takes down a zombie clawing its way through the entrance. The recoil barely seems to faze him, but you notice the tension in his shoulders, the way his hands tighten around the rifle. Heâs running out of bullets, and both of you know it.
âFuck,â he curses under his breath, glancing back at the growing horde. âWeâre trapped.â
Your eyes dart around the store, searching desperately for another way out. Thereâs no back exit. The front is swarming with rotters. But thenâyour gaze catches on something above. A hatch in the ceiling, barely noticeable through the dim lighting.
âThere!â you shout, pointing.
Jungwon follows your line of sight, spotting the hatch. Without a word, he slings the rifle over his shoulder and moves toward it. âIâll boost you up,â he says quickly, lacing his fingers together to form a step.
âNo,â you say, shaking your head as you glance back at the corridor. More zombies are pushing through, their groans growing louder, more desperate. âYou go first. Iâm lighter. It'll be easier for you to pull me up.â
Jungwon looks at you, torn. His jaw clenches, his eyes flicking between you and the hatch. âWe donât have time to argueââ
âExactly!â you snap, your voice cutting through the rising noise. âThereâs no time. Quickâgo!â
For a moment, he doesnât move. His expression is hard, conflicted. But then he nods sharply, understanding that thereâs no time for stubbornness. He turns and grabs the edge of the shelf beneath the hatch, pulling himself up with a grunt. The wood creaks under his weight, but it holds.
As soon as heâs up, he reaches down, his hand outstretched. âGrab on.â
You donât hesitate. Throwing the duffle bag behind you, you jump, gripping his wrist tightly as he pulls you up. The muscles in his arm flex with the strain, his face set in determination. But just as you reach the edge of the crawlspace, a hand shoots up.
The rotted hand grabs your ankle, its grip like a vice, fingers digging into your skin. You let out a startled gasp, kicking instinctively, but the zombie holds on tight, pulling with surprising strength.
âNoâshit!â you hiss, panic lacing your voice as you scramble to free yourself. The jagged wood around the hole splinters under your weight, cracking with each tug of the zombieâs hand.
âY/N!â Jungwonâs expression shifting from urgency to pure panic in an instant.
Your body jerks violently, your chest slamming against the rough edges of the hatch. Pain blossoms through your ribs, but you barely register it over the sheer terror coursing through you. You kick wildly, your free leg connecting with something solidâbone, maybeâbut itâs not enough to break its grip.
âIâve got you,â Jungwon says through gritted teeth, his grip on your wrist tightening as he pulls you back. His eyes burn with determination, his muscles straining as he fights to keep you from being dragged into the swarm below.
âFuck, fuckââ Your heart pounds in your chest, the sound of your own blood rushing in your ears. You twist your body, trying to free your leg, but the zombieâs fingers are locked around your ankle like steel clamps.
More hands start clawing up, fingers reaching, desperate to grab hold of anything living.
Jungwon shifts, bracing his feet against the frame of the hatch for leverage. âHold on! Donât let go.â
âIâm trying!â you snap, panic making your voice sharper than intended. But your hands are sweating, your grip slipping, your strength waning. Faster now that the duffle bag is weighing you down.
You feel the zombieâs filthy nails scrape against your skin, digging in deep enough to draw blood. The rancid smell of decay wafts up from below, making your stomach churn.
Then you hear itâthe unmistakable growl of another one joining the frenzy. Theyâre piling up, climbing over each other to get to you.
âJungwon!â you gasp, desperation clawing at your throat. âTheyâre going toââ
He doesnât let you finish. In one swift move, he lets go of one hand holding onto you and reaches for his rifle, swinging it around with practiced precision. He doesnât hesitate. He aims down through the gap and fires.
The zombieâs head jerks back, a sickening crack echoing through the crawlspace as the bullet finds its mark. The grip on your ankle loosens, and with a final desperate kick, you free yourself.
Jungwon grabs your arm again, hauling you up with a grunt. You collapse onto the platform beside him, gasping for breath, your chest heaving.
âAre you hurt?â Jungwonâs voice is calm, but thereâs an edge of urgency to it. His eyes scan you quickly, looking for any signs of a bite.
âIâm fine,â you manage, still catching your breath. âIt didnât get me.â
He nods, stepping closer to you, his hand hovering near your shoulder. âYou sure?â
You nod, though your heart feels like itâs about to burst from your chest. âYeah⊠yeah.â
But you both know itâs a lie. Youâre not okay. Neither of you is. You can still feel the ghost of that grip around your ankle, the way it clung to you like death itself. You meet his gaze, and for a moment, you see the concern etched into his featuresâthe slight crease between his brows, the way his lips press into a thin line. Itâs subtle, but itâs there.
âWe need to go,â Jungwon says, his voice softer now but still firm. He brushes a lock of hair from your face, his fingers lingering just a second too long before he pulls back.
You nod again, swallowing the lump in your throat. âYeah, letâs go.â
You couldâve died. But even worseâif you hadnât insisted Jungwon go first, he could haveâno, thereâs no âcouldâveâ about it. He would have died. You wouldnât have had the strength to pull him up if the roles were reversed.
Itâs always like this, isnât it? The small choices. The split-second decisions that separate life from death. The apocalypse doesnât give you time to reconsider, to take back your mistakes. If it had played out differently, if Jungwon hadnât made it out of that hatch⊠you donât think youâll ever be able to face them again. Then, Jay would die. And The others wouldnât survive much longer either.
The thought churns in your stomach, twisting like a knife. You force it down. Thereâs no room for regret. No time for fear. Youâre still here. Youâre not dead. Not yet. And youâll make damn sure it stays that way.
âY/N.â Jungwonâs voice pulls you from your spiralling thoughts. Heâs a few paces ahead, glancing over his shoulder, his expression grim and serious. Thereâs a tension in his eyes that wasnât there before, something raw and unspoken.
âStay close. Please.â
His voice is quieter on that last wordâalmost a plea. It startles you more than anything else thatâs happened so far.
You nod. âGot it.â
He peers over the edge of the roof, scanning the ground below for anything that can cushion your descent. His movements are quick, efficient, but you can see the weight he carries pressing down on his shoulders. Heâs not just leading you right now; heâs holding everything togetherâthe group, the plan, your survivalâbut more so himself.
âThere.â Jungwon points to a vending machine tipped against the side of the terminal building. Its display glass is shattered, shards glinting in the fading light, and the machine itself is battered and empty. Still, it looks sturdy enough.
âWe can use that to climb down.â says Jungwon.
He takes the lead without hesitation, lowering himself carefully over the edge and testing the machineâs stability before finding a footing on top of it.
Once heâs sure it can hold both your weight, he glances up at you and stretches out a hand.
âCome on.â
You hesitate for half a second. Not because youâre scared, but because something about the sight of himâstanding there with his hand outstretched, waiting for youâmakes your chest tighten. He doesnât have to do that. He doesnât have to look back for you. But he always does.
You slowly ease into him. His grip around your waist is firm, steady as he lands you gently beside him on the machine. And for a fleeting moment, you let yourself believe that everything will be fine.
However, the moment your feet touches the ground, the sound of distant groans reaches your ears. Itâs faint, but growing louder.
Jungwonâs fingers slip into yours without warning, his grip firm but not crushing. Itâs instinctiveâthereâs no hesitation, no second-guessing, as though the simple act of interlocking his hand with yours is the most natural thing in the world.
You donât pull away.
His palm is calloused, but his touch is grounding, like a tether keeping you from spiralling into the chaos around you. The warmth of his hand seeps into your skin, anchoring you to this moment.
The world around you feels like a blurâhalf-destroyed buildings and rusting cars blending together in the fading light. The distant groans of the undead echo from somewhere behind you, a haunting reminder that danger is never far. But Jungwonâs focus never wavers. His steps are quick but deliberate, each one calculated.
Itâs like he knows exactly where to go.
The path ahead seems impossible to seeâfog, shadow and debris blocking your viewâbut Jungwon moves with certainty, his eyes scanning the terrain with a sharpness that only someone used to surviving in this world could possess.
âWatch your step,â he says softly, guiding you around a cluster of jagged rocks and broken glass. His hand tightens slightly around yours as you stumble over a crack in the pavement. His fingers squeeze gently, a silent reassurance.
You glance at him, and for a fleeting moment, you catch a glimpse of something rareâsomething softer beneath the hardened exterior he wears so well. His brows are drawn together in concentration, but his lips press into a line that seems more anxious than confident.
âDo you even know where weâre going?â you ask, your voice hushed.
âWe just need to make it past the gate, canât be that hard,â Jungwon says, his voice steady and composed, but the lack of conviction in his tone is deafening. He doesnât look back as he speaks, his pace quickening as if heâs trying to outrun the weight of his own words.
It makes your chest ache. Even when heâs unsure, he keeps the facade upâfor you, for everyone. To keep you hoping. To give you something to cling to, no matter how thin it might be. But Jungwon knows better than to hold you to meaningless reassurances. He knows you donât believe it, not really. Yet he says it anyway, maybe out of habit. Maybe because itâs all he knows how to do.
You wonder if heâs afraid. Surely, he must be. Only youâre not sure if that fear is directed towards the dead.
Before you can think too much, Jungwon halts abruptly, the sudden stop jolting you out of your spiralling thoughts. His hand clamps around your wrist as he pulls you forward, weaving through the maze of rusted and abandoned cars, his grip firm, unrelenting. His movements are sharper now, deliberate, and it doesnât take much to realise heâs actually running from something.
You want to turn back, to see what it is thatâs chasing you, but Jungwon doesnât give you the chance. His arm loops around your waist, and before you know it, heâs hoisting you onto the back of a battered lorry that looks like itâs barely holding itself together. You donât have time to ask whatâs going on before heâs climbing up after you, throwing a filthy, moth-eaten tarp over the both of you, cocooning you in darkness.
âWhatââ The question barely escapes your lips before his hand presses against your mouth, silencing you. His other arm braces over your body, shielding you.
Then you hear it.
A sound that chills you to your very core. Low, guttural groans, and the unmistakable shuffle of dozensâno, more than dozensâof dragging feet. The dead are close. Too close.
Theyâre moving past you, the tarp hiding you from their vacant stares, but the proximity makes your breath hitch in your throat. Itâs not just one or two. The sound is overwhelming, the groans echoing all around you like a sinister symphony of death. You can feel the vibrations through the lorryâs frame, the weight of their movements too much to ignore.
But itâs not just the horde that sends a chill down your spine. Itâs the direction they came from.
The van.
Your mind races, panic clawing at the edges of your thoughts. Did Heeseung and Sunoo make it back to the van? Did the dead catch onto Jayâs blood? Are theyâ No. You canât think about that. You canât let your mind spiral like this. Not now.
Jungwonâs hand shifts slightly, his grip loosening as he removes it from your mouth. Youâre on the verge of falling apart, the weight of everything threatening to crush you. But then you feel itâa gentle squeeze around your waist. Reassuring, grounding.
You glance up, meeting Jungwonâs eyes in the dim light filtering through the tarp. His gaze locks onto yours, steady and calm despite the chaos around you. Heâs saying something without words, speaking to you through his expression.
Theyâre okay. I know they are.
The words ring silently in your mind, a fragile lifeline in the sea of doubt. But even as you hold onto that unspoken promise, you know.
Even Jungwon canât say for sure.
The tension is suffocating, thick enough to choke on as the minutes crawl by at an excruciating pace. Every second drags painfully, your body tense and your breathing shallow, afraid that even the smallest sound will betray your presence. The groans of the undead echo just beyond the tarp, their shuffling feet and guttural rasps terrifyingly close.
You force yourself to take stock of your position, assess how easy it would be for you to get up and run if the situation permits. Youâre lying on your side, pressed tightly against Jungwon. His body is turned towards you, his arm cradling your head while his other hand rests firmly on your waist.
You try to shift slightly, attempting to ease the weight off his arm. The last thing you want is to make this uncomfortable for him on top of everything else. But before you can move much further, Jungwonâs grip tightens. His hand presses gently but firmly against the back of your head, pulling you closer to his chest until your cheek is practically resting against his collarbone.
âStop moving, will you?â he whispers, his breath warm against your ear. The low timbre of his voice sends a chill down your spine, a contrast to the heat emitting from his body.
Your breath hitches, not just from the tension of the situation but from the unexpected intimacy of it. You can feel the steady thrum of his heartbeat against your cheek, grounding you in a way that feels strange and unsettling. You nod slightly, a silent agreement to stay still, and Jungwon relaxes just a fraction, his hand still resting on the curve of your waist.
The world outside the tarp feels like itâs closing in, the groans of the dead growing louder before tapering off again as the horde slowly moves on. Each sound sets your nerves alight, your muscles tensing involuntarily as you wait for the inevitable moment when one of them will catch a whiff of life and turn back. But that moment doesnât come. Not yet.
Beneath the tarp, the silence between you is thick, heavy with unspoken words and unacknowledged emotions. You canât bring yourself to look up at him, but you feel the weight of his gaze, protective and steady even in this precarious situation.
You stay under the tarp for what feels like hours, though youâre not sure how much time has passed. The groans of the horde slowly grow more distant, but the occasional shuffle of feet or guttural rasp reminds you theyâre still out thereâstragglers lingering behind.
Jungwon hasnât moved, his arm still lightly draped around your waist. His breathing is steady, but you can feel the tension radiating off him. Heâs waiting, listening, calculating. You donât dare to speak, your heart hammering against your ribs as you lie there in silence.
Eventually, the noise dwindles to nothing more than faint echoes. Jungwon tilts his head, his eyes narrowing as he listens intently for any signs of danger. After what feels like an eternity, he lets out a quiet exhale and shifts slightly, lifting the edge of the tarp just enough to peer out.
âCome on,â he whispers, his voice barely audible. You nod, following his lead as he slides out from under the tarp and drops to the ground.
The air feels heavier now, thick with the stench of decay. The horde might have passed, but the stragglers are everywhere.
Jungwon motions for you to follow, his movements silent and deliberate. You mimic his steps, keeping low and hugging the shadows of the abandoned vehicles. The slightest misstep could draw their attention, and youâre hyper-aware of every rustle of fabric as you move.
As you near the edge of the terminal, your eyes dart frantically across the barren lot, scanning for any sign of the van, of Heeseung and Sunoo, of the others. The silence feels heavy, pressing against your ears as you search. But all you see is emptinessâthe van is gone.
For a moment, dread begins to creep in, whispering that maybeâjust maybeâthey didnât make it. And then it hits you.
The van is gone.
Thank fucking god.
Jungwonâs hand brushes against yours, snapping you out of your thoughts. He points towards the tyre tracks leading away from the terminal, faint but unmistakable in the dirt.
âThey made it out, theyâre alive,â Jungwon murmurs, his voice low but filled with conviction. His words arenât just for youâtheyâre for himself too. A reassurance that the others are okay. That the plan worked.
Relief washes over you like a wave, but itâs quickly replaced by a new urgency. Your thoughts snap back to the weight of the bag on your shoulder, heavy with the precious medicines and supplies you risked everything to find.
âJayâs medicine,â you say, your voice breaking the silence.
Jungwon nods, already stepping forward, his rifle at the ready as his eyes sweep the path ahead. Thereâs no time to waste. Not with Jayâs life hanging on a silver thread.
âLetâs go, itâs not far now.â
The walk to the rest stop is weighed down by silence. Every step feels heavier than the last, each one dragging you further into your own thoughts. Thereâs a thousand things you want to sayâwords that linger at the back of your throat, pressing against your chestâbut you canât seem to summon the courage to speak them out loud.
You glance at Jungwon from the corner of your eye, half-expecting to catch him doing the thing. The thing where he sneaks glances at you when he has something to say but is not sure how, only to avert his gaze nervously the moment your eyes meet. But this time, thereâs none of that. His focus is locked ahead, his expression unreadable.
He has nothing to say to you.
The silence follows you like a shadow, lingering even as you catch sight of the van parked in the clearing. Relief flickers in your chest for a brief moment, but itâs quickly snuffed out when your gaze shifts to the towering barricade surrounding the rest stop.
Itâs clearly the work of some powerful force. Military-grade equipment is woven through the defences, the barb wire circling the top of the enclosure glinting under the moonlight. Wooden spikes line the perimeter like jagged teeth, making it abundantly clear that this place was never meant to welcome anyone.
Which is weird because the last time you passed through this place in search for food, it was nothing more than an open rest stop. Itâs not one of the sprawling ones youâd find further down the expressway, but itâs big enough. Big enough to refuel, grab a bite, and carry on your way.
Jungwonâs eyes narrow as he takes in the scene. His hand hovers near his rifle, fingers flexing restlessly. âLooks fortified,â he murmurs, more to himself than to you.
âToo fortified,â you mutter, your gaze following the stretch of barricades. The gas station and the attached convenience store sit within the enclosure like something out of a nightmareâa beacon of hope warped into something far more sinister.
The location is perfect. Open road for miles, no trees or buildings to block your view. If a horde approached, youâd see it long before it became a threat. Which begs the question...
Why the hell is it abandoned?
You approach the van slowly, your footsteps crunching softly against the gravel. With every step, your heart pounds louder in your chest. Half of you expects to see it empty, and when you peek inside, you find that youâre right.
âThey must be inside,â you murmur, glancing towards the barricade.
Jungwon doesnât say anything, but you can feel his tension in the way he grips his rifle tighter. Heâs thinking what you areâif theyâre inside, why is everything so quiet?
You both make your way to the gate. Itâs slightly ajar, swaying just enough to make you think itâs been left that way deliberately. You hesitate before pushing it open, and the rusty metal gives a screech that cuts through the eerie silence. The sound makes you wince, setting your teeth on edge. But nothing stirs.
You step inside cautiously, your eyes sweeping the area. The gas station looms ahead, the broken windows glinting like jagged shards of glass. The convenience store sits just beyond it, the door perfectly intact which is more than what you can say for other places youâve scavenged. Everything looks wrongâtoo clean, too still, too quiet.
Not a single living soul in sight.
You glance at Jungwon, whoâs scanning the surroundings just as intently as you are. His brow is furrowed, lips pressed into a thin line. You know what he knows, even without him telling you. In this case, it doesnât take a genius to put two and two together.
People like The Future donât abandon their posts. Not without a damn good reason.
âNo way theyâd leave a set-up like this behind.â Jungwon whispers, the words barely audible
The door to the convenience store glides smoothly as you push it open, the stale air inside rushing out to meet you. The smell of dust and old wood fills your lungs as you step inside cautiously, your eyes darting around the room. Itâs dark, but even with the dim light filtering through the cracked windows, you can see the shelves are completely gone.
In their place are makeshift beddingsâsleeping bags spread out haphazardly, blankets thrown over crates to make impromptu mattresses. There are even personal belongings scattered aroundâboots lined neatly by a corner, a few scattered pieces of clothing draped over the back of chairs.
Your stomach knots. This wasnât how the place looked the last time you were here.
Your eyes drift down to the floor, and thatâs when you see themâa cluster of bags, familiar ones. Your breath catches in your throat as you step closer. You kneel down, running your hands over the straps, the worn fabric.
These arenât just any bags. They belong to your group.
Heeseungâs patch-covered backpack. Jakeâs med kit bag. Even Sunooâs colourful duffle that Ni-ki has been begging him to cover with mud to conceal the colours.
Panic rises in your chest like a tidal wave. âNo,â you whisper under your breath, shaking your head. âNo, no, noâŠâ
You scramble to your feet, stumbling towards the back of the store. âHeeseung? Sunoo? Jake?â Your voice echoes through the empty space, growing more frantic with each name. âSunghoon? Ni-ki? Jay?â
Silence.
âWhere are they?â you mutter, spinning around, eyes darting from one shadowed corner to the next. âWhere the fuck are they?â
âY/N.â Jungwonâs voice is firm, grounding. âWeâll find them.â
But youâre already moving, your gaze locking onto something near the far wallâa door. Itâs subtle, blending almost perfectly into the wallpaper, but the peeling edges give it away. Thereâs no handle, just a faint outline of a frame.
Your heart pounds in your chest as you approach it cautiously. You glance at Jungwon, who gives a small nod, his rifle raised. With a deep breath, you press your hand to the door and push.
The door swings open easily, revealing a dimly lit room beyond. The room must be soundproof, because the moment the door opens, the noise rushes outâa mixture of hushed conversation and distant shuffling. The voices are familiar. Too familiar.
Your hand trembles as you push the door fully open, stepping inside.
The first thing you see is Jay.
Heâs sitting upright right beside the door frame, leaning against the wall, his head resting back. His shirt is still stained with blood, but you can see his torso is wrapped up with fresh bandages. His eyes flutter open when he hears the door creak, and he turns his head slowly to look at you.
âHey,â you whisper, crouching low to meet his eye, your voice cracking with emotion. âAre you okay?â
Jay gives you a weak smile, his lips twitching at the corners. He doesnât speak but you can tell heâs happy to see you two alive.
Relief crashes over you, so overwhelming that your knees nearly give out beneath you. Before you can say anything else, Jungwonâs voice pulls your attention.
âY/N,â he calls out, stepping into the room behind you. His voice holds a mix of awe and disbelief. âLook.â
You follow his gaze and finally take a good look around.
The shelvesâthe ones that had been removed from the front of the storeâare all here. Lined neatly in rows, stacked with canned goods, MREs, bottles of water, medical supplies, ammos. Enough to last an entire year or more with careful rationing. More than youâve ever seen in one place since the world ended.
âHoly shit,â you breathe out, taking a slow step forward.
Jungwon lowers his rifle, his expression unreadable as he scans the room. âTheyâve been stockpiling.â
Your fingers brush over a can of soup on one of the shelves. Itâs pristine, untouched. Like itâs been waiting here just for you.
âJungwon? Y/N?â
The voice comes from the back of the room, faint but unmistakable. Your head snaps around, your heart thumping in your chest. Itâs too dim to make out his face at first, but the familiarity of that voice cuts through the haze of exhaustion like a knife.
âJake,â Jungwon breathes, his steps quickening as he strides toward the figure emerging from the shadows.
Jake barely has time to react before Jungwon wraps him in a tight hug, the tension in his shoulders visibly easing. âFuck, man,â Jungwon mutters, his voice rough with relief. âIâm glad you lot are okay.â
Jake pats him on the back, his own relief evident in the way he sags slightly into the embrace. âWe thought something happened,â he says, pulling away. His face is tired, dark circles shadowing his eyes, but thereâs a faint smile tugging at his lips. âWe heard the gunshot. Sunghoon and Ni-ki wanted to go after you, but then the horde started coming down on us.â
He pauses, glancing over at you. âWe waited as long as we could, but Jayâs woundâŠâ Jakeâs voice trails off, his expression tightening. âWe were afraid the dead would catch the scent of his blood.â
You barely process what heâs saying. Your mind is too busy counting heads, scanning the room for the others. Theyâre safe. Theyâre alive
âYeah, we ran into a bit of trouble,â Jungwon says, glancing at you briefly before turning back to Jake. âBut good newsâwe got the antibiotics you needed.â He pulls the bag from his shoulder and opens it, revealing boxes of prescription medicine that even The Future canât get their hands on.
Jakeâs eyes widen as he takes in the haul. âShit. Damn. Donât be disappointed, Jay. Looks like youâre living another day.â His grin is infectious, a flash of humour cutting through the tension. âThat rhymes, by the way. And that too.â
Jay lets out a weak laugh from his spot on the floor. âLooks like youâre the one disappointed, Jake.â
The warmth of their banter spreads through the room, and for a brief moment, everything feels normal. The tension in your chest loosens slightly, but you know it wonât last. It feels fragile. Like a glass bubble that could shatter at any second.
âI already took the bullet out,â Jake says, pulling you from your thoughts. âThanks to the supplies stockpiled here. And thank fuck this roomâs soundproof, because he was screaming like a bloody baby.â Jake crushes a tablet into a cup of water and holds it out to Jay, who takes it with a grimace.
Your gaze drifts across the room. Itâs genuinely surreal. âWhat is this place?â you murmur, still taking it all in.
Jake shrugs. âHeaven in hell, apparently.â He gestures toward the far end of the room. âThereâs a basement too. Stocked to the brim.â
The sound of footsteps draws your attention. From the shadows, Sunoo emerges, a flashlight in hand, its beam bouncing off the walls in jagged patterns. His grin is wide, lighting up his face in a way youâve rarely seen since youâve been with this group. Heâs practically vibrating with excitement, his steps light, his voice carrying a note of relief that feels almost out of place in this grim, desolate world.
âThank god youâre both okay!â he exclaims, rushing towards you and Jungwon, his feet barely touching the ground as he moves. The rest of them follow suit, trailing beind him.
âHave you seen this place? The supplies would last us for months! And that barricade outsideâitâs miles better than the one we had before.â Sunoo exclaims.
Thatâs the thing. You have seen this place. And it wasnât like this.
Your stomach twists as dread coils in your chest. Slowly, you shake your head. âSomethingâs not right,â you murmur, more to yourself than anyone else. âWhen I came here two months ago, it wasnât like this. There were no barricades. No fortifications. It was just⊠a regular rest stop.â
Heeseung turns towards you with a frown. His brows furrow, confusion flickering across his face. âI couldâve sworn they marked this place on one of their maps back at base camp. Captain Hwang showed it to me when I got promoted in the security department.â
âMaybe it was a work-in-progress,â Jake suggests, his voice steady but thoughtful. âThey couldâve started building it but hadnât fully moved in when Y/N passed through.â
You can hear the curiosity in his voice, the way heâs already trying to rationalise what youâre saying. Itâs how they surviveâby making sense of things, by explaining away every lingering threat until it no longer feels like one.
âMaybe,â you admit reluctantly, though the unease gnawing at your gut doesnât let up. âBut itâs clearly no longer a work-in-progress. Whoever built this will come back.â
Heeseung runs his finger along one of the shelves, lifting a thick layer of grime and holding it up for everyone to see. âNo oneâs been here in a while. Those sleeping bags outside? Covered in dust. Same with these shelves.â
Dust means time. Time means abandonment. But why? Why would anyone leave behind a place fortified this well, stocked with enough supplies to last a year? Which in apocalypse standard time, it might as well be a lifetime.
Your gut twists uncomfortably. âLike Jake said, this is heaven in hell. An oasis in the desert. It just doesnât make sense, why would anyone leave all this behind? Itâs not safe to stay here. We should grab whatever we can carry and keep moving.â
The moment those words leave your mouth however, a heavy silence falls over the room, heavy and suffocating. You glance around, catching the way their faces shiftâhow exhaustion weighs down their expressions, dulling the sharp edges of fear and worry. Thatâs when it hits you.
Theyâve already made up their minds.
Theyâre tired. Tired of running. Tired of scraping by on borrowed time. Tired of surviving without truly living. And this place, with its sturdy barricades and stockpiled supplies, promises them something they havenât had in a long time.
A home.
They see this place as a refuge. A chance to finally stop running. The desire to settle down, to stop looking over their shoulders, has taken root, pulling them in like a sirenâs song. But itâs nothing but a lieâa lie that this world has dangled in front of you far too many times.
You turn to Jungwon, hopingâprayingâthat heâll say something. That heâll back you up. That heâll remind them of what you all know deep down: nothing good ever comes easy in this world.
But when your eyes meet his, your heart sinks.
Because you see it in him too. That same exhaustion. That same longing for rest. The desire to finally stop running.
You swallow hard, trying to find your voice amidst the rising panic in your chest. âJungwon, you know we canât stay,â you say, your voice quieter than youâd like.
Jungwon looks at you for a long moment, something unreadable in his expression. Thereâs a heaviness in his gaze, a weariness that mirrors your own. He knows youâre right. You can see it in the way his shoulders sag just slightly, in the way he presses his lips together like heâs trying to stop himself from agreeing.
Because places like this donât just get abandoned without a reason. The apocalypse is full of these places, scattered across the country like cursed relics of a civilisation long gone. Youâve learned the hard way that anything that looks too good to be true usually is.
But before Jungwon can say anything, Ni-ki steps forward. His expression is calm, collected, his eyes calculating as they sweep across the room. âWhoever left these supplies behind will come back,â he says, his voice steady. âBut when they do, theyâll find eight armed individuals. If we play our cards right, we could secure this place.â
Jake nods. âJay isnât fit to move. He needs rest if heâs going to fight off the infection. Weâve got medicine, sure, but if we keep running, he wonât stand a chance.â
âIâm with Ni-ki on this,â Sunoo adds. âThis place is too good to give up. It gives us a fighting chance against whateverâs out there.â
Your frustration boils over before you can stop it. âAnd what makes you think whateverâs out there wonât find a way in here?â you snap, your voice sharper than you intended. The room falls silent again, the tension thick enough to cut with a knife.
Ni-kiâs glare cuts through the stillness like ice. His jaw tightens, his arms crossing over his chest. âYouâre the one who led us here,â he says, his voice low and biting. âAnd now you want us to leave all this behind?â
The guilt hits you like a punch to the gut, knocking the wind out of you. Heâs right. You did lead them here. Just like you led them into every bit of danger that almost cost them their lives; the motel, the village, the bus terminalâand now, here. Every risk, every dangerâit all ties back to you. And now theyâre looking at you like youâve betrayed them.
âI didnât bring you here to settle,â you say quietly, the weight of your own words pressing down on your chest. âI brought you here to survive.â
Ni-ki doesnât waver. His voice remains steady, calm. âWe will survive. We can survive here. We donât need to keep running.â
And thatâs when you realise.
Theyâve already stopped running.
Your chest tightens as Ni-kiâs words settle over the group like a final verdict. The exhaustion, the constant fearâitâs worn them down to the point where even the slightest hope of stability feels like salvation.
And who could blame them? Youâve all been running for so long, barely surviving. This place offers a lifeline, however fragile it may be.
But it doesnât feel right.
It canât be right.
Jungwon hasnât spoken since you addressed him directly, his eyes fixed on a spot on the floor like heâs trying to piece together a puzzle with missing pieces. You watch him carefully, hoping for that flicker of leadership youâve come to depend on, the clarity he always brings in moments of uncertainty. But itâs not there. Instead, thereâs a weariness that drags him down like chains around his ankles.
âYouâre right,â he says finally, his voice barely above a whisper. It catches you off guard, making your heart skip a beat.
âWeâve been running for too long.â
Your stomach twists. No. Heâs giving in.
âButââ he adds, glancing up to meet your gaze. âWeâre not settling blindly. We donât know why this place was abandoned, and we canât afford to assume itâs safe. We secure it. We prepare for the worst.â
Thereâs a collective exhale from the group, the tension easing slightly. Ni-ki nods in agreement. âWe fortify the barricade. Set up traps, expand our perimeter. If anyone comes back, theyâll regret it.â
âIâll keep an eye on Jay. Heâs stable for now, but he needs proper rest.â Jake says, wiping his hands on his jeans as he rises from where he was crouching beside Jay.
Sunoo chimes in next, his voice lighter than before. âIâll start taking stock of the supplies. We need to ration carefully if weâre staying.â
Everyone seems to fall into place, tasks assigned and agreed upon with a silent understanding. But you remain still, your hands clenched at your sides, heart pounding in your chest.
âJungwon.â You call his name softly, pulling him aside as the others begin to disperse.
He follows you out of the room without question, the two of you stepping into the cool night air outside the barricade. The wind carries the faint scent of petrol and dust, mingling with the metallic tang of lingering fear.
Jungwonâs gaze is locked on the barricade, his rifle hanging loosely in his grip. You watch him for a long moment, the tension in his shoulders, the way his fingers twitch slightly. Thereâs exhaustion in the way he stands, a bone-deep weariness that makes your chest ache. And itâs more than just physical fatigue. You see it in the way his jaw clenches, in the void behind his eyes.
âYou know this is a mistake,â you say, your voice trembling slightly. âYou know better than anyone that places like this donât stay safe.â
Jungwon sighs, running a hand through his hair. âI know. I know itâs a risk.â
âThen why are you letting them believe itâs safe?â
He looks at you for a long moment, something vulnerable flickering in his eyes. âBecause they need it. We need it.â
You shake your head, frustration bubbling over. âAnd what happens when whoever built this place comes back? When theyâre more armed, more prepared than we are?â
âWeâll handle it,â he says firmly.
âJungwonââ
âI canât keep running.â
You blink, taken aback by the vulnerability in his tone. Youâve seen him tired, stressed, angryâbut this is different. Heâs crumbling under pressure.
âI canât keep dragging them from place to place, always looking over my shoulder,â he continues, voice cracking slightly. âIâm tired, Y/N. We all are. This might not be the perfect solution, but itâs what we have right now.â
The words settle between you like a stone sinking to the bottom of a river. Theyâre heavy, filled with truths you know too well. But another weightâone youâve been carrying since the villageâpresses down on you harder.
âYou hate me, donât you?â Your voice comes out quieter than you expect, almost swallowed by the night air. Itâs not really a question. More of a statement.
Jungwonâs brow furrows as he glances at you. âI donât.â
âYou regret letting me come along,â you press, the words spilling out before you can stop them. âIâve done nothing but put you all through hell since you let me in.â
âY/Nââ
âNo, listen.â You take a breath, forcing yourself to keep going. âNi-ki doesnât have to say it, but I know he thinks Iâve got no clue what Iâm doing most of the time. And heâs right! Half the time, Iâm winging it.â
âY/N.â
âAnd youââ Your voice trembles as you continue. âYou keep risking your life to protect me, and I donât even know why. I shouldâve just let that zombie bite me in the auto shop. I was supposed to go down with the city that day. Hell, I shouldâve taken that bullet. Iââ
âY/N!â Jungwonâs voice cuts through your rambling like a knife, sharp and commanding. He steps closer, turning to face you fully. His eyes bore into yours, intense and unwavering.
It silences you instantly.
âStop,â he says quietly, almost pleading. âStop doing this to yourself.â
You open your mouth to argue, but he shakes his head, cutting you off.
âNi-kiâs just frustrated. He doesnât think that about you. And you canât put us through hell if weâre already living in it.â His voice softens further, exhaustion creeping into his words. âI donât regret making the decision to keep you. Jay would never forgive himself if something happened to you. And I donât hate you.â
Thereâs a pause, and then he adds, so quietly you almost miss it, âI hate myself. For letting the world get to me.â
His words hit you like a punch to the gut, knocking the wind out of you. For a moment, you canât think of anything to say. Youâve never seen him this vulnerable, this open. Itâs both unsettling and grounding, and you feel the cracks in your own walls widening.
âNo.â You shake your head slowly, your voice trembling. âYou hate me for driving you this way. Itâs not the world. The world doesnât have anything on you.â
Jungwon tilts his head slightly, his lips twitching into the faintest hint of a smirk. âAnd you think you have the power to influence me in ways the world canât?â
You let out a shaky laugh, though thereâs no humour in it. âNo. But I think you look at me like I could be someone who can finally lift the burden of leadership off your shoulders. You trust my calls. You listen to my opinions. And what I said back at the field, about justice and revengeâyou werenât just listening. You were thinking.â
He doesnât deny it. His gaze flickers, but he stays quiet, letting you speak.
âThinking about how maybe I might have a point,â you continue. âThinking about how you might have been approaching the world the wrong way. But thatâs the thingâI donât want you to think. To second-guess what youâve always believed in just to weigh mine in.â
Your voice falters slightly, but you push on. âI donât want you to change. You donât owe me or the world anything. Fuck the world. To hell with it.â
Jungwon lets out a soft laugh, shaking his head. âYouâre cute when youâre hating the world. As ironic as that is.â
The comment catches you off guard. Cute? Your brows furrow in confusion as your mind scrambles to process his words. How can he crack a joke right now?
But thereâs something about the way he says itâthe way his lips twitch into the faintest smile, the way his eyes soften just a little. Heâs trying to lighten the moment, to ease the tension that hangs between you like a noose.
And it works. Sort of.
âI donât want to hate the world,â you murmur, your gaze locking onto his. Your voice is softer now, raw. âAfter all, it has all of you in it.â
Jungwonâs expression shifts, his playful smirk fading into something more serious. His gaze lingers on you, studying your face like heâs searching for something he canât quite name.
âItâs not just about what you said. If thatâs what youâre wondering.â His voice drops lower, almost a whisper. âI felt itâthe blinding rage for justice⊠or revenge.â
Your heart stutters in your chest as you turn to him fully, waiting for him to continue.
âWhen he had you in that chokehold,â he says, his jaw tightening at the memory, âmy mind switched off. I wasnât even thinking. All I knew was that I couldnât let you die. I picked up that rifle and pulled the trigger without a second thought. And when JayâŠâ â
His voice cracks, the name catching in his throat. He stops, closing his eyes briefly to steady himself before speaking again. âWhen Jay took that bullet for you, I lost it. I completely lost it. Thatâs when I started thinking about what you said.â
âAnd youâre right,â he continues, voice quieter now. âIf either of you had died right there and then, I wouldâve done worse than just give him a quick death.â
You blink rapidly, struggling to process his words. The sheer depth of his emotions is overwhelming, leaving your mind scrambling for a response.
What Jungwon is saying is valid. You know that deep down. You wouldâve done thingsâunimaginable, unspeakable thingsâif Jay, Jungwon, or anyone else had died. You wouldâve burned the world down, torn apart every last remnant of civilisation if it meant protecting them.
But thatâs what makes this even harder to hear. Because it also means Jungwon truly, deeply cares for you. The same way you truly, deeply care for them.
And that wasnât part of your plan.
Noticing your loss for words, Jungwon seizes the moment to press on, his tone quieter, more reflective. âAnd youâre also right⊠I donât like the fact that their lives are practically in my hands. Itâs suffocating.â
He pauses, running a hand through his hair, tugging at the strands in frustration. âBut when you came along⊠I felt a weight lift off my shoulders. You know how to make the hard calls, the split-second decisions that mean life or death. And all Iâve been doing is leading this group away from those problems. Trying to avoid them. Making decisions in their stead so they donât have to. Hoping theyâll never have to face it.â
âWell, itâs not exactly a good problem to have,â you shake your head, a soft sigh escaping your lips.
Jungwon huffs out a dry laugh, one that barely passes for amusement. âNo, itâs not.â He pauses, rubbing a hand over his face, exhaustion evident in every movement.
âJungwon,â you say softly, your voice careful. He doesnât look at you immediately, so you step closer, catching his gaze. âYouâre not sheltering them the way you think you are.â
That gets his attention. His brows furrow slightly, confusion flickering in his eyes. âWhat?â
âThese people arenât following you because youâre their leader,â you continue, your tone gentle but firm. âTheyâre following you because youâre you. They trust you, even if it costs them everything.â
âAnd youâve done a phenomenal job keeping them alive, better than most wouldâ you add, your voice softening. Jungwon stays quiet, his gaze flicking to the ground, as if heâs trying to process your words. You can tell heâs not used to hearing thisâcompliments donât seem like something he knows how to take.
He exhales sharply, a sound caught between frustration and exhaustion, his shoulders slumping as if the weight heâs been carrying has suddenly doubled.
âI never asked to lead,â he murmurs, the words heavy with quiet resentment.
âBut thatâs the thing about responsibility, isnât it? You donât get to pick and choose when it falls on you.â you say.
For a moment, he just stands there, his lips pressed into a thin line. You can see the conflict playing out in his expressionâthe part of him that wants to argue, to deny what youâre saying, because he doesnât believe it himself. But thereâs another partâa quieter, more vulnerable partâthat knows youâre right. That knows heâs been carrying this burden far longer than anyone should have to.
âJungwon,â you whisper, stepping closer. âThis place⊠it feels wrong, and you know it. They trust you. If you tell them to leave, theyâll listen. Theyâll pack up andââ
âThis place,â he interrupts, his tone deliberate and resolute, cutting through your words like a blade. âItâs hope. Something that these people need now more than anything. And if they think itâs worth fighting for, it is.â
His voice carries the finality of someone whoâs already made up his mind. You donât miss the way his gaze hardens, the way his jaw tightens as he speaks. He doesnât say it outright, but you can tell heâs not just talking about the others.
This place is hope for him too.
Itâs all they have left now, after everything else has crumbledâtheir faith, their humanity, their belief in something better. And now that their previous hope of holding on to what made them human has shatteredâby the likes of youâtheyâre desperate. Clinging to anything that might give their lives meaning.
And once hope takes root, thereâs nothing you can do to convince him otherwise. Jungwon has already decided that this is where theyâll make their stand, no matter how dangerous it might be.
And if Jungwon isnât leaving, none of them will.
Theyâll stay. Theyâll fight. And theyâll fall right into the trap of whoever left it here. And the worst part?
Theyâll do it willingly.
For hope. For him.
You glance at Jungwon again, noticing the way his eyes drift toward the barricade behind you, scanning the treeline and the roads as if heâs mapping out every possible threat in his head. Even in a rare moment of rest, heâs on guard. Always looking out for them. Always protecting. Always leading.
And in this moment, a realisation settles heavily in your chestâyou donât actually know him the way you think you do.
Because unlike Jungwon, youâve never had to carry the weight of leading people. Youâve never had to shoulder the responsibility of keeping them alive, day after day. Youâve never had to watch people you care about die because of decisions you made.
You wouldnât even count the people back at the community building among the people you care about. Sure, youâd shared meals, traded supplies, and worked together to keep the place standing. But at the end of the day, thatâs all it wasâa band of survivors benefiting from each otherâs abilities. A mutual arrangement, nothing more.
When it really comes down to it, you wouldnât take a bullet for any of them. Not the way Jungwon would. Not the way youâve seen him doâstanding between danger and his people, no hesitation, no second-guessing.
And in that sense, you and Jungwon are different.
Where he sees people worth saving, you see liabilities. Where he sees hope, you see a death trap waiting to happen. Where he takes on the burden of leadership, youâve kept your distance, never letting yourself get too close. Never letting yourself care too much.
You tell yourself itâs because caring makes you vulnerable. But deep down, you know itâs because youâre afraidâafraid of the weight Jungwon carries every day. Afraid you wouldnât be able to bear it.
And youâd be right, because you see the toll itâs taken on him written all over his face. The haunted look in his eyes, the tension in his posture, the weariness in his voice. Itâs all there. And itâs breaking him, piece by piece.
âI donât want to see you lose yourself,â you say softly, your words hanging in the air between you.
Jungwon sighs, his shoulders relaxing just slightly. His voice lowers, as if speaking any louder would make him crumble. âIâm not losing myself. And I wonât let the group lose themselves either.â He pauses, his gaze meeting yours with quiet intensity. âThatâs why youâre here. You keep me grounded.â
You scoff quietly, shaking your head. âIâm not exactly the best moral compass.â
âYou are for me,â he says simply.
The honesty in his words makes your breath catch in your throat. Itâs raw. Unfiltered. And it terrifies you.
âI hope youâd stop looking at me like I could solve all your problems. I could never replace you. Even if you wanted me to,â you say, your voice wavering slightly before you swallow hard, trying to steady yourself. You glance at Jungwon, searching his expression for any sign that he might push back, but heâs listeningâsilent, thoughtful, waiting.
âBut what you can do,â you continue, softer this time, âis share the burden. Share it with the people whoâll gladly bear it with you. Heeseung, Jay, Jake, Sunghoon, Sunoo, Ni-ki⊠they're not helpless, you know? And I know for one that theyâll follow you anywhere.â
His gaze shifts ever so slightly, something flickering in his eyes at the mention of their names. A hint of guilt, maybe. Or perhaps a deep-rooted fear that heâs failed them somehow, that heâs not enough.
He looks at you then, really looks at you, eyes searching yours. And his next words hit harder than youâre prepared for.
âWill you?â
Your chest tightens, and for a second, you hesitate. But before you can stop yourself, the word slips out.
âYeah.â
The lie falls from your lips so easily, it surprises even you.
Jungwonâs expression softens, relief flickering in his eyes. He nods once, quietly accepting your answer. But as soon as the word is out, regret crashes over you like a wave, cold and unrelenting. Because you know the truth.
Youâre not going to stay.
Youâre not going to help him carry that burden.
Youâre going to run.
And Jungwon doesnât know it yet, but when you leaveâwhen you inevitably abandon themâheâll have to pick up that burden all over again.
And somehow, you know that will hurt more than anything the world could throw at him.
part 3 - whispers | masterlist | part 5 - people
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notes from nat: happy lunar new year to all celebrating! this is actually the last part i have in drafts... meaning i have to race against time to get the next part written and ready by next week... don't hold me to that though. i'll try my best 𫥠and shoutout to @youcancometome for guessing the title of this part right!!!
Navigating one year post-apocalypse, when the dead began to walk and the living proved to be no better, you decide that trust is a luxury you can no longer afford. But after a run-in with a group of seven peculiar survivors, you learn that there are bigger problems than just the undead roaming the streets. You also start to wonder if thereâs more to survival than simply staying alive.
warnings: depictions of graphic violence, blood, death, and loss, horror themes, descriptions of gore, killing, weaponry use, survivor guilt, trauma bonding, morally gray characters/ideologies, and basically anything and everything that comes with a zombie apocalypse. readers' discretion is advised. please click out if you have a weak heart, I MEAN IT.
disclaimer: this is a work of pure fiction. If any context is similar to any other stories, it's either inspired (in which credit will be given) or just a coincidence. the characters' personalities, words, actions and thoughts do not represent them in real life. any resemblance to any real life events or person, present or past, are purely coincidental. i apologise in advance for any spelling or grammar mistakes.
notes from nat: some plot points and zombies are inspired by the walking dead franchise. also inspired by safe & soundâmother swift's soundtrack for the hunger games. actually lowkey want to kms for writing this.
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Navigating one year post-apocalypse, when the dead began to walk and the living proved to be no better, you decide that trust is a luxury you can no longer afford. But after a run-in with a group of seven peculiar survivors, you learn that there are bigger problems than just the undead roaming the streets. You also start to wonder if thereâs more to survival than simply staying alive.
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MASTERLIST
Rotten.
The can of tuna youâve risked your life to retrieve from the mart in the next neighbourhood is rotten. Just like everything else roaming the streets.
The smell hits you first, sharp and metallic, curling through the air like a mocking laugh. Itâs only when you peer into the greyish sludge that you know for sure. Gagging, you launch the can across the dimly lit room. The clang as it hits the wall feels louder than it should, echoing against the hollow silence. A greasy smear marks its path before it rolls to a stop.
Your stomach tightens, but not from hungerânot entirely. Itâs exhaustion, or frustration, or both, a familiar cocktail of feelings that churns in your gut. You press a hand to your stomach, willing it to stay quiet. The small victories matter now, even if theyâre as simple as keeping quiet.
âFigures,â you mutter, wiping your hands on the knees of your tattered jeans. The word feels heavy in the thick silence of the abandoned community building youâve been calling homeâa makeshift fortress thatâs only just kept you alive for the past year.
The windows are boarded up with planks you scavenged from nearby wreckage, letting in only the faintest cracks of moonlight, casting fractured shadows on the walls. The small corner where you sleep is enclosed by a barricade of furniture you've managed to tie together with ropes and scraps of cloth youâve gathered. Itâs not perfect, but itâs held so far.
Outside, the telltale groans of the undead float through the night air, mingling with the distant sound of screams and breaking glass. Youâve learned to tune it out, to pretend that the world hasnât fallen apart.
But every so often, when the noises grow too close or too many, the illusion shatters, leaving behind a pit of fear in your stomach that no amount of fortification can fill.
You lean back, letting your head hit the wall. The cracks in the paint catch against the rough weave of your jacket, the sound gritty and small. Your mind drifts back to that fateful day, the day everything went to shit.
Youâd only been living in Seoul for a month, you were barely unpacked, just starting to memorise the labyrinth of subway lines, the shortcuts to your university. University acceptance had felt like the first step towards something bigger, something brighter. You can still see your parentsâ faces, lit with pride, when you shared the news. Getting into a university in Seoulâitâs like gaining instant bragging rights for life.
Except now, none of it matters. Those things out there couldnât care less about your alma mater, whether youâre earning a six-figure salary or pulled from the gutter. To them, youâre just another meal on legsâflesh, blood, and bone all blending into the same, mindless craving.
Youâd always thought youâd know what to do in a zombie apocalypse. Every movie and survival guide said the same thing:
Avoid the cities. Get out fast.
So when the news started to break, you didnât hesitate. You grabbed a bagâessentials onlyâand set out, determined to make it back to your parents in the province. You didnât even pause to think about how impossible it might be.
But the city had other plans. You hadnât even made it ten blocks before the streets were overrun. A tide of chaos, of screams and shoving bodiesâalive and notâforced you off course.
The community building was a last-ditch refuge, its doors flung open to anyone desperate enough to run for them. Youâd barely made it inside before the barricades went up. It wasnât the plan, but then again, nothing about survival ever is.
At first, it felt like a haven. There were enough supplies to keep everyone fedâif barely. Dozens of survivors shared the space, most of them too old or too scared to leave. The rations were thin, one meal a day if you were lucky, but it was enough.
You and a handful of the younger survivors took turns venturing out, gathering what you could from nearby shops and houses. It wasnât much, but it worked.
For a time.
When the convenience store was stripped bare, you moved to the supermarket. When that was picked clean, you ventured further. Each trip took you deeper into danger, the risk growing with every step. Supplies dwindled. The fear grew sharper, harder to ignore.
People started to dieâsome to the undead, others to hunger, and still others to the kind of cruelty that only surfaces when survival is on the line.
You learned quickly that it wasnât just the zombies you had to fear. Youâve seen it firsthand: the way desperation changes people.
At first, it was small thingsâarguments over ration sizes, whispers of distrust. But then the small petty arguments turned into fights, and fights turned into bloodshed.
One by one, people either left to take their chances elsewhere or fell victim to the chaos within. A high school student, he had barely turned eighteen, stabbed a man over a tin of peaches. A woman abandoned her own mother to save herself when the barricade was breached.
Survival strips away more than fleshâit strips away the pretence of civility, leaving only the raw, animalistic instinct to endure at any cost. Itâs not just the undead that keep you awake at nightâitâs the memory of what people are capable of becoming.
So when the barricade failed during a particularly viscous storm and youâd barely escaped with your life, you dragged what little you could salvage to this corner of the building, patching up the holes as best as possible. Alone, because it was safer that way.
Now, alone in the faint light of your makeshift fortress, the weight of it all presses down on you. The loneliness, the hunger, the constant, gnawing terrorâitâs all too much. But you shove it aside, because thereâs no room for weakness here.
Weakness gets you killed.
Your stomach growls again, insistent, and you grit your teeth. Youâll have to go out again soon. The thought sends a chill through you, but thereâs no other choice. Survival doesnât wait for fear to subside.
Taking a deep breath, you stand and reach for your weaponâa rusted crowbar thatâs seen more use than youâd like to admit. Tomorrow, youâll go out again, search for food, risk whatâs left of your life to keep it from ending.
For now, you sit in the dark and listen. To the groans. To the screams. To the sound of your own ragged breathing. And try not to dream.
A loud thunk from below jolts you awake, not that you were fully unconscious in the first place. Your entire body goes rigid as you strain to listen. Another thunk. Then a scrape, like something heavy being dragged across the ground floor. Your mind racesâit could be the wind, or maybe another scavenger. Or it could be them.
Your grip on the crowbar tightens as you slowly push yourself off the floor. You tiptoe toward the staircase leading down to the lobby. The wooden stairs creak under your weight as you inch down them, and you wince at each sound. They might as well be gunshots in the stillness.
Sweat beads on your forehead as you reach the landing and peer into the dark hallway beyond. Shadows shift and flicker in the faint moonlight filtering through cracks in the boarded-up windows.
The dragging sound comes again, closer this time, and your grip tightens until the ridged metal of the crowbar bites into your skin. Then, a growl echoes from the darkness. Low. Guttural. Not human.
You back up instinctively, your heart pounding in your chest like a drum. Your foot catches on a loose piece of debris, and you stumble, barely catching yourself on the railing. The noise you make is small but loud enough to stir the growling into a frenzy. The shuffling grows faster, more erratic.
Theyâre coming.
âShit,â you hiss under your breath, scrambling back up the stairs. Youâve rehearsed this scenario a hundred times in your head. Go to the second floor. Block the stairwell. Wait it out. Itâs worked before, but something tells you this time is different. Thereâs too much noise, too many of them. And youâre already running low on supplies.
By the time you reach the top of the stairs, the first figure emerges into the faint light below. Its flesh hangs from its bones in sickly, yellowed strips. Empty eye sockets seem to bore into you as it lets out a chilling moan. Behind it, more shadows lurch into view, a grotesque parade of decay and hunger.
Youâre out of time.
Slamming the door to the stairwell shut, you shove a heavy desk against it and wedge the crowbar beneath the handle for good measure. The door shudders almost immediately under the weight of their assault, the moans and growls growing louder with each passing second. You back away, your mind racing for an escape route.
Your eyes dart to the boarded-up windows. Itâs a long drop, but thereâs a fire escape just a few feet out of reach. If you can break through the boards and make the jump, you might stand a chance. Itâs a gamble, but so is staying here
And if youâre being honest, youâd rather plunge to your death than be torn apart limb by limb.
Grabbing a chair, you smash it against the nearest window. The wood splinters and cracks, but it holds firm. Behind you, the door creaks ominously as the barricade begins to give way. Desperation fuels your next swing, and the boards finally snap, leaving a jagged hole just big enough to climb through.
You donât thinkâyou just act, hauling yourself up and out onto the narrow ledge outside. The cold night air hits your face, a stark contrast to the suffocating atmosphere inside. Below, the fire escape beckons. You take a deep breath, brace yourself, and leap.
For a moment, youâre weightless. Then your hands slam into the metal railing, and you scramble to pull yourself up. Your palms sting, and your muscles scream in protest, but you donât let go. Not when survival is so close.
Behind you, the door finally gives way. The sound of splintering wood and the enraged cries of the undead spur you into action. You donât look back as you climb down the fire escape, each step taking you further from the nightmare above, and closer to the nightmare below.
When your feet finally hit the ground, you allow yourself a moment to breathe. But itâs short-lived. The streets are no safer than the building you just escaped. Shadows move in the distance, and the faint echo of shuffling feet reminds you that youâre never truly alone.
With nothing but the clothes on your back, you start to run. You donât know where youâre goingâonly that you canât stop. Your legs burn, your lungs ache, but you keep moving, fuelled by a singular, desperate thought: keep going. Always keep going. Because if you stop, even for a moment, itâll all be over.
The groans follow you, relentless and hungry. You donât dare look back. Instead, you focus on the narrow alleyways and shadowed streets ahead, praying you donât make a wrong turn.
You finally spot a buildingâan auto store with its doors hanging slightly ajar. Without thinking, you rush inside, slamming the door shut behind you. Your hands fumble for somethingâanythingâto block it, and you grab a rusted toolbox, wedging it against the frame. It feels pathetic, barely a barrier, but you convince yourself itâs better than nothing.
Your breaths come fast and shallow as you scan the room. Rows of dusty shelves cluttered with tools and car parts stretch before you, their contents untouched for what feels like decades. The air is stale and heavy, carrying the faint tang of motor oil. For a fleeting moment, the oppressive noise of the streets is muffled, and you almost feel safe.
But the reprieve is short-lived.
Voices. Human voices. Low, urgent, and drawing closer.
Your stomach twists as panic sets in, sharp and paralysing. You reach for a loose screwdriver on the floor and dart behind a shelf, crouching low. Dust clings to your clothes as you press yourself against the cold metal, willing yourself to disappear.
The door creaks open, and the toolbox scrapes uselessly across the floor. You curse silently under your breath. What a waste of effort.
Boots scuff against the ground as they enter. Voicesâmale voicesâfilter through the stale air, rough and laced with tension. âThat was close, fuck.â one mutters, his voice shaking. You can hear him catching his breath, the fear in his tone unmistakable.
Looks like you werenât the only one running from the horde that came out of nowhere.
âWhat the hell is The Future doing in the city?â another snaps, frustration cutting through the hushed atmosphere.
The Future...?
"They're looking for us, what else?" a third man grunts, his voice deep and gravelly.
"Talk about obsessive,â a fourth says, anger simmering beneath. âWe escaped more than six months ago. How are they still trying to track us down?"
âThat community⊠theyâre worse than the dead. Iâd rather take my chances out here than go back there.â Five.
âYou donât get it. Theyâll hunt us down. They always do,â Six.
"I mean⊠We stole almost six monthsâ worth of supplies. And a van. I'd hunt us too." This one is a little cheeky. Seven.
"Shut the fuck up,â the gravelly voice growls. âYou think this is funny?â
Your mind races. A community hunting them? Youâve heard of survivors forming groups. Hell, you were part of one. But this⊠this sounds different. Darker.
You press yourself closer to the shelf, your gip on the screwdriver so tight your fingers cramp. Seven men, at leastâthatâs how many voices you can count. Could you take them? Absolutely not.
For now, the only option is to stay hidden. You force yourself to breathe slowly, silently, and focus on their words, desperate for answers. Whatever these men are running from, you need to know if itâs worse than whatâs already out thereâor if itâs heading straight for you.
Just then, a faint groan slices through the oppressive silence, this one agonisingly close. Your head snaps around, heart thundering against your ribs like a trapped bird.
Right there, not more than a foot away and obscured beneath a grimy sheet of cardboard, something stirs. The groan rises in pitch, raw and guttural, as the cardboard shifts, revealing a face ravaged by decay. Skin, or whatâs left of it, clings to its skull in uneven patches, and its milky, dead eyes lock onto yours with an almost sentient hunger.
You freeze, the breath hitching in your chest as time seems to slow. The stench of rot floods your senses, almost choking you, and a cold sweat slicks your skin.
Before you can react, the creature lurches, its skeletal hand shooting out with horrifying speed. Filthy, jagged nails scrape against your leg, finding purchase in the fabric of your jeans and digging into the flesh beneath.
A piercing shriek tears from your throatâraw, primal, and louder than you intend. The sound ricochets off the walls, each echo feeding the panic clawing at your mind.
Desperation surges like a tidal wave, drowning out coherent thought. You kick wildly, your boot connecting with the thingâs chest, but its grip is unyielding. The screwdriver slips in your sweat-slicked palm as you fumble to raise it, your muscles trembling with adrenaline-fuelled terror. Its grip tightens, nails biting deeper, and for a moment, the sickening thought flashes through your mind: Youâre not getting out of this.
But then instinct takes over. With a desperate cry, you swing the screwdriver down, the metal driving into its skull in a sickening crunch. the sound reverberating through the stillness like a death knell.
The zombie spasms, its hand loosening slightly, but not enough.
Your vision narrows, fury and survival instinct blending into a single, overpowering force. You strike again, and again, each impact a visceral symphony of shattering bone and yielding flesh. The stench grows worse, cloying and metallic, as blood splatters your hands and face.
Finally, the creature goes still, collapsing into a lifeless heap at your feet. Your chest heaves as you stagger back, the screwdriver slipping from your trembling fingers to clatter against the floor. The silence that follows is deafening, broken only by the rasp of your own ragged breaths.
"Fuck," you whisper, the word barely audible over the pounding of your heart. Your gaze drifts down to the bloodied mess staining the floor, bile rising in your throat. You swallow hard, forcing it down. Thereâs no time for weaknessânot now, not ever.
When you finally look up, your stomach twists into knots. Seven figures stand over you, their faces obscured by shadow but their postures unmistakably tense.
One of them steps closer, the metallic glint of a pistol catching the dim light. Your breath hitches as the cold barrel presses against your temple, its unforgiving weight a reminder of how precarious your situation has just become.
"Who the hell are you?" One of them growls, his voice low and dangerous. The question hangs in the air, heavy with unspoken threats, as you stare back at him, your mind scrambling for a response that might just keep you alive.
You swallow hard, your mouth dry as sandpaper. âJust⊠just a survivor,â you stammer, your voice barely a whisper. The cold barrel against your temple makes your skin crawl, but you force yourself to meet his gaze. Your heart pounds so loudly, youâre sure they can all hear it. âI didnât know youâd be here. Iâll leave. Please.â
"Drop the act," another voice cuts in, this one sharp and impatient. "The speaker steps closer, his silhouette lean and wiry, eyes narrowed. âYou think weâre stupid? Youâve been listening in.â
âWhat should we do with her?â someone else pipes up from the shadows. His tone is casual, but the words make your stomach drop. âShe could be one of them.â
âIâm not!â you blurt, your words tumbling out in a rush. âI swear, I donât even know who youâre talking about! I just ran in here to hide!â
The gunman doesnât lower his weapon, his piercing gaze locked onto yours. The air is thick, suffocating, as he scans your face, searching for any hint of deceit. The silence stretches unbearably until someone else breaks it.
âThereâs seven of us, and sheâs a girl.â one points out, this one almost amused. His tone is light, but his eyes glint with curiosity. âNot exactly the kind The Future kept around. Didnât they kill most of their women? Called them weak or some shit.â
"Doesnât mean sheâs not a threat," the gunman mutters, but the tension in his stance eases slightly. The barrel wavers, though it remains trained on you. "Start talking. What are you doing here?"
You take a shuddering breath, trying to steady your racing thoughts. "I was running from a horde," you say, jerking your head vaguely toward the door. Your voice is steadier now, but your trembling hands betray your fear.
âWhereâs the rest of your group?â he asks, his tone laced with suspicion. âHow many of you are there?â
âThereâs no group,â you reply quickly, shaking your head. âItâs just me. Iâve been on my own for months.â
"On your own?" A man near the back crosses his arms, his posture sceptical. "Thatâs a load of bullshit. Nobody lasts this long alone." His blonde hair gleams faintly in the dim light, a beacon that would make him laughably easy to track in broad daylight. You wonder how someone so conspicuous has managed to survive this long, especially when theyâre clearly being hunted.
"Iâm telling the truth," you insist, your voice firm despite the quiver in your hands. âIâve got nothing to hide. My place got overrun. I just needed somewhere to hide.â
âWhat place?â the blonde man carefully makes his way in front, crouching slightly, levelling his gaze with yours. The question hangs heavy, and you know your answer could mean the difference between life and death.
âA community building,â you answer, your voice quieter now. âItâs just down the street. I can show you if you donât believe me.â
âShow us?â Another man scoffs. âYou said it was overrun? Why the hell would we follow you to a place thatâs crawling with them? Are you stupid?â
You bite back a retort, your frustration simmering beneath the surface. âIâm not lying,â you say, your voice sharper than before. âLook, I didnât survive this long just to let a bunch of men decide whether to shoot me in my fucking head for being in the wrong place at the wrong bloody time.â
The man with the blonde hair tilts his head, studying you like a puzzle he canât quite solve. Then he speaks again, his tone quiet but firm. âCan we trust you?â
You donât answer right away. Instead, you hold his gaze, unflinching, and nod once. Slowly, deliberately. For a moment, no one speaks. You can feel the weight of their stares, assessing, calculating.
Finally, a simple, subtle raise of the blondeâs hand is all it takes for the gunman to lower his pistol. The others, though still wary, seem to follow his lead. Relief washes over you, but you keep your face neutral, refusing to show weakness.
âI hope you know what youâre doing, Jungwon.â
His name is Jungwon. It strikes you as a strangely gentle nameâgardenâyet nothing about him feels soft.
"If youâre lying," Jungwon warns, his tone like steel, "you wonât get a second chance." It doesnât take long for you to realiseâheâs the leader.
âI understand,â you reply, your throat tight. The words feel hollow, but theyâre all you can offer.
"Whatâs your name?" one of them asks, his voice brighter but no less wary.
"Y/N," you reply. "And you?"
He hesitates before giving you a small, guarded smile. âSunoo. And donât get any funny ideas. Weâre a small group, but we bite.â
The faint attempt at levity doesnât go unnoticed, but it does little to ease the knot in your stomach. You nod again, glancing at the others. Their eyes still linger on you, like predators sizing up prey.
âYou said thereâs a horde,â Jungwon says, cutting through the moment. His tone is all business now. âWhereâs it coming from?â
âSouth,â you say, your voice steady but curious. âWait, werenât you lot running from it too?â Your eyebrow arches as you ask, testing the waters.
âDonât ask too many questions, or I might just kill you,â the same man who held the pistol to your head snaps, his tone as sharp as the glare he fixes on you. Tough one, you think grimly. Definitely not the friendly type.
âHow big is itâthe horde?â he demands, his words clipped and impatient. His posture is rigid, his eyes narrowing as though heâs daring you to lie.
âBig enough,â you answer grimly, your voice heavy with the weight of whatâs chasing you. The memory of the mass of undead flashes in your mindâtheir grotesque forms, the relentless moans. You push it aside, forcing yourself to focus. âTheyâre close. If we stay here much longer, theyâll find us.â
Jungwon doesnât hesitate. âThen we move,â he declares, his voice calm but firm, leaving no room for debate. Itâs a tone youâve heard before in those whoâve seen too much, those who lead because no one else will. âGrab your things. We leave in five.â
You swallow hard, scanning their faces. Theyâre already moving, collecting bags and makeshift weapons, their movements practised and efficient. You take a breath, forcing your hands to stop shaking.
âThereâs a motel north-east from here, just off the hordeâs course.â you say, stepping forward slightly, trying to sound confident. âI cleared it out once when I couldnât get back to the community building. I can take you there, wait for the horde to pass, and then Iâll be on my way.â
The moment the words leave your mouth, you feel the tension in the room shift. The air grows heavier, colder.
Jungwonâs sharp gaze locks onto yours, his expression unreadable, but itâs not him who speaks. The man with the sharp tongueâthe one who held a pistol to your head earlierâlets out a humourless laugh. âWho said anything about letting you go?â he says, his voice dripping with malice, as though your suggestion was the most absurd thing heâd ever heard.
The silence that follows his words feels suffocating, heavier than the looming threat of the undead outside. You try to keep your expression neutral, but the knot in your stomach tightens with each passing second. Your eyes flick to Jungwon, hoping for some sort of reprieve, but his face remains impassive, impossible to read.
âIâm not looking for trouble,â you say carefully, your voice steady despite the tremor in your hands. âIâve survived this long on my own. I donât need your help, and I donât want to be in your way.â
The gunman scoffs, the corner of his mouth curling in disdain. âBold words for someone who had a gun to their head five minutes ago.â
âEnough,â Jungwon cuts in, his voice slicing through the tension like a knife. The others fall silent, though their postures remain taut, their eyes still fixed on you. He steps forward, his movements slow and deliberate, as if gauging your reaction with every step.
âWe donât know you,â he says, his voice measured but carrying an edge of steel. âYou could be useful, or you could be a liability. Either way, weâre not taking risks.â
Your throat tightens, but you force yourself to stand your ground. âIâve already told youâIâm not with anyone. No group, no weapons, no agenda. Just me. If you think Iâm lying, youâre wasting your time.â
He watches you for a moment longer, his dark eyes scanning your face for cracks in your resolve. Finally, he speaks. âYouâll come with us,â he says, his tone leaving no room for argument. âWeâll see what youâre worth.â
Your stomach twists, the flicker of hope youâd allowed yourself extinguished in an instant. Your jaw clenches, but you nod. Thereâs no point in arguingânot when they hold all the cards.
âWhat if sheâs dead weight?â the pistol-wielding man mutters, his arms crossed as he glares at you.
âThen sheâll stay behind,â Jungwon replies coldly, his eyes still locked on yours. The words send a shiver down your spine, but you refuse to flinch.
The group moves quickly, their actions smooth and practised as they gather their supplies. You take a moment to glance at their makeshift arsenalârusted blades, a machete, a pistol with a half-empty box of ammo. Itâs not much, but itâs enough to survive. Barely.
Jungwonâs voice cuts through the room again. âTimeâs up. Letâs go.â
The group falls into formation, their movements synchronised, like theyâve done this a hundred times before. You find yourself in the middle, flanked on all sides, nothing to defend yourself with. Even the mere rusty screwdriver taken away from you.
Their message is clear: youâre not one of them. They donât trust you.
As you step out into the night, the cool air hits your face, a sharp contrast to the oppressive heat of the room. The streets are eerily quiet, the faint groans of the undead carried on the wind. Your heart pounds in your chest as you scan the shadows, every instinct screaming at you to run. But thereâs nowhere to goânot empty-handed, and certainly not without them gunning you down before you even make five feet.
Jungwon takes the lead, his blonde hair catching the faint glow of the moon as he moves with purpose. You follow closely, your senses on high alert. Every shuffle of movement, every distant sound sets your nerves on edge.
Sunoo sidles up next to you, his steps light and almost casual, though the wariness in his eyes lingers. âDonât let Jay get to you,â he says in a low voice, his lips curving into a faint smile. âThat grump always tries to come off scarier than he is. Heâs actually a bit of a softie.â
Jay. The name sticks in your mind, sharp and blunt at the same time, just like the man it belongs to. You glance over at himâhis posture rigid, eyes scanning the shadows like a hawk. Thereâs nothing soft about him now, not the way he grips the pistol or the sharp edge to his jaw as he walks a few paces ahead.
âA softie?â you murmur back, your voice sceptical. âHe doesnât look the type.â
Sunoo chuckles quietly, his expression lightening. âOh, heâs a pain in the ass, no doubt about that. But trust me, when it comes down to it, Jay always looks after the group. Even if heâs a bit dramatic about it.â
You donât know whether to take that as reassurance or a warning.
âDoes he look after the strays too?â you ask, your tone laced with cautious humour.
Sunoo raises an eyebrow, his lips quirking into a playful smile. âThat depends,â he says, his tone light yet probing. âAre you planning to stay a stray?â
You donât reply, and the silence stretches just long enough for it to become uncomfortable. Sunoo seems to take the hint, letting the question hang unanswered. His smile fades slightly, but he doesnât press further.
Instead, he shifts gears, his voice dropping low enough to avoid drawing the attention of the others. âSo, this motel of yours,â he begins, tilting his head. âWhatâs the catch?â
âNo catch,â you reply, keeping your voice steady, though the scepticism in his tone pricks at you. âItâs just a place I found. Empty, at least the last time I checked.â
âAnd if itâs not?â he presses, his brow furrowing as his sharp eyes flick to your face. Thereâs no malice there, just careful calculation, as if heâs trying to figure out if youâre bluffing.
âThen weâll deal with it,â you say firmly. âLike Iâve dealt with everything else.â
He studies you for a moment longer before nodding, a small, almost imperceptible smile tugging at his lips. âFair enough.â
You nod back, though your attention is already shifting, your gaze flicking from Sunoo to Jungwon, before landing on Jay. He hasnât so much as glanced in your direction since leaving the shop, but you can feel the weight of his presence, like a storm cloud hanging overhead. Softie or not, thereâs no denying heâs dangerous.
This whole group is dangerous. Not just in the way they pointed a gun at your head. Youâd have done the same if the roles were reversed.
No, itâs something deeper than that. Itâs in the way they move together, a silent understanding passing between them. Itâs in the way they trust each other without needing to speak. That trust feels foreign to you.
Distrust is second nature now, woven into every fibre of your being. It has kept you alive, but here, it feels like a barrier, separating you from the unspoken bond that holds them together. They donât trust you, and you canât blame them. Youâre the outsider, the unknown element, and trust is a commodity none of you can afford to give freelyânot for you, and certainly not for them.
The group moves swiftly through the shadowed streets, their footsteps light but purposeful. You walk in the middle of their formation, acutely aware of how exposed you all are. Every darkened alley, every overturned car feels like a trap waiting to spring.
Suddenly, Jungwon raises a hand, his entire body going still. The shift is immediateâthe group halts in unison, their movements instinctive, like a well-oiled machine. Your breath catches, your heart pounding like a drum as you strain your ears. At first, thereâs nothing but the faint rustling of the wind. Then you hear itâshuffling, faint but unmistakable, just ahead.
âEyes up,â Jay mutters, his voice barely above a whisper as he tightens his grip on the pistol.
The group edges closer to the corner of a crumbling building, each step measured and deliberate. Jungwon moves first, peering around the edge with slow precision. His posture stiffens, and when he pulls back, his expression is grim.
âA group of them, about thirty, maybe more.â You feel a chill run down your spine.
âSouth?â Jay hisses, his sharp glare cutting through the dim light as he looks over his shoulder at you. âYou said they were coming from the south.â
âThey are,â you snap back defensively, lowering your voice but unable to hide the edge in your tone. âHow was I supposed to know theyâre crawling here too?â
Jay lets out a low, humourless laugh, his head shaking lightly. âThis is exactly why we didnât believe you when you said you survived the city all alone.â
Before you can respond, a voice cuts through the rising tension. âNowâs not the time for this,â someone saysâthe voice calm but clipped, firm enough to settle the brewing argument. You glance towards the speaker, realising you still havenât put a name to his face. âWhy are there so many of them tonight?â
You shake your head, the unease in your chest growing heavier. âTonight is⊠different,â you admit, your voice wavering slightly. âThere seem to be more of them roaming the streets. Itâs like somethingâs drawn them here.â
âYeah, like a scream of some sort.â The words hang in the air, heavy with implication. Slowly, one by one, the group turns their heads toward you.
Your stomach drops, and you open your mouth to protest, but the conversation is cut short by a sudden, guttural growl. One of the zombies has noticed you. Its milky, lifeless eyes locking onto the group as it lets out a low, haunting moan.
âShit,â Jungwon mutters under his breath, his grip tightening on the hilt of his blade.
The moan spreads like a signal, the rest of the horde turning their decayed heads in unison. Their shuffling quickens, their jerky movements laced with unnatural determination.
âHere they come,â Jay snaps, his voice sharp as he raises his pistol.
âSunghoon, theyâre coming from the back too!â Sunooâs voice rises in alarm, his gaze darting to the rear of the group. You whip your head around, your blood running cold as more figures stumble into view behind you.
âWe canât fight them all,â Sunghoon says, panic bleeding into his usually calm tone.
For a moment, everything feels suspendedâthe groans of the undead growing louder, the sharp intakes of breath from the group, the suffocating realisation that escape is narrowing with every passing second. Then, with a voice like tempered steel, Jungwon breaks the paralysis.
âMove!â he commands, his voice slicing through the chaos.
The group breaks into a run, weaving through the narrow streets and abandoned cars. The sound of shuffling feet and guttural growls follows close behind, a relentless reminder of whatâs chasing you.
Your lungs burn, and your legs ache, but you keep moving, driven by pure adrenaline. As you round a corner, the motel comes into viewâa squat, two-storey building with boarded-up windows. Relief surges through you, but itâs fleeting. The dead are still on your heels.
âThere!â you shout, pointing toward the motel. âWe can barricade ourselves inside!â
Jungwon nods, taking the lead as the group sprints toward the building. Jay fires a few shots over his shoulder, each one finding its mark, but it only slows the horde momentarily.
âGo, go, go!â Sunoo yells, holding the door open as the group piles inside.
The moment youâre inside, you move instinctively, grabbing a nearby desk and shoving it against the door with Sunghoonâs help. The others pile on whatever they can findâchairs, shelves, anything to hold the door shut. The pounding starts almost immediately, a grim reminder of how little time you have.
âWe canât stay here,â says someone whose name you havenât learned, his voice trembling as he steps back, his wide eyes darting between the barricade and the rest of the group. âTheyâll break through eventually.â
Jungwon turns to you, his dark, calculating eyes pinning you in place. âYou said you cleared this place before,â he says, his voice steady despite the chaos. âIs there another way out?â
âThereâs a back exit,â you say, your chest heaving as you try to catch your breath. âBut itâs narrow. If they cut us offââ
âWe donât have a choice,â Jungwon interrupts. âWeâll make it work.â
The pounding intensifies, the barricade creaking under the strain. The group exchanges tense glances, their exhaustion mirrored in each otherâs faces. Your palms are slick with sweat as you clench your fists, the urge to act warring with the mounting dread in your gut.
âLetâs go,â Jungwon says sharply, gesturing for the group to fall into formation. He starts toward the back, his movements quick and precise, but you grab the edge of his shirt, stopping him in his tracks.
âGive me a weapon to defend myself with,â you say, your voice low but firm.
âNo,â he replies instantly, not even breaking his stride.
Your grip tightens, forcing him to pause. âJungwon,â you say, your tone urgent but measured, âI can see you care a lot about your group. I also know that when push comes to shove, I wonât be your priority. If you canât guarantee my safety, then I need something to defend myself with.â
He hesitates, his brow furrowing deeply. The pounding against the barricade grows louder, each crash like a warning bell, and you can feel the impatience bubbling beneath your skin.
âPlease,â you press, your voice softening but losing none of its intensity.
For a moment, he stares at you, the tension in his jaw betraying his internal debate. Finally, with a resigned sigh, he reaches into his belt and pulls out a small, serrated knife. âFine,â he says, his tone clipped, handing it to you. âBut you stay close to me. No exceptions.â
Relief floods through you as you take the weapon, the cool metal solid and reassuring in your hand. âUnderstood,â you say, nodding quickly.
âMove!â Jungwon orders, his voice cutting through the noise. The group springs into action, heading toward the narrow corridor that leads to the back exit. Your heart pounds as you grip the knife tightly, your eyes darting to the barricade one last time.
The group moves quickly, the narrow corridor pressing in on all sides. Every creak of the floorboards beneath your feet feels deafening, every shadow a potential ambush. Jungwon leads the way, his blade gleaming faintly in the dim light as he keeps his focus locked on the path ahead.
âStay close,â he mutters, glancing back at you for a fraction of a second before returning his attention forward.
The pounding on the barricade grows faint behind you, but a new sound takes its placeâthe unmistakable shuffle and groans of the undead echoing off the walls. The noise comes from ahead and behind, a cruel symphony that makes your stomach churn.
Youâre surrounded.
âFuck fuck fuck,â you donât even know who is speaking, all you can tell isâheâs panicking.
The group halts, frozen as the reality of your situation sinks in. Jay takes a sharp breath, glancing over his shoulder. âTheyâve cut us off,â he says grimly. âWeâre trapped.â
âKeep moving,â Jungwon orders, though his voice is taut with tension. âWe fight through. Thereâs no other choice.â
As if on cue, a wave of zombies emerges from the shadows ahead. Their decayed faces twist into grotesque mockeries of hunger, their milky eyes locking onto the group. The moans grow louder, their jerky movements speeding up as they close the distance.
Raising his pistol, Jay fires a clean shot, dropping the lead zombie, but the rest surge forward undeterred.
You tighten your grip on the knife Jungwon gave you, your palms sweaty. The first zombie lunges, and Jungwon meets it head-on, his blade diving into its skull with practiced precision. Another takes its place immediately, forcing him back.
âBehind you!â you yell, spotting movement in the shadows. A zombie stumbles toward Jungwon, its bony hands reaching for him.
Without thinking, you surge forward, driving your knife into its temple before it can lay a hand on him. The impact sends a jolt through your arm, but the creature collapses instantly, its lifeless body hitting the ground at Jungwonâs feet.
He spins around, his eyes widening for a split second before narrowing in acknowledgment. âThanks,â he mutters, before plunging his blade into another.
You barely have time to catch your breath before you spot itâa narrow opening in the wall ahead, barely visible in the chaos. Itâs just large enough to squeeze through, and beyond it, you can see an open street.
Your heart pounds as the thought crystallises in your mind: freedom. You could run. You could escape. You could leave all of this behind and save yourself.
The idea is tempting. The promise of survival so close you can almost taste it. But as quickly as it takes root, something stronger rises to smother it. Something within you that wonât allow you to abandon them. These peopleâdangerous and distrustful as they areâare fighting to survive, just like you.
Your gaze flickers back to the group. Jungwon, his blade slicing through the air with deadly precision, glances back to check on Jay before taking on another zombie. Jayâs pistol rings out, his shots deliberate and controlled, his sharp eyes scanning for threats to the others. Sunghoon swings a crowbar with brute force, stepping in to shield Sunoo when he falters.
Theyâre⊠looking out for each otherâŠ?
You hesitate, the knife in your hand growing heavier with every passing second. Itâs not just survival fueling themâitâs something more. Something you havenât seen in a long time.
After everythingâthe chaos, the selfishness, the betrayalâyou didnât think there was any humanity left in people. Not after what went down at the community building.
Youâve seen what desperation does to people, how it strips them bare, leaving nothing but fear and greed in its wake. You can still see the faces of the ones who abandoned their own blood. The ones who took more than their share, who fought over scraps while others starved, who left others behind to die just to save themselves.
And yet, here you are, watching this ragtag group fight not just for themselves, but for each other.
Thereâs something different about the way they move. Itâs primal, yes, but not animalistic. They swing their weapons with purpose, shouting warnings to each other, putting themselves in danger to keep one another aliveânot because they have to, but because they choose to.
Theyâre holding on to somethingâcivility, camaraderie, maybe hope. Or maybe itâs the uncanny refusal to let go of what makes them human, even when the world around them is anything but. It makes your chest ache, this flicker of humanity you thought was long dead.
You arenât sure whyânot entirely. Maybe itâs the look of determination on their faces. Maybe itâs that fleeting look of surprise in Jungwonâs eyes when you saved him that stays with you. The unspoken gratitude, the trust he gave you in return. Maybe itâs the fire in your chest that refuses to let you be like the others, the ones who ran when things got hard. To hold on to what little humanity you have left. Or maybe itâs something simpler: you just donât want to survive alone anymore.
Your gaze shifts back to the horde. More are flooding into the corridor from both sides, their moans growing louder. The group is outnumbered, overwhelmed. If you leave now, they wonât make it.
Your grip on the knife tightens as the choice solidifies in your mind. The opening in the wall calls to you, but you canât move toward it. Not when theyâre still fighting. Not when leaving would mean becoming one of them.
You take a step forward instead, slashing at the nearest zombie before it can reach Jay. The creature collapses, and Jayâs head snaps toward you, confusion flickering across his face. He doesnât say anything, just nods once, almost imperceptibly, before firing at the next target.
The path forward is a blur of movement and noise. You donât think, donât question. You just fight.
âOver there!â you shout, pointing to the opening. âThereâs a way out!â
Jungwonâs head snaps up at your words, his dark eyes meeting yours. Something flickers across his faceâsomething unreadable, a mix of surprise and something else you canât quite place. He nods sharply, his voice steady even as chaos erupts around him. âStay with me,â he orders. âWeâll make it out together.â
The group presses forward, fighting with renewed determination. You stand your ground, slashing at anything that comes too close, your heart pounding as adrenaline fuels every movement. The horde presses in, relentless, but inch by inch, you force your way toward the opening. For reasons you canât fully explain, you stay close to them.
Jungwon moves ahead, his blade a blur as he carves through the oncoming zombies. Youâre at the rear now, turning back occasionally to strike at anything that gets too close.
A zombie lunges from the side, its grotesque face inches from you before you drive your knife into its eye socket. The creature crumples, but the force of it pulls you off balance, and you stumble, landing hard on one knee.
âGet up!â Jay barks, his voice sharp but charged with urgency. He fires a shot over your shoulder, the bullet whizzing past to take down another zombie that had been closing in on you.
You scramble to your feet, gripping your knife with renewed determination. The narrow opening is only a few feet away now, and the others are already pushing through. Sunoo slips through first, then Sunghoon, the two of them pulling at debris on the other side to clear the way for the rest of you.
âMove, move!â Jungwon shouts, his voice cutting through the cacophony. Heâs still holding the line, his blade flashing in the dim light as he keeps the horde at bay.
You shove Jay forward toward the opening, your pulse racing. âGo!â
With a grim nod, Jay ducks through the opening, leaving you and Jungwon alone with the horde. The zombies are almost upon you now, their grotesque moans filling the narrow space. Jungwon glances at you, his face slick with sweat and streaked with blood.
âYou first,â he says, his tone brooking no argument.
âNot a chance,â you shoot back, slashing at a zombie that gets too close. The blade slices through its rotted neck, sending its head lolling to the side as its body collapses. âThey need you. Iâll be right behind.â
For a moment, he stares at you, something flickering in his dark eyesâfrustration, maybe, or something closer to understanding. Then he nods once, a sharp, decisive motion, and the two of you fall into a rhythm. His blade swings high while your knife strikes low, each movement synchronised as if youâve been fighting together for years.
The opening is right there, but the horde is closing in fast. A zombie lunges at Jungwon from his blind spot, and before you can think, you shove him aside, your knife plunging into the creatureâs chest. The impact sends both you and the zombie crashing to the ground, the stench of rot filling your nose as you wrestle against its weight.
âY/N!â Jungwonâs voice cuts through the haze, sharp and commanding. He pulls the zombie off you in one fluid motion, driving his blade into its skull. âGet up, now!â
He hauls you to your feet, his grip firm but not unkind, and together you bolt for the opening. The others are waiting on the other side, their faces pale and drawn but alive. Sunghoon reaches out, grabbing your arm to pull you through just as the horde slams into the debris youâd hastily piled to block the passage.
The group collapses onto the open street, panting and bloodied but alive. The sound of the horde pounding against the barricade is deafening, but it holdsâat least for now.
âEveryone okay?â Jungwon asks, his voice steadier than it has any right to be. His eyes scan the group, lingering on you for a fraction of a second longer than the others.
âBarely,â Sunoo mutters, leaning heavily on Sunghoon. âThat was too close.â
Jay stands a few feet away, reloading his pistol with practised efficiency. He glances at you, his expression unreadable. âYou couldâve run,â he says flatly, though thereâs something in his tone that isnât quite accusatory.
You meet his gaze, your grip tightening on the bloodied knife in your hand. âSo could you.â
Jay snorts, a faint smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth. âFair enough.â
Jungwon steps forward, his blade still clutched tightly in his hand. âWe need to keep moving,â he says, his tone brisk but quieter now. âThe noise will draw more of them.â
You nod, your heart still racing as you fall into step with the group. The streets ahead stretch out in shadowed uncertainty, but for the first time, you feel a flicker of something you havenât felt in a long time. In the presence of peopleâpeople who arenât trying to eat or kill you.
When the group reaches the edge of Seoul, where cracked asphalt gives way to gravel and the looming forest stretches into the horizon, everyone stops. The air is thick with tension, the only sounds the distant rustle of leaves and the crunch of boots on dirt. The group exchanges wary glances, but itâs Jay who breaks the silence.
âSurely sheâs not coming with us back to camp,â he says bluntly, his voice cutting through the stillness like a knife. His pistol hangs loose in his hand, though his sharp gaze flicks to you with suspicion. Then, he turns to Jungwon. âWe still donât know anything about her.â
âShe helped us escape,â one of them counters, his voice steady but calm. Heâs tall, with an easy confidence, though his tone carries just enough weight to make Jay glance at him. âThatâs got to count for something, doesnât it?â
Jay doesnât look convinced. âIt doesnât mean sheâs not a liability, Heeseung.â he counters, his voice clipped. âWeâve all seen how that ends.â
âIâm standing right here, you know,â you say, your tone flat but laced with frustration. Youâre too tired to hide the edge in your voice. âIf I wanted to hurt you, I wouldnât have stuck around to help.â
âHelping doesnât mean youâre trustworthy,â Jay shoots back, narrowing his eyes. âPlenty of people are helpfulâuntil they arenât. Jake, why donât you remind Jungwon what happened the last time we trusted someone?â
Jakeâleaning against a nearby tree with his arms crossedâglances at Jay before speaking. His voice is lighter, more measured, but no less pointed. âShe was armed,â he says, nodding toward the knife still clutched in your hand. âIf she wanted to hurt us, sheâd have done it by now.â
âShe practically did,â Jay fires back, his glare intensifying. âWith the way she brought that horde down on us.â
You stiffen, your exhaustion bubbling over into anger. âIf you think my pathetic little scream brought in a horde that big, then you must be denser than I thought." you bite out, your tone dripping with incredulity,
Jay takes a step closer, his expression darkening. âThen why donât you care to explain why there were so many of them tonight? You said so yourselfâitâs different. Somethingâs drawn them here.â
The accusation hangs heavy in the air, each word sharp and biting. Your chest tightens, frustration mingling with the lingering fear from earlier. âHow the hell would I know?â you snap, your voice rising slightly before you force it down. âYou think I have all the answers? Iâve been on my own for months. I donât know whatâs out there any more than you do.â
âExactly,â Jay counters, his voice cold. âYouâve been on your own. No one to vouch for you. No one to trust you. Why should we be the ones to take that risk?â
You open your mouth to argue, but Jungwon raises a hand, silencing the brewing argument. âEnough,â he says, his voice calm but commanding.
âYou said youâve been on your own." Jungwon turns to you, his dark eyes meeting yours, unblinking.
You nod slowly, meeting his gaze with as much calm as you can muster. âThatâs right.â
âThen why didnât you run?â Jungwon asks, his voice softer now, though no less searching. âYou couldâve left when you saw that opening.â
The question hangs in the air, heavy and weighted with meaning. For a moment, you hesitate, your chest tightening. The truth feels raw, vulnerable, but you know itâs the only chance you have. âBecause Iâve seen what happens when people leave others behind,â you say quietly, your voice steady but laced with emotion. âI⊠was left behind. Itâs not who I want to be.â
The group falls into an uneasy silence. Even Jay says nothing, though his expression remains guarded. Sunoo glances between you and Jungwon, his face unreadable. Heeseung exhales slowly, lowering his machete just slightly, his knuckles no longer white from gripping the handle.
âShe doesnât seem like a threat to me,â Sunoo finally says, his tone softer now. âBesides, whatâs one more person? Itâs not like weâre overflowing with allies.â
âShe could slow us down,â Jay argues, though his earlier venom seems to have dulled. âWhat if she canât keep up?â
âI kept up with you just fine back there,â you snap, the words spilling out before you can stop.
âAnd she saved Jungwon. Knife to the skull. Pretty impressive, actually.â says the cheeky one you remember from the auto shop. His tone is casual, but it carries just enough humour to make Jungwon roll his eyes.
âVery funny, Ni-ki,â Jungwon says, exhaling through his nose. His expression remains unreadable as his gaze sweeps over the group.
Heâs quiet for a moment, clearly weighing the risks, before finally speaking. âShe comes with us, we'll figure the rest out at camp." he states firmly, his tone leaving no room for argument.
Jay mutters something under his breath, but he doesnât protest further. Sunoo gives you a quick smile, while Heeseung offers a small nod. Ni-ki shrugs, already turning back toward the forest path.
The journey to the camp is long and fraught with silence. The group moves with practised precision, their formation tight as they navigate the dark, twisting paths that grow denser with every step. You trail close behind, clutching your knife tightly. The blood and sweat drying on your skin makes you feel grimy, but the real discomfort comes from the sharp looks Jay still throws your way whenever he glances back.
Eventually, the dense trees give way to a clearing, revealing the camp nestled among towering pines. A cluster of tents, a single battered van, and a manmade lean-to are scattered around the space, surrounded by a crude barricade of fallen logs and scavenged metal.
âHome sweet home,â Sunoo mutters, his voice tinged with fatigue as he pulls the barricade open just wide enough for the group to slip through. The camp is eerily quiet, save for the distant rustling of the forest.
You glance around, scanning the area for signs of other people, but it becomes clear that the group before you is all there is.
Weird. They donât have much, but leaving an entire camp unattended like that is reckless, bordering on suicidal. Itâs the kind of decision that makes you question their judgment.
Now youâre even more confused about your perception of these people. Are they confident? Brave? Or are they simply stupid?
Itâs hard to tell.
But whatever the reason, it leaves you uneasy. Because in a world like this, confidence and bravery can look an awful lot like arroganceâand arrogance gets people killed.
âWhoâs on first watch tonight?â Jungwon asks, his tone brisk and businesslike as his eyes sweep the camp.
âJake and Ni-ki,â Heeseung replies, dropping his machete with a heavy sigh.
âErm... both of them are already passed out over there.â Sunghoonâs voice is dry, almost amused, as he points toward the lean-to.
Your gaze follows his finger, and sure enough, you spot two figures sprawled out on the uneven ground, tangled in what looks like a half-hearted attempt at bedding. One of them is snoring softly, an arm flung carelessly over his face, while the other lies curled into himself, his back rising and falling with slow, steady breaths. Theyâve managed to find the least uncomfortable positions possible in a place like this, but itâs clear theyâre out cold.
Jungwon pinches the bridge of his nose, a gesture that speaks to his weariness more than any words could. âBrilliant,â he mutters under his breath, the exasperation in his tone cutting through the quiet. He looks like a man who carries the weight of everyone around him, even when he doesnât want to.
The group shifts awkwardly, the tension thick enough to press against your chest. Your fingers twitch around the handle of your knife, an unconscious reflex as you weigh your options. You donât owe these people anything. And yet, when the words leave your mouth, they surprise even you.
âI can take first watch, and one of you can cover me after.â Your voice is steady, but the exhaustion leaks through at the edges. You donât offer because you feel like you owe them. No, the truth is simpler: you know you wonât sleep. Even with your body screaming for rest, every muscle and bone aching from the dayâs events, your mind is wide awake. Very, very awake.
Jay scoffs immediately, the sound sharp and derisive. âLike hell we would leave you on watch alone, what if you run?â
The comment makes your blood simmer, but you clamp down on the flare of frustration. Instead, you meet his glare with a level stare. âJay, Iâm really not in the mood to argue with you,â you say, your tone firm but not aggressive. âIf you donât trust me, then you can take first watch with me.â
The challenge in your voice is unmistakable, and it hangs in the air between you like a taut string. Jayâs lips press into a thin line, his gaze hardening as though heâs deciding whether to call your bluff. You hold his stare, refusing to back down, even as the silence stretches.
Your heartbeat drums in your ears, but you keep your expression steady, determined not to show weakness. You donât know if theyâll ever trust you, but youâve survived too long to let someone like Jay intimidate you now.
Jungwon sighs, pinching the bridge of his nose again, as though trying to contain the growing tension in the camp. Finally, he lowers his hand and looks at Jay, his expression firm but calm. âIâll take the first watch with her,â he says, his tone leaving no room for debate.
Jayâs mouth opens, likely to argue, but Jungwon cuts him off with a sharp look. âGet some rest. Weâll need everyone at least awake tomorrow.â
Jay clicks his tongue but doesnât push further. Instead, he mutters something under his breath and stalks off toward the fire, dropping onto a log with a pointed lack of grace. The others disperse as well, settling into their makeshift bedding or sitting quietly by the fire. Jungwon turns to you.
âCome on,â he says, motioning toward a ladder tied to the side of what looks like a precariously constructed watchtower. âThe viewâs better up there.â
You follow him, gripping the ladder tightly as you climb. The watchtower, built from scavenged wood and tied together with ropes and wire, creaks slightly under your combined weight but holds firm. When you reach the top, you find a narrow platform with a rough wooden railing. From this vantage point, the camp feels small, a fragile sanctuary surrounded by endless darkness.
Jungwon settles near the edge, resting his blade across his lap as he scans the treeline. His posture is relaxed, but his eyes are sharp, constantly moving as though anticipating the worst.
You sit a few feet away, your knife still in hand, though youâre not entirely sure what good it will do against the night. For a while, neither of you speaks, the silence broken only by the distant rustling of leaves and the faint crackle of the fire below.
âDo you always volunteer for shit the rest doesnât want to do?â you ask, breaking the quiet.
Jungwon glances at you, a faint smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth. âNot always. But someone has to do it. Might as well be me.â
You nod, your gaze drifting to the dark forest beyond the barricade. âYou donât trust me either,â you say, your voice quiet but not accusatory. Itâs a statement, not a question.
He doesnât answer right away, his eyes fixed on the horizon. When he does speak, his tone is measured. âItâs not about trust. Not entirely. Itâs about knowing what people are capable of when things go bad.â
A bitter laugh escapes your lips. âYeah. Iâve seen what people are capable of.â
Jungwon glances at you again, his expression softening just slightly. âWhat⊠happened?â he asks, his voice low, as though he knows itâs a loaded question but is willing to bear the weight of it.
You hesitate, the memories clawing at the edges of your mind, threatening to drag you back into a place youâd give anything to forget. Frankly, you donât want to answer. You donât even want to think about it. But the past has a cruel way of lingering, forcing you to confront it over and over again, like an open wound that refuses to heal.
âThe community building,â you begin slowly, the words bitter on your tongue. âIt was supposed to be safe. A place where people worked together. Where we helped each other survive.â
âAt least, thatâs what we told ourselves. But things changed when the supplies started running low. Suddenly, it wasnât about helping each other anymore. It was about who could take the most, who could get out alive.â You pause, your fingers tightening around the knife in your hand as the images flood your mind. The arguments over food, the mistrust that spread like rot, the way desperation revealed the ugliest parts of human nature.
You take a deep breath, trying to steady yourself, but the words spill out, raw and jagged. âI watched people turn on each other. Families. Friends. People whoâd shared meals, shared stories, whoâd promised to have each otherâs backs. They fought over scraps. They left others behind without a second thought. And when the barricade fell⊠when the dead came throughâŠâ Your voice wavers, and you clench your jaw to steady it. âThey didnât just leave the weak behind. They trampled them. Used them as bait. Anything to save themselves.â
Jungwon doesnât say anything, but his gaze remains fixed on you, his expression unreadable. You canât tell if heâs judging you, pitying you, or just listening. Maybe itâs all three.
âIâd like to think the ones who made it out remember that place the way I do,â you say finally, your voice quieter now. âBut I donât think they do. I think they tell themselves it wasnât their fault. That they had no choice. Maybe theyâre right. But I had to see it, and I have to live with it.â
Jungwon watches you carefully, his expression unreadable but not unkind. After a moment, he asks, his voice low and steady, âIs that why you choose to survive alone?â
The question cuts through the quiet night, striking a nerve you hadnât realised was exposed. You hesitate, your gaze falling to the dark ground below. âMaybe,â you admit softly. âItâs easier, I guess. No one to rely on. No one to disappoint you. No one to leave you behind.â
Jungwon doesnât say anything immediately, but his silence feels deliberate, as though heâs giving you space to continue. You exhale slowly, the memories pressing against your chest like a weight you canât shrug off.
âWhen youâre on your own, the only person you have to worry about is yourself,â you say, your voice hardening slightly. âIf you make a mistake, you pay for it. If you survive, itâs because you earned it. Thereâs no one else to blame, and no one else to lose.â
Jungwonâs gaze doesnât waver, and thereâs a gravity in his eyes that makes you feel exposed. âBut itâs also lonely,â he says quietly, as though heâs not asking but stating a fact.
You swallow hard, the truth of his words settling uncomfortably in your chest. You donât answer, but the silence between you speaks volumes. Jungwon shifts slightly, resting his forearms on his knees as he speaks. âNot everyone wouldâve made it out of that and kept going,â he says quietly. âMost people wouldâve given up. You didnât.â
You blink, his words catching you off guard. Theyâre not exactly comforting, but thereâs a sincerity in them that makes your chest tighten, like a wound youâd forgotten you were nursing.
âI donât know if thatâs something to be proud of,â you admit, your gaze fixed on the dark forest beyond the camp.
âIt is,â Jungwon says firmly, and thereâs an edge of conviction in his tone that makes you glance at him. âIt means you didnât let it break you. And thatâs harder than most people realiseâkeeping yourself from going insane. Stopping yourself from letting this fucked-up excuse of a world swallow you whole. You didnât give in, and that counts for something.â
You study him for a moment, his face lit faintly by the moonlight, his blonde hair swaying lightly in the night breeze. His expression is calm but resolute, as though heâs been through his own version of hell and come out with his soul intact.
Youâre not sure how to respond, so you donât. Instead, you let his words sit with you, their weight lighter than the memories theyâve momentarily displaced.
âYouâre not as rough around the edges as Jay seems to think,â he says after a while, his tone lighter now. âBut youâre not like the others either. Youâve got... fight in you.â
You glance at him, arching an eyebrow. âIs that supposed to be a compliment?â
He smirks. âTake it however you want.â
âBut thatâs not what we do here,â he continues. âIf someone falls behind, we donât leave them.â
You turn to him, searching his face for any hint of deception, any sign that this is just a comforting lie. But his expression is earnest, his eyes unwavering.
Youâve been on your own for almost six months. You donât even remember the last time you had a conversation this long with anyone. Words, when they did come, were usually short, functionalâcommands barked at yourself to keep moving, or fleeting exchanges shouted during desperate encounters.
This, sitting and talking, feels foreign. Unnatural.
Itâs not that you havenât come across other survivors. Youâve met people. Survivors who had extended a hand, offered you a place in their groups. Some seemed kind, others desperate. But you rejected them all. Trust is a luxury you canât afford, and joining a group means opening yourself to betrayal, to risk. Youâve seen what people are capable of when the stakes are life and death. Better to keep moving on your own than rely on someone who could turn on you at any moment.
Still, sitting here with Jungwon, his calm voice cutting through the quiet night, you find yourself oddly enjoying it.
âMust be exhausting, caring about people.â you say, a faint, almost reluctant smile tugging at your lips.
Jungwon chuckles softly, the sound low and almost foreign in the stillness of the night. âIt is,â he admits, his gaze flicking briefly to the camp below. The firelight dances across the faces of the others, who are finally beginning to settle down for the night. âBut itâs worth it. At least, I like to think it is.â
You watch him for a moment, the corners of your mouth quirking slightly upward. âDid you know each other? Before?â
âYup,â he says, leaning back against the rough railing of the makeshift watchtower. The faint moonlight softens the hard edges of his face as he speaks, his tone lighter now, touched with nostalgia. âChildhood friends. Iâd just started university, and they wanted to come check out the campus. It was supposed to be a quick visit.â
He pauses, his gaze drifting toward the dark expanse of trees surrounding the camp. âWe just so happened to be together when everything went to shit.â
The simplicity of his words doesnât mask the weight they carry. You imagine the sceneâan ordinary day, plans for the future barely set in motion, torn apart by chaos. You wonder if he thinks about how different things mightâve been if the timing had been just slightly off. If heâd been alone, or if they hadnât been there together.
âLucky, I guess,â you say quietly, though the word feels wrong in your mouth. Luck doesnât feel like it belongs in this world anymore, not when it comes with such brutal cost.
âYeah,â Jungwon replies, his voice softer now, almost like heâs agreeing and disagreeing at the same time. âLucky.â
âWhat happened?â you ask cautiously, sensing the weight of his memories but curious nonetheless.
He exhales slowly, the breath heavy with remembrance. âWe started out as a big groupâmost of the faculty ended up holed up in the auditorium. We thought weâd escape the initial chaos for the time. But someone got bit early on and hid it from the rest of us. They turned in the middle of the night. It took out half of us before we even knew what was happening.â
You swallow hard, the familiar pang of loss and horror creeping into your chest. âAnd the rest of you?â
âThe seven of us, plus a few others, managed to get out alive,â he says, his voice tinged with a faint bitterness. âWe thought our luck had turned when we ran into a group of people in military uniforms. They had tanks, rifles, the works. We thought we were safe.â
âThat was The Future, wasnât it?â you ask, recalling the name youâd overheard the others mention earlier.
Jungwonâs gaze sharpens, his expression darkening. âDo you really not know anything about The Future?â
You shake your head slowly, a knot of unease forming in your stomach. âNo. Iâve been on my own for months. Iâve seen groups, but nothing that sounds like what youâre describing.â
Jungwon leans forward, resting his elbows on his knees. His voice lowers, taking on a colder edge. âTheyâre not a group. Theyâre an organisation. Big. Made up of military personnels who went rogue when they realised the government couldnât control the outbreak, and high profile politicians started to abandon the people to save themselves.â
Your stomach twists uncomfortably, the weight of his words sinking in. The idea of a well-organised, militarised group with no one to answer to makes your skin crawl. âAnd you escaped from them?â you ask, your voice quieter now.
He nods, his jaw tightening. âBarely.â
âIf theyâre so strong,â you press cautiously, âwhy did you leave?â
Jungwonâs lips press into a thin line, his gaze dropping briefly to the dark ground below before lifting to meet yours again. âTheir way of surviving⊠itâs messed up,â he says, his tone grim. âIt isnât about helping anyoneâitâs about control. They take what they want. Supplies, people, anything they think they can use. If they decide youâre deadweight, just another mouth to feed, they wonât hesitate toâŠâ He trails off, the unspoken words hanging heavy between you.
Your throat feels tight. âIs that why Jake said theyâd gotten rid off all their women?â you ask tentatively, the memory of Jakeâs earlier comment sharp in your mind.
Jungwonâs expression darkens further. âNot all,â he corrects, though the words do little to ease the growing unease in your chest. âJust those who, to them, served no purpose. And not just women. Children. The elderly. Anyone with a disability, or even someone who was sickâwhether it was visible or not. If you couldnât pull your weight or be useful to their âmission,â you were as good as dead.â
Your stomach churns, bile rising in your throat. âThatâs not survival,â you say quietly, your voice shaking slightly. âThatâsââ
âEvil?â Jungwon finishes for you, his tone bitter. âYeah. It is. They hide it under words like âefficiencyâ and ânecessity,â but itâs just cruelty. Thatâs why we left.â
You can see the weight of the memories in his eyes, the lingering shadows of everything heâs seen and done to survive. For a moment, the silence between you feels suffocating, the distant rustle of the forest doing little to break the tension.
âHow many of you escaped?â you ask, though youâre not sure you want to know the answer.
âDoesnât matter, weâre all thatâs left.â he says simply, his voice carrying the weight of names and faces youâll likely never know.
He leans back against the watchtower railing, his shoulders sagging slightly as if the weight of the past has settled there. âWeâve been running ever since. Trying to stay ahead of them. Trying to survive without becoming like them.â
The knot in your stomach tightens further. The apocalypse had already stripped the world of so muchâlife, hope, humanityâand now it seemed to have given rise to something even worse.
You glance down at the camp below, at the group who had been wary of you, who still didnât fully trust you. Yet despite everything, theyâd chosen to leave a place like that behind, to hold onto something resembling morality.
âMustâve taken a lot,â you say quietly. âTo leave. To fight back.â
âIt did,â Jungwon replies, his voice steady but tired. âBut if surviving means losing everything that makes us human, then whatâs the point?â
His words linger in the cool night air, settling deep into your bones. For the first time, you realise that you and the group arenât so different after all. Just ordinary people, barely on the cusp of adulthood, thrust into a world that demands you play the role of protectors. Not because youâre ready, but because the ones who should have been there to protect you failed. Now, all you have is each other, forced to fill the gaps left behind by the people who should have kept you safe.
"But why are they still trying to hunt you down?" you ask, the question slipping out before you can think twice. It lingers in the air between you, heavy with curiosity and unease.
Jungwonâs jaw tightens, his gaze shifting to the dark treeline beyond the camp. For a moment, it seems like he might not answer. Then, with a quiet sigh, he leans forward again, his elbows resting on his knees.
âBecause we didnât just leave,â he says, his voice low and edged with something darkerâregret, perhaps, or anger. âWe took supplies. Food, medicine, weapons. Enough to give us a fighting chance out here. To them, thatâs unforgivable. They donât see people. They see assets. Resources they think they own.â
You feel a chill crawl down your spine as you process his words. âYou think theyâre after the supplies you took?â
âItâs not just about the supplies,â Jungwon replies, his tone grim. âItâs about control. We embarrassed them. Made them look weak. To The Future, thatâs worse than losing anything physical. If they let us go, it sets a precedent. It shows people that theyâre not invincible, and then what is to stop others from doing the same?â
Your stomach churns. âSo theyâre chasing you to make an example of you.â
âExactly,â he says, his voice colder now. âThey want everyone to know what happens when you cross them. And they wonât stop until they get what they want.â
The weight of his words settles heavily in your chest, the reality of their situation sinking in. Itâs not just survival theyâre fighting forâitâs freedom from a force that refuses to let them go. You glance back at Jungwon, his expression calm but laced with something harder, something forged by experience.
âHow long have you been running?â you ask softly.
Jungwon exhales, the sound low and tired. âAlmost six months,â he admits, his gaze fixed on the treeline.
Thereâs a pause before he continues, quieter this time, as though saying it aloud makes it more real. âAlthough⊠we think we might have lost them. For now. But weâre always ready to keep moving. Always looking over our shoulders.â
âEvery time we think weâre safe enough to settle down, they find us,â he murmurs. âLike an obsessive ex-girlfriend, you know?â
The analogy catches you off guard, and you chuckle despite the seriousness of the conversation. Itâs a strained laugh, but genuineâa brief flicker of something human in the midst of everything bleak. âThe kind that wonât take a hint?â
Jungwon huffs a small laugh of his own, though thereâs no real humour behind it. âExactly.â He glances at you, a shadow of a smirk pulling at the corner of his mouth. âExcept this oneâs got a lot more firepower.â
That explains it. Why they were so willing to leave the camp unattended, why they carried more supplies on their backs than they could possibly need. It wasnât out of carelessness or greedâit was strategy. They packed light enough to keep moving, but just heavy enough to make sure they wouldnât have to stop.
Everything they did was calculated, preparing for the worst. Ready to run at a momentâs notice if the situation demanded it.
Ready to disappear without a trace.
The fire below flickers, its faint glow casting long shadows across his face. For a moment, you see the weariness behind his sharp exterior, the cracks in the armour heâs built to protect himself and the people he cares about.
âYou said tonight was differentâyou said there were a lot more of them than usual. Why did you think that way?â Jungwon asks, his tone low and measured, though his eyes flicker with unease.
You hesitate, chewing on your thoughts. The question pulls at loose threads in your mind, unravelling memories of the streets youâve come to know too well. Images flash behind your eyesâthe empty alleys, the shifting shadows, the silence that stretches too long before it breaks. Youâve always trusted your gut, and tonight, it screamed louder than ever.
Something is wrong.
âThe city is⊠unpredictable,â you reply carefully, the words slow as you try to make sense of the thoughts swirling in your head. âSome days, the streets are empty. You might see the occasional horde passing through. They linger for a bit before something else catches their attentionâa noise, a movement, anything that draws them away.â
âBut hordes⊠theyâre creatures of habit,â Jungwon listens intently as you continue, his brow furrowed, tension tightening his posture. âThe noise they make keeps them together, pulling in the surrounding stragglers to join their little marching band. Itâs a cycle. And thatâs what makes them manageable. You can figure out their patterns, track the way they move, and avoid them if youâre careful.â
âBut tonight, thoughâŠâ You pause, the words lingering on your tongue like a bad taste you canât quite spit out. âIt wasnât just one or two. It felt like they were coming from everywhere. Every direction.â
Jungwonâs gaze flickers to meet yours, and for a moment, neither of you says anything. His expression hardens, the flicker of dread in his eyes matching your own.
âLike someone put them there.â
The words hang in the air, thick and heavy. As soon as you finish, the thought sends a chill down your spine, settling deep in your chest. The silence stretches between you both, tense and oppressive, as the weight of the implication sinks in.
The idea that someoneâanyoneâmight be capable of coordinating something so horrifying is almost impossible to comprehend. Almost.
âDo you think it was deliberate?â you ask, your voice quieter now, as if afraid to hear the answer.
Jungwon exhales slowly, his expression hardening. âTruth is, we donât know for sure. We were in the city earlier, scouting for car parts to fix up the van. Thatâs when we thought we ran into members of The Future. But one thing about themâthey donât fuck with the cities. They stick to the communities near their base, taking whatever they needâsupplies, weapons, fuel. They think the cities are too dangerous, too unpredictable.â His words hang in the air for a moment before he continues, his voice darker now. âBut the way the hordes moved tonight... it felt like someone wanted them to sweep the area.â
The thought settles over you like a heavy fog. âBut you donât think itâs them? The Future?â
Jungwon shakes his head, though the hesitation in his expression is hard to miss. âItâs not their style. They donât deal in chaosâthey deal in control. And releasing hordes into the city? Thatâs reckless. Dangerous, even for them.â
âIf it wasnât them...â you start, but your voice falters.
Jungwonâs gaze sharpens as it meets yours, steady but grim.
âThen itâs someone else."
You sense that the weight of the conversation is more than you can handle for the rest of the night, and you know Jungwon senses it too. The quiet lingers between you, heavy but not unpleasant, the kind that almost invites you to leave the darkness of your thoughts behind.
âShould I go wake Jake and Ni-ki up for their shift?â you suggest, breaking the silence. Youâre not sure whether the talk with Jungwon has helped ease some of your inner turmoil or if the sheer exhaustion from the dayâs events is finally catching up to you, but your eyelids are growing heavier with every passing second.
Jungwon shakes his head slightly, his voice calm and even. âIâm actually just going to keep watch for the night. You can turn in if youâre tired.â
You blink at him, his words jolting you back to focus. âWhat?â you ask, disbelief lacing your tone. âIn that case, weâll take turns. Thereâs no way Iâm leaving you up here alone the entire night. I can only imagine what Jayâs got to say when he wakes up tomorrow and finds out.â
Jungwonâs lips twitch, and then, to your surprise, he laughsâa genuine, unguarded laugh. The sound is startlingly warm, almost foreign in the bleakness of the night. For a moment, it feels like the world around you isnât as broken as it really is.
âFine,â he says, shaking his head in mild amusement. âYou can rest first. Iâll wake you in an hour.â
His words carry a gentleness you hadnât expected, and it throws you off balance more than youâd like to admit. You study his faceâthe slight crinkle at the corner of his eyes, the faint trace of a smile still lingering.
You hesitate, your exhaustion pulling at you, but the lingering sense of distrustâof everything, not just himâroots you in place. âYou sure?â you mumble, your voice heavy with fatigue.
âYeah,â he says with a faint nod, his eyes scanning the dark forest beyond the camp. âIâve got it.â
âAlright,â you finally agree, leaning back against the railing and letting yourself relax just a fraction. âBut donât forget to wake me.â
âI wonât,â he says, his voice quieter now, almost reassuring.
The weight of the day presses down on you like a blanket, and despite your reluctance, you feel your body begin to give in.
Leaning back against the rough planks of the watchtower, you close your eyes, telling yourself youâre just resting them for a moment. But the distant rustling of the trees, the faint crackle of the campfire below, and the steady presence of Jungwon beside you lull you into a state of half-awareness.
At some point, you shift unconsciously, your head tilting until it finds something solidâwarm. Youâre too far gone to realise whatâs happened, the exhaustion dragging you under.
masterlist | part 2 - warmth
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notes from nat: i'm adapting a new form of writing specifically for this setting. i think i mentioned before how i struggle describing present moments over writing thoughts and monologues. lo and behold, turns out an apocalypse au is all about the present moment... i'm taking this as a challenge and honestly don't have high hopes. but i sincerely appreciate the read from all of you! things will start picking up in the next part~
Warnings: Hurt/Comfort, Suggestive Content, Angst, Sunghoon is kinda mean (not to you), Academic Rivalry, Tension, Fluff, Teasing, Jealousy, Misunderstandings, Happy Ending, Newt Scamander Mention!!
Synopsis: Youâve always found yourself in competition with Park Sunghoon, a brilliant Ravenclaw who seemed to have it allâintelligence, charm, and ambition. Whether it was academic duels or playful banter, he was always your rival. Yet, the only thing he truly wanted was you.
Wordcount: + 30k ( i know.. im sorry)
a/n: yall strap in for this one.. (heeseung is the last one that will be posted soon :) if yall wanna see more of the hogwarts au let me know!
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You couldnât exactly pinpoint when you started being an overachiever in your studies. It was a gradual thing, a slow shift that snuck up on you and became part of who you were. When you received your letter to Hogwarts, you were ecstaticâabsolutely thrilled by the thought of magic, the possibility of flying, the enchantment of potions, and the spells. But then you saw the material and you knew right away that in order to succeed, you had to study.
But it didnât stop there. As you poured yourself into your work, absorbed every bit of information, you started to realize something elseâsomething that fueled you even more. Praise. Recognition. House points. The feeling of achievement after every successful spell or potion, the way other students came to you for help. It was intoxicating. The more you learned, the more respect you gained, and you could feel your status growing. It was simple math, really: hard work plus success equals recognition. And you thrived on it.
Soon enough, you became known as one of the top students at Hogwarts, the one everyone turned to when they needed help or advice. And you liked it. You liked the feeling of being ahead, of being the best at something. You liked the way professors praised you, the way your name carried weight when spoken in hallways. Youâd earned this position. You deserved it.
But, of course, you werenât the only one who excelled. There were others, too, students who worked just as hard as you did. And you were fine with it. You respected them; they respected you. It wasnât about competitionâit was about mutual recognition.
Then there was Park Sunghoon.
He was a quiet Ravenclaw, one who kept to himself for the most part, except when he was in class. Thatâs when everything changed. He had a way of standing out without even tryingâhis answers sharp, his insight keen, his mind quick. Every time you thought you had the answer, Sunghoon was already there, raising his hand or blurting it out in that effortless, nonchalant way. And every single time, your chest tightened, your stomach dropped. He was always just a step ahead of you, and you hated it.
But what really made your blood boil wasnât just that he outperformed youâit was the way he did it. The way he would always, always look at you with that damn smirk. That teasing, almost mocking expression, as if he knew exactly what it did to you. As if he relished in it. Every time he answered a question before you, every time he earned praise or house points, he would glance over at you, eyes glinting, that smug smile never leaving his face. It wasnât just a simple exchange of competition. It was personal. It was deliberate. And it drove you mad.
It didnât help that Park Sunghoon was everything you hated and everything you secretly admired. He was smartâimpossibly smart. His resourcefulness in class was unmatched, and every time he spoke, it felt like he had all the answers. And on top of all that, he was tall, handsome, with perfectly styled hair that never seemed to fall out of place, his Ravenclaw robes always crisp and neat. Youâd be lying if you said you didnât catch yourself staring at him sometimes, trying to pretend you werenât affected by how effortlessly he seemed to glide through life. He was always polished, always put together, and you hated how good he looked doing it.
It only made things worse when you started realizing that you were developing feelings for him. A crush, despite everything. Despite the way he ignored others, brushing them off like they were nothing, like they were dust clinging to his perfect robes. You couldnât help it. He was attractive, there was no denying that. But it wasnât just thatâit was the way he held himself. The prefect badge on his chest always gleaming, always sparkling. The way he moved through the castle with an air of authority, a quiet power that seemed to command the attention of everyone in the room.
If Sunghoon deemed you as beneath him, he wouldnât hesitate to let you know itânot directly, of course. No, that would be too obvious. Instead, he would treat you like one of the ghosts haunting Hogwarts, barely sparing you a glance, letting his indifference cut deeper than words ever could. Youâd watch him glide past students who tried to catch his attention, their hopeful faces falling as he brushed them off without a second thought. His expression would remain blank, that neutral, almost cruel face he reserved for people he deemed unworthy of his time.
And the moments when he was forced to acknowledge someone? Thatâs when his sharp, silver tongue came out. Youâd witnessed him being cold and dismissive, shutting down anyone who dared to push their luck. He had a way of saying just the right thing to make people feel small, a razor-edged wit that cut through even the bravest students, leaving them stammering, unsure of what theyâd done wrong. It was subtle, and he was never outright rudeâjust dismissive enough to make it sting.
And yet, you couldnât shake the crush. You hated it. You hated him. But the more he teased, the more you couldnât stop yourself from wanting him.
And you wouldnât dare to say you liked Sunghoonânot in the way one might admit to having a crush, at least. No, liking him wasnât even an option. If anything, you tolerated him on your best days, pushed yourself to ignore the smug expressions and the subtle, condescending way he would respond to you in class. And on the worst days? You found yourself actively ignoring him. Because nothing seemed to satisfy Sunghoon more than bringing others down to elevate himself.
When someone dared to voice an answer he deemed beneath his own standards, youâd see it: the slight narrowing of his eyes, the subtle twist of his lips. Heâd wait, just a beat, before stepping in to âcorrectâ them, his tone laced with just enough contempt to make it clear who the ârealâ intellect in the room was. And somehow, he managed to do it all without outright insulting anyone. His comments were surgical, precise, his criticism delivered with a calm, cold detachment that only made it sting more. It made you question him, wonder why he seemed so determined to keep everyone beneath him.
But what frustrated you most was his selective charm. Youâd watch him laugh and chat easily with other high-ranking students, his demeanor suddenly pleasant, even civil. Heâd converse with them like they were equals, never the hint of a condescending smirk, no belittling glances. And in front of professors? Sunghoon transformed entirely. He was the picture of the ideal student, humble, deferential, offering polished responses that seemed designed to earn him a rare smile or a nod of approval. The teachers couldnât seem to get enough of him.
You couldnât wrap your head around it. His calculated, chameleon-like behavior left you wondering, time and time again, why he had ended up in Ravenclaw and not Slytherin. After all, he possessed every quality they prized: cunning, ambition, a nearly ruthless drive to succeed. It was like he wore a Ravenclaw uniform, but underneath, his nature seemed more like that of a Slytherin than anything else.
And perhaps, deep down, that was what unsettled you most about himâthat he seemed to wear a mask depending on who he was with.
It frustrated you, intrigued you, and, despite yourself, drew you in.
So, you had learned to keep your distance from Sunghoon, to wear a mask of indifference around him. A poker face. Neutral. Unmoved. It became second nature, the way you could shut down your emotions whenever he entered the room, the way you refused to show any weakness in his presence. If you didnât give him anything, you reasoned, heâd get bored of you eventually. Heâd move on, as he did with everyone else. You figured, if you didnât give him the satisfaction of a reaction, heâd leave you alone.
But now, reflecting on it, you realized that might have been the wrong choice. Because it didnât matter how little you engaged with him. Sunghoon had a way of finding you. It was like he had a radar, some silent pull that always seemed to zero in on you during the day. And when he did, that was it. You had his full attention. Not a passing glance, not an idle comment. Sunghoon would fix his gaze on you, like a hawk locking onto its prey, his focus unyielding. It wasnât an accidental glance; it was deliberate. Every moment, every word, every action seemed like it was a calculated move to engage with you, to get your attentionâwhether you wanted it or not.
If you were anyone else, if you were just a normal student, you mightâve gushed about it, maybe even bragged to your friends. After all, who wouldnât want the attention of someone like Sunghoon? The handsome, accomplished, and charming prefect. But you werenât anyone else. You werenât lesser. You knew exactly why he sought you outâand it wasnât because of some secret admiration.
He saw you as competition. You were an obstacle in his path to greatness. The two of you were always near the top of the class, always neck-and-neck, and he wasnât about to let someone else get ahead of him. You knew that much. He probably had plans of his ownâdreams of becoming an Auror, or securing some high-ranking position in the Ministry of Magic. He wasnât going to let anyone stand in his way. And you were the one standing there, blocking his path. He had to prove he was better, that he was the best. It was almost⊠inevitable.
But deep down, you started to realize that there was something more to it than that. Sunghoon wasnât just focused on outshining you academically. No. You had started to see the little thingsâthe moments when his eyes lingered a little too long, the rare flicker of something deeper in his expression when he caught you in the hall or across a classroom.
And it made you question: was there more to how he saw you than just another obstacle? Were you something else entirely?
You first started to figure it out years ago, back when you were in fourth year and the two of you shared a few classes. It was the first time youâd really noticed Sunghoon, in Astronomy class, of all places. You had been excited for that class, you had always been fascinated by space, by the endless expanse of stars and the way the moon seemed to shift and change. As a child, youâd spent countless hours lying on the grass, gazing up at the sky, watching the constellations dance. You hadnât thought twice about taking the class, certain youâd excel.
But you werenât the only one eager to impress the professor. No, there was another student who seemed just as invested, answering questions with ease, his knowledge sharp and quick. Youâd expected some competition, sureâbut it was the way he answered, the confidence with which he spoke, that made you take notice.
It was Sunghoon.
You could see it in his eyes, the surprise that mirrored your own. The realization that you werenât just any ordinary studentâno, you were just as capable, just as quick-witted as he was. And thatâs when it clicked: you werenât just another student to him. You were a challenge.
After class, youâd been making your way out of the room, mind already spinning with the next lesson. But then youâd turned a corner and found yourself face-to-face with him, Sunghoon standing in the hallway like he was waiting for you. You hadnât expected it, not at all.
âImpressive,â heâd said, raising an eyebrow. âYou always this good with the material?â
Youâd been taken aback, not quite sure how to respond, but something in his tone made you pause. At that point you werenât used to students, especially not someone like him, complimenting your intellect outright. And yet, there was something sharp about his words, something that made you feel like this wasnât just casual admiration.
âOf course,â you replied, instinctively meeting his challenge. âItâs not that difficult once you understand the basics.â
Sunghoon gave a smirk that only seemed to intensify the challenge. âSo,â he began, crossing his arms. âIf youâre as clever as you say, whatâs the difference between the Confundus Charm and the Misdirection Hex?â
You raised an eyebrow, unimpressed but entertained. âEasy. The Confundus Charm affects the mind, creating confusion and distorting a personâs perception, whereas the Misdirection Hex only creates a temporary distraction without altering any mental clarity.â
Sunghoon nodded, clearly expecting that youâd know the answer but not missing a beat. âFair enough. How about this oneââ he leaned in slightly, his eyes glinting, âif you were to brew Amortentia, whatâs the critical ingredient that activates the potionâs scent signature?â
You didnât even flinch. âMoonstone. Itâs the key to personalizing the scent and creating that pull, that... sense of longing,â you replied, a trace of smugness in your voice. âNow my turn.â
You watched him closely, his expression unchanging, as you asked, âWhatâs the main difference between Episkey and Vulnera Sanentur?â
Sunghoonâs gaze narrowed. âEpiskey is a basic healing charm that works for minor injuriesâusually cuts or bruises. Vulnera Sanentur, on the other hand, is far more advanced, and it actually seals major wounds, specifically stopping blood flow and beginning tissue repair.â
You smiled, only a little disappointed that he got it right. âWell done, Park,â you replied, crossing your arms.
But he wasnât done yet. With a slight tilt of his head, he said, âIf youâre so good, tell me, whatâs the incantation for a Hot-Air Charm, and when would it be used?â
âCalidus Aero,â you replied easily, rolling your eyes. âAnd itâs used to produce a continuous flow of warm air. Good for drying thingsâor keeping people warm.â
There was a slight twitch of his lips, as if he were amused that youâd added the last bit. âImpressive. But letâs see how you handle this one,â he continued, looking pleased. âWhatâs the effect of adding powdered Runespoor eggs to a Memory Potion?â
You paused for only a moment, narrowing your eyes at him. âIt sharpens the recall and clarity of recent memories, but it also makes them harder to alter or distort after the fact,â you replied, watching him carefully. âA good trick for Aurors needing airtight evidence in trials.â
There was a flicker of surprise in his expression, though he tried to hide it. âNot bad,â he admitted, a trace of a smile showing. âLooks like you know your potions.â He shifted, almost as if heâd found the whole exchange too easy. Then he gave you a lookâcalculated and challenging. âOne more. Whatâs the wand movement for the Incarcerous spell, and whatâs the incantation variation that makes the conjured ropes fireproof?â
You tried not to show that this one caught you off guard. âThe wand movement for Incarcerous is a firm downward flick, followed by a counterclockwise twirl,â you said carefully, a smirk forming as you gained confidence. âAnd the fireproof variation is Ignus Incarcerous.â
Sunghoon let out a low chuckle, a little begrudging, but impressed all the same.
Youâd hoped that after that, heâd leave it at that, yet, as you turned to leave, you felt his gaze on your back. And before you could walk away, he stopped you. You had expected something snide, maybe a remark about how youâd bested him, or how you were too proud. Instead, he spoke, his voice smooth, almost teasing.
âYouâre⊠smarter than I expected.â There was a pause, and then heâd added, âIn fact, youâre pretty impressive.â
You had frozen, not sure what to make of it. But then came the twist: the way he said it, the slight upturn of his lips, the almost flirtatious edge to his words. It caught you off guard.
You had been prepared for rivalry, for sharp competition, but not for that. Not for him to suddenly flirt with you. The change in his tone, the way his words softened, made you feel uneasy, but also... intrigued.
You hadnât known how to respond, but all you could do was walk away, your mind racing. SunghoonâPark Sunghoonâhad just complimented you with the kind of look that made your heart beat a little faster, even though you told yourself you hated him.
You had barely made it a few steps when you heard him call out, his voice smooth and teasing, like a final jab in a match you hadnât realized was over.
âNot bad at all,â Sunghoon said, the faintest hint of a smirk curling at his lips, his tone dipping slightly, as if it were more of a challenge than a compliment. âNice to know thereâs someone around here who can keep up.â
For a moment, your pulse quickened. You wanted to respond, to throw a witty retort back at him. But you couldnât find the wordsâbecause you didnât want to give him the satisfaction of seeing how much that one line had affected you.
Instead, you just stopped. You didnât turn around, not fully, but you allowed yourself one quick glance over your shoulder.
Sunghoon was standing there, looking perfectly composed, his hands tucked casually behind him, his eyes following you with that unreadable look. The smirk remained, but there was something different about it nowâless arrogant, more knowing. Almost like he was waiting for you to react, as if this small exchange was part of some game he wasnât finished playing yet.
Without a word, you turned back around and continued walking, your steps brisk, your mind swirling.
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You didnât usually talk to Sunghoon outside of classâthere was never much reason to. Your friend groups didnât overlap, and both of you had your own routines, different paths to follow. But somehow, that didnât stop him. No, every chance he got, Sunghoon would find a way to cross paths with you. Heâd come up to you before classes, lean against a wall, and throw in some teasing remark about the next lesson or slyly compliment you on your latest academic achievement. It was almost like clockwork.
âWell, well, if it isnât the star student,â he said, his tone playful but sharp. âBet youâve already memorized the entire textbook for todayâs lesson, havenât you?â
You rolled your eyes, not even breaking your stride. âYouâre the one whoâs obsessed with keeping up with every lesson, Sunghoon. Iâm just trying to avoid getting bored.â
He chuckled, pushing off from the door and walking alongside you. âRight, because youâre totally not the type to get caught up in the thrill of perfect grades.â His eyes twinkled with a mixture of admiration and challenge. âI guess Iâll just have to make sure you donât make it too easy for yourself.â
You smirked back, not missing a beat. âYouâre right, I donât like making things easy,â you said dryly. âBut Iâm sure youâre just trying to keep me on my toes, arenât you, Sunghoon?â
He shrugged with a grin. âIâm just keeping things interesting. Besides, I have a reputation to uphold.â
Another time, just before Transfiguration, you found him leaning against a pillar, twirling his wand with a practiced ease, his gaze catching yours as you approached.
âSo, tell me, have you figured out the secret to getting Transfiguration perfect every time, or do you just have some magic trick up your sleeve?â he asked, his voice low and teasing.
You answered, not at all phased. âI think youâd be more impressed if you actually paid attention during class instead of just showing off your wand skills, Sunghoon.â
He raised an eyebrow, clearly amused. âOh, I pay attention. But Iâm just more interested in seeing if you can stay on top of everything. Donât want to make it too easy for you, right?â
âYou wouldnât know what to do without a challenge, would you?â you shot back, giving him a sideways glance.
âYouâre right,â he said, his grin widening. âAnd itâs not every day I get to challenge someone like you.â
And alas every day, just before classes, there he was, making some comment that practically demanded a response. Youâd either fire back a witty remark of your own or just give him a deadpan look, as if you couldnât be bothered. And yet, heâd show up again the next day, and the cycle would repeat. It was a routine you both seemed to have unconsciously built into your days. Neither of you ever missed it, both being somewhat meticulous about perfect attendance.
At some point, you realized it was strange. You noticed that he never spoke to anyone else in quite the same way. No other girl at Hogwarts seemed to have the so-called privilege of Sunghoonâs attention, and it confused you beyond belief. It didnât make senseâhe was smart, popular, handsome. And yet, heâd somehow decided that teasing you was worth his time.
It wasnât until one late afternoon in the library that the thought came to a head. You were tutoring one of your Hufflepuff friends, helping her brush up on Transfiguration, when she looked at you with a knowing smile and just dropped it on you.
âI think Sunghoon likes you,â she said casually, as if it were the most obvious thing in the world.
You laughed it off immediately, shaking your head. âThatâs not possible. Sunghoon only likes people if they can help him get more house points,â you replied. âWhy would he like me?â
Your friend just shrugged, that same smile still on her face. âYouâre the only person he talks to like that,â she pointed out. âItâs like heâs constantly finding an excuse to be around you.â
You tried to ignore it, brush it off as one of her theories. But later, when you were alone, you couldnât shake her words from your mind. You thought back to every interaction youâd seen between Sunghoon and other students, particularly girls. The more you thought about it, the more you realized it was true: youâd never once seen him act the same way around another girl. In fact, you couldnât remember him ever dating anyone. Despite the whispers in the corridors and the way some girls openly admired him, he never seemed interested. No, youâd seen him reject more of them than you could count.
But with you... things were different.
You didnât know what to make of it. Sunghoon had always been that one puzzle you couldnât solve. He was unpredictable, throwing in little remarks as if heâd calculated your every reaction.
If he did like you, it would mean something you hadnât prepared for. It would mean youâd been wrong about himâor, at least, about why he kept coming back to you.
Maybe that was why you found yourself in the library a little later than usual, searching for one specific book. The library was quieter than it had been all day, with only a handful of students still scattered between the rows of shelves, their heads buried in their books. Madam Pince was busy sorting through a stack of newly returned books at the far end of the room, so you figured youâd have some peace and quiet to yourself.
Youâd been meaning to find this particular book for a while. The only problem was that you hadnât seen it in the library for months. The last time youâd seen it, it had caught your eye when one of your Gryffindor friends had been flipping through its pages in the common room. You hadnât been able to get a good look at it, but now, as you found it tucked away in the far corner, you couldnât help the small smile that tugged at your lips.
You pulled the book off the shelf carefully, balancing it in your hands as you climbed down the ladder. The title read âFiguring and Tackling Your Feelings.â It was something about sorting through emotions, a guide that, frankly, seemed more like it belonged in the realm of self-help than anything academic. You werenât sure why it had piqued your interest so much, but you were eager to take a closer look, especially now with everything on your mind.
Before you could fully inspect the cover, a voice came from behind you, low and familiar.
âWell, well. What do we have here?â Sunghoonâs voice cut through the silence of the library like a knife.
You jumped, startled, spinning around instinctively to hide the book behind your back. Your heart skipped a beat as you tried to regain your composure. There he stood, leaning casually against a nearby shelf, eyes already trained on you with that signature smirk of his.
âWhat are you doing here, Sunghoon?â you asked, your tone betraying the sudden flurry of nerves. You couldnât help it. The last thing you needed right now was for him to get a glimpse of what you were holding.
âMe? Oh, nothing,â he said with a shrug, his eyes flicking to the book behind your back. âBut you, on the other hand⊠reading ahead, are we?â
You narrowed your eyes at him. âItâs none of your business,â you said quickly, trying to keep your voice steady.
He raised an eyebrow, clearly amused. âIs that so?â His steps were slow and deliberate as he moved closer to you, a glint of mischief in his eyes. âYou know, itâs not like you to hide books behind your back. Whatâs got you so secretive?â
Before you could stop him, his hand darted toward the book, attempting to grab it from behind your back. Reflexively, you twisted away, turning just enough so that he couldnât get his hands on it. You managed to get a better grip on the book, but Sunghoon wasnât backing off. In fact, he seemed to be enjoying the little game.
âOh no, you donât,â you muttered, trying to hold the book out of his reach. âStop trying to grab it.â
Sunghoon just grinned, his gaze never leaving the book. âCome on, just let me see it. You know, I always find it fascinating when people start acting so mysterious about things.â
You twirled around again, moving just a little faster than him this time, keeping the book hidden behind you. The bookâs cover was almost too easy to read from his angle, and you couldnât help but wonder if heâd noticed the title.
âWhy are you so curious about what Iâm reading?â you shot back, hoping the question would throw him off balance.
His grin widened. âMaybe I just like seeing how you react. Youâve always been so⊠poised. I wonder if thereâs more to you than the perfect student.â His voice dropped a little, a note of challenge creeping in. âCome on, just give it to me. Youâre not that afraid of a little friendly competition, are you?â
You felt your cheeks flush slightly, the teasing getting to you. âItâs not about competition,â you muttered, taking another step back to keep the book away from his prying fingers. âJust⊠drop it, alright?â
His eyes flickered to the book once more, then back to you. âFine, fine,â he said, throwing his hands up in mock surrender. âBut youâre really not going to let me see what youâre reading? Youâre too mysterious for your own good.â
You exhaled, trying to calm your racing heart as you finally straightened up, no longer trying to keep it hidden. âItâs just a book. Nothing important.â
He tilted his head, eyeing you with that all-too-knowing look. âUh-huh,â he said, clearly unconvinced.
And with that, he turned and strolled away, his footsteps echoing softly through the nearly empty library.
You let out a long breath, the book still in your hands, but your mind now racing in a way it hadnât been before. Why had you reacted like that? What was it about Sunghoonâs teasing that got under your skin so easily?
You couldnât shake the feeling that Sunghoon had seen right through youâlike he always did. As the library door closed behind you, you felt a strange sense of relief mixed with lingering unease. You hadnât expected that interaction to leave you so rattled. It was just Sunghoon, right? Yet, there was something about his persistence, the way he kept pushing you, that had thrown you off balance.
The book was still tucked under your arm as you made your way out of the library and toward your common room. You tried to focus on the cool, quiet hallways of Hogwarts, the flickering torches lighting your path. The winding corridors, usually so familiar, now seemed almost too vast, too empty.
The sound of your footsteps echoed as you passed through the hallway, heading toward the familiar portrait that would let you into your common room. You had to hurry; curfew was close, and Madam Pince had already given you a warning for lingering too long in the library.
As you reached the entrance to your common room, you glanced over your shoulder, just in time to catch a shadow move in the corner of your vision. But when you turned fully, the hallway was empty, just the faint echo of your own footsteps following you.
You shrugged it off. You must have imagined it.
With a quick word, the portrait swung open, and you stepped inside, relieved to be back in the warmth of your common room.
Outside, beyond the walls of the common room, Sunghoon stood hidden in the shadows, leaning against a pillar just out of sight, watching you go. His eyes lingered a moment longer than necessary before he turned and slowly disappeared into the shadows. He walked through the dimly lit hallways, his footsteps echoing softly in the quiet night. He hadnât intended to follow you; it wasnât some grand plan.
Heâd tried to convince himself it was just curiosityânothing more. After all, you were the only one who seemed to keep up with him in class. You challenged him, and thatâs what heâd always thrived on.
And it was like he couldnât not think about you. And that frustrated him.
He never expected you to be this⊠enigmatic. No one else had ever caught his attention like thisânot like you did. It was a puzzle, one that didnât make sense, and yet the more he tried to figure you out, the more complicated and captivating you became.
You had this effortless confidence, a sharp wit that matched his, but you werenât like the other students heâd come across. You werenât trying to impress anyone, not even him. There was something in your eyes when youâd deflect his teasing, a glimmer of something he couldnât place. You didnât give him the satisfaction of reacting the way he expected, and that drove him mad.
Sunghoon pushed a hand through his hair, his thoughts tangled as he navigated the winding corridors of Hogwarts. He shouldnât be thinking about you so much. There were other things to focus onâother students, other challenges, other ways to advance. Yet, every time he tried to shake it off, his mind would return to you.
How had you managed to enrapture him so effortlessly? He wasnât the type of person to become so⊠fixated. Yet here he was, walking through the darkened halls, and all he could think about was you. You never played by the same rules as everyone else, and that intrigued him more than he cared to admit.
No. He couldnât let himself get tangled up in this. You were a challenge, just like heâd always wanted. You were nothing more than that, right?
But even as he told himself this, Sunghoon couldnât shake the feeling that there was something elseâsomething moreâthat was pulling him toward you.
--
You sat at your desk in Potions class, the scratch of your quill against parchment the only sound filling the otherwise quiet classroom. Snapeâs voice droned on, but your mind kept drifting. You had hoped for a peaceful class todayâone where you could focus on the lesson without the usual distractions. But of course, it didnât take long for that hope to be dashed.
The seat next to you, which had been occupied by a nervous Hufflepuff just moments ago, was now filled by none other than Park Sunghoon.
You didnât look up immediately when he sat down. You had caught the tail end of his glare directed at the Hufflepuff, whose wide eyes had flicked from Sunghoonâs cold stare to you in a silent plea. In an instant, the Hufflepuff had scurried off, leaving the seat beside you vacant for Sunghoon to claim.
A small sigh escaped your lips, but you didnât let it show. Instead, you focused on your notes, carefully copying the ingredients Snape was listing for the potion you were about to brew. You wouldnât let him distract you, not this time. The class was important, and the competition was heating up, especially with exams just around the corner.
You could feel the subtle shift in the air with Sunghoon settled beside you. But today, he didnât say anything. Not a word. He simply unpacked his books, setting them down with a quiet precision, and began his own notes. It was almost too quiet, too⊠calm. It was rare that he didnât start a conversation, especially considering the usual banter you both shared.
The fact that he was acting so reserved, while sitting so close to you, made you all the more aware of the faint tension between you. It was like he was waiting for you to say something first. But you wouldnât. Not this time.
You kept your focus on your parchment, the quill moving smoothly as you wrote. It was an exercise in patience, in ignoring the small things: the way his sleeve brushed yours as he leaned over to grab an ingredient, the soft rustling of his books as he turned pages. You didnât let your mind wander. You wouldnât.
Yet, no matter how much you tried to ignore him, you felt the pull of his presence, as if he were a magnet. You stole a glance at him out of the corner of your eye. He was scribbling down notes too, but there was something different about the way he held his quill, the way his eyes flicked to the board and then to the ingredients list. He was concentrating, but you knew it wasnât just the potion he was thinking about.
The realization hit you a little too late: He was watching you.
Your quill faltered for just a second before you steadied it again, keeping your eyes on the board. You couldnât ignore the small, almost imperceptible glance he threw at you from time to time. It was the kind of look that made you question whether he was as unfazed as he appearedâor if, like you, he was just trying to hold his composure.
The class ended bit too soon, but not before you felt that pull again. Before you could gather your things, Sunghoon stood up, his chair scraping the floor with a soft sound. He didnât look at you as he walked away, but you couldnât help but feel the weight of his gaze linger on your back as you packed up your belongings.
--
The class was buzzing with quiet energy as Professor Snape swept into the room, his black robes billowing behind him as he made his way to the front. You could feel the usual hum of anticipation ripple through the classroom as he began with his first question, his gaze sharp and probing.
Without fail, Sunghoon was seated right beside you. He had strolled in at the last possible second and taken the empty seat before you could even think about moving. It was a position that had become an unspoken habit between the two of youâa silent agreement that this was where you would always sit, even if neither of you admitted it out loud.
âWho can tell me the primary function of wolfsbane in this potion?â Snapeâs gaze swept across the class, but it settled almost immediately on you.
You raised your hand automatically, but just as you opened your mouth to answer, Sunghoonâs voice cut through the air. âThe primary function of wolfsbane is to suppress the transformation of a werewolf. But specifically, in this potion, itâs used to temper the effects, making the potion safe for consumption by those with lycanthropic tendencies.â
Your jaw clenched, and you quickly chimed in, âThatâs true, but wolfsbaneâs reaction with belladonna is crucial to ensure the potion is actually effective. Otherwise, you risk a rapid breakdown of the ingredients, and the potion loses its potency within hours.â
A faint smirk played on Sunghoonâs lips as he turned slightly to face you, his eyes glinting with a mixture of challenge and amusement. âOf course,â he said, his voice low enough for only you to hear, âbut thatâs only if the brewer doesnât know how to stabilize the reaction properly.â
âOh, so youâre saying you know better than the author of âPotions for Practical Applicationâ?â You raised an eyebrow, the hint of a challenge in your voice.
Snapeâs voice sliced through your exchange. âIf the two of you are quite finished,â he said dryly, âperhaps youâd like to enlighten the rest of the class.â
You both looked up, not missing the faint irritation in his expression. And yet, as he crossed his arms and raised an eyebrow, he seemed almost amused. If Snape enjoyed one thing in his classes, it was competent studentsâbut if he enjoyed two things, it was watching competent students try to one-up each other.
With a quick glance at Sunghoon, you cleared your throat and addressed the rest of the class, your voice steady. âWolfsbane, also known as aconite, stabilizes the transformation process. But the reason belladonna is needed in the mixture is because it counters the initial toxicity of the aconite.â
Sunghoon jumped in seamlessly, his tone smooth. âExactly. Aconite alone could be harmful, but combined with the right ingredients, it actually makes the potion effective. Belladonna slows down the rate of the potionâs effect, balancing the intensity.â
You could see Snapeâs eyes narrow just a fraction, clearly considering whether heâd allow this back-and-forth to continue. He hadnât interrupted yet, though, and so you didnât hold back.
âThat only works, though,â you continued, âif the potion is brewed at precisely the right temperature. A variance of even one degree could cause the aconite to overpower the belladonna, which is why attention to detail is critical here.â
Sunghoon leaned back in his chair, crossing his arms. âTrue. But Iâd argue that anyone whoâs capable of brewing at an advanced level should be able to handle such minor details.â He cast a sideways glance at you. âWouldnât you agree?â
You narrowed your eyes, resisting the urge to roll them. He was enjoying this far too much. âPerhaps. Though, as they say, perfectionists always notice the minor details others miss.â
âImplying Iâm not a perfectionist?â he asked, raising an eyebrow. His tone was light, but you could sense the competitive edge in it.
You shrugged, giving him a look of feigned innocence. âJust that you might not be as exacting as some of us.â
Before he could retort, Snape stepped in, his voice a mixture of impatience and reluctant amusement. âMiss Y/L/N. Mr. Park. While I am deeply fascinated by your thorough analysis, the class may benefit from a more structured approach.â He glanced around at the other students, who were watching you and Sunghoon with a mix of curiosity and amusement.
Your cheeks flushed as you turned back to your notes, feeling a rush of heat from Sunghoonâs lingering gaze. But Snape wasnât done.
âIn fact, why donât you both demonstrate your understanding?â Snape gestured to the cauldron at the front of the room. âBrew the potion together. Letâs see if your theoretical knowledge holds up under practical application.â
You felt the tension shift as Sunghoon pushed himself up from his chair, casting a smirk in your direction. âLetâs see if you can keep up, then,â he murmured as he moved to the front.
Swallowing your nerves, you followed him, setting out the ingredients with practiced ease. As you worked, the rivalry simmered just beneath the surface. Sunghoon was methodical, careful with each step, yet he didnât miss an opportunity to toss a teasing comment your way.
âCareful,â he said at one point, his voice low. âThatâs a lot of aconite youâre adding there. Are you sure youâre not trying to mess up the potion to make a point?â
You shot him a look. âMaybe I just donât trust you to brew this properly without a little oversight.â
His eyes glinted. âFunny, because I was about to say the same thing to you.â
The two of you continued in this vein, quietly exchanging barbs as you measured, stirred, and added ingredients with exacting precision.
When the potion was nearly complete, you both paused, watching as the liquid in the cauldron shifted from murky green to a smooth, midnight blueâthe exact color it was supposed to be.
Sunghoon tilted his head, a smile tugging at the corner of his mouth. âNot bad,â he said softly, his voice barely above a whisper.
You met his gaze, a smirk of your own forming. âCould say the same to you.â
The rest of the class continued in much the same way, the tension between you and Sunghoon thick as you both remained locked in your rivalry. As Professor Snape continued his lesson, you and Sunghoon each made sure to answer his questions before the other could, each answer delivered with just enough confidence to imply you had known it all along.
Every now and then, youâd catch Sunghoon looking your way, a small, knowing smile on his face, as if he could read every thought running through your mind.
Just as you were jotting down notes on the final instructions for the potion, a Ravenclaw beside you leaned over. âHey, Y/N,â she whispered, âcan I borrow your notes from last week? Iâm a bit behind.â
Before you could even respond, you noticed a shift beside you. From the corner of your eye, you saw Sunghoonâs expression harden. His jaw clenched as he shot the Ravenclaw a sharp look, his gaze practically daring her to linger a moment longer.
She hesitated, glancing between you and Sunghoon before quickly saying, âYou know what, never mind. Iâll, uh, figure it out.â With that, she scurried off, leaving you a bit bewildered.
You turned back to your notes, only to feel Sunghoon relax beside you, leaning back in his chair with a casual air as if nothing had happened. His expression softened, the subtle smirk youâd come to expect making its return. You rolled your eyes, not bothering to address it as you continued your notes. But before long, another student tried to approach.
This time, it was a Gryffindor who slipped you a folded note with a question on todayâs potion. But before you could even open it, you noticed that same glint in Sunghoonâs eyes, like he was quietly measuring the other studentâs worth. His glare was steely, his gaze intense enough that, once again, your classmate seemed to change their mind about talking to you at all. The Gryffindor muttered a quiet apology and quickly returned to their seat.
You couldnât help but cast a sidelong glance at Sunghoon, raising an eyebrow at his now placid expression. He noticed and merely gave a slight shrug, as if to say he hadnât done a thing. It was infuriatingly typical of him, acting as if he hadnât just sent two students retreating.
âWhatâs your problem?â you whispered, leaning in slightly.
Sunghoonâs smirk deepened. âNo problem. Just keeping distractions to a minimum.â
You scoffed, your irritation clear, but deep down, a part of you wondered why he even cared.
But then Snapeâs voice cut through the room, calling for silence, and you both snapped back to attention, the rivalry and tension settling between you once more.
As you walked out of the dungeon, feeling the cool stone hallway stretch out in front of you, you were met by two Gryffindor students waiting just outside. They exchanged a glance, visibly relieved as you approached, and one of them quickly stepped forward.
âHey, Y/N,â he began, rubbing the back of his neck awkwardly. âWe were wondering if you could maybe tutor us in Potions? Weâre both, uh⊠struggling with it, to say the least.â
His friend nodded, looking equally sheepish. âYeah, we could really use the help.â
Before you could answer, though, you felt a presence at your side. Sunghoon had followed you out, his usual calm but intense demeanor practically radiating as he watched the two Gryffindors. His gaze hardened, and he didnât waste a second before stepping between you and them.
âYou two really have nothing better to do than pester her?â he asked, his tone dismissive, his glare enough to make them visibly uncomfortable.
The Gryffindors exchanged glances, shuffling back slightly, but they didnât say anything. They seemed intimidated, but they didnât seem like they were about to give up so easily. You sighed, shooting Sunghoon an exasperated look.
âSunghoon, relax,â you muttered, rolling your eyes. You turned back to the two Gryffindors, who looked both embarrassed and desperate, and crossed your arms.
âFine,â you told them, sighing. âMeet me in the library tomorrow. Iâll give you some pointers then.â
The two of them beamed, nodding quickly, and mumbled their thanks before heading off, leaving you alone with Sunghoon, who was still watching them as if theyâd offended him personally.
As they turned the corner, Sunghoon glanced at you, a frown tugging at his lips. âYou didnât have to agree, you know,â he said, his tone more casual now, though there was still a trace of irritation. âTheyâre just looking for an easy answer.â
You gave him a look, shaking your head slightly. âNot everything is about competition, Sunghoon. Maybe they actually need help.â
He scoffed, a smirk curling at his lips. âWhatever you say. Are you coming, or are you too busy playing tutor?â
There was a brief moment of hesitation on your part. You hadnât planned on sticking around with him after class, especially after his little standoff with your would-be students. But as his gaze settled on you, something about his expressionâpart expectant, part unreadableâmade it hard to refuse.
With an exasperated roll of your eyes, you gave in. âFine, lead the way.â
He smirked, clearly satisfied, and turned to walk down the hall. You fell into step beside him, the two of you moving together in silence.
Sunghoon led you through the winding corridors of Hogwarts, weaving up narrow staircases and into passages you were sure most students didnât even know about. You were tempted to ask him what he was up to, but a strange, quiet curiosity kept you following him, even when you caught yourself glancing back, half-considering turning around. But you couldnât deny your curiosityâand a reluctant trust in him, strange as it felt.
Finally, you reached a narrow staircase that led up to one of the less-frequented towers. âHere we are,â he said.
You stared at a latch, then at him. âWhat is this place?â
He didnât answer immediately, instead climbing ahead of you, reaching up to open the concealed latch in the ceiling. With a glance down at you, he climbed up, disappearing through the opening.
You glanced around the empty hallway, biting your lip.
When he poked his head back down and raised an eyebrow. âAre you coming?â you sighed and climbed up after him, finding yourself in a tiny, dusty attic space. The room was cramped, with wooden beams crossing over the low ceiling and tiny, dusty windows letting in a dim glow. There wasnât a sound in the air; no one ever came up here.
âWhatâs this about, Sunghoon?â you asked, crossing your arms, unable to keep a note of suspicion out of your voice. But he only smirked, taking your wrist and gently pulling you over to the corner of the room where a small wooden chest lay against the wall.
He lifted the lid, revealing a small creature nestled inside. You took a step closer, gasping softly as you recognized the little, dark-furred niffler, its leg twisted at an awkward angle, clearly hurt. You shot Sunghoon a surprised look, and he rubbed the back of his neck, almost sheepish.
âI, uh⊠I remembered you seemed to know a lot about magical creatures,â he said, his voice quieter, less sure than usual. âSaw it struggling outside the castle, and I thought⊠well, I figured you might know what to do with it.â
For a moment, you simply stared, taken aback by his unexpected gentleness. You knelt down beside the chest, assessing the nifflerâs condition. âIt looks like it twisted its leg pretty badly,â you murmured, brushing your fingers carefully over the creatureâs fur as it whimpered, its small, dark eyes wide with trust and pain.
The niffler shivered, glancing up at you before letting out a soft chitter, its tiny paw reaching up to clutch your finger as you whispered calming words.
âItâs okay, little one,â you murmured, gently lifting the niffler into your arms. Sunghoon stepped back a little, allowing you space to work, and you couldnât help but notice how quietly he was watching you, not saying a word.
You checked its leg, gently feeling around the injury. It wasnât too severe, but it would need some attention. âThe little guy will be okay. You just have to be careful with creatures like theseâthey can get skittish when theyâre hurt.â
Sunghoon nodded, his gaze fixed on the niffler as you worked. You pulled out your wand, muttering the appropriate healing charms as you carefully mended its leg. The niffler let out a small chirp, its fur fluffing out in relief as it finally settled in your arms.
âYou know,â Sunghoon said, breaking the silence, âI didnât expect you to be so good with magical creatures.â You glanced up, meeting his gaze, which was unexpectedly warm, his usual guarded expression softened.
âMaybe thereâs a lot you donât know about me,â you replied, a teasing lilt to your voice.
Sunghoon smiled faintly, watching as you wrapped the nifflerâs leg with careful precision, almost as if seeing you in a new light. âGuess Iâll just have to keep finding excuses to learn, then,â he said.
With a final wave of your wand, the nifflerâs leg was mended. Almost immediately, the little creature perked up, chirping happily as if testing out its newfound mobility. A small smile tugged at your lips as the niffler wobbled in your lap, nudging your hand before, quick as a flash, its tiny paw darted toward the shiny badge pinned on your robes.
âHey!â you laughed, reaching for the niffler as it tugged at your prefect badge, determined to add it to whatever imaginary hoard it was building in its mind.
Sunghoon chuckled from where he stood, leaning against the wall with his arms crossed, his gaze following the little creatureâs antics. âLooks like it has a good eye for treasure,â he said, his tone playful. The niffler, clearly encouraged by his approval, squeaked and tugged harder, and you could only laugh as you tried to wrestle it gently away from your badge.
âAlright, alright, little troublemaker,â you said, scratching behind its ear, âI guess youâre all healed up.â The niffler chirped, clearly satisfied with itself, and settled back in your lap, peering up at you with big, curious eyes.
Sunghoon tilted his head, that faint smile still lingering. âYou know, you have to name him now,â he said, as if it was the most obvious thing in the world.
You raised an eyebrow, glancing down at the niffler. âName him? Isnât he a bit too⊠mischievous to settle for a name?â But as you looked into its wide, shining eyes, you felt a tug of fondness you couldnât quite ignore.
Sunghoon shrugged, his tone a bit lighter than usual. âWell, you canât just heal him and leave him unnamed. Plus, heâll probably come back to find you if you give him a name.â
You bit back a smile, glancing at the niffler again. âAlright, fine.â After a momentâs thought, you looked back up at Sunghoon, the beginnings of an idea forming. âWhat about Spark? Since heâs so keen on shiny things.â
Sunghoonâs eyes crinkled slightly as he considered it. âSpark,â he echoed thoughtfully, and then nodded. âI like it. Seems fitting, for a niffler thatâs already made it his mission to steal from a Hogwarts prefect.â
The nifflerânow dubbed Sparkâchirped in approval, as if satisfied with his new name. He scrambled back onto your lap, one paw still reaching toward your badge, his nose twitching.
As you watched Spark dart playfully around the room, you looked at Sunghoon and nodded toward the door. âWe should probably take him to Hagrid. Heâll know how to take care of a niffler better than we can.â
Sunghoon nodded, and with a final scratch behind Sparkâs ear, you tucked the little creature into the crook of your arm. As you and Sunghoon quietly made your way down the towerâs staircase and through the darkened hallways, Spark scampered excitedly between the two of you, chirping and squeaking in delight. Every now and then, heâd jump from your shoulder to Sunghoonâs, nuzzling close and tugging at a stray lock of his hair.
When you finally stepped out onto the moonlit grounds, Spark scrambled up Sunghoonâs arm and settled atop his head, tugging at the strands as if trying to style his hair. Sunghoon rolled his eyes but didnât make any real effort to dislodge him.
As you arrived at Hagridâs hut, Sunghoon reached up to knock on the door, but Spark clung stubbornly to his head, chirping with the excitement of a mischievous child. Hagridâs warm, booming voice called from inside, and a moment later, he opened the door, his eyes lighting up when he saw the small creature atop Sunghoonâs head.
âWhat in Merlinâs beard⊠is that a niffler on yer head, Sunghoon?â Hagridâs laughter was deep and genuine as he looked between the two of you.
You couldnât help but laugh as well, reaching up to grab Spark gently from Sunghoonâs head. As you tugged the niffler free, you couldnât help but notice the state of Sunghoonâs hairâit was thoroughly mussed, thanks to Sparkâs playful grasping. âWe found him hurt,â you explained to Hagrid as you cradled Spark, who snuggled into your arms with a satisfied chirp. âWe patched him up a bit, but we figured heâd be in better hands with you. Could you take care of him?â
Hagridâs face softened as he looked at Spark, his expression a mixture of fondness and excitement. âCourse, Iâll look after the little rascal. Nifflers can be tricky, but they got good hearts.â Beside him, Fang barked happily, his tail thumping against the ground as he trotted up to you.
Grinning, you crouched down, running your hands through Fangâs thick fur as he nuzzled your hand. âHey, Fang! Missed you too, big guy,â you murmured, scratching him behind the ears. Fang let out a pleased rumble, leaning into your touch.
As Hagrid took Spark from your hands, the niffler let out a mournful little chirp, his dark eyes fixed on you and Sunghoon as if he already missed you. Hagrid chuckled, petting Sparkâs head. âLooks like heâs taken quite the likinâ to you two! I reckon heâll be a handful. But donât worry, Iâll make sure heâs well cared for.â With a wave, Hagrid gently closed the door, and you and Sunghoon turned back toward the castle.
Walking side by side through the quiet grounds, Sunghoon was still trying to tame his hair, grumbling softly as he ran his hands through it. Smiling, you reached out, gently pushing his hands away. âLet me,â you said softly, reaching up to smooth down his tousled locks.
Sunghoon was silent, watching you as you worked, and when you finally stepped back, satisfied, he looked at you with a softened expression. âThanks,â he murmured, his voice unusually quiet, his gaze lingering on you just a little longer than usual.
You lowered your hand, feeling a bit self-conscious under his gaze, the gentle night air cool against your cheeks. âYouâre welcome,â you replied, glancing away as a faint warmth crept up your neck.
For a few steps, the two of you walked in comfortable silence, the soft crunch of gravel beneath your feet the only sound. The castle loomed ahead, its towers silhouetted against the dark, star-strewn sky.
âYou know,â Sunghoon finally spoke, his voice low but warm, âyou didnât have to help with Spark back there. Couldâve just let me figure it out on my own.â
You scoffed lightly, nudging him with your elbow. âOh, please. Youâd have probably spent half the night just trying to get him off your head,â you teased, raising an eyebrow. âBesides, I like helping out with creatures. Itâs⊠peaceful.â
Sunghoon gave a soft chuckle, nodding. âCanât argue with that. Youâre a natural,â he added, the corner of his mouth lifting in a half-smile. âIâve never seen you like that before.â
âLike what?â You turned your head to look at him, slightly caught off guard by his tone.
âSoft. I mean, not that youâre⊠not usually. Just⊠different,â he mumbled, running a hand over his head again, his gaze darting to the side as if searching for words. âMaybe itâs nice to see you care about something.â
A quiet chuckle escaped your lips as you shoved your hands into your pockets, your steps slowing. âI care about things. Just not usually things that⊠require all that much attention.â
Sunghoon stopped, turning toward you, his gaze intense yet gentle. âWell, it seems youâve got another talent to add to the list,â he said quietly. âEven if I donât see this⊠soft side very often.â
You could feel your face warm under his stare, an unspoken understanding passing between you. âWell, maybe Iâll show it a bit more⊠if you promise to keep your teasing to a minimum,â you countered, smiling slightly.
He raised his hands in mock surrender. âAlright, alright. Only some teasing,â he replied, but there was a warmth behind his usual smirk, a hint of something more.
As you reached the entrance to the castle, you both paused, lingering in the cool shadows of the towering walls. Neither of you seemed ready to break the quiet moment. Eventually, you took a breath, giving him a final look. âGoodnight, Sunghoon.â
He nodded, his eyes still on you. âGoodnight,â he replied softly.
The next day, the routine rivalry between you and Sunghoon was as intense as ever, starting with the very first class. Snape had just handed back a round of potion assignments, and as you flipped through your parchment, you smirked at the sight of your high score. But your satisfaction was short-lived; Sunghoon leaned back in his seat beside you, carelessly waving his own assignment in the air, flashing a score just a fraction higher than yours.
You shot him a look that was equal parts irritation and challenge. âI guess perfection just comes naturally to some,â he murmured, his smirk widening as he glanced at your page. You couldnât stop your glare from hardening as you rolled your eyes and muttered under your breath.
Throughout the day, this pattern continued in every class. Whenever you scored higher, heâd fall silent, his eyes narrowed in a glare as he examined his own work with a slight pout. If he managed to get the higher score, youâd feel your face flush in annoyance, lips pressed into a thin line as you begrudgingly accepted the tiny triumph. Each question the teachers posed became a mini-battle between the two of you. If you answered first, Sunghoon would scoff and find some way to counter your response with an added detail or correction; if he answered first, youâd find a way to elaborate on it with an extra flourish.
Eventually, in Charms, your constant back-and-forth about the finer points of nonverbal spells escalated to a full-blown debate. You could feel the classâs eyes on you both as you threw arguments back and forth, neither willing to back down until the professor finally cut in, moving to the next topic with an exasperated sigh.
When classes finally ended, you found yourself surrounded by a few Gryffindor and Ravenclaw students, all hoping youâd tutor them in some area or another. But before any of them could get too close, Sunghoon would somehow find his way into the middle, stepping forward with a cool glare that would make them hesitate. Without even noticing his interference, you were too busy rambling to him about magical creatures, hardly noticing as students reluctantly slipped away.
ââŠAnd the phoenix? Did you know they have regeneration abilities not just for themselves but that their tears can heal practically anything? Itâs almost like a superpower,â you said animatedly, your eyes lighting up as you explained.
Sunghoonâs small, genuine smile went unnoticed by you, his eyes studying your expressions as you spoke. âYou know,â he said after a moment, âyou really get lost when youâre talking about them.â
You shrugged, unfazed. âWhy wouldnât I? Thereâs so much to learn, so much to explore. Donât you ever feel like that about anything?â
His smile grew softer, almost thoughtful. âYeah⊠I think I do,â he said, not taking his eyes off you. But you were too caught up in your own excitement to notice the way he looked at you, as if he had found something worth exploring right here.
You barely noticed the way Sunghoonâs eyes softened as you went on about the different habitats of magical creatures, caught up in sharing the things you loved. He seemed entirely focused on you, even as the hallway grew emptier, his usual sharp edge melting into a quieter attentiveness that he rarely showed.
As you two walked, he seemed to subtly steer you, ensuring other students didnât approach with requests or questions. The few who tried to interrupt received one of Sunghoonâs cool, silent glares, and it was enough to make them think twice. But his attention never wavered from you, and you barely noticed anyone else around.
ââŠSo Iâm hoping to go on expeditions one day,â you said with a small smile, glancing up at him as you walked. âI want to see these creatures in the wild and understand their behaviors.â
Sunghoon looked at you, his gaze warm yet intent. âYou really mean that,â he murmured.
âOf course I do,â you replied, almost laughing. âI thought everyone knew that by now.â
His faint smile returned. âMaybe not everyone. But⊠I do.â
You blinked at the sudden seriousness in his tone, and for a moment, you were struck by the way he was looking at youâas if there was something heâd been meaning to say, something he was wrestling with. But as quickly as the moment surfaced, it was gone; he looked away, shoving his hands in his pockets.
âAnyway,â he said, clearing his throat. âGuess Iâll have to find something just as impressive to match that.â
You rolled your eyes, scoffing. âGood luck with that. Youâll have to work a lot harder to keep up.â
A smirk flashed across his face. âChallenge accepted,â he said quietly.
--
As you sat with the two Gryffindor students in the quiet corner of the library, the sunlight filtering through the high windows, you felt a sense of satisfaction in guiding them through the complexities of potions. They were both scrambling to keep up, flipping pages in their textbooks and frantically jotting down notes as you explained each component's properties and how they interacted.
After a moment, you paused to ask a question, gesturing to the list of ingredients for the Draught of Peace. âWhich ingredient in this potion helps to reduce anxiety but can cause drowsiness in high doses?â
One of the boys squinted at his notes before raising his hand tentatively. âUm⊠powdered moonstone?â
You nodded, a small smile crossing your lips. âExactly. Well done.â
He grinned, looking quite pleased with himself, then gave his friend a smug slap on the shoulder. âSee? Told you I was getting the hang of this,â he boasted, earning an eye-roll from his friend.
âDonât get too cocky,â you warned, a teasing edge to your voice. âOne right answer doesnât make you a Potions Master.â
He chuckled sheepishly, but it was clear he was still basking in your praise.
As the lesson went on, you glanced up for a moment, and your eyes caught sight of a familiar figure leaning against the edge of a nearby shelf: Sunghoon. He was watching the entire scene with his usual unreadable expression, arms crossed and a subtle smirk on his face, as if he found the whole situation amusing.
Rolling your eyes, you turned your focus back to the Gryffindors, deciding to ignore him. But despite your best efforts, you couldnât shake the awareness of his gaze. The two Gryffindors seemed completely oblivious to Sunghoonâs presence, but every now and then, you caught him subtly stepping closer, listening in.
Finally, you finished your explanations, assigning them a few practice problems to work on in their own time. They thanked you, relief written on their faces as they gathered their things to leave.
As they left, Sunghoon sauntered over, raising an eyebrow at you. âYou seem awfully generous with praise,â he remarked, a hint of amusement in his voice.
âOh, donât start,â you replied, rolling your eyes again as you closed your textbook. âIâm just trying to help them pass Potions. They donât have to be my rivals.â
âLucky for them,â he said, chuckling softly. Then he leaned in slightly, his voice lowering, âBut Iâd like to think Iâm the only one who gets to compete with you.â
You rolled your eyes and pulled out a worn notebook and a slightly tattered copy of Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them by Newt Scamander from your bag, flipping to a page you had been absorbed in earlier. Your notes were meticulous and precise, with a small sketch of a selkie in the margin, its sleek form and dark eyes captured with surprising detail.
Sunghoon noticed immediately, his gaze drifting to the open book and your notes. He shifted his chair a little closer, leaning in to get a better look. "Whatâs all this?" he asked, clearly intrigued.
âOh, just some of my own notes,â you replied casually, though you couldnât deny the flicker of excitement at the chance to explain. âIâm copying parts of the book, adding some of my observations. Seeââ You pointed to a note on selkies. âThese markings here help them blend in with the seaweed, which makes them nearly invisible in shallow waters. Clever, right?â
Sunghoon nodded, and you could see the interest in his expression as he continued to study the page. Emboldened, you moved on, âAnd thisââ you pointed to another entry, flipping a few pages to a section on kelpies. âIf you ever encounter a kelpie, you should look out for water plants on its back; they often disguise themselves as beautiful horses near the shore to lure people into the water.â
âOr here, in this section on Acromantulas,â you continued, your excitement getting the better of you. âIf you ever come across an Acromantula lair, the air will feel damp and oddly warm, almost like a warning. They leave webs that catch the light differently than normal spider websâtheyâre shinier, with a silver tint.â
Sunghoonâs smirk softened, replaced by something you couldnât quite place. âYou really know your stuff,â he said softly, the admiration clear in his voice.
You glanced away, suddenly a little self-conscious under his gaze. âI just⊠really like learning about magical creatures,â you admitted with a shrug. âI think theyâre fascinating.â
Sunghoon let out a low chuckle. âI think youâre fascinating,â he murmured, almost too quietly for you to hear.
You paused, heart skipping a beat as you processed his words. But before you could respond, he cleared his throat, his expression unreadable once more as he reached for your book. âSo⊠what else should I know about magical creatures, in case we run into one?â
You grinned and continued explaining each creature with passion and detail, and he listened, seemingly content just to sit there, absorbed in every word you said.
You lost track of time as you continued sharing each creatureâs traits, fully immersed in the world of magical beasts and their quirks. You explained to Sunghoon how to spot a bowtruckle in the trees, the difference between a griffinâs call and a hippogriffâs, and why nifflers are drawn to sparkly objects. With every fact you shared, his eyes never left your face.
After a while, you realized just how close heâd inched toward you. There was hardly any space between you now, and you were all too aware of his gaze tracing the slope of your nose, the curve of your mouth as you spoke. It was almost unnerving, and for the first time, you found yourself stumbling over your words.
When you paused to catch your breath, Sunghoon broke the silence, his voice barely above a whisper. âI donât think Iâve ever heard anyone talk about magical creatures like that before.â
His words caught you off guard, and you felt warmth creeping into your cheeks. âThereâs so much out there we donât understand. I think thatâs the best partâthe mystery of it all.â You murmured, glancing down at your notebook.
Sunghoon leaned back in his chair, thoughtful. âMaybe thatâs why Iâve always thought youâre different from everyone else.â He looked down, almost shyly, as if he hadnât meant to let that slip.
You blinked, surprised. "Different?"
âYeah,â he replied, finally meeting your gaze again. âYouâre⊠genuine. Like, you actually care about the things that matter. You donât just do things because itâs expected, or because someone told you to. Youâre⊠well, itâs hard to explain.â He shrugged, visibly frustrated, and let out a small, self-deprecating chuckle.
You blinked, trying to make sense of what Sunghoon had just said, of the quiet vulnerability in his words. âI⊠didnât realize you thought about things like that,â you replied, your voice softer than youâd meant it to be.
But Sunghoonâs momentary openness seemed to vanish as soon as the words left your mouth. His eyes widened slightly, and he immediately turned away, his expression twisting into a frown. "I donât know why I evenââ
Before he could finish, he stood up abruptly, grabbing his bag and slinging it over his shoulder. You barely had time to react as he took a few steps back, mumbling something that sounded suspiciously like âbeautiful eyesâ under his breath, though you couldnât be sure. Then, without looking back, he turned on his heel and strode out of the library, leaving you staring after him, stunned.
You sat there, watching the tall silhouette of his figure disappear through the doorway, a thousand questions spinning through your mind.
Madam Pinceâs voice snapped you out of your daze. She had quietly approached, tidying up the stray books the Gryffindor students had left behind. âIt doesnât take much to see he likes you,â she said, her tone somewhere between amused and exasperated.
Your head whipped around to face her, eyes wide. âWaitâwhat?â
She glanced at you over the rim of her spectacles, raising an eyebrow as she gathered a stack of books. âOh, come on. That boy didnât take his eyes off you for a second. He barely even noticed anyone else in the room.â She shook her head, a soft chuckle escaping her. âIf he could, I swear heâd have hearts in his eyes. Quite the smitten one, that Sunghoon.â
You felt your face heat up. âIâno, that canât be.â
Madam Pince gave a noncommittal hum, but her eyes sparkled with something like knowing. âIâve seen plenty of students in here studying. Thereâs something different about him.â
ou couldnât shake the image of Sunghoonâs gaze lingering on you, softer than youâd ever seen it, and the way heâd fumbled over his own words like he didnât know what to do with them.
âMaybe itâs just the way he looks at you,â Madam Pince added as she placed the last book on the shelf. âYouâd think heâs looking at his entire world.â
You felt your breath catch, her words lingering long after you left the library.
The next day, you found yourself standing in the hallway before Charms class, nervously glancing at Wooyoung. Youâd practically dragged him here to talk about Sunghoon, though you werenât entirely sure what you wanted to ask or how to approach him.
âCome on, Wooyoung, you have to help me figure this out,â you said, your voice a little more frantic than you intended. âDo you think⊠do you think he likes me?â
Wooyoung, leaning casually against the wall, smiled so wide that his grin nearly split his face. There was a gleam in his eyesâone that you knew all too well. The one he always wore when he had some mischievous plan brewing.
You frowned, unsure of where he was going with this. âIâwhat do you mean by that?â
Wooyoung pushed off the wall, standing up straighter. His smile grew wider, and you immediately recognized that look. The one that meant heâd just come up with something ridiculous, probably to your detriment. âWhy donât you make him show it? Get him to prove he likes you.â
You stared at him, blinking in disbelief. âWhat? How am I supposed to do that?â
He sighed dramatically, as though youâd just asked him a question that was too easy to answer. âItâs simple. Make him jealous using me,â Wooyoung replied, as if it was the most natural thing in the world.
Your eyes widened. âWait, what? You want me to pretend to like you to make Sunghoon jealous?â
âExactly!â Wooyoung grinned, clearly pleased with himself. âAnd donât worry. Iâll even be the test bunny âfree of charge. Iâll stick close to you, spend all the time I can with you, and make it look like Iâm all about you. Trust me, Sunghoon will get the message real quick.â
You hesitated, worried. âI donât know, Wooyoung. This seems like a bad idea.â
He groaned in exasperation, rolling his eyes. âHow can someone so smart be so clueless? Itâs not like you have to actually date me or anything. Besides, youâre not even doing anything bad, just hanging out with your best friend Wooyoung. Youâll see what happens. Just wait until Sunghoon realizes whatâs going on. If he likes you, heâll show it.â
You bit your lip, not entirely convinced. The idea made you uneasy, but Wooyoung was already grabbing your arm, pulling you towards the classroom. âCome on. You can overthink it later. Letâs go.â
Reluctantly, you allowed yourself to be pulled into class, the moment you found your seat, you looked around, half-expecting to see Sunghoon. When he walked into class, you saw him immediatelyâtall and confident, his usual smirk in place. But as soon as his eyes landed on you, sitting next to Wooyoung, his entire demeanor shifted. His eyes narrowed, and his brow furrowed.
You felt your stomach flip when Sunghoon stalked over, crossing his arms.
âYouâre in my seat,â Sunghoon said, his voice cold as his eyes locked onto Wooyoung.
Wooyoung, not missing a beat, tilted his head back and looked at Sunghoon with a smug expression. âI donât see your name here,â he teased, his voice playful, almost sing-song. He then dramatically pulled you closer to him, as though to stake his claim. âBesides, Iâm sitting here now.â
You shot Wooyoung a look, but he was already enjoying this far too much. You glanced back at Sunghoon, who was glaring at Wooyoung with a look that could have burned a hole through him, his jaw clenched, his lips pressed into a thin line. But when Sunghoon looked at you, his eyes softened just a littleâthough the frown still remained. He sighed in frustration before walking off, clearly not wanting to make a scene.
His eyes then locked onto the desk directly in front of you, where a Ravenclaw student had been sitting just moments ago, quietly taking notes. Without so much as a glance toward you or Wooyoung, Sunghoon walked up to the desk with a purposeful stride.
The Ravenclaw, a young girl with glasses perched on the edge of her nose, looked up in mild surprise as Sunghoon approached her. She was about to ask if something was wrong when he stood before her, towering slightly as he looked down at her desk with an unwavering gaze.
âMove,â he said simply, his voice low and calm, but there was an unspoken authority in it. It wasnât a question, and there was no room for negotiation in his tone.
The Ravenclaw blinked, unsure of what was happening. âExcuse me?â she asked, her voice a little shaky.
Sunghoonâs expression remained neutral. âIâm sitting here,â he repeated, and he placed his bag down on the desk, almost as though he were claiming it.
The girl hesitated, glancing at the seat next to yours where Wooyoung sat, clearly not understanding the situation. She looked at the empty seats around the room, trying to figure out what to do.
âYou can find another seat,â Sunghoon added coolly, his gaze unflinching. âItâs not a big deal.â
The Ravenclaw swallowed hard, her face flushing with confusion and embarrassment. She had no idea what was happening. Was this some sort of joke? Was she supposed to just give up her seat because Sunghoon wanted it? She opened her mouth to protest again, but before she could speak, she caught the look in Sunghoonâs eyesâcold, almost daring her to defy him.
âOkay,â she muttered, gathering her things and standing up, clearly unnerved by the tension in the air. Reluctantly, she grabbed her bag, and with a small, defeated sigh, she walked toward a different desk, clearly trying to avoid further confrontation.
You watched the scene unfold with a mix of surprise and discomfort, and you could see Wooyoung beside you, clearly amused by the whole thing. Sunghoon didnât even spare a glance at the girl as she moved to another desk. He simply adjusted his books, and slid into the chair with a casual ease.
Wooyoung chuckled under his breath as class started, nudging you with an exaggerated wink. âWorked like a charm,â he whispered, grinning.
As Professor Flitwick began the lecture, Wooyoung scribbled something on a scrap of parchment and nudged it toward you, his grin widening when you glanced down.
âIâd say Sunghoon looks about two seconds away from hexing me,â heâd scrawled, complete with a little doodle of a scowling Sunghoon.
You smirked, scribbling back, âMore like two seconds from snapping his quill in half.â
Wooyoung had to stifle his laugh, glancing up to make sure Flitwick wasnât watching. Meanwhile, Sunghoon sat in front of you, stiff and silent, answering Professor Flitwickâs questions with uncharacteristic quietness. Normally, this was the part of the lesson where youâd challenge him, but you were too busy passing notes and snickering quietly with Wooyoung.
Meanwhile, Sunghoon, seemed quieter than usual. It was obvious to you that he wasnât paying much attention to the lesson nowâhis usually sharp focus shifted entirely to the students around him. You caught the way he glanced up when another student raised their hand, trying to challenge him. They asked a particularly tricky question about the correct incantation for a charm, but when Sunghoon answered smoothly, there was no cocky attitude, no smug smirk. He answered matter-of-factly, almost quietly, and then fell back into his seat, looking down at his parchment with furrowed brows.
Other students tried to challenge him, pushing for more details, but Sunghoon didnât rise to the occasion like he usually did with you. He remained reserved, answering them simply and without the usual bite in his voice.
And you couldnât help but wonder if this was all connected to the game you and Wooyoung had startedâtesting Sunghoon's reactions, seeing how far you could push him. You watched him for a few more moments, noting how his posture stiffened slightly whenever someone questioned him. It was like he was waiting for somethingâwaiting for you to throw a comment or a challenge his way. But you stayed quiet, not offering him the usual banter or playful disagreement.
Wooyoung passed you another note, his handwriting messier this time from his suppressed laughter. âGuess he only cares if itâs you arguing with him.â
As soon as Professor Flitwick dismissed the class, you barely had a second to pack up your things before Wooyoung seized your arm, yanking you up from your seat and ushering you toward the door with hurried enthusiasm.
âCome on, come on!â he whispered, grinning as he practically dragged you through the aisle, weaving between students as they gathered their things.
You stumbled slightly, barely managing to throw your bag over your shoulder as Wooyoung tugged you along, his grip firm as he steered you toward the corridor. Behind you, you caught a quick glimpse of Sunghoon, his expression darkening as he watched Wooyoung pull you away.
âWooyoung, slow down!â you protested, trying to keep from tripping as he continued his brisk pace down the hallway. You glanced back, half-expecting Sunghoon to be right behind you, but the corridor was empty, and you couldnât help but feel a small twinge of disappointment that he hadnât followed.
Wooyoung just laughed, his mischief only growing as he finally slowed down, his grip loosening as he threw you a victorious smile. âDid you see his face? He was practically glaring daggers at me!â
You rolled your eyes, brushing your hair out of your face as you tried to catch your breath. âYouâre going to drive him crazy at this rate. What if he actually loses it?â
Wooyoung smirked, shrugging as if it was no big deal. âIsnât that the plan? Youâll know for sure if he really likes you.â He wagged his eyebrows at you playfully, nudging you with his shoulder. âBesides, Iâve never seen him that riled up over anythingâor anyone, for that matter. And if heâs jealous, itâs because he knows heâs got competition.â
You opened your mouth to argue, but Wooyoung was already shooting you a smug grin, his eyes twinkling with amusement as he glanced over his shoulder, making sure Sunghoon hadnât caught up to you. You hated to admit it, but a part of you couldnât help but feel a bit giddy at the thought of getting under Sunghoonâs skin, especially after all the times heâd done the same to you.
Wooyoung didn't hold back over the next few days, sticking by your side at every opportunity, always there with that trademark mischievous grin. Heâd slide into the seat beside you during classes, insist on walking you to the Great Hall for meals, and show up at the library to âhelpâ you studyâeven if he spent more time drawing little doodles on your notes than actually being helpful.
You caught Sunghoon watching the two of you on more than one occasion, his gaze dark and intense, lips pressed into a firm line as Wooyoung leaned close to whisper something that would make you laugh. The frustration on Sunghoonâs face was unmistakable, but he never said anything. He would just look away with a huff, his jaw clenched as he turned his attention back to whatever was in front of him.
During Potions, Wooyoung made a particularly bold move, sliding his chair so close to yours that your shoulders brushed as you worked on a shared project. Sunghoon, who sat across from you, glared at Wooyoung with such ferocity that you were sure heâd burst.
âAre you two always this⊠close?â Sunghoon finally muttered, barely hiding the edge in his voice.
Wooyoung looked up with an innocent smile, putting an arm over your shoulder with exaggerated nonchalance. âOh, absolutely. Iâm just here to make sure no one distracts her from her studies,â he said with a wink in your direction.
You bit back a laugh as Sunghoonâs expression turned sour, his fingers tapping agitatedly against the desk.
As the days went on, Sunghoonâs patience seemed to fray bit by bit, his usual calm demeanor replaced by a simmering frustration. You could see it in the way he clenched his fists whenever he saw you with Wooyoung, how heâd roll his eyes when he overheard Wooyoung laughing with you in the library. He even began answering questions more aggressively in class, as though trying to reclaim some attention.
One evening, when Wooyoung had just pulled you out of the library after an impromptu âstudy session,â you spotted Sunghoon watching you from across the corridor, his expression dark. Wooyoung followed your gaze and smirked, leaning down to whisper, âI think heâs finally reaching his limit. Just waitâheâll crack any day now.â
--
You were sat in the courtyard, finally getting a moment to study in peace with Wooyoung serving detention, a shadow fell over your books. You looked up, blinking as Sunghoon stood there, hands shoved in his pockets, an intense look in his eyes.
âStudying alone for once?â he asked, his voice casual, but the edge in it unmistakable.
You gave him a small shrug, trying to appear unfazed. âYeah, Wooyoungâs busy.â
Sunghoon sat down across from you without asking, his gaze flickering over your books before settling on you. âSo, you and Wooyoung⊠youâve known each other for a while, huh?â he asked, trying to sound nonchalant but clearly fishing for something.
You raised an eyebrow, sensing where this was going. âWeâre good friends,â you replied simply. âWeâve known each other since second year.â
Sunghoonâs brows knit together, curiosityâand maybe a hint of jealousyâlingering in his expression. âHow did that even happen? You two donât seem like the most⊠obvious match.â
You laughed a little at the memory. âOh, it was something, alright. I found him running from Filch after heâd set off one of those cursed prank fireworks. He practically begged me to hide him, so I did. After that, we just⊠clicked, I guess. Iâd cover for him, and heâd keep me entertained with his ridiculous schemes.â
Sunghoon nodded, a faint smirk appearing on his lips. âSo youâre telling me youâve been cleaning up his messes for years.â
You laughed. âPretty much.â
For a moment, Sunghoon seemed lost in thought, a silence settling between you as he absorbed what youâd shared. He looked down at the book open in front of youâa piece on mythical creatures.
âSounds like youâre a better friend than he deserves,â he muttered, his voice barely loud enough to hear. And then, without waiting for your reaction, he quickly added, âBut maybe youâre just too kind. I doubt youâd turn away anyone if they asked for help.â He leaned forward, arms crossed and a curious look on his face, as if he were ready to seize this moment and talk about anythingâeverything, even.
âSo⊠this whole mythical creatures thing,â he began, nodding toward the book in front of you. âItâs what you want to do after school, right?â
You hesitated, but then you looked up and caught the way Sunghoonâs gaze softened as he waited for you to answer. There was no trace of his usual smirk or sarcastic tone; he just looked genuinely⊠interested. Almost desperate to keep this conversation going, like he needed to talk to you, even if it was about the most random thing he could think of.
Letting out a quiet sigh, you nodded. âYeah⊠I guess I want to travel, see the world, learn about different creatures out there.â
Sunghoon nodded slowly, eyes never leaving yours. âMakes sense for you.â
You couldnât help but smile. âWhat about you, Sunghoon? What do you want to do?â
He ran a hand through his hair, looking slightly awkward as he considered his answer. âMe? Well⊠my family expects me to follow in their footsteps and work in the Ministry. Some important role thatâll keep the Park name respectable or whatever.â
You raised an eyebrow, surprised at how openly he was talking about it. âAnd⊠is that what you want?â
He hesitated, glancing away briefly before meeting your eyes again. âHonestly? No. But itâs not like I get much say in it. My parents⊠they donât really ask what I want. They just have this⊠plan. And Iâm supposed to go along with it.â
You softened, forgetting all about Wooyoungâs plan. âMaybe one day, youâll get to do what you actually want. Even if it means disappointing a few people along the way.â
Sunghoonâs lips curved into a faint smile. âMaybe.â
While you and Sunghoon continued your conversation, Wooyoung burst onto the scene, looking a bit disheveled from detention.
"Hey! You promised youâd help me with Astronomy, remember?" he announced, hands on his hips as he gestured toward the library.
You blinked, taken aback. âDid I? I donât remember promising that, Wooââ
But Wooyoung wasnât giving you a moment to think. He sidled up to you, giving Sunghoon a mischievous side-eye as he tried to usher you away. That was, until Sunghoon suddenly stood up with startling speed.
âActually, weâll both help you,â he said firmly, his voice determined, like he was making a declaration. He looked between you and Wooyoung, and you couldnât hide your surprise. Sunghoon had never offered to tutor anyone, much less help anyone study.
Wooyoung faltered for a moment, his usual quick wit momentarily stunned. âWait, you want to help? Since when does Sunghoon Park volunteer to help anyone?â he stammered, clearly thrown off his game.
Without missing a beat, Sunghoon reached out, grabbing your hand as if it were the most natural thing in the world, and gently pulled you along. He positioned himself slightly in front of you, blocking Wooyoungâs view just enough to hold your attention. His touch was firm, warm, and you could feel the faintest bit of tension in his grip, as though he was reluctant to let you go.
âCome on,â he said, glancing back at you, eyes lit with determination.
You barely had time to process the boldness of his move, your heart beating a little faster at the intensity in his gaze. But then, from behind you, Wooyoung snapped out of his daze.
âHey! Donât leave me!â he shouted, sprinting forward to catch up.
Once inside the library, Sunghoon led you to a secluded corner, where the stacks of books created a quiet, private nook. He settled down across from you, pulling out his Astronomy textbook and parchment without a word. You followed suit, just as Wooyoung stumbled in, slightly out of breath and muttering curses under his breath.
"Merlin, Sunghoon, did you have to practically run here? Not all of us have legs that belong on a Quidditch team,â Wooyoung huffed, plopping down in the remaining seat and tossing his Astronomy books onto the table.
You chuckled softly, but Sunghoon didnât seem to notice. He had already opened his book and was flipping to a relevant chapter, his eyes scanning the page with a quiet focus. The three of you settled in, and soon, you began explaining the constellations and how to identify them, taking a parchment to map out a few diagrams for Wooyoung.
Sunghoon added an occasional word here and there, though you quickly noticed his advice was always directed toward you, not Wooyoung. It was as if he couldnât be bothered to look at Wooyoung directly, instead choosing to watch you as you spoke. Every so often, he'd chime in at the end of your explanations, repeating or affirming your words like a quiet echo.
"Right," youâd say, finishing up a description of Orion. âThatâs why its belt is so distinctive in the night sky.â
"Distinctive,â Sunghoon murmured, nodding slightly as he watched you, his gaze steady.
Wooyoung, however, wasnât about to let this slide. He shot you a look of exaggerated exasperation, rolling his eyes playfully as Sunghoon added yet another short agreement after your sentence.
âIf Iâd known studying with the both of you would be this one-sided, Iâd have just gone to Hagridâs for a simpler lecture,â Wooyoung quipped, pretending to grumble. He shot you a grin. âYouâre doing all the heavy lifting here. Sunghoonâs just admiring the view.â
You stifled a laugh, glancing at Sunghoon, who simply shrugged and looked away, not even trying to deny it. A faint blush had crept up his cheeks, but he kept his gaze on his notes, acting unbothered as he continued to jot things down.
The table fell quiet for a moment, the only sounds being the rustling of pages and the scratching of quills. Sunghoon had finally turned his attention to his notes, his posture still stiff and focused, while Wooyoung, sitting across from you, began to plot. You could feel the mischievous glint in his eyes as he glanced between you and Sunghoon, an idea forming behind that grin of his. You knew that grin wellâit was the kind of grin that spelled out nothing good.
And then, as if on cue, Wooyoung shifted in his seat, straightened up, and suddenly leaned forward, all casual-like.
âY/N,â he began, his voice loud enough to carry across the quiet library. âDo you ever wonder what it would be like if Sunghoon here actually smiled when he helped us study? You know, like⊠with an actual expression, not just his usual âIâm-too-cool-for-thisâ face?â
You shot him a look, one that made it clear you were aware of what he was doing. You opened your mouth to say something, but Wooyoung was already going for it. He nudged your elbow gently with his, a silent request for backup.
âI mean,â he continued, his voice deliberately drawing out the words, âI bet you could teach him a thing or two about showing some emotion, right? Iâve seen you make him smile once in a while. Thatâs kind of impressive, considering, you know⊠he usually doesn't even seem to know how to have fun. Maybe you should be his personal tutor on that.â
You suppressed a laugh, but it was difficult to stop your lips from twitching. Sunghoon, however, didnât react at first. He kept his eyes on the page in front of him, though the muscles in his jaw twitched slightly, and his posture tightened.
Wooyoung wasnât done. No, he was just getting started. He leaned back in his chair, completely at ease, as if he were speaking casually about the weather.
âSo,â he said with a sly grin, âSunghoon, what's it like, huh? Sitting here and being the epitome of cool? Donât you get bored sometimes?â He leaned forward, directing his question to Sunghoon directly now. âYou ever get jealous? Like when Y/N and I hang out and I make her laugh, but you canât seem to do the same? Maybe you could learn something from me after all. You know, how to crack a joke here and there. Itâd be a good change of pace for you.â
Your eyes widened, realizing the full extent of Wooyoungâs plan. He was making you the center of attention, and Sunghoon was stuck right in front of you, getting teased in a way that was bound to rattle him.
For a moment, it seemed like Sunghoon was going to retort, but then something changed. He looked at you briefly, his expression unreadable, before his gaze flicked back to his notes.
âI donât need to crack jokes to be effective,â he muttered, the words clipped and sharp, though there was a distinct edge to them. âBut you do seem to have a talent for making everything an entertainment show.â
Wooyoungâs grin only widened at the jab. "Well, someoneâs gotta keep things interesting."
You were trying so hard not to laugh, your hand pressed against your lips to stifle the giggles. You could tell that Wooyoung was enjoying to push Sunghoonâs buttons, waiting for him to bite, and it was hard to ignore how Sunghoon seemed to slowly crack under the pressure.
Finally, you couldnât keep it in anymore. You let out a soft laugh, looking at Sunghoon with a teasing smile. âYouâre not gonna let Wooyoung get to you, are you?â
Sunghoon paused, his eyes flickering to you, he exhaled, almost like a sigh, and then said, with a quiet edge, âIâve got more important things to focus on than whatever this is.â
Madam Pince appeared just as you were trying to suppress the last of your laughter, her stern eyes scanning the room. She spotted you from across the library and made her way over, her expression softening a little when she saw you sitting with Sunghoon and Wooyoung.
"Ah, Y/N," she said in her usual clipped tone. "Iâm in need of some assistance. Thereâs a book missing, and you seem to be one of the few students who knows this library well enough to help me track it down."
You nodded quickly, grateful for the excuse to step away from the tension growing between Sunghoon and Wooyoung. "Of course, Madam Pince. I'll help you find it."
You were prepared to leave, but before you did, you leaned closer to Wooyoung, who was still watching Sunghoon, his expression one of quiet amusement.
âPlay fair, Wooyoung,â you whispered, just loud enough for him to hear but soft enough that Sunghoon wouldnât catch on.
Wooyoung gave you a wide, mischievous grin, his eyes twinkling with the hint of something elseâperhaps a little bit of challenge. "You got it, Y/N," he whispered back, his voice teasing.
Then, you turned to Sunghoon, who had been unusually quiet, his eyes focused on his notes but his body language still tight. You werenât sure if he was just avoiding Wooyoungâs teasing or if there was something else on his mind.
Leaning in slightly, you whispered to him, just as softly as you had to Wooyoung, âGo easy on Wooyoung, alright?â
Sunghoon didnât immediately respond, but you could see his eyes flicker with a slight surprise. He gave a quick, almost imperceptible nod, though his lips remained pressed together in that tight line he often wore when he wasnât sure how to express himself.
"Fine," he muttered, his tone as close to a concession as youâd get from him.
With that, you excused yourself from the table, gathering your bag and walking away with Madam Pince, who seemed to appreciate the extra pair of hands.
--
You handed Madam Pince the book when you found it, her lips curling into a small, appreciative smile. "Thank you, Y/N. Youâre always so helpful," she said, before disappearing behind a shelf to return the book to its rightful place.
Once that was done, you made your way back to the table where youâd left Sunghoon and Wooyoung. But when you walked up, you noticed that only Sunghoon remained, his focus still on his notes, though he didnât seem as intense as he had been earlier. His shoulders were slightly hunched over, his quill scratching across the parchment in front of him.
"Whereâd Wooyoung go?" you asked, your voice light but curious.
Sunghoon didnât look up at first, continuing to write something down before responding. "He got too bored and decided to leave. Probably off causing trouble somewhere," he said, his voice flat.
You sighed, shaking your head. "I should've known. He's always up to something."
Sunghoon just shrugged and went back to his work, not saying anything more.
After some time, Sunghoon glanced up from his notes and reached for one of the books you had both been reading. He scanned a passage, muttering something under his breath before looking at you again.
"Hereâs a question," he said, reading aloud. "What do you think is the primary trait that allows a Thestral to remain undetected by most students?" He paused for a moment, his eyes locking with yours. "I think it's their ability to be invisible to those who haven't experienced death. What would you add to that?"
You thought for a second. "I would add that they also have an inherent ability to sense the emotions of others, which could explain why they only reveal themselves to people who have truly understood loss. Itâs not just physical invisibility, itâs emotional, too."
Sunghoon nodded thoughtfully, a small smile playing at his lips. "I like that. Youâve got a good point."
As you both continued discussing the finer details of Thestrals, your chairs inched closer and closer without either of you noticing. At first, it was just a subtle shift in the way you both sat, both leaning in a little to be closer to the books and each otherâs notes. But soon, you were sitting shoulder to shoulder, the space between you so small it almost didnât matter anymore.
You could feel the warmth of his shoulder brushing against yours, a strange sense of familiarity in the way you both fit together in that moment. And when he passed you a book, his hand brushing yours in the process, neither of you pulled away.
The air between you both seemed to shift, subtle yet undeniable. Time seemed to slow for a moment, and you couldn't help but notice the brief flicker in Sunghoon's eyesâlike he was aware of the closeness, of the sudden tension that hadn't been there before.
You both locked eyes, your gazes lingering a little longer than they should have. Then, just as quickly, his gaze dropped to your lips, and you felt a slight shift in your chest. You instinctively licked your lips, a nervous habit, and when you did, Sunghoon's gaze followed the motion, his eyes following the path of your tongue. You could almost feel the shift in his focus as he swallowed, his Adamâs apple bobbing. You felt a rush of heat flood your cheeks at the realization that he had caught it, that he had been watching you so intently.
You gave him a soft smile, just a hint of amusement in your expression, before you quickly looked back down at your notes, trying to regain your composure.
Sunghoon, as if breaking free from whatever spell had taken hold of him, seemed to blink and shake himself out of his trance. His gaze shifted back to his notes, though there was a slight tightness in his jaw that hadn't been there before. He cleared his throat, trying to regain his usual collected demeanor.
"Right," he muttered, focusing on the book in front of him as though it was the most interesting thing in the room.
Your hand, poised over your quill, hesitated for a moment, as if unsure of what to write next. Your thoughts were scattered nowâyour mind buzzing with a thousand things, none of them having to do with the notes in front of you. You focused on the lines, the words, the shapes of the ink on the page, but it was a challenge. Everything felt so much more present now.
The night had stretched on without either of you noticing. The quiet between you had been comfortable, filled with soft whispers of pages turning and the faint scratch of quills on paper. When you finally stood, stretching your stiff limbs, the weight of the evening pressed down on you. Sunghoon, still by your side, packed his books slowly, as if reluctant to leave.
You both stepped out of the library together, the cool night air hitting you with the suddenness of it, making you shiver slightly. Sunghoon, as usual, was a step ahead of you, walking with that calm, collected air he always carried.
As the doors to the library clicked shut behind you, the portraits along the hallways seemed to come alive, their eyes following you both as you walked. Your eyes flicked over the various faces, and then you noticed a particular paintingâtwo lovers standing close, gazing at each other with love. The two figures in the painting seemed to smirk at you, their eyes sparkling with mischievous intent.
A wave of warmth spread over you, and before you could even think, your face flushed, the embarrassment catching you off guard. You quickly looked away, focusing on the stone floor beneath your feet, trying to hide your blush. Thatâs when your gaze inadvertently lifted up, and you found yourself looking at Sunghoon.
You hadnât meant to stare, but you couldnât help it. His side profile was so striking, every feature seeming perfectly sculpted in the low light of the hallway. His sharp jawline was defined, the angle of it so perfect it almost looked like something out of a painting itself. His noseâstraight and sharpâseemed to fit his face so well. You could see the faint moles on his skin, scattered along his otherwise perfect pale skin. His dark hair, messy but somehow perfect, fell effortlessly over his forehead, and the way it framed his face made everything about him seem even more⊠intense.
But it was his eyes that captivated you the most. Even though he wasnât looking directly at you, you could feel themâthose eyes that were usually so guarded, now more thoughtful.
When you reached the entrance to your common room, you stopped, both of you hesitant for just a second. The words you wanted to say stuck in your throat, you looked up at him again, your gaze lingering on his face.
âThanks for walking me back,â you said softly, your voice barely above a whisper.
Sunghoon nodded, and for a moment, neither of you moved. He hesitated before giving you a small, almost imperceptible smile.
âAnytime,â he replied, his voice softer than usual, almost unsure.
--
You tossed and turned in your bed, the sheets tangled around your legs, the restless whispers of your bedmatesâ snores filling the silence of the dormitory. Despite the rhythmic sound of their breathing, it only seemed to make everything feel more stifling. The night stretched on far too long, the weight of your thoughts keeping you wide awake. No matter how you shifted, how many times you tried to find a comfortable position, sleep refused to come.
It was late. Too late. You should be asleep, but every time you closed your eyes, the thoughts came back, chasing you into a wakefulness that felt almost unbearable. You groaned softly, rubbing your face with both hands.
Sighing in frustration, you finally gave up. With a groan, you sat up, blinking in the dim light that filtered in from the window. You glanced around at your sleeping bedmates, none of them aware of your restlessness. The soft, sleepy murmurs of their dreams only made the weight of your own thoughts feel heavier. You needed to get out.
Quietly, you slipped your legs off the bed and padded across the floor in your slippers. You grabbed your jacket from the back of your chair and threw it on over your pyjamas, the fabric slightly chilly against your skin. Your wand was a comforting weight in your hand as you whispered the slightest incantation under your breath. The quiet "Lumos" from your wandâs tip provided a faint light, just enough to guide your way.
The corridors of Hogwarts were eerily quiet, bathed in shadow, save for the faint glow of your wand. You moved carefully, keeping your footsteps light, aware of the potential danger of being caught. You didnât want to risk Filch or Mrs. Norris spotting you, so you kept your senses heightened. If you saw anyone, you'd be ready to cast the Disillusionment Charm in an instant, blending into the shadows before they could even register your presence.
Before long, you reached your destinationâthe Astronomy Tower. You could already feel the calming presence of the stars, even from the base of the tower. You hurried up the winding stairs, each step taking you closer to the quiet peace of the tower. Your breath quickened as you climbed. When you reached the top, you pushed open the door to the tower and stepped out into the cool night air.
The stars twinkled above you, scattered across the sky like diamonds scattered on velvet. The moon hung high and bright, casting a silvery glow over the castle. The familiar peace settled over you, the noise in your head beginning to fade as you stood there, gazing out at the endless night.
As you stood there in the quiet, the faint shuffle of footsteps behind you pulled your attention away from the stars. You instinctively gripped your wand, the spell already forming in your mind, but before you could cast it, a familiar voice rang out, low and quiet, but unmistakable.
âWell, well, didnât expect to see you here.â
You turned quickly, your heart racing, and found Sunghoon standing just a few feet away. His presence felt like a sudden shift in the air, his gaze fixed on you, unreadable yet steady. A small, almost imperceptible smile tugged at his lips.
âWhat are you doing here?â You tried to sound casual, but your pulse quickened. You had been hoping for solitude, not the unexpected company of someone who seemed to occupy so much space in your mind lately.
Sunghoon tilted his head slightly, eyes narrowing in that way that made you feel as though he was always observing, always calculating. âSame reason as you, I suspect. Couldnât sleep.â He took a step closer, his movements smooth and deliberate. âThe stars have a way of making everything⊠quieter, donât they?â
You hesitated for a moment, unsure whether to make small talk or let the silence stretch on.
âI didnât think youâd be the type to sneak out at night,â he added, his voice taking on that teasing tone you were so familiar with.
âIâm not usually,â you replied, though the words felt a little less convincing now. âJust⊠needed some air. Some time away from everything.â
âEverything?â Sunghoon echoed, his eyebrow raising slightly. âIncluding me?â
You froze, unsure how to answer, but before you could say anything, he was already standing next to you.
You turned your attention back to the stars, unable to meet his gaze. âNo, not you,â you murmured quietly, almost reflexively. âI just⊠donât know how to sort all of this out.â
Sunghoon was silent for a beat, then spoke again, his voice softer now, a touch more serious. âYou know, you donât have to figure everything out all at once.â
You met his gaze, and for the first time, you didnât see a challenge there. âI donât know if I want to figure it out,â you admitted, your voice barely above a whisper.
His lips curled into that familiar smirk, but this time, it was different. There was no teasing edge, just the soft hint of understanding. âFair enough.â
You exhaled slowly, considering his words.
âYou know,â he said after a moment, his voice almost thoughtful, âIâve seen you up here before, on some nights.â
You blinked, surprised. âYou have?â
He shrugged, his gaze never leaving the stars. âSometimes. I didnât want to disturb you, though. You looked⊠peaceful.â
There was a flicker of something in his eyes, but it was gone so quickly that you werenât sure if you had imagined it. He shifted slightly, and before you knew it, he was sitting down on the cold stone floor of the tower, his legs crossed as he looked up at the sky.
You hesitated for a moment, then joined him, sitting a few inches away.
After a long silence, you broke the silence, your voice almost soft. âThe stars look beautiful, donât they?â
Sunghoon glanced at you, but instead of following your gaze to the sky, his eyes lingered on you for a moment. âYeah,â he agreed. âThey are.â His gaze lingered a moment longer.
He never really looked at the night sky at all.
--
History of Magic class had never been your favorite, but this particular day, you were running late, thanks to a rather inconvenient staircase that decided to shift just as you were climbing it. You had narrowly avoided tripping, but it had definitely delayed your arrival to class.
You stepped into the classroom with a quiet sigh of relief, thankful that Professor Binns was, as usual, sound asleep, floating behind his desk in his usual ethereal state.
Your eyes scanned the classroom for an empty seat, your gaze flicking from student to student until you caught sight of Sunghoon. He was sitting a few rows ahead, his expression calm, though his eyes subtly flickered toward you. He gave you a slight nod and a small gesture with his hand, silently urging you to sit beside him.
You hesitated for a moment, but then shrugged, deciding it wouldnât hurt to join him. As you made your way toward him, you felt the weight of your bag on your shoulder, wondering if youâd packed something extra this morning. You dropped into the seat beside him and set your bag down with a sigh.
But as you opened it to grab your notes, you immediately gasped, shocked. There was something extra in there that you hadnât packedâsomething that wasnât supposed to be in your bag. You quickly shut it again, looking around nervously, but fortunately, no one seemed to be paying attention. Most of the class was too busy chatting or goofing off to notice.
Sunghoon, noticing your surprise, raised an eyebrow at you. âWhatâs wrong?â
You nudged the bag toward him, a questioning look in your eyes. He tilted his head, curious, and then leaned in slightly. Without saying anything, he reached over and opened your bag. When his eyes met yours again, his expression mirrored your own surprise, and he quickly closed it, his eyebrows shooting up in shock.
âWhat the hell?â Sunghoon muttered under his breath, glancing around to make sure no one had noticed.
You both kept your voices low, trying to keep the situation between just the two of you. Sunghoon passed you his notes for the rest of the class, a wordless agreement to focus on the task at hand.
By the time Professor Binns finally stirred, slowly waking from his nap, you were practically ready to bolt out of the classroom. Sunghoon, too, had packed up quickly, his eyes flickering over to you as if he shared your urgency.
The moment Binns waved you off with a disinterested dismissal, you were out of your seat in an instant, clutching your bag tightly to your side. Sunghoon followed after you, his footsteps quick and light as he kept pace beside you. The two of you slipped into an empty classroom just down the hall. You quickly shut the door behind you, and Sunghoon locked it, his eyes flicking back to you, unsure of what was about to happen.
You didnât waste any time. You set your bag on a nearby table and opened it again, and as you reached inside, your fingers brushed against something warm and softâand then, with a slight tug, you pulled out Spark, the little Niffler, who immediately clung to you with his tiny paws.
You couldnât help but laugh in surprise as Spark squirmed in your grip, his shiny black eyes gleaming as he wriggled in your arms, his pouch clearly overflowing. âThatâs why my bag was so heavy!â you exclaimed in disbelief, shaking your head. âI thought I packed an extra book! How did you sneak in there, little guy?â
Spark tried twisting around in your arms, desperate to get away, but you held him tightly, trying to keep him under control. He was practically a bundle of energy, clearly pleased with himself after whatever little heist heâd gone on.
Sunghoon watched you both for a moment, raising an eyebrow as he crossed his arms. âHow did he even get away from Hagrid?â he asked, his voice filled with a mix of amusement and genuine curiosity.
You shrugged nonchalantly. âNifflers are tricky,â you said, your smile growing as you felt Spark nuzzle against you, clearly satisfied with his haul.
âI imagine Hagridâs going to be missing something when he realizes.â Sunghoon said, his tone slightly teasing.
âIâll return whatever he stole,â you said, a little exasperated, but the fondness for the mischievous creature clear in your voice. âIf I can ever get him to give it back.â
Sunghoonâs eyes lingered on Spark for a moment longer before he chuckled, shaking his head in disbelief. âOnly you could have a Niffler hiding in your bag during school.â
You smiled sheepishly. âWell, I donât make it easy for myself, do I?â
Sunghoon let out a soft laugh, his gaze still fixed on Spark "Definitely not," he said, a teasing tone slipping into his voice.
You rolled your eyes, though you couldnât help but smile at the way he looked at you. You adjusted your grip on Spark, who had decided that now was the perfect time to try and escape, wiggling energetically.
"Okay, okay," you said, giving up trying to keep him still. "You win. You can go play, but if you steal anything else, Iâm telling Hagrid." Spark let out a small chirp as he scurried off your lap and darted toward a stack of books in the corner of the room, clearly on the hunt for more shiny objects.
Sunghoonâs chuckle faded as he looked over at you, his eyes a little more thoughtful now. "Youâve got a lot going on, huh?" he asked, his voice soft, almost as if he was just realizing something he hadnât thought about before.
You cut him off with a playful shrug. "Itâs nothing I canât handle," you said, your tone light. "Besides, Iâve got good company to help me through it." You flashed him a grin, hoping to keep things light.
Sunghoonâs eyes softened, his lips curving into a small smile. For a moment, he just looked at you, but before either of you could say anything more, Spark returned with what looked like a shiny button in his mouth, clearly pleased with his new find.
Sunghoon glanced at Spark, then back at you, his expression amused but still thoughtful. "I think youâre more like him than you realize," he said, a hint of warmth in his voice. "Getting into trouble, but always figuring it out somehow."
You raised an eyebrow, surprised by his words. "I wouldnât say Iâm that bad."
He shrugged nonchalantly, his smile lingering. "Maybe not. But you definitely keep things interesting."
Eventually, Spark seemed to grow bored of his treasure hunt and returned to your lap, curling up contentedly. You smiled down at him, your fingers absentmindedly petting his fluffy little head.
"Guess we should probably get back to studying," you said, your voice softer now, more relaxed.
Sunghoon nodded, leaning back slightly in his chair, his gaze lingering on you for just a moment longer. "Yeah, I suppose so."
You and Sunghoon made your way to the courtyard after packing up your things from the empty classroom. The sun was beginning to set, casting a soft golden light over the stone pathways. The courtyard was quiet, except for the occasional rustling of leaves and the distant chatter of students who had finished their classes for the day. You found a quiet bench near the flowerbeds, your books spread out between you as you settled in to continue your study session.
As soon as you opened your notebook, the challenge began.
"So, whatâs this about the Thunderbirds again?" Sunghoon asked, glancing at the page you were studying. "Iâve heard of them, but Iâm not sure I get the whole thing."
You couldnât help but smirk slightly, glad to have an advantage for once. "Thunderbirds are fascinating," you said, your voice animated as you leaned in a little closer to your notes. "Theyâre massive, magical birds that can summon storms with the beat of their wings. Theyâre native to North America and are known for being extremely elusive."
Sunghoon leaned back, crossing his arms with an amused smile. "Well, I already knew they could summon storms. But the elusive part? Thatâs new." He paused, then added, "So, what, they just hide all the time?"
"Theyâre incredibly protective of their nests," you continued, undeterred by his teasing. "They only show themselves to those they trust, and even then, itâs rare. Thatâs why spotting one is so special."
Sunghoon hummed thoughtfully, clearly intrigued, but then his gaze shifted to the open page of Defense Against the Dark Arts you had next to you. "Okay, okay. Enough with the Thunderbirds," he said, tapping the page lightly. "What about this spell here? Do you know how to counter the Inferius Charm? Because thatâs actually something Iâve been working on in my spare time."
You paused, blinking a little at him. "Inferius Charm?" you asked, your brow furrowing as you tried to recall your lessons. "Isnât that the one where you reanimate the dead?"
"Exactly," Sunghoon replied, his voice taking on a more serious tone. "Itâs really tricky to deal with, but if you know the right counter-curse, you can stop them cold."
You thought for a moment, then nodded slowly. "I remember the counter-curse is Finite Incantatem, right? But it only works if the Inferius hasnât fully gained control yet. Otherwise, you need something stronger, like Fiendfyre."
Sunghoon raised an eyebrow. "Youâve been reading ahead, havenât you?"
You smiled, a bit smug. "I like to be prepared."
"Well, I can see that," he said, turning his attention back to his notes. "But let me tell you something you might not know," he added, leaning forward a bit. "A strong Patronus works too. Itâs not something most people would think about, but the energy from a Patronus is enough to break the dark magic animating the Inferius."
You blinked, surprised. "Thatâs⊠thatâs actually really clever."
He smirked, clearly pleased with himself. "I donât just look good, you know."
You rolled your eyes playfully, but there was something about the way Sunghoon said it, so confidently, that made you smile. "Iâll give you credit, thatâs pretty impressive."
But you werenât about to let him have the last word. "But, you know, for someone whoâs so good at Defense Against the Dark Arts," you teased, "you should really know that Fiendfyre is a dangerous last resort. Itâs not something to throw around casually."
Sunghoon raised his hands in mock surrender. "Okay, okay. Iâll admit itâI was showing off a little."
You both laughed, as you leaned back, taking a deep breath. It was nice, you realized, to have this kind of easy conversation with him.
The cool evening air brushed against your face as the sun finally dipped below the horizon, casting the courtyard in a soft, dusky light. You and Sunghoon continued your quiet study session, each of you focused but every so often exchanging playful glances or little remarks.
You found yourself looking at him more often than you realized, noticing the way the fading light reflected in his dark eyes, how his sharp jawline seemed more defined in the soft glow of the evening.
"So, whatâs your favorite magical creature?" Sunghoon asked suddenly, his voice breaking the silence between you two.
You blinked, taken off guard by the question. "Favorite?" You thought for a moment, glancing at the magical creatures book on the table between you. "I think Iâd have to go with Thestrals."
"Thestrals?" Sunghoon echoed, raising an eyebrow. "Isnât that a bit dark for you?"
You smirked, tilting your head. "Not at all. Theyâre misunderstood creatures. They're associated with death, yes, but theyâre also symbols of strength, resilience, and the importance of seeing the world for what it is."
Sunghoon seemed to pause for a moment, considering your words. "I get it," he said, his voice softening. "They're like the quiet ones that people forget about or are afraid of, but they're actually kind of⊠impressive."
You smiled, pleased he seemed to understand. "Exactly. Theyâre beautiful in their own way."
A comfortable silence stretched between you both after that, the air around you growing cooler as the evening progressed.
As you flipped through your notes, you heard him sigh, and when you looked up, his eyes were still on you.
"Youâve been pretty quiet about your personal life," Sunghoon said after a moment. His voice was casual, but there was an undercurrent of curiosity. "Whatâs something people donât know about you?"
You raised an eyebrow, half-suspicious and half-curious. "Why the sudden interest?"
"Iâm just wondering," he replied, shrugging with a nonchalant smile. "You know everything about meâwell, almost everythingâso I thought maybe Iâd ask you something personal."
You hesitated for a moment, unsure of how to respond. You werenât used to opening up about yourself like this, especially to someone who had been a bit of a puzzle to you until now.
"I guess," you started slowly, glancing down at your notes for a moment, "one thing people donât know about me is that I actually really enjoy quiet moments like this. Everyone always thinks Iâm outgoing, but I like being still. I like the peace."
Sunghoon watched you closely as you spoke, his expression softening. "Thatâs⊠kind of surprising," he said, almost as if he were contemplating your words. "But I get it. Itâs nice to just⊠exist in the moment sometimes."
You simply nodded.
--
As weeks passed and the tension between you and Sunghoon grew, you found yourself wrestling with your thoughts more and more. The plan youâd concocted with Wooyoung had seemed like a good idea at the timeâpush Sunghoon into showing his feelings by making him jealous. But now, the thought of it made you uneasy. You had seen the signs in Sunghoonâhis subtle glances, the way his attention shifted to you whenever you were around. But you realized you didnât want to force him into a corner, didnât want to pressure him into confessing if he wasnât ready.
The truth was, you wanted him to figure it out on his own, just as you wanted to figure out your own feelings. But that didnât make it any easier. Your heart raced every time he was near you, and your thoughts seemed to trip over themselves when you tried to sort out what you were feeling. You didnât want to rush things, didnât want to push him into something that wasnât genuine, but you were also terrified of staying in this state of tension forever.
Wooyoung, of course, noticed the change immediately. His wide grin faltered when you told him you were cutting off the plan. "Youâre really giving up on this, huh?" he asked, a little disappointment creeping into his voice. "I thought you were just waiting for the perfect moment."
You sighed, running a hand through your hair. "I donât want to force him into something, Wooyoung. Iâm tired of all the games." You paused, the weight of your words sinking in. "I donât even know if Iâm ready to confess to him, let alone push him into it."
Wooyoung raised an eyebrow, his usual teasing expression softening for once. "Youâve got a point," he admitted. "But you know, youâve got this⊠tension. Like the two of you are on the verge of something, and neither of you wants to take that step. How long are you going to let that happen?"
You glanced away, feeling your cheeks flush. "I donât know⊠Iâm scared, Wooyoung. What if he doesnât feel the same way? Or worse, what if we mess everything up by saying the wrong thing?"
He watched you for a moment, his eyes softer than usual. "Youâre not alone in that fear, you know? But if you never try, youâll never know. Just⊠donât overthink it."
It was advice that made sense, but the doubt still lingered. You had always prided yourself on being confident, on taking things head-on, but with Sunghoon, everything felt so much more complicated. It wasnât just about your feelings for himâit was about everything else too. The quiet moments you shared, the unspoken tension, the way he made you feel when he was around. You didnât want to risk losing all of that by moving too quickly or, even worse, by never moving at all.
And yet, the longer the silence stretched between you, the harder it became to ignore. There were times when you would catch Sunghoon glancing at you across the room, when youâd catch his gaze lingering just a moment too long. And each time, you wondered if he was feeling the same things you were.
The months passed, and the tension between you two only seemed to build. Neither of you had confessed, and yet there was this invisible thread that connected you. Every laugh, every glance, every conversation seemed to deepen the unspoken bond between you. You couldnât tell whether it was a friendship or something more, but the ambiguity felt like a heavy weight.
You still didnât know what the right choice was. And as the year went on, you found yourself questioning whether you had made the right decision. Should you have taken the leap? Should you have forced Sunghoon into confessing, just like Wooyoung had suggested? Or was your choice to wait, to let him figure it out on his own, the right one after all?
--
The cool night air wrapped around you as you sat cross-legged on the floor of the Astronomy Tower, your eyes tracing the constellations above. It was one of those nights when the stars seemed to shine brighter, when everything around you felt still and quiet, almost too perfect for the chaotic thoughts running through your mind.
Your focus shifted as you flicked your wand, turning a nearby stone into a delicate flower for only a second before it crumbled back into dust. Sighing, you leaned back, your hands behind you, as you stared up at the sky again, wondering if you would ever find the courage to move past the endless tension with Sunghoon.
Then, just as you had almost settled into the quiet peace of the night, you heard itâa familiar sound of footsteps, slow and deliberate. You didnât need to turn around to know who it was. Youâd recognized the pattern of his steps by now.
Sunghoonâs silhouette appeared at the entrance to the tower, framed by the moonlight streaming in behind him. His figure was tall and steady, his usual confident demeanor not quite as present as it usually was, as if he too had come here to clear his mind.
"You always seem to find your way up here," you said without turning around, your voice quieter than usual, betraying the tension youâd been feeling.
Sunghoon paused for a moment, his eyes scanning the room until they found you, sitting on the floor, and he walked over. âI could say the same about you,â he replied, his voice softer than it had been in a while. "Whatâs got you up here alone?"
You shrugged, unwilling to go into details. "Just needed a break," you said, keeping your gaze on the sky. "Thought some quiet would help me clear my head."
There was a silence between you two then, a gap that seemed too long, yet neither of you spoke up to fill it. Sunghoon finally sat beside you, a little closer than youâd expected, but not quite close enough to feel intrusive.
"Practicing spells again?" Sunghoon asked after a while, glancing at the objects around you.
You nodded. "Just keeping my skills sharp. You know how it is."
Sunghoon smirked, but it was softer than usual. "I thought you only did that when you were avoiding something."
You couldnât help but chuckle at the slight teasing tone in his voice, but you didnât give him an answer right away. Instead, you bent down and flicked your wand again, turning a small rock into a sparkling butterfly. It fluttered around for a moment before landing gently in your palm, disappearing almost instantly. You felt a small sense of accomplishment, though it was fleeting.
Sunghoon watched you carefully, the hint of a smile still on his lips. He leaned back on his hands, settling beside you, his body warm despite the coolness of the night air.
Finally, Sunghoon broke the silence again, his voice more serious this time, a tone you werenât used to hearing from him. "You know, you donât have to pretend with me."
Your heart skipped a beat, and you turned to face him. His eyes met yours, the usual smirk gone.
âIâm not pretending,â you said, though your voice wavered slightly.
He shifted closer, his eyes never leaving yours. "You donât have to hide from me," he repeated, his voice softer now, with a touch of concern, or maybe something else. "Iâm not like the others. You can talk to me, you know."
You were almost caught off guard by his words. Your heart raced, and your mind scrambled for something to say, something to break the sudden weight of the moment. But all you could do was stare at him, feeling like you were teetering on the edge of something.
âSunghoon,â you whispered, your voice barely audible, but it was enough to make him lean in closer, his gaze softening.
"Yeah?" he said, his breath a little more measured now, as if waiting for something.
But instead of answering, you simply shook your head, unable to find the words that felt right. Instead, you focused on the stars again, trying to ground yourself in the moment.
And Sunghoon, for once, didnât push you. He simply sat there, his body close to yours, his presence familiar and comforting.
The night air was just as crisp as the night before when you found yourself back in the Astronomy Tower, sitting on the floor, gazing up at the stars. You had come up here again, hoping for some peace and quiet, needing to clear your mind, but you couldn't shake the feeling that something was lingering in the air. You were starting to feel like the Astronomy Tower was becoming your place of refuge, even if the company had changed over the past few nights.
As you sat there, you heard the familiar sound of footsteps approaching from behind. You didn't need to turn around to know who it was.
Sunghoon stepped into view, holding a wizard chessboard under his arm, a smirk on his face as his eyes met yours.
âYouâre here early tonight,â he said, his tone light but somehow teasing, his usual confidence already in full swing.
You raised an eyebrow, the corners of your mouth curving slightly upward. âAnd youâre late,â you shot back. âWhatâs that youâve got there?â
âThought we could mix it up tonight,â Sunghoon replied, setting the board down between you. "Wizard's chess."
You chuckled lightly at the idea. âYouâre just trying to make this more interesting, arenât you?â
Sunghoon grinned, shrugging. âWell, I figured itâd be more fun than just staring at the stars again.â
You didnât argue. The quiet had been nice, but you couldnât deny that a little challenge wouldnât hurt. Plus, it was hard to say no when Sunghoon looked so determined to have a little fun.
With that, you both settled down and began setting up the board. It didn't take long for the first round to start. Sunghoon moved with surprising confidence, and it wasn't long before you were both deep into the game. The first round was over before you knew itâSunghoon had won, and it seemed like he couldn't resist the opportunity to tease you about it.
âLooks like Iâm just better at this than you,â he said with a cocky grin, clearly pleased with his victory. âBetter luck next time.â
You rolled your eyes, shaking your head. âIâll make sure to do better next round,â you shot back, your voice filled with mock determination.
The second round began, and you could already feel your competitive streak rising. This time, it was your turn to win, and as the last piece fell, you couldnât help but smirk at Sunghoon.
âNot bad for a second round, huh?â you teased.
Sunghoon let out a dramatic sigh. âFine, fine. Iâll give you that one. But I wonât make it easy next time.â
The third round began, and with it came a more intense back-and-forth. âYou know, if youâd actually focus, maybe youâd have a chance at winning this round,â Sunghoon taunted, leaning forward as he eyed the pieces carefully.
You shot him a smirk, not missing a beat. âOh, Iâm focused,â you replied with a wink. âIâm just letting you think you have the advantage.â
He raised an eyebrow at that, clearly amused. âRight. Iâm sure thatâs exactly what youâre doing.â
You both continued to play, the tension between you growing more palpable with each move.
âI have to say,â Sunghoon mused after a few more moves, âyouâre actually pretty good at this. Maybe youâre not just good at charms and transfiguration.â
You smiled, proud of yourself. âThanks. Youâre not so bad yourself. But donât get too cocky; Iâm still winning.â Sunghoon simply chuckled as the game went on.
The final move had been made, and with a smirk, you leaned back triumphantly, knowing that you had won the third round. "Looks like Iâm the champion now," you teased, grinning widely at Sunghoon.
He was sitting back, his posture slouched in defeat, but there was something about the way he pouted that made you laugh softly. His eyes were still on the chessboard, as if pretending to study his loss, but you could tell he wasnât truly bothered by it.
"Aw, donât be like that," you teased, your voice taking on a playful tone. âItâs just a game.â
Sunghoon stayed silent, not giving you the usual comeback. Instead, he kept his eyes trained on the table, pretending to ignore you. You couldnât resist the impulse to lean in.
As soon as you leaned in closer, though, his gaze flickered up to meet yours, and in an instant, everything shifted. Both of you froze, you were so close now that you could feel his breath mingling with yours, his eyes dark and intent as he locked onto you.
You were about to pull back, unsure of what was happening, but before you could move, Sunghoonâs hand shot up, his thumb and index finger gently cupping your chin. His touch was tender, almost possessive, as he leaned closer.
"Please⊠donât pull back," he whispered, his voice thick with emotion, his breath warm against your lips. His eyes fluttered between your eyes and your lips, clearly entranced by you, by the moment.
And then, before you could fully process what was happening, he closed the distance and kissed you. You widened your eyes in surprise, the shock of it stunning you for a brief moment, before you melted into the kiss, your hands instinctively reaching out to grip his shirt.
It felt like time stopped. The world fell away, leaving only the feeling of his lips against yours, the warmth of his hand still holding your chin as he deepened the kiss.
And just when you thought you couldnât get any closer, he suddenly moved, shifting beneath you with an ease that surprised you. In a swift motion, he pushed the chessboard aside, sending it tumbling to the floor, and then pulled you onto his lap, your thighs resting against his, while still kissing you deeply.
You gasped, the suddenness of it all catching you off guard. The shock made you stiffen, but Sunghoon only tightened his hold on you, his hand on your waist, pulling you closer, his lips never leaving yours. His kiss became more passionate, and before you knew it, his hand was tilting your head to deepen the kiss further.
When the kiss finally broke, both of you were breathless. You stayed there for a moment, your forehead resting against his, both of you just breathing in the air between you.
Sunghoonâs hand gently brushed your cheek, his thumb tracing the line of your jaw. His eyes, now softer than before, locked onto yours.
âAbout time, donât you think?â he whispered.
You smiled softly, the corners of your mouth turning upward in a genuine expression. âYeah, I think so,â you replied, shifting slightly, finding a more comfortable position on his lap, your legs wrapping around his waist.
His eyes never left yours as he leaned in, his lips brushing against yours in a soft, tender kiss. You melted into him, your body relaxing into the familiar embrace.
Sunghoon's hands moved to your back, pulling you closer, as if he couldn't get close enough. His lips moved against yours, exploring, teasing, and demanding. You responded in kind, your hands finding their way to his neck, pulling him closer.
You could feel Sunghoon's breath against your lips, his chest rising and falling with each heavy exhale. You parted your lips, inviting him in further, and he took the opportunity, his tongue exploring every corner of your mouth. While your hands roamed freely, tracing the lines of his muscular back, feeling the heat emanating from his skin.
When the kiss finally broke, you both were breathless, your heart pounding in your chest. Sunghoon's hand gently caressed your cheek, his thumb tracing the line of your lips. "I could do this forever," he whispered, his voice hoarse with desire.
You smiled, a contented smile, and leaned in for another kiss, Sunghoon's hands roamed freely, tracing the contours of your body with a gentle touch. Your own hands moved to his chest, feeling the strong, defined muscles beneath your palms.
Sunghoon's lips became more demanding, more insistent. His tongue traced the outline of your lips, teasing and inviting, before plunging into your mouth, exploring every corner.
You gasped softly into the kiss, your body responding to his every touch and movement.
When Sunghoon pulled back, his eyes never left yours. He smiled, a mischievous glint in his eyes, before leaning in and pressing soft kisses along your throat. You leaned your head back, offering him more room to explore, your eyes closed, savoring the sensation.
His kisses became more urgent, more demanding, as he traced a path down your throat, his lips leaving a trail of fire in their wake. You could feel his breath against your skin, hot and heavy, his lips moving lower, sending shivers down your spine, his lips teasing and exploring. His lips left a trail of passionate marks on your skin. His hands tugged at the robes, pulling them down to expose more of your bare skin, his touch becoming more assertive.
As he mumbled against your skin, his words were a mix of jealousy and possessiveness. "Seeing you so close with Wooyoung was driving me insane," he growled, his voice low. "You're mine, know that. I can't stand seeing you with anyone else. You're my perfect match, the woman I want, the woman I need."
His kisses became more fervent, his hands roaming over your body. "You're the only one for me. I belong to you."
Sunghoon's kisses became more demanding, his lips pressing against your throat, his teeth grazing your skin. "I want you," he murmured, his voice hoarse with passion. "I need you. You're mine, and I'll show you just how much."
"I'll always be here for you. You're the only one who can make me feel this way." His eyes locked with yours, a smile played on his lips. You returned the gesture, your eyes sparkling with love.
Sunghoon's hands roamed over your body, his touch gentle. He traced the lines of your face, his thumbs brushing against your cheeks, as if memorizing every contour. "I love you," he whispered again, his voice hoarse with emotion. "You're the only one for me. I can't imagine my life without you."
You gazed into his eyes, feeling your heart race as his words sank deep into your soul. A warm smile tugged at your lips, and you cupped his face in your hands, gently brushing your thumb over his skin. "I love you too, Sunghoon," you murmured softly. "You're everything to me."
--
The next morning, everything felt different.
You were both quieter than usual, walking side by side down the corridors toward the Great Hall, you glanced at Sunghoon, his hand slipping into yours, fingers naturally intertwining as if it was the most natural thing in the world. His thumb gently brushed the back of your hand, a small but comforting gesture that made your heart flutter a little each time.
As you entered the Grand Hall together, the usual buzz of conversation seemed to dim, and all eyes were on you both.
You walked to the Ravenclaw table, your eyes scanning the room as peopleâs faces lit up with surprise and amusement. Some of your friends, like Wooyoung, gave you knowing smiles, while others were just as surprised as the rest of the students.
You sat down with Sunghoon, still holding hands under the table. He looked over at you, his expression soft and affectionate.
âCan you believe this?â you started, leaning toward Sunghoon as you started ranting, your voice low enough not to be overheard by the entire hall. âIt feels like everything has been building up forever and thenâboom! Suddenly everyoneâs waiting for us to spill everything.â
Sunghoon listened attentively, a small smile tugging at his lips, his eyes never leaving you.
âWell,â he said, his voice soft but teasing, âIâm pretty sure everyone had bets on us getting together.â
You paused for a moment, raising an eyebrow in surprise. âWait, what? People bet on us?â
Sunghoon chuckled softly, his hand still holding yours under the table. âOh, yeah. You didnât know?â
You couldnât help but laugh, shaking your head at the absurdity of it all. âWeâre that obvious, huh?â
âApparently,â he said, his smile widening, he gently nudged you with his shoulder, his eyes glinting with affection. Without even thinking, you leaned in and gave him a quick, soft peck on the lips, the sweet, gentle gesture drawing a few surprised gasps and murmurs from nearby students.
You pulled away, grinning as you glanced around the table. âWell, thatâs one way to shut them up.â
Sunghoonâs grin matched yours, and he shook his head, his cheeks flushed ever so slightly.
Some students were staring at you both with wide eyes, while others exchanged knowing glances, happy to see the two of you together. You could hear a few whispers, some offering congratulations, others teasing.
As you ate, you caught sight of Wooyoung at the other end of the table, giving you a thumbs up and a wide grin, clearly excited for the two of you.
âI guess weâre official now, huh?â you said quietly, your voice tinged with a little wonder.
Sunghoon nodded, his smile softening. âYeah. Officially impossible to avoid.â
You laughed, leaning into his side for a moment before picking up your fork and continuing with your breakfast.
Wooyoung, of course, was the one who couldn't resist coming up to you at the given moment, a mischievous grin on his face. âI mean, I knew you two were perfect for each other. Now you have to admit I was right.â He dramatically threw an arm around your shoulders as you walked to class
You simply laughed, shaking your head.
--
The day of graduation arrived, and while the rest of the students was buzzing with excitementâfilled with laughter and celebrationâyou found yourself slipping away from the crowded common room, seeking something more intimate, something quiet. You made your way up to the Astronomy Tower, the cool night air greeting you as you pushed open the door.
There, sitting by the edge of the tower, was Sunghoon, already waiting for you. His dark hair ruffled in the gentle breeze, and he looked so serene, so at peace in this moment that you couldnât help but smile as you walked over to him. He turned his head as you approached, his eyes softening with affection when they met yours. Without a word, he opened his arms, and you slid into them, resting your head on his shoulder as you both gazed out at the stars together.
After a while, Sunghoon shifted, reaching into his robes with a faint smile, and pulled out a neatly wrapped box. He handed it to you, his eyes warm and full of anticipation.
"Iâve been meaning to give you this," he murmured, his voice soft in the stillness of the night.
Carefully, you peeled away the paper, revealing a small, elegant box. The surface was silver, polished to a shine, and you could see hints of blue around the edges. You ran your fingers over it for a moment before slowly opening the lid.
When you saw what was inside, your breath caught in your throat.
Two clocks, side by side, each gleaming with silver on the outside and a deep, beautiful blue on the inside. Intricate stars were imprinted on the faces of the clocks, each marking the hours with delicate precision. But it wasnât just the time they showed. Both clocks also had a compass on itâN, S, E, Wâengraved in elegant script.
Sunghoon smiled softly as he watched your reaction, the warmth of his gaze making your heart skip a beat. âItâs for us,â he said quietly. "I wanted to give you something that would remind you of us.â
You stared at the clocks for a moment, overwhelmed by the gesture, before you looked up at him. âSunghoon⊠this isâŠâ You didnât know how to express what you felt, the words stuck in your throat.
âOpen it,â he said, motioning to the other clock. With a curious tilt of your head, you reached over and carefully opened the glass of the second clock. The moment you did, a soft golden light began to swirl out, slowly forming into a shape. You watched, transfixed, as the golden light took form and danced in the air, weaving together until it became the image of you and Sunghoonâdancing together, caught in an eternal waltz as a beautiful, melodic tune filled the space around you.
You gasped, your hand going to your mouth in surprise and wonder. It was perfect, beautiful in a way you never could have imagined. You glanced at Sunghoon, your eyes wide, and he smiled back at you, his eyes just as captivated.
He opened his own clock, and the same golden light poured out, swirling in the air before it also took shape, the same dance playing out for him as well. His gaze never wavered from you as the music continued to play from both the clocks.
You couldnât help but smile, your heart full as you looked up at Sunghoon. âThis⊠this is beautiful,â you whispered, your voice barely above a breath.
Sunghoonâs gaze softened as he looked at you, his hand reaching to gently cup your face. âI wanted you to have something to remember me by, even when weâre apart,â he said, his voice full of meaning.
Before you could reply, you leaned in, wrapping your arms around him in a tight hug. You felt him hold you back, his embrace warm and steady, the comfort youâd come to rely on. âIâll never forget this,â you whispered, âI promise.â
--
The day of your departure arrived with a bittersweet air, the sky painted in soft pastels as dawn crept over the horizon. You stood on the edge of the dock, your packed bags at your feet, glancing back at the shore as you tried to memorize every detail of his face. Sunghoon stood before you, his expression torn between pride and sadness.
Sunghoon had just secured a permanent position at the Ministryâa rare opportunity. But you had your own opportunity, and the call for adventure had been tugging at you for as long as you could remember. You had already been offered a mission that would take you to distant lands and across oceans. It was everything you had always wanted.
Sunghoonâs hand lingered on your arm as he looked at you, his voice a quiet plea, âYou really have to go?â
You nodded, biting your lip as you looked into his eyes. âI do,â you whispered, the words heavy with both excitement and sorrow. âBut Iâll come back, Sunghoon. I promise.â Your voice wavered, but you steadied it with a smile, reaching to brush a strand of hair from his face. âWill you⊠wait for me?â
He didnât hesitate. âOf course I will,â he replied, his voice strong and certain, as though the very idea of waiting for you was as natural as breathing. His fingers wrapped around yours, his touch warm and grounding. âIâd wait as long as it takes. Just come back to me.â
You nodded, and he leaned in, pressing a kiss to your forehead, lingering there for a moment. Then, his lips found yours in a kiss that held a hundred unspoken promises.
As the final boarding call echoed through the harbor, you reluctantly pulled back, whispering one last, âGoodbye, Sunghoon.â
He offered you a small, brave smile, and with a last squeeze of your hand, he let you go. You climbed onto the boat, joining the other passengers. As the vessel began to pull away from the dock, you stood by the railing, watching him grow smaller with each passing second. Sunghoon lifted his hand in a final wave, and you threw one back, watching as he brought his hand to his mouth and sent you a flying kiss, his eyes never leaving you.
You clutched the railing, feeling the sting of tears but forcing a smile, a mixture of sorrow and exhilaration filling your chest. As the boat carried you into the unknown, you kept your eyes on him until he was nothing more than a speck on the horizon.
Your days got filled with adventure, traveling through vast, uncharted landscapes, rescuing rare creatures, and studying them closely. You documented each discovery, scribbling notes about their behaviors and habitats. Alongside your journal of field notes, you kept a separate stack of parchment, devoted solely to letters for Sunghoon. Every new place held a piece of him in it, something you wanted to share, some wonder or funny moment that you could only imagine him smiling at.
And he always replied, his letters rich with life back homeâupdates from the Ministry, stories about mutual friends, and playful teases about your escapades. You looked forward to every letter, savoring the small glimpses of him through the familiar strokes of his handwriting, each one a reminder of the life and love waiting for you.
But one month, his letters stopped coming.
You brushed it off at first, thinking maybe he was just busy or that there was a delay in the postal owls. But when another month passed without a single word, a sense of worry began to settle in your chest. You sent him a new letter, keeping it light-hearted but laced with an unmistakable undertone of concern, hoping heâd notice and send some sort of reassuring response.
But again, nothing came.
With each passing day, the silence grew heavier, until every rustle of feathers outside your tent made your heart race, only to end in disappointment. As more weeks passed, you found yourself sending letters more frequently, each one shorter but more urgent, your worry gradually bleeding into your words.
The unease gnawed at you, your once joyful routine now tainted with an ever-present sense of dread. Every empty day brought more questionsâwas he hurt? Was he in trouble? Had something happened?
One quiet morning, as you were packing up your campsite nestled in the foothills of the Pyrenees, a Ministry owl swooped down through the trees, its wings stretched wide and a letter clutched tightly in its talons. You straightened up, brushing off a bit of dust as you reached out, and the owl settled onto your forearm with surprising patience. It offered the letter, a pristine parchment sealed with the unmistakable stamp of the Ministry of Magic.
Curious, you took it, feeling the weight of the thick, neatly folded paper as you broke the wax seal.
As you unfolded the letter, a few crisp lines of text caught your attention immediately.
âYou are hereby requested to present yourself at the Ministry of Magic for a formal review and trial regarding the research conducted and documented during your travels.â
You read it once, then again, trying to piece together the intentions behind the message. A formal trial? For your research? The Ministry had always been aware of your work with magical creatures, especially since you regularly submitted reports to protect and conserve species that had been neglected. Youâd even been granted clearance to travel beyond regulated zones, so why the sudden summons?
You hummed softly, contemplating the letter with a mix of curiosity and unease. It wasnât every day the Ministry reached out with such formality, and it certainly wasnât the usual tone you received from them.
You werenât sure whether to be nervous, intrigued, or just plain confused. Youâd spent so much of your time studying and protecting magical creatures, especially those forgotten by the wizarding world, that the thought of a trial for it felt⊠off. You had no idea why theyâd be interested in you, but you were more than willing to go and see what they wanted.
Just as you were about to read it again, you felt a gentle push at your side. With a giggle, you turned and looked at the creature that had nudged youâErebus, the Hebridean Black dragon youâd rescued some months ago. His large, dark eyes gleamed up at you, and you reached out instinctively to scratch under his chin. His scales shimmered in the late afternoon sun, and his powerful wings rustled with a slight shift, his massive form bending slightly to press against you affectionately.
"Hey, hey, buddy," you said with a soft laugh. "No need to get pushy, I see you there."
You knew full well that Erebus had grown attached to you ever since you had saved him. He was a creature that had been bound, tortured, and left to die in a dungeon before you found him. Healing him had been a challenge, but when you saw the life come back into his eyes, the pride of the dragon slowly awakening as he learned to trust again, it was worth it. Erebus wasnât just a rescued creatureâhe was your companion, your friend. And he had stayed with you ever since.
You glanced at the letter again. "Iâve got to go to the Ministry, it seems. They're asking for me."
Erebus snorted at the letter, a cloud of smoke billowing from his nostrils. You coughed and waved the smoke away. "Okay, okay, I get it. Not exactly ideal, right?" You smiled, running a hand over his scales. "But Iâm not sure how much of a choice I have."
You looked at the open sky, mentally preparing yourself for the journey ahead.
âLooks like our plans to get you home will have to wait,â you murmured, holding up the Ministryâs letter.
You quickly took out your wand, and with a swish, your camp, all your notes, and the little research station you had set up around you swirled into a tidy, compact form, sucked into your magically expanded suitcase. The suitcase, a nifty little thing inspired by none other than Newt Scamander himself, whose work had been a guiding light for you since your early days as a student. You hoped that one day, youâd be able to follow in his footsteps as a trusted protector of magical creatures.
It had become indispensable during your travels, allowing you to carry your work with you wherever you went. Erebus watched as the suitcase opened and the whirlwind of your belongings was sucked inside, his wings twitching in mild curiosity.
"Alright, buddy," you said with a soft smile, glancing at him. "Time to go home⊠for a bit."
Erebus made a low rumble and flapped his wings. His deep growl seemed almost resigned, but you could tell he didnât mind. He had grown used to these travels with you. He flew up effortlessly, circling above your head a few times, before swooping down and slipping neatly into the suitcase as though heâd done it a thousand times before.
"Good boy," you said with a smile, and with a soft click, you closed the suitcase, feeling its weight shift in your hand.
With a deep breath, you started walking, leaving the small, once-familiar encampment behind.
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You stepped into the bustling atrium of the Ministry of Magic, clutching your suitcase tightly as you navigated the maze of witches, wizards, and magical beings bustling around you. The air was filled with the echoes of conversations, the hum of enchanted typewriters clattering away on desks, and the occasional whoosh of a fireplace activating, delivering someone in a puff of emerald flames.
Keeping a firm grip on your suitcase, you weaved your way through the crowd, nodding politely to a few familiar faces and doing your best to avoid making eye contact with anyone who might delay you. When you reached the elevators, the gate clanged open, and you stepped inside.
A house-elf stood on tiptoes near the control panel, staring up at you with large, curious eyes. âWhich floor, miss?â
âLevel Ten, please,â you replied, your voice steady despite the knot of anticipation tightening in your stomach.
The elf pressed a large, brass button marked with the number "10." The elevator jolted, and you gripped the suitcase handle a little tighter as the floors began to blur past, each accompanied by a soft chime.
After what felt like an eternity, the elevator slowed and came to a halt. The house-elf opened the gate, giving you an encouraging nod. You stepped out into the quiet, dimly lit hallway, your footsteps echoing as you moved. You walked up to a high desk where a stern-looking goblin sat, peering over a thick ledger with tiny, round spectacles perched on the end of his nose. He glanced up as you approached, his sharp eyes narrowing with curiosity as he took in your travel-worn appearance.
âWhat business do you have here?â he asked, his voice clipped but not unkind.
âI received a letter from the Ministry,â you said, pulling the official notice from your coat pocket and holding it up. âThereâs a trial regarding my research.â
The goblin took the letter, inspecting it with a keen eye before nodding curtly. He flipped through a hefty stack of parchment, his long, nimble fingers moving quickly as he scanned each page. Finally, he gave a satisfied grunt and pushed the letter back toward you.
âPlease have a seat,â he instructed, nodding toward a row of chairs against the wall. âSomeone will come to escort you shortly.â
You thanked him and moved over to the chairs, your suitcase resting against your legs.
You had been sitting quietly in the waiting area, your thoughts whirling, when you saw Jungwon approaching. You recognized him immediately â a Gryffindor from your years at Hogwarts, though you never had much of a chance to get to know him personally. His warm smile caught you off guard, and you blinked as he stopped in front of you, his eyes twinkling with recognition.
"Hey," he greeted, his tone light and friendly. "Please, follow me."
You nodded, standing up as you grabbed your suitcase and followed him down the hall.
âSo, how have you been?â Jungwon asked casually, casting a glance over his shoulder as you walked beside him. "It's been a while since Hogwarts, huh?"
You hummed in agreement, trying to place him better. You'd seen him around, but your interactions had always been limited. He was close to Sunghoon, wasnât he?
âIâve been well,â you answered, pulling your thoughts together as you walked, eyes flicking to the side. âSo, uh⊠whatâs this trial about?â
Jungwon shrugged nonchalantly, his hands tucked into his pockets. âHonestly, Iâm not really sure. Ministry business, you know?â
Your curiosity couldnât be quelled, though. âWhat about Sunghoon? How is he?â The words slipped from your lips before you could stop them.
Jungwon froze mid-step, and you followed his lead, watching as he turned to face you. His expression shifted, no longer the light, easygoing one he had worn just moments before. There was a sadness in his eyes, a quiet heaviness that you hadnât anticipated.
For a moment, he seemed reluctant to answer, then he sighed. âSunghoonâs⊠well. I mean, heâs okay. But,â he paused, studying your face carefully, âhe found someone else.â
Your breath caught in your throat, and for a moment, you werenât sure you had heard him correctly. âWhat?â The word felt foreign coming from your mouth, like a punch that left you stunned. âHe⊠moved on?â
Jungwon nodded slowly, a faint frown tugging at his lips. âYeah. A few weeks ago, actually. Sunghoon became⊠really different. Quiet, withdrawn. Wouldnât speak much, and then, out of nowhere, he started showing up with Ju-Won. Sheâs an Auror too, like him. Theyâre together now. Theyâre engaged.â
Your chest felt tight, the air suddenly thicker as a lump formed in your throat. Sunghoon had promised. He had promised to wait for you. But here he was, with someone else. A fiancee.
You looked down at the floor, blinking rapidly to clear the stinging sensation behind your eyes. The room felt smaller, like you were suffocating, and you couldnât understand why the weight of this hurt so much. You hadnât expected Sunghoon to wait forever, but you didnât think heâd let go so easily.
Jungwon shifted uncomfortably, noticing the change in your expression, but he didnât press the issue further.
You felt numb as you followed Jungwon down the long corridor, his words echoing painfully in your mind. Sunghoon⊠had found someone else? You struggled to maintain your composure as Jungwon walked beside you, keeping a respectful silence.
He eventually stopped in front of a tall, polished door. âThis is where theyâll be holding your trial,â he said gently. âYouâll be called in shortly.â
âThank you,â you whispered, your voice barely above a breath.
Jungwon hesitated for a moment, studying you with quiet sympathy. It felt like he wanted to say something, perhaps offer some kind of comfort, but he seemed to decide against it, only giving you a slight nod before stepping into the room to take his place. You were left alone in the dimly lit hallway, your heart pounding. You took a deep breath, forcing yourself to focus on the present. Whatever happened with Sunghoon, you would face it later. For now, you had a duty to the creatures youâd studied.
The door opened again, and an official leaned out to call you in. You squared your shoulders, lifted your chin, and stepped through the doorway.
The room was silent as you entered, only the shuffling of your footsteps echoing off the cold, stone walls. You took a seat in the lone chair positioned in the center of the room, feeling the weight of several pairs of eyes on you. Around you sat a panel of stern-faced Aurors, their expressions unreadable, though a few cast glances at one another as you settled in.
A head Auror, an older witch with sharp eyes and a set jaw, leaned forward. âWeâve received reports about your research,â she began, her voice crisp. âCould you give us an update on the⊠progress?â
You took a steadying breath and sat up straighter, the words flowing more easily than you expected. "Iâve made significant strides. Iâve been able to identify new species and create methods for safely caring for previously misunderstood creatures. I've also created healing treatments for certain species that were previously unmedicated." You shifted uncomfortably, but you managed to keep your voice steady.
Then came the dreaded question. âAnd have you rescued any creatures considered⊠dangerous?â another Auror asked, his tone laced with skepticism.
You hesitated, choosing your words carefully. âNot dangerous if treated with respect,â you replied slowly, though you could feel their eyes narrowing, their skepticism deepening. The more you spoke, the more their expressions tightened.
After you finished, the lead Auror exchanged a glance with her colleagues before turning back to you. âYou must understand, there are serious concerns about the dangers of these creatures. The potential for harm â not only to yourself but to others â is considerable.â
Another Auror stood, arms crossed, his voice dismissive. "You expect us to believe that every dangerous creature can be domesticated, tamed even? You do realize some of them are classified as too hazardous for interaction with the public?"
You met his gaze, trying not to show how much it rattled you. "My research shows that with the right methods, creatures like the Hungarian Horntail or the Manticore can be approached safely. I've helped themârescued themâfrom illegal situations, from being exploited and misused." You said firmly.
"They're not dangerous if treated properly. With the right care, understanding, and respect, any creature can be manageable." You said earnestly, hoping they could see your perspective. âThe true danger lies in the lack of understandingââ
But your words were cut short as she raised a hand, her tone turning icy. âRegardless, we cannot ignore the potential risks. Until further investigation is completed, you will be placed in custody for the time being.â
Before you could fully register her words, two wizards stepped forward, their expressions unyielding. One reached for your suitcase, wrenching it from your grasp, while the other grabbed your arms, twisting them behind your back. "Let go!" you shouted, trying to twist away, but the grip on your arms only tightened.
"We have our orders," the Auror said coldly, his face stoic as the other wizard snatched your wand away.
"No, please," you pleaded, your voice rising in panic. "Iâm not a threat. Theyâre not a threat! Please, donât hurt them!"
The Auror didnât respond, and you felt the heavy presence of the two men as they dragged you from the room, your footsteps stumbling as they led you down the cold stone corridors. They escorted you to a small cell, shoving you inside before locking the heavy iron door with a dull clang.
You sank to the floor, the cold seeping into your bones as the reality of the situation settled over you. The Ministry was truly going to investigate your work, your methods, your intentions â as if you were some criminal. As if the creatures you loved and fought for were merely threats, rather than lives in need of protection.
As you pressed your back against the wall, feeling the weight of the dayâs events pressing down, a tiny warmth stirred in the pocket of your shirt. You looked down and saw Kai, your small fire salamander, peeking out with his bright eyes, looking up at you with a gentle curiosity.
Gently, you cupped him in your hands, letting him sit on your palm as he looked around, with a small, trembling smile, you whispered, âGuess itâs just us for now, Kai.â
You gently placed Kai down on the stone floor, the warmth of his small body still lingering in your hands. You rummaged through your pockets, searching for something that could help, anything that would make sense of the mess you found yourself in. Herbs, a magnifying glass, food for creatures, parchment, inkânothing useful.
As you sighed and leaned down, when a small fluttering noise caught your attention. Lena, your tiny pixie, had emerged from under your coat and was now fluttering around the cell, her tiny wings flapping excitedly. She squeaked, the sound high-pitched and curious as she zipped around the dim space. You smiled faintly at the sight of her, but your thoughts were too heavy to focus on her antics for long.
Your fingers brushed the cool edges of your pockets until something caught on the fabric. For a moment, you thought it was just some misplaced trinket, but as you pulled it out and saw its familiar shape, your breath hitched.
It was the clock that Sunghoon had gifted you at graduation, still in pristine condition despite everything. You had almost forgotten about itâthinking it misplaced, or perhaps stolen by one of the nifflers in your suitcase. But there it was. The clock.
You ran your fingers over the intricate silver design, the blue inner face still shimmering under the dim light. With a shaky breath, you slowly opened the glass. A soft golden light began to swirl from the clockâs center, and you froze, mesmerized by the familiar vision of you and Sunghoon dancingâjust as it had been when you first opened it. The music filled the cell softly, the melody so beautiful and haunting, it almost felt like he was here with you.
Kai curled up beside you, his flame-like body flickering faintly in the dim light. Lena hovered just above your head, watching the clock with curious eyes. You took a deep breath, closing the glass gently, the music fading as you sealed it shut.
But then, unexpectedly, the music played again.
This time, it wasnât your melody. The sweet, familiar tune was still there, but it felt different. Your heart skipped a beat, and before you could process the strangeness of it, Kaiâs small squeak interrupted your thoughts. You looked up, and what you saw made your breath catch in your throat.
There, standing on the other side of the bars, was Sunghoon, holding his own clock in his hand, the same golden light flickering from it.
"SunghoonâŠ" you whispered, your voice barely audible, a wave of relief rushing over you, followed by a knot in your throat as you realized he was here.
He glanced at you, his eyes softening, though they werenât as warm as you remembered. There was something different in them, something you couldnât quite place. He closed the clock with a decisive motion and met your eyes.
"Youâre⊠okay?" you asked quietly, your heart pounding in your chest as you walked closer to the bars, your hands reaching out instinctively.
"Iâm fine," he said, his voice calm but distant. "But youâwhat happened? Why are you here?"
You tried to explain, your words stumbling out as you told him everythingâhow you had been summoned by the Ministry, how they had misunderstood your work, how theyâd locked you away. You could see the muscles in his jaw tighten as you spoke, but he didnât interrupt.
When you finished, you couldnât help but ask the question that had been gnawing at your mind ever since youâd seen him. "Sunghoon, what happened? Why didnât you answer my letters? I⊠I sent so many. Why didnât youâ"
He turned away for a moment, running a hand through his hair. You could see the conflict in his movements, the hesitation, and for a brief second, your heart dropped. It was as if he was trying to find the right words. "I⊠I waited for you," he finally said, his voice soft, almost too soft. "I waited, but you never came back. I kept writing, but I didnât hear from you."
You felt a tightness in your chest as you processed his words. "What do you mean? I sent you letters, Sunghoon! I didnât stop writing! How could you not know?" you asked, your voice rising slightly.
He looked back at you, his face confused. "I donât know. I thought you just⊠didnât come back. Didnât answer. Then, my parentsâŠ" He trailed off, clearly struggling. "They found Ju-Won for me. IâI didnât know what to do. And then Jungwon came to me after the trial. He told me about you being here, and I couldnât believe it."
Your breath caught in your throat. "Ju-Won?" you whispered, the name like an icy hand on your heart.
He shook his head slowly. "I never wanted this. But I thought⊠maybe you had moved on, that you werenât coming back." His voice cracked just slightly.
You looked at him, feeling a wave of dizziness wash over you. "No, Sunghoon⊠I never⊠I never moved on. I sent you letters because I was coming back for you, I was always coming back."
Sunghoonâs expression shifted, a quiet realization flickering across his features. He took a step forward, his hand trembling slightly before he reached out to gently caress your cheek. The touch was so soft, so tender, that it almost felt like a dream.
âYouâre still as beautiful as the day you leftâŠâ His voice was low, his words barely more than a whisper, but they cut through the heavy silence between you two, settling in your heart like a soft ache.
A stray tear slipped from your eye, and you didnât even realize it had fallen until Sunghoon gently wiped it away with his thumb.
âIâll get to the bottom of this,â he said, his voice firm now. "I promise, Iâll get you out of here."
You felt your chest tighten, the weight of the situation pressing down on you. Your heart felt torn, as if it was caught between the relief of seeing Sunghoon again and the panic of the mess you were in. "Please, Sunghoon⊠donât let anyone harm my creatures."
He nodded, his gaze softening as he promised, "I wonât let them touch your creatures. Iâll take care of everything."
Then, to your surprise, he took your hand and kissed it softly, the warm pressure of his lips lingering for a brief moment. "Iâll be back soon. Stay safe, okay?"
You nodded, unable to form words as he turned and walked away, the sound of his footsteps fading, leaving you alone in the cold cell once again.
You sat back down against the cold stone wall, the silence of the prison pressing in on you.
Kai curled up on your lap, his warmth a small comfort amidst the uncertainty. Lena hovered nearby, her small face full of concern.
You didnât know what to do now but wait and hopeâhope that Sunghoon could undo the mess, that your creatures would remain safe.
After what felt like endless hours, you finally heard footsteps echoing down the corridor. Jungwon appeared at the cell door, a familiar reassuring smile on his face as he unlocked the door and motioned for you to follow. You stood up, heart pounding, and fell into step beside him.
âWhat happened?â you asked, searching his expression for answers, but he only gave you a gentle smile.
âCome with me,â he said simply, guiding you back through the winding halls of the Ministry to the trial room. The familiar sight of the council waited for you, but this time, the atmosphere was far less severe. You sat down in the chair at the center, your heart hammering in your chest, and looked up at the head Auror as he cleared his throat.
"Weâd like to extend our apologies. We received a tip that you were harboring magical creatures with intent to use them against the Ministry," he explained. "After thorough investigation, however, we've concluded that the tip was unfounded. We see now that you only meant to help the creatures in your care."
A wave of relief washed over you, and a smile broke across your face as the head Auror nodded, officially releasing you as innocent. Jungwon stepped forward, his own smile widening, and handed you back your wand. You clasped it tightly, feeling a sense of calm return now that it was back in your hands.
âThank you,â you said quietly. âWhat about my creatures? Where are they?â
"Follow me," Jungwon said, his tone lighter now. He led you down a quiet corridor, explaining as you went, "Sunghoon took them under his care. He didnât trust anyone else to keep them safe."
You sighed in relief, feeling a weight lift from your shoulders. Finally, Jungwon stopped in front of a door, pushed it open, and gestured for you to enter.
Inside, Sunghoon stood by a desk, his expression tense, and his brows knit together in a rare display of anger. He looked up when he heard you enter, his expression softening, though a hint of frustration remained.
âSunghoon⊠what happened?â you asked gently, stepping closer to him.
He clenched his jaw before answering, âIt was my parents. They were behind everything.â His voice was low, controlled, but you could sense the anger simmering just beneath the surface. âThey hid your letters from me. They sent the tip to the Ministry to have you arrested. And they set me up with Ju-won to⊠try to make me forget you.â
The revelation hit you like a cold wave. You shook your head, barely able to process the extent of what he was saying. "Your parents did all of that?"
Sunghoon nodded, his eyes searching yours. âThey wanted me to move on, to find someone âsuitableââsomeone who fit their idea of a perfect match for me.â He took a shaky breath, looking away for a moment before his gaze returned to you. âI'm so sorry⊠I should have fought harder, questioned things more. I should have known something wasnât right.â
You stepped forward, reaching for his hand, holding it tightly. âNone of this is your fault, Sunghoon. You didnât know, and neither did I.â
He nodded, his thumb brushing over your hand as he held it, and his expression softened. "I promise, I wonât let anyone keep us apart again." Sunghoon sighed, his eyes hardening as he pulled off the engagement ring, placing it on the desk without a second glance. He turned to you, a reassuring smile replacing the coldness from a moment ago, and handed over your suitcase.
You exhaled a breath of relief, hugging the suitcase close to your chest. âThank you⊠for everything.â
âCome on,â Sunghoon said with a gentle smile, his hand resting protectively on your back as he guided you out. As you walked, you shared stories about the magical creatures youâd encountered on your travels, and he recounted a few of his more daring Auror missions.
But then, a sudden scream echoed down the corridor. You both turned to see a striking witch with dark hair and a sharp, furious expression storming toward you. Sunghoonâs arm instinctively wrapped around you, pulling you close.
âSunghoon, how dare you!â she spat, her voice venomous. âYou broke off our engagement for⊠for her?â She glared at you, eyes filled with barely contained rage. Her voice turned shrill as she pointed a finger in your face. âDo you know what youâve cost me? The riches, the influence, the Park nameâit was all right there!â
You slapped her hand away, your own anger flaring as you met her gaze unflinchingly. âMaybe you shouldâve focused on him instead of what he could give you.â
Ju-wonâs face twisted in rage, and you saw her hand rise, ready to strike you. But before she could even get close, Lena darted out of your pocket in a flash of blue light. The little pixie squeaked angrily, grabbing a fistful of Ju-wonâs hair and tugging with surprising strength.
Ju-won shrieked, swatting at Lena in a desperate attempt to free herself, but Lena only pulled harder, her squeaks of defiance echoing in the hall. The few Ministry workers nearby stopped, eyes wide, as they took in the scene with shock.
âGet it off! Get it off!â Ju-won screeched, struggling against Lenaâs relentless hold.
At last, with a little triumphant squeak, Lena released Ju-wonâs hair and zoomed back to you, settling into your shoulder pocket. Ju-won stumbled back, face red with fury and humiliation, her hair in complete disarray.
Ju-wonâs face twisted with fury when she suddenly pulled out two clocks from her pocket, dangling them from the strings with a victorious grin. âOh, I will not be cast aside like this!â she spat, voice rising with a venomous edge. âYou think you can have everything, donât you?â she sneered. âWell, letâs see how it feels when something you want is taken from you.â
Both you and Sunghoon stiffened, the realization hitting like a punch to the gut. You immediately began patting yourself down, confirming what you fearedâthe clock was missing. She stole them. The heavy weight of anger settled over you as you watched her mockingly dangle them in the air.
âJu-won. Give them back, now.â Sunghoonâs voice was low and commanding, each word sharp with fury.
You stepped forward, frustration bubbling inside you. âThose belong to us. You have no right to take them.â
âNo!â Ju-won shouted, clutching the clocks tightly in her fists. With a spiteful glare, she spun around and hurled the clocks toward the nearest fireplace. The green flames of the Floo Network flared up, threatening to consume them.
Your wand was halfway out of your pocket, ready to cast Accio, but before you could speak, a familiar, small, furry figure leapt through the air. With nimble agility, a niffler intercepted the clocks mid-flight, snatching them away from the flames and landing safely on the floor.
The niffler scurried over to Sunghoon, who leaned down, carefully taking both clocks from its little paws. He gave the creature an affectionate pat. âThank you, Spark.â
Spark beamed up at you, his eyes shining with the same mischievous glint they had from back at Hogwarts. He darted over to you, leaping up into your arms, and you caught him, laughing. âHey, long time no see, buddy!â
Ju-wonâs face twisted in disbelief as Sunghoon straightened, his eyes fierce. He addressed her with a calm authority that made her shrink back. âJu-won, what you did today only shows that you donât belong here,â he said, his voice low and unyielding. He leaned in, murmuring something sharp and private into her ear that made her face go pale.
With a final huff, Ju-won spun on her heel, face flushed with humiliation as she hurried away, avoiding the gazes of everyone around.
Afterwards Sunghoon led you toward a nearby fireplace with a small smile, gesturing for you to step in. Together, you went through the Floo Network, the swirling green flames transporting you both to a room that was both luxurious and filled with a sense of calm.
âWelcome to my room,â he said with a soft smile.
You looked around, taking in the warmth of the space. âI canât believe Spark stayed with you all this time,â you said.
Sunghoon chuckled, âI could never let him go. Heâs been a great companion. Right, Spark?â
Spark squeaked in response to that. âWould you like to meet some other nifflers, Spark?â You asked and watched as his eyes lit up, and he nodded excitedly. You laughed, reaching for your suitcase and opening it on the floor. Climbing down into it, you looked back up and beckoned to Sunghoon. âCome on in!â
Sunghoon hesitated for a moment, but curiosity won over, and he followed you. Inside, you led him through various sections of your enchanted suitcase, each with unique landscapes and ecosystems for the creatures you cared for. Sunghoon looked around, marveling at the sheer life around him.
Eventually, you reached the area where you kept your nifflers. With a quick call, five of them scampered out, their fur shining under the magical light. Spark chirped in excitement and darted forward, joining his new friends. You straightened up, watching with amusement as Lena, flitted out of your pocket and disappeared somewhere in the terrain.
You turned to Sunghoon, catching the awe in his expression. Smiling, you took his hand, guiding him through the different environments until you stopped by a stone ledge. With a short whistle, you called out, and the ground trembled slightly. Emerging from a large cave opening, Erebus, lowered his head, scales glistening with an otherworldly sheen as he rumbled softly in greeting.
Sunghoon took a small step back, looking at Erebus with a mix of fear and awe. You laughed softly, reaching for his hand again. âItâs okay,â you said gently. âHe trusts me, and heâll trust you, too.â
Sunghoon looked at you, searching your eyes before nodding. Slowly, you guided his hand forward, placing it against the warm, textured scales under Erebusâs jaw. The dragon rumbled again, leaning slightly into Sunghoonâs hand, a deep, pleased purr vibrating through him.
âSee?â you whispered, smiling as Sunghoonâs gaze softened in amazement.
Sunghoon kept his hand steady, glancing between you and the massive dragon before him. Erebus leaned further into his touch, his dark eyes half-closing in contentment. Sunghoon exhaled a quiet laugh, a mixture of relief and wonder.
"I never imagined I'd be doing this," he murmured, glancing at you with a warm smile. "You've always had a way with creatures."
You grinned, feeling a swell of pride. "Erebus is special. I rescued him from a terrible situation, and ever since, weâve had this bond." You gave Erebus a gentle pat before he pulled back, lifting his great head and retreating into the shadows of his sanctuary.
As Erebus disappeared, you turned to face Sunghoon fully. The awe hadn't left his expression. "I can see why you love this work," he said softly. "I missed seeing this side of you."
A warmth blossomed in your chest. "I missed having someone who understood," you replied, voice just above a whisper. "I always wanted to share this with you."
Sunghoonâs gaze softened, and without another word, he leaned in slowly, giving you time to close the remaining distance. The world seemed to fade as his lips met yours, gentle at first, then deepening as you both leaned into each other.
When you finally parted, both of you were breathless, but his forehead rested against yours, a soft smile playing on his lips.
âItâs you and me now, Sunghoon,â you whispered.
He nodded, his eyes sparkling as he took your hand. "Forever, if youâll have me."
As you leaned up, pressing your lips against Sunghoon's, he responded with a passion that ignited a fire within you. His hand cupped your cheek, While his other arm wrapped around your waist, pulling you closer, as if he couldn't get enough of your warmth and presence.
As the kiss lingered, Sunghoon's hands moved down to your thighs, his fingers tracing the soft skin. He lifted you up gently, his strong arms supporting your weight, and placed you on the table, your legs wrapping around his waist. Sunghoon's hands roamed over your body, his touch becoming more assertive, more confident. He traced the lines of your waist, his fingers grazing your skin, sending shivers down your spine.
When the kiss broke, you both were breathless, your hearts pounding in your chests. Sunghoon's hand gently caressed your cheek, his thumb tracing the line of your lips. "I want you," he whispered, his voice hoarse with passion, his eyes filled with desire, caressing your legs, his touch gentle yet firm. His fingers traced the curves of your thighs, sending shivers down your spine.
His kisses became more intense, his lips moving from your neck to your collarbone, leaving a trail of passionate marks. His teeth grazed your skin, sending a jolt of pleasure through your body.
"You're so beautiful," he whispered, his voice filled with admiration and lust. "I can't get enough of you." He came up to kiss you again. His lips met yours in a gentle, tender kiss. "You make me feel alive, like no one else ever has," he whispered against your lips, his voice hoarse with passion. "I'll always protect and cherish you." He murmured.
And as the kiss deepened, the sweet, familiar melody of your clocks began to chime, the golden swirls dancing out of their glass coverings on the table where Spark sat proudly, watching the scene unfold. The soft notes filled the room, adding a layer of warmth to your embrace, and you both smiled slightly against each otherâs lips.
Sunghoonâs hand brushed along your cheek, wiping away the happy tears that had formed there. He pulled back just slightly, his forehead resting against yours as he breathed out softly. His eyes were filled with love, a love that glowed even brighter than the melody around you. Sunghoon looked down at you, his gaze filled with warmth. He took a steadying breath before murmuring, âWould you make me the happiest wizard in the world by becoming mineâŠforever?â
Your heart raced, and without hesitation, you beamed up at him, feeling a happiness you hadnât known could exist. âYes, Sunghoon,â you replied, voice filled with joy. âA million times, yes.â
His smile broke into a brilliant grin, and before you knew it, he was sweeping you off your feet. You laughed, the sound echoing through the room. âYou make me so, so happy,â he whispered, his voice thick with emotion. âIâve never stopped loving you, not even for a moment.â
Synopsis: When you move into a new apartment, your mysterious neighbor Ni-ki catches your attentionâbut so does a dangerous murderer with an unsettling obsession with you. As your friend Jiung warns you that Ni-ki may be hiding secrets, you're forced to question who you can trust.
Wordcount: 29k
a/n: rewatching dexter morgan now cause why not? anyways enjoy and feel free to leave feedback and reblog <3
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In this economy, it was nearly impossible to find an affordable place as a student trying to juggle both work and school. But somehow, luck had tipped in your favor, and you managed to land a tiny student apartment. Sure, it was a bit removed from the city center, and the bus route wasnât always reliable, but it was yours.
Moving day had been chaotic, but a few neighbors were kind enough to offer help as you dragged your furniture and bags inside. Over the next few days, you got to know a handful of them. There was Mrs. Han, an older woman who always had a story to share and a recipe for every occasion, and there were two other students who, like you, often looked like they were running on pure caffeine and sheer willpower.
The only person you hadnât met was your next-door neighbor. You'd actually thought the apartment beside yours was empty; the place was as quiet as a graveyard, and you'd never heard a single noise from it. It isnât until Mrs. Han brings you a steaming bowl of her homemade stew that you learn the truth.
âAh, dear,â she says between sips of the tea you made for her, her eyes twinkling with mischief. âYou must meet the young man next door! Such a nice fellow, but heâs been away. Family in Japan, you know?â
Her enthusiasm catches you off guard. You chuckle lightly, trying to play it cool. âSure, sounds nice,â you say, but a hint of curiosity creeps in.
âOh, heâs so handsome!â she insists, her voice laced with genuine fondness. âYou two would make such a lovely couple!â
You pause, your laughter dying in your throat. âThanks, but Iâm not looking for anyone,â you explain, the weight of your recent breakup hanging over you like a dark cloud.
Mrs. Han`s face falls slightly, but her optimism doesnât waver. âThatâs unfortunate... You would have liked him!â
âWhatâs his name?â you ask, playing along, if only to satisfy your own curiosity.
âNishimura Ri-ki,â she replies, her smile returning as she savors the sound of his name, as if it were a cherished secret.
You nod, storing that name away for a later moment when you might need it, a faint ember of intrigue igniting within you.
So, you settled in, figuring itâd be a while before youâd have a chance to meet him, if ever.
But one night, as you were deep into your notes, trying to make sense of a mountain of study material, you heard itâthe unmistakable click of the door next door opening, then closing softly. Footsteps, light and deliberate, moved across the floor, and you caught the sound of muffled words in Japanese.
There was a rustling, the faint scrape of what sounded like heavy bags being set down, and then silence. After a moment, a new thought clicked into placeâyour elusive neighbor had finally returned.
Curiosity tugged at you, but you hesitated. It wasnât as though you could just walk over and knock. Heâd likely just gotten back from a long trip and would want to settle in. But as you listened to the familiar sounds of unpacking through the wall, you wondered what he was like. Maybe he'd be just another busy student like you, or maybe⊠someone you wouldnât expect.
And one morning, as youâre hurrying down the hall, you finally see him.
Heâs standing outside his door, tallâvery tallâwith dark hair falling into his eyes as he fumbles sleepily with his keys, muttering something under his breath. There's an effortless, almost careless confidence in the way he stands, the kind that draws your attention without even trying. When he finally looks up, his eyes meet yours, and the old womanâs words echo in your head: handsome.
He has a striking face, sharp jawline, high cheekbones, and piercing eyes that seem both focused and detached. His build is slim yet lean, and heâs dressed in a way thatâs understated but impossibly stylish. Itâs hard not to notice; thereâs a refined edge to him that somehow makes the early-morning grogginess look deliberate, like itâs just part of his charm.
At first glance, he seems⊠intimidating. The intensity in his gaze catches you off guard, and for a moment, you find yourself frozen, unsure if you should look away or say something.
âAh, you must be the new neighbor,â he says, his voice smooth and warm, carrying a casual friendliness that makes you feel as if youâre talking to someone youâve known for ages.
You nod, feeling a slight, inevitable awkwardness. âYeah, thatâs me. Nice to finally meet you⊠Ri-ki, right?â
He grins, nodding. âThatâs right. But you can call me Ni-kiâthatâs what most people use.â
You offer him your name in return, and he repeats it softly, as if testing it, making sure he gets it just right. Thereâs a faint trace of an accent in his voice, a subtle lilt that adds to his charm.
âNice name,â he says, giving you a small, genuine smile. His smiles are understated, almost reserved, yet they have a sincerity that leaves an impression. And just for a second, his gaze lingers on youâcurious, almost as if heâs sizing you up. You catch it, but brush it off as nothing.
âIf you ever need anything, just knock,â he says, leaning back with a quiet ease. âIâm still getting back into the swing of things here, but Iâm around.â
With that, he gives a casual wave and slips into his apartment, leaving you alone in the hallway. You stand there, still feeling the warmth of his voice, and canât help but wonder if the old lady had been right about him after all.
In the days that followed, you found yourself crossing paths with Ni-ki more frequently, mostly in the early mornings when you were both heading out. There was an ease to these encountersâa nod, a brief exchange of âgood mornings,â maybe a small smile from him. He had a quiet way of being friendly, but you noticed a certain mystery to his routine. While you only ever seemed to run into him during the day, at night, youâd often hear the door to his apartment open and close. You figured he had some job with late hours, something that kept him out through the night.
One morning, though, your usual passing-by turned a little strange.
As you were locking your door, Ni-ki appeared down the hallway, carrying a bag slung over one shoulder. He stopped in front of his door, setting the bag down to dig for his keys. Just as he was fishing them out, a roll of duct tape slipped out and rolled across the floor, stopping neatly at your feet.
You crouched down, picking it up, and turned it over in your hand, your eyes meeting his for a brief moment as you handed it back. âYou dropped this.â
Ni-ki blinked, then gave you a soft, appreciative smile as he took it from you. âThanks,â he said, tucking the tape back into his bag without another word, and slipping into his apartment with a nod. You couldnât quite place it, but the encounter left you feeling slightly unsettled, even if you brushed it off as nothing.
With a sigh, you headed down to the street, making your way to the buildingâs parking lot. You hated this route, especially at night, with the narrow alleyways and strewn trash. A few small shops lined the way, and there was always a sense of something lingering in the shadows. But it was the only path to the lot, so you resigned yourself to walking it, tightening your grip on your bag.
Halfway there, you paused, catching sight of a familiar sight on the wall outside a laundromat: a collection of missing person posters. Youâd noticed them when you first moved inârows of faces staring back at you, each one accompanied by details of last sightings and worried pleas from family members. It had unsettled you from the beginning, so much so that you avoided coming home too late. And when you did, you always clutched your pepper spray tightly in your bag.
Today, however, something different caught your eye. There was a new poster on the wall, freshly pinned beside the others. The picture was of a young woman, her smile frozen in a snapshot of happier days. Below the photo, it said she had last been seen three days ago, near her home. A chill ran down your spine as you stared at it.
You turned away quickly, heart racing as you hurried towards the parking lot, relief flooding over you as you finally got to your car and locked the doors.
--
It was late afternoon when you returned home from work, your feet aching as you climbed the stairs. Just as you rounded the corner toward your apartment, you spotted one of your neighbors standing in the hallway. He looked a little worn out himself, books and papers spilling out of his bag, but he straightened up and offered a friendly smile when he noticed you approaching.
âHey! Youâre the new neighbor, right?â he asked.
You nodded, and he introduced himself as Jiung, one of the other students who shared the floor with you. You exchanged a few polite comments about school, life in the building, and eventually, you found yourself laughing at his stories about late-night study sessions gone wrong. âHey, we should study together sometime!â Jiung suggested enthusiastically. âI could use a study buddy to keep me on track.â
You were about to respond when the door to Ni-kiâs apartment opened, and he stepped out, a bag slung over his shoulder. He looked like he was on his way somewhere, but he paused when he saw you and Jiung talking. There was no emotion in his gaze as he glanced at Jiung, who greeted him with a friendly nod. âHey, Ni-ki! Howâs it going?â
Ni-ki gave the briefest nod in response, eyes cool and unreadable. It wasnât exactly unfriendly, but there was a noticeable distance. However, when you spoke up, greeting him with a casual âHey, Ni-ki,â his whole demeanor shifted. His gaze softened as it landed on you, and the corners of his mouth curved into a faint smile.
âHey,â he replied, voice warm, and he seemed to hold your gaze for a beat longer than necessary. âHeaded out for a bit,â he added, lifting the strap of his bag as if in explanation. âIâll see you around.â
âSee you,â you replied, catching that small, almost private smile he gave before he turned and headed down the hallway.
Once he was gone, you turned back to Jiung, your curiosity piqued. âWhatâs he like? Ni-ki, I mean. He seems⊠quiet.â
Jiung shrugged, running a hand through his hair. âYeah, heâs not much of a talker. Iâve seen him around, but he usually keeps to himself. Iâm surprised he smiled at you. Thatâs not something Iâve seen him do.â
You raised an eyebrow, intrigued. âReally? He seems nice enough.â
âNice? Sure,â Jiung chuckled, a hint of disbelief in his tone. âJust⊠mysterious, I guess.â
You couldnât help but shrug, your thoughts lingering on the way Ni-ki had looked at you. It was easy to let your mind wander about him, but you shook it off, needing to focus on your own routine.
âAnyway, I should get going,â you said, unlocking your door and stepping inside. âBut Iâd love to study together soon!â
Jiung waved goodbye, and you kicked off your shoes, letting the familiar comfort of your apartment wash over you. After tossing your bag onto the couch, you headed straight for the bathroom, eager to wash away the day.
After your shower, you were heading to the kitchen to make dinner, the sudden sound of your doorbell caught you off guard. Peeking through the peephole, you spotted Jiung standing in the hallway, looking cheerful and a bit expectant.
Curiosity piqued, you opened the door. âHey! Whatâs up?â
âHey! I was just wondering if you wanted to grab dinner at that little diner down the street,â he offered, his enthusiasm contagious. âI hear their burgers are amazing!â
The idea was tempting, and you found yourself smiling. âSure! That sounds great.â
Within moments, you were both strolling down the street, the evening air pleasantly cool against your skin. Jiung chatted easily, sharing amusing stories from his day that had you laughing.
Once you settled into a cozy booth at the diner, you couldnât help but appreciate how at ease Jiung made you feel. As you perused the menu, you turned the conversation toward him. âSo, what do you do for work?â you asked, genuinely curious.
His eyes lit up as he leaned back, a grin on his face. âI work in criminology.â
You blinked, taken aback. âWait, really? I knew you studied crime, but I didnât realize you had a job in it!â
âYeah, itâs pretty cool,â he replied, a hint of pride in his voice. âIâm mostly in the back right now, just filling out papers and doing administrative stuff. But with everything going onâthe people disappearingâIâve been able to look into some of the cases.â
You leaned in, intrigued. âWhat do you think about it? Do you really think theyâll find the people?â
Jiungâs expression shifted, a seriousness replacing the earlier lightheartedness. âHonestly? I think theyâll find most of them in a ditch somewhere⊠dead,â he said, the weight of his words hanging heavily in the air.
A chill ran down your spine, the earlier comfort now tinged with unease. âThatâs⊠grim,â you said quietly, feeling a knot in your stomach at the thought. âDo you think theyâre all connected?â
He shrugged, taking a sip of his drink. âItâs hard to say. There are definitely patterns in cases like this, but a lot of it just feels random. Itâs the uncertainty that gets to you. You never know whatâs going to happen next.â
You both fell into a contemplative silence, the diner buzzing around you, the laughter of other patrons fading into the background as the weight of the conversation settled in.
âLetâs change the topic,â you suggested, attempting to lighten the mood. âWhatâs your favorite kind of burger?â
Jiungâs expression brightened at your attempt to shift the conversation. âOh, definitely a classic cheeseburger! You canât go wrong with a juicy patty and melted cheese,â he said, his enthusiasm returning as he leaned forward, eyes gleaming. âHow about you? Whatâs your go-to?â
You laughed, relieved at the change in tone. âHard to say!â
He nodded âWell we should totally do a burger night sometime, try out different places around here.â
âIâm in! Iâve been wanting to explore more of the area,â you replied, feeling a sense of excitement at the prospect of more outings together.
Just then, the waitress arrived to take your order, and you both made your selections, sharing a few more laughs as Jiung recounted a funny story from his work. The conversation flowed effortlessly, and as your food arrived, you found yourself genuinely enjoying his company.
With each bite of your burger, you felt more at ease. Jiung was a great conversationalist, effortlessly switching from light-hearted jokes to more serious topics, never lingering too long on any one subject.
After finishing your meal, you leaned back in your seat, satisfied. âThat was amazing! Iâm definitely coming back here,â you said, glancing at Jiung.
âRight? Itâs a hidden gem,â he agreed, his eyes sparkling with enthusiasm. âSo, what else do you like to do when youâre not buried in schoolwork?â
You took a moment to think, then smiled. âI love camping with friends. Itâs a nice break from everything.â
âCamping, huh? That sounds awesome! I havenât been in ages,â he said, his face lighting up. âIâd love to join you guys sometime if you ever need an extra hand.â
âAbsolutely!â you replied.
Eventually, you realized how late it had gotten. With a reluctant sigh, you reached for your phone to check the time. âWow, we should probably head back. I have class early in the morning,â you said, feeling a slight twinge of disappointment at the thought of the night ending.
âYeah, I should get back too. I have some work to finish up,â Jiung replied, but there was a hint of reluctance in his voice as well.
When you reached your building, you turned to Jiung with a smile. âThanks for dinner, Jiung. I had a great time!â
âMe too! We definitely need to do this again,â he replied, his smile wide and genuine.
You waved goodbye to Jiung, the warmth of the evening still buzzing in your chest as you stepped into the building. The comforting familiarity of your apartment awaited you, and you closed the door behind you, leaning against it for a moment to savor the afterglow of a good night.
After dropping your bag onto the couch, you moved through the small space, feeling a sense of contentment wash over you.
As you got ready for bed, your mind wandered back to Jiungâs laughter and the easy way heâd made you feel. You smiled at the thought of him, picturing the way heâd animatedly shared stories, his eyes lighting up with enthusiasm.
You brushed your teeth and slipped into your pajamas, the familiar routine comforting you as you settled into bed. As you pulled the covers up, a sense of sleepiness enveloped you, and you closed your eyes, allowing the events of the day to fade into the background.
Meanwhile, just on the other side of the wall, Ni-ki stood silently in his dimly lit bedroom. The faint light of the street lamps outside illuminated the room, casting shadows on the wall that separated him from you. He was staring at that very wall, deep in thought.
Thoughts swirled in his mind, and he couldnât shake the feeling of how drawn he was to you. The way youâd smiled at him earlier, your laughter echoing even in his thoughts, was intoxicating. There was something about you that felt differentârefreshing and genuine. You captivated him in a way that made it hard to focus on anything else, and he found himself wondering what it would be like to truly know you. The longing to have you in his arms for himself coursed through him, an obsession that felt both exhilarating and terrifying.
As he stood there, he couldnât help but realize how you had taken over his every thought since he had returned home. Every little interaction replayed in his mind, the way your eyes lit up when you spoke, the softness in your voice. He felt an urge to be closer to you, to share more than just a wall.
Unable to resist, he walked closer to the wall, his heart pounding in anticipation. At the edge of his room, he crouched down near a small hole, a remnant from when the building had been renovated. It was barely noticeable, easily missed by anyone else. But to him, it was a window into a world he yearned to explore.
Peering through the tiny opening, he felt a rush of emotions as he caught a glimpse of your bedroom. There you were, peacefully sleeping on your bed, the gentle rise and fall of your chest barely visible in the dim light. The sight struck him with an overwhelming sense of want. You looked so serene, completely unaware of his presence, and he felt a strange mix of admiration and longing wash over him.
For a moment, time stood still as he watched you, entranced by the vulnerability of the moment. The shadows danced around your figure, and he wished more than anything to reach out, to bridge the distance that lay between you. But he knew he couldn'tânot yet.
As the seconds stretched into minutes, he began to feel his thoughts spiraling, sinking deeper into an obsession that had taken root faster than heâd ever anticipated. He felt restless, his mind racing with a relentless need to be closer to you, to make you truly his. His hands clenched into fists, and he tore his gaze away, feeling the tension pulse within him.
Pushing himself up, he took a steadying breath, trying to clear his mind. He grabbed his bag from the corner of his room, hastily slinging it over his shoulder as he headed for the door. The apartment felt stifling, as though the walls themselves were closing in on him. He needed air, space, somewhere to let his restless energy burn itself out.
As he stepped out into the cool night, the familiar darkness of the alleyways called to him, a place where he could blend into the shadows. He moved through the narrow streets with purpose, the muted sound of his footsteps swallowed by the thick silence of the night. His thoughts continued to circle back to you, and he struggled to shake the hold you had on him, the way youâd invaded his every thought.
The alleys, littered with discarded trash and the occasional flicker of a broken streetlight, felt like a fitting place for the storm brewing inside him. Ni-ki knew heâd have to confront these feelings eventually, to figure out what he wanted from youâor rather, what he was willing to do to have it.
--
The next morning, you woke up and began your usual routine. The sun barely peeked through the blinds, casting soft lines of light across your room as you stretched, pushing away the lingering sleepiness. After washing up and getting dressed, you wandered into the kitchen to start breakfast. You flipped on the TV on the counter, letting the morning news fill the quiet apartment.
But todayâs news wasnât the usual report of traffic and weather.
The screen flashed to a somber-faced anchor as she reported the story. âBreaking news this morning. Authorities have confirmed the discovery of several bodies in the nearby forestâthose of individuals reported missing over the past few weeks.â
You froze, the toast forgotten in your hand.
âAccording to sources,â the anchor continued, her voice steady but grave, âall the victims were found in shallow graves scattered throughout the area. While police are withholding certain details of the investigation, it appears the victims suffered similar injuries before being disposed of.â
The camera cut to aerial shots of a dense, mist-shrouded forest, police cars dotting the dirt paths and officials gathering at the edge of the trees. Crime scene tape fluttered in the breeze, sectioning off parts of the forest where investigators combed the ground. The reporterâs voice droned on, but you barely heard the rest, caught in a mix of shock and unease.
Your mind flashed back to the rows of missing person posters in the alleyway, the faces staring back at you.
The broadcast shifted to interviews with shaken locals, expressing their horror and sorrow. You took a shaky breath and forced yourself to turn away from the TV, hoping to shake off the creeping fear that settled in. It was hard to believe this was happening so close to homeâand to think that just last night, you'd felt safe, even happy.
You rubbed at your arms, trying to rid yourself of the unease. Part of you wanted to text Jiung, maybe even ask if heâd heard anything. After all, heâd told you just last night that he was beginning to work on some of the missing person cases. Maybe heâd have some answers⊠or at least a comforting word. But a new thought hit you, one that made your stomach turnâJiungâs earlier words echoed back to you, cold and direct: theyâll probably find them in a ditch, dead somewhere.
With an effort, you shook it off, grabbing your bag and heading out, trying to focus on the day ahead.
As you stepped out of your apartment, the hallway felt unusually quiet, almost tense, as if it, too, held its breath in response to the morning's grim news. You glanced down the hall, half-expecting to see a few neighbors gathering, maybe exchanging words about the unsettling report. But it was empty, still, as though the building itself had absorbed the heaviness of what youâd just learned.
Making your way toward the elevator, you felt a pang of nervousness, and just as you were about to press the button, the sound of footsteps caught your attention, echoing from around the corner.
You turned and saw Ni-ki. He looked calm, almost unbothered, his expression as unreadable as ever. A hint of a small smile crept onto his face as he noticed you, his eyes flickering over you in that way that always seemed to linger just a beat too long.
âMorning,â he greeted, his voice low and casual.
âMorning,â you replied, trying to muster a steady smile.
âYou okay?â he asked, his gaze a little sharper, as if he could sense something was off.
âJust⊠heard the news. They found the bodies of some of those missing people,â you said quietly, glancing down.
He nodded slowly, his expression thoughtful, as though he were considering the words carefully. âYeah. Itâs unsettling, isnât it? This cityâs not what it used to be.â
You nodded, a strange feeling settling over you. He was calm, too calm. But then again, maybe he was just better at masking his emotions.
âSo, off to work?â he asked, his tone light, almost as if he were changing the subject intentionally.
âYeah,â you said, feeling relieved to talk about something mundane, something far from the gruesome reality of the news. âI should get going.â
âBe careful out there,â he said, and his gaze lingered on you, that same unreadable intensity in his eyes. There was something in the way he looked at you, something that felt both protective and⊠something else you couldnât quite name.
With a small nod, you turned and stepped into the elevator, feeling his gaze on you until the doors closed.
--
That evening, as you lay in bed, the feeling of unease crept back, refusing to let you rest.
You shifted beneath the covers, trying to find a comfortable position. It felt like the city was closing in on you, secrets lurking around every corner, even in your own building.
But finally, as exhaustion took its toll, your eyelids grew heavy, and you drifted off, slipping into a restless sleep.
The room around you blurred into shadows, and your dreams stirred, fragmented images of faces you didnât recognize flashing across your mind. A faint sense of dread seeped into the dream, mingling with the strange silence of the hallways in your building. In your dream, you were walking down a dim corridor, the walls narrowing, pressing in closer with each step.
And then, somewhere in the distance, you heard a voice, low and almost familiar, calling your name.
You turned, but the hallway stretched endlessly, fading into darkness. You started to walk faster, the hairs on the back of your neck prickling, the sense of being watched creeping over you. Every now and then, you'd glimpse shadows flickering at the edge of your vision, but whenever you looked, there was nothing.
The voice grew closer, a deep, almost soothing tone that sent shivers down your spine. It was calling your name again, soft and persistent, like a lullaby pulling you deeper.
In the stillness, you felt a hand on your shoulder, gentle but firm. You spun around, and suddenly you werenât in the hallway anymoreâyou were back in your bedroom, lying in bed, your heart pounding as you blinked at the familiar shadows. It took a moment to convince yourself you were truly awake, that whatever presence had been in your dreams was just thatâa dream.
But as you stared up at the ceiling, trying to steady your breathing, you felt a lingering presence, as though someone had just left the room, watching you in silence.
The next day, after a long shift at work, you returned home, grateful to finally relax. Dropping your bag by the door, you slipped into something more comfortable and settled on the couch, absently flicking through channels as you tried to unwind.
You didnât even realize how much time had passed until you stumbled upon a crime show rerun, its familiar theme music drawing you in. Without thinking, you leaned back, letting the sounds and scenes wash over you, instantly hooked by the storyline. The show delved into a detective's pursuit of a mysterious suspect, each piece of evidence drawing him closer to the truthâand closer to a chilling revelation.
As you watched, you couldnât help but feel a strange, lingering tension, like the details were tugging at something buried in the back of your mind. Each time the show shifted to a dimly lit crime scene or the detective narrowed in on his suspicions, a shiver ran through you. The storyline was fictional, you reminded yourself, just a cleverly crafted script. But the suspense was so gripping, so real, that you could feel your pulse quicken with each reveal.
The episode built to a tense, nail-biting finale as the detective pieced together the last clues. With each passing moment, it became painfully clear that the killer had always been closer than anyone expected. As the scene unfolded, the detective arrived at a secluded cabin on the outskirts of town, where he confronted his best friendâthe very friend who had been beside him through every twist and turn of the investigation. The friend tried to justify himself, a calm expression masking a chilling emptiness as he spoke about why heâd done it, how easy it had been to lie, to manipulate the detective into trusting him completely.
The camera closed in on the detectiveâs face, his expression a mixture of betrayal and horror. As the final credits rolled, the weight of that last revelation hung in the air, you realized youâd been sitting there with your legs tucked to your chest, entirely wrapped up in the drama. You exhaled, blinking as you pulled yourself back into the present. You got up, turning off the TV and glancing around the room, still feeling a faint tension prickling at the edges of your awareness.
You gave yourself a small shake, trying to laugh it off. It was just a TV show, after all. Nothing to get worked up over.
But as you walked toward your bedroom, preparing for bed, you couldnât shake the faint echo of the showâs final line: âSometimes, the people closest to us are the ones hiding the darkest secrets.â
You shivered, the weight of that line lingering with you as you slipped under the covers, feeling a strange, nagging unease as the room darkened around you.
--
The night was quiet, the air thick with an eerie stillness as the woman walked down the empty street. Her voice was soft but cheerful as she spoke on the phone, the distant warmth of her father's voice on the other end keeping her company. She laughed lightly, reassuring him, âIâll be home soon, donât worry. Just a few more blocks.â
Her voice echoed faintly down the road, but she didnât notice the lurking shadows around her or the faint glint of the black van parked just a little too conveniently along her path. She was focused on her conversation, on the comfortable thoughts of home.
As she passed the van, a figure stepped from behind it, tall and cloaked in darkness, their features obscured by the smooth, black surface of a mask. In one swift movement, the figure lunged forward, a blade glinting under the dim streetlights. Before she could scream, the knife plunged into her back, silencing her words with a strangled gasp. Her phone clattered to the ground, her fatherâs voice calling her name desperately from the other end.
In one fluid motion, the figure hauled her up, opened the van door, and shoved her inside. The door slammed shut, the sound echoing through the still night.
The figure adjusted their mask, scanning the area, making sure no one had seenâonly to freeze as they noticed a lone figure, a woman standing a short distance away, eyes wide with shock and horror. Sheâd seen everything.
The masked figure tilted their head, pointing toward her with a gloved hand. âOh, hello there, sweetheartâ they said, the voice disturbingly calm, almost playful.
The womanâs breath hitched, her hands trembling as she took a step back. She tried to scream, to turn and run, but terror had locked her in place. The figure began to move toward her, each step slow and deliberate, closing the distance in long, measured strides.
A strangled sound escaped her lips, and she finally turned, her feet stumbling over themselves as she bolted down the street, desperate for an escape. But her footsteps were matched, quicker, heavier, the figure gaining on her with chilling ease.
She didnât make it far before she felt a hand clamp over her shoulder, yanking her back with brutal strength. Her scream was muffled as she was dragged backward, her last sight of the quiet street fading as she was pulled into the waiting darkness.
The next day, news broke of a grisly discoveryâa womanâs body found stabbed multiple times in a dark alleyway. The details were still emerging, but there were hints of something more chilling: a second woman reported missing, suspected murdered.
The morning news report broke in as you settled into your seat for lunch at school, your friends gathered around the table, chatting and laughing. But the tone shifted as Ji-wong's voice rose above the clamor.
âDid you guys hear? They found a womanâs body in an alleyway last night,â she said, her face a mix of shock and disbelief. âShe was stabbed multiple times. Itâs all over the news.â
Your heart sank as you absorbed her words. You glanced at the TV mounted in the cafeteria, the screen flickering with images of the crime scene, police tape strung around the darkened alley, a crowd of reporters clamoring for details. The news anchorâs voice droned on, detailing the discovery.
You could hear your friends exchanging hushed whispers, their voices overlapping in concern and intrigue. âCan you believe it?â one of them exclaimed, shaking their head. âHow could something like this happen here?â
Another chimed in, âItâs so scary. We walk these streets all the time!â
You remained quiet, a knot tightening in your stomach as you picked at your food. Your friends continued to discuss theories about the killer, sharing opinions about how to stay safe, but all you could focus on was the weight of the news.
Ji-wong glanced over at you, concern etched on her face. âHey, are you okay?â she asked gently, sensing your quietness.
You nodded, forcing a smile, but it didnât reach your eyes. âYeah, just⊠a lot to take in.â
She nodded, but you could see the worry linger in her gaze as the conversation shifted back to the details of the crime, leaving you lost in your thoughts.
After school, you and your friends made your way to Hyerinâs place, arms full of books and bags. Her apartment was warm and welcoming, instantly lifting the tense cloud. The group settled in, books sprawled across the coffee table as you attempted to study, though the conversation soon drifted to lighter topics.
Not long after, someone suggested ordering pizza, and before you knew it, the textbooks were forgotten as laughter filled the room, everyone relaxed and joking around. Between bites of pizza and bursts of laughter, time flew by, the clock on the wall ticking faster than you realized. By the time you glanced at it, it was well past midnight.
A slight unease settled over you as you checked the time again. âI should probably get going soon,â you said, not wanting to admit that the thought of walking home this late made you nervous.
But Hyerin just waved her hand, dismissing your concern. âDonât worry about it! You can just stay here. We have extra blankets and space on the couch.â
Relieved, you nodded, grateful to avoid the long walk through the dark streets. âThanks, Hyerin. I really didnât want to be out after midnight.â
âOf course!â she said brightly. âI wouldnât want to walk out there either. And besides, itâs more fun with you here.â
--
Ni-ki stared through the small hole, his gaze tracing over your empty room, irritation bubbling under his calm exterior. You werenât home. The thought gnawed at him, and he found himself pacing across his apartment, restless. He glanced at the clock on the wall, each passing second heightening his frustration until he muttered a low curse, grabbing his bag before stepping out.
He paused outside your door, jaw clenched as he stared at it, mind racing. Just then, he heard footsteps, and when he looked up, Jiung was locking his own door. âHey,â Jiung said casually, but Ni-ki's mind was racing with questions.
âWhereâs Y/N?â Ni-ki asked, trying to keep his tone neutral, though he could feel the tension coiling inside him.
âOh, sheâs with a friend,â Jiung replied, shrugging as he continued on his way.
A spark of anger ignited in Ni-kiâs chest. Why did Jiung know where you were? Why did he have that information when Ni-ki did not? But he masked his irritation with indifference, taking a steadying breath, his expression smoothing into cold neutrality as he watched Jiungâs back disappear through the door. He waited a moment, then slipped out of the building behind him, falling into step at a distance.
The night air was crisp, brushing against his skin as he moved silently, slipping on a mask to cover the lower half of his face, fingers grazing the blade concealed in his bag. He kept his steps light, trailing Jiung with a practiced patience, biding his time.
But then, his gaze shifted to a young man walking toward them, absorbed in his phone, completely unaware of his surroundings. Ni-ki paused, the choice lingering between them like an invitation. His eyes followed Jiung, now gaining distance, then flicked back to the man much closer, oblivious, vulnerable.
With a silent groan, he made his decision. He turned from Jiung and closed in on the young man, steps quickening, his grip on the blade tightening. He moved like a shadow, swift and silent, until he was right behind him. In a single, precise motion, his blade flashing in the dim light before the man's gasp was choked into a sickening gurgle, the sound of struggle dwindling into silence.
Ni-ki let the body slump to the ground, sparing a glance over his shoulder to ensure no one had seen. Jiung had already disappeared down the road, blissfully unaware of the fate that had played out in his wake. With one last look at the lifeless figure, Ni-ki wiped his blade, pocketed it, and slipped back into the night.
--
The next day, you returned from Hyerinâs place, still a bit groggy from the late night. But as you neared your building, something felt⊠wrong. A few police cars were parked on the street, their lights flashing in silent urgency. You blinked, unsure if it was exhaustion playing tricks on you, but the closer you got, the more the scene came into focus.
A section of the street near the entrance was cordoned off with yellow police tape, and a small group of officers clustered around the area, deep in discussion. Your steps slowed as you took in the scene, eyes widening with a growing sense of dread.
Just then, two officers noticed you and made their way over. âExcuse me,â one of them said, glancing down at his notebook before looking back at you. âDo you live in this building?â
You swallowed, feeling suddenly very aware of the tension in the air. âYes,â you replied, nodding.
The officerâs expression was calm but serious. âHave you noticed anything unusual or suspicious lately?â
You shook your head slowly, feeling a strange weight settle in your chest. âNo, I⊠I was out with a friend last night, actually. I just got back.â
The other officer exchanged a glance with his partner before saying, âIf you do happen to notice anything, please report it right away. Safetyâs a priority right now.â
Your stomach twisted as a flash of concern crossed your face. âCan I⊠ask what happened?â
The first officer sighed, nodding slightly as he spoke, âA young manâs body was found nearby early this morning. Weâre still investigating, but if you hear or see anything, let us know.â
You nodded, processing his words in silence as you managed a quick goodbye, leaving the officers behind. Your thoughts were a mix of shock and unease as you continued toward your apartment.
By the time you closed the door behind you, your mind was still reeling from what youâd heard. A young man, here?
--
You sat curled up on the couch, the glow of the TV casting dim shadows across the room as you continued with the latest episode of the crime show.
Just as the plot thickened, your doorbell rang. Reluctantly, you tore your attention away, padding over to the door. Peeking through the peephole, you saw Jiung standing there, looking a bit nervous. You opened the door with a curious smile.
âHey, Jiung. Whatâs up?â you asked, noticing his slight hesitation as he shifted from foot to foot.
He took a breath and then, in a slightly rushed tone, asked, âWould you⊠maybe want to go out with me sometime? Like⊠on a date?â
Surprised, you paused, caught off guard. After a momentâs thought, you gave him a small smile. âIâll think about it, Jiung.â
His face lit up, and he nodded quickly. âGreat! Iâll, uh, let you think it over.â He flashed you a happy grin before heading down the hallway, glancing back once with a wave as he disappeared around the corner.
You closed the door and went back to the couch, feeling a bit dazed from the unexpected moment. But just as you settled down, another knock echoed through the room. With a sigh, you got up again, peering through the peephole. This time, it was Ni-ki.
You opened the door, offering him a polite smile. âHey, Ni-ki.â
âHey,â he greeted with a quiet smile of his own, holding up an empty container. âDo you have any salt? Iâm all out.â
âSure, come on in,â you said, motioning for him to step inside. You made your way to the kitchen, rummaging through the cabinets for the salt shaker.
Ni-kiâs eyes wandered over to the TV screen, and when you came back to hand him the salt, he glanced over at you with interest. âYou watch this show too?â he asked, his tone holding a hint of excitement. âItâs one of my favorites.â
Your eyes lit up, a smile forming as you looked at him. âReally? I just started watching it recently.â
He nodded, his eyes returning to the screen. âYeah, Iâve been following it since the start. It really keeps you on edge.â
Before you realized it, you were both seated on the couch, completely immersed in the show. The storyline unfolded, and the detective chased after his best friendâthe killerâthrough a dark, shadowed warehouse. Each twist and turn of the chase drew you both in, leaning closer as the suspense built.
It wasnât until the episode ended that you noticed how comfortable the room had become, Ni-ki looked at you, his usual reserve softened.
âThat was⊠intense,â you said, breaking the silence.
Ni-kiâs eyes lingered on you, a quiet glint in his gaze. âYeah,â he replied, his voice softer than usual. âBut itâs always better watching with someone whoâs just as into it.â
Eventually, sleepless night caught up with you, and your eyelids grew heavy. As you fought to stay awake, your head slowly tilted, finally coming to rest on Ni-kiâs shoulder. You let out a soft sigh, and the tension in your body eased as sleep washed over you.
Ni-ki stilled, watching you as you drifted off, a faint smile tugging at the corners of his mouth. Gently, he shifted so you were more comfortable against him, his arm wrapping subtly around you to hold you steady. He stayed like that for a long moment, his gaze lingering on your peaceful expression, feeling your warmth beside him.
When he was sure you were fully asleep, his hand moved slowly, almost hesitantly, to brush against your cheek, tracing a light line along the edge of your jaw with the tip of his finger. The dim light cast soft shadows across your face, and he watched, entranced, as his fingertip moved along your skin.
He leaned in, his face mere inches from yours, his breath warm and steady as he stayed close, hovering. His gaze flickered to your slightly parted lips, and for a second, his own breath hitched. The air was thick with an unspoken closeness, and he held that position, suspended between a lingering ache and restraint.
Carefully, he leaned back, settling you more comfortably against him, his hand resting softly on your shoulder as he continued to watch over you, his fingers curling protectively around you.
Ni-kiâs gaze darkened as he continued to watch you, his fingers resting softly on your shoulder. His eyes traced the gentle curve of your neck, and an almost imperceptible smile crossed his lips. He leaned in, his breath warm against your skin as he murmured softly, almost to himself, âRed would look good on you.â
His fingers slid up, tracing the line of your neck. His grip tightened ever so slightly, lingering just enough to feel your pulse under his fingertips, steady and unknowing. He let out a slow breath, as if grounding himself, as his thumb brushed softly against the side of your throat.
For a moment, he seemed lost in thought, caught between something intense and something careful, like he was savoring this quiet moment he had with you. After a second, his fingers relaxed, trailing back down your shoulder in a gentle motion, his gaze softening. He drew in a slow breath and finally leaned back, keeping you close but releasing the subtle tension in his touch.
He couldnât help but wonder what it would feel like to have you truly his, for you to look up at him with trust, completely unaware of the thoughts running through his mind. For now, though, he was content to simply stay by your side, holding you in the quiet of the night.
Ni-ki rose slowly, careful not to disturb you as he scooped you up in his arms. You stirred, blinking sleepily as he carried you toward the bedroom, but he gently hushed you, his voice soft and reassuring. "Shh⊠just sleep." You let out a quiet hum, drifting back into sleep as he placed you on the bed, pulling the blanket over you.
Once you were settled, he crouched beside the bed, his gaze intense as he took you in, his arms resting on the mattress as he leaned closer. Slowly, his hand reached out, thumb brushing gently over your bottom lip, tracing its softness, almost reverent. He caught himself lingering, letting his fingers ghost across your cheek, as if memorizing every line and curve of your face.
With you here, looking so serene, he could almost pretend to feel peace, like a balm against the darkness that usually gripped him. There was something about youâsomething that stilled the turbulence in his mind, turning the razor-edged thoughts of violence into something softer, more possessive. Yet, deep down, he knew: if you ever found out who he truly was, you would recoil, flee, maybe even scream. The thought unsettled him. And he couldnât allow it.
But that was fine, he decided, his hand lingering on your cheek. You would be his. No matter what it took, he would find a way to make you understand, to make you stay, even if he had to teach you how to love him. If it came to that, he could handle it. He would mold you to be his, through your resistance, your fearâuntil all that was left was the love he craved from you.
Leaning forward, he whispered, almost to himself, "You'll come to love me⊠just wait."
Ni-ki stood for a long moment at your bedside, watching as you slept, peaceful and unaware of the thoughts circling in his mind. Finally, he straightened, brushing his fingers over the blanket one last time before he slipped out of the room. Quietly, he closed the door behind him, sealing you safely inside as he moved toward his own room.
Once there, he pulled a black bag from beneath his bed, checking its contents with practiced ease. With a final look around, he slung it over his shoulder and left the apartment, locking the door behind him. Outside, the air was cool, and the streets were veiled in a soft hush of night, faintly lit by scattered streetlights.
He walked with a steady stride, blending into the shadows as if they welcomed him. His mind was calm, sharp, each step carrying him forward with a chilling sense of purpose. There was nothing to fear out here. No shadows lurking around corners or dangers in the quiet alleys.
Why would he worry?
--
Days passed, and you started noticing that Jiung seemed increasingly interested in following up on his offer for a date. Every time you ran into him, he would smile a bit wider, his eyes hopeful as he casually asked if youâd made up your mind. His persistence was endearing, and yet⊠your answer was still unsure, hovering in your mind.
Meanwhile, your time with Ni-ki only grew, filling the quiet corners of your routine with an unexpected ease. He was becoming a fixture in your days, almost as though heâd always been there. Youâd find him at your door some evenings, asking if he could join you for whatever crime show you were watching, his attention firmly on you as the plot unraveled on the screen.
He rarely shared much about himself, but you didnât mind. It felt natural, sitting side by side, sometimes letting your head rest on his shoulder as you got lost in the suspense. Occasionally, he would make small comments on the case, his voice low, adding details you hadnât noticed.
Then there were the times youâd spend in his apartment, which felt equally familiar now. Youâd find yourself leaning over his shoulder, challenging him in games as he let out a soft laugh, relaxed and genuinely happy.
Laughter filled Ni-kiâs room as you clutched the game controller, triumphantly beating him for the third time in a row. Ni-ki groaned, his face caught between frustration and amusement as he asked, âHow do you keep winning? Seriously!â
You shrugged, smirking as you teased, âMaybe youâre just not as good as you think.â
He raised an eyebrow, clearly not one to take the defeat so easily, and before you knew it, he lunged at you in a playful attack. His hands found your sides, mercilessly tickling you as you shrieked, squirming to escape his grip.
âNi-kiâstop!â you managed between laughs, trying to push him off, but he only grinned, enjoying his victory as he held you down on the bed. Your laughter eventually softened, leaving a warm silence between you as the two of you lay there, his face hovering close to yours.
His breathing slowed, and as he gazed at you, the teasing glint in his eyes softened into something deeper. You could feel your heartbeat quicken as his gaze drifted down to your lips, and without a word, you found yourself leaning into the moment, mirroring his movement.
Slowly, his lips met yours, gentle and cautious at first, as though testing the connection. But the kiss quickly grew deeper, more intense, stealing the air from your lungs as you returned it, feeling a sense of warmth and closeness you hadnât expected. For a moment, the rest of the world seemed to fall away.
To Ni-ki, this was both heaven and torment. Having you so close, feeling the softness of your lips against hisâit was everything heâd wanted and yet, in some ways, so agonizingly out of reach. He ached for more, for all of you, yet held himself back, savoring every second with a longing that made his heart pound.
The kiss lingered, soft yet fervent, as if neither of you wanted to pull away. When you finally did, it was only because you both needed to catch your breath, your faces still close, foreheads nearly touching as you shared a quiet smile.
Ni-kiâs hand brushed along your cheek, his thumb tracing soft circles as he looked at you, a warmth in his eyes that you hadnât seen before. The tension between you was thick, yet comfortable, like something long-awaited that had finally fallen into place.
âDidnât expect that, did you?â he murmured, his voice a soft tease, though you could hear the tremor of excitement there.
You shook your head, a bit breathless, your own heart still racing. âNo⊠but Iâm not complaining.â
His lips curled into a smile. âGood.â
Without waiting, Ni-ki leaned in, closing the small gap between you once more. His lips met yours with a deeper, more assured warmth, as if he was savoring each second, each soft touch.
This kiss was differentâmore intense, more deliberate, and you found yourself melting into him, your arms slipping around his neck to pull him closer. He responded eagerly, his hand moving to rest on your waist, holding you against him as though he couldnât bear to let you go.
Just as the kiss deepened, your phone buzzed, cutting through the perfect moment. Reluctantly, you pulled back, a bit breathless, and glanced at the screen. It was your boss.
âSorry, I have to take this,â you whispered, and Ni-ki nodded, though you noticed a faint flicker of annoyance in his eyes.
Answering the call, you heard your bossâs familiar voice sounding slightly frantic. âHey, sorry to call last minute, but weâre understaffed tonight. Any chance you could come in for a bit?â
You hesitated, ready to turn him down, but then he added, âIâll pay double for the overtime.â
You bit your lip, considering it. Rent was due soon, and you were already running a little behind. âAlright,â you finally said with a sigh. âIâll be there in 15 minutes.â
Ending the call, you looked at Ni-ki apologetically. âI have to go to work⊠Theyâre understaffed.â
He shrugged, though you sensed the tension just beneath his relaxed expression. âNo worries. Weâll pick this up another time.â
With a quick goodbye, you grabbed your bag, left the apartment, and hurried down the stairs, thinking about the night ahead. You didnât see the way Ni-kiâs expression hardened the moment you were gone, his eyes narrowing at the door, simmering with anger at the interruption.
Your shift stretched far longer than expected, the minutes slipping by until hours had passed. By the time you finally finished work, the streets were dark, only dim streetlights casting long shadows over the quiet city. Your fingers clenched tightly around your keys, each small noise setting your nerves on edge. As you walked past a dark alleyway, a faint, agonized moan caught your attention. You paused, heart pounding as you peered into the murky darkness. Shadows seemed to shift against the brick walls, making you question if your mind was simply playing tricks.
Then, abruptly, a shoe flew out of the darkness and landed at your feet. The pale glow of the nearby streetlight barely illuminated it, but it was unmistakably there, lying askew on the cold pavement. You froze, glancing around, but the street was empty. No one else was around.
Taking a steadying breath, you stepped into the alley, clutching your keys with knuckles white. As you walked past the shoe, each step carried you deeper into the shadows, your breath shallow with dread. Just a few paces in, you saw it.
There, sprawled across the grimy ground, lay Jiung, his skin pale, eyes half-lidded with pain. Blood soaked his shirt, dark and spreading from multiple stab wounds across his abdomen. His breaths came in shallow, desperate gasps.
âJiungâŠâ you whispered, dropping to your knees beside him, voice shaking with panic as you scrambled to pull out your phone. You pressed one hand against his wounds, trying to staunch the bleeding, feeling the warmth of his blood seeping through your fingers.
âIâll call for help,â you assured him, barely holding back tears as you dialed for an ambulance with a trembling hand.
But then, a chilling sensation ran down your spine. You felt the weight of a presence behind you, like ice settling in your veins. Slowly, you looked over your shoulderâand saw a tall shadow standing at the entrance to the alleyway. The streetlight behind them cast their face into darkness, but there was something menacing in their stance, the way they loomed over you and Jiung.
In a flash of movement, Jiung pushed himself up with a guttural scream, lunging toward the figure despite his injuries. âRun!â he cried, voice raspy with desperation as he collided with the attacker, buying you precious seconds to escape.
Heart hammering, you didnât waste a moment. You turned and sprinted out of the alley, Jiungâs shout echoing in your ears. You didnât dare look back, but the pounding of footsteps behind you pushed you faster as you bolted down the street, breath catching in your throat.
âHelp!â you screamed, hoping, praying someone would hear. But the quiet streets remained desolate, and all you could do was keep running as the footsteps behind you grew closer, each one filling you with a terror youâd never known before.
The sound of heavy footsteps grew louder, and before you could take another step, a gloved hand shot out from behind you, silencing your scream as another arm snaked around your torso, pinning your arms to your sides. Panic surged through you, and you squirmed, trying to break free, but his grip was iron, unyielding.
Then you felt the cold press of a knifeâs edge against your throat, sharp and threatening, making your breath hitch as fear flooded your veins.
"Where are you running off to in such a hurry, doll?" deep, gravelly voice purred in your ear. The words sent a shiver of fear racing down your spine. His breath was hot against your skin as he held you impossibly close, his grip tightening.
You froze, every nerve paralyzed in his grip as he kept you close, his body pressing against yours to ensure you couldnât break away. The gloved hand over your mouth stifled any sound, leaving you helpless, trapped in his grasp.
"That's it," he continued, his voice almost a whisper but laced with malice, "be a good girl and donât make this harder than it needs to be.â
You held your breath, every muscle tensed, but he only chuckled, his tone shifting to something almost playful, his lips inches from your ear. âYou know⊠you couldâve ignored it, kept on walking home like a smart little thing.â He tilted his head, sounding almost regretful, though the teasing edge to his words betrayed his satisfaction. âBut no, you just had to be the hero. Couldnât help yourself, could you?â
He let out a soft, taunting hum, as though savoring the moment. âAdmit it,â he said, his tone slipping into something disturbingly flirty, almost tender. "You liked the thrill, didnât you? The danger of getting a little too closeâŠâ
Your mind raced, desperately searching for some way to escape, but his grip tightened, pressing the blade just a fraction closer, enough to remind you how easily he could hurt you.
Summoning every ounce of courage, you jerked your head back, surprising him for an instant as you managed to shift just enough for your foot to slam down on his. He grunted, his hold loosening slightly, and you seized the opportunity, twisting out of his grasp as you stumbled forward, barely managing to break free.
With adrenaline surging, you started to run again, praying you could get far enough before he caught up once more.
Your heart raced as you stumbled onto the open street, glancing back to see the shadowy figure still gaining on you. But just as hope seemed to fade, you spotted two police officers rounding a corner up ahead. Relief surged through you, and you screamed, âHelp! Heâs right behind me!â
Hearing the desperation in your voice, both officers turned immediately. At the sight of them, your pursuer halted, cursed under his breath, and bolted in the opposite direction. One officer shot a quick look your way before sprinting down the street after him, while the other rushed to your side, her eyes filled with concern as she gently placed a hand on your shoulder.
âItâs okay, youâre safe now,â she reassured, keeping her voice calm. âTake deep breaths for me, alright? Tell me what happened.â
Gasping for air, you struggled to relay what had occurred. âThereâs⊠thereâs a victim in the alleyway,â you managed between breaths. âHeâs hurt badly⊠please, he needs help.â
The officerâs expression turned grim as she quickly radioed the situation, calling for another police unit and an ambulance to head to the location immediately. She stayed with you, grounding you as you both waited, her presence steady and comforting.
Moments later, her radio crackled to life, and a voice came through. âWeâve located the victim. Ambulance is on the wayâheâs alive. Repeat, the victim is alive and en route to the hospital.â
A wave of relief washed over you at the news. Jiung was still alive. The weight of it hit you, and a smile of sheer gratitude flickered on your face, even as exhaustion threatened to pull you under.
Not long after, the other officer returned, breathing heavily, a frustrated look on his face. âI lost him,â he admitted, shaking his head. âHe knew these streets too well⊠slipped into a maze of alleys. But weâll catch him.â
The officer looked at you with a soft, reassuring gaze. âWould you be willing to come down to the station and give a witness report?â
You nodded, feeling a sense of duty but also the weight of the nightâs events. They guided you into the police cruiser, and the short drive to the station was filled with a comforting silence. Once there, you filled out the report, recounting every detail you could remember. When it was over, the officer who had helped you before offered to drive you home.
You thanked her sincerely as you stepped out of the car in front of your building, exhaustion tugging at every limb. âThank you⊠for everything,â you said, meeting her kind gaze.
âNo need to thank me; just take care of yourself. Call if you remember anything else.â
You nodded, feeling the nightâs intensity fade as you finally stepped into the familiar, quiet space of your apartment. You took a deep breath and pulled out your phone, sending Jiung a message, asking him to let you know as soon as he was well enough to reply.
After a hot shower, you felt slightly more grounded. You sat on the couch, flipping through channels until a horror movie caught your eye. Something about the way the killer on-screen moved in relentless pursuit of his victim made your pulse quicken. Youâd just been in a scene like this, and yet⊠as you watched the screen, a dark thrill crept into your thoughts.
You shifted uncomfortably as the killer on-screen cornered his next victim, remembering what it felt like to be hunted down, to feel the darkness creeping in, to hear that voice whispering things you hadnât wanted to admit. The words echoed in your mindââAdmit it. You like this. You like the fear.â You shook your head, trying to push the thoughts away, but it was like they had a grip on you now. You couldnât help but admit that there was something unsettlingly captivating about the chase, about the fear.
You tried to push the unsettling thoughts awayâtried to focus on the killer on the screen, how methodical and cold they were, but the feeling of being hunted, being chased, was all too real. The way the killer's footsteps echoed in the victimâs ears, how their every breath seemed to be more desperate, more franticâthe adrenaline that had coursed through you earlier in the night crept back up, making your pulse quicken.
Your eyes slowly drifted to the door. The thought of being alone here, in the dark, made your heart race. You wrapped your arms around your knees, pulling them tightly to your chest.
Suddenly, the phone buzzed in your pocket, snapping you out of your trance. You pulled it out quickly, half-expecting the worst, but it was just a message from Jiung.
âIâm okay. I made it through surgery, just need some rest. Thanks for being there tonight. I owe you one.â
A flood of relief rushed over you, and a smile tugged at the corners of your lips. You typed back quickly, âIâm glad youâre okay. Take care of yourself. Iâm here if you need anything.â It wasnât much, but it felt like the right thing to say.
You dropped your phone beside you on the couch, and the movie continued to play in the background, but now you couldnât stop thinking about the killerâthe way they moved with such confidence, with such control. You wondered if you had been a part of some twisted game, a part of something you couldnât even begin to understand.
You rubbed your eyes, feeling exhaustion from the long day, but the unease wouldnât let go. Maybe you didnât need to be scared. Maybe it was just a nightmare that youâd wake up from. But deep down, you knew that something about tonight had changed you. It wasnât just the danger, but the feeling of the chase, the adrenaline, and the way you couldnât help but wonder if you'd somehow enjoyed it.
The thought made you shiver, but there was no denying it. And in that moment, as you sat there, you couldnât help but thinkâmaybe youâd never be the same again.
The familiar sound of Ni-kiâs door opening caused a shiver to run down your spine. It was a noise youâd come to recognize, and as soon as you heard it, your body stiffened, a strange feeling pulling at your chest. You couldnât explain it, but it was as if something in you needed him, needed to feel his presence.
You hesitated for a moment, unsure if it was just the nerves from the night still lingering, but then you felt that pushâan overwhelming urge to reach out. Without fully thinking it through, you grabbed your phone and sent a quick message to him: "Can you come over?"
The ping came almost instantly from next door, and for a moment, all you could hear was the sound of your heartbeat, loud in your ears. Then, it fell quiet again.
You stared at your screen, watching the message go from "Sent" to "Read." Your heart beat a little faster, your pulse quickening in anticipation.
Then the sound of footsteps. Heavy and deliberate. You watched the time, and in the span of a few seconds, Ni-ki's door opened, then closed softly. You took a deep breath, bracing yourself for what was about to happen.
There were two sharp knocks on your door, and your stomach fluttered.
You opened it quickly, not wanting to second-guess yourself. The moment the door cracked, you rushed forward, pulling him into a tight hug. His warmth and the familiar scent of him enveloped you, and you couldnât help but hold on a little tighter than you meant to.
âHey,â he said, his voice low but filled with concern.
His body was solid against yours, his warmth comforting in the wake of everything that had happened. But after a few moments, his hands gently cupped your shoulders, pulling back just enough to look at you, his eyes scanning your face with a mixture of concern and curiosity.
âWhat happened?â he asked softly, his voice low, the tenderness in his words making your heart ache a little.
You didnât answer immediately, not wanting to let go of him just yet. You squeezed your eyes shut and clung to him for a little longer, trying to steady yourself. When you finally opened your eyes, you pulled away just enough to hold him at armâs length, feeling that strange mix of relief and uncertainty washing over you. You could feel the flutter of anxiety in your stomach, but you knew you had to say something.
"Can we sit down?" you asked, your voice soft and almost pleading, your fingers still gripping his shirt tightly. You could feel your pulse pounding in your ears, the lingering fear from earlier making it difficult to fully focus on anything other than the sound of your own heartbeat.
Without a word, Ni-ki nodded and allowed you to lead him to the couch. As you both sat down, you could feel him sitting closer than usual, his presence a constant comfort, but his eyes were still searching your face. It made you feel exposed, like there was something about you he could see, something you were trying to hide.
You turned to face him, the weight of everything rushing back now that you had a moment to think. âThere was... there was someone in the alley. Iâ" you stammered, suddenly feeling the weight of the nightâs events pushing down on you. You took a deep breath, gathering your words. "I found Jiung... he was... he was stabbed. And then..." Your voice broke for a second as you swallowed hard, the image of Jiung on the ground, bleeding, still so fresh in your mind.
Ni-kiâs eyes didnât leave you, and his gaze softened, his hand reaching out instinctively to touch yours. His thumb gently traced your knuckles, the touch grounding you. He didnât interrupt you, just silently waiting for you to finish, allowing you to speak in your own time.
"And then Iâ" You felt yourself faltering, but you pushed through. "I heard him. The person. He... he came after me." The memory of his grip, the way he whispered to you, the coldness of the blade against your throat, made your chest tighten. You shuddered involuntarily, your hands tightening around Ni-kiâs.
âBut then the police came. They helped me. And Jiung... heâs alive.â Your voice shook with relief, but there was still something raw in your tone. âBut I couldnât shake it, Ni-ki. I keep thinking about it, feeling like heâs still out there.â
Ni-kiâs jaw tightened as he listened, his eyes focused on you with an intensity that made you feel both comforted and exposed. He didnât speak for a moment, just leaned closer, his face softening. âIâm sorry you had to go through that,â he said quietly.
You nodded slowly, trying to shake the images of the night from your mind. You had always found it hard to be vulnerable, but with Ni-ki, it was easier to just let go of the walls.
âThank you for coming,â you murmured, looking up at him. "I... I needed someone. And I didnât know who else to call."
Ni-ki smiled, though it was laced with something deeperâsomething you couldnât quite place. His hand gently squeezed yours. âIâll be here as long as you want me to be.â
His words melted some of the tension still lingering in your chest, and for a brief moment, you felt like you could breathe easier. You leaned back into the couch, your body relaxing just a fraction, but you didnât let go of his hand.
You picked up the remote from the side table and hit play on the movie youâd paused earlier. The flickering of the TV screen and the eerie music of the horror film filled the silence, but it didnât feel as suffocating now that Ni-ki was here with you.
As the movie played on, the tension in the room grew, thickening with every chase scene. You could feel your body reacting even before the first footstep of the pursuer echoed across the screen. Your eyes narrowed in, focused entirely on the characters as the camera swiveled between the running victim and the shadowed killer. Every time the chase escalated, your breath would hitch, your shoulders tightening with the anticipation of what was to come next.
When the killer finally caught up to the victim, you couldnât help but shiver. The chase scenes felt too real, too close to what you had experienced just hours ago. The grip of the knife, the feeling of running, your breath coming faster as you tried to escapeâit all flooded back in an instant, and your body involuntarily tensed. You clenched your fists in your lap, trying to steady yourself as the screen flickered with flashes of horror.
Unbeknownst to you, Ni-ki was watching intently, his eyes trained on your every reaction. He could see how your breath quickened, how your body stiffened with each passing moment, how the fear from the movie bled into your own memories. The way your hands trembled slightly, the way you seemed to draw closer to him when the killer gained on the victim.
His gaze deepened with satisfaction. He could see how easily the thrill of the chase consumed you. How, despite the terror, there was something almost addictive about itâthe danger, the vulnerability, the adrenaline. And it stirred something inside of him, a dark thought that he couldnât ignore.
He watched you carefully, a small, pleased smile tugging at the corner of his lips as you flinched at every tense moment. He knew this feelingâhe could feel it, too. The hunt, the chase, the thrill of bringing someone to the edge of fear. Youâd experienced it in the alley, running from him, and now, you were reliving it through the film. But he could tell there was more to you than just fear. You liked it. You liked the adrenaline.
Ni-kiâs hand slowly shifted towards you, resting just near your knee, not touching yet, but close enough to sense your tension. His thumb twitched, as if he could feel the currents of your unease, of your suppressed excitement. He knew you werenât just scared. You were drawn to it, to the rush of being pursued, to the danger.
He was sure of it nowâhe could make you understand. He could shape you, mold you to match his world. All he had to do was push you far enough, make you see the thrill the way he did. Heâd show you how to embrace it, how to live for the chase, to revel in the fear, to become a part of itâjust like him.
And no one would stand in his way.
Not Jiung. Not anyone.
Heâd take care of the loose ends soon enough, with that same meticulous care. Just as he had with so many others. But youâyouâwould be his masterpiece. He would make sure of it.
His fingers brushed lightly against your leg, just enough to make you flinch, but not enough to pull you out of the movie. And as the next chase scene unfolded on the screen, Ni-ki smiled to himself, savoring the moment.
He could tell you were deep in your thoughts, processing the fear, but also something elseâsomething beneath the surface. You were on edge, yet you didnât pull away. You were still here, still sitting with him. That pleased him more than you could know.
He tilted his head slightly, his gaze softening as he took in the way you gripped the couch, the way your body tensed with every dramatic moment. He noticed the little thingsâhow you took a sharp breath when the victim almost got caught, how your eyes widened in brief anticipation, but you didnât look away.
âYou okay?â Ni-ki asked casually, breaking the silence, his voice soft yet filled with a certain curiosity. His tone seemed almost too casual for what he was observing, but it made you snap back to reality.
You nodded quickly, forcing a small, reassuring smile, though the flicker of unease still danced in your eyes. âYeah, just⊠wasnât expecting a movie like this.â
He chuckled, a low sound, and leaned back against the couch, stretching his legs out in front of him. âI get it,â he said, the words carrying a gentle teasing quality. âBut you seem to be handling it well.â
You looked over at him, unsure of what he meant, but his eyes were fixed on the screen now, and you couldn't quite read his expression.
"Thanks for staying," you said quietly, the words slipping out before you could think to stop them.
âOf course," he replied, glancing at you briefly, his smile soft. "Iâm not going anywhere.â
By the time the movie ended, the adrenaline had faded, and the room felt quieter, and you found yourself leaning back into the couch, your body finally starting to relax.
Ni-ki turned to you, his expression unreadable but his presence still comforting. âFeel better?â
You nodded, your smile small but genuine. âYeah, I do. Thanks for being here."
He gave a small nod, his eyes lingering on you for a moment before he looked away. "Anytime," he said softly, the words hanging in the air between you.
--
The sunlight filtered softly through the blinds as you slowly awoke, groggily blinking as you tried to get your bearings. The familiar warmth of the couch wrapped around you, but as your eyes adjusted, you realized that the person who had kept you company the night beforeâNi-kiâwas no longer beside you. The spot on the couch where heâd been was empty, and the space next to you felt cold in comparison.
You groaned, sitting up and stretching. You must've dozed off again after the movie had ended. You hadnât even realized youâd fallen asleep until you woke up now, all tangled in the blanket.
Shaking off the remnants of sleep, you stood up, ran through your usual morning routine, and gathered your things. You quickly dressed, brushed your hair, and splashed some water on your face to wake yourself up more fully. There was a lot to do today.
After grabbing a quick bite, you made your way to the hospital. Jiung had been transferred there after the attack, and you were eager to see how he was doing. As soon as you entered his room, you saw him sitting up in bed, looking far better than you expected after the ordeal.
He smiled weakly when he saw you, though there was still a tinge of pain in his eyes. âHey, you came. Iâm so glad to see you.â
You smiled back, your heart lightening at the sight of him doing so much better. âOf course, Jiung. How are you feeling?â
âBetter,â he replied, shifting to make himself more comfortable. âThe doctors said Iâll be fine to go home in a couple of days. Just need to rest a bit more.â
âThatâs great news,â you said, relieved. You sat down beside his bed, glad to see he was recovering well.
Jiung paused, looking at you with an almost hesitant expression. âHey, I was thinking⊠once Iâm out of here, maybe we could go grab a coffee or something? I know you are still thinking.â
You hesitated, glancing down at your hands for a moment. It was clear that Jiung had more than just friendship in mind, and you didnât want to hurt him. But you also needed to be honest with him.
âJiungâŠâ you started softly, meeting his eyes. âI think youâre great, but Iâve been thinking a lot about it, and I see you as a friend. Iâm actually interested in someone else.â
His face softened, but there was a hint of disappointment in his eyes. He gave a small nod, though, his smile never quite fading. âI understand. Anyone would be lucky to have you as a girlfriend.â
You gave him a gentle smile in return, feeling a pang of guilt, but also relief at having been honest with him. âThank you for understanding, Jiung. Youâre a really good person, and Iâm glad weâre friends.â
âIâm glad weâre friends, too,â he said, his voice steady despite the slight sadness in it. âTake care of yourself, okay?â
âI will. And you get better, alright?â you replied, giving him a small wave as you stood up to leave.
After your visit, you made your way to work, your thoughts still lingering on the conversation with Jiung. As much as it had been the right thing to do, it didnât make it any easier. You focused on your tasks at work, trying to push the lingering thoughts aside and focus on the tasks at hand. It was a long shift, but at least it gave you a break from the emotional weight of everything that had happened lately.
The evening had crept up on you faster than you expected. The time spent with your friends at the mall was a welcome distraction, but as the sky darkened, the familiar unease from earlier in the week began to creep back. You said your goodbyes, as they headed in different directions, and made your way to your car, feeling the weight of the day on your shoulders.
You climbed into your car, started the engine, and drove home, your mind preoccupied. The streets were relatively quiet, the rush of the city settling down as night enveloped everything in shadows. A part of you felt relieved to be heading back to your apartment, but another part felt uneasy. The events of the past few daysâthe attack on Jiung, the strange tension with Ni-kiâlingered in your thoughts, gnawing at the back of your mind.
Once you parked your car and grabbed your shopping bag from the back seat, you stepped out, pulling the door shut with a soft click. The air was crisp, a cool breeze brushing against your face as you locked the car and started walking toward your apartment. The familiar sounds of the street felt oddly distant, almost muffled by the growing darkness.
Your senses felt more alert than usual, and you quickened your pace, the soft click of your shoes against the pavement echoing in the quiet evening. Something about tonight felt off, the air thick with an unspoken tension that you couldnât quite place. Every shadow seemed to stretch longer, every flicker of movement felt like a warning.
You glanced over your shoulder, but the street behind you remained empty. Still, the unease gnawed at you.
Maybe itâs nothing, you thought to yourself, trying to shake off the feeling, but it didnât help. You picked up your pace again, hands clutching your shopping bag a little tighter. The streetlights above flickered intermittently, casting long shadows across the pavement.
As you neared your apartment building, you paused for just a second, glancing up at your door. Everything appeared normal, yet the feeling of being watched was inescapable. You exhaled slowly, trying to calm your racing heart, and told yourself it was just your mind playing tricks.
But then you heard something.
A sound behind you. A shuffle of footsteps.
Your head snapped around, but the street was still empty. The hairs on the back of your neck stood up as you stood there for a moment, frozen in place. The wind rustled the leaves nearby, but that was the only noise in the air.
You couldnât shake the feeling of being followed.
Just get inside, you urged yourself, turning back toward the door of your building. You fumbled with your keys, your fingers cold and unsteady as you slid the key into the lock. The sound of footsteps drew closer, and just as you pushed the door open, a voice, low and unfamiliar, echoed from behind you.
âYouâre not alone tonight.â
Your heart stopped. The hairs on your neck prickled with fear.
Before you could turn around, a gloved hand rested against the door, pushing it slightly back into its frame, and you were pulled backward.
The moment you were pulled into the alleyway, the cold grip of fear clamped down on your chest. You were yanked roughly, stumbling over your own feet, and before you could even think to scream, a gloved hand pressed tightly over your mouth, stifling any sound. The sharp edge of a knife was placed at your throat, just enough to make you feel the cold metal against your skin, but not yet enough to break it.
"You're lucky I let you live after you interfered last time," the man muttered, his voice low and cold, as if every word was carefully measured. "But⊠I guess Iâll forgive you. After all, itâs not your fault you got in the way. Just another mistake. But donât worry, Iâll finish what I started."
He pressed the knife a little harder into your side, making you wince, and his voice dropped to a barely audible whisper. "You wonât stop me this time."
Your eyes darted to the alleyâs entrance, and you tried to struggle against his grip, but his hand on your mouth only tightened, and the blade felt like it could pierce your skin with the slightest movement. Panic surged through you, but before you could react further, you heard something.
Footsteps. The faint sound of boots hitting pavement.
You froze.
The man must have heard it too, because his voice turned sharp, a warning whisper. "Stay quiet," he hissed. "If you make a sound, Iâll finish it right here."
Your breath caught in your throat as three police officers walked into view, their figures passing by the alleyâs opening. The sounds of their conversation blended with the quiet night, but they didnât seem to notice the two of you hidden in the shadows.
Your heart hammered in your chest as they came closer, their uniforms barely visible in the low light, the soft murmur of their voices floating into the alley. You dared not move a muscle, barely able to breathe, as you felt the pressure of the knife against your side.
The manâs grip on you tightened, forcing you to stand still, and you could feel the pulse of fear racing through your veins. Your eyes stayed locked on the officers, willing them to see you, to help, but they kept walking past without a second glance. Their conversation faded, and just like that, they were gone, leaving nothing but silence behind.
The manâs grip on you was relentless, pressing you deeper into the shadows. But in that brief, fleeting moment, you found your opening.
His hold slackened just enough, his focus momentarily distracted by the fading sound of the officersâ footsteps. His attention turned slightly to make sure they had truly gone, just long enough for you to summon the courage to move.
With a burst of adrenaline, you jerked your body to the side, slipping out of his grasp. Your heart pounded in your ears as you darted forward, legs propelling you as fast as they could carry you. The alley seemed to stretch endlessly in front of you, and with every step, the fear that gripped your chest pushed you further, faster.
You didnât look backâcouldnât afford toâbut you heard the sound of his footsteps pounding behind you, growing louder. He was coming after you. His breath was ragged, but there was no mercy in his pursuit, only the promise of violence. The sound of his pursuit echoed down the narrow alley, each step closer to your heels making your breath come quicker, your legs feel weaker.
You turned a corner, hoping to lose him, but the streets around you were eerily empty, void of the people you so desperately needed. The streetlights flickered weakly, casting long shadows that seemed to stretch endlessly, making you feel as though the darkness was swallowing you whole.
There was no one. No one to help you. No one to witness your struggle.
You tried to scream, but your voice was caught in your throat, choking on your fear. Every alley you passed was as desolate as the last, every street devoid of life. The city seemed to hold its breath as you ran, its silence mocking your desperate escape.
Your legs burned, your lungs screamed for air, but you didnât dare stop. If you did, he would catch you. And the thought of what he would do made your skin crawl, your heart race even faster.
But then, you heard it. His footsteps were louder now, more insistent. He was gaining on you. The realization hit you like a waveâyou werenât going to outrun him.
Desperation set in as you searched for any place to hide, any escape, but the streets stretched on endlessly, the buildings looming on either side like dark sentinels. The only sound that filled the air was your frantic breathing and the thudding of your own heartbeat.
You had to think. You had to survive.
You pushed yourself harder, heart hammering in your chest as you darted through another narrow alley. Desperation clawed at your throat, but somehow, you found an abandoned dumpster in the corner of the alley, its shadow deep and offering a small sliver of cover.
With trembling hands, you crouched behind it, pulling your legs close to your chest, trying to quiet your frantic breathing. You held your breath, praying that he wouldnât hear you or see you. The night felt suffocating, the dark streets now your only allies.
You pressed yourself against the cold, gritty wall of the alley, the rough surface scraping your skin as you slowly peeked out, just enough to see him.
The man was standing a few feet away, his head shifting left and right, scanning the area. He was looking for youâsearching for you, and every passing moment felt like an eternity. The way he moved, his body tense, the way his eyes narrowed behind the mask, told you that he was intent on finding you.
He was tall, lean, and wore a baggy jacket with the hood pulled low over his head, casting his features in shadow. His jeans hung loosely around his waist, the fabric almost swallowing his legs. A mask covered his mouth, hiding his expression, but you could see the sharpness of his eyes, cold and calculating as they swept over the alley.
You held your breath again, not daring to move a muscle. The air felt thick, and the sound of his footsteps seemed impossibly loud as he stepped closer to where you were hiding. You could hear him muttering under his breath, a low, almost inaudible grumble of frustration as he searched. He was so close now, standing right in the spot where you had just been moments before.
Your heart hammered in your chest as you forced yourself to stay still, not even daring to blink. If you moved, if he saw you⊠you didnât want to think about what would happen. The fear that gripped your throat made it hard to breathe, but you didnât dare exhale too loudly.
The man stepped closer again, his body tensing, clearly aware that you were near. You could see the muscles in his arms flexing beneath the fabric of his jacket, his hands twitching near the knife in his pocket. His breathing was slow, deliberate, as if he was savoring the hunt.
You swallowed hard, your entire body on edge. It felt like the world had stopped, the only thing in motion was him, his every movement calculated, methodical.
Then, after what felt like an eternity, he stepped back, his head turning as if he had sensed somethingâor maybe it was just the cold night playing tricks on him. His eyes scanned the surrounding area once more, and for a moment, you thought he might give up.
You knew, the moment you moved, he would be on you. You just had to wait, to let him think heâd missed you. Just a little longer, just enough time for you to figure out your next move.
You waited, heart racing, every muscle in your body tensed, when the man who had been stalking you suddenly vanished into the shadows. The air felt thick with suspense, the silence almost deafening as you kept your eyes trained on the dark alleyway, afraid to make a move just yet.
It wasnât until several minutes later that you finally saw why heâd left. A tall, broad-shouldered man appeared at the mouth of the alleyway, his gait confident and purposeful. You recognized him instantlyâthe owner of the laundromat a few blocks over. His muscular build and rough demeanor made him hard to miss. He was the type who could take care of himself, the type youâd want by your side if trouble were brewing. He strolled past the alley, seemingly unaware of the danger that had been lurking just moments before.
Taking the opportunity, you slowly began to step out of your hiding place, keeping your movements as quiet and fluid as possible. With the laundromat owner walking ahead, you kept a few steps behind him, grateful for the presence of someone who seemed safe, someone who might be the buffer between you and whatever danger had been stalking you just minutes before.
As you walked, you couldnât shake the eerie feeling of being watched, that prickling sensation creeping up your spine. Your eyes darted over your shoulder, searching the dark streets. But there was no one. Still, the unsettling feeling lingered like a shadow that wouldnât let go.
You turned back around and quickened your pace, staying close to the laundromat owner. The walk back to your apartment felt like it took forever. Every turn, every creak in the distance, made your heart pound faster. You refused to look back again, forcing yourself to focus on getting to the safety of your apartment.
The moment you reached your building, you breathed a sigh of relief. The door to the apartment building seemed like a small fortress in that moment. You glanced once more over your shoulderânothing. But the nagging sensation that something, someone, was still watching you refused to let go.
You hurried up the stairs to your apartment, not bothering to check the other floors, not caring who might be around. Your only priority was getting inside, locking the door, and sealing yourself off from whatever it was that was chasing youâwhether it was the man in the alley or the dark thoughts you tried to push away.
As you entered your apartment, you locked the door behind you, breathing heavily. You walked to your room, closing the door with a soft click, and pressed your back against it for a moment. Your hands were trembling as you looked around your room.
But even in the safety of your room, the adrenaline still buzzed in your veins. The fear hadnât fully dissipated, but something else had settled into the pit of your stomach. It wasnât just fear anymoreâit was an unsettling sense of anticipation. A craving that you couldnât name, a feeling that made your skin tingle and your breath quicken, not from fear this time, but something else. Something darker.
The feeling grew, gnawing at you from the inside. You pushed it down, told yourself to focus, to get some sleep, to let go of the rush. But deep inside, you knew what it was.
It was the thrill. The addiction to it. The way your body had reacted to the chase, the near escape, the uncertainty of what might happen next.
You shook your head, trying to clear the thoughts, telling yourself to stop. It was a dangerous game to play with such thoughts. But in the back of your mind, a voice whispered that you would never be able to stop craving it.
That night, as you lay in your bed, the exhaustion from the long day weighed heavily on your body. The adrenaline from the events earlier had faded, leaving behind a deep, aching tiredness. You pulled the blanket up to your chin, closed your eyes, and let yourself drift into sleep, unaware of the quiet presence watching you.
Just beyond the wall of your room, in the shadows, Ni-ki stood silently, his eyes fixated on the small hole in the wall that gave him an unobstructed view into your room.
He smiled, a dark, satisfied smile. You had no idea how close he was, no idea how much he had watched you tonight, how every move you madeâevery step you tookâhad been carefully observed. Even the small crack in the wall had become an entryway for him to see you, to observe you without you knowing. To see you in your most vulnerable stateâsleeping, unaware of the danger just beyond your reach.
His fingers traced the edge of the hole, a slow, deliberate movement as he drank in the sight of you. He admired the way you shifted in your sleep, how your body instinctively curled up for warmth, how your lips parted slightly in a soft breath. He knew you didnât fully understand the danger, didnât fully comprehend the way he had been keeping watch over you, but that would change.
You had something inside you. Something that made you crave the chaos, the rush, the thrill of danger. He could see it now. He could feel it in the way your body reacted, in the subtle ways you would flinch at the chase scenes on the TV, in the way your heart raced when you were close to danger. You liked it, didn't you? The feeling of being hunted, the rush of barely escaping.
And that was where he had to be patient. He would guide you. Mold you. Shape you into someone who wouldnât just run from him. No, youâd be by his side, not as a victim, but as someone who wanted to walk this dangerous path with him. It would take time, but he was willing to wait.
As you slept, Ni-kiâs gaze never left you, his heart thumping in quiet anticipation. It wasnât just the thrill he enjoyed now. It was you.
You had no idea how impressive you were, how far you'd come in such a short amount of time. The way you escaped from his grasp earlierâit had caught him off guard, in a way. The determination in you, the fight, the way you pushed through the fear. It was something he admired, even if you didnât fully realize the extent of it.
When you managed to slip away from him, when you outwitted him for those few seconds, it ignited something within him. He was impressedânot many could do that. Not many could slip through his fingers like that, especially when he was so close. It wasn't just the thrill of the chase anymore; it was the way you handled it. You were more than just a victim to him now. You were becoming something elseâsomething he wanted more than anything.
The rush he felt watching you run, the adrenaline pulsing through his veins, was addicting. You had that same fire, that same dangerous allure that kept pulling him back in. Your fear, your resistance, even your attempts at fighting back, had only made him more intrigued, more obsessed.
It was clear nowâyou were no longer just a victim for him to hunt. You were a challenge. A beautiful, unpredictable challenge. And he loved every moment of it.
His fingers grazed the wall as he leaned in closer, his eyes narrowing with focus. You had nearly escaped him, but in doing so, youâd only stoked the flames of his desire to catch you even more. You were strong, quick, and clever. But more than that, you were unpredictable, and that made you more enticing than any victim he had ever encountered.
He could already picture itâthe next time you faced him, the next time you ran, the next time you resisted. Heâd be ready for it. And this time, he wouldnât let you go. Not until you fully understood the game.
With a slow, deliberate breath, he pulled himself away from the wall, slipping quietly out of the shadows, his mind already whirring with plans. He would let you think you had control for now, let you think you were escaping him. But soon enough, heâd pull you back in, closer than ever before.
Ni-ki knew the thrill wasnât just in the chase anymore. The real excitement would come when you finally stopped runningâwhen you embraced the darkness he offered, when you no longer resisted him. That was when heâd truly have you. And when that time came, you would understand. You would want it too.
But for now, he would let you breathe. He would let you think you were free, even though, deep down, you already belonged to him. The pull would only get stronger.
And when you woke in the morning, when you faced the world again, he would be right there, ready to take the next step in bringing you closer to him. Because this wasnât just about chasing you anymoreâit was about claiming you, piece by piece.
He turned away from the wall and quietly left, leaving the hole behind, but his mind was already set on the next move.
Soon enough, you would be his.
--
You had just opened your door, heading out for class, when you froze in your tracks. The road ahead of you was blocked. Someone had left a shopping bag on the ground right in your path, unmistakably familiar. Your breath caught in your throat as you took a step closer, recognizing the bag immediately.
It was the same one you had dropped during your frantic run from the killer, the one you had barely managed to grab before fleeing for your life. How could it possibly be here?
Your heart raced in your chest, and your hands trembled as you reached down to pick it up. As you did, a cold shiver ran down your spine. The weight of it was just as it had been before, and when you peered inside, you saw everything youâd bought from the mallâa few pieces of clothing, makeup, and the lipstick youâd picked out without much thought.
But there was something else, something more unnervingâthere was a note. It was attached to the lipstick. You slowly pulled it out, and the moment your eyes fell on the words, your stomach dropped.
âYou forgot your bag, doll. I thought Iâd return it to you. Iâd love to see this shade on your lips next time we meet.â
The words were simple, but the implications were enough to send a chill down your spine. It felt like the note had been written just for you, as if he knew where youâd be, as if he was keeping track of you.
You glanced around the hallway, but there was no sign of anyone, no figure lurking in the shadows. You were completely alone. Still, the presence of that note, the familiarity of his words, left you feeling exposed, vulnerable. He was closer than you realized. He was always watching.
You quickly stuffed the note back into the bag, clutching it tightly as your heart hammered in your chest. But even as you turned to leave, a sinking feeling gnawed at the back of your mind, knowing that every time you tried to move forward, somethingâsomeoneâwas always just one step behind you.
--
Over the next few days, your life seemed to settle into a new rhythm. You spent more time with Ni-ki, and each moment felt different from anything you had experienced before. His presence was comforting, a sense of protection lingering whenever he was near. It wasnât just the way he would quietly stand watch over you when you were vulnerable, but the subtle ways he made sure you felt safe.
As much as you tried to shake off the unsettling memories of that night, Ni-ki's company made you feel⊠reassured. The small crush you had once harbored for him began to grow. His calm demeanor, the way he carried himself with confidence, and the way he seemed to understand everything without saying muchâit made him irresistible. It was so easy to let your guard down when he was around, even if a small part of you still questioned things you couldnât quite understand.
Then Jiung came back from the hospital.
The moment he stepped into your apartment, there was an odd tension in the air. Heâd been through a lot, and he looked exhausted, but there was something else in his eyesâsomething darker, a sharpness you hadnât noticed before. He wasnât the same since the attack, and maybe it was the trauma or just his protective nature, but when he saw Ni-ki, his demeanor shifted. He greeted you with a tired smile, but his gaze lingered on Ni-ki longer than it shouldâve.
You could sense something was off. He seemed distant, colder, and even though he was happy to see you, his eyes kept flicking to Ni-ki, narrowing as if trying to make sense of something.
Later, as you and Jiung were talking, he dropped a bombshell.
âHave you noticed anything strange about him?â Jiung asked, his voice low, guarded.
âWho?â you asked, slightly confused.
âNi-ki,â he answered, his eyes not meeting yours but focused on the spot where Ni-ki had been sitting earlier. âIâve been doing some thinking⊠about all those murders. The ones that happened around the same time he showed up⊠Itâs too much of a coincidence. And the way heâs always around, watching youâsomethingâs off.â
You laughed softly, trying to ease the tension. âJiung, youâre being paranoid. Ni-kiâs harmless.â
But Jiung didnât seem convinced. âIâm serious. Youâve been around him a lot, right? Think about it. His timing, his habits⊠donât you think itâs strange?â
You shook your head, brushing off the unease creeping into your chest. âYouâre crazy. Ni-ki would never hurt anyone. Heâs been nothing but nice to me, Jiung. Youâre just imagining things.â
Jiung clenched his fists, frustration evident on his face. âIâm not imagining anything! You need to be careful. Heâs dangerous. Iâm telling you.â
You met his gaze with an exasperated sigh. âI know youâre worried, but Ni-ki isnât who you think he is. Heâs not the bad guy here.â You stood up, trying to change the subject. âAnyway, Iâm sure youâre just tired from everything that happened at the hospital. Maybe you should rest.â
Jiung stared at you for a long moment, searching your face for any sign of doubt. But there was none. Finally, he shook his head, as if giving up on convincing you. âI hope youâre right,â he muttered, but the suspicion still lingered in his eyes.
The rest of the conversation was awkward. Despite your assurances, you couldnât shake the nagging feeling that something wasnât quite right. Jiungâs words had planted a seed of doubt, but you quickly silenced it. Ni-ki had always been kind to you. He was always there when you needed him. He wasnât dangerous.
Right?
But as the days passed, and you spent more time with Ni-ki, you began to notice small things that didnât sit right. There were moments when you would catch him looking at you a little too intently, or when his smile would slip into something darker when you werenât paying attention. The tension from Jiungâs warning kept gnawing at the back of your mind, but each time you saw Ni-kiâs faceâcalm, patient, understandingâyou pushed it aside.
Jiung had to be wrong. He was just being paranoid.
Still, something inside you felt like it was teetering on the edge of something you couldnât quite grasp.
A few days later, Jiung showed up at your door again. This time, he was holding a manila folder, and the look on his face was grave.
You didnât want to invite him in, but he didnât give you much of a choice. As he pushed the door open, you stepped back, arms crossed defensively.
âIâve got more to show you,â Jiung said, a mix of urgency and frustration in his voice.
âJiung, I told you already, I donât want to talk about this,â you said, trying to shut down the conversation before it even started.
But he was insistent, handing you the folder. âLook at this. You need to see it.â
Reluctantly, you opened the folder, your heart racing as you flipped through the papers. They were mostly copies of reports from the police and CCTV footage, but one image caught your eye: it was a grainy shot of Ni-ki walking alone through the streets at night. The image was taken from a security camera, and it was timestamped around the time of one of the murders.
âJiung, this is just footage of him walking down the street,â you muttered, trying to brush it off.
But Jiung wasnât backing down. He pointed to another image, a close-up shot of Ni-ki entering a small shopâa shop you knew he worked at. âThis is him going to work, isnât it? You know it is,â Jiung said, his voice tight with tension. âThis is where the pattern starts. Heâs always around. Always at the right place at the right time.â
You stared at the photo, your mind spinning. You didnât want to admit it, but the timing was too coincidental. But still, something about it didnât sit right with you. Ni-ki had always been kind, gentle, and⊠well, he was your friend. You had to believe that.
âJiung, please,â you said, your voice pleading. âThis isnât enough. Itâs just⊠itâs a coincidence, okay? Ni-ki is a good guy. He wouldnât hurt anyone.â
Jiungâs face hardened. âYouâre just ignoring the facts. Iâm telling you, youâre in danger. Heâs been involved in every single one of these murders, and youâve been around him. You need to stay away from him before itâs too late.â
You shook your head, frustration bubbling up. âIâve had enough of this, Jiung. You need to leave.â
You didnât give him a chance to argue, firmly holding out the folder with the papers he had given you. âTake your stuff and go.â
Jiung looked at you one last time, eyes filled with a mix of hurt and frustration. âIâm just trying to protect you, you know,â he muttered before taking the folder from your hand and walking out the door.
Once he was gone, you locked it behind him, letting out a long sigh of relief. You couldnât ignore the gnawing feeling in your stomach, though, the small part of you that wondered if maybe Jiung had been right. But then you thought of Ni-kiâhis smile, the way he always looked out for you, the way heâd been there for you time and time again.
No. You couldnât believe it. Ni-ki wasnât capable of what Jiung accused him of.
You couldnât let yourself doubt him.
--
You were curled up on the couch with Ni-ki, the soft glow of the TV lighting up the dark room as you both watched a movie. The atmosphere was comfortable, the kind of quiet warmth that made you feel safe with him.
But then, the sound of your doorbell broke the calm.
You groaned, irritated that the moment was being interrupted. As you stood up and made your way to the door, Ni-ki didn't even glance away from the screen, still lounging back on the couch. You opened the door, not expecting much, only to find Jiung standing there. His presence instantly put you on edge.
"Jiung? What are youâ"
Before you could finish your sentence, Jiungâs eyes immediately darted past you to the living room, locking onto Ni-ki. There was a brief moment of silence, and you could practically feel the tension building in the air. His discomfort was palpable, his body stiff as he shifted uneasily on his feet.
âI was wondering if you had any more information on the murder,â Jiung asked, his tone direct but strained. âAnything else you might have forgotten to tell the police? Some small detail that could help?â
You blinked in confusion, then sighed. You were so tired of this. The suspicion, the constant questioningâit felt like a weight you couldnât escape. You could see the doubt in his eyes, and it stung.
âJiung, I already told you everything,â you said, trying to keep your voice calm but firm.
He didnât look convinced, his gaze flickering to Ni-ki again, lingering a little too long. Ni-ki, for his part, seemed unaffected, his expression unreadable.
"Well, if you remember anything elseâ" Jiung started, but you cut him off.
âLook, I really need to go to the bathroom,â you said, your patience wearing thin. âIâll be back in a minute. Can you just... wait here?â
Jiung nodded, though you could see the worry in his eyes as he glanced at Ni-ki one last time.
You didnât want to deal with this right now, and as you made your way toward the bathroom, you hoped that maybe Jiung would leave. But just as you reached the door, you heard it. A loud crash, followed by shouts, then the sound of things scattering across the floor.
Your heart skipped a beat. You rushed back toward the living room, and your stomach dropped when you saw what was happening. Ni-ki and Jiung were on the floor, tangled together in a mess of flailing limbs. They were shouting at each other, the aggression in their voices unmistakable.
âJiung, what the hellââ you gasped.
The two of them were a messâclothes half-ripped, hair disheveled, and faces already starting to show the marks of their struggle. Ni-kiâs grip on Jiungâs shirt was unforgiving, his knuckles white with the intensity of his hold, while Jiung pushed back with all his might, trying to break free.
The coffee table had been knocked over in the chaos, and your bowl of popcorn lay shattered across the floor, the pieces scattered like a reminder of how quickly things had gone wrong.
âNi-ki is the killer! Donât you see it?!â Jiung shouted, his voice hoarse and frantic as he tried to land a punch, but Ni-ki dodged it easily. His voice rang with panic, eyes wide as he looked at you. âYouâre protecting him! You donât know who he is!â
You felt the words cut through you like a knife, your heart pounding in your chest as the truth of what Jiung was accusing sank in. Was it possible? Was Ni-ki really the killer? The one responsible for everything? Your mind raced, but every part of you resisted the thought. You knew Ni-kiâhe couldnât be.
But Jiungâs anger and fear were real. His accusations filled the room like a thick, oppressive fog.
Ni-kiâs expression remained cold, unflinching, despite the heat of the fight. His face was a mask of controlled rage as he twisted Jiungâs shirt tighter. âYou donât know anything,â he growled, his voice low and menacing. âYouâre just trying to get a rise out of her.â
Jiung tried to break free, his breath ragged. âYou think Iâm lying? You think Iâm crazy? I saw the patterns, I saw the way heâs always there, after dark. You think thatâs a coincidence?!â He shoved Ni-ki with all his strength, causing the two of them to stumble. âYou canât hide it anymore. Youâll slip up, and when you doââ
Ni-ki cut him off, his grip tightening as he shoved Jiung into the wall with a brutal force. âIâm done with you,â he snarled, his voice filled with a chilling finality. âYouâve said your piece. Now, get the hell out of my sight.â
Jiungâs face twisted with frustration as he took in the damage around himâthe overturned coffee table, the popcorn on the floor. He seemed to come to a realization then, one you couldnât quite place, and he stared at Ni-ki one last time with wide, disbelieving eyes.
âYouâre the monster,â Jiung spat, his voice trembling. âAnd sheâll see it too. Sheâll figure it out eventually.â
Jiung opened the door, his hands trembling as he stepped out, casting one last glance at you before leaving, his figure disappearing into the hallway.
The room felt unnaturally still after he was gone. The only sounds were your breathing and the faint hum of the air conditioner.
Ni-ki, still standing where Jiung had left him, slowly relaxed his stance, though the tension in his body remained. He took a step back, as if finally realizing how close to the edge things had been. His eyes locked onto you, the intensity of his gaze making your heart skip a beat. But this time, there was something else there, something deeperâsomething you couldnât quite understand.
âYou donât believe him, do you?â Ni-ki asked, his voice softer now, almost too calm.
You opened your mouth, but nothing came out. Your mind was a whirlwind, caught between what you had just witnessed and the person you thought you knew.
âHeâs just trying to scare you,â Ni-ki continued, taking a step closer to you, his expression unreadable. âYou know me better than that. Iâd never hurt you. You have to know that.â
But you couldnât shake the nagging feeling in your chest. The questions, the doubts, they had been creeping in for weeks, ever since you first met him. Every time you thought you could trust him completely, something darkâsomething offâseemed to follow in his wake.
You swallowed hard, trying to steady your racing thoughts. âI donât know what to believe anymore,â you admitted, your voice barely a whisper.
Ni-ki didnât respond immediately, just standing there, his eyes never leaving yours, watching you as if waiting for something. You could feel the weight of his gaze, the way it seemed to see straight through you.
But then, his lips curved into a small, reassuring smile. âYou donât have to think about it right now,â he said softly.
The words sent a shiver down your spine, but you didnât know why. You didnât know what to do with the tangled mess of emotions swirling inside you.
The days following Jiungâs visit felt like an eternity. You couldnât shake the weight of his accusations or the image of Ni-ki and Jiung fighting, each man standing for something so different.
You started to keep Ni-ki at arm's length, your interactions with him becoming more guarded. Youâd still spend time together, but there was a distance nowâsomething unsaid that hung in the air between you, a barrier that wasnât there before.
Ni-ki noticed. His usual calm demeanor faltered, just for a moment, whenever you hesitated to answer his calls or avoided his gaze for too long. But he didnât press it. Not directly. Instead, he continued to show up, his presence always just a step away from being too much, and yet you let him in. Every time. Maybe it was the loneliness, or the need for something familiar, something you could hold onto.
One evening, you opened the door to find him standing there, the familiar tilt of his head and that quiet smile of his. He was calm, as always, but there was something in his eyesâsomething searching. He didnât have to say anything to make you feel it.
âYouâre avoiding me,â he said quietly, stepping into the apartment without waiting for you to invite him in.
You couldnât bring yourself to lie. âI donât know what to think anymore,â you admitted, your voice low. âIâm confused.â
Ni-ki closed the door behind him with a soft click and turned to face you, his eyes unwavering. âI understand,â he said, his tone almost too understanding. âBut youâve got to trust me. I havenât done anything wrong. You know me better than anyone else.â
You wanted to believe him. You really did. But Jiungâs accusations, the evidence he showed you⊠it made it harder.
âNi-ki, IâŠâ You faltered, your words feeling heavy in your chest. âI donât know who to trust.â
He stepped closer, his gaze locking onto yours, the space between you shrinking with each word. âYou can trust me,â he said, his voice softer, almost coaxing. âI know itâs hard to see through all the confusion, but I swear to you, Iâm innocent. I would never hurt you.â
You took a step back, your mind fighting with your heart. Your body told you to believe him, to let go of the doubt. But the fear still lingered, a shadow at the edge of your thoughts.
âYou have to understand, what Jiung said⊠Itâs all just paranoia,â he murmured, his voice low and comforting, like a whisper meant to calm the storm inside you. âHe doesnât understand me the way you do. You know me. You know who I am.â His hand reached out, fingers brushing gently along your arm. "You know that I would never hurt you. Iâd never hurt anyone you care about."
You shook your head slightly, still conflicted, but his touch made it hard to focus. âBut JiungâŠâ you started, your voice faltering.
âHeâs crazy,â Ni-ki interrupted, a flicker of frustration flashing in his eyes before it softened again, replaced by that unwavering calm. "Heâs got a wild imagination. He's pushing all these ideas in your head. Donât listen to him. Youâre smart. You know what feels right.â He took another step closer, his hand moving to gently tuck a strand of hair behind your ear. âYou feel it too, donât you? The connection between us? The way I protect you, the way I look out for you? Thereâs nothing wrong with that.â
You swallowed hard, his words sinking deeper into your mind, like a slow poisonâsoft and insidious. The memory of Jiungâs accusations felt distant now, buried beneath the weight of Ni-kiâs soothing tone. "But... what if he was right?" Your voice was barely above a whisper, the fear creeping in again.
Ni-ki gave you a small smile, though it didnât reach his eyes. He cupped your chin gently, lifting it, forcing you to meet his gaze. âJiung doesnât know what heâs talking about. Heâs just scared. Of me, of what he canât have But you, youâre not scared, are you?â His voice dropped even lower, intimate and coaxing. âYou know I would never hurt you. Why would I? I care about you. I would do anything for you.â
You hesitated, the conflicting emotions a jumbled mess in your mind. Ni-ki continued, his fingers sliding from your chin to the back of your neck, gently pulling you closer. âYouâre safe with me. Youâve always been safe with me. Jiung doesnât want to see that. But you do. You trust me, right?â
You nodded, despite the knot in your stomach, the small voice of doubt still lingering in the back of your mind. It felt easier to trust him in this moment. He was right there, offering you comfort, offering you understanding. Everything about him seemed so sure, so calm, as though the whole world was just a puzzle heâd already figured out.
âYouâll see,â Ni-ki whispered, brushing his lips lightly against your forehead, âonce Jiungâs out of the picture, you wonât have to worry about anything. We can be happy. Together.â
Before you could say anything else, Ni-ki lifted your chin, tilting your head back slightly. His breath was warm on your skin as he leaned in, and for a moment, you froze, the weight of the situation pressing down on you. But then, before you could stop yourself, he kissed you.
His lips were soft, almost tentative at first, as if waiting for you to pull away. But you didnât. You didnât pull away. Instead, your arms found their way around his neck, pulling him closer as the kiss deepened. Ni-ki responded immediately, his hand moving from your chin to the back of your neck, his grip possessive but gentle.
His other hand slid around your waist, pulling your body against his, the heat of his touch igniting something inside you that you had tried to ignore. The kiss was intense, consumingâeverything you had been pushing down rising to the surface.
He backed you towards the wall, his body pressing against yours, and you could feel the tension between you both, the energy swirling in the space around you. You kissed him back, feeling the surge of desire you hadnât realized was building up inside you.
In that moment, everything else faded awayâthe doubt, the fear, the confusion. All that mattered was the way he held you, the way he kissed you, the way he made you feel like you were the only thing in the world.
Ni-kiâs lips lingered for just a moment longer before he pulled back slightly, his breath warm against your face. His gaze softened as he looked down at you, his hands gently resting on your shoulders, his thumbs brushing in small circles.
âYouâre incredible,â he murmured, his voice low, full of awe. âI donât know if you realize it, but you really are.â His eyes searched yours, intense and filled with something that felt almost too deep to understand, yet you couldnât help but drown in it. âYouâre perfect. Everything about you, your smile, the way you think⊠Itâs everything I could ever want.â
You stood there, your heart beating faster, warmth blooming in your chest. No one had ever spoken to you like that before, with such intensity, such devotion. It was intoxicating.
âYou make me feel like Iâm the luckiest person in the world,â he continued, his lips curling into a smile, almost possessive in its warmth. âI love everything about you.â His voice dropped lower, more intimate. âI love how you trust me. How youâre mine.â
His words wrapped around you like silk, each compliment sinking deeper into your chest, making you feel cherished, wanted in a way that left you breathless. It was like he had tapped into something inside you, something you didnât even know was there.
âYou make me feel like nothing else matters,â he murmured, his hand sliding up to gently hold your cheek. âI need you. Youâre all Iâve ever wanted.â
You felt a soft smile tug at the corner of your lips, your heart swelling with something that almost felt too big for your chest. For a moment, you almost forgot about everything elseâabout the doubts, the warnings, the nagging feeling that there was something off. It didnât matter. Because in that moment, Ni-ki was the center of your world.
And the way he looked at you, so tender, so fixated, made you believe that you were the only one who could make him feel this way.
âI love you,â he whispered, his voice barely audible, his lips brushing against your ear, sending a shiver down your spine. âIâll always love you. No one else, just you.â
You closed your eyes, overwhelmed by the emotion that swelled in your chest. You didnât question it.
Because in that moment, it didnât matter. All that mattered was him. And the love he gave you. The kind of love that wrapped around you like chains, making you feel like you were everything to him.
You didnât need to know that it wasnât the healthy kind of love. The kind of love that makes you feel safe, seen, and valued. No, this was the kind of love that thrived on obsession, on want, The kind of love that turned into possession, into something dangerous.
But you didnât need to know that. Not yet.
--
The cool evening air wrapped around you as you walked down the dimly lit street, the soft hum of the cityâs late-night life barely audible. Your fingers danced across your phoneâs screen, sending a quick text to Ni-ki. You smiled at the thought of him, your chest warm with the affection youâd come to associate with him in these past few days. It had been a week since any news of the killer had surfaced in the area, and for the first time in what felt like ages, you allowed yourself to feel a little at ease.
The street was quiet, save for the occasional rustle of leaves and the distant sound of cars passing.
But the moment you raised your eyes from your phone, something shifted in the air.
The silence seemed heavier now, thick with something you couldnât quite place. Your heartbeat quickened, and despite your attempts to ignore it, the hairs on the back of your neck stood up. You slowed your pace, scanning the quiet street, looking for any sign of movement, but saw nothing. Nothing that seemed out of place.
Yet, you couldnât shake the feeling that someone was watching you. You had ignored it before, the anxiety bubbling up every now and then, but tonight⊠tonight, it felt different.
You kept walking, fingers tightening around your phone, clutching it like a lifeline. You tried to push the thought out of your mind, convincing yourself it was nothing, just the remnants of your paranoia, but your instincts were screaming.
Your eyes darted from the street to the alleyways, scanning the shadows. The streetlights flickered as you walked past them, casting long, eerie shadows that seemed to move with you. You quickened your pace, not sure why, but feeling an undeniable need to get home, to the safety of your apartment.
Then, a sharp sound broke the stillness behind you.
You froze.
Footstepsâfast, heavy, and far too close.
You turned around, eyes wide, but the street was empty. The night air felt colder now, and you felt the rush of adrenaline hit your bloodstream. Your mind raced, trying to find logic in the situation, trying to explain the sudden unease that crawled under your skin. You glanced back at your phone, feeling a desperate need to call Ni-ki, to hear his voice. But then your phone buzzed in your hand, and your breath caught in your throat.
It was a message from him. âAre you home yet? Iâm thinking about you.â
You took a shaky breath, attempting to steady yourself, but it didnât help. Something felt wrong. Your heart pounded in your chest, your senses on edge. You turned the corner, taking a route that led you toward your apartment building, but before you could take another step, the hairs on the back of your neck stood up again.
The footsteps were louder now, closing in.
And this time, you could feel itâsomeone was behind you. You didnât dare turn around. Instead, you broke into a sprint, desperate to make it to the safety of your apartment. Your heart raced, pumping with fear, as your footfalls echoed in the night. You could hear the sound of running footsteps following you, getting closer, faster.
With every beat of your heart, you felt the fear building. Your breaths came in sharp gasps as you rounded the last corner before your building came into sight. The lights were on in the lobby, a beacon of safety you were nearly within reach of.
But just as you reached the door, a cold hand gripped your wrist, pulling you back into the shadows.
You felt the sharp tug of your wrist as you got dragged further into the shadows, your heart racing as panic surged through your veins. His grip was iron-tight, and each step he took felt like it was pulling you farther from safety. The familiar, chilling voice whispered again, sending a shiver down your spine.
âDid you really think you were safe?â he murmured, the words coated in something dark.
The world seemed to slow as you looked around, your eyes desperately searching for help. And then, in that moment, you saw himâJiung. He was walking out of the apartment building, his expression tight, a storm cloud of anger above his head.
Without thinking, you swung your head back, using the only weapon you hadâthe back of your skull. You slammed it against the killerâs face with all your might. The sound of it echoed in the night, and he grunted in pain, stumbling back. The grip on your wrist loosened for just a second.
That was all you needed.
You took off running.
âJiung!â you screamed, voice hoarse with fear. âThe killer is here!â
Jiung whipped around at the sound of your voice. His eyes widened in shock and recognition as he saw the state you were in, but there was no hesitation. He grabbed your wrist without a second thought and pulled you down the street with him. Your heart pounded in your chest as your feet barely touched the ground.
The sound of your footsteps echoed in the night, but Jiungâs determination led you to safety. He didnât stop running until you reached a narrow alleyway, the faint glow of a streetlamp casting long shadows against the walls. He yanked you behind a dumpster, urgency in every movement.
âStay quiet,â Jiung hissed, fumbling for his phone with shaky hands. His breath was quick, his eyes scanning the street, his voice low and urgent. âWe need to wait until he passes. Donât make a sound.â
You nodded, pressing yourself against the cold brick wall, trying to steady your breathing. Your body felt like it was on fire from adrenaline, but there was no time to process it. You had to stay quiet. You had to stay hidden.
You peaked through behing the dumpster, your breath barely a whisper as you watched the street. The killer was there, his head scanning the area. His posture was tense, each step measured, and it made your stomach drop.
You quickly pulled your head back, heart racing. Your eyes met Jiungâs, and the terror in them was mirrored in his. He pressed a finger to his lips, motioning for you to stay as still as possible. You did, trying to make yourself as small as possible, breathing shallowly, praying he wouldnât find you.
You pushed back against the wall even further, squeezing your eyes shut for a moment, hoping the fear would subside, but it only grew. You could hear the faint shuffle of the killerâs footsteps, closer now. Every sound felt louder in the silence of the alley. Your pulse drummed in your ears, and your chest tightened.
Jiungâs phone buzzed in his hand, but he didnât dare answer it. Instead, his eyes locked onto yours, full of resolve. He would protect you, no matter what. But the question was, how long could you stay hidden? How long until he found you?
You felt the seconds stretch into what felt like eternity, your body frozen in place. The cold air seemed to grow heavier as every nerve in your body screamed for you to move, to run, to do somethingâanything. But your feet remained rooted to the ground as the wind shifted, carrying with it the familiar, suffocating scent of the killer.
You opened your eyes, your breath catching in your throat as your gaze landed on him.
There he was.
He stood there, just a few feet away, his eyes locked on you. His voice was low, almost mocking, as he leaned in slightly, his gaze never leaving you.
"Found you," he said, his tone sending an ice-cold shiver down your spine.
Before you could react, the terror overwhelmed you. Your throat felt tight as a scream tore its way out of you, a cry of desperation, of pure fear. You backed away, stumbling, but there was nowhere to go.
Jiung reacted instantly, leaping up from behind the dumpster, his body moving with the speed of someone who had no choice but to fight. He threw himself at the killer, fists flying. They collided with each other in a flurry of punches and kicks, a blur of movement and desperation.
But the killer was prepared. He pulled out a knife, gleaming cold under the dim streetlights, and without hesitation, he lunged.
Time seemed to slow as the blade plunged into Jiungâs abdomen, a sickening sound echoing in the alley.
You froze, unable to move, unable to breathe, as Jiung gasped, his hands clutching at the wound. Blood spilled between his fingers, and you could see the life draining from his face as he stumbled back. His breath came in quick, shallow gasps.
But Jiung wasnât done yet. Despite the pain, despite the blood spilling from him, he refused to back down. His hand shot out toward a pile of broken glass nearbyâsharp shards that glittered like jagged teeth in the dim light. His fingers wrapped around one, and with a primal yell, he swung it at the killer.
The sharp glass met the killerâs skin, drawing a streak of blood across his arm. The killer grunted in pain, momentarily stunned, but he recovered quickly. His eyes locked onto Jiungâs, full of rage, as he prepared to strike again.
You sat there, paralyzed, unable to do anything but watch in horror as the two men fought, the sound of fists meeting flesh, the sickening slashes of the knife cutting through the air. Your mind was screaming for you to act, to help, but your body refused to obey.
All you could do was watch the violence unfold before you, heart pounding in your chest, terrified of what would happen next.
In that fleeting moment, time seemed to stop. Jiung, his face contorted with pain and fury, managed to land a punch to the killer's jaw. The force of the blow sent the killer stumbling back, giving Jiung a brief but crucial opening.
With a desperate gasp, Jiung grabbed the killerâs mask, his hands trembling with the effort, and in one swift motion, he tore it off.
The world around you seemed to freeze as the dim streetlight illuminated the face beneath the mask. The face you had seen so many times beforeâevery day, every week.
It was Ni-ki.
Your heart slammed against your ribcage, your breath caught in your throat. It couldnât beâthis wasnât possible. Your mind refused to process it, even as the sight before you screamed the truth.
Ni-kiâs face was battered, blood smeared across his nose, a split lip, and a cut above his eyebrow. But despite the damage, despite the blood, he still wore that same, twisted smile. The kind of smile that made your stomach turn, the kind that sent a chill down your spine.
He looked at you, his eyes gleaming with dark amusement, and with the bloodstained remnants of his smile, he spoke.
âSurprise, doll.â
The words echoed in your head, ringing louder than the chaos around you. The killerâthe man who had been terrorizing the streets, the one who had been hunting you, was the very person you had let into your life. The man you had trusted. The man you love.
Ni-ki.
He stepped closer, blood dripping from his face as he took a slow, deliberate breath, savoring the shock on your face. The man you thought you knew, the one who had played the role of the charming, protective figure, was now standing before you as the very monster you had feared.
And he was enjoying every second of it.
Jiung, weak and struggling to stay on his feet, gritted his teeth as he raised the shard of glass again, ready to fight, but the sheer realization of what Ni-ki was sent a wave of terror crashing over you. You couldnât move, couldnât think straight.
Ni-ki's eyes flickered to Jiung, then back to you, his smile widening, dark and crazy. He reached up to wipe the blood from his nose, his voice low, almost amused as he looked at the two of you.
âYou really thought you could stop me? Cute.â He chuckled, a sound that made your blood run cold.
Everything you thought you knewâeverything you had believed about himâwas a lie. The person you had been so drawn to, the one who had seemed so perfect, was the very person who had been hunting you all along.
Ni-kiâs smile never wavered as he approached Jiung, who was struggling to stay conscious, his breath shallow and ragged. The bleeding from his stab wound had only worsened as he lay there, weakened and unable to defend himself.
Ni-ki crouched down beside Jiung, his fingers trailing lazily over the blood-soaked ground, clearly enjoying the sight of his former victim.
âYou know,â Ni-ki murmured, his voice low and dripping with mockery, âyou were right. You figured me out before anyone else did.â He tilted his head, a cruel gleam flashing in his eyes. âBut it was a stupid way to prove it, donât you think?â
Jiung, barely clinging to consciousness, managed to grit his teeth, his hands shaking as he tried to push himself up. He cursed Ni-ki out through his bloodstained lips, his voice rough but filled with defiance. âYouâre insane, Ni-ki. Youâre nothing but a sick, twisted bastard.â
Ni-ki didnât flinch. In fact, he laughed, the sound almost too light for the situation, as if it was all some kind of sick joke to him. He reached out, grabbing Jiung by the collar of his shirt and jerking him up slightly before slamming him back down onto the cold, filthy pavement.
Jiung let out a pained gasp, trying to punch him, but his efforts were weak, his body too battered and bloodied to fight properly. Ni-ki easily dodged, stepping aside with a lazy grin. âCome on, Jiung, I thought you were better than that.â He made a mocking sound, almost disappointed. âYouâre just a nobody, trying to play somebody. But youâll never be anybody.â
With a swift movement, Ni-ki stepped back and let Jiung fall back to the floor, helpless and weak. He turned his attention back to you, eyes glinting with the same unsettling hunger heâd always had.
âYouâre mine now, doll,â Ni-ki purred, his voice low and possessive. The way he looked at you now was different, like a predator sizing up its prey. âAnd Iâm not letting you go.â
His words sent a chill down your spine, a mix of fear and a strange, confusing part of you that still wasnât sure how to feel. He stood there, watching you with an almost calculating gaze, his smirk never leaving his face as he took in the way you reacted to the scene before you.
Suddenly the sound of sirens pierced the air, their wail growing louder, closer. For a brief moment, Ni-ki froze, his eyes flashing with irritation. His gaze snapped from you to the distant entrance of the alleyway as the first set of flashing lights illuminated the street.
âNoâŠâ he muttered under his breath, before cursing loudly. âNot now!â
Without a second thought, he spun on his heel and sprinted, darting into the shadows, his footsteps quick and erratic. You barely registered his movement as you looked up, heart pounding, to see the police officers now rushing toward the scene.
âShoot!â Jiungâs weak, pained shout broke through the ringing in your ears, the officers opened fire. The sound of gunshots echoed through the alleyway, and you flinched, eyes wide with terror as you heard Ni-ki shout in pain.
âMove! Move!â one of the officers shouted, his voice urgent. Another officer, with the familiar stride of someone used to chasing down criminals, sprinted after Ni-ki, disappearing into the night.
The remaining officers rushed to you and Jiung, the crackling urgency in their movements. One of them knelt by Jiungâs side, his face grim as he assessed the situation. The other officer quickly turned to you, his hand on your shoulder, trying to comfort you. âStay with him,â he urged. âWeâve called an ambulance. Itâs on the way.â
But you knew. You knew that it might be too late. You saw Jiungâs face, pale and drawn with blood, his breath ragged and shallow, the crimson slowly spreading across his chest. His eyes fluttered, struggling to stay open.
âJiungâŠâ You whispered his name, voice shaky, as you crouched down next to him. His hand reached out weakly, grasping yours with a weak, trembling hold.
âIâm sorry,â he murmured, his voice hoarse, barely above a whisper. His eyes were cloudy, but he was still looking at you, even if it seemed so distant now. âI tried to⊠I tried to protect youâŠâ
Tears blurred your vision. âYou did, Jiung. You did.â
His faint smile made your heart shatter, but there was nothing you could do now, nothing but to stay with him.
The ambulance finally arrived, and the paramedics rushed in, their movements swift and professional, trying desperately to stabilize Jiung. They didnât waste time, quickly getting him onto the stretcher and into the back of the ambulance.
You sat in the back of the ambulance, your heart in your throat, as they worked on him, trying to keep his weak pulse steady. Every bump in the road seemed like it could be the last.
The hospital came into view soon enough, and you felt numb as they rolled Jiung inside, their movements swift and precise, but it all felt too late. The doctors rushed to assess him, shouting orders, and you were left standing in the sterile hallway, your heart pounding in your chest.
Every passing minute felt like an eternity. You had been checked for injuries, given a few mild sedatives to calm your nerves, but nothing could ease the gnawing anxiety gnawing at your stomach. You needed news. You needed to know if Jiung was okay. If he had survived.
You waited. And waited.
You didnât know how much time had passed when a doctor finally appeared at the door, his face grim but not completely hopeless.
âAre you here for Jiung?â the doctor asked, his tone serious.
âYes,â you said, standing up too quickly, your knees unsteady. âHow is he?â
The doctor hesitated, looking at you carefully. âWeâve managed to stabilize him, but itâs touch-and-go. His injuries are severe. Weâre doing everything we can, but we canât promise anything.â
You nodded numbly, a tear slipping down your cheek as you whispered, âPlease⊠donât let him die.â
The doctor gave you a small, sympathetic nod, before turning to walk down the hall, leaving you in that suffocating silence again. You didnât know what else to do. You had no strength left.
But you didnât leave.
--
The moment the doctor told you the good news, you felt like a weight you hadnât realized youâd been carrying was lifted from your chest. He was stable, still weak, but his heart rate had steadied, and the monitors that had been beeping in a steady rhythm now felt like a lifeline.
You stepped into the sterile room, the sound of the heart monitor beeping steadily filling the air. Jiung was still unconscious, but the rhythm of his heartbeat on the monitor brought you a sense of relief you hadnât realized you needed. The steady beep seemed like the only reassuring sound in the world right now.
You pulled a chair beside his bed, your hand gently resting on his. It was warm, his skin still carrying the weight of the battle heâd fought. The wounds were bandaged, the cuts and bruises still visible, but there was a certain peacefulness now. The machines were there to help him, to keep him alive. His breath was soft, but steady.
âYouâre going to be okay,â you whispered, your voice hoarse, but full of hope. âYouâre going to be okay, Jiung.â
You spent the next few hours in that quiet, sterile room, making sure that Jiung had everything he needed. When his family arrived, you greeted them with a nod, letting them take over. They seemed so relieved, and you could tell that the weight on their shoulders was starting to lift. But there was still a long road ahead.
After some time, the police came, and you were escorted to the station for questioning. The tightness in your chest from the night before was still there, and the quiet hum of the station didnât do anything to calm you.
You sat nervously in the sterile, fluorescent-lit room of the police station, your hands pressed tightly together in your lap, your mind racing. The low hum of conversation and the shuffle of paperwork echoed from the hallway, but inside the room, it felt like everything was suspended in a heavy silence.
A detective entered the room, his expression serious. He was holding a folder, flipping through papers before glancing up at you. âWeâve got an update,â he said, his voice flat.
You sat up straighter, trying to prepare yourself for what was to come, but the unease that had settled deep in your chest couldnât be shaken. âIs it about Ni-ki?â
The detective paused for a moment, then nodded. âHeâs gone.â
The words hit you like a punch in the gut. You blinked, feeling the world shift beneath your feet. âGone?â you repeated, unable to comprehend. âWhat do you mean âgoneâ?â
âThey lost him,â the detective explained, his voice barely betraying any emotion. âWe thought we had him cornered. But there was no sign of him anywhere. No trail, no leads.â
You swallowed hard, the room suddenly feeling too small. Your thoughts raced, your chest tightening as you grappled with the realization that Ni-ki had somehow escaped. How was that even possible?
âHow?â you whispered, more to yourself than to the detective. âHow could he just... disappear?â
The detectiveâs eyes softened slightly, as if sensing the turmoil inside you. âWeâre still investigating, but from the evidence we gathered, we think heâs been one step ahead of us the whole time. He could be anywhere by now.â
Your mind went blank, the world spinning around you. Ni-kiâyour Ni-kiâwas gone.
Suddenly officers surrounded you with questions, all trying to piece together the nightâs events, asking for every detail.
You answered as best you could, your mind replaying the horrible events that had unfolded over the past few weeks. Every time they asked about Ni-ki, the feelings in your chest tightened, and it took everything in you to answer without faltering.
It wasnât until one of the detectives asked you a question you didnât expect that your breath caught in your throat.
âHas Ni-ki contacted you?â the detective asked, his voice firm but measured. âWe know you two are close. If he reaches out again, weâd like you to wear a wire. We can use you as bait to catch him.â
You froze. The words hung in the air, thick with their implications. The flashbacks to every moment with Ni-ki flooded your mindâhis kindness, his protection, the way heâd whispered promises to you, the way he held you, the way he looked at you. You remembered the way he told you that he loved you, the way he made you feel safe. You remembered the thrill, the obsession, the pull of his presence.
You swallowed hard. You had always known, deep down, that something wasnât right. But your love for him had blinded you. You couldnât ignore it anymore. He was a murderer, a criminal, and as much as you hated to admit it, you knew he was guilty of everything they were accusing him of.
But still, the hesitation gnawed at you.
âDo you think heâll hurt you?â the detective asked, noticing the uncertainty in your face.
You didnât answer immediately. You thought of his words: âI would never hurt you, doll.â His voice echoed in your mind. He had never hurt you, had he? You were still alive, still breathing.
But the question lingeredâcould you trust him? Could you really risk everything for a man who had been hiding his true nature from you all along? A man who had killed without remorse?
You took a deep breath, the weight of the decision heavy on your chest. Slowly, you nodded.
âYes,â you said, your voice barely above a whisper. âIâll do it.â
The detective gave you a nod of approval, but you could feel the heaviness in the air. You werenât sure if you had made the right choice, but you knew it was the only option you had. The man you loved was dangerous. And the only way to stop him, to protect others, was to help the police catch him.
The thought of wearing a wire, of luring him in, made your stomach twist with anxiety. But you couldnât ignore the truth. Ni-ki was a killer, and it was time to face that reality.
âThank you,â the detective said. âWeâll arrange everything. Just stay in touch, and when he reaches out, weâll be ready.â
You nodded, feeling numb. You left the station, your thoughts swirling. The weight of what youâd just agreed to hung over you.
When you got home, the sight of Ni-kiâs apartment door covered with police tape sent a cold shiver down your spine. The red-and-white stripes, the ominous warning of a crime scene, were a stark reminder of how close to the edge you had come. How everything had spiraled out of control, and how much you had been willing to ignore just to hold onto somethingâor someoneâyou thought you could trust.
With a deep breath, you turned away and walked into your own apartment, the familiar surroundings offering little comfort as you closed the door behind you. The silence in your space was suffocating, every creak of the floorboards beneath your feet somehow louder than usual.
You didnât do much that night. No calls, no messages, no distractions. You just walked to your bed and collapsed on it, staring up at the ceiling, the weight of everything pressing in around you. You could feel the tension in your body, the deep ache in your chest where love and regret tangled together in a confusing knot.
The memories of him, of his touch, his smile, his voice, and all the promises heâd made to you⊠it was too much to bear all at once. You didnât know what to feel anymore, what to believe. Every memory, every whisper of his voice felt like it was suffocating you, forcing you to hold on when all you wanted was to let go.
--
A few days passed, the police investigation continuing but yielding no new leads. You tried to keep your life as normal as possible, but the weight of the unknown pressed down on you every minute of the day. The fear that Ni-ki could be watching, waiting for the perfect moment to strike, never left you.
Your phone buzzed suddenly, the vibration echoing in the empty room. At first, you didn't think much of it, but as you glanced at the screen, something caught your attention. The message was from an unknown number, and your heart skipped a beat. It was a message you hadnât been expecting, but deep down, you knew exactly who it was from.
The message itself was simple, only a few words, but it sent a jolt of fear down your spine.
âDoll, Iâve missed you.â
Your breath hitched in your chest, and your fingers trembled slightly as you stared at the screen. The word doll was unmistakable. Ni-ki. It could only be him.
For a moment, you sat frozen, every muscle in your body tight, your mind racing as the weight of his message sank in. You wanted to call the police, to reach out for help, but a part of you held you back. You had no idea where he was, but there was an undeniable pull that made it hard to ignore him.
You hesitated for a moment, then typed back a simple question, your fingers unsteady.
âWhat do you want from me?â
The response came quickly, almost immediately, and it sent a chill down your spine.
âJust a little reunion. I think youâll be happy to see me."
You quickly typed back, your fingers trembling as you struggled to keep your hands steady.
"Where?"
The seconds that passed felt like hours, your pulse quickening as you waited for a response. Finally, the phone buzzed again, the screen lighting up with another message.
This time, it was different. There were no words. Only an address.
An address that made your stomach drop.
"Come alone."
You stared at the screen, your mind racing. The fear started to set in as you thought about the implications of the message. Was this a trap? Or was he truly trying to see you again? Your thoughts spun in every direction, but one thing was clearâhe wanted to meet. And somehow, you knew that he was in control of this situation.
Your hand hovered over your phone, your body frozen in indecision. Every part of you screamed to ignore the message, to let the police handle it. But you knew Ni-ki wasnât that easy to catch. Heâd always been two steps ahead.
You looked at the address again, the numbers blurred by your anxious tears. You couldnât tell if you were ready to face him, but deep down, you knew you were already preparing yourself for what was to come. You had to go. You had to see him one last time.
With trembling hands, you typed a simple response:
"Iâll be there."
The message sent, and you felt a knot form in your stomach.
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The next night, the air felt heavier than usual. You stood at the address Ni-ki had sent, staring at the old, abandoned building in front of you. The structure was decaying, graffiti littering its walls, the windows cracked and boarded up. It looked like the perfect place for a secret meeting, a place no one would think to look. The chill of the night sent a shiver down your spine, and you found yourself glancing around, half-expecting someone to jump out at you.
Nobody.
You checked your phone, noticing you were a bit early. The minutes ticked by slowly, each one stretching longer than the last. The silence felt heavy, each creak and rustle sending your nerves on edge. You took a steadying breath, wondering if maybeâjust maybeâhe wouldnât show up.
But then, you felt it. A presence, warm and unsettlingly familiar, hovering close behind you. The hair on the back of your neck stood up as a low voice whispered near your ear, smooth yet laced with that teasing edge you knew all too well.
âDidnât think youâd actually show, doll,â he purred, his voice sinking into your bones.
Your heart leaped, and you spun around, coming face to face with him. âYouâre a little early, arenât you?â Ni-ki purred, his steps slow and confident as he closed the distance between you, his presence suddenly overwhelming. âDid you think Iâd forget about you?â
His gaze was intense, studying every little reaction from you. It was like he was savoring this moment, his dark eyes never leaving yours, his lips curling into that unsettling grin that made you feel both drawn to him and repulsed at the same time.
You swallowed hard, your mind racing as you tried to piece together your next move. What were you supposed to say? Your body tensed, but your feet remained rooted to the spot, your arms folded tightly across your chest as if to protect yourself from the overwhelming pull he had over you.
âWhy did you bring me here, Ni-ki?â You managed, your voice steadier than you felt, but inside you could feel your nerves unraveling.
Ni-ki chuckled softly, taking another step closer. âTo see you, doll. To see if youâre ready to stop pretending youâre someone else, stop running.â His fingers brushed against your arm lightly, and you flinched, though he didnât seem to care.
He moved even closer, his face only inches from yours. âYouâve been running from me, havenât you?â he whispered, his breath warm against your ear. âYou didnât really think Iâd let you go so easily, did you?â
The realization hit you hard. He hadnât contacted you to let go or to explainâhe had brought you here to remind you that he still had you, wrapped up in his world, whether you wanted it or not. And as his fingers reached up, brushing a loose strand of hair from your face, you knew he wasnât going to let you slip away.
âOh, doll,â he murmured, his words dripping with twisted affection. âI thought youâd realize by nowâyou and I, weâre⊠inevitable. Iâm part of you, as much as you are part of me. We fit, donât you see? That little thrill you get, that rush in your veins when youâre with me⊠itâs more than just fear.â He paused, his eyes gleaming with something dark and possessive. âItâs excitement, isnât it?â
He tilted his head, watching every twitch of your expression, every flicker of hesitation in your eyes. "You like it, donât you? The thrill of it all, the mystery, the danger⊠If you didnât, you wouldnât have come here tonight. You didnât have to answer that message.â His hand moved, slipping to the back of your neck, his thumb grazing over your pulse, feeling the rapid beat under his fingers. âBut you wanted to. Part of you was⊠curious. Maybe even⊠drawn to me. You still want to see me, even after everything."
You swallowed, feeling a chill at how easily he could see right through you, peeling away layers to reach the uncertainty youâd tried to bury. His gaze held yours, and you felt paralyzed under it, trapped in the intensity of his words.
âI make you feel alive, donât I?â His voice was barely above a whisper now, the words wrapping around you, pulling you in despite yourself. âTell me, honestly. Do you really want to go back to your quiet, predictable life, or do you want to be here, with me?â
Your heart raced under his touch, every word sinking in deeper, stirring up feelings you had tried so hard to push down. Part of you wanted to resist, to walk away and bury this twisted pull he seemed to have over you. But as you looked into his eyes, his gaze so intense it felt like he was unraveling every part of you, you realized how hard it was to lie to yourself any longer.
As his hand slipped from your neck, trailing down your arm to finally capture your wrist, he tightened his grip just enough to make you feel the weight of his hold. âYou were always meant to be here, doll. Thatâs why you came tonight, why you didnât stay away. You could have told the police, couldâve run in any directionâbut you came here, to me. Youâre not running, not really.â
Ni-ki leaned closer, his mouth just beside your ear. âI know you donât want to admit it, but⊠youâre mine, and Iâm yours. Itâs just the way it is. No one else would understand you the way I do.â His words were laced with dark promise, wrapping around you like a spell, coaxing you into that familiar, dangerous warmth.
âAnd you can try to push me away again,â he whispered, his breath warm and steady, âbut itâll never work, because Iâm already in here.â His finger tapped lightly against your temple, and then he let his hand fall, brushing down your arm. âDeep down, you donât want me to leave, do you? You donât want to lose me.â
The realization sunk deeper, and he leaned back, smirking as he took in the flicker of doubt heâd stirred in your eyes. âSo why donât you just accept it? Stop fighting, and give in to what we both know is already there.â
You held his gaze, feeling the heat of his grip on your neck, the weight of his words pressing down on you. Every warning bell in your mind rang out, but they were muffled, tangled up in the intensity of his presence, in the dark thrill of being so close to him. You wanted to pull away, to deny the pull he had over you, but you knew it was no use. He was right; you were already caught in his orbit, unable to resist him fully.
Your voice was barely a whisper as you answered, your own words feeling both like a confession and a surrender. âI⊠I donât want you to leave,â you admitted, feeling the last of your defenses crumble as you looked up at him. âI tried to run, tried to push you away⊠but youâre right. I donât want to lose you.â
His smirk deepened, satisfaction glinting in his eyes as he held you close. âThatâs my girl,â he murmured, thumb brushing softly along your jaw. âSee? Youâre exactly where you belong. With me.â
He leaned in, his lips brushing against yours with a softness that seemed almost out of place given the tension swirling around you. And then you gave in, letting him pull you closer, his hands pressing against your back as he deepened the kiss, pouring every unspoken word, every dark promise, into it. It was desperate, raw, and so intense that it felt like he was claiming you, binding you to him with a connection that you couldnât ignore, no matter how wrong it felt.
When you finally pulled back, your breath unsteady, you met his eyes, feeling a surge of conflicting emotions rise in your chest. You loved him, or maybe it was more accurate to say you loved the way he made you feel, the way he held you as if you were the center of his universe. But you knewâdeep down, somewhere youâd tried to ignoreâthat this was unsustainable. Dangerous. A boundary crossed that couldnât be uncrossed.
âIâm sorry,â you whispered, a tremble in your voice.
Just then, the sound of footsteps and the bark of commands echoed through the building. The police swarmed the room, moving in, guns raised and voices sharp. Ni-kiâs face twisted in fury as he took a step back, his body coiled. He fought, thrashing against the officers who closed in on him, a snarl on his face as he shoved, swung, and resisted with every bit of strength he had.
âGet off me!â he roared, his eyes searching wildly until they found yours. He kept fighting, even as they forced him down, the weight of handcuffs snapping around his wrists with a finality that cut into the air like a knife. âNo! Let me go! You canât keep me!â
They pulled you back, and an officer shielded you as Ni-ki thrashed, his desperate gaze locked onto you, his voice growing louder, more desperate, with each passing second. âSheâs mine! You canât keep us apart!â His voice cracked, but the fury remained as they dragged him, his eyes searing into yours with a mixture of anger and desperation.
And despite everything, the weight of the heartbreak fell over you like a shroud. Tears blurred your vision, your chest tightening painfully as he was pulled out of the building, his screams fading into the night. You knew this was the only way, the only choice you had if you wanted to break free of his dangerous hold.
But some twisted part of you yearned for him, for the way heâd made you feel, for the thrilling, frightening attention he had given you. The line between love and fear had blurred beyond recognition, and as the officers led you away, you could still feel the haunting echo of his words.
In the silence, you knew youâd never be the same.
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The news spread quicklyâThe killer was caught. People felt safe again; there was a renewed sense of calm throughout the city, like a collective sigh of relief after months of fear. It was over. Even Jiung, recovering in the hospital, felt a victorious pride in knowing he had been right all along. The police had commended him, his bravery gaining him recognition, a promotion, and a hefty raise. He was the hero of this story, finally validated.
But for you, life had taken a different turn. Every day felt hollow without Ni-ki. The nights were the hardest, when the memories of him became a ghost haunting the quiet hours. You would lie awake, your mind replaying the stolen glances, the thrill of his attention, the depth in his eyes when he looked at you. You missed him, an ache buried so deep it was almost painful. Youâd wake from dreams where he was still with you, his arms wrapped around you, his lips brushing against your skin, whispering that you were his.
It was wrong, you told yourself over and over, to feel this way. But he had given you something no one else ever had, even in all its twisted intensity. His devotion, unhinged and consuming, had been a kind of dark comfort that felt impossible to replace.
You tried to fill your days with normal things, going through the motions, reconnecting with friends, putting on a brave face. But it was never enough. The nights stretched on endlessly, his absence lingering in every shadow, the memories of him entwining with the silence, pulling you back to a place that you wished you could escape from, but part of you never truly wanted to let go.
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It had been weeks since theyâd taken him away, weeks since youâd forced yourself to start a new chapter. Youâd moved to a better part of town, the kind of place you hoped would feel safe, far from the past and far from the memories of him. But today, standing in your living room, the news alert on your phone shook you to your core:
Ni-ki had escaped from prison.
The words didnât seem real. You read them again, your heart pounding louder with each second. He had escaped? The walls of your new apartment suddenly felt too thin, too fragile. The past weeks had been a struggle, true, but you had managed to convince yourself that it was over. That he was gone. That you were safe.
And now? You could practically hear his voice in your mind, that teasing, low murmur, saying heâd find you wherever you went. The memories flooded backâhow he looked at you, how he made you feel like the only person in his world.
Your phone buzzed again, and your breath hitched, a small part of you both dreading and hoping it was him.
But it was a message from Jiung: "Stay inside. Lock all doors and windows. Police are already on high alert."
You sat down, trying to gather your thoughts. He couldnât know where you were, could he? Youâd been careful, had avoided any trace of the life youâd shared in that darker part of town. And yet, you couldnât ignore the feeling that he was already close. That heâd find you, just like he promised.
An unsettling thrill ran through you, a twisted reminder of the love that still lingered, even after everything. You whispered to yourself, clutching your phone tightly, âWhat am I going to do?â
You werenât sure how long you had been sitting there, the news about Ni-kiâs escape still echoing in your mind, when you heard the faintest sound outside your door. It was soft at first, almost imperceptible, like the creak of old wood underfoot. Your heart raced, eyes darting to the door. You couldnât breathe for a moment, waiting for it to happen again.
Then you heard itâa quiet knock, a rhythm you knew too well. Your stomach churned, and instinctively, your feet moved toward the door. You tried to stop yourself, but your hand had already reached for the handle, your body pulling you closer to something you couldnât resist.
You opened the door just a crack, and there he wasâNi-ki.
He stood there in the hallway, his familiar dark eyes staring back at you, intense and unrelenting. His jaw was set, his expression something dark.
For a moment, neither of you moved. He took one slow step forward, and without even thinking, you found yourself stepping into his arms, pressing your face into his chest, your body trembling as you hugged him tightly.
âYou found me,â you whispered, your voice a mix of fear and longing. You didnât care anymore. In this moment, it felt like he was the only thing that made sense in your life, the only thing that could put you at ease.
He wrapped his arms around you, holding you so tightly you could barely breathe. âI told you I would,â he murmured, his voice almost playful despite the heaviness of his words.
His hands were on your back, gently caressing you as he whispered more words of possession, of devotion, his voice low and hypnotic. "You're the only one who understands me⊠the only one whoâs ever really seen me."
Before you could respond, he tilted your chin up, his gaze never leaving yours, and leaned in. His lips brushed against yours, soft at first, before his kiss deepened, seizing control, pulling you closer. You couldnât pull away. You didnât want to.
The kiss felt familiar, intense, almost suffocating. There was no turning back now. It was as if everything that had happened beforeâthe pain, the fear, the escapeâhad led to this moment.
His fingers tangled in your hair, and his lips brushed against your ear as he continued, his voice a dangerous mixture of softness and intensity. âI told you, doll,â he whispered, each word drawing you in deeper, âno one else could ever love you the way I do. No one else knows you like I do.â
He leaned back slightly, just enough to study your face, his dark eyes filled with a twisted sort of devotion. âYou tried to replace me, didnât you?â he asked, though the question was more of a knowing accusation. âBut it didnât work. You felt it too. No one could make you feel this alive⊠not like I can.â
You swallowed, caught in his gaze, and even as a shiver of fear flickered through you, it was overshadowed by the intoxicating pull he had. The way his eyes roamed over you made your heart pound, every glance and touch leaving a mark you couldnât shake.
His hand moved from your hair, trailing down your shoulder and then your arm, coming to rest on your waist. âYou can try to deny it,â he whispered, his mouth hovering just above yours, âbut I know you missed this⊠missed me.â His fingers tightened, holding you with certainty, like he was reaffirming his claim. âItâs in your eyes, doll.â
In that moment, he pressed his lips to yours again, the kiss deep, full of all the things he wouldnât sayâhow heâd waited, how heâd planned, how he wouldnât let you slip away again. His hold was unrelenting, a reminder that you were his, that no matter how much you tried to run or forget, he would always come back for you.
When he finally pulled back, his gaze intense, he murmured, âThereâs no life without me, doll. Weâre meant to be.â His fingers brushed down your face as he continued, âIâll take care of you. Protect you. Nobody else deserves you but me. And now⊠youâre never escaping me again.â
And despite the warning in his words, you found yourself nodding, caught in his spell, the line between fear and desire blurring with every touch, every whisper.
Warnings: Graphic Descriptions, Murder, Manipulation, Attempted Murder, Injury/Blood, Teasing, Angst, Obsessive Behaviour, Mind Games, Ni-ki is a nerd.
Synopsis: Youâve always loved crime shows, captivated by the mystery and mind games, but you never expected to live in one. When a killer develops an unsettling obsession with you, youâre thrust into a deadly game where youâre not just a targetâyouâre the centerpiece.
a/n: i see i made Ni-ki a GIANT red flag!! mhh but i love horror so whatever :) @totallynotj3zz you gave me too much power.
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The door bursts open, and there he is, silhouetted against the dim light of the hallway, his figure towering, his shadow stretching across the floor like itâs ready to swallow you whole.
But youâre ready this time. Your grip tightens on the wrench, and as he steps into the room, you swing.
The wrench cuts through the air with a force that surprises even you, but heâs fastâunnaturally fast. He sidesteps, the tool narrowly missing his masked face. The momentum of your swing sends you stumbling forward slightly, but you recover quickly, your grip on the wrench tightening as you raise it again, desperate and determined.
This time, you swing with even more force, aiming for his chest, but his hand snaps out with alarming speed, catching your wrist mid-swing. The impact jars your entire arm, pain shooting up from the sudden grip. His fingers digs into your skin as he pulls you closer, wrenching the weapon from your hand and tossing it to the floor with a metallic clatter.
Youâre pulled into him, your chest nearly colliding with his as you struggle against his hold. His mask looms inches from your face, and you can hear his heavy breathing beneath it, eerily calm despite your thrashing. One hand keeps your wrist firmly pinned, while the other tilts your chin upward, forcing you to meet the blank, haunting stare of the mask.
âWell, arenât you feisty,â he murmurs, his voice low and teasing. His grip tightens slightly as he leans closer, his head tilting as if to study you. âI like that. Makes this so much more fun.â
Your breath catches in your throat, a mix of fear and fury bubbling inside you. You feel trapped, but you refuse to let him win. His hand lingers on your chin, tilting your face slightly, as if heâs savoring the moment.
âSuch a pretty little thing,â he taunts, his voice dripping with amusement. âShame you donât know when to quit.â
Before he can say anything more, your legs jerks up, slamming into his shin with all the force you can muster. The impact is solid, and his grip falters as he lets out a grunt of pain, momentarily stumbling. You take the opportunity and yank yourself free, adrenaline surging through you as you spin and bolt for the doorway.
He curses behind you, a sharp sound filled with irritation, but you donât dare look back. Your bare feet skid against the wooden floor as you push yourself forward, your lungs burning with each ragged breath. You can hear him recovering, his footsteps heavy and fast as he begins to follow you again, but you donât stop. You canât stop.
You barrel down the hallway, your heart hammering in your chest, searching desperately for another way out. Doors blur past you, each one closed, each one a potential death trap if youâre cornered again. Your mind races as you try to remember the layout of the house. There has to be another way down, another way outâanything to put more distance between you and him.
The only thought in your head is survival.
Your heart pounds like a war drum in your chest as his heavy footsteps echo behind you. The house is a labyrinth of creaking floorboards and peeling wallpaper, and every turn feels like it leads you closer to him. But somehow, you manage to stay just out of his reach, darting through doorways and ducking under tables, fueled by sheer desperation and adrenaline.
You burst into a dusty living room, skidding on the wooden floor. Your eyes scan for an escape route, and you spot a heavy armchair near a window. Without hesitation, you shove it toward the door just as he rounds the corner. His masked face tilts, almost amused, as he watches you struggle to block the entrance.
âSmart move,â he taunts, his voice laced with a twisted sort of admiration. âBut not smart enough.â
You dive for the window, frantically trying to lift the old, stuck frame, but his footsteps are closing in fast. Heâs almost on you when, in a flash of inspiration, you grab a nearby lamp and hurl it in his direction. It smashes against the wall, shards flying, forcing him to pause and shield himself. You use the moment to slip past him, sprinting back into the hallway.
âAlways so clever,â he calls after you, his voice carrying a strange mix of irritation and delight. âI love it.â
You find yourself in a small kitchen, the counters cluttered with decades of dust and grime. You grab a drawer handle, yanking it open to reveal a collection of rusted utensils. Your trembling fingers close around a knife, and you whirl around just in time as he bursts through the doorway.
He lunges at you, and you slash wildly. The blade grazes his arm, and he lets out a sharp hiss of pain. For a moment, you see him falter, but then he laughsâlow and rich, like heâs genuinely enjoying this.
âFeisty as ever,â he says, clutching his arm, his stance relaxed despite the blood seeping through his sleeve. âYou make this so much fun.â
You donât waste time responding, instead darting past him again. His hand shoots out, grabbing your wrist, and for a brief moment, youâre yanked back against him. His grip is ironclad, and you twist and thrash, trying to break free.
âCaught you,â he murmurs, his voice soft, almost tender. âYou know, itâs so sweet for me when I finally catch you.â
âLet go of me!â you scream, your free hand clawing at his arm, but he only chuckles, his mask tilting down as if heâs watching you with amusement.
âWhy would I let you go? Youâre the prize, sweetheart.â
Fueled by anger and fear, you stomp hard on his foot. He grunts, his grip loosening just enough for you to wrench yourself free. You sprint out of the kitchen, back into the endless maze of hallways. You hear his laughter behind you, echoing through the house like a sinister melody.
âYou can run all you want,â he calls out, his tone teasing, almost playful.
You whip around a corner, slamming a door shut behind you and locking it. Your chest heaves as you try to catch your breath, pressing your ear to the door. His footsteps grow louder, then stop right outside.
âYouâre not bad at this,â he says through the door, his voice muffled but still unsettlingly calm. âBut Iâm better.â
The knob rattles, and you back away, searching the room for anything you can use to defend yourself. Your eyes land on a metal curtain rod, and you grab it just as the door bursts open. He steps inside, his shoulders squared, his head tilted like heâs enjoying the sight of you scrambling.
âStay back!â you shout, holding the rod in front of you like a spear.
He pauses, then raises his hands in mock surrender. âAlright, alright. Iâll play along.â
But the moment you lunge at him, he sidesteps effortlessly, grabbing the rod and yanking it out of your hands. You stumble, and before you can react, his arms are around you again, pinning you against his chest.
âGot you,â he whispers, his voice soft but dripping with satisfaction. His grip tightens as you thrash, his laugh rumbling against your back. âYouâre such a fighter. Thatâs what makes you so perfect.â
âWhat the hell is your problem?â you shout, your voice cracking with frustration and fear.
He leans down, his masked face close to your ear. âYou,â he says simply, his tone almost reverent. âYouâre my problem. My reward.â
That word sends a chill down your spine, and your instincts kick in. You throw your head back, slamming it into his mask. He stumbles, momentarily dazed, and you break free once more, running with every ounce of strength you have left.
The chase continues, his footsteps never far behind, his laughter haunting every turn. But one thing is clear: heâs not just chasing you for sport.
You burst into another hallway, your lungs burning from the effort. Your legs feel heavy, but adrenaline keeps you moving. The sound of his footsteps behind you is relentless, echoing through the abandoned house like a predator stalking its prey. Every step sends a fresh wave of panic through your body.
Your eyes dart around, searching for an escape, a weapon, anything that could give you the upper hand. You spot a door slightly ajar to your left and dive into the room, quickly pressing your back against the wall. Your breaths come fast and shallow, your body trembling as you strain to hear his movements.
The footsteps stop.
The silence is deafening, wrapping around you like a vice. You clamp a hand over your mouth, trying to muffle the sound of your breathing. A creak comes from the hallway, followed by his voiceâlow, teasing, and far too calm.
"You're so close," he singsongs. "I know it."
You grit your teeth, the urge to cry nearly overwhelming, but you swallow it down. This isnât the time to panic. You inch toward the edge of the doorway, peeking out just enough to see his shadow moving across the opposite wall. Heâs taking his time, dragging it out like heâs savoring the chase.
You step back into the room, your hands fumbling in the darkness for somethingâanythingâthat can help. Your fingers brush against a broken table leg lying on the ground. Itâs splintered and rough, but itâs better than nothing. You grab it, holding it tightly, readying yourself for his inevitable arrival.
And then you hear itâa faint creak right behind you.
You spin around, swinging the table leg wildly, but it hits nothing but air. Heâs standing there, just out of reach, his white mask tilted slightly as if heâs amused by your attempt to defend yourself.
âYouâre getting predictable,â he says, his tone almost playful.
âStay back!â you shout, your voice trembling but firm.
He takes a step closer, his boots crunching against the old wooden floor. âYouâre not really in a position to give orders, are you?â
You swing again, but he moves too fast, ducking under your attack and closing the distance between you in an instant. His gloved hand grabs the makeshift weapon, yanking it from your grasp and tossing it aside like itâs nothing.
Before you can react, heâs on you, his hands gripping your wrists and slamming you against the wall. The force knocks the air out of your lungs, and you struggle against him, but his grip is like steel.
âThere it is,â he murmurs, his voice low and almost affectionate. âThat fire in your eyes. I love it.â
âLet me go!â you scream, kicking at him, but he easily avoids your strikes, his body pressed too close for you to gain any leverage.
He tilts his head, studying you like youâre some kind of puzzle heâs desperate to solve. âWhy would I do that? Weâre having so much fun.â
âYouâre insane,â you spit, your voice shaking with anger and fear.
He chuckles softly, his gloved hand brushing a strand of hair out of your face. The gesture is oddly gentle, a stark contrast to the violence of the situation. âMaybe,â he says, his tone almost contemplative. âBut you make it worth it.â
Summoning every ounce of strength you have left, you lift your knee sharply, aiming for his stomach. He grunts, his grip loosening just enough for you to shove him back and dart past him.
You donât look back as you run, your heart pounding like a drum in your chest. The house feels endless, the hallways stretching on forever, but you donât stop. You canât stop.
Behind you, his laughter rings out, cold and unhinged. âRun all you want!â he calls after you.
You burst into another room, slamming the door shut and locking it behind you. Your eyes dart around, searching for an exit, but all you see are boarded-up windows and a single, dusty wardrobe in the corner.
The door rattles violently, and you back away, your body trembling as the lock starts to give way.
You find an old crowbar leaning against the wall. Without hesitation, you grab it and rush to the boarded-up window. The wood is old and brittle, but the panic coursing through your veins gives you strength as you wedge the crowbar between the planks and pry them loose, one by one.
The door behind you shakes violently as he slams into it again and again, each hit sending splinters flying from the frame.
âHurry, hurry,â you mutter under your breath, sweat dripping down your temple as the final plank falls free.
You look through the shattered glass and gasp. The drop is much higher than you anticipatedâtwo stories at least. Your heart sinks, but the sight of thick, overgrown bushes below gives you a sliver of hope. You glance back just in time to see the door burst open, the lock snapping off entirely.
There he stands, his chest rising and falling as if the chase had been a thrill for him, the white mask gleaming in the dim light. The way he tilts his head, slowly and deliberately, makes your stomach turn.
"Going somewhere?" he teases, taking a step forward.
Without thinking, you climb onto the ledge, gripping the sides of the window for balance. The cool night air bites at your skin, and your heart races as you glance down at the bushes.
âDonât,â he warns, his voice sharp now, losing the playful edge.
You donât wait for him to finish whatever twisted thing he was about to say. Instead, you suck in a deep breath and leap.
The air rushes past you, the world spinning for a split second before you crash into the bushes below. The impact knocks the wind out of you, branches scratching your arms and legs as you tumble through the foliage. For a moment, you lie there, stunned, your lungs burning as you try to catch your breath.
Above you, his figure appears in the window. He doesnât follow immediately; instead, he leans out, watching you with a predatory stillness that makes your skin crawl.
"Youâre just full of surprises, arenât you?" he calls, his voice echoing in the night air.
Ignoring him, you scramble to your feet, your muscles screaming in protest. The bushes have softened the fall, but youâre bruised and battered.
You take off running, your feet pounding against the uneven ground. The house looms behind you, its shadow stretching out like itâs trying to pull you back. The grocery bag left behind.
The houseâs silhouette fades into the distance as you sprint down the overgrown path, branches snagging at your clothes and sharp stones biting into the soles of your shoes. The air is cold, sharp, but it does nothing to dull the heat of adrenaline coursing through your veins.
For a moment, the only sound is your ragged breathing and the thundering of your heart in your ears. The silence feels eerieâtoo quiet. Your instincts scream at you to keep going, but a flicker of doubt slows your pace.
Thatâs when you hear it.
The heavy thud of footsteps slamming against the ground, gaining on you.
You risk a glance over your shoulder, and your blood runs cold. Heâs there, his long strides closing the gap between you. The mask hides his expression, but his posture, the way his shoulders hunch slightly forward in pursuit, tells you everything: heâs not letting you go.
âRun faster,â he taunts, his voice carrying through the still night air. Itâs playful, like heâs enjoying the chase.
Fear electrifies your limbs, pushing you to move faster. The path ahead disappears into a thick forest, the tree line dark and menacing under the faint moonlight. You hesitate for just a second, but the sound of his footstepsâcloser nowâleaves you no choice.
You dart into the woods, branches whipping at your face and tearing at your jacket. The uneven forest floor threatens to trip you with every step, but you refuse to stop. The tall trees feel suffocating, their shadows long and jagged, closing in on you as if the forest itself is conspiring with him.
His footsteps follow, crunching leaves and snapping twigs. Heâs still behind you, relentless. The sound is maddening, his pace steady, like he knows heâll catch you eventually.
âWhere do you think youâre going?â he calls out, his voice unnervingly calm now. âYou canât hide from me.â
You stumble over a root, barely catching yourself on a nearby tree. Gritting your teeth, you push forward, weaving through the trees, hoping the dense forest will slow him down.
Your lungs burn, your legs ache, but you canât stopânot when you can still hear him.
Then, up ahead, you spot a small clearing. You race toward it, desperate for open space, for anything that might give you an advantage.
But as you burst into the clearing, you realize your mistake. Itâs a dead end, surrounded by towering rock formations on three sides.
Panic grips you as you spin around, searching for another path. The forest is silent again, but itâs the kind of silence that makes your skin crawl. You know heâs there, watching.
And then he steps into the clearing, his figure tall and imposing against the dark backdrop of the trees. The mask tilts slightly, like heâs studying you, savoring the moment.
âYouâre making this so much more exciting than I imagined,â he says, his voice low and smooth, almost like a purr. He takes a step closer, the blade glinting faintly in his hand.
You back away, your chest heaving, your mind racing for a way out. But the rocks block any escape, and the forest behind him feels like a trap.
âDonât look so scared,â he says, taking another step forward. âYouâve been so clever tonight. Itâs almost a shame it has to end.â
You swallow hard, forcing yourself to think.
Your back presses against the cold rock, the jagged surface biting into your skin through your jacket. Your breaths come in sharp gasps, your chest heaving as you try to think. Anything. A way out. A distraction.
He steps closer, his boots crunching on the forest floor, deliberate and unhurried. He knows you have nowhere to go. He tilts his head, studying you like a predator savoring its prey.
âYou know,â he says, voice dripping with mock affection, âyou really are something else. Iâve chased plenty before, but none of themâŠâ He pauses, gesturing toward you with the knife, ââŠnone of them made my heart race quite like this.â
You feel your stomach churn, the sheer audacity of his words igniting a spark of anger amidst your fear. But thereâs no time for a retortâheâs only a few steps away now.
His eyesâhidden behind the maskâfeel like theyâre boring into your soul. You glance around the clearing, searching for anything that could be used as a weapon. A stick, a rock, anything.
He notices your shifting gaze and chuckles. âWhatâs the plan now? Going to throw a pebble at me?â
Focus, you tell yourself, swallowing the lump of fear rising in your throat.
When heâs close enough, you act on impulse. You crouch low, grabbing a fist-sized rock near your feet. With all your strength, you hurl it at him.
He reacts quickly, dodging the rock with ease, his body twisting to the side. But itâs the distraction you needed. As he recovers, you dart to the side, aiming for the gap between him and the edge of the forest.
Heâs fastâfaster than you expect. You feel his hand graze your arm as you slip past him, but you manage to keep running, your feet pounding against the dirt as you plunge back into the dense trees.
âYouâre just delaying the inevitable!â he shouts behind you, his voice tinged with amusement but also frustration.
You donât stop. The forest is darker now, the moonlight barely penetrating the canopy above. Every branch that snaps under your feet feels like a signal to him, guiding him closer.
Your lungs burn, and your legs threaten to give out, but the primal need to survive keeps you moving. Then, in the distance, you spot itâlights. Faint, flickering, but unmistakable. A cabin? A campsite? You canât be sure, but itâs hope.
You push yourself harder, your eyes locked on the distant glow. But the footsteps behind you grow louder, closer. Heâs gaining on you.
And thenâcrash. You trip over a root, your body slamming into the ground with a force that knocks the air from your lungs. Pain radiates through your knees and palms as you scramble to get up, dirt caked on your hands.
Before you can move, his boot slams down on the ground beside you, the blade of his knife glinting as he crouches down.
âThere you are,â he says softly, his voice dripping with mock relief, as if heâs found something precious. His hand reaches out, grabbing your wrist before you can crawl away.
âLet me go!â you scream, kicking and thrashing. One of your punches lands on his chest and he grunts in pain, momentarily loosening his grip.
You seize the chance, wriggling free and stumbling to your feet. Your eyes dart back to the lights in the distance, and you take off running again, ignoring the burning pain in your legs and the pounding in your chest.
âYouâre just making me want you more!â he shouts after you, the words sending a fresh wave of terror coursing through your veins.
The lights grow brighter as you draw closer. You donât know who or what youâll find there, but itâs your only chance. Please, you think desperately, please let someone be there.
Behind you, his footsteps quicken, and you know heâs not far.
You donât even hear him closing the distance behind you until itâs too late. A hand suddenly clamps over your mouth, muffling the scream that instinctively rises in your throat. His other arm snakes around your waist, locking you against his chest like iron.
Your heart pounds wildly as you thrash and kick, but heâs too strong, dragging you backward as if your struggling means nothing.
âCaught you,â he murmurs in a low, almost amused tone, his breath brushing against your ear.
The lights in the distanceâyour last shred of hopeâfade further and further away as he drags you back toward the clearing. The forest seems darker now, the shadows deeper, closing in around you as if theyâre working with him.
When he reaches the clearing, he wastes no time. He throws you down to the ground with a force that knocks the wind out of you. Your back hits the dirt, and before you can even think about scrambling away, heâs on top of you, one hand pinning your wrists above your head, the other pressing firmly against your shoulder to keep you in place.
âStop squirming,â he growls, his tone no longer playful. Itâs sharp, commanding, like heâs finally losing patience.
You try to buck him off, twisting your body and kicking your legs, but he doesnât budge. His weight presses down on you, and the knife in his hand gleams in the faint moonlight.
âI really donât want to hurt you,â he says, his voice softening into something unsettlingly tender. His free hand brushes a strand of hair out of your face, his gloved fingers lingering against your skin. âBut youâre making it so difficult.â
You glare up at him, fire burning in your eyes despite the fear gripping your chest.
âGod, I love that,â he says with a low chuckle. âThat fight in you. You donât even realize how much you stand out, do you? How much more alive you are compared to everyone else Iâve met.â
His words send a chill down your spine. You thrash again, but he only tightens his grip on your wrists, leaning in closer until his masked face is mere inches from yours.
âDonât look at me like that,â he whispers, his tone almost mocking. âYou should be thanking me. If it werenât for me, youâd still be just another nobody. But nowâŠâ He trails off, tilting his head as if heâs admiring a work of art.
You turn your head to the side, biting down hard on the inside of your cheek to stop yourself from crying out in frustration or fear.
âLook at me,â he demands, his voice low but firm. When you donât comply, his grip on your wrists tightens painfully, making you wince.
You turn your head back to glare at him, hatred burning in your eyes.
âThere she is,â he says softly, almost reverently. âThat fire⊠Donât ever lose that.â
The knife in his hand flashes as he moves it closer, and for a horrifying moment, you think heâs going to stab you. But instead, he presses the flat of the blade against your cheek, the cold metal sending a shiver through your body.
âYouâre mine,â he says, his voice barely above a whisper. âAnd no matter how far you run or how hard you fight, Iâll always catch you.â
You grit your teeth, your mind racing for a way out. Heâs too strong, too fastâbut maybe, just maybe, you can use his arrogance against him.
âGo to hell,â you spit, your voice trembling but defiant.
His laughter fills the clearing, low and dark, as if your defiance only fuels his twisted amusement. âOh, sweetheart,â he says, leaning in closer, his mask nearly brushing your forehead. âHell is wherever you arenât.â
His words send a shiver down your spine, the weight of them suffocating. His voice is smooth, almost sweet, but the malice behind it is unmistakable. You squeeze your eyes shut for a moment, fighting the fear clawing its way through your chest.
âYou really donât get it, do you?â he murmurs, tilting his head as if observing you from a new angle. âYou can run, you can fight, but in the end, itâs always going to be me and you. No one else matters.â
Your breath catches as his gloved fingers trail down your cheek, the contact both gentle and deeply unsettling. You flinch away, but the weight of his body keeps you pinned to the ground.
âStill so stubborn,â he muses, almost fondly. âItâs adorable, really. Makes this so much more satisfying.â
You glare up at him, your jaw clenched tightly. You feel your pulse pounding in your ears as your mind races, searching for any way to escape. His grip isnât as firm nowâhis arrogance has left an opening, and you have to act fast.
With a burst of adrenaline, you jerk your knee upward, slamming it into his stomach. The air leaves his lungs in a sharp gasp, and his grip on you falters just enough for you to slip free.
You donât waste a second. Scrambling to your feet, you push past him and take off running, your heart pounding so loudly it drowns out everything else.
Behind you, his laughter rings out again, low and cruel, but you donât dare look back.
âRun, sweetheart!â he calls after you, his voice laced with dark amusement. âLetâs see how far you get this time!â
You tear through the forest, the branches clawing at your arms and face. The air is cold and sharp in your lungs, but you donât stop. You canât.
The sound of his footsteps behind you sends a fresh wave of terror through your veins. Heâs faster than you, more experienced in this game of cat and mouse. But you refuse to let him win.
As you weave through the trees, you spot a cluster of rocks up aheadâjagged and uneven, but large enough to provide some cover. Without hesitation, you dive behind them, crouching low and trying to steady your breathing.
The footsteps slow, then stop.
âWhere are you, little mouse?â his voice calls out, taunting and playful. âI know youâre close.â
You press a hand over your mouth to muffle your breathing, your entire body trembling. Heâs so close you can hear the crunch of leaves under his boots as he moves.
âYou can hide all you want,â he says, his tone almost sing-song. âBut youâll come back to me eventually. You always do.â
You squeeze your eyes shut, trying to steady your racing thoughts. There has to be a way out of this. There has to be.
The sound of his footsteps fades slightly as he moves further into the forest, but you know itâs only a matter of time before he circles back. You glance around, your eyes darting between the trees and the faint glow of moonlight filtering through the canopy.
Then you see itâa narrow path winding down the hill, almost invisible beneath the dense foliage. Itâs risky, but it might be your only shot.
Summoning every ounce of courage, you take a deep breath and bolt from your hiding spot, darting toward the path as silently as you can.
But his laughter follows you again, closer this time, chilling and relentless.
âOh, there you are!â he exclaims, and the sound of his footsteps erupts behind you once more.
Panic surges through you as you sprint down the path, the uneven ground threatening to trip you with every step.
You darted down the narrow path, your smaller frame weaving effortlessly through the low-hanging branches and dense underbrush. Every breath felt like fire in your lungs, but you had gained some distance. His heavier, taller frame wasnât as agile as yours, giving you the upper hand in this chaseâat least for now.
Your mind raced as you spotted a small clearing ahead. You knew you couldnât keep running forever; he was relentless, and eventually, heâd catch up. But you had something he didnât: creativity and a desperate will to survive.
Scanning the area quickly, you noticed a tangle of vines hanging from a low branch, some loose rocks scattered on the ground, and a sturdy fallen tree trunk. An idea sparked in your mind, and you didnât hesitate.
Grabbing the vines, you tugged them free from the branch and looped them across the path at ankle height, tying them tightly between two trees. Next, you placed the rocks strategically along the trail, half-buried in the dirt to make them harder to spot. Finally, you pushed the fallen tree trunk to the edge of the path, balancing it precariously against a rock, so the slightest nudge would send it rolling.
You heard his footsteps approaching fast, his taunting voice cutting through the silence.
âGetting tired, sweetheart? Youâre making this too easy!â
You ducked behind a thick tree trunk, your heart pounding in your chest. You clutched a thick branch in your hands, ready to fight if your trap didnât work.
The sound of his boots hitting the ground grew louder until you saw his dark figure barreling toward the clearing. He didnât slow down, too focused on chasing you to notice the subtle trap youâd set.
The moment his foot caught the vine, he stumbled forward, his balance thrown off. His boot slammed into one of the hidden rocks, sending him lurching sideways. Before he could recover, the fallen tree trunk tipped over and rolled directly toward him.
âShit!â he snarled, barely dodging the trunk as it crashed into the ground.
The commotion gave you the distraction you needed. While he cursed and scrambled to his feet, you slipped away, keeping low and moving as quietly as possible.
You didnât stop until you found yourself on the edge of the forest, the dim glow of the streetlights in the distance signaling safety. Gasping for breath, you spotted your abandoned grocery bag near the roadside. Without thinking, you grabbed it, clutching it tightly to your chest like a lifeline.
Reaching into your pocket, your fingers fumbled over the smooth surface of your phone. Relief surged through you as you unlocked it, your shaking hands dialing the police.
The line rang twice before a calm voice answered. âEmergency services, whatâs your location?â
âI⊠Iâm near the forest,â you stammered, your voice trembling. âThereâsâthereâs someone chasing me. Heâs dangerous. Please, you have to send help!â
âStay on the line,â the operator said firmly. âOfficers are on their way. Can you describe the man?â
You glanced back at the dark forest, half-expecting to see that white mask emerge from the shadows. âHeâs⊠tall. Heâs wearing black, and he has a mask. Please, hurry!â
âStay where you are, and keep yourself safe,â the operator instructed.
You nodded, even though they couldnât see you, clutching the phone tightly as you kept your eyes fixed on the forestâs edge. Your body trembled with exhaustion and fear, but you refused to let your guard down.
In the distance, you heard the faint wail of sirens. Help was coming. You just had to hold on a little longer.
As the sound of the sirens grew louder, you felt a flicker of reliefâhope that maybe, just maybe, this nightmare was coming to an end. You stood rooted to the spot, your breath shaky and uneven, staring at the dark line of trees, half-expecting him to step out at any second.
The grocery bag in your arms felt like dead weight now, but you couldnât bring yourself to let go of it. It was the only thing grounding you in reality amidst the chaos.
Suddenly, a rustle came from the forestâs edge. Your heart leapt into your throat, and your entire body stiffened. There he was.
He didnât move closerâhe just stood there, half-hidden by the shadows, watching you.
You stumbled back, gripping your phone tighter. âThe police are coming!â you yelled, your voice cracking. âYouâre done!â
He cocked his head, unmoved by your words, his hand slowly reaching up to adjust the mask as if to taunt you.
The sirens were deafening now, blue and red lights flashing in the distance. A police car screeched to a halt at the curb, two officers stepping out quickly, their hands hovering near their holsters.
âHeâs there!â you shouted, pointing toward the forest.
But when you turned back, he was gone. The trees were still, the shadows undisturbed. It was as if he had disappeared into thin air.
One of the officers approached you cautiously, his flashlight scanning the area. âMiss, are you hurt?â
You shook your head, your voice barely above a whisper. âHe was right there. He⊠he was watching me.â
The second officer moved toward the forestâs edge, his flashlight sweeping across the trees. âWeâll check the area,â he said, motioning for his partner to follow.
They disappeared into the woods, leaving you standing by the police car. The operator on the phone was still speaking, but their words sounded distant, drowned out by the pounding of your heart.
A few minutes later, the officers returned, shaking their heads. âWe didnât see anyone,â one of them said. âBut there are clear signs of movement in the brush. Weâll keep searching.â
âHeâs out there,â you insisted, your voice trembling. âHeâs the one who⊠who killed those kids. He tried to kill me!â
The officer nodded, his expression serious. âWe believe you. Weâll make sure the area is secured. Do you have somewhere safe to stay tonight?â
You hesitated, glancing down at your phone. Ni-kiâs name flashed across the screen in a text notification. For a brief moment, you considered calling him, but then you shook your head. This wasnât something you wanted to drag anyone else intoânot him, not anyone.
âIâll be fine,â you lied, your voice barely steady.
The officers exchanged a look but didnât push further. âWeâll escort you home,â one of them said, opening the passenger door of the car for you.
You climbed in, clutching the grocery bag like a lifeline as the car pulled away. Through the window, you stared back at the forest, half-expecting to see that mask watching you from the shadows again.
But there was nothing.
Just the trees, silent and still.
--
You lay in bed, the blankets twisted around your body, but the warmth of them did nothing to calm the chill that had settled deep in your bones. Your phone sat on the nightstand, screen glowing softly in the dark, but you hadnât looked at it in what felt like hours.
Every time you closed your eyes, the image of that maskâthe twisted, mocking grinâseemed to float in your mind, just out of reach. You could almost hear his voice in your head, low and smooth, the way heâd whispered into your ear, the way heâd taunted you. âHell is wherever you arenât.â
The words had haunted you all evening.
You had tried to shake them off, to bury them beneath the numbing exhaustion that should have come with the adrenaline youâd been running on, but your body refused to cooperate. Even with the policeâs reassurances, you couldnât stop the feeling that something was still lurking just beyond the edge of your awareness.
What if he was still out there? What if he had been watching you tonight, too? The thought of it made your pulse race, your heart thumping too loud in the silence of your room.
You grabbed your phone, staring at it in your hands, weighing whether to text Ni-ki. He had sent you a message earlier, asking if you were okay, but you hadnât responded. Part of you wanted to reach out, wanted to tell him everything, but another partâno, a bigger partâdidnât want to drag him into this any deeper. He didnât deserve it.
You tossed the phone aside and stared up at the ceiling, the quiet of your apartment settling around you like a heavy blanket, thick and suffocating. The rain had started up again, tapping lightly against your window. You listened to the rhythmic pattering, your mind drifting in and out of awareness, trying to push away the lingering fear.
It wasnât long before the sound of the doorbell echoed through the apartment.
Your heart leapt into your throat, your whole body freezing, every muscle stiffening at once. The sound of the doorbell, so sharp and unexpected, felt like an intrusion, a sign of something you couldn't escape.
You waited, breath held, listening for footsteps. But there was nothing. Not at first. Just the sound of rain falling and the eerie quiet of the house.
Then, a faint knock at the door. Three taps.
You didn't move. Didn't even breathe.
And that's when your phone buzzed, the text you had been avoiding lighting up the screen.
"Are you okay? Please let me know."
You knew it was Ni-ki. His concern was so evident in the words, the kind of concern that made your heart ache. You felt a wave of guilt rise in your chest.
But that knock, those taps on the doorâthey wouldnât go away.
Your heart hammered in your chest as the knock echoed again. You sat frozen, unsure of what to do, your mind racing with possibilities. Was it him? The killer, the masked figure who had haunted your every step since that night? Or was it someone elseâsomeone who could help you, someone who had heard your silent cries for help?
You reached for your phone, your fingers trembling as you unlocked it and quickly typed a response to Ni-ki.
Iâm okay. Just⊠a little freaked out. Iâll be fine.
You hesitated before sending it, but the longer you sat there, the more you realized you couldn't keep the fear buried. You needed help, but you didnât want to drag him into this. You didnât want him to be in danger, especially when you didnât know who or what was on the other side of that door.
But the knocking continued. Three slow, deliberate taps again. This time, it felt more urgent. Like whoever was out there knew you were in the apartment.
You moved cautiously to the window, peeking through the blinds to see if there was anyone outside. The rain had let up slightly, but it was still dark, the street barely visible in the dim light from the streetlamp. There was no sign of anyone.
Still, the knocking continued.
Your mind raced. Could you trust it?
You quietly moved to the door, pressing your ear against it, listening for any sounds from the other side. The knocking had stopped, and the silence stretched on for a few moments, stretching your nerves thinner with each passing second.
Then, without warning, the door handle jiggled. You stiffened, holding your breath as you backed away.
Whoever was out there was waiting.
You reached for the lock, your hands shaking, and with a quiet click, you turned it. Just as you were about to open the door, you heard a faint voice, soft but clear.
âY/N?â
Your heart skipped a beat. The voice was familiar.
You opened the door, and there he was. Ni-ki. Standing in your doorway, looking concerned, his expression soft but full of worry. His eyes searched yours, looking for any sign of distress.
âYou⊠you came?â You whispered, surprised and relieved all at once.
Ni-ki stepped inside, closing the door gently behind him. âI got worried,â he said quietly, his voice low.
You nodded, a wave of relief washing over you. But before you could speak, Ni-kiâs eyes caught something on the tableâyour phone, with his message still displayed.
His expression faltered slightly, his eyes lingering on the text as if searching for the truth behind it.
âAre you really okay?â he asked softly, stepping closer to you. âI know you said you were fine, but⊠Iâm not sure I believe that.â
You felt a lump form in your throat, but you managed a weak smile, trying to reassure him. âIâm okay now⊠Iâm just⊠Iâve been a little scared, thatâs all.â
Ni-ki didnât say anything. He simply walked over to you, and without another word, he wrapped his arms around you.
Ni-ki gently guided you to the couch, his touch reassuring and steady as he helped you sit down. The weight of everythingâof the fear, the tension, the uncertaintyâfinally began to crash down on you all at once. You buried your face in your hands, your shoulders trembling as the tears youâd been holding back for so long finally spilled over.
Ni-ki sat next to you, his presence calm and warm, like a shelter from the storm. He didnât say anything at first, just let you cry, the sound of your sobs the only noise between the two of you. His hand found its way to your back, rubbing slow, comforting circles, as he whispered softly to you.
âItâs okay,â he murmured, his voice low and gentle. âIâm here.â
His words wrapped around you like a blanket, and for the first time in what felt like forever, you let yourself lean into the comfort. The tears flowed freely, the weight of everything youâd been through crashing over you in waves, but there was no judgment, no rushing to make you feel better.
âI know itâs been so hard,â Ni-ki continued, his voice steady and warm. âBut I promise, Iâm not going anywhere.â
You nodded, the sobs slowly beginning to subside as his words sank in.
His thumb brushed over the back of your hand, the gesture simple but grounding. âIâm not going to let anything happen to you. I swear.â
âIâm sorry,â you whispered, your voice barely audible. âI didnât want to burden you with all of this. I didnât want you to have to deal with my⊠my fear.â
Ni-ki shook his head, his eyes softening. âHey, donât apologize. Youâre not a burden. Youâre my friend, and you mean more to me than anything. I donât care whatâs going on, Iâm not leaving you to deal with it alone.â
His words wrapped around you like a lifeline, and you felt a warmth that cut through the cold fear still lingering in your chest.
"Thank you," you whispered, the words barely more than a breath. "I donât know what I wouldâve done without you."
Ni-ki gave you a soft, reassuring smile. "You donât have to. Iâll always be here for you."
After he put on a movie, its soft glow illuminating the room, you felt yourself slowly relaxing next to Ni-ki. The weight of everything still lingered in the back of your mind, but his presence beside youâcalm, steady, unwaveringâmade it easier to breathe, to forget, even if just for a little while. The tension in your body began to ease as the gentle hum of the movie filled the space, and before you even realized it, your eyelids grew heavy.
You shifted slightly, curling up against the couch, subconsciously inching closer to Ni-ki, the warmth of his body providing comfort. It wasnât long before you drifted off, the quiet rhythm of his breathing lulling you into a deep, peaceful sleep.
Ni-ki, noticing your soft exhale, glanced down at you, a small, amused smirk curling at the corners of his lips. You were so still, so vulnerable in your sleep. His gaze softened as he studied you, his fingers gently brushing the strands of hair that fell across your face, tucking them behind your ear.
His heart beat faster as he took in the sight of you, lying so trustingly beside him, completely unaware of the way his eyes roamed over you. His fingers lingered, caressing your skin. He admired the way your features softened in sleep, how relaxed you looked.
âIâd do anything to make sure youâre always by my side.â He whispered, his voice low, barely audible.
His smirk deepened, his thumb lightly grazing your cheek. âYouâre far too precious to let anyone else have you.â
He leaned in slightly, his breath warm against your skin as he whispered into your ear, âIâll protect you, forever. Youâre my treasure, and I wonât let anyone take you away. Not now, not ever.â
Ni-ki pulled you a little closer, adjusting your position so you were nestled more comfortably against him, and he rested his head against the back of the couch, keeping his gaze fixed on you. The way you slept so soundly in his arms sent a strange rush of satisfaction through him.
Ni-ki's fingers gently brushed over your hair, his touch tender as he continued to gaze at you. His mind raced with thoughts, each one swirling around the way you looked so peaceful, so trusting, in his arms. There was a sense of calm that settled over him too, a deep, almost primal satisfaction in knowing you were thereâsafe, protected, and unaware of the way his heart beat faster with each passing moment.
He shifted slightly, careful not to disturb you, as his gaze moved from your peaceful face to the way you nestled against him. The warmth of your body, the slow rise and fall of your chest, all of it made him feel something deep within, something that told him, youâre mine. His fingers slid down your arm, brushing lightly against your skin as if to remind himself that you were right here, with him.
He wasnât sure when it happened, but somewhere along the way, his feelings for you had become so much more than just care or friendship. You had a hold on himâone that was impossible to ignore, impossible to break free from. Heâd always been protective of you, sure, but now, as he looked at you sleeping so soundly, he realized how much deeper his attachment had grown.
A soft smile tugged at the corners of his lips as he leaned in, pressing a soft kiss to the top of your head. "Rest now," he whispered, barely audible, as if speaking too loudly might shatter the perfect moment. "Iâll take care of everything. You donât have to worry about a thing."
The way you fit against him, how natural it felt to have you there, was enough to make his heart ache in the best way. You had no idea how much he needed you, how much he wanted to keep you close, but he would make sure you felt that care every single day.
He wasnât going to let go of this momentânot yet, not ever. He would make sure you were safe and happy. You were his world now, and he would do anything to keep it that way.
--
As the days passed, you started to notice two things. The first was that Ni-ki seemed to be⊠everywhere. Whether it was during lunch, between classes, or after school, he was always by your side. It wasnât just that he was constantly close to you; he somehow made sure that no matter what, your attention was on him. Even when you tried to talk to your friends, he'd find a way to insert himself into the conversation, either by cracking a joke or pulling you away with a light touch on your arm, directing your attention back to him. e was making sure he had some kind of excuse to keep you closeâwhether it was an excuse to study together, a reason to walk you to your next class, or just a casual invitation to hang out after school. He was clingy, yes, but it didnât feel suffocating.
The second thing that began to weigh on you was the strange shift happening around the school. It wasnât a loud change, but it was impossible to ignore. The usual bullies, the ones who would taunt others, pick on those weaker than them, and make life miserable for anyone they considered "lesser," some of them were gone entirely, never seen again. Others were found in a state that was⊠unsettling. And the ones who still lingered, seemed to have a new fear in their eyes. They were nervous, always looking over their shoulders, as if expecting someone to jump out at them at any moment. You heard hushed whispers in the hallways about how the only people who were being targeted were those whoâd tormented othersâbullies who had crossed a line and had paid the price for it.
It wasnât just idle gossip anymore. There was a clear pattern formingâthose whoâd been mean, those who had taken pleasure in others' pain, were the ones disappearing or found dead. And no one wanted to be the next victim. It was almost like there was a sense of fear hanging in the air, suffocating the usual bravado that these students carried.
One afternoon, as you sat with Ni-ki in the cafeteria, you couldn't help but notice the change in the atmosphere. The usual suspects who would pick fights or belittle others were nowhere to be seen. A few students whispered nervously, glancing at the empty seats where the loudest voices used to sit. Ni-ki, ever the observant one, seemed to catch on to your unease and leaned closer, his voice low as he spoke, âItâs strange, isnât it? How quiet it is now. Not many people causing trouble anymore.â
You glanced over at him, slightly startled by his words, but the look on his face was almost⊠satisfied. It was as if he knew more than he was letting on. "Yeah," you said quietly, lowering your voice, "I havenât seen some of them around lately. Itâs⊠like theyâre just gone."
Ni-ki smirked slightly, a glint of something dark in his eyes, but he didnât comment further. Instead, he reached for your hand, gently brushing his fingers against yours as if to reassure you, but also claiming you in his own quiet way. âPeople like them never last long. They always get what's coming to them.â
You looked at Ni-ki, about to say something, to defend the idea that not everyone deserved what was happening. But as you paused and really thought about it, the words didnât come. What could you really say in defense of them? The bullies at school had picked on others without mercy, with no regard for the pain they caused. They had gone out of their way to hurt people, and more than once, you had seen how cruel and relentless they could be. They never showed any sympathy. So why should you feel sympathy for them now?
The thought sat uneasily in your chest, but you couldnât find the words to oppose what Ni-ki had said. Instead, you turned your attention back to your lunch, pushing the food around on your plate without much appetite. You shrugged casually, as if the whole thing didnât matter to you.
But in that moment, Ni-ki's grin grew wider, a silent triumph flickering in his eyes. Heâd been watching you closely, sensing that shift in your mindset, and now, he had won this silent battle. You didnât argue. You didnât fight him on it.
For a moment, you felt his gaze linger on you, as if trying to decipher the change within you. His fingers tightened around your hand just a little, a subtle claim, as if to mark his success.
âGood,â he said softly, almost under his breath, as he leaned back in his chair, still watching you with a look of quiet satisfaction.
You were barely aware of how much Ni-ki had already influenced youâhow much his presence and his words had started to shape your thoughts. You couldnât deny that you felt a strange sense of security when you were around him, a feeling that only grew stronger with each passing day.
As the lunch bell rang and people started to get up, you stood with him, quietly gathering your things. Ni-ki followed you out of the cafeteria, his presence close behind you, and you didnât voice it, you didnât mind having him by your side. Not one bit.
The days blurred together, and without realizing it, Ni-kiâs influence over you deepened. It started small, with offhand comments heâd make during class or when you were walking home together, words that felt comforting at the time, like whispers of protection. âNo one understand you like I do,â heâd say, casually brushing your hair out of your face or squeezing your hand.
At first, it was easy to dismiss. A small comment here and there, a quiet reassurance that you werenât alone. But slowly, those comments became more frequent, more insistent. Ni-kiâs voice seemed to crawl into your mind during the quiet moments when you were alone, when the noise of the world faded away.
âYou donât need them,â heâd tell you, his voice soft but certain. âThey only want something from you. They donât care about you, not like I do.â
It was subtle at firstâjust little seeds of doubt about the people around you, people you had known for years. The classmates who had once made you feel safe now started to feel like strangers, like people who would only bring harm.
The bullies, those who had tormented you and others for so long, would occasionally come to you, apologies on their lips or fake smiles plastered on their faces. Theyâd try to beg for your forgiveness, as though everything could just be forgotten with a few words. You had tried to be kind, to forgive them in the past, but now? Now it felt wrong. Ni-kiâs words echoed in your mind every time one of them came near.
âYou donât owe them anything,â heâd whisper. âThey donât deserve your kindness. Donât be fooled by their fake apologies.â
And so, you didnât. You turned away, ignoring their desperate attempts to make amends, not feeling guilty or conflicted anymore. They didnât deserve your forgiveness. They hadnât earned it, not after everything they had put you through.
But it wasnât just the bullies. Ni-kiâs words had woven themselves into your everyday life, shaping your thoughts and actions, slowly erasing the boundaries you once held so firm. He started influencing the way you saw people, the way you interacted with them. Slowly, everything became a reflection of what Ni-ki wanted, a twisted mirror of his desires.
And Ni-ki knew it. Every time you followed his guidance, every time you chose to act in a way that fed into his plans, there was a dark satisfaction in his eyes, a quiet pleasure in his smile.
It was as if he could feel the power he had over you, the way your thoughts bent to his will, the way your heart seemed to beat in time with his words.
âYou see?â heâd murmur, that sly smile tugging at the corner of his mouth. âThe worldâs a lot easier when youâre with me, isnât it?â
You didnât have the words to fight back. You didnât even want to anymore.
The more he was with you, the more his words echoed in your mind, the more you realized that the satisfaction he found in your compliance wasnât just for him. It was for you, too. You wanted to make him proud, to feel his approval. It became your quiet obsession, that each small action you took to please him made you feel good.
The line between what was right and wrong began to blur, as Ni-kiâs influence crept deeper into every part of your life. You found yourself thinking less about what you had always known and more about what Ni-ki told you was true. His twisted view of the world started to become your reality.
And somewhere deep inside, you knew this wasnât normal. But it felt too good to stop. It felt too easy, too natural to follow him, to listen to his words.
And with every step you took further into his world, Ni-kiâs smile grew just a little wider.
--
The late afternoon sun dipped below the horizon, casting long shadows across the streets as you walked home. The air had a faint chill, and your bag felt heavier than usual after the long day spent visiting your family. You adjusted it on your shoulder, absently scrolling through your phone as you neared your apartment.
Suddenly, someone walking toward you collided into your shoulder. The impact jolted your phone from your hands, and it clattered loudly onto the sidewalk. You gasped in surprise, looking up at the person whoâd bumped into you.
âWatch where youâre going,â the man snapped, his tone laced with irritation. He didnât even glance back as he shoved his hands into his hoodie pockets and kept walking, his head bowed against the wind.
Your mouth opened to retort, but you decided against it, your annoyance bubbling silently. With a sigh, you bent down to retrieve your phone, brushing off the faint scratches on its case. Muttering under your breath, you straightened up and continued on your way, your steps quicker now as the fading light seemed to make the streets feel emptier.
But you didnât get far.
Just a few blocks from your building, you collided with someone again. This time, the impact was sudden and hard enough to make you stumble back a step. âOh, Iâm so sorââ The words barely escaped your lips before you felt something press firmly against your face.
A cloth.
You froze in shock as a strong hand gripped the back of your head, holding the cloth against your nose and mouth. You struggled immediately, panic coursing through your veins. You thrashed, clawing at the arm that held you, your muffled cries lost in the fabric. The sharp, sickly-sweet scent of chemicals invaded your senses, making your vision blur.
Your heart raced as you kicked out, trying to fight against the overwhelming dizziness that began to take hold. Your bag slipped off your shoulder and fell to the ground with a dull thud, but the grip on you didnât loosen. The personâno, the attackerâheld you firmly, their breath steady against your ear as your strength ebbed away.
The world around you dimmed, your arms growing heavy as your movements slowed. Your fingers lost their grip, falling limply to your sides as your knees buckled.
The last thing you felt was the strong arm catching your weight as your consciousness slipped away, the sound of your heart pounding in your ears fading into nothingness.
You woke with a pounding headache, the world spinning as your eyes fluttered open. The smell of damp earth and mildew hit your nose, making your stomach churn. Blinking, you tried to take in your surroundings. It was dimly lit, the flicker of a single bulb swaying from the ceiling casting eerie shadows on the cracked concrete walls.
A chill ran through you as you realized you were sitting on the cold ground, your arms pulled tightly behind you. Panic surged when you tried to move and felt the rough bite of rope against your wrists. You were tied up.
Your heart raced, and you looked around the room. It was then that you noticed themâtwo figures sitting directly across from you, also bound. One was gagged, their muffled attempts to speak barely audible, while the other sat in stunned silence, their wide eyes staring at the floor as if processing their own horror.
Recognition hit you like a punch to the gut.
The first person was someone you recognized from school, a notorious bully. Youâd seen them torment others countless times, their cruel laugh echoing through hallways. They looked disheveled and terrified now, their bravado stripped away as they squirmed uselessly against their bonds.
The second person made your blood run cold. It was the man who had bumped into you on the street, the one who had insulted you without a second thought. His face was pale, his body trembling as he glanced around the room like a caged animal.
âWhat the hell...â you muttered under your breath, your voice shaky and raw.
Neither of them responded to you directly. The bullyâs gag prevented them from saying anything coherent, and the manâs eyes darted nervously between you and the rest of the room.
You tried to calm your breathing, your mind racing for an explanation. Why were you here? Who had brought you here?
Before you could piece things together, a sound broke the tense silence: the creak of a door opening.
Your head snapped toward the far end of the basement, where a narrow staircase led up to a heavy wooden door. The hinges groaned as it slowly swung open, and for a brief moment, the only sound was the faint echo of dripping water from somewhere in the room.
Then, slow, deliberate footsteps descended the stairs.
Your breath hitched as the figure came into viewâa familiar white mask catching the dim light, its hollow eyes fixed on the three of you. The killerâs tall, looming form filled the narrow staircase, and your heart plummeted into your stomach.
It was him.
He moved with a terrifying ease, his boots thudding against the worn wooden steps. The bully across from you froze, their muffled cries growing more frantic. The man from the street tried to scoot backward, but his bindings kept him in place.
The killer reached the bottom step, pausing to survey the room.
Then his eyes found you.
âAwake already,â he said, his voice low and smooth, laced with a mockery that made your skin crawl. He stepped closer, the soft scrape of his boots against the concrete amplifying your fear. âI was hoping for a little more suspense, but I guess this works too.â
You couldnât speak, your throat tightening as he approached. Your heart pounded so loudly you thought it might burst.
The killer stopped just in front of you, towering over you like a shadow. He crouched down slowly and you flinched back instinctively, the ropes biting into your skin.
âDonât be scared,â he said, almost soothingly. âIâd never hurt you. Not like them.â
He jerked his head toward the others, his tone darkening. âTheyâre the real problem, arenât they?â
The bully whimpered, their body trembling violently. The man from the street muttered something incoherent, his face pale with terror.
The killerâs head snapped toward them. âQuiet,â he barked, his voice sharp and commanding. Both of them fell silent instantly.
He turned his attention back to you, his tone softening again. âYou donât belong here with them,â he said, his gloved hand reaching out to brush a strand of hair from your face. âBut I couldnât risk letting you get hurt, either.â
You recoiled from his touch.
The killer chuckled, low and dark before standing to his full height. âYouâll thank me someday.â
He turned his back on you, walking toward the bully, who was now shaking their head violently, muffled pleas escaping through the gag. The killer tilted his head, as if considering them.
âYou,â he said, his voice dripping with disdain. âThe things Iâve seen you do. The way you treat people. Itâs pathetic.â
He pulled a knife from his belt, the blade gleaming under the flickering light. Your stomach lurched.
âNo,â you said, your voice trembling. âDonâtââ
He turned his head slightly, addressing you without looking back. âDonât what?â he asked, his tone mockingly sweet. âThey deserve it, donât they? After everything theyâve done? After everything they wouldâve done to you if I hadnât stepped in?â
Your mind raced, panic gripping you. This wasnât happening. This couldnât be happening.
You pulled against the ropes desperately, but they didnât budge. Your heart pounded as you watched the killer raise the knife, his focus solely on the bully.
You couldnât look away.
The killer crouched over the bully, his movements methodical, almost clinical, as he ran the blade down their arm, leaving a crimson trail. The muffled cries of pain filled the room, mixing with the sound of your own panicked breathing.
âShh,â the killer whispered, his voice soft, mocking. âWe wouldnât want to disturb anyone, would we?â
The bullyâs head shook frantically, tears streaking their face as they squirmed against the restraints. The knife moved again, this time slicing into their leg, and they screamed against the gag, their body convulsing in agony.
You felt frozen, your mind screaming at you to look away, to close your eyes, but you couldnât. The horrifying scene played out in front of you, each sound, each movement burned into your memory.
The killer leaned in closer to the bully, his head tilting in that unnerving way. âThis is what happens,â he murmured, his voice dripping with venom. âThis is what you get for being cruel. For thinking youâre untouchable.â
Blood pooled beneath the chair, thick and dark, as the bullyâs movements grew weaker. Their muffled screams turned into whimpers, their head lolling forward.
The killer stood up, the knife dripping in his hand. He turned to the other manâthe one who had bumped into you earlier. The manâs eyes widened in terror, and he struggled against his bindings, managing to let out a strangled noise.
The killer took slow, deliberate steps toward him, his boots squelching in the blood-soaked floor. The manâs cries grew louder, more frantic, and you could see the pure panic in his eyes.
âQuiet,â the killer snapped, his voice sharp. âItâs your turn, but I promise to make it quick.â
You saw the man try to shout, his body thrashing violently, but the killer moved with chilling efficiency. He raised the knife and plunged it into the manâs chest with a sickening thud.
The manâs body jerked once, his muffled scream cutting off as blood bubbled at his lips. The killer twisted the blade before yanking it out, letting the body slump back into the chair, lifeless.
The room fell into a deafening silence, save for the sound of your ragged breathing and the drip of blood hitting the concrete floor.
Then, slowly, the killer turned towards the bully.
He reached up, fingers hooking under the edge of his mask. You held your breath, your body stiffening as he began to lift it.
The white mask came off in one smooth motion, but from your position, you couldnât see his face. His back was turned to you, shielding his identity.
What you could see was the reaction of the bully, who weakly lifted their head, their bloodied face twisting in horror. Their eyes widened, and a choked sound escaped their throatâhalf gasp, half sob.
The killer crouched in front of the bully, setting the mask down beside him. âYou shouldâve stayed in your place,â he said, his voice low and dangerous.
The bullyâs lips quivered, as if trying to form words, but no sound came out. They slumped further, their body trembling.
You didnât dare move, your heart racing as you strained to make out his features, but the angle made it impossible.
The killer stood again, slipping the mask back on before turning his attention to you.
Your stomach churned as he began walking toward you, his footsteps unhurried, almost casual.
You pressed yourself against the chair, your mind racing for a way out, but there was nowhere to go. You were trapped.
His voice was calm, disturbingly so, as he crouched down in front of you, his bloodied knife resting casually in his hand. âPeople like them⊠they take and take, hurt and hurt, until someone stops them. Iâm just doing what no one else will.â He said softly, almost as if speaking to a child.
You thrashed against the ropes binding you, the rough fibers biting into your skin. âYou canât just decide that!â you shouted, the words pouring out before you could think. âYouâre not some kind of⊠of judge or executioner!â
The killer leaned forward, his presence overwhelming, his masked face inches from yours. You could feel the cold metal of the knife near your leg, the blood dripping from it staining the floor beneath you. âI donât decide anything,â he murmured, his voice quiet but firm, laced with a sinister undertone. âThey decided it themselves. Every cruel word, every time they tore someone down, every life they ruined⊠they sealed their own fate.â
You shook your head vehemently, your breathing ragged. âThat doesnât make it right!â
He let out a low chuckle, the sound reverberating in the hollow space of the basement. âOh, sweetheart,â he said, his tone dripping with mockery. âYou still think the world is black and white, donât you? That thereâs some kind of fairness in it all?â He stood abruptly, towering over you, the knife twirling between his fingers. âThe world isnât fair. Itâs a cruel, ugly place where people like them thrive because no one holds them accountable.â
Your voice cracked as you shot back, âAnd what makes you any different? Youâre not saving anyoneâyouâre just a murderer!â
For a moment, the room fell deathly silent. The killer froze, his grip tightening on the knife. Then, he let out a dark, humorless laugh, his shoulders shaking. âA murderer?â he repeated, almost as if testing the word. âYouâre wrong. Cause the difference is I know what I am.â
You stared at him, heart pounding, your body trembling as he slowly crouched back down, his masked face so close to yours.
âAnd hereâs the thing, doll,â he whispered, his voice barely audible. âDeep down, you know Iâm right. Youâve seen what people like them do. Youâve felt it.â
Tears welled up in your eyes as his words wormed their way into your mind. You hated how his tone softened, how it made him sound almost reasonable.
âI donât want to hurt you,â he continued, brushing a finger lightly against the ropes binding your wrist, his touch so delicate it sent chills down your spine. âYou get it, even if you wonât admit it.â
Your breaths came out in short, shallow gasps as you watched him, your mind racing.
The killer stilled, his head tilting as he studied you, the sharp edge of his knife glinting in the dim light. âWhere did the good version of you go?â he asked softly, almost disappointed. His voice carried a quiet intensity, laced with frustration. âThe one who listened to me. Who followed my instructions without question.â
You blinked, confused and terrified, your lips trembling as you struggled to process his words. âWhat are you talking about?â you whispered, voice cracking under the weight of your fear.
He let out a sigh, shaking his head like a disappointed teacher scolding a wayward student. Slowly, he reached up to the edges of his mask, his fingers brushing over its smooth surface. âI guess itâs time we stopped playing this little game, huh?â
Your heart pounded in your chest, dread building with every passing second as he began to remove the mask. First, his chin came into view, sharp and familiar. Then his mouthâlips curved in a small, knowing smirk.
âNo,â you whispered, your voice barely audible, your stomach twisting into knots.
The mask came off fully, and your breath hitched as the rest of his face was revealed. Those eyes, dark and piercing, stared back at you with a twisted mix of affection and amusement. It was a face you knew better than anyone elseâs.
â...Ni-ki?â you stammered, tears spilling from your eyes as your mind struggled to reconcile what you were seeing.
He tilted his head, his smirk widening into something more sinister. âSurprise,â he said, his tone almost playful, as though this was all some sick joke.
Your body froze, every muscle locking in place as you stared at him, shaking your head in disbelief. âNo⊠no, this canât be real.â
âOh, itâs very real,â Ni-ki replied, crouching down in front of you so you were at eye level. His gaze softened for a moment as he reached out, brushing a tear from your cheek with his thumb. âDonât cry, sweetheart. It doesnât suit you.â
You jerked your head away from his touch, your breathing ragged. âYouâhow could youââ
âHow could I what?â he interrupted, his voice sharp now. âDo what needs to be done? Protect you from people like them?â He gestured toward the two lifeless bodies still slumped in the room.
âProtect me?â you choked out, incredulous. âYou call this protection? Youâre killing people, Ni-ki! This isnât normal, this isnâtââ
âShh,â he cut you off, pressing a finger to your lips. âDonât ruin this moment with your panic. I know itâs a lot to take in, but think about it. Havenât I always been there for you? Always protected you?â
You stared at him, wide-eyed, unable to speak as he leaned closer, his face just inches from yours.
âI did this for you,â he whispered, his tone eerily tender. âEvery single one of them⊠they hurt you. Or they wouldâve. And I couldnât let that happen. I wonât let it happen.â
Tears streamed down your face as you shook your head, your voice cracking. âYouâre not the Ni-ki I know. You canât be.â
He laughed softly, shaking his head. âOh, but I am. Iâm the real Ni-ki. The one who loves you enough to do what no one else will.â His hand reached out, cupping your face as his thumb traced your cheek. âYou just donât see it yet. But you will.â
You flinched under his touch, bile rising in your throat as you tried to twist away from him. âYouâre crazy!â
âAnd youâre perfect,â he countered, his voice sweet, dripping with affection. âThatâs why I canât let you go. Not now. Not ever.â
Your breathing was shaky as you stared at Ni-ki, his face so familiar yet warped by the sinister edge in his expression. Tears blurred your vision, but you forced yourself to speak. âWhen⊠when did this start? Ni-ki, whyâhow did youââ You struggled to find the right words.
His head tilted slightly, the corner of his mouth quirking up in a strange, unsettling mix of amusement and frustration. âWhen did it start?â he echoed, almost as if asking himself the same question. He leaned back slightly, still crouched in front of you, one knee on the ground, his arms resting on his bent leg.
There was a flicker in his dark eyes, a spark of somethingâanger, pain, sadnessâall swirling together. He took a deep breath, his expression shifting to something almost depressing.
âYou remember that week you got sick?â he asked softly, his voice calm but laced with something far darker.
You blinked, startled. âWhen I had the flu?â
He nodded, his eyes never leaving yours. âYeah. You were out for almost a week. Barely even answered my texts. I was worried about you, of course, but⊠it wasnât just that.â He paused, his jaw clenching as his tone grew colder.
âThat was the week they started targeting me,â he said, his voice low, almost a growl.
You froze, the blood draining from your face as you realized what he was saying.
âThey,â he continued bitterly, his gaze hardening. âThe second you werenât there, they saw me as an easy target. Your absence gave them permission to attack.â He laughed bitterly, shaking his head. âI thought I could handle it. At first, I did. But then⊠it got worse. They didnât stop.â
You opened your mouth to respond, but he wasnât done. His words poured out now, each one sharper than the last.
âTheyâd corner me. Taunt me. Spread rumors. Push me around in the hallways like I was nothing. Like I wasnât even human. And the worst part?â His voice cracked slightly, his fists tightening at his sides. âYou werenât there. You didnât even know. I told myself it wasnât your faultâyou were sickâbut I was alone, and no one cared. No one stopped them.â
His voice rose with each word, anger and hurt dripping from every syllable. You could see his hands trembling slightly, his chest rising and falling as his breathing grew heavier.
âNi-kiâŠâ you started softly, guilt twisting in your stomach.
âI didnât deserve it,â he snapped, cutting you off. His eyes burned with fury now, his voice trembling with emotion. âI never did anything to them. I was your friend, but that was enough for them. Just being close to you made me a target.â
Your mind reeled, piecing everything together. Memories of those days flooded backâhow Ni-ki had seemed distant when you returned to school, quieter, more withdrawn. At the time, youâd thought he was just giving you space to recover, but now you understood.
Your lips parted in recognition, the realization hitting you like a punch to the gut. âIt was them,â you whispered. âThose same people. Theyâre the ones whoââ
Ni-kiâs head snapped toward you, and for a brief moment, you saw a flicker of something in his eyes: validation. He nodded, his expression a mix of satisfaction and pain. âYou understand now,â he said, his voice quiet but intense.
But you werenât finished. âTheyâre the reason you⊠snapped,â you said, the word tasting bitter on your tongue.
His lips curled into a humorless smile as he tilted his head at you, studying your face like you were a puzzle he was finally solving. âYeah,â he admitted. âThey pushed me too far. And then⊠something inside me just⊠clicked.â
He leaned in closer, his voice soft but chilling. âI realized they didnât deserve to get away with it. Not with what they did to me! Theyâre parasites, and the world is better off without them.â
You stared at him, trembling, your tears flowing freely now. âNi-ki⊠this isnât you. This isnâtââ
âIt is me,â he said firmly, cutting you off again. His hand reached out to gently cradle your face, his touch surprisingly tender despite the blood still staining his fingers. âOh, but this is the real me doll!â
âYou canâtâŠâ you choked out, your voice breaking. âYou canât just decide who deserves to live and who doesnât. Thatâs not your choice to make!â
He smiled, his thumb brushing against your cheek, smearing a tear. âOh, but it is. Because no one else will. And Iâll keep doing itâagain and againâeven if that makes me seem crazy.â
You shook your head, sobbing quietly, but he only leaned closer, his forehead almost touching yours. âDonât cry,â he murmured, his voice softening again. âIâm not the villain here. Youâll see that someday.â
You turned your head away, unable to meet his gaze, but his grip on your face tightened just enough to bring your attention back to him. âSomeday,â he whispered, his lips brushing your forehead, âyouâll thank me.â
Ni-kiâs voice was calm yet insistent, each word weaving its way into your mind like a snake, coiling tightly around your thoughts. âThey were the problem,â he repeated, his tone soft but unwavering. âEvery single one of them. They hurt you, they hurt me, and they wouldâve kept going. People like that donât change.â
You shook your head weakly, tears blurring your vision. âNo⊠no, you canât just⊠You canât decideââ
âI didnât decide anything,â he interrupted, his voice sharpening just slightly. âThey chose this. They chose to torment others, to stomp on anyone they thought was beneath them. Youâve seen it yourself. How many times have you been their target? How many times have they made you feel small?â
You opened your mouth to argue, but no words came. Memories of those moments flashed through your mindâthe taunts, the rumors, the laughter at your expense. You could still hear their voices, their mocking tones, still feel the sting of their words.
Ni-ki leaned in closer, his dark eyes locking onto yours. âThey didnât care about you. About anyone. Theyâre leeches, feeding off other peopleâs pain. And you want me to just⊠let them live? To give them the chance to hurt someone else?â
Your heart pounded in your chest. âPeople can change,â you whispered, though even you could hear the doubt in your voice.
âCan they?â he challenged, his lips quirking into a bitter smile. âTell me, have you ever seen one of them apologize? Have they ever truly felt sorry for what theyâve done? Or do they just pretend to care when it benefits them?â
You didnât answer. You couldnât.
He sighed, his hand brushing a strand of hair out of your face as if he were comforting you. âYouâre too kind,â he murmured, almost wistfully. âThatâs what I love about you. But kindness doesnât work on people like them. They see it as weakness. They use it against you.â
His words slithered into your mind like a viper, sinking their fangs into your thoughts. They coiled around the doubt already lurking there, tightening their grip.
âThey were the problem,â he repeated, his voice softer now, almost coaxing. âYou know Iâm right. Deep down, youâve always known it.â
You shook your head again, but it was weaker this time. The venom of his words was spreading, clouding your judgment. Memories of the bullies flashed through your mind againâhow theyâd laughed at you, taunted you, humiliated you. How no one had stopped them. How no one had cared.
âThey didnât deserve it,â you whispered, though the conviction in your voice was faltering.
âDidnât they?â Ni-ki pressed, his gaze never leaving yours. âThink about it. Think about everything theyâve done. Everything theyâve said. Did they ever feel sorry? Did they ever stop to think about how their actions hurt others?â
You stayed silent, your breathing shaky.
âThey didnât care,â he said, his voice low but firm. âThey never cared. And they never will. People like them⊠they only stop when someone makes them.â
His words kept slithering into your mind, twisting around your thoughts until they were all you could hear. You wanted to argue, to tell him he was wrong, but⊠was he?
You felt your resolve cracking, the weight of his words pressing down on you like a heavy stone. Maybe⊠maybe he wasnât wrong. Maybe they really wouldnât have stopped.
Your silence seemed to embolden him. He smiled, leaning closer, his forehead almost brushing yours. âSee?â he whispered. âYouâre starting to understand. Iâm not the monster here. Iâm the one whoâs doing what no one else will.â
Tears slipped down your cheeks, but you didnât speak. You didnât deny him. You couldnât.
Ni-ki smiled wider, his fingers gently brushing against your cheek, wiping away a tear. âThatâs my girl,â he murmured, his voice filled with a twisted kind of pride. âYouâll see. One day, youâll see that I did this for us. For you.â
You closed your eyes, trying to block out his words, but they were already there, buried deep in your mind.
You barely registered what was happening. Exhaustion weighed heavily on you, the emotional toll of the past hours rendering you too drained to fight or even think straight. When Ni-ki untied your wrists and re-bound them in front of you instead, the shift barely registered in your foggy mind. You flinched slightly at his touch, but even that was weak.
Before you knew it, he was scooping you up, his arms cradling you securely as if you were something precious. Your legs, still bound, dangled uselessly. The motion made you groan softly in discomfort, but you didnât resist. You couldnât resist.
He carried you up the stairs, out of the dim, suffocating basement, and into a softly lit living room. The space was strangely simple, furnished with a small couch, a coffee table, and a few personal touchesâa bookshelf in the corner, a stack of neatly folded blankets on a chair. It felt too⊠normal. Too domestic.
Ni-ki carefully lowered himself onto the couch, keeping you in his arms as if he were holding a fragile doll. He adjusted your position so you were leaning against him, your cheek resting against his chest. His fingers moved gently, brushing strands of hair out of your face, his touch light and tender.
âYouâre so tired,â he murmured, his voice low and soothing. âYouâve been through so much. But itâs okay now. Iâve got you.â
Tears continued to stream down your cheeks, silent and unrelenting, as if your body didnât know how else to process everything. You didnât have the energy to speak, to scream, or even to flinch when his hand cupped your face, his thumb brushing away the tears.
âShh,â he cooed, his lips curling into a soft smile, though his dark eyes gleamed with something far less gentle. âNo more crying, sweetheart. They canât hurt you anymore. Youâre safe now. Safe with me.â
You wanted to tell him he was wrong, that he was the danger you needed saving from, but the words wouldnât come. Your chest felt tight, the weight of everything suffocating you.
Ni-kiâs other hand came up to cradle the back of your head, his fingers tangling lightly in your hair. âYou donât have to be scared anymore,â he whispered, his tone achingly sweet. âIâll take care of you. Iâll protect you. Just like I always have.â
The warmth of his embrace was suffocating in its own way, the tenderness of his touch a cruel mockery of the terror coursing through your veins. But as the minutes ticked by, your body, weakened and overwhelmed, began to betray you. Your muscles slackened, your breathing evened out, and though your mind screamed for you to resist, the exhaustion dragged you closer and closer to unconsciousness.
Ni-ki noticed the change immediately. He shifted slightly, pulling a blanket from the back of the couch and draping it over the both of you, his movements slow and deliberate, as if savoring the moment.
His eyes softened as he watched you, his gaze lingering on your face, as if he were memorizing every detail, every emotion flickering across your features. His fingers brushed lightly over your cheek, tracing the path of a tear you hadn't realized had fallen.
Then, slowly, he leaned down. You could feel his breath against your skin before his lips ever touched you, a soft, tentative brush against your temple. It was the faintest of touches, but the moment it happened, your heart skipped in your chest. His lips moved slowly across your skin, tender, careful, as if testing the waters.
You closed your eyes instinctively, your breath catching, not sure what to make of the emotions stirring within you. Your body reacted before your mind could process itâan unexpected warmth spreading from your chest outward, the quiet, gentle touch of his lips on your skin softening the frantic thoughts that had been chasing themselves through your mind.
Ni-kiâs kiss lingered on your forehead, then your cheeks, as though savoring each moment. He was taking his time, savoring the moment in a way that made everything feel too intimate, too personal.
As he kissed your jaw, you couldn't deny that your heart raced. It was a strange feeling, unfamiliar, and yet somehow soothing. His lips were tender, his touch softer than you expected. When he finally stopped, you opened your eyes, only to find him hovering over you, his lips just barely brushing yours.
He looked at you then, his dark eyes intense, searching. A faint smile tugged at the corners of his lips, but there was something else in his gazeâsomething that felt more possessive than loving.
"Can I?" he asked, his voice low, almost a whisper, as if seeking your permission.
You blinked, the weight of his question sinking in. You had no words, no deflection, only the silent pounding of your heart in your chest. You looked up at him, and the moment seemed to stretch on forever.
With a soft sigh, almost as if resigned to whatever this was between you, you nodded. âYes.â
The moment you gave your consent, he closed the distance between you, capturing your lips in a slow, deliberate kiss. Ni-ki kissed you with a quiet hunger, the kind that felt as though he were marking his place in your world, making sure you wouldnât forget him. And in that moment, with his arms wrapped around you and his lips claiming yours, it was hard to think of anything else.
Ni-ki, sensing your acceptance and the lack of resistance, initiated a deeper kiss, his lips pressing more firmly against yours, his tongue teasing and exploring.
You gasped softly, your breath catching in your throat as the intensity of his kiss took you by surprise. With your bound hands, you instinctively gripped onto his arms, your fingers tightening around his muscles.
The sensation of your touch seemed to drive him wilder, his kisses becoming more passionate and demanding, his lips moved from your mouth to your neck, leaving a trail of passionate marks. His teeth grazed your skin lightly, sending waves of pleasure through your body.
As Ni-ki pulled back just a fraction, you watched with a mixture of curiosity and tension. His hand reached down into the pocket of his jacket, and for a moment, you tensedâyour body still wired with caution. But when he pulled out a knife, it wasnât the sharp gleam of the blade that caught your attention. It was the way his gaze remained locked with yours, intense, but strangely calm.
He held the knife with practiced ease, his fingers brushing against the rope around your wrists. You held your breath as he made a precise cut, the rope falling away in seconds. The pressure on your wrists eased, but you didnât move, not immediately. You kept your eyes on him, and he studied you back, as if waiting for a reaction, something that might hint at what you were thinking.
But instead of pulling away, instead of running, you found yourself unable to budge. His eyes were dark, unreadable, but they held you in place, as though you were stuck in an invisible web.
The silence between you stretched, and without thinking, without second-guessing, you slipped your arms around his neck, pulling him closer. He didnât hesitate for a second. His lips found yours in an instant, and the kiss was urgent, almost hungry, as if he had been waiting for this moment. His hands moved and there was no mistaking the way he pulled you into him, as if he never wanted to let go.
When he finally pulled away, his lips still lingered over yours, his breath warm against your skin. You looked into his eyes, seeing the satisfaction there.
Ni-ki, with a hint of sadistic pleasure in his eyes, leaned in and kissed your lips, his movements calculated and precise. As he pecked your lips, his words flowed like honey, sweet yet dark.
"You know I only want what's best for you, don't you, doll?" he whispered, his voice laced with control. "I'm the only one who truly understands you. I can give you everything you desire, everything you've ever wanted."
Your lips, soft and pliable, parted slightly as if in agreement. You nodded, a slight movement that confirmed your acceptance of his words, your mind clouded by the intense passion he had instilled in you. The depth of your love for Ni-ki had clouded your judgment, making you susceptible to his every word.
"I can make you feel things you've never felt before," he continued, his voice low and compelling. "I can take you to places only I can show you. Trust me."
Your heart raced at Ni-ki's words, your mind a whirlwind of excitement and anticipation. "I trust you," you said, your voice filled with surrender.. "Take me wherever you wish."
Your logic, once a steadfast companion, had fled, leaving you vulnerable to the allure of his charm. His words, like a drug, had you addicted and longing for more.
Ni-ki, with a calculated smirk, leaned in close, his eyes piercing into yours. His voice, laced with a hint of dark seduction, whispered, "You know you belong to me, don't you? I've crafted you into the perfect companion, one who adores and loves me unconditionally."
You no longer questioned, no longer resisted, for you had become a willing participant in his world.
Ni-ki's hands roamed over your body, a gesture that was possessive. His touch, once gentle, had transformed into a commanding force, a reminder.
"You're perfect," he murmured, his breath warm against your skin.
You nodded again, your mind a maze, created by Ni-ki. You had become his willing captive, a puppet. Your love, once pure and innocent, had morphed into something complex.
Ni-ki's kisses became more frequent, more insistent, as if he were claiming ownership over your very being.
"I love watching you surrender to me," he purred, his eyes dark with desire. "You're mine to command, and I will make sure you never question that."
You, under the spell of Ni-ki's kisses and his presence, felt a surge of something unknown.
"I want to be yours," you whispered, your voice soft and surrendered. "Command me, control me, and make me yours forever."
Ni-ki's kisses became more intense, his lips moving from your mouth to your neck, leaving a trail of fire in their wake. His hands, strong and assertive, roamed over your body, leaving no part untouched.
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The next day at school, you walked through the halls with Niki at your side, the two of you almost in sync. Everyone around you seemed unaware of the shift, the change in the air. To the teachers, you were just another student; to your friends, you acted as though everything was perfectly normal. You laughed at their jokes, smiled when needed, and joined in conversations as though the world hadnât turned upside down just a day ago.
But when the moments between you and Niki were private, things were different. You werenât the same person you had been before; you were only his. Every glance he gave you, every touch, sent a spark through your body. And you, in turn, clung to his words, listening intently as he spoke, like they held the key to everything you needed to know.
The moments alone with him, in the quiet spaces between classes or in the halls when no one else was around, were when you felt the most alive. Heâd find ways to hold you close, one hand on your back, the other gently cupping your chin to pull you in for a kiss that felt like it could last forever. Each kiss left you breathless, like it was all you needed in that moment.
You began to notice that Niki, too, seemed to only listen to you. The way he would react when you spoke, how he would follow your requests without hesitation, no matter how small or trivial. If you asked him to do something, he did itâimmediately, without question. If you needed him to hold you, he would. If you wanted him close, he was always there, like he couldnât bear to be any farther away from you.
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Standing in the empty hallway, the buzz of the school day fading into the background, Ni-ki's strong arms encircled your waist, pulling you against him. His lips, soft yet demanding, met yours, and the kiss ignited a fire within you.
With each passing second, the kiss grew more intense, more passionate and you welcomed it with open arms, or rather, open lips.
As Ni-ki pulled back slightly, his breath warm against your lips, he smiled, a smile that held a mixture of satisfaction and mischief. "See how easy it is to let go?" he whispered, his voice low. "The way you surrender, the way you let me take controlâŠ"
You nodded, you didn't need to speak; your actions and your body language spoke for you.
His smile widened, and he leaned in once more, his lips finding yours with precision. The kiss deepened, his tongue teasing and exploring.
The wall behind you provided support as Ni-ki pressed his body closer, his hands moving to your hips, pulling you tighter against him.
As the kiss lingered, you could feel his breath against your neck, his hot words whispered against your skin. "I love having you like this," he murmured, his voice hoarse. "So ready to give in to me."
You nodded again, a silent affirmation of your agreement.
Ni-ki's smile, a triumphant smile, told you everything you needed to know - you were his, and he had you exactly where he wanted you.
hii! hope ur doing good I have some ideas in mind hear me out demon sunghoon where he fell in love with reader and tries to protect and keep an eye on her and sunghoon tries to disguise himself as a human to get closer to her will do anything to protect her and love her, buttt what if reader discoverâs his true identity. It could be incubus sunghoon BUT ITS UR CHOICE, Hope ur doing good :333
The Incubus's Touch - P.S
a/n: i hope you like it <33
P: Incubus!Sunghoon X Fem!Reader (Recommended age 18+)
Synopsis: Working at the old campus library was funâexcept for one rule: never enter the basement. Yet, one day, you found yourself there, holding an ancient book. You read a few words, and now strange things are happening, and a mysterious new student wonât leave you alone. Whoâor whatâdid you awaken?
a/n: i got some inspiration from a new book im reading called The Devil Makes Three by Tori Bovalino - i would recommend it if you can handle slowburn.
now playing: woo by rihanna | sins (let me in) by kanii | temptation by ashley sienna | dont mess with my mind by emo
reblogs and commentary are welcomed <3
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When you first decided to get a job close to campus, you werenât expecting much. In fact, you didnât have many choices at all. Most of the cafes and shops near the university had already filled their rosters for the semester, and every rejection you received only added to the growing knot of anxiety in your chest. As the weeks passed, you found yourself growing desperate, spending late nights scrolling through job postings that seemed to disappear before you could even send in an application.
It wasnât until one quiet afternoon in the campus library that your salvation arrived.
The campus library had always been your sanctuaryâquiet, calm, and filled with the smell of old books. It wasnât unusual for you to spend hours tucked into one of the corners, surrounded by towering shelves of books and the gentle hum of the air conditioning. The librarian, Mrs. Choi, had gotten used to seeing you there almost every day, to the point where sheâd started greeting you by name when you walked through the doors.
That day, she had approached your table while you were hunched over your laptop, your screen open to yet another fruitless job search.
âStill looking?â sheâd asked, her voice soft but knowing.
Youâd sighed, leaning back in your chair. âYeah. Itâs been⊠rough.â
Sheâd nodded thoughtfully, her gaze drifting toward the stacks of books waiting to be shelved. Then, after a moment, sheâd said, âHow would you feel about working here? As my assistant?â
Youâd blinked, thinking you must have misheard her. âWait, really?â
âReally,â sheâd said, smiling faintly. âItâs nothing glamorous, but we could use an extra set of hands. And you seem like the kind of person whoâd do well here.â
You didnât need to think twice. Youâd eagerly accepted the offer on the spot.
The job, as it turned out, was exactly what youâd needed. Sorting out books, erasing stray pencil marks and doodles from pages, sitting behind the counter to check books in and out, cleaning shelves, making sure the computers were turned off at the end of the dayâit was simple work.
You quickly fell into a routine. Most days, you worked quietly alongside Mrs. Choi, who was as patient and kind. Other times, you found yourself alone.
There were small challenges, of courseâ like figuring out the library catalog system, dealing with students who were less than gentle with the books, chasing down overdue returnsâbut they were minor in the grand scheme of things.
It wasnât the job youâd imagined yourself doing, but it turned out to be exactly what you needed.
But there was one simple rule she had given you: never enter the basement alone.
At first, you thought it was strange. The basement was just a storage space, wasnât it? A place to keep old supplies, forgotten books, and maybe some outdated equipment. Why would it matter if you were alone or not?
You got your answer the first time Mrs. Choi took you down there.
It had been a quiet afternoon, with only a few students milling around the library. Mrs. Choi had handed you a list of supplies needed to repair a torn bookâa delicate process that required some old tools and adhesives she kept locked away downstairs. She led you to a small, unassuming door at the far corner of the library, almost hidden behind one of the towering shelves.
The moment the door creaked open, the atmosphere changed.
The air was heavier, colder. A faint smell of mold hit your nose immediately, mixed with something metallic that made you wrinkle your nose. The single light bulb at the top of the stairs flickered, casting shadows that danced along the narrow stairwell. You hesitated, but Mrs. Choi gave you a reassuring look and motioned for you to follow.
âI know itâs not exactly inviting,â she said with a small smile, descending the stairs, âbut the supplies we need are down here. Just stick close to me.â
You nodded and followed her, but the deeper you went, the more uneasy you felt. The basement wasnât just darkâit was suffocatingly so. The walls were lined with shelves cluttered with dust-covered boxes, forgotten stacks of books, and unidentifiable objects. The floor beneath your feet was uneven, cracked concrete, and your steps echoed in the silence.
And then there were the hallways.
You hadnât expected the basement to be so sprawling. Hallways branched off in seemingly every direction, twisting and turning into darkness. Some of them were so narrow youâd have to walk sideways to squeeze through. Others disappeared entirely into shadows, the overhead lights either burned out or nonexistent.
âThis library is older than the campus itself,â Mrs. Choi explained as she rummaged through a shelf near the end of one of the hallways. âThe basement used to be part of an old archive building before the university bought the property. Theyâve renovated the library a dozen times over the years, but the basement? WellâŠâ She trailed off, gesturing to the decaying walls around you.
âOut of sight, out of mind,â you muttered, wrinkling your nose at the sight of a particularly large spiderweb on the wall.
Mrs. Choi chuckled softly. âExactly. What the students canât see wonât hurt themâor so the administration likes to think. Just be glad you donât have to come down here often.â
You nodded, but your eyes kept drifting to the dark hallways. There was something⊠off about them.
âMrs. Choi?â you asked, your voice quieter than you intended.
âHmm?â she replied without looking up.
âWhy donât you want me coming down here alone?â
She paused, her hands stilling on the box sheâd been searching through. For a long moment, she didnât say anything, and you felt a chill crawl up your spine. When she finally spoke, her tone was casualâtoo casual.
âItâs easy to get lost,â she said, turning to you with a faint smile. âThe layout down here doesnât make much sense, and itâs not exactly safe to wander around in the dark. The last thing I want is for you to trip and hurt yourself.â
Her explanation made sense, but the way she avoided your gaze left you unconvinced. Still, you didnât press the issue. You helped her carry the supplies back upstairs, relieved to step back into the library.
After that, you made a point to follow her rule. The basement was creepy enough with someone elseâthere was no way you were going down there alone.
At least, not until the night you had no choice.
It happened a few weeks later, after a long shift that had stretched past closing time. Mrs. Choi had gone home early, trusting you to lock up on your own. Most of the evening had just been returning books to their shelves, tidying up the counter, shutting down the computersâbut just as you were about to leave, you noticed a small stack of books on the repair desk.
You froze, staring at them. Mrs. Choi had asked you to fix those earlier in the week, but youâd completely forgotten. The supplies you needed were downstairsâin the basement.
You hesitated, debating whether you could just leave it for tomorrow, but you knew Mrs. Choi was counting on you. Sighing, you grabbed a flashlight from the front desk and made your way to the basement door.
You hesitated at the door, keys in hand, as a quiet, uneasy thought crossed your mind: Just leave it for tomorrow. But Mrs. Choi... She was counting on you. The supplies were just downstairs. Itâd take five minutes at most.
With a resigned sigh, you unlocked the door.
The heavy, creaking groan of the hinges sent a shiver down your spine as the door swung open. The familiar smell hit you immediately: damp, mold, and that faint metallic. You reached for the light switch, flipping it on without much thought.
Nothing happened.
You froze, your hand still on the switch. You flicked it again. And again. Still nothing.
You swallowed hard, telling yourself the bulb had probably just burned outâthough you couldnât remember a time the light had ever failed before.
âItâs fine,â you muttered under your breath, bringing the flashlight youâd brought along up. The bright beam cut through the darkness as you clicked it on, illuminating the narrow staircase in front of you. You took a shaky breath and began your descent.
The further down you went, the colder it became.
The air felt heavier here, pressing against your skin like a warning. You tried to focus on the flashlightâs beam, watching it bounce against the cracked walls and uneven steps. It helped, a little. But not enough to shake the growing knot of unease curling in your stomach.
When you finally reached the bottom of the staircase, you paused to look around. The beam of your flashlight swept across the basement, revealing the same maze of shelves, forgotten boxes, and darkened hallways youâd seen before. But tonight, it felt differentâalmost unfamiliar.
A shiver ran up your spine. You adjusted your grip on the flashlight, forcing yourself to move.
âOkay,â you whispered to yourself. âGet the supplies and leave.â
You turned toward the shelf where Mrs. Choi always kept the repair tools. They were usually right thereâneatly stored in a small wooden crate on the middle shelf. But as you shone the flashlight over it, you froze.
The shelf was empty.
Your heart skipped a beat as you quickly scanned the area. No crate. No tools. Nothing. You crouched down, checking the lower shelves, even though you knew theyâd never been there before. Still nothing.
âWhereâŠ?â you muttered, your voice barely audible over the sound of your own breathing.
Maybe Mrs. Choi had moved them? That was possible, right? She was always reorganizing things. You straightened up, your flashlight flicking from shelf to shelf, moving to step back, you were about tt turn to check the other shelves nearby. Thatâs when you heard it.
A faint sound, just on the edge of your hearing. A soft creak, like the sound of a door easing openâor maybe a floorboard shifting underfoot.
You froze, your flashlight trembling slightly in your hand.
âHello?â you called out, your voice louder than you intended. It echoed through the basement, bouncing off the walls and disappearing into the dark hallways. No response.
You told yourself it was nothing. Maybe just the old pipes settling, or your own footsteps disturbing something. But as you turned back to the shelf, another sound reached you.
This time, it was softerâquieter. Like the faint rustle of fabric.
Your stomach dropped.
You swung the flashlight toward the nearest hallway, its beam cutting through the dark. Nothing. Just more shelves, more shadows. But your instincts were screaming at you now, telling you to leave. To get out of there.
"Okay, nope," you whispered to yourself, backing away from the hallway, your flashlight trembling slightly in your hands.
Thatâs when you heard it.
A hum.
Soft, almost melodic, like someone humming a lullaby just out of earshot. It floated through the air, carried on a breeze that shouldnât have existed down here. The sound wrapped around you, tender and strangely inviting, tugging at something deep inside your chest.
You froze, the flashlight beam flickering as your grip loosened. The hum grew louderânot in an overwhelming way, but in a way that seemed to sink into your bones. It felt⊠warm.
Where were you again?
You frowned, the thought slipping through your mind like water through your fingers. You couldnât remember. The dim basement around you blurred at the edges, the walls dissolving into a hazy glow. The tight knot of fear in your stomach melted away, replaced by a slow, pleasant warmth that spread through your body.
The hum wrapped around you like a blanket, comforting and wonderful, coaxing you to close your eyes and just⊠relax. The cold, damp smell of the basement faded, replaced by something sweeter. Flowers? No⊠vanilla, maybe. Something that reminded you of home.
You let out a soft sigh, your muscles relaxing, the tension in your shoulders fading. Your flashlight slipped from your fingers and clattered to the ground, but you barely noticed.
Everything felt so perfect.
You wanted to stay here forever.
But then, just as suddenly as it had started, the hum stopped.
And everything crashed back into focus.
The warmth in your chest was gone, replaced by a sharp chill that clawed at your skin. The sweetness in the air vanished, leaving behind the bitter stench of mold and metal. Your surroundings solidified, and you realized you were no longer standing where youâd been before.
You were in a different room.
The walls were smooth and gray, completely different from the crumbling concrete of the basement hallways. The shelves were gone, replaced by nothing but cold, empty space. The air felt heavier, colder, and every breath you took made your chest ache.
Your flashlight was nowhere to be seen, but a dim, pale light seemed to seep into the room from nowhere and everywhere at once.
The hum was gone, but the silence it left behind was worse.
You turned in slow circles, your heart hammering in your chest. The room was small, with smooth, gray walls that loomed over you, stretching upward into darkness.
âHello?â you called, your voice trembling.
It echoed back to you, warped and distant, as if the room was far larger than it seemed.
The warped echoes of your voice faded into the suffocating silence of the room, leaving only the pounding of your heartbeat in your ears.
How did you even get here?
You couldn't remember. Your mind was still foggy, fragments of warmth and that eerie hum lingering in the back of your thoughts like an unfinished dream.
Did you walk here?
You felt like you were missing pieces of yourself, as if part of your memory had been swallowed whole.
You were about to take a tentative step forward when something deep inside you shiftedâa strange, unnatural pull. It wasn't a sensation you could describe easily. It was as though a string deep within your chest was being tugged, pulling you toward something.
You froze, your breath catching as your eyes followed the invisible tether.
In the center of the room, sitting on a low, ornate stand, was a book.
Your heart stuttered. Had that been there before? You were sure it wasnât. You would have noticed it immediately, wouldnât you?
The book seemed to glow faintly, its crimson-red cover almost pulsating, like it was alive. There were no words or symbols on the front, just smooth, worn leather that seemed impossibly pristine for something that felt so⊠ancient.
You swallowed hard, your feet moving toward it as if on their own. Each step felt heavier, your instincts screaming at you to turn around, to run, but you couldnât stop.
When you finally reached it, you hesitated.
It was smaller than you expected, almost delicate, as though it shouldnât have belonged in a place like this. Despite its vivid crimson color, the book radiated a strange sense of calmâlike it wanted to be touched.
Before you realized it, your fingers were brushing against the cover.
It felt smooth, almost unnaturally so, and surprisingly light when you picked it up. You turned it over in your hands, the edges soft and perfectly bound, as if the book had been untouched for centuries. But on the back, something caught your attention.
A pink heart.
It was imprinted into the leather, subtle, making it look almost playful.
You huffed, confused and almost annoyed by how strange it all felt. Turning the book back over, you slowly opened it.
The pages inside were blank.
Every single one, clean and untouched, as though the book had never been written in. But when you turned to the first page, something stopped you in your tracks.
There was writing.
It was delicate, inked in looping, elegant script that seemed to shimmer faintly in the dim light. The letters were strange, unfamiliar, but they seemed alive, as though they were moving ever so slightly, shifting and breathing on the page.
Latin, your mind supplied, though you couldnât remember ever studying the language.
You tilted your head, curiosity overriding your fear as your eyes traced the unfamiliar words. They beckoned to you, pulling you in deeper. Before you even realized what you were doing, your lips parted, and you read them aloud:
"Qui me legit, fiat noster ligamen aeternum."
Nothing happened.
You stared at the book, waiting for some dramatic effectâa rumble, a flash of light, maybe a ghostly apparitionâbut there was nothing. Just silence.
You let out an annoyed huff, rolling your eyes. âGreat. Real spooky,â you muttered under your breath. Closing the book with a snap, you placed it back on the stand, wiping your hands on your jeans as if to rid yourself of its texture. âWhat a waste of time.â
Turning around, you glanced around the room again, your frustration growing. It wasnât like you had time to deal with creepy books in creepy basements. You still needed to get out of here and figure out why the supplies werenât where they were supposed to be.
Then, you saw it.
A door.
It was open, just wide enough for you to slip through. You frowned. Had it been there before? It mustâve beenâhow else would you have gotten in here? Still, something about it didnât sit right with you.
Was that where you came from?
You shrugged. Probably.
With no other options, you headed toward it, slipping through the opening, the faint creak of the hinges echoing unnervingly.
And then you were swallowed by darkness.
âOf course,â you muttered, groaning. Without the flashlight from earlier, the darkness was thick and impenetrable. You could barely see an inch in front of your face, and the faint light from the room behind you did nothing to help.
Fishing your phone from your pocket, you switched on its flashlight. The beam wasnât as strong as the flashlight youâd been carrying before, but it was enough to see the area around you.
The floor beneath your feet was uneven and cold, a mixture of dirt and cracked stone. You shone the light around, trying to get your bearings. The walls were damp and covered in spiderwebs, and the faint scent of mold and rust lingered in the air.
Where even am I?
You took a tentative step forward, the beam of light from your phone trembling as you moved.
The hallway kept stretching forward, narrow and seemingly endless. The farther you walked, the more the walls seemed to close in around you, the air growing colder with each step. Your phoneâs light flickered once, then again, making your pulse spike.
âDonât you dare die on me,â you whispered, gripping the device tighter.
The light steadied, and you exhaled a shaky breath, your footsteps faltering slightly.
Something felt off.
The air was too still, the silence too absolute. It was the kind of quiet that made you feel like you were being watched, like something was lurking just beyond the reach of your light.
You shook your head, trying to focus. âGet it together,â you muttered, your voice barely above a whisper. âJust find the exit.â
But as you took another step, something caught your attention.
A sound.
It was faint at first, almost imperceptible, but it grew louder the more you listened. A soft, rhythmic tapping, like footsteps⊠or fingers drumming against a surface.
You froze, the beam of your phoneâs light shaking as your hands trembled. The sound echoed faintly through the corridor, coming from somewhere ahead of you.
âHello?â you called, your voice cracking slightly.
No response.
The tapping stopped.
You waited, holding your breath, your ears straining for any hint of movement.
Then, suddenly, the tapping started againâthis time behind you.
Your stomach dropped, and you whipped around, the flashlight from your phone sweeping over the hallway youâd just walked through. It was empty.
Completely, utterly empty.
You took a shaky step backward, your heart hammering in your chest. The tapping grew louder, faster, coming from all around you now, echoing off the walls in a maddening cacophony.
âStop it,â you whispered, your voice trembling. âJust stop!â
And then it did.
The silence that followed was deafening, almost worse than the sound itself. You took another step back, your pulse racing, and suddenly the floor beneath you gave way.
With a startled cry, you fell, the phone slipping from your hand as you tumbled into darkness.
You hit the ground hard, the impact knocking the air from your lungs. Dazed and disoriented, you lay there for a moment, your head spinning and your body aching.
When you finally managed to sit up, you realized you were no longer in the narrow hallway.
You were back in the room.
The light was gone, replaced by an suffocating darkness that seemed to stretch endlessly around you.
And in the center of the room, sitting on the stand where youâd left it, was the book.
But this time, it wasn`t red.
It was black.
And it was beating.
You screamed, the sound raw and terrified as it echoed around the room. Your knees buckled, and you collapsed to the ground, trembling uncontrollably. Your body felt impossibly heavy, as though some unseen force was pressing down on you, rooting you in place.
Frantic, your eyes darted around the room, searching for a way out, for anything to explain what was happening. But the darkness seemed alive now, shifting and writhing just beyond your vision.
And then, you felt it.
Hot breath, impossibly close, brushing against your ear.
Your breath hitched as warmth spread through you, pooling low in your stomach, and you hated how your body betrayed you, reacting to something you couldnât even see.
Then came the lips.
Soft, feather-light, trailing along the curve of your neck. The sensation was so vivid, so real, that a groan escaped your lips before you could stop it. Your body arched instinctively, leaning into the phantom touch, even as your mind screamed at you to fight it, to run, to do something.
âShh,â a voice purred, its tone soothing. âThereâs no need to be afraid, my sweet. You called me, remember?â
Your heart raced, and your hands clenched into fists as you tried to regain control of your body. âWhat⊠what are you?â you managed to choke out, your voice barely above a whisper.
The presence behind you chuckled, the sound low and intimate, like a loverâs laugh shared in the dark.
âIâm yours,â it said simply, as though it were the most obvious thing in the world. âYou read the words. You invited me in. And now⊠weâre bound.â
You shook your head, tears welling in your eyes. âNo, no, this isnât real. This canât be real.â
âOh, but it is,â the voice replied, amusement lacing its tone. âYou wanted something, didnât you? Why else would you open that book? Why else would you speak those words?â
The weight on your body eased slightly, enough for you to shift and try to crawl away, but the darkness coiled around you like a living thing, keeping you in place.
âYou donât even know what youâve done, do you?â the voice murmured, almost pitying. âPoor thing. You were so eager, so curious. And nowâŠâ
A handâcold yet burningâbrushed against your cheek, tilting your head up toward the stand where the book still rested.
ââŠyouâre mine.â
The room seemed to pulse with those final words, the darkness tightening around you like a vice. Your vision blurred as panic clawed at your throat, and the last thing you saw before everything went black was the bookâits pages flipping wildly on their ownâglowing faintly with a sinister crimson light.
You woke up with a sharp gasp, your body jolting upright like youâd been shocked awake. But as you looked around, you realized you were lying in the middle of the hallway.
Your phone was on the floor beside you, its flashlight pointed up at the cracked ceiling.
It was a dream?
You laughed, breathless and shaky, running a hand through your hair as you tried to calm yourself. âThis is insane,â you muttered, your voice trembling. The laughter didnât last longâit felt hollow, a desperate attempt to convince yourself that what youâd experienced wasnât real.
You snatched up your phone, and scrambled to your feet. Without wasting another second, you sprinted down the hallway, the weak beam of your phoneâs flashlight bouncing with every step. You didnât care where you were going anymore; you just needed to get out.
The hallways twisted and turned, stretching endlessly, and every shadow seemed to claw at you as you ran. It felt like hoursâlike the labyrinth was mocking you, refusing to let you leave.
But finally, somehow, you found your way back.
The dim light of the main basement room greeted you, and your breath hitched as your eyes landed on something you hadnât expected to see.
The box of supplies.
It was sitting on the shelf, exactly where it was supposed to be.
Your heart pounded in your chest as you stared at it. The same box youâd been searching for, on the same shelf youâd checked before.
How had it gotten here?
You didnât dare question it. Not now. Not after everything that had just happened.
Without hesitation, you grabbed the box, clutching it tightly in one hand while you snatched the flashlight off the ground with the other.
Then you bolted.
Your feet thundered up the stairs, your pulse roaring in your ears as you raced for the exit. When you reached the top, you slammed the basement door shut and locked it, your hands shaking so badly it took you a couple of tries to get the key to turn.
The moment it was locked, you pressed your back against the door, your chest heaving as you tried to catch your breath.
You glanced down at the supplies in your arms, the mundane, ordinary contents almost laughable now after everything youâd been through.
But as you stood there, something cold prickled at the back of your neck.
You turned slowly, your eyes drifting toward the libraryâs main floor.
Everything was still. Silent.
And yet, for a brief moment, you couldâve sworn you saw a figure standing in the shadows between the shelves.
Watching you.
You blinked, and it was gone.
This was crazy. Absolutely crazy.
You forced yourself to take a deep breath, shaking your head as you clutched the box tighter. You were just tired, that was all. You hadnât had a proper nightâs sleep in days, and the stress of balancing school and work was clearly catching up to you. Yeah, tired. Thatâs all this is, you thought, repeating it like a mantra.
Ignoring the lingering unease prickling at the back of your neck, you made your way to the counter. The two ripped books Mrs. Choi had left were still there, waiting for you. You dropped the box down with a thud, grabbed the tools you needed, and got to work.
Your hands trembled at first as you smoothed out the torn pages, applying the adhesive carefully. You focused on the processâcutting, pressing, and smoothing out the repair stripsâletting the repetitive actions calm your frayed nerves.
This was normal. Fixing books. Doing your job. Nothing weird about that.
Minutes passed. Then longer. The books were almost done, and for a moment, you felt like you could breathe again.
But then, just as you reached for the last tool in the box, a soft tap echoed through the library.
Your hand froze mid-reach, your eyes darting toward the source of the sound.
Tap⊠tap⊠tap.
It came from the direction of the shelves, slow and deliberate, like someone tapping their nails against wood.
Your chest tightened as you stared into the rows of books, the library was dark nowâdarker than it shouldâve been. The overhead lights seemed dimmer, casting distorted shadows across the shelves.
You swallowed hard, trying to convince yourself it was nothing. Maybe it was the building settling, or the heating system kicking on. Donât be stupid. Youâre just scaring yourself.
Still, you couldnât help but call out, your voice wavering. âHello?â
No response.
The tapping stopped.
You stared into the darkness for what felt like an eternity, your heart hammering in your chest.
Then, just as you were about to turn back to the books, a book fell from one of the shelves.
The sound was deafening, the thud reverberating through the library like a gunshot.
You jumped, your breath hitching, and spun toward the source. The book lay open on the floor, its pages splayed out like wings.
You didnât want to go over there. Every instinct in your body screamed at you to stay behind the counter, to leave it alone.
But your feet moved on their own, taking slow, hesitant steps toward the fallen book.
When you finally reached the book, you crouched down, your hand trembling as you picked it up.
Your fingers brushed over the embossed title, and your stomach dropped.
It was the same book youâd seen in the basement.
You gasped, clutching the crimson book tightly as your eyes darted around the library. Maybe this was some sort of prank? Someone could have grabbed the book from the basement and planted it here to scare you.
âHello?â you called out again, but the library was still empty, silent.
Your breathing quickened as you scanned the shelves, desperate to catch a glimpse of anyoneâa student pulling some cruel joke, or maybe Mrs. Choi coming back to check on you. But there was no one.
You hurried back to the counter, your heart racing, and turned on the computer. Your fingers fumbled as you brought up the CCTV footage, the small screen flickering to life. You scrubbed through the past hour, watching yourself walking back and forth, grabbing the box, and fixing the books.
Nothing.
No one else had entered the library. The hallways and shelves were empty. It was just you, moving around, completely alone.
Well⊠almost.
You paused the footage, your heart sinking as your eyes locked onto a shadow. It was faint, barely distinguishable, but for one brief frame, something seemed to linger in the corner of the screen. Not a person, but⊠something.
It was gone in the next frame.
âNope. Nope, nope, nope,â you muttered under your breath, slamming the monitor off.
You looked at the crimson book sitting on the counter, its cover gleaming faintly under the dim light. It felt wrongâits very presence seemed to thrum.
Without thinking, you grabbed it and tossed it into the nearest trash bin, making sure it landed deep under crumpled paper and leftover scraps.
âThere,â you said to yourself, your voice shaky. âDone.â
Forcing yourself to focus, you went back to finishing the torn books, your hands working faster than ever. As soon as the repairs were complete, you shoved the box under the counter and hurried to turn off the lights.
The library plunged into darkness, the faint moonlight filtering through the windows barely enough to guide you as you locked the doors behind you.
You didnât realize how late it had gotten until you stepped outside. The campus was quiet, the lampposts casting long shadows across the pathways.
You tightened your coat around you and began the walk home, your footsteps echoing loud. Every so often, you glanced over your shoulder, unable to shake the feeling that someone was following you.
But the path behind you was always empty.
Still, the unease stayed with you, like a cold weight settling deep in your chest.
When you finally reached your apartment, you locked the door behind you, double-checking it twice before collapsing onto the couch. You stared at the ceiling, your mind racing.
Maybe it was nothing. Maybe you were just tired, your imagination running wild after a long day.
Before you knew it, sleep had overtaken you. The exhaustion from the long day weighed down on your body like a blanket, pulling you into unconsciousness almost instantly.
But the peace of sleep didnât last long.
You found yourself in a dimly lit bedroom, one you didnât recognize. The walls were draped with dark curtains, and the air was heavy with the faint scent of roses. You sat up slowly, blinking in confusion as you tried to make sense of where you were.
âHow did IâŠ?â you murmured, your voice trailing off.
Before you could process anything, a voice, smooth and rich like velvet, broke the silence.
âMy, youâre even more beautiful up close.â
The words sent a shiver down your spine, equal parts alluring and unsettling. You whipped your head around, searching for the source, but the shadows in the room seemed to shift and dance, obscuring whoever was speaking to you.
âIâve been waiting for this moment,â the voice continued, closer now, almost right beside your ear. âTo touch you⊠to feel youâŠâ
You gasped as a pair of lips suddenly pressed against yours, soft but demanding.
Your initial instinct was to pull away, but the sensation was overwhelming. Your mind grew hazy, a strange warmth spreading through your chest as the kiss deepened. It felt so intoxicating, so magnetic, that you couldnât help but melt into it.
Your heart pounded in your chest, your thoughts scattering like leaves in the wind. The kiss was unlike anything youâd ever experiencedâit was all-consuming, as though the very act of it was pulling you further into the dream.
You felt hands brush against your skin, feather-light but firm, holding you in place.
You tried to pull back, but the hands held you steady, the kiss turning more possessive. The warmth youâd felt earlier now burned, searing through your veins as if something was being poured into you.
Panic swelled in your chest, but just as you were about to scream, the room spun violently, and everything went dark.
When your eyes shot open, you were back on your couch, drenched in sweat. Your chest heaved as you gasped for air, your fingers clutching the fabric of your shirt.
It was a dream. Just a dream.
But the lingering warmth on your lips, the faint ache of the kiss, told you otherwise.
And as you glanced toward the door, you froze.
The crimson book was sitting there, completely untouched, resting on the floor as if it had never been buried at all.
Your blood ran cold.
You scrambled to your feet, your heart pounding as you stared at the book. How was it there again? You knew youâd buried it deep under the pile of scraps.
âNope. Not dealing with this,â you muttered, your voice shaking but resolute.
You grabbed the book, your fingers brushing against its smooth, cold cover. A strange, pleasant warmth crawled up your arm at the contact, sending shivers through your body. For a fleeting moment, it felt goodâtoo good. Your grip faltered as a soft sigh escaped your lips, unbidden.
No.
Shaking your head fiercely, you tightened your grip and turned toward the window. Without hesitating, you threw it open, the cool night air brushing against your flushed face.
With all the strength you could muster, you hurled the book out. It spiraled through the air before landing with a dull thud on the damp grass below.
You leaned against the windowsill, watching the book. It lay there, unmoving.
Relief coursed through you.
âThatâs it,â you whispered. âStay there. Stay gone.â
Slamming the window shut, you locked it, double-checking the latch before stepping back.
You needed to clear your head, to shake off the strange sensations still crawling under your skin. Heading to the bathroom, you stripped off your clothes.
The shower hissed to life, steam rising as the water warmed. You stepped under the stream, letting the heat cascade over you, washing away the sweat and fear clinging to your body.
You closed your eyes, taking deep breaths, trying to convince yourself it was all in your head. Just a bad day. Just a stressful, weird day.
You squeezed your eyes shut, the sound of the water beating against your skin filling your ears as you focused on your breathing. Itâs fine. Itâs just your imagination. Nothing weird is going on. Youâre tired, just tired, you repeated in your mind.
The water seemed colder now, even though the temperature hadn't changed, and a shiver ran down your spine. Youâre overthinking it. Just get out of the shower and relax, you told yourself, but your hands felt heavy as you reached for the soap.
Just as you were about to wash your face, a soft tap echoed from somewhere beyond the bathroom door.
You froze, the motion of your hands stalling in midair.
Tap... Tap...
Your heart skipped a beat as your eyes darted to the bathroom door.
It was all too familiar. You couldnât breathe, your chest tightening as the sound echoed louder in your mind.
No. No. Itâs just the house settling. Maybe itâs the pipes. Just the pipes.
But the words felt hollow in your mind, the fear building with every passing second. The taps grew louder, clearer, almost closer.
You turned off the water quickly, your heart hammering in your chest. You stood there, motionless, listening, waiting for the sound to stop.
But it didnât.
And then a creak. Just slightly, but enough for you to hear.
You gasped, grabbing a towel and wrapping it around yourself as you backed away, your legs shaking. Your mind screamed at you to leave the bathroom, to get out of the apartment, but you couldnât move.
Then, before you could react, the door opened, just a crack.
There was nothing on the other side.
Just the empty hallway beyond.
But you knew. You knew it wasnât right.
You slammed the door shut and locked it immediately, your breath ragged. The air in the bathroom felt stifling now, the walls pressing in on you, the space shrinking.
Your hand trembled as you reached for your phone, desperate to call someone, anyone.
But the screen flickered as soon as you unlocked it. The text on the screen was warped, unreadable. You stared at it for a moment, your stomach dropping. Something wasnât right with your phone either.
A sharp, guttural whisper curled through the air, a voice so low you barely caught it.
The voice was so faint at first, you thought it was just a figment of your imagination, a trick your mind had played in the silence. But then it came again, clear and sharp, wrapping around your senses like a heavy fog.
âCome closer...â
It was soft, smooth, but there was an undeniable edge to itâlaced with something... something tempting.
You froze, the words swirling in your mind. It wasnât your own voice. It was deeper, resonating through you, the very air around you thick with a strange pull. Your chest tightened, and you felt something shift within you, an involuntary tug deep inside your stomach, urging you forward.
âJust one touch... just one kiss...â
The voice slithered, curling into your ear like a loverâs whisper, and something about it stirred the air around you. Your body was heating up, your skin prickling with a strange energy you couldn't explain.
You swallowed hard, your breath quickening as you stared at the mirror, trying to make sense of what was happening.
Thatâs when you felt itâan undeniable heat at your back.
It burned, searing through you like something alive, something that wanted you. Your breath hitched, and you spun around in a panic, expecting to see someone behind you, but the bathroom was empty, the space cold and silent.
But the heat didnât fade.
It lingered, crawling across your skin like a heavy presence, sending shivers up your spine. There was no one there, but the sensation of being watched was there. Your body tensed, the warmth spreading through your entire body now, suffocating you, as if someone was right there, pressed against you, whispering into your very soul.
âItâs just us nowâŠâ
You glanced into the mirror once more, and there it was againâthe figure. This time, it was clearer, its shadowy outline just behind you, impossibly close. The reflection wasnât yoursâit was someone else, standing so close that the hairs on your neck stood on end.
You gasped, heart pounding, but the figure didnât move, didnât make a sound. It simply stood.
The heat intensified, and the whisper grew louder, more insistent, as if it had taken root in your mind.
âCome to me... you know you want to...â
Your pulse raced. The pull in your chest was growing stronger now, as if your body was no longer your own, as if it was being drawn to something that wasnât just a dream anymore.
The room began to spin, and you had to grip the edge of the sink to steady yourself, feeling dizzy as the desire to obey, to give in, washed over you. But as you fought it, something else caught your eye in the mirrorâsomething that made your blood run cold.
A pair of glowing eyes pierced through the shadows, locked on you. And they were hungry.
You staggered back, heart slamming against your ribcage, and in the corner of your vision, you saw a fleeting glimpse of somethingâsomething moving, shifting in the dark.
No⊠You wanted to scream, to run, but your body wouldnât move. Your limbs felt like lead, and the heat had become unbearable, pressing into you, dragging you toward it.
With a strangled breath, you finally tore your gaze away from the mirror, blinking furiously to rid yourself of the image. But the voice didnât stop. It echoed inside your mind, growing louder.
âWeâre bound now... thereâs no going backâŠâ
You tried to pull away, tried to break free of the suffocating heat and the unbearable pressure, but you couldnât move. It was as if invisible hands were holding you in place. Your body, already trembling from the overwhelming sensations, was paralyzed as the touch slowly traveled up your arms.
It was light, ghostly, like fingertips grazing over your skinâsoft, but burning with a heat that sent a shiver down your spine. You couldnât stop it. You couldnât. The sensation slid up to your shoulders, your neck, curling around you.
The moment it brushed your throat, the pressure seemed to increase, suffocating you. The touch lingered there, just under your jawline, fingers gentle yet firm. And then, before you could think, before you could react, you felt something elseâlips.
A kiss.
But not from anyone you could see.
Your eyes snapped shut, your breath shallow as the kiss deepened, warm and intoxicating. It was urgent, burning, and wrong, but in a way that felt too good to resist. You tried to move, tried to pull back, but the invisible force held you in place, pushing you further into the kiss.
It was there, all around youâthis overwhelming feeling of being wanted, of being pulled into something. Your heart pounded painfully in your chest, fear and desire mingling into a sickening cocktail. The sensation of lips on yours, it felt alive, like the very essence of the kiss was drawing something from you.
A low, satisfied murmur vibrated against your lips, and something deep within you shivered.
No⊠stop, please⊠You tried to scream in your mind, but your body didnât obey. You couldnât pull away from it.
You were being pulled into it, held captive by something invisible, something that wasn't human. But what? What was kissing you, claiming you like this?
The answer felt just out of reach, like a whisper that barely brushed against your mind, too faint to grasp, too slippery to hold onto. The sensation of lipsâtoo warm, too aliveâpressed against yours again, and your strength began to wane. It was as if every breath you took was being drained, pulled out from you with each passing second. You felt weak, too weak to move, too weak to even think.
Your body, once full of fear, had gone completely limp, like a ragdoll strung up and held in place by an invisible force. The pressure around your throat tightened, suffocating, but you could do nothing to fight it. You couldnât scream. You couldnât even blinkâall your energy was consumed, sucked away by whatever was holding you captive, by the kiss that wasn't a kiss.
You could feel your mind slipping, like your thoughts were dissolving into the heat, into the darkness surrounding you. The invisible forceâwas it a presence? A shadow?âheld you in place, guiding you, manipulating you, as if you were a puppet and it was pulling your strings.
But still, the sensation of being claimed lingered, you tried to focus, tried to break free, but it was no use. Every attempt only made you feel smaller, more powerless, like you were losing yourself bit by bit.
Was this what it wanted?
Your body didnât feel like your own anymore. It felt... distant. Detached. Like you were a spectator in your own skin, watching as the thingâwhatever it wasâwove its tendrils around you.
Just as the world around you seemed to fade, a distant whisper echoed through the fog of your mind:
"Mine now."
The words wrapped around you like a heavy chain, pulling tighter and tighter until you couldnât breathe, couldnât think, couldnât even feel the floor beneath you anymore.
You were slipping away, your body fading into nothingness, held together only by the force that had claimed you.
"Mine forever."
--
When you woke up, it wasnât like any other morning. You felt... tired. Groggy, and exhausted. As you stretched, you looked around the room, everything exactly as you left it, nothing unusual. It felt normal.
When you arrived at school, you couldnât focus. The lessons droned on, but your mind kept wandering. You couldn't shake the feeling from last night. There was a gnawing curiosity deep inside you, a need to know what had happened, to make sense of it. You couldnât just ignore itâyour body wasnât the same.
You pulled out your laptop in the middle of class, and you typed furiously. Your fingers flew over the keys, searching for any explanation that made sense, some kind of rational answer.
You found nothing but chaos.
The results were all over the place: demons, rituals, ghosts, whispers about curses and creatures from myths, things you thought only existed in horror stories. At first, you dismissed it. This canât be real, you told yourself. But the deeper you went, the more it all seemed... possible.
And then you found it.
Incubus demons.
Your stomach twisted as you read more. The descriptions, the encountersâeverything fit too perfectly. A demon, often seductive, one that could manipulate dreams, feed off your energy, entwine itself with you in the most intimate of ways. It would drain you slowly, filling you with warmth, with need, until it had you completely. Some even said an incubus could bind you to themâforever.
You felt a shiver creep down your spine. Was this what had happened to you? Could it be real? Could the thing you felt, the presence that had been with you, be an incubus?
The deeper you read, the more it made sense. The powerlessness, the way you felt unable to stop it, to resist. The hunger, the overwhelming desire. You couldnât imagine it. You couldn't dream it.
You were still lost in thought as the bell rang, signaling the end of class. You gathered your things mechanically, your mind still reeling from the unsettling information you had uncovered. The words about incubus demons echoed in your head, each sentence making you feel more and more trapped.
As you packed your bag, your hand brushed against something unfamiliar. A cold chill ran through you, and your stomach dropped. You froze for a second, staring at your bag with a creeping sense of dread. Slowly, you opened it, and your eyes widened.
The book.
The crimson-red book. The one you had thrown out the window, the one youâd left behindâit was here, in your bag.
Your heart hammered in your chest, your fingers trembling as you touched the book. It was impossible. How could it be here? You distinctly remembered tossing it out, watching it fall to the ground outside your window. Youâd even seen it land on the grassâit couldnât have just come back.
A deep sense of dread filled your chest as your fingers slowly curled around the cover. You could feel the pull of it again, that same suffocating desire that called to you, whispered to you.
You quickly closed the bag, as if hiding it would make it go away.
How... how was this possible?
Your mind raced, trying to piece it together, but there was no logical explanation. The book had been thrown out. It shouldnât be here.
And yet, it was.
You couldnât shake the feeling that you werenât in control anymore.
Something was toying with you.
You had just sat down in your next class, trying to focus, but your mind kept wandering. How was it possible? What was happening to you? You barely noticed when the seat beside you shifted, and someone sat down, pulling you out of your spiraling thoughts.
You turned your head instinctively, and your breath caught in your throat.
He was... stunning.
Tall, with sharp features and thick eyebrows that gave him an almost commanding presence. A few moles dotted his face, and his eyes were dark, almost mesmerizing, in a way which made your heart race in a way that felt unnatural.
But what really made your stomach flutter was the fact that youâd never seen him before.
Was he in this class?
You racked your brain, trying to recall if you had ever noticed him in the hallways or anywhere else on campus, but nothing came to mind.
He seemed to notice you staring at him, and a sly smile tugged at his lips. He leaned a bit closer, as if he didnât mind the attention at all, his voice smooth and confident when he spoke.
"Hey, you okay? You look like you've seen a ghost."
You blinked, caught off guard by the casualness of his tone. "Uh, yeah, I'm fine."
He chuckled softly, and you felt a strange sensation wash over you, like he was exactly where he was supposed to be. It was unsettling, but you couldn't quite pinpoint why.
"I'm Sunghoon. Park Sunghoon," he said, his smile widening slightly.
You blinked again, now fully aware of how close he was. "Oh, uh, nice to meet you."
You forced a smile, but your heart was beating too fast. There was something about him, something that felt offâbut also familiar.
Why did it feel like he already knew you?
The class went by as usual, the minutes dragging on in a haze. Sunghoon didn't speak much after you introducing yourself, but every now and then, you'd catch him glancing at you, his dark eyes glimmering with something you couldn't quite place. You tried to ignore the unease creeping up your spine and focused on the lesson.
By the time class ended, you were relieved to be able to leave. You needed some time to clear your head.
--
When you arrived at the library, you clocked in and slid behind the counter, but quickly growing bored, you leaned forward and opened the computer, deciding to look up something to distract you. You typed in "demon books," half expecting it to pull up some weird conspiracy theory, but to your surprise, a result popped up. There was a book, right there in the archivesâon demons.
Your curiosity flared. This was what you needed.
You grabbed a pen and jotted down the shelf number before heading to the stacks. When you arrived, your eyes searched the shelves, scanning for the number youâd written down. There it wasâjust out of reach. The book you wanted sat high on the shelf, taunting you. You stretched on your toes, reaching as far as you could, but it was no use. You could feel the frustration rising as you considered your options.
As you were about to give up and turn away, a hand shot up from behind you, effortlessly reaching the book and pulling it down.
You turned around, heart skipping a beat. There, standing just behind you, was Sunghoon. He held the book you had been struggling to get, his expression unreadable.
âNeed this?â he asked, his voice casual, almost too smooth.
You blinked, your breath catching in your throat. Something about the way he said that sent a strange shiver down your spine. It was as if he knew exactly what you were searching for, as if he had been waiting for you to look it up.
âThanks,â you said, taking the book from him, but your hand brushed against his for a moment longer than necessary. A jolt of electricity shot through you, and you quickly pulled your hand away, your face flushing.
âNo problem,â he replied smoothly, his eyes twinkling. âFigured you needed a little help.â
You watched him disappear into the rows of books, and the unease from earlier returned, settling deep into your bones.
--
You donât even realize what you've walked into, do you? Your deliciousness is like a siren's song, luring me in, and I am a lost soul, destined to follow. I've got you now, and I won't let you go. I'll devour every last piece of you, leaving no part untouched, for you're a feast that I'll savor forever.
Your beauty, it's like a spell, casting a shadow over my heart, and I want to take and take, until you give me everything, for I crave the taste of your soul, the essence of your being.
I think of your skin, smooth as silk, and how it feels under my touch. I imagine the taste of your lips, sweet like nectar, and how they'd satisfy my every craving. I envision your body, and how it yields to my every caress.
I'll trace the map of your body with my hands, my lips, and my heart, marking every inch as my own.
I'll feast on your lips, kiss by kiss, until my soul is satiated. I'll drink from the well of your desire, quench my thirst, and be nourished by your passion. I'll explore the depths of your pleasure, discover the peaks of your ecstasy.
And when I've had my fill, my sweet, I'll still want more. For you're an endless ocean, a bottomless pit of pleasure, and I can never quench my thirst. I'll always want to dive deeper, explore further, and discover more.
--
You stared at the book in your hands as you made your way back to the counter. And once you sat behind the counter, you placed the book down in front of you, the sound of the pages flipping echoing softly in the quiet library.
You opened the book, the musty scent of old pages filling your nose as you began flipping through it, scanning the words and images. Each page was filled with descriptions of various demons, their powers, their origins, and their terrifying abilities. But you kept your focus, searching for the section you had come here for.
Incubus demons.
When you finally reached the right section, your heart pounded in your chest. The words jumped off the page, unsettlingly familiar. It was like the book was confirming everything you had felt and the more you read, the clearer it became that this was no coincidence.
Incubi, it said, were demons who thrived on energyâspecifically life force. They were known to seduce their victims, using dreams, lust, and an overwhelming need for intimacy to drain them. They were powerful, manipulating their prey until they were completely drained, their energy absorbed by the demon.
But what caught your eye was the last part.
"Once an incubus claims someone, it forms a bondâone that cannot be easily broken. The victim becomes a vessel, their soul linked to the demonâs for eternity."
You froze, a cold shiver crawling down your spine. Eternity. Was that what had happened to you? Had you unknowingly made a pact with something otherworldly?
You could feel your pulse quicken as your mind raced. Had you been claimed by the demon? Was it already too late to turn back?
You closed the book abruptly, the sound of it thudding against the counter loudly. You couldnât breathe. Your stomach twisted, and for a brief moment, you thought you might collapse right there.
Just then, you heard a voice, soft but clear, cutting through the storm of thoughts in your head.
"Are you okay?"
You looked up, startled, and saw Sunghoon standing there, a stack of books in his hands. His eyes were searching your face, brows furrowed in concern.
"Uh... yeah, Iâm fine," you stammered, trying to act normal. But you could feel the flush creeping up your neck, the words of the book still fresh in your mind. You quickly gathered your composure and grabbed the books from him, trying to distract yourself from the overwhelming feelings swirling inside you.
You ran the books through the system, scanning the barcodes one by one, all the while acutely aware of how close Sunghoon was standing.
As you glanced down at the books, you couldn't help but notice the titlesâall of them were romance novels. It felt... strange. You glanced back at Sunghoon, trying to read his expression.
"Romance, huh?" you said, attempting to make small talk as you finished scanning the last one. "Didnât peg you for someone into these kinds of books."
He chuckled softly, a low, smooth sound that made your heart skip again. "Iâm not really. But, you know, sometimes it's good to pretend."
You blinked, unsure if you were reading too much into the comment. His smile didnât helpâhe always had that air of mystery, like he was saying something and nothing at the same time.
"Thanks for helping with the book earlier," you added, trying to steer the conversation back to something neutral. "I appreciate it."
He shrugged, grabbing the books from on the counter. "No problem. Just looking out for you."
The way he said it sent a chill down your spine. It felt like more than just a casual statement. Like he knew something you didnât. Something you didnât want to know.
You tried to push the feeling down. You had to stay focused. "Anything else you need?" you asked, attempting to keep things professional.
Sunghoon just smiled again, that strange glimmer in his eyes never fading. "For now, no," he said, his tone teasing. "But Iâll be around."
--
When your shift finally ended, the night had already settled in, the streets now cast in shadows. You clutched your bag tightly as you walked, each step feeling heavier than the last.
Eventually, you found yourself at the bridge, standing on the edge, the water below reflecting the lights.
You opened your bag, pulling out the crimson red book, the one you had tried so desperately to get rid of. As you held it, you could feel something radiating from itâa pull, tempting you to keep it, to keep following.
You shook, unable to tear your gaze away from the book, as if it were alive, trying to draw you into its dark power. What had happened to you? What had you gotten yourself into?
A cold sweat broke out along your spine, and for a moment, you thought you might lose control. With trembling hands, you lifted the book to toss it into the water, ready to rid yourself of it once and for all.
But just as you were about to throw it off the bridge, you heard a voice behind you, low and rough.
"Hey," the voice called out, sending a shiver down your spine.
You froze, heart pounding in your chest. Slowly, you turned around.
Standing there was a manâa stranger. His features were sharp, his eyes narrowed in a way that made your stomach turn. There was something off about him, something unsettling in the way he watched you. His gaze was degrading, as if he had already sized you up.
"What's a pretty thing like you doing out here alone?" he asked, his voice slithering through the air.
You instinctively took a step back, clutching the book tighter in your hands, there was no mistaking the way his eyes lingered on you, his stare lingering a little too long.
His lips twisted into a grin, and it made your blood run cold. "You don't look like you're in a hurry to leave."
His tone, that smileâeverything about him screamed danger, your heart thudded loudly in your chest as you fought the urge to run, but your feet felt rooted to the spot.
Your breath caught in your throat as the man took a step toward you, his hand reaching out with an unsettling determination. This was it. He was going toâ
Suddenly, there was a sharp thud, and the man was thrown backward, crashing to the ground with a pained grunt.
You gasped, startled, and watched in disbelief as a familiar figure stepped besides you.
Sunghoon.
Without hesitation, he lunged at the man, throwing a fist that landed with a sickening crack against the strangerâs face. The man tried to scramble to his feet, but Sunghoon was relentless, his fists moving with precision, each punch landing harder than the last. You could hear the force of each strike, the sound of flesh hitting bone. The man barely had a chance to defend himself, crumpling beneath the force of Sunghoonâs blows.
You couldnât tear your eyes away, transfixed by the brutal scene before you. There was something terrifyingly powerful about Sunghoon right now, his movements were swift and calculated, as if he were punishing the man for something more than just the assault on you.
Your hands shook as you held the book tighter to your chest, you didnât know why, but it felt like it was alive, pulsing in your grip.
The book was vibrating, faintly at first, but then stronger, almost as though it was purring, responding to the violence â to you.
You ignored it, trying to focus on what was happening in front of you. Sunghoon wasnât stopping, his anger mounting with each punch.
The man on the ground groaned, clearly dazed, unable to defend himself. Finally, Sunghoon stopped, standing over the man, his breath coming in heavy, measured gasps.
"You shouldnât have done that," Sunghoon said, his voice low and dangerous, his gaze unwavering. He turned to look at you, eyes locking with yours.
You were still frozen, your heart pounding in your chest, and you couldnât make sense of it all. The way Sunghoon was acting, the way he looked at youâit was like he wasnât the same person youâd met in the library. This was someone else.
"Are you okay?" he asked, voice softer now, though there was still a sharpness to it.
You nodded, though your voice felt stuck in your throat. You couldnât even find the words to thank him, or to ask why heâd come out of nowhere to help you. Why was he here?
Sunghoon glanced down at the man on the ground, his expression unreadable, before he turned to you again, taking a step closer.
"Youâre safe now," he said, his voice more comforting this time, though the intensity never fully left his gaze.
Your hands trembled as you clutched the book tighter, trying to shake off the strange feeling it was giving you.
Sunghoonâs gaze lingered on you for a moment longer, his eyes scanning you before he helped you steady yourself.
âYouâre okay,â he repeated, his tone lighter, he glanced at the book in your hands, and that smile of his grew, just slightly, as if pleased.
He led you away from the bridge, the cool night air now feeling heavy around you. His presence beside you was comforting, but at the same time, you couldnât ignore the sense that he was guiding you in more ways than one.
You looked up at him, and he caught your gaze, his smile widening ever so slightly. "Seems like youâve taken quite the interest in that," he said, his voice soft but with an edge you couldnât quite place. "Youâre holding it tightly."
Your fingers ached as you continued to clutch the book to your chest, your heart still hammering from the encounter. You nodded, not trusting yourself to speak, too overwhelmed by everything that had happened.
"You shouldnât have to worry anymore," he said, his voice lowering. âYouâre safe now.â
Then why did something not feel right? Sunghoon was far too calm, too understanding. As if he already knew everythingâeverything that had been happening to you.
The way he looked at you, like he was watching, waiting for something.
And for the first time, you realized something that made your stomach twist in unease.
He wasnât just helping you.
He was guiding you.
--
The moment you stepped through the door of your apartment, you immediately noticed it. The book was still pressed against your chest, and for the first time, it felt almost suffocating. You hadnât even realized how tightly you had been holding onto it the entire timeâyour knuckles white. It was like it had become a part of you, and that realization twisted something deep within your gut.
You couldn't stand it anymore.
Without even thinking, you hurled the book against the wall, your heart racing as the impact caused it to thud loudly, the book sliding to the floor. The sound echoed in the quiet apartment, and you could feel your breath catch in your throat, as if your body had finally caught up to the chaos inside your mind.
For a moment, there was silence. The book lay on the floor, the cover staring up at you, as if mocking your decision. But you were too exhausted to care anymore. Too worn out by everything that had happened.
You stumbled fowards, your legs giving way, and before you knew it, you were sinking onto the couch. Your mind was foggy, too tired to think. Your body ached, your head pounded, but the exhaustion was overpowering. The last thing you saw before your eyes fluttered shut was the book, sitting on the floor.
And the only thing you could think of as you drifted off was how you felt that it wasnât done with you yet.
--
You felt so... relaxed? It was like your body was weightless, wrapped in warmth and comfort. The air was thick, almost too hot, and the bed beneath you felt too soft, like sinking into a cloud. You opened your eyes slowly, blinking at the unfamiliar ceiling above you. A grand queen-sized bed stretched out beneath you, luxurious sheets tangled around your legs.
Your head was still foggy, like you were waking from a deep, dreamless sleep. But the discomfort of the heat around you was immediate, and you instinctively pushed the covers away, trying to breathe through the thick air.
Thatâs when you felt it.
A weight on your body, pressing down, holding you where you lay. Your breath hitched as the sensation of someoneâs lipsâwarm, urgentâpressed against yours. The shock of it made your chest tighten, and you gasped, eyes wide as you tried to push the figure off of you, only to find you couldnât move.
A voice, soft but laced with something darker, echoed in your mind, almost like a whisper, âGive in.â
Your body stiffened, the words familiar yet chilling. The lips on yours were insistent, coaxing you into submission. You couldn't understandâhow did you get here? Why was everything so warm? And why did you feel this strange pull?
The kiss deepened as your breath quickened, and the moment your hands tried to reach above you, they tightened their grip. You couldnât move. You couldnât think.
You wanted to push away. You wanted to scream. But you couldnât. You were trapped in this sensation, helpless.
You felt so good. So pleasant. Every part of you hummed with a warmth, an overwhelming comfort, like sinking into the softest dream. But with it came an exhaustion, a draining weariness you couldn't fight.
As the lips moved from your mouth down to your jaw, trailing soft, slow kisses, you felt your body go limp beneath them. You tried to stay alert, to keep your mind sharp, but the sensation was too much. The warmth, the pleasure, it was like it was melting you from the inside out. Your energy, your strength, seemed to vanish with every kiss, every press of lips against your sensitive skin. You couldn't fight it. It felt too good.
A small gasp escaped your lips as they moved lower, their touch leaving a trail of warmth on your neck, then your collarbone. The sensation was both soothing and dizzying, like you were drifting between wakefulness and sleep. You felt so tired, but the pleasure pulling you under kept you from fully giving in.
Your heartbeat thudded in your ears, quickening with each new kiss, each lingering touch. The sound of your breath was louder than the rest of the world, but even that was fading. You could barely hold onto your thoughts, the desire to move, to push, slipped further and further away.
And then you realizedâthere was nothing you could do. You didnât want to.
You felt something deep inside you stir, a craving, a hunger that matched the pull of the lips against your skin. You were being drained, yes, but it also felt like it was what you needed.
You closed your eyes, surrendering to it. You let your body go, let the exhaustion wash over you, let yourself fall into the warmth of the kiss. You didnât even care where it was leading anymore.
You felt your body give in completely as the lips on your neck paused, lingering there, and you could hear the soft hum of approval, a low sound of satisfaction. And just like that, it was too late to resist.
As you surrendered to the moment, the hands, ever so gently, pushed your shirt up, exposing more of your skin, as the heat in the room seemed to rise.
The lips, now free to explore, trailed kisses down your stomach, his tongue teasing the sensitive skin there. His hands slid down to your waist, he squeezed gently, pulling you closer, and you felt his body press against yours.
You didnât want to fight it anymore. Your body was giving in, responding to him, reacting in ways you couldn't fully comprehend. It was as though you were caught in a web, leaving you breathless and wanting more.
His lips moved from your neck, tracing the sensitive line of your jaw before they found your lips again, kissing you. The kiss was hungry now, deeper. You felt his hands tighten around you, as though he couldnât get close enough, as though you were the only thing that mattered in that moment.
And somehow, it felt... right.
You felt so hazy, your mind clouded by a warm, soothing fog that made it impossible to think clearly. Everything was blurred, all thoughts slipping through your fingers like sand. The weight of your body felt distant, like you were floating. You couldnât move your limbs, couldnât even feel them anymore.
The only thing you could focus on was the feeling of the lips that pressed gently against yours, warm and insistent. Every time they left, it felt like you were waiting, craving the return of that contact. And when they did, you kissed them back instinctively, your lips parting slightly to welcome them.
"Let go," it murmured softly, the sound of it like silk against your mind. "Enjoy this. Let the pleasure take over. You deserve it."
You shivered, feeling the warmth of the words settle deep inside you, pushing aside any lingering doubts, any hesitation. The voice continued, coaxing you, convincing you that this feeling, this moment, was all that mattered. That you didnât need to resist, that you could simply surrender and feel everything without fear.
There was no fight left in you, and for the first time in what felt like forever, you felt completely at peace. You didnât have to think, you didnât have to worryâ just the feeling of being taken care of, loved, and wanted.
You closed your eyes, lost in the comfort, the warmth, and the voice that guided you deeper into the haze.
--
You woke up suddenly, your mind heavy, still clouded in a haze, and found yourself lying on the couch. You blinked, trying to shake off the fog, and as you looked around, everything seemed perfectly normal.
One thing wasn't normal, though. It was the warmth, the sticky, almost suffocating heat clinging to your skin, like honey trapping you in its sweetness. The sensation was odd, and it was paired with an exhaustion that weighed you down, a tiredness so deep you could barely keep your eyes open.
You managed to sit up and push yourself to your feet, dragging yourself to the bathroom, needing to see your reflection, needing to understand what was happening. The mirror greeted you with an unexpected shock.
Your neck and collarbone were covered in marksâdeep, almost bruised-looking impressions, some faint, others dark, like someone had pressed their lips into your skin too hard, leaving their mark. You barely recognized the face staring back at you. Your cheeks were flushed, the kind of flush youâd never get from just a long day, and your eyes looked distant.
You kept staring at your reflection, eyes wide in disbelief, and slowly pulled your shirt off, but what greeted you beneath your clothes made your breath catch in your throat.
Handprints. Dark, unmistakable imprints stretched across your waist, your hips, and even down to your thighs. It was like someone had gripped you there with force, leaving their mark on your skin, as if they couldnât resist claiming every part of you.
You stood there, frozen, trying to make sense of what you were seeing. The more you looked, the more it seemed to confirm your theory.
An incubus had done this.
But the memories were murky, like a dream fading in the light of day. You couldn't remember the specifics, but the evidence was undeniable.
You were cursed.
The thought sent a shiver through your body. There was no other explanation. It was all pointing to something beyond your control, something that wanted you, that had claimed you.
But what did it want from you? Why you?
The mirror reflected your confusion, your unease, and your disbelief. Your hand instinctively reached up to touch the marks, your fingers brushing lightly over your skin. Each touch sent a wave of heat through you, a reminder that something was still there, still affecting you, even when you had no idea what was really going on.
--
Days passed in a strange blur after that. Each time you tried to focus, tried to pull yourself together, the exhaustion dragged you down further. You couldnât remember when it had started, when your body began to feel like it was no longer your own, but it was now a part of your reality. Every night, youâd find yourself drifting off to sleep, only to wake up once again in that grand bed, under the same warmth, your body burning.
The familiar sensation of lips on yours, the heat of his handsâeach kiss drained you, leaving you weak and confused. It felt as though the very life force was being sucked out of you, but you were too tired to resist. Too tired to care. The next morning, you would wake up again, just as exhausted, with the marks on your skin deepening, the imprint of his touch still there. You tried to push through the haze, but it felt like you were walking through quicksand.
And then there was Sunghoon.
He was there for you in ways you couldnât explain. It started smallâoffering to walk you to class, making sure you ate something, checking in on you when you seemed too tired to function. You didnât fight it. You were too exhausted to.
You would often find yourself slumped at the counter, fighting to keep your eyes open, and there he was, showing up with something to drink or a comforting word, offering you a brief respite from the overwhelming fatigue that seemed to cling to your every movement. You didnât realize at first that you were relying on him, leaning on him without question.
But Sunghoon didnât mind. In fact, he thrived in this new dynamic, in your dependence on him. He reveled in the way youâd look to him for comfort, for answers, for protection. You didnât know how much it fed into his desires, how much he enjoyed being the one to offer you care, to have you rely on him completely.
And you? You were too tired to notice. Too lost in the fog of exhaustion, the haze of what was happening to you.
But.. the more time you spent with Sunghoon, the more you began to notice the oddities that youâd once brushed off. He was always there, always watching, always making sure you were okay. But something about him felt... off. It wasnât just his constant attentionâit was the way he seemed to know exactly what you needed, before you even asked for it. It was the way his gaze lingered on you just a little too long, his smile a little too knowing, like he was seeing something in you that no one else did.
Then, there was the issue with his past. Sunghoon never spoke about it. When you asked about his family or where he grew up, his answers were vague, brushing off the topic with a quick change of subject. No traces of a life outside of the moments he spent with you.
It didnât make sense. You had seen him around campus, so you knew he wasnât a complete ghost. But there were no photos, no friends tagging him on social media, no history to trace. He was just... there. As if he had stepped out of nowhere and appeared in your life, and now he was all you could focus on.
Something about him felt wrong, and the pieces were starting to fall into place. But you couldnât stop yourself from leaning on him, allowing him to take care of you. You didnât know what to think anymore, especially since you were so tired, so lost in the fog of exhaustion that you couldnât tell if your thoughts were your own or if they were being influenced by something else.
So, you decided to test your theoryâto see what would happen if you suddenly started ignoring him. It wasnât easy. Sunghoon always seemed to find a way to be around you, whether it was sitting next to you in class or showing up at the library while you worked. But you were determined. You stopped texting him back, avoided his gaze, and made excuses to leave whenever he tried to engage you in conversation.
At first, he didnât seem bothered by it. He would simply smile when you dodged him, as if he already knew why you were doing it. That unnerved you more than anything else. It was like he could see right through you, like he knew your thoughts before you did.
But as the days went on, his demeanor started to shift. His smiles became tighter, his gaze colder, and the once-comforting presence he exuded started to feel suffocating. He wasnât following you outright, but every time you turned a corner, youâd catch him in your peripheral visionâleaning against a wall, walking just a few steps behind you, always near enough to remind you that he was there.
One night, after a particularly long shift at the library, you came home and collapsed onto your couch, exhaustion washing over you. The moment you closed your eyes, you found yourself back in that bed again.
But this time, there was a whisper. A deep, seductive voice you hadnât heard before.
"You canât ignore me forever."
Your eyes snapped open, your heart pounding. You were back on your couch, drenched in sweat, and your hands were trembling. You instinctively gripped the edge of the couch as you tried to ground yourself, but the tremor in your fingers betrayed how shaken you really were. The room was quietâtoo quiet. It felt as though something was watching you, just out of sight.
Your gaze darted toward the windows, scanning for any sign of movement, but the curtains were still drawn shut. Slowly, you reached for your phone on the coffee table, wanting the comfort of a light, a distractionâanything. As the screen lit up, you noticed the time. 3:03 a.m.
And then you saw it.
A single notification. It wasnât from anyone in your contacts, just an unknown number. You hesitated before opening it, dread settling in your stomach like a lead weight. The message read:
"Stop running."
You dropped the phone as though it had burned you, the clatter breaking the suffocating silence. Your breaths came shallow and quick as you stared at the device, afraid it would light up again.
No. This had to stop.
You pushed yourself off the couch and stumbled to the bathroom, your legs weak beneath you. Splashing cold water on your face, you tried to steady your breathing.
You gripped the edge of the sink, your knuckles turning white as you leaned forward, staring at your pale reflection in the mirror. Your breaths came shallow and uneven as you tried to process everything.
It didnât make senseânone of it did. But your thoughts kept circling back to Sunghoon. His perfect timing, his uncanny presence, the way he seemed to know more than he let on.
Your throat felt dry as you swallowed hard, forcing yourself to say it.
âSunghoon?â
The sound of his name echoed faintly in the small bathroom. You waited, holding your breath, your heart pounding louder and louder in your chest. Nothing happened.
For a moment, you felt ridiculous, like you were spiraling into paranoia. You let out a shaky exhale and closed your eyes, trying to collect yourself. But then, just as you started to relax, you felt it.
A heat began to radiate behind you, warm and heavy, pressing against your back like a presence. The air shifted, and before you could react, a soft whisper brushed against your ear.
âDid you miss me?â
Your eyes snapped open, wide with terror, as you froze in place. The mirror reflected nothing behind you, but the heat remained, and the voice lingered, teasingly low and intimate.
âY-youâre not real,â you stammered, gripping the sink tighter, refusing to turn around.
The voice chuckled, soft and amused. âOh, but I am. You called me, didnât you? Thinking of me? Dreaming of me?â
A shiver ran down your spine as the warmth seemed to creep closer, pressing against you like an invisible embrace. You gasped, your knees threatening to buckle under the weight of whatever was behind you.
âI-I wasnâtââ
âLiar,â the voice interrupted, a trace of playfulness in its tone. âYouâve been looking for answers, havenât you?â
You felt something brush against your shoulder, light as a feather but enough to make your skin tingle. Your breathing quickened as the sensation spread, leaving you dizzy and disoriented.
âStop,â you whispered, your voice shaking.
But the voice only hummed in response, low and pleased. âYou canât run from me. Youâve known that all along.â
âI never wanted this!â you shouted, your voice trembling but firm, defiance breaking through your fear. âI didnât ask for any of this!â
The air around you grew colder, and suddenly a handâa firm, invisible gripâwrapped around your throat. You gasped, your hands flying up instinctively to claw at nothing.
âOh, but you did,â the voice purred, smooth and dark, vibrating through the room. The grip on your throat tightened just enough to make your pulse race, but not enough to harm you. It was a warning.
âYou put this on yourself the moment you read the words in that book,â the voice hissed, hot breath fanning over your ear. âQui me legit, fiat noster ligamen aeternum. Do you even know what that means?â
You shook your head frantically, tears pricking at your eyes as you struggled against the phantom hand holding you in place. The voice chuckled, low and condescending.
âIt means, âWho reads me, let our bond be eternal.â You invited me in.â
Your breath hitched as the words hit you like a punch to the gut. The book. The book in the basement. The words you read aloud.
âThatâs not possible,â you whispered, your voice cracking. âItâs just a stupid book. Itâit canât be real!â
The laughter that followed was sharp, almost mocking. âOh, itâs very real. And now, so am I.â
In the mirror, the reflection began to change. The shadow behind you shifted, growing more defined, more solid. Your eyes widened in horror as the silhouette morphed, taking shape, and thenâ
There he was.
Sunghoon.
Your heart stopped. You couldnât believe it, but there was no mistaking him. The sharp jawline, the intense gaze, the faint smirk curling his lips. It was him.
Sunghoon stood behind you, his hand still firmly around your throat, his touch searing and impossible to ignore. His other hand came to rest lightly on your waist, and you shivered under the weight.
âSurprise,â he murmured, his voice dripping with amusement as his eyes locked with yours in the mirror.
âNo,â you whispered, shaking your head, panic rising in your chest. âThisâ youâre notââ
âNot what?â Sunghoon interrupted, tilting his head as he leaned in closer, his lips brushing against the shell of your ear. âNot human? Not the man whoâs been taking care of you? Or not the one whoâs been in your dreams, night after night?â
You couldnât speak. Couldnât move. The pieces were falling into place, but they painted a picture you didnât want to see.
âYou were so lonely,â Sunghoon continued, his voice softer now, almost tender. âSo desperate for someone to understand you. And I came to you, didnât I? Gave you exactly what you needed.â
His hand on your waist tightened slightly, his grip on your throat loosening just enough for you to take a shaky breath.
âBut youâre scared now. Why?â he asked, his tone almost teasing, as if he already knew the answer. âYouâve enjoyed this, havenât you? The attention, the way Iâve made you feel.â
âNo,â you choked out, your voice barely above a whisper. âYou tricked me. This isnât what I wanted.â
Sunghoonâs smirk widened, his reflection in the mirror impossibly calm, his eyes glinting with something dark and dangerous.
âYou can lie to yourself all you want,â he said, his tone almost pitying. âBut you canât lie to me.â
âWeâre bound now, you and I,â he whispered, his voice soft but laced with finality. âYou canât run from me. You canât hide. And deep down, you donât want to.â
You stared at him in the mirror, your chest heaving, your mind screaming for you to fight back, to do something, anything. But your body betrayed you, frozen in place as Sunghoonâs reflection smiled, dark and triumphant.
His grip tightened around your arms as he suddenly spun you around effortlessly, your back slamming against the cold countertop. A sharp gasp escaped your lips as the impact sent a jolt through your body, and you found yourself face to face with him.
Only... it wasnât entirely him.
Your breath hitched, eyes widening as you took in his appearance. Sunghoon was still the sameâhis sharp features, his impossibly handsome faceâbut now, his true form was on full display.
Two curved, jet-black horns protruded from his head, his ears were pointed, inhumanly sharp, twitching slightly as though attuned to every sound you made. A pair of massive, leathery wings stretched out behind him. His skin held a faint reddish tint now, and his eyes...
They werenât what youâd grown accustomed to.
They were blood-red, burning with an intensity that made your knees weak.
As your gaze traveled lower, you caught sight of a sleek black tail swishing behind him, the pointed tip moving back and forth like a serpent poised to strike.
âLike what you see?â Sunghoon asked, his voice low and smooth, laced with amusement.
You couldnât answer. Your lips parted, but no sound came out as you stared up at him, utterly frozen. He leaned in closer, the heat radiating from him making it even harder to think, to breathe.
âYou shouldâve known,â he murmured, his voice sending a shiver down your spine. âYou shouldâve felt it. Iâve been hiding in plain sight this whole time, waiting for you to figure it out.â
âSunghoon...â you finally managed to whisper, your voice trembling as you tried to push him away, but your arms felt like they were moving through waterâslow, weak, powerless.
He chuckled, a deep, resonant sound that sent heat flooding through your chest. âStill clinging to the illusion, huh? Poor thing.â
His hand came up to cup your face, his thumb brushing over your cheek with an almost tender touch.
âThis is the real me,â he said softly, his voice dripping with dangerous charm. âAnd now that youâve seen it, thereâs no going back.â His wings shifted slightly behind him, the sound making your stomach twist in unease. His tail flicked once, curling against your leg in a way that made your skin crawlâand, to your shame, sent a strange warmth pooling in your chest.
âYouâre lying,â you said weakly, your voice barely audible. âThis isnât happening...â
Sunghoon tilted his head, his expression softening just enough to make it even more unsettling. âLying?â he repeated, his voice almost offended. âSweet thing, everything Iâve done has been the truth. You just didnât want to see it.â
He leaned in, his lips hovering just above yours, his red eyes locking onto yours with a hypnotic intensity. âBut now you canât ignore it, can you? You canât ignore me.â
You gasped, your body trembling as his tail coiled tighter around your leg, holding you in place. âYou belong to me now,â Sunghoon whispered, his voice final. âAnd nothing will change that.â
You clenched your eyes shut, your entire body trembling as you willed it all to disappear. You thought maybeâjust maybeâif you denied it long enough, it would go away. That he would go away.
But it didnât work.
Instead, you heard his low, amused chuckle. The sound was rich and dark, crawling into your ears and embedding itself into your mind.
âYou canât escape me,â he murmured. And before you could protest, his lips crashed against yours, stealing your breath and overwhelming your senses.
The kiss was searing, a fire that burned its way through your body and left you paralyzed. It wasnât soft or carefulâit was commanding, leaving no room for resistance.
Sunghoon...
Sunghoon was an incubus.
Your mind screamed at you to push him away, to fight, but your body wouldnât listen. The warmth from his lips spread through you like molten lava, making you weak, making you feel... good. Too good.
You tried to turn your head, to break the connection, but his hand gripped your jaw firmly, holding you in place as he deepened the kiss. His lips moved against yours with a skill that made your knees feel like jelly, and the heat radiating off him felt almost suffocating.
When he finally pulled back, your head spun, your breaths shallow and uneven. His glowing red eyes locked onto yours, and you could see the satisfaction etched across his face.
âSee?â he purred, his voice dripping with confidence. âYouâre not resisting me.â
You shook your head weakly, trying to deny it. âYouâre not... I wonât...â you stammered, but even as the words left your lips, they sounded hollow.
Sunghoon leaned down again, his lips brushing against your ear as he whispered, âYou already gave yourself to me the moment you opened that book.â
Tears pricked the corners of your eyes as you struggled to comprehend his words. Youâd read the words without understanding what they meant, unknowingly binding yourself to him.
âYou belong to me now,â he said, his voice soft but firm, his hand trailing down to rest on your waist. âNo running. No escaping.â
His tail flicked lazily at his side, as if he were toying with you, enjoying your fear and confusion.
âIâll take care of you,â Sunghoon continued, his tone shifting to something almost... tender. âYou wonât need anyone else. You wonât want anyone else.â
You clenched your fists, trying to fight against the pull he had on you, the way his words seemed to seep into your mind like poison.
âWhat do you want from me?â you finally managed to ask, your voice barely above a whisper.
âI already have what I want,â he said simply, his hand tilting your chin up so you couldnât look away. âYou.â
His hand slid up to your throat again, his grip firm but not enough to hurtâjust enough to remind you who was in control. You gasped, your heart pounding in your chest as he leaned in, and before you could think or protest, his lips captured yours again.
This time, the kiss was more intense. It was intoxicating, a dizzying, heady sensation that left you feeling drunk and high at the same time, though there wasnât a hint of nausea.
Instead, you felt consumed, like your body and mind were being submerged in a warm ocean. His lips moved against yours with a hunger that left you breathless.
Your hands gripped the edge of the bathroom counter behind you, trying to ground yourself, but the heat only grew. It curled in your stomach, spread up your spine, and flooded every corner of your being.
Sunghoonâs lips left yours only briefly, his breath hot against your skin as he kissed down your jaw, tracing a path to the sensitive spot just beneath your ear. âYou feel it, donât you?â he murmured, his voice low and teasing.
You couldnât respond, your head spinning, your body trembling. Every word he spoke seemed to sink into your skin, fusing with your very being.
He chuckled softly, his lips brushing over your ear. âNo one else can make you feel like this. No one else can take care of you like I can.â
When he finally pulled back, his red eyes burned into yours, glowing with satisfaction.
âSay it,â he said softly, his thumb brushing over your pulse. âSay youâre mine.â
You hesitated, your lips parting, but no words came out. Your mind was a swirling mess of emotions, torn between the primal pull he had over you and the small flicker of defiance still burning in your chest.
Sunghoon leaned closer, his smirk returning as he tilted your chin up slightly. âItâs okay,â he whispered. âYouâll say it soon enough.â
With that, he released you, stepping back just enough to let you breathe, though the heat still clung to your skin like a second layer. Your knees felt weak, your body trembling, and you gripped the counter to keep from collapsing.
âRest for now,â he said, his tone almost affectionate. âWeâll see each other again soon.â
And with a flick of his tail and a low hum of satisfaction, he vanished, leaving you alone in the dimly lit bathroom, your body still warm and your mind reeling from what had just happened.
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It didnât take long for you to realize that Sunghoonâs persistence wasnât just some fleeting infatuationâit was something far deeper. When an incubus claimed a human, it seemed, their desire turned into a relentless obsession. Sunghoon took every opportunity to have you, to pull you into the haze of his presence, leaving you breathless and weak in his wake.
In the library, you were shelving books in the far corner, but then, you felt itâthe familiar warmth crawling up your spine. Before you could turn, his hands were on your waist, spinning you around and pressing you against the shelf.
âSunghoonââ you started, but your words were cut off as his lips crashed against yours, desperate and hungry.
The books nearly toppled from the shelf as his body pinned you in place. His hands slid down to your thighs, gripping them tightly before lifting you up effortlessly, your back pressed to the shelf. His kisses left you dizzy, your hands clinging to his shoulders for balance as his lips trailed down your jaw, his voice low murmurs.
When he finally pulled back, you were breathless, your body trembling. He smiled, his red eyes glowing faintly. âCouldnât help myself,â he whispered, his voice thick with desire.
In the kitchen, you thought youâd have a moment of peace as you cooked dinner, but of course, he appeared again.
You didnât even hear him approach before his hands were on your waist, lifting you effortlessly onto the counter.
âSunghoon!â you protested, but your voice wavered as his lips found yours, silencing any resistance.
His hands gripped your thighs, spreading them slightly as he stood between them, his kisses consuming. The heat of the stove was nothing compared to the fire he ignited in you with every touch.
âYou taste better than anything youâre cooking,â he teased against your lips, as you shivered under his touch.
Even in class, he couldnât seem to keep his hands off you. At first, it was subtleâa hand resting on your thigh under the desk. But his touch was anything but innocent. His fingers pressed into your skin, his grip firm enough to leave an imprint through the fabric of your jeans.
One day, you made the mistake of wearing a skirt to class. His reaction was immediate.
His eyes darkened the moment he saw you, his gaze lingering on your legs with a hunger. The skirt seemed to drive him wild, and he didnât bother to hide the want in his eyes as he took the seat beside you.
During the lecture, his hand found its way to your thigh again, his fingers tracing slow, deliberate circles on your bare skin. Every touch sent shivers up your spine, your pulse quickening as his grip tightened slightly, his thumb brushing dangerously close to the hem of your skirt.
âYou wore this for me, didnât you?â he whispered, his voice low and teasing.
You didnât answer, your face burning as you tried to focus on the professorâs voice. But Sunghoon wasnât letting you off so easily. His hand slid higher, just enough to make you squirm in your seat.
By the end of class, you were a mess, your legs trembling as you tried to stand. Sunghoon, of course, looked perfectly composed.
But one event made you realize just how far Sunghoon's obsession had gone happened unexpectedly.
You had just finished getting ready, dressed to go out to the club, your outfit on point, and your makeup perfectly done. You were about to put on some music for the drive when suddenly, you heard a soft hum from behind you.
The sound was so familiar, so calming that you couldnât help but pause. The familiar haze crept in, clouding your thoughts. Before you could even process what was happening, you felt a shift in your surroundings. The next thing you knew, you were no longer sitting in the front seat of your car but instead found yourself in the backseat, sitting on Sunghoon's lap.
âYou going somewhere?â he asked, his voice smooth, leaning back, his eyes filled with contentment. He seemed to be enjoying the view of you on his lap, your body pressed against his, all dressed up.
You were about to move off, muttering to yourself about how utterly stupid this situation was.
However, before you could push him away, Sunghoon's hands went around your hips. He pulled you closer, his body pressing into yours, and then, with a sudden thrust, he lifted you off his lap.
The movement was unexpected, and it caught you off guard. You let out a surprised squeal as you found yourself being moved to lay down on the backseat. Sunghoon hovered over you, his body pressing down on yours, his eyes filled with a fiery passion.
You were on the brink of speaking, your mind filled with thoughts you wanted to express, when suddenly, Sunghoon's lips crashed down on yours, silencing your words in an instant.
His lips, soft yet demanding, devoured yours, a perfect blend of tenderness and dominance. Sunghoon groaned into the kiss, a deep, raw sound that reverberated through your core. His hands found their way to your waist, his fingers digging into your skin. And as his kiss deepened, you felt him wrap your legs around his hips. You could feel the heat of his body, the solidness of his muscles, and the intensity.
You felt a sudden urge to pull away, to regain some sense of control and composure. With a gentle push, you tried to create some distance between you and Sunghoon. But Sunghoon, ever attuned to your every move, wasnât about to let you escape so easily. As you tried to shift, reaching for the car door, his hands swiftly grabbed your waist, his strong arms pulling you closer. His chest pressed against your back, and you turned your head, your breath quickening as Sunghoon leaned over, his face now inches from yours.
His voice, soft and teasing, broke through your thoughts. âWhere do you think youâre going?â he asked, his tone low, almost playful.
You couldnât find the words to answer, but you could feel the heat rising between you.
Sunghoon, sensing your hesitation, nuzzled his face against your neck, his breath warm against your skin. The soft touch of his lips traced a path along your neck, sending a jolt of warmth through you. You shivered at the sensation, unable to stop the flutter in your chest.
"Sunghoon..." you breathed, trying to push him away again, but his hands tightened around your waist. He didnât let you move, holding you there.
He chuckled softly, his lips brushing against your skin as he spoke. âYou want me to slow down?â he teased, his voice amused.
You swallowed hard, feeling the heat between you both. The car, once cool, now felt stifling, the air thick. You glanced over at the windows, noticing that the glass had fogged up, the condensation creeping in.
A soft sigh escaped your lips as you tried to focus, but it was hard with him so near, his breath warm against your neck. You could feel him pressed against your back, his hands still holding you close.
âSunghoon,â you whispered again, your voice barely a breath, caught between uncertainty and desire. You shifted slightly, trying to pull away, but he gently tugged you back, his lips hovering just above your ear.
âWhy resist?â His voice was soft, almost a whisper, but there was an edge to it, a quiet demand. His lips brushed against your earlobe, sending another shiver down your spine. âWe both know you donât want to.â
The fog on the windows seemed to grow thicker, the air growing warmer with every passing second, as if the space between you was becoming smaller.
You didnât answer him right away, just closing your eyes for a brief moment, trying to clear your mind.
But Sunghoon's voice broke the silence as he gazed at you. "You look perfect," he said, his eyes roving over your body, taking in every detail. "So delectable, it's as if you're offering yourself on a silver platter."
His hands, which had been resting on your waist, slowly slid downwards, tracing the curves of your hips with a gentle touch.
"I want to ruin your makeup," he said, his voice low. "I want to mark you as mine, to leave my touch on you."
His hands, which had been gently caressing your body, suddenly tightened around your hips. With a swift movement, he flipped you over, and you found yourself lying on your back, staring up at him with surprise.
"I want to look at you," he said, his voice low and intense. "I want to see your beautiful face, your eyes, your lips, as I kiss you."
His lips, soft yet demanding, pressed against yours, a perfect show of passion. His hands roamed freely, tracing the curves of your body. He cupped your face, his thumbs brushing against your cheeks, a gentle caress that sent a rush of pleasure through your body.
Guess this is what happens when you get claimed by an incubus in love.
a/n: well.. i have no other words. this had been sitting in my drafts for awhile so, yeah :)
warnings: swearing, descriptions/depictions of physical violence, blood and minor injuries, jealousy, a bit of a love triangle Iâm SORRY, blonde boxer jungwon because yes I think that does warrant a warning, I had to split this into 2 parts because post block limit got me everyone say BOOOOO TUMBLR!!!!!!
note: this is what happens when you watch the no doubt music video and then also listen to too much chase atlantic. ALSO let me duck before the sacred monsters readers start throwing tomatoes at me I PROMISE I am working on part 4 I just... had this idea and it would not leave me alone. but cheers to another fantastic enhypen release (daydream and no doubt are both on repeat for meeeeee) and to my first jungwon fic. enjoy!
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An employee in the marketing department of a large company, your days are filled with poorly worded emails, unrealistic deadlines, and passive aggressive friendly reminders from your superiors. On a particularly awful afternoon, a chance encounter with a coworker from the programming department down the hall is the first thing to make you smile in weeks.
But the more you uncover about Yang Jungwon and his mysterious injuries, flimsy excuses, and always occupied Friday nights, the more you begin to realize that you really donât know him at all.
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The printer is jammed.
It takes a very exaggerated eye roll and an embarrassing amount of self control to refrain from kicking the damn thing. Besides, youâre pretty sure your previous wording was too kind.Â
Because a more accurate depiction of the situation would be:
The printer is jammed. Again.Â
Youâre not sure which cruel deity is responsible for the creation of Monday afternoons, but youâre sure theyâre laughing at you now. Dressed in business casual and praying against all odds that the clock hanging on the office wall will start ticking a little faster, you almost wish the ground would open up and swallow you whole. Spare you from your miseryÂ
And itâs not like a jammed printer is the end of the world. From a logical, unbiased point of view, youâre sure itâs nothing but a small, easily solvable problem.Â
But itâs four pm on a Monday afternoon and youâve had back-to-back meetings since you clocked in at eight this morning. The only real break you had lasted twelve minutes. Most of which were spent dabbing coffee stains from your blouse after Terry from accounting knocked into you in the staff kitchen.Â
Your head is pounding and your feet are aching and your bladder is overly full and your left bra strap is starting to dig into your shoulder in a way that is entirely too overstimulating.Â
And you really, really just need this report to print.Â
After all, your boss made it very clear that you would not be clocking out for the day, no matter what hour of the evening it is, until said document is laid on his desk. Never mind the fact that you werenât made aware of this demand until a handful of hours ago.Â
So yeah, the printer jamming â again â does kind of feel like the end of the world.Â
The screen is still flashing with an angry reminder to fix the paper jam in Tray 2. The instructions are starting to blur a little as you furiously blink away hot tears.Â
You wonât cry at work. You wonât.
But your exhaustion is catching up with you, and the first thing it usually takes with it is your control over your emotions.Â
The more you try to will them away, the more insistently they want to escape.Â
Bent over the printer, youâre in the middle of trying to dislodge a particularly stubborn piece of A4 when the first tear finally does escape. It falls in a thick, wet train down the length of your cheek, settling for a moment at the base of your chin before dripping, a little pathetically, right onto the stack of papers in the printer tray.Â
Your hands go slack on the sheet youâre warring with.Â
For a moment, all you can do is sigh. Hang your head and hope some higher power takes pity on you.Â
Stressed, burnt out, overworked. This was not how you thought youâd be spending your early twenties. But a salary is a salary, and fighting with an inanimate object on the worst day of the week keeps your lights on and your stomach full.Â
Hunched over, youâre suddenly glad that the printer is kept in a separate room outside of the main office space. That there are no witnesses to your slightly pathetic meltdown.
Save for a few, itâs not like you care all that much about what your coworkers think of you. But the last thing you need to add to this day is a fresh bout of humiliation.Â
Just one more minute, you tell yourself. One more minute of silence before you pull yourself together and finish dislodging the stupid piece of paper.Â
It must be at least 4:10 by now, which means you have less than an hour to go. You can do it. You can. You just need one more minute of silenâ
âEverything okay?âÂ
The sudden intrusion is so startling that your head jerks up in a subconscious reaction. Only, of course, to be met with the open printer tray youâre currently trying to troubleshoot.Â
The clunk that echoes through the tiny printer room as your temple comes in direct contact with hard plastic is almost as loud as it is painful.Â
âAh,â you wince, hand instinctively flying to the side of your head.Â
âOh my god, Iâm so sorry, ____.â Youâre not sure if your hesitation comes from embarrassment or the fact that you head is still spinning. Either way, youâre slow to move as you look up at your sudden audience.Â
Over your shoulder, Yang Jungwon has nothing but apologies written all over his delicate features. Brow pulling into a concerned frown, heâs quick to kneel to your level.Â
If anyone was going to find you like this, you suppose youâre glad it was him. A recent hire fresh out of university, Jungwon has carved out a quiet kind of reputation for himself in the office.Â
His presence isnât commanding, but it is steady. The kind of person that you never see get worked up or angry or even annoyed no matter how many last minute deadlines are assigned or how many printers get jammed when he really needs to use them.Â
And from what youâve gathered, he mostly keeps to himself. Itâs not from a lack of effort on your coworkersâ behalf. You know firsthand that heâs been invited to multiple post work gatherings and weekend events.Â
His popularity doesnât exactly surprise you. Even with his quiet demeanor, he has a striking presence. One that makes you curious, leaves you wanting to know more.Â
Never mind the fact that heâs absolutely gorgeous.Â
Still, despite their efforts, you also know that heâs politely declined each and every invitation without ever giving any real explanation.Â
In all honesty, youâve always just assumed there was a girlfriend he was eager to run home to.Â
But even that is nothing more than a mindless assumption. After all, youâve only had a few interactions with him, and nothing beyond the typical small talk all office workers develop a talent for.Â
Even now, he makes the simple button down and slacks heâs wearing look like they came right from a runway.Â
Youâre not quite sure why, but it almost makes you want to cry harder.Â
At the very least, youâre pretty sure you donât need to worry about rumors of you having a minor meltdown in the printer room spreading through the office. Jungwon might be a hot topic of office gossip, but heâs not one to spread it.
âI am so sorry,â he repeats, âI didnât mean to startle you.â His words are spilling out a bit too fast, blurring into each other around the edges. âI just saw you in here, and I couldnât tell if you were okay or not, so I wanted toââ
âJungwon,â you interrupt. Thereâs no kind way of telling him that his rambling is only making your headache worse. That itâs only making your tears fall faster. Instead, you abet his misplaced guilt. âItâs okay. Iâm fine.â
A bit shakily, you muster up your most convincing smile. But your smudged mascara, slightly puffy eyelids, and still visible tear track suggest otherwise.Â
Jungwonâs brow just pulls together a little further. âAre you sure?â Heâs unconvinced. Taking a wary glance at the printer tray, he looks back to you with concern in his eyes. âThat sounded like it hurt.â
âReally,â you force another weak smile. âIâm sure.â
âCan I at least take a look at it?â Guilt is still written plain as day across his face.Â
Assuming heâs referring to the printer, you nod before taking one big scooch to the side. Within the confines of this tiny room, it only puts you closer to him.Â
And it takes less than a second for you to realize your assumption was wrong. Because Jungwon doesnât reach for that stupid piece of A4 still jammed inside Tray 2 or even the printer tray that just nearly concussed you.Â
No, instead, his long fingers trek a steady path towards your hand. The one that still rests against your temple. Gently, he pries it away, replacing it with his own careful touch.
Youâre all but immobile as gentle fingers press lightly against the side of your face, adjusting it slightly. His fingers are cool, soothing as he turns your injury towards the overhead light.Â
Pliant in his hands, itâs all you can do to watch as his brow furrows in concentration, eyes scanning over your skin. Taking the skin of your bottom lip between your teeth, you pray he doesnât notice the sudden heat in your cheeks.Â
From this angle, with this proximity, you can practically count his eyelashes. Theyâre long, you notice. Long and wispy where they frame his dark eyes.Â
âNo broken skin,â he finally asserts. You can feel his breath against your skin. It takes nearly all your concentration to suppress the shiver that threatens to trace your spine. âBut I wouldnât be surprised if it bruises. Thereâs a bit of swelling, too. Keep an eye on it these next few days, and let me know if it doesnât go down on its own.âÂ
Youâre not exactly sure if Jungwon â quiet, gentle Jungwon â would be the first person youâd go to for first aid advice, but you nod anyway.Â
And youâre not sure where it comes from, the sudden urge to cry again. But somewhere between the pain in your head and the soft probing of his fingers against your skin, emotions are starting to bubble beneath your stoic facade.Â
Itâs subtle, barely perceivable, but you can feel your bottom lip beginning to quiver.Â
Much to your unending humiliation, youâre not the only one who notices.Â
Youâre not sure how he does, but he does.Â
âHey,â Jungwon tries. His hand is still on your face. His voice is impossibly soft, and it only makes you want to cry harder. You feel like a skittish kitten heâs trying to lure in from a rainstorm.Â
His lips part as if heâs going to continue. They fall shut again before he can.Â
Something in his brow softens. Concern is replaced with empathy.Â
Hand falling back to his side, he suddenly changes the subject. âYouâre in the marketing department, right?â
Lips still trembling, you turn your eyes towards the floor before giving him a small nod. Â
From this angle, the only thing you see are his shoes. Standard leather work shoes, theyâre slightly scuffed where they rest against the carpet.Â
They still look formal, of course. Nothing that would raise any eyebrows in a professional setting. And from far away, youâre sure they appear pristine.Â
But from this close, you can make out all sorts of rough edges. Little marks and dents and scuffs that serve as evidence of where heâs been.Â
âWhy donât you head home for the day,â Jungwon suggests gently from above you. âIâll let your team and your supervisor know that youâre not feeling well.âÂ
You take a deep breath, do your best to make sure your voice is steady before you respond. Shaking your head, you point out, âItâs almost the end of the day anywayââ
âExactly,â Jungown nods, kind but firm. âThereâs nothing that canât wait until tomorrow.â
âActually,â you grimace, trying not to let the truth inspire another round of tears. âI need the report I was trying to print. I have to turn it in before I leave today.â
Thereâs a beat of silence. Youâre worried that Jungwon will keep offering you too much kindness, so you rush to fill it. âItâs fine, though. I think the paper jam is almost fixed, and I already sent the report to the printer, so Iâm sure it will come through in a minuteââ
âPerfect,â Jungwon interrupts again. âIâll take it to your boss, then. Alan, right? Iâve spoken with him before. Iâll also let him know that you went home for the day.â
âJungwon, you donât have toââ
âI know.â At the interruption, your eyes snap back to him. Thereâs an intensity in his eyes when you match his gaze. Something so sincere that itâs hard to look away. Even though you know your eyes are still shiny with tears you wish youâd hidden better. Even if the stress and exhaustion and weariness are probably written plain as day across your features.
âI know,â he repeats. âI want to. Go home and get some rest, okay?â
Itâs probably stupid, to agree so easily. But something in his eyes has you believing, even if just for a moment, that everything will be just fine if you do what he suggests. That all of your concerns and worries will work themselves out and youâll be able to come into the office tomorrow feeling refreshed for once. For the first time in a long time.Â
So you nod. You let him help you up off the floor and donât bother hiding your face as you wipe the last of your unshed tears from your eyelashes. It probably only smudges your mascara further, but you canât find it in yourself to care about that, either.Â
The printer is still jammed and your report isnât turned in and youâll have to walk past your entire team back to your desk to get your things on your way out.Â
But for this fleeting moment, those worries feel small. Distant. Manageable. Able to be tucked away and saved for later.Â
You still donât know much about Jungwon. The only knowledge you have comes from speculation and wishful thinking. But now, more than ever, you really wish you knew something of substance.Â
But you have no idea how to tell him that. Donât know if you even should. So instead, you say what you can.Â
âThank you, Jungwon.â
For a moment, all he does is smile. Itâs small, but it reaches his eyes. Makes them sparkle a little brighter.Â
His voice, like the rest of him, is gentle when he says, âSure thing, ___.â
âŠ..
Despite the fact that it accounts for roughly eighty percent of your job, you prefer to avoid your email inbox like the plague.Â
Most days, by the time you do get around to checking it, itâs already jam packed with unreasonable requests and last-minute changes and passive aggressive friendly reminders from your superiors.Â
When you sit down at your desk on Tuesday morning, youâre extra reluctant. After the printer fiasco yesterday, youâre feeling particularly sensitive to all of the potential bullshit. And you have the distinct feeling that a rather nasty message about leaving the office early unannounced is surely waiting for you.Â
But the inevitable can only be delayed so long. With a wince and a final swig of coffee, you muster the courage to give the mail icon on your desktop a double click.Â
The top of your inbox is filled with the usual nonsense. A request for a meeting tomorrow morning on a project idea youâve had finalized for months. An RSVP form for the optional, but highly encouraged, upcoming staff party. A reminder from your boss that final quarterly reports need to be submitted by Friday at the latest.Â
A few lines down, though, something out of the ordinary catches your eye. Checking the time stamp, you see that it was sent right as the day started.Â
Contemplating for a moment, you frown. The first floor of Vesselsoft is no stranger to printer jams. Theyâre typical occurrences, not major problems to be resolved via email. You didnât think there was a printer issue to follow up on.Â
But itâs far more intriguing than anything else on your work account. So, ignoring all of the other messages, you open the email from Jungwon.Â
Good morning ____,Â
I hope youâre doing well. I wanted to let you know that the workroom printer jam has been fixed, and your report was delivered safe and sound yesterday evening. I also wanted to check in and see how your head is feeling.Â
Best,Â
Jungwon
You reread it. Once. Twice.Â
Itâs a simple message, all things considered. But it has you searching for subtext where there likely isnât any. If anything, this serves as a confirmation of what you already knew about Jungwon.Â
Heâs kind. Considerate. The type of person that would help you fix a jammed printer and check in on you the next morning. Right when he clocks in.Â
The type that could probably tell that your head was the least of your concerns yesterday, but still chooses to ask how youâre doing without drawing excess attention to it.Â
For a moment, you almost wish he would make a habit of attending after hours work events. You have the distinct feeling that sucking up to your superiors would be a little less awful if someone like him was around to do it with you.Â
Thank you for resolving that printer issue! And thank you for checking in. My head is feeling much better today.Â
Thanks again,Â
____
After a final once over, you press the send button, watching as the animation shows the message flying out from your inbox.Â
You imagine it flying into his. Itâs subconscious, the way you start to picture what his face will look like when he sees it.Â
You know heâs in the programming department, which is on the same floor as your office. Honestly, youâre a bit surprised you haven't seen him around more.Â
Will he smile, you wonder. Will he have that same, gentle fondness in his eyes he seems to carry with him everywhere?
You donât get an answer to that particular question, but you do learn that Jungwon is an incredibly prompt communicator.Â
Itâs barely been ten minutes before your inbox is chiming again.Â
You canât hide the small smile that threatens to turn the corners of your lips upward. Itâs not like heâs done anything particularly groundbreaking. But even bits of kindness have become a bit of a rarity for you these days.
You canât think of anyone else in the office that would insist on sending you home thirty minutes early and offer to finish up your work for you. You canât think of anyone else who would have navigated yesterdayâs fiasco with as much gentle care as he did.
You canât remember the last time someone bothered to consider you. To lighten your load when they noticed you starting to sink under the weight of it.Â
So youâre smiling. Despite the fact that itâs still a Tuesday morning and you have a long week ahead of you. Despite the fact that youâre still very much locked into a job you mostly despise.Â
Mentally, you make a note to give some gesture of your gratitude. To do something that will brighten his day a bit, too.Â
But you donât know him. Donât know how he takes his coffee or if he has a favorite brand of ballpoint pen or if he could use an extra favor from someone in the marketing department. All the sorts of things that coworkers do to show a little bit of appreciation.Â
But the universe, at least in part, seems to be on your side today.Â
When you head into the staff kitchen for your mid-morning coffee refill, you find it already occupied.Â
Itâs a bit ridiculous, the way you suddenly feel flustered. Have the urge to smooth your hair, fix your blouse.Â
He has his back turned to you, and it takes you nearly half a minute of contemplation to decide whether or not to say something. In the end, the decision is made for you.Â
Your phone lights up with an urgent request that you check over the second half of the report you â well, Jungwon â submitted last night.Â
Sighing, you turn away from the kitchen. Your second cup of coffee, and a conversation with a certain programmer, will just have to wait.Â
You do, however, notice one last thing before you go. Watching silently, you canât help but smile a bit as you watch Jungwon add two sugar packets to his mug.Â
Sweet, you think. Just like him. And now you have at least one bit of information to work with.Â
After submitting the edits on your report, you decide to use your recently earned knowledge. Deciding that heâs worth the splurge, you open the delivery page of the cafe down the street, the one thatâs ridiculously overpriced but undoubtedly makes the best coffee in the area.Â
And when you order it in his name, a hot coffee with two sugars, you ask the barista to attach a note.Â
Thank you again for yesterday. I hope this is how you like your coffee!Â
An hour later, your inbox chimes with another message.Â
Youâre too kind, ____. Thank you for the coffee. How did you know just how I like it?
All the best,Â
Jungwon
If his words make you smile a little too hard, well, you figure no one ever has to know.Â
The universe, however, would seem to have other plans.Â
Of everyone in the marketing department, you find your coworker Grace to be the most bearable. A few years older than you, she was by far the most welcoming when you joined the team.Â
And you have the sneaking suspicion she has just as much disdain for your supervisor as you, even if the two of you have never openly discussed it.Â
Unfortunately, she does have the fatal flaw of never being able to finish her work day without getting herself involved in someone elseâs business. For the most part, youâre spared from her nosiness.Â
Mostly because your life doesnât carry the same flair for drama that she loves most. But today, she decides to give it a shot anyway.Â
Standing behind your office chair, she nearly startles you out of your seat when she asks, âWhoâs got you smiling like that?â
Closing the email as quickly as you can, you turn to face her.Â
âNo one.â Itâs too rushed, too evasive. She sees right through it.Â
âMhmm.âÂ
Heat rising in your cheeks, you double down. âNo, really.â Scrambling for a lie, your eyes land on one of your desk photos. One that shows your childhood cat, affectionately named Mr. Snuggles by your elementary school self. âI just heard from the vet that my cat is feeling a lot better. I was worried she was really sick.â
Itâs a bold faced lie. Mr. Snuggles has been dead since your third year of high school.Â
âAh,â Grace says. Her features fall slightly as she realizes she wonât be getting a worthy scoop from you. Realizing thatâs probably not an appropriate reaction, she forces a smile. âThatâs great! Iâm happy for you.â
âThanks,â you nod, hoping it will mark the end of the conversation.Â
But Grace isnât quite ready to let it go. âThat does remind me, though. Iâve been meaning to ask you something.â
Uh oh.Â
âYouâre not seeing anyone, right?â Youâre not sure how a sick cat would remind her of your dating life, but you suppose there are larger mysteries to be solved.Â
And on second consideration â oh. Is it really that obvious? âNo,â the syllable drags as you attempt to tread carefully. âWhy?â
Grace shrugs, but the conversation feels more calculated than nonchalant. âI was at my friendâs baby shower a couple of weeks ago, and her younger brother just moved back to the city. Heâs been living abroad since high school. Heâs around your age and a total catch. I didnât talk to him much, but he reminded me of you a bit. I think the two of you would get on.âÂ
âOh,â is all you say. Your uncertainty must be written all over your features, because Grace is quick to continue.
âNo pressure, of course. But let me know if youâd like me to pass his number along.â
Do you? Itâs been ages since you went on a date. And even longer since you went on a date with someone youâd describe as a total catch.Â
And apparently, your single-ness is painfully visible to the people around you if Grace was able to pick up on it so easily.Â
Besides, it might be nice, you think. To have a conversation with someone that isnât about quarterly reports or upcoming deadlines or jammed printers.Â
But then your mind wanders to the last conversation you had about a jammed printer. To a set of pretty, dark eyes and a pair of gentle hands.Â
To a string of email conversations that donât really mean anything. But you almost wish they did.Â
Itâs messy, you think. Far from ideal. JUngwon might not be in your department, but he still works just down the hall. Inter company relationships arenât forbidden, but they do carry a certain amount of risk.
Jungwon isnât petty. He wouldnât make your life a living hell if things were to end badly. But you might start feeling awkward in the staff kitchen and you might have to start timing your walks to the parking lot so that they donât coincide with his.
Small adjustments. Minor inconveniences more than anything.
Besides, itâs all conjecture.Â
You can count the conversations youâve had with Jungwon on your fingers, and the majority have been channeled through your work email.Â
Itâs hardly romantic.Â
But even as you try to see things from a detached, logical perspective, one thought keeps swimming back to you.
You think you could talk about jammed printers forever, as long as it was with him.Â
Sighing, your heart canât decide if it wants to sink to your stomach or crawl up your throat at the realization.Â
Turning back to Grace, you just offer her a tight smile. âIâll let you know.â
âŠ..
In the coming weeks, your coincidental run-ins with Jungwon start to become more and more frequent.Â
First, itâs the two of you just so happening to need a coffee refill at the same time. When your path cross in the staff kitchen, you raise an eyebrow at the sugar packets he adds to his mug and he shakes his head as you take a long sip of your plain, bitter drink of choice.Â
Then, itâs the morning in the parking lot when the two of you just so happen to arrive at the same time, pulling into adjacent parking spots. His smile is gentle, albeit a bit sleepy, when he bids you, âGood morning.âÂ
Your heart flutters a bit when you return the sentiment. You do your best to ignore it.Â
Next, you stumble across him in the staircase on an otherwise quiet afternoon. This time, however, heâs already deep in another conversation. Or, you realize at second glance, trying very hard to wiggle his way out of another conversation.Â
For all intents and purposes, Jenna from the legal department is a sweet girl. A bit overbearing at times and doesnât always take well to being told no, but sheâs harmless for the most part. Smart and driven and you admit a little glumly, quite pretty.Â
Even underneath the overhead fluorescents in the stairway, she manages to avoid looking washed out.Â
Theyâre already talking by the time you get there, and the only thing you catch is the tail end of their rather one-sided conversation.Â
âItâs a great place, really,â Jenna insists, smiling a little too brightly. âAnd the food is to die for. Theyâre always running really unique specials. I think youâd really like it.â
And you could just turn around and pretend not to have seen anything. You could just take the elevator instead. In fact, you probably should.Â
But suddenly, itâs as if your shoes have been filled with lead. Feet frozen to the earth, all you can do is watch.Â
âOh,â Jungwon reaches for the back of his neck. âThanks for thinking of me, Jenna, but I donât think Iâll be able to make it.â
âOh, really?â she pouts. âIs there another night that would work bettââ
âJungwon!â Your voice is too loud, reverberating off the walls of the stairway in a way that has two pairs of eyes immediately darting towards you. And interrupting had seemed like a good idea a few seconds ago, but now you realize your fatal mistake.Â
You have no plan. No idea what to say next.Â
Still, you force a smile. âJust the person I was looking for.â
You donât think youâre imagining it, the immediate wash of relief that colors Jungwonâs features.Â
âHey, ___,â Jenna waves, a bit dejectedly. She doesnât exactly look pleased to see you, and you canât really blame her. âCould you give us a minute? I was just in the middle ofââ
âSorry, Jenna,â you shake your head. âThis is kind of urgent.â
âRight,â Jungwon nods, looking at you again. âWeâd better go then.â
âBut Iââ
âSee you around, Jenna.â Youâre tone is too bright as you spin around, making a beeline back towards the door. A flicker of satisfaction warms in your chest when you realize Jungwon is right on your heels.Â
He waits until the two of you are back in the empty hallway, closed door serving as a barrier between you and Jenna, before he speaks.Â
Looking at you, he quirks his head to the side. âSo, whatâs the urgent thing you need help with?â
Oh. Right.Â
Sighing, you decide honesty, or at least partial honesty, might be your best bet.Â
âSorry,â your smile is sheepish, âdid I read that wrong? Thereâs nothing urgent. I justâŠâ you trail off, searching for the words. âIt just looked like you might have needed an exit.â
For a moment, he says nothing. The silence gives your mind too much room to spin
Maybe you did read things wrong. Maybe he was enjoying a perfectly pleasant conversation with perfectly pleasant Jenna. Maybe he was looking forward to going to a nice restaurant with her and trying all sorts of unique specials andâ
âThank you.â
âWhat?â
Jungwonâs eyes soften. If you didnât know any better, youâd almost describe his expression as⊠fondness. âAn exit,â he clarifies. âI did need one. So thank you.â
âRight.â Your voice is suddenly breathless, and you canât think of a good excuse for it. Feigning a nonchalance you donât feel, you wave off his gratitude, âAnytime.âÂ
âCareful,â Jungwon warns, but the same hint of teasing, the same glimmer of affection, is still there. âI just might take you up on that.âÂ
âItâs a good thing I meant it, then.â
Jungwonâs features soften into a smile. A small one, meant just for the two of you. Reaching up, he pushes a stray strand of hair from his eyes.Â
Itâs only natural that you follow the movement. His hands are nice, you think. Long, lithe fingers, andâ
You frown, eyes zeroing in on the knuckles of his right hand.Â
Bruises, you realize. Dark, purple bruises span the length of his knuckles. Angry and mottled and from what you can tell, recent.Â
And so many. You canât imagine what he could have possibly done to earn them.Â
Gaze still trained on the injury, your eyes widen. âAre you okay?â
Itâs Jungwonâs turn to be confused. âWhat?â
âYour hand,â you nod at it. âAre those bruises?â
âOh.â He shrugs, brushes it off like itâs nothing. But his hand falls to his side, obscured from your sight, all the same. âYeah, I just slipped the other day trying to hang a picture in my apartment. The frame caught me funny when it fell.â
âYou⊠slipped.â
Your disbelief must be apparent, because Jungwon is quick to add, âMy hand slipped, really. My phone started ringing, and it caught me off guard.â
âOuch,â you grimace. âThat sounds like it hurt.â
Again, Jungwon shrugs. But his eyes are doing that thing again. Sparkling. âItâs not so bad.â
âStill,â you insist. âYou should be more careful.â
âYeah,â Jungwon agrees. Itâs just the two of you, alone in a dimly lit hallway. His gaze is trained on yours. The distance between you is respectable, appropriate. Suggests that the two of you are coworkers and nothing more. But you have the distinct feeling that heâs not entirely talking about hanging pictures when he says, âI probably should.â
âŠ..
The next morning, Grace is the first person you see as you walk into the office. And sheâs already waiting for you. As soon as you come in, she hands you a coffee with an apologetic smile.Â
âUh oh.â You hang your coat, accepting the cup from her hands. Itâs not unusual to receive coffee from a coworker, but it usually comes as a form of consolation. âWhatâs this for?â
âItâs from Alan, actually.â
Your lips flatten. âThat doesnât make me feel better.â
âItâs not that bad, really.â Graceâs smile is less than convincing. âHe just wants us all to get together this Friday night after work at that bar down the street. Yâknow, to network.â
You groan internally. There go your plans for a relaxing Friday at home.Â
âHow is it networking if itâs just our team? We see each other every day.â
âThatâs the other part,â Grace nods towards the cup in your hand. âDidnât you notice he pulled out all the stops? Thatâs from the shop down the road. The one that charges eleven dollars for a small latte.â
âOh god,â you groan, this time audibly. âWhat else does he want?â
âWeâve all been strongly encouraged to invite people from different teams around the company.â
You suppress a strong urge to roll your eyes. âOf course we have.â
Privately, you think that if Alan wants to network so bad, he should be responsible for creating the guest list himself. Outwardly, you just sigh.Â
As if you didnât have enough on your plate already. Now you need to schmooze some other poor employee into wasting their Friday night talking about work.Â
Sitting down at your desk, you take a sip of your coffee. It is admittedly delicious. The thought only makes you want to bang your head on your keyboard even more.Â
The problem of finding a plus one follows you all the way through the afternoon. All the way to the workroom, where you once again stumble into a certain blonde programmer thatâs beginning to feel like part of your daily routine.Â
This time, Jungwon is alone.Â
Heâs frowning at the printer, brow furrowed.Â
âDonât tell me itâs jammed.âÂ
When he sees that itâs you, his features immediately soften. He smiles and something tugs at your heart. Itâs enough to have you forgetting about Friday night, even if just for a moment.Â
âNo, thankfully. My computer just doesnât seem to want to connect to this printer.â
âMm,â you hum. âSend it to me, and Iâll try printing from mine.â
Jungwon shakes his head. âYou donât have to do that. Iâll just go up to the accounting department and try their printer.â
âJungwon,â you level him with a look. âYou are the last person to be telling me I donât have to do you a favor. Itâs really no problem. Just send it over.â
âOkay,â he finally relents.Â
Waiting for it to ping through on your end, an idea suddenly strikes you. Youâre not sure if itâs a good one or if your judgment is starting to be warped by all of the toner cartridge fumes, but here, in a quiet workroom with nothing but Jungwon and a half-working printer to keep you company, you find a bit of your bravery.Â
âI know this probably isnât your idea of a perfect evening,â you start. Your words feel too loud in this tiny space. âBut the marketing team is getting together after work for drinks this Friday night. Weâre also encouraged to branch outside of our department and invite other company employees, so if youâre free, weâd love to have you.â The more you say, the worse it sounds to your own ears. Why would anyone, much less Jungwon, want to come to a work event for the marketing team. Suddenly embarrassed you even brought it up, you find yourself rambling. âThe bar is actually pretty nice. Itâs not super fancy or anything, but it has, uh, really great chandeliers. Itâs a nice ambience, andââ
â___.â Jungwon interrupts with the sound of your name.Â
âYeah?â Youâre trying not to sound too hopeful, but you have the distinct feeling that you fail miserably. Despite your hesitance, you realize something.Â
You want him to say yes.Â
You want him to give you a different response than he gives everyone else. A different response than he gave Jenna.Â
You want him to say yes, even though no one wants to go to a work event for the marketing team on a Friday night.Â
You want him to say yes anyway, because itâs you.Â
âIâd love to, really.â He reaches up, scratching at the back of his neck. âBut Iâm busy Friday night.â
Short. Succinct. To the point. He doesnât spare any extra details.Â
You already knew it was a long shot. But it stings all the same.Â
You wanted to be the exception to the rule. Someone that would finally get him to say yes. Or at the very least, someone he would bother to give an actual reason for his absence to.Â
âOh.â Your voice is smaller than you mean for it to be. âOf course!â And now itâs too loud, too bright. You canât find the happy medium, canât find your natural tone. âIâm sure whatever it is will be way more fun, anyway.â
Jungwon just gives you a small smile, not bothering to affirm or refute your assumption. Not deigning to add any more details.Â
It kind of makes you wish that the ground would open up and swallow you whole.Â
âWell, I should probably get back to my desk.â You donât know why youâre scrambling for excuses. Jungwon clearly doesnât feel the need to provide any. âDid everything print okay?â You nod towards the small stack of papers in his hands.Â
Jungwon is still looking at you. His lips part, as if he wants to say something. Brow creased, itâs as if heâs at war with himself. As if he canât decide what to say or how to say it.Â
After a beat, his mouth falls shut again. He gives a minute shake of his head. You watch as his hair sways in time with the movement.Â
âYeah,â he tells you. But he still hasnât bothered to look down at the document between his fingers. âEverything printed fine.âÂ
âOkay.â You nod again. âGood.â Your voice sounds hollow in your ears. âWell, Iâll see you around, then.â
Iâll see you around?
Iâll see you around?
It takes all of your willpower not to cringe outwardly. Itâs the most awkward, stilted thing you could have possibly said, but youâre not sure how else to fill the stifling silence.Â
âOf course,â Jungwon nods. âHave a good day, ____.â The worst part is that he looks like he genuinely means it. âAnd enjoy your Friday night.â
âRight.â Your smile is feeble, doesnât reach your eyes. âYou too.âÂ
Youâre so caught up in your own humiliation that you donât notice the way his smile doesnât quite reach his eyes either. âSure thing.â
âŠ..
Changing your clothes in the last stall of the office bathroom kind of feels like a new low for you. But by the time Friday evening comes around, the last thing you want to do is attend a mandatory â scratch that, highly encouraged â work event at a bar still wearing your blazer and slacks.Â
The jeans and sweater you replace them with are still nice by any standard, but theyâll feel a bit less stifling after a handful of drinks.Â
Grace, at least, seems to have the same idea. Deciding sheâs by far the most bearable person of the evening, you slide down next to her in the booth.Â
Of course, that thought only makes you think of another person youâd invited. Someone whose absence feels especially notable as you nurse the remnants of your first cocktail.Â
You donât really want to get drunk tonight. You donât want to be here at all.Â
You put in your forty hours of work this week, and the only place you want to be is at home in a pair of sweatpants.Â
The only person that would have made it a little more worth it made it very clear that he had better things to do. The details of which, of course, he didnât bother to share.Â
The thought spurs you to take another long sip.Â
You donât want to get drunk. But you donât want to think about him either.Â
Besides, Grace doesnât seem to share your reservations.Â
Itâs barely been forty minutes when she pulls out her phone, thoroughly tipsy, and decides that you are the best person to help her sort through her list of matches on her favorite dating app.Â
âHeâs cute, right?â She flashes her phone screen towards you.Â
He is. You nod and tell her as much.Â
His eyes might not sparkle very much. And his hair might not fall perfectly over his forehead. And he might not furrow his eyebrow in concentration whenever the printer in the workroom gives him a hard time â
No.Â
Tonight is not about him. He made it very clear that he had no interest in being here tonight, and the last thing youâre going to do is spend the evening fixated on him.Â
Grace, at least, seems willing to help on that front.Â
âOh,â she suddenly interjects from your side. âThat reminds me. Iâve been meaning to show you a picture of my friendâs brother. You know, the one I mentioned a couple of weeks ago?â
Itâs a bad idea, probably. Youâre still feeling slighted and bitter and no matter how many times you tell it not to, your mind keeps wandering to Jungwon.Â
Despite your reluctance, the cocktails are catching up with you. Thereâs a pleasant, slightly numb haze in your mind. It makes resistance feel futile.Â
All you do is nod, and Grace starts searching for his social media profile. It takes her a few more tries than it would sober, but she does eventually find it.Â
âHere,â she says, offering her phone to you. âHis name is Jay. He grew up here until he left to go to an international high school. Heâs been living abroad ever since, but he recently moved back. Their dad is pretty high up at a software development company. I think he came back because he landed a job there too.âÂ
You do your best to absorb the information, to nod along with what she says, but in all honesty, youâre quite distracted.Â
Jay is quite distracting. His feed is well-curated without being overbearing. Covered in travel photos, unbelievably flattering candid shots, and stunning nature pictures, he immediately piques your interest.Â
Not to mention the fact that heâs stunning. Maybe not quite as stunning as â
No. Again, you refuse to go there.Â
Youâre not sure if itâs the drinks or the photos or the spite that makes it suddenly feel like a good idea, but youâre telling Grace to pass your number along to Jay before you can think better of it.Â
And if nothing else, at least he doesnât seem like the kind of person that will make you wonder. Or even wait for long.Â
Youâve barely gotten home, mind mostly clear even if it is still a bit muddled from the exhaustion of a long week, when your phone screen lights up with a notification.Â
Itâs just a string of numbers for now, but youâre quick to create a new contact.Â
Hey, the message reads. This is Jay. Grace gave me your number. I hope thatâs alright!
A few seconds later, another text comes through.Â
Jay: How do you feel about art exhibitions? Thereâs one opening this weekend right next to one of the best coffee spots in the city. Iâd love for you to join me.Â
Itâs simple. Straightforward. Not something youâll search for subtext or pick apart for weeks.Â
And itâs easy to respond to.Â
You: That sounds great! Iâll look forward to it
âŠ..
Another week at work passes with the same monotonous, sluggish flow as any other. But this time, itâs interspersed with messages youâve started to look forward to.Â
Youâve just sat down with your third cup of coffee on Monday morning when the first one chimes through.Â
Jay: Good morning, ___. I hope your Monday is off to a better start than mine.Â
A second message comes through. This one is an image. One that unmistakably shows a stack of papers covered in a dark brown stain you recognize all too well.Â
You: Oh no!Â
Pausing for a moment, your teeth worry at your bottom lip. Deciding to go for it, you send your own picture in return.Â
The image of your full coffee cup goes through, along with another message.Â
You: I think it might be. My coffee is still in my cup, at least
It takes him less than a minute to respond.Â
Jay: Black coffee! Oh, you mean business. Iâll deny it if you tell anyone, but I always have to add sugar and cream to mine.Â
You canât help the smile that starts to spread over your lips. Sugar and cream. An aversion to bitterness. It reminds you of someone else that always adds a little sweetness to their â
Shaking your head, you force the comparison away. Putting the other man firmly out of mind, you decide to return Jayâs lighthearted message with one of your own.
You: Donât tell anyone, but this is my third cup of the morning.Â
Jay: Third cup of straight black coffee. Whew, remind me not to get on your bad side today.Â
Jay: Speaking of which, do you always drink it black or could you be persuaded into something a little sweeter?Â
Heâs talking about coffee, yes, but it feels just a little bit like flirting. Biting at your lip again, you decide there isnât much to lose.
Besides, itâs kind of⊠fun. You canât remember the last time you were well and truly flirted with.Â
You: Depends whoâs asking
Jay: Hmm
Jay: Iâll have to work on my persuasion skills then
Jay: The place Iâm taking you to on Saturday has an insanely delicious caramel latte, and I need to know what you think of it
You: Tempting
You: But Iâm not sure Iâm convincedÂ
Jay: Iâll work on that, then
You canât hide your smile this time.Â
A minute later, two more texts ping through.Â
Jay: Duty calls, unfortunately
Jay: The rest of my Monday is stacked, so if I am slow to respond to any messages, thatâs why. Enjoy the rest of your day, ___
Heâs straightforward. Communicative. You appreciate the notice. The fact that if you do send another message without a response, you wonât have to waste your day wondering why.Â
You: Ugh, donât you hate it when you actually have to work at work?
You: I hope all goes well! Enjoy the rest of your day too, Jay
Setting your phone down, you return your gaze to your computer screen and unfortunately very full inbox.Â
Your focus, however, remains half-occupied by a message thread sitting dormant on your tucked away phone.Â
âŠ..
Jayâs messages begin to become a highlight of your work day. Despite the fact that thereâs often a large lapse in time due to both of your busy schedules, you start to anticipate every text he manages to send.Â
And they only serve to build more excitement around your upcoming date.Â
By the time Thursday comes around, youâve all but mentally clocked out for the week. Refilling your water bottle in the staff kitchen, your mind is so occupied that you almost run right into the person coming through the door the same time youâre leaving.Â
âOh, Iâm so sorry! I wasnât looking where I wasââ
â___.â The sound of your name stops you in your tracks. âBreathe,â Jungwon is smiling, but thereâs a hint of concern there, too. âYouâre okay.â
âJungwon,â you exhale. Your frantic apology begins to subside, replaced by an overwhelming surge of self-consciousness as you tuck a stray strand of hair behind your ear.Â
You havenât spoken to him, havenât even seen him, since he rejected your invitation last Friday.Â
Heâs not trying to pick at old wounds, but it still stings a bit when he asks, âHow was Friday?â
âOh, you know,â you shrug, âIt was a typical work gathering.â Then again, it occurs to you that he might not know. Since he never bothers attending any of them.Â
Not that it really matters. Besides, youâre lying a bit anyway. Typical work gatherings donât usually end with you setting up a date. Not that you want Jungwon to know about that either.Â
You can't pinpoint exactly why, but the thought of him knowing doesnât sit with you quite right. Besides, itâs not like heâs ever shown any interest in your personal life, anyway. He would find it weird, most likely. Annoying, if you were to divulge any details.Â
âOh, well, Iâm sorry again that I couldnât come.â Just like that day in the workroom, he reaches back to scratch at his neck. You have the distinct sense that heâs the one who suddenly feels a bit awkward. âFriday nights areâŠâ he trails off, âFriday nights are hard for me, usually. Iâm always pretty free on Saturday mornings, thought, so ifââ
âDonât worry about it.â Oh god. Your intention certainly wasnât to make him feel guilty for having a social life outside of the office. Suddenly worried that you read the situation all wrong, youâre quick to assure him, âYou donât have to come to anything that you donât want to. And especially if you have plans already. I just asked you because my supervisor wanted us to invite people from other departments.â
If his face falls slightly, youâre too caught up in your own rambling to notice.Â
âAnd, you know,â you continue, âsince you helped me that day with the printer.âÂ
âThe printer,â he echoes, voice suddenly hollow. âRight.â
âRight,â you echo. The room falls into silence again, and this time, itâs weighted with a horrible awkwardness neither of you can shake.Â
âWell,â you finally say, holding up your bottle. âI got my water, so Iâm gonna head back to my desk.â
âYeah,â Jungwon nods. âOkay.â
âIâll see you around?â Itâs just as stilted as it was before, but youâre desperate for any way to exit this conversation.Â
By the time Saturday morning comes, youâre a mess of anticipation and frayed nerves.Â
Youâre early to arrive at the address of the coffee shop Jay sent you a few nights ago, but heâs already there waiting for you. And his social media might have painted an impressive picture, but one look tells you that it still doesnât hold a candle to the real thing.Â
Jay is gorgeous.
Almost as gorgeous as â
You kill the thought as soon as it comes. This day isnât about him, and comparisons will do you little good.Â
Instead, you refocus on your date.Â
Heâs polished and put together in an effortless sort of way. The kind of person that you see once in passing and then canât stop thinking about for the rest of the week. His features are angular, sharp. But they soften into a warm smile the second he lays eyes on you.Â
In the end, it doesnât take him much convincing at all to persuade you to try the caramel latte. And heâs right. It is absolutely delicious. Â
It was easy to fall into a natural rhythm over text, and your face-to-face conversation flows even better.Â
He tells you about life abroad and all of his favorite parts of living in another country. He tells you about his family and what he missed most about this city heâs learning to call home again.Â
He listens, actively, while you tell him the more mundane details of your own life. His questions are well-timed and never feel like interruptions.Â
His kindness doesnât feel like a facade. His interest doesnât feel like a cheap trick to get what he wants from you and then disappear without a word.Â
And when it becomes painfully apparent at the art exhibition that heâs far more well-versed in the subject than you, he doesnât make you feel stupid. Instead, he takes his time explaining each piece. Highlights the aspects that would be most interesting to someone without any kind of background in art.Â
Heâs kind, considerate, and the day passes by in a blur of fleeting glances and shy smiles. At the end of it, he offers to drive you home and opens your car door for you. Small gestures that make you feel seen, considered. Valued.Â
When he says goodbye with a hug that doesnât last nearly long enough, the smell of his cologne is something you hope will linger as long as the memories of the day do.Â
Itâs easy, you think, as you watch his car drive away from your window. Jay is someone thatâs easy to be around, to spend time with.Â
And when he messages you later that night, reiterating his enjoyment of the day and asking to meet again, heâs easy to say yes to.Â
âŠ..
Youâre not sure how, but the only person that seems even more excited than you about you and Jay is Grace.Â
Despite the fact that your communication as of late hasnât involved anything scandalous, she feels the need to rehash every detail until sheâs heard it one hundred times.Â
It doesnât matter how many times you tell her that the last text message he sent you wasnât anything to swoon over. In fact, it was rather short and unexciting.Â
Jay: Have you seen my ring by chance? I remember wearing it that day I was in your car, and I havenât been able to find it since then.Â
But Grace wonât hear it. Youâre not exactly sure what she heard from Jayâs sister, but she spends the rest of the coming week hounding you over the details regardless.Â
The staff kitchen is hardly the place for conversations about your personal life, but the setting doesnât seem to bother her at all. Instead, she pretends to be busy washing an already clean coffee mug while she asks again, âSo you went out for the first time last Saturday, right?â
âMhm,â you nod.Â
âAnd then you got dinner together Wednesday night after work?â
âYep.â Youâre pretty sure sheâs already asked the same question at least six times.Â
âAnd heâs planning to take you out again this Saturday?â
âRight.â
âMy god, you two are practically married.â She punctuates the absurd claim with a wistful sigh.Â
âWe most certainly are not.âÂ
âOkay, but you literally just met, and youâve already seen each other twice with plans for a third.â
She does have a point there. Never mind the fact that you havenât dated anyone in a while. It is a quick timeline, no matter how you look at it. But youâve been itching to spend time with him ever since your first date, and Jay seems to be on the same page.Â
It feels fast, yes, but it doesnât feel forced. For you, thatâs what matters most.Â
That, along with the fact that a certain someone has been noticeably absent from your mind the more time you spend with him. For now, youâll choose not to read too much into that.Â
âGod,â Grace sighs again. âI miss going on dates.â
âWhat are you talking about? Didnât you go on one a couple weeks ago?â You distinctly remember helping her set it up that night at the bar after work.
âWell, yeah, but I mean good dates. You know, getting properly wined and dined and all that. I guess Iâll just have to live vicariously through you.âÂ
âWe went to dinner once, and there was hardly any wine involved.â
She rolls her eyes. âYou know what I mean. All Iâm saying is youâre lucky to be seeing someone that actually puts in effort for your dates and doesnât just take you to the closest bar to his office and hope that buying you a handful of drinks means heâll get lucky.â Pausing for a moment, she looks up, eyes landing somewhere just over your shoulder. âRight, Jungwon?â
Immediately, itâs as if youâve been submerged in ice cold water. Because thereâs no way she saidâ
âJungwon?â Turning around, youâre put face to face with the last person you wanted to overhear this particular conversation.Â
âHey, ___.â Thereâs a smile on his lips. Small as always, but something feels wrong about it. âGrace,â he nods at the girl over your shoulder. âSorry,â heâs still looking at her, âwere you asking me something?â
âNo, we were just leaving, actuaââ
Grace pays you no attention. âJust telling ___ how lucky she is that her man actually puts effort into their dates, since it feels like such a rarity these days.â
âHe is not my man.â The glare you send your coworker is lost as Jungwon turns back to you, eyes wide, gaze indecipherable.Â
âYouâre dating someone?â
âIâŠâ The easy, most available answer is yes, but youâre having a hard time getting it out. And there are other semantics involved.Â
Are you dating? Not really. That usually indicates some kind of commitment, exclusivity. Going on dates might be a better way to put it. But clarifying that miniscule distinction for Jungwon feels strange for some reason.Â
âMy friendâs brother,â Grace supplies unhelpfully from the corner. âWhat can I say? Iâm a natural born matchmaker.â Her proud smile is lost on the both of you. Youâre only looking at each other.Â
âOh.â Jungwonâs voice is small, hollow. âThatâs nice. Iâm happy for you.â
You want to scream, just a little bit. Or maybe cry. You canât make up your mind.Â
And youâre not sure where it comes from, the sudden, overwhelming surge of guilt that begins to build in your gut. You canât even decipher who itâs directed towards. Towards Jungwon? Towards Jay? Towards yourself?Â
Grace, despite her self-proclaimed talent for setting up dates, is apparently incredibly inept at reading the room. With no prompting but her own, sheâs pushing forward. âHe lived abroad for a while and just moved back to the city, which is like, the perfect scenario for going on dates. And heâs always had a flair for romance. I rememberââ
âWell,â you interrupt, desperate for an out, âwe better get back to the project we were working onââ
âWhat project?â Grace, it would seem, is determined to be anything but helpful.
âYou know,â you glare at her, âour project.â
âRight!â She looks sheepish, finally catching the hint. âThat project.â
Turning back to Jungwon, you can still see the rigidity of his features. The tension that has yet to ease. âIâllâŠâ youâre not sure how to part ways now without making things worse. But it feels wrong to just leave without saying anything. For the third time in the span of days, you tell him, âIâll see you around.â
And for the third time, he agrees, âYeah.â This time, however, his eyes still flickering with annoyance, shoulders still set with residual frustration. âSure thing, ___.â
Itâs what he always says, you realize. But this time, itâs missing that easygoing, genuine lightness he usually says it with.Â
This time, it sounds like rejection.
Yours or his, youâre not entirely sure.
âŠ..
You manage to avoid Jungwon for the rest of the week. Itâs ironic, almost. You were so worried about pursuing a potential relationship with him because you wanted to avoid this exact scenario.Â
Now, a handful of dates with someone who is very much not him tucked under your belt, you still feel the need to turn and walk the other direction whenever you think you hear his voice or get a glimpse of blonde hair.Â
But the office is only so big, and there are only so many corners to duck into. Barely a week has passed the next time you unwittingly bump into him.Â
âOh,â you startle slightly, walking into the workroom and already finding it occupied. And of course youâd run into him here, of all places. Kneeling in front of the printer, his brow is furrowed in concentration as he tries to dislodge yet another paper jam.Â
âSorry.â Youâre not sure what youâre apologizing for exactly, but it feels warranted regardless. âIâll just leave, andââ
â___,â he cuts you off with the sound of your name. Looking down at him, you're met with the expanse of his back. A button down shirt tucked into dark pants. Standard work attire that has no business looking this ridiculously good on anyone. âYouâre fine. You donât need to leave. Just give me a second, and the printerâs all yours.âÂ
You nod, even though he canât see you. If the lack of a verbal response bothers him, he doesnât show it. Instead, he busies himself with the jammed printer, muscles of his back flexing slightly underneath the fabric of his shirt as he tugs at the stubborn papers.Â
Cheeks heating slightly, you force your gaze elsewhere.Â
âThere,â he says after another minute of adjustments. Standing to full height, he turns to face you. âAll fixed.â
Looking up at him, youâre about to offer a quiet thanks when your eyes land on his right cheekbone. Specifically, the fresh cut that spans the length of it.Â
The gasp the spills from your lips is entirely without permission. But you canât quite help it. The wound is quite superficial, surface level at most, but it mars his otherwise perfect skin in a way you werenât prepared for.Â
Without your permission, your fingers start to reach towards the injury. They make it halfway before you remember yourself, before you regain your sense of reality. Your hand falls limply back to your side.Â
âWhat happened?â You breathe.Â
Jungwonâs brows draw together in confusion for a moment before a flicker of realization dances across his features.Â
âOh.â He exhales, fingers tapping against the broken skin of his cheekbone lightly. âNothing. I just, er, fell the other day.â
âYou fell,â you echo. Like all of his other excuses, itâs vague. Flimsy at best.Â
âYeah,â he confirms with a slight nod. Again, he says, âI fell.â
Itâs evasive. And it feels like more than just an explanation for his injury.Â
It feels like confirmation of the distance between the two of you. His final assertion that youâre nothing but a coworker to him. Someone that he tells edited versions of stories to, someone that he keeps firmly planted an armâs length away.Â
Fine. If he wants to give you shitty excuses for his Friday nights and his absences at work events and now his injury that very obviously did not come from a fall, thatâs just fine with you.Â
After all, heâs nothing but a coworker to you either. The upcoming date you have planned with Jay is enough to prove it.Â
âWell,â you tell him, forcing a smile. The fake, disproportionately bright kind that you only ever use with your coworkers. âI hope it heals quickly.â
And then youâre brushing past him, making your way towards the printer as if heâs nothing but an obstacle in your path.Â
Collecting your freshly printed document, you turn and walk out the door without so much as a backward glance.Â
âŠ..
Sliding into the passenger seat of Jayâs car Thursday evening, you feel the stress melting from your shoulders the second the door shuts behind you.Â
This is something else he makes easy: forgetting about whatever woes you managed to acquire after a long day of work. Jay just smiles as you sit down next to him, turning down the volume on the radio as he asks about your day.Â
Tonight, the two of you are headed to one of your favorite diners. Somewhere where you can chat and laugh and relax over a pile of french fries and obnoxiously gaudy decor.Â
But before you turn down the street that leads to the restaurant, Jay asks if the two of you can make a quick stop.Â
âI left my bag at the gym last night,â he explains apologetically. âDo you mind if I swing by and grab it real quick? Itâs on our way.â
You reassure him that itâs no problem, and a handful of minutes later, the two of you are parked outside of a rather nondescript, faded building.Â
Frowning slightly, your eyebrow quirks up in surprise. Although he hasnât outright disclosed anything, from what youâve gathered so far, Jayâs family is quite well off. The kind that pays for expensive memberships at bougie gyms with saunas and swimming pools. Not the kind that frequents dark, run down gyms in the middle of a random residential area.Â
Pulling his key from the ignition, Jay turns to you. âYou can wait here, if you want.â
âThatâs okay.â Youâre already unbuckling your seatbelt. âIâm tired of sitting, anyway.â You really are. Plus, you have to admit that youâre kind of curious.Â
You fall into step at his side as the two of you make your way towards the building. The closer you get, the more decrepit it appears. Paint is peeling from the exterior, leaving it an odd, mottled brown color riddled with rust marks.Â
Even the sign, Kangâs Gym, is small, faded, and only visible once youâre nearly to the entrance.Â
Jay steps in front of you, holding the door open for you to enter.Â
The inside, you realize as you step in, is in no better shape than the outside. The wall closest to you is lined with weightlifting equipment that looks as if it were pulled from past decades.Â
Padding is torn in places, and questionable stains cover the place, accumulated from years of use.Â
Youâre about to ask him outright why on earth he patronizes such a run down place when your eyes land on the far wall of the gym. There, you think you find your answer.Â
Thereâs no weightlifting equipment or cardio machines. Instead, the majority of available space is filled with several sets of boxing rings. Like the rest of the gym, theyâre equally faded and worn with years of use.Â
But the lighting in that part of the gym is noticeably better. Far brighter, more intentional. As if the rest of the gym is just for show and that is the true purpose of this building.Â
Youâre suddenly overcome with the urge to take a second glance at your date.Â
He has a lean, athletic build, yes. The kind that you assumed came from some kind of regular exercise regiment and not his office job.Â
But boxing wasnât exactly what you expected.Â
Jay turns to you. His expression gives nothing away, holds no indication that this is anything out of the ordinary for him. âI think I left it over by the locker rooms.âÂ
Encasing your hand in his, he leads you towards the rings. Several of them are occupied, mostly by one-on-one sparring matches.Â
Walking past the first one, the two men inside the ring turn to look at you and Jay as you pass.Â
âHey, man,â the first one offers with a nod of recognition that Jay returns. As his eyes slide over to you, they widen slightly in surprise. Gaze falling to your intertwined hands, the man just shakes his head slightly before returning to his sparring partner.Â
Moving past them, you shake the odd interaction from your mind.Â
You spare fleeting glances for the rest of the people you pass. For a moment, you try to imagine Jay in the ring instead of them. Itâs an odd contradiction with what youâve come to associate with him.Â
Easygoing. Considerate. Even tempered. Theyâre traits that feel at odds with the kind of stark physicality required in a boxing ring.Â
Then again, the more you consider it, the more you start to make sense of it. Jay is all of those things, yes, but thereâs also an undercurrent of something else.Â
A quiet intensity he carries with him. Something he has control over. Something he can channel when needed.Â
The more you think about it, the easier it is to picture him in the ring, throwing precise, calculated punches until victory rests on his square shoulders.Â
Youâd be lying if you said the mental image didnât pique your interest. Youâre about to ask him if heâll let you watch next time heâs in the ring when a flash of color in the last boxing ring, the one closest to the locker rooms, catches your attention.Â
Itâs unlikely. It feels impossible. Even more so than the thought of Jay in a boxing ring. But as you draw closer, you confirm your suspicions.Â
After all, you would know that shade of blonde anywhere.Â
It takes everything in you not to stop dead in your tracks. But even as you continue forward, hand still encased in Jayâs, your eyes are trained solely on the space between Jungwonâs broad shoulders.Â
Itâs almost inhuman, the feline agility that he moves with. Heâs smaller than his opponent, but heâs faster. Lighter on his feet.Â
The punches he throws are dizzyingly accurate, and his sparring partner seems to think the same. A muted thud is followed by a string of expletives that become more clear the closer you get.Â
âJesus, Jungwon.â The man across from him is still a bit breathless as he recovers from having the wind knocked out of him. âBad week at work or something?â
âCâmon, Heeseung.â It doesnât sound anything like the Jungwon you know. Gone is the quiet friendliness youâve always heard from him. His voice is still gentle, but it carries an unmistakable command. âStop going easy.â
âIâm not,â the other man â Heeseung â argues. âWhat has gotten into you? Itâs like youâve been insane since that match last week.âÂ
âWhatever,â Jungwon scoffs, shaking his head. âLetâs just take five.âÂ
âMake it ten,â Heeseung goads across from him.Â
Jungwon sends him a warning glare, but says nothing. Instead, he reaches for his water bottle at the corner of the ring, leaning against the ropes that enclose it.Â
All you can do is watch, suddenly fascinated by the way sweat darkens his hair, trails down the length of his neck. Jungwon gives a quick shake of his head, sending his hair scattering over his forehead as he leans further into the ropes behind him.
Tipping his head back, his throat works against a swallow as he takes a long drink from his water bottle.Â
Jungwon sets his water bottle down, turning towards Heeseung like heâs about to say something else when movement catches his attention.Â
More specifically, your movement. His eyes fall on you, and for a moment, youâre rendered just as immobile as him. His gaze widens in recognition and then suddenly, heâs standing.Â
Long strides eat up the length of the boxing ring as he crosses it, every step bringing him closer to you. With a distinct sort of grace and practiced ease, he jumps over the side of the ring, landing on his feet just as you and Jay pass him.Â
With a hand on your shoulder, he stops you both in your tracks. His touch is gentle, but commanding. It leaves little room for argument.Â
âThis is the guy youâve been seeing?â Jungwonâs eyes are molten lava. If you thought that day in the staff kitchen was the most visible emotion he was capable of mustering, you were sorely mistaken. The Jungwon that stands in front of you now is simmering with it, vibrating with barely contained emotions.Â
At your side, Jay turns back. With your hand still enclosed in his, Jayâs gaze goes straight towards Jungwonâs hand on your shoulder.Â
âJungwon,â he nods coolly.Â
Jungwon ignores him entirely. His gaze is still trained directly on you.Â
Glancing between the both of them, the tension between them is palpable. Over Jungwonâs shoulder, you can see Heeseung leaning against the edge of the boxing ring as if he canât decide whether to intervene or not.Â
âWell,â you say, attempting to diffuse a bit of the rising animosity, âI guess I donât need to introduce the two of you, then.â
This time, itâs you that Jungwon ignores. Turning to Jay, heâs all venom. âAnd you brought her here? What the hell are you doing?â
âRelax, man.â Jay rolls his eyes. âWeâre just grabbing my bag.â
âI donât give a fuck what you left here,â he bites. âYou know better than toââ
Shaking his hand off your shoulder, annoyance makes itself visible across your features. Itâs one thing for Jungwon to be pissy towards your date, but itâs another entirely for him to assume that you canât handle something as mundane as a boxing gym.Â
And if you're honest, the whole overprotective act just rubs you the wrong way. Why does he think he gets to ignore you all week at work and then act like he knows whatâs in your best interest?
âI think I can handle watching people throw a few punches, Jungwon.â Your voice is all ice, and it changes his demeanor immediately. The anger begins to dissipate, leaving him with wide eyes that beg for your understanding.Â
The frustration is still there, though. âThatâs not what I meant, ___.â
âI donât really care what you meant.â Youâre not sure if itâs true, but you want it to be. For now, thatâs enough. âWhy donât you go back to your friend and pretend like you never saw me. Youâre good at that, right?â
Itâs a low blow. And it has his features falling immediately, eyebrows slackening as if youâve slapped him.Â
His voice is notably gentler when he says your name. â___âŠâ
This time, itâs Jay that speaks. âI suggest you listen to her, man. Weâll be out in a few minutes.â
Jungwon wants to say more. You can see it in the way his mouth twitches, in the way his shoulders still rise with tension. Finally, he relaxes. Just a fraction of an inch, but you know itâs over. At least for now.Â
He doesnât say anything, but he does take a step back. And then another.Â
His eyes are still on you, even as Jay keeps walking, pulling you gently along with him.Â
By the time he finds his bag and the two of you make your way back out, Jungwon is nowhere to be found.Â
You can still feel eyes on you, though.Â
This time, itâs Heeseungâs gaze that follows you all the way out the door.Â
Back in Jayâs passenger seat, you turn towards your date, a million questions swimming in your mind.Â
âWhat on earth was that all about?â
Jay just frowns, knuckles white against the steering wheel. Instead of answering, he asks a question of his own. âHow do you know him?â
âWhat?â Too confused to protest, you answer. âWe work together.â Then you repeat, âWhatâs going on?â
Jay sighs, leans his head back against his seat. âHeâs in marketing with you?â
âNo,â you shake your head. âProgramming. I donât want to ask you again.â This time, you canât help the expletive. âWhat the fuck was that?â
âWeâŠâ Jay trails off, searching for an explanation. âWe know each other.â
âYeah, no shit. How?â
âWe went to the same middle school, before I left for high school. He was a year behind me.â
âAnd what?â You ask, trying to think of what kind of feud middle schoolers could possibly have that would warrant tonightâs interaction. âHe stole your lunch money and you never got over it?â
âNot quite.â His lips are tight. âLook, ___. I know you canât help who you work with, but Jungwon⊠heâs not who you think he is.â
âAnd you are?â
Jay turns to you, hurt clearly written across his features. âThatâs not fair.â
âNo,â you argue, doubling down. âWhatâs not fair is giving me vague half truths about my coworker and expecting me to just agree blindly while you evade all of my questions.â A moment of silence passes. Jay says nothing. Finally, you tell him, âIf youâre not going to be honest with me, then I think you should just take me home.â
âWait, ___ââ
âIâm serious, Jay. Iâm not about to go have dinner with you and pretend that this didn't just happen. Just take me home.â Softening a bit at the obvious distress on his face, you add a quiet, âPlease.â
You wonât compromise your boundaries, but you donât have it in you to be needlessly cruel, even if his evasiveness bothers you to no end.Â
Jay just sighs, pulling into an empty parking lot before turning around and heading in the opposite direction. Towards your apartment.Â
The rest of the car ride passes in stilted silence, neither of you willing to break it.Â
Jay is the first one to speak, but itâs not until youâre sliding out of his passenger seat, back turned towards him.Â
âGood night, ___.â
For a moment, you consider just ignoring him. But it feels petty, even for these circumstances. For now, youâll just have to trust that he needs time to find a way to tell you the truth.Â
âGood night,â you tell him. But you still donât look back.
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note: I AM SO ANNOYEDDDDD this was all supposed to be one long fic, not two parts, but tumblr's post block limit got me. Honestly I don't know how I avoided it this long. Anyway the second part is written and will be posted soon. In the meantime, let me know what you're thinking so far! As always, thank you for reading âĄ
warnings:Â swearing, descriptions/depictions of physical violence, blood and minor injuries, jealousy, a bit of a love triangle I'M SORRY, a kiss or five
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An employee in the marketing department of a large company, your days are filled with poorly worded emails, unrealistic deadlines, and passive aggressive friendly reminders from your superiors. On a particularly awful afternoon, a chance encounter with a coworker from the programming department down the hall is the first thing to make you smile in weeks.
But the more you uncover about Yang Jungwon and his mysterious injuries, flimsy excuses, and always occupied Friday nights, the more you begin to realize that you really donât know him at all.
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PART TWO
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Itâs been a while since you felt anything but dread opening your work inbox.Â
Monday morning, however, the first message that greets you is a reminder of a time when you did. When you used to keep your email tab open just in the hopes that a certain programmer would send you messages about a jammed printer for you to reread a dozen times.Â
This time, though, excitement is the last thing you feel. Itâs curiosity, more than anything, combined with an urgent need to know what the hell happened between your date and your coworker, that has you clicking on the message.Â
I hope this message finds you well. I am currently trying to resolve an ongoing issue with the workroom printer and was hoping you would be able to provide some input at your earliest convenience.Â
Thank you in advance,Â
Jungwon
Part of you wants to archive the message without responding and let him simmer in your rejection.Â
But spite has never held much weight against curiosity, and despite your better judgment, you soon find yourself walking towards the shared workroom.Â
As expected, itâs already occupied. This time, however, Jungwon is leaning against the wall, arms crossed over his chest. The printer, just as you suspected, is in perfect working order.Â
Thereâs a fresh bruise on his forehead, and this time, you donât wonder where itâs from. It makes sense now. The bruises on his knuckles. The cut on his cheekbone. His seemingly intimate knowledge of head injuries that one fateful Monday afternoon he found you in this very room.Â
Theyâre all the result of his hidden hobby, you suppose.Â
As soon as you enter, some of the rigidity seeps out of his stance. Immediately, his arms fall to his sides, expression softening. â___,â he whispers, like he canât quite believe you actually came.Â
Where he softens, however, you cage up.Â
âYou have one minute,â you tell him.Â
âOne minute?â He echoes, brow creasing in confusion.Â
âOne minute to explain what happened Saturday night.â
Jungwon sighs. âIâm sorry. Really, I⊠I shouldnât have reacted like that.â
You donât say anything. An apology is appreciated, yes, but itâs not an explanation.Â
With your silence, Jungwon continues, âI was just⊠caught off guard. I didnât expect to see you there, and especially not with him.â
He pauses for a moment, biting at his lower lip. âLook, ___. I know it probably isnât my place, but I donât think heâs being honest with you. Jay isnât the person that you think he is, andââ
Your scoff cuts through his words, stopping him in his tracks. âThatâs funny,â you interrupt. But humor is the last thing on your mind. âHe said the exact same thing about you, you know. But it has to be bullshit. I mean, what could have possibly happened in middle school that two adults with jobs are still hung up on a decade later?â
Jungwonâs lips part in surprise. âHe told you about middle school?â
âWhy?â you prod. âIs there something to know?â
But now youâre at a stalemate, neither of you willing to disclose what exactly you know.Â
After another beat, Jungwon sighs. âLook, Iâm not trying to tell you what to doââ
âCould have fooled me.â
âBut I just want you to be careful, okay? Itâs⊠itâs important to me that youâre safe.â
âSafe?â You scoff. âIt was a boxing gym. I donât know why youâre acting like I was trying to push my way into the ring with you.â
âYou donât get itââ
âNo.â You throw your hands in exasperation. âI donât get it. But youâre not explaining it to me. Youâre just being evasive and acting like Iâm the one in the wrong. So unless you actually have something of substance to say, Iâm done having this conversation.â
â____âŠâÂ
Already halfway to the exit, the sound of your name is lost on you. Itâs bad enough that Jay has yet to reach out to you since last night. You absolutely do not need Jungwon bringing this issue into the office as well.Â
As if on cue, your phone dings with an incoming message.Â
Half expecting to see a virtual string of apologies from your coworker, youâre mildly surprised to see a different name instead.Â
You were right about the apologies, though.Â
Jay: Iâm sorry about last night. You were right about deserving an explanation and I want to give you one. I think this is a conversation we should have in person. Are you free Friday night for dinner?
Friday night. Two nights from now. Itâs soon enough that you wonât have to stew in resentment, but will give you both the time and space you need to think.Â
It doesnât take you long to consider, but you do wait another long minute before giving him the satisfaction of responding.Â
You: Iâll plan on Friday.
âŠ..
Friday morning comes with a vengeance.Â
Already teeming with nervous energy at the prospect of your upcoming date with Jay and the conversation that is sure to ensue, youâre a bit of a mess by the time you arrive at work.Â
Hair windswept, outfit mismatched, lipstick slightly smudged, you already know youâre in for a long day at the office.Â
But when you arrive at your desk, you find something that softens the blow, just a bit.Â
Grace, ever the instigator, is already learning over your cubicle by the time you notice it.Â
âWhew,â she whistles appreciatively. âSomeoneâs pulling out all the stops.â
And sheâs kind of right. The bouquet sitting front and center on your desk is massive. Overflowing with seasonal flowers that already emit a pleasant fragrance even from where you stand. The vase itself itâs gorgeous, too.Â
Imbued with a myriad of colors, it reminds you a bit of a stained glass window on a sunny afternoon.Â
Reaching for the small note tucked at the top, you open the envelope with slightly shaky fingers.Â
 ___, it reads.Â
I wish I had more to give you than an apology, but Iâve been told that flowers are a sure thing when it comes to brightening someoneâs day. I hope these are able to do that for you.Â
â J
Frowning, you read it once. Twice.Â
Jay has already apologized for the incident from a couple of nights ago, and the timing of this second apology seems odd, given your plans for tonight.Â
Youâre left to stand in your own confusion for a moment longer before a text message vibrates your phone in your pocket.Â
Reaching for it, the flowers suddenly start to make a lot more sense.Â
Jay: I am so sorry, but I have to reschedule our plans for tonight. It completely slipped my mind, but my sisterâs baby shower is tomorrow morning, and Iâve been voluntold to help set it up. I promise to let you know as soon as I can when Iâll be available
Jay: And again, I am so, so sorry
Sighing, you put your phone back in your bag. You canât blame him. Not really. His sisterâs baby shower is undoubtedly an important event, even if the timing is rather unfortunate for you.Â
Grace, blissfully unaware of your inner turmoil, is still gushing about your flowers. Turning to you, she wiggles her eyebrows suggestively. âSo, what are those for? Got a hot date this weekend?â
You sigh, recently canceled plans still dampening your mood. Deciding thereâs no harm in telling Grace your woes, you say, âI wish. Jay just had to cancel on me for tonight.â
âNo.â Grace gasps. If you didnât know any better, youâd think she was personally affronted. âHe better have had a good excuse.â
âHe did,â you admit. Unlike someone you know. âFamily stuff.â
âAh,â Grace nods. âI suppose thatâs acceptable. Have you rescheduled?â
Frowning at the message you have yet to answer, you shake your head. âNot yet.â
âMm,â she hums, sensing your disappointment. âIâm sure something just came up at work, and heâll get back to you soon.âÂ
âYeah,â you nod hollowly. âIâm sure he will.â
You: I understand. Is there any chance we could meet Saturday evening or afternoon? Itâs important to me that we talk about it soon.
Itâs not as if you expect an immediate response. Like you, Jay is probably at work for the day. Busy and drowning in deadlines and assignments. Maybe even stuck in a meeting.Â
But thirty minutes pass. And then an hour. Two.Â
And your message is still completely unanswered.Â
The more time that passes, the harder it becomes to shake the funny feeling that starts to build in your gut. It builds and builds and builds, all the way until closing time.Â
And Jay still hasnât texted you back.Â
Thatâs annoying enough all on its own, but thereâs something else that just isnât adding up.Â
You canât quite put your finger on it, the thing thatâs bothering you so much. But even as you make your way towards after clocking out for the day, something still doesnât sit right with you. Opening your message thread again, you reread Jayâs last text.Â
Jay: ⊠my sisterâs baby shower is tomorrow morning, and Iâve been voluntold to help set it up.Â
Sisterâs baby shower.Â
Thatâs whatâs been bothering you. Because unless Jayâs sister is just finishing the shortest known pregnancy in human history, heâs lying to you.Â
You remember it now. The first time Grace mentioned Jay to you. She had just seen him for the first time since he moved back home.Â
At his older sisterâs baby shower.Â
Sitting in your car, you scoff out loud in disbelief. The ice he treads on has been dangerously thin since your run in with Jungwon at the boxing gym, and he had the audacity to lie?Â
Part of you wants to catch him in it. For your own confirmation and for the satisfaction of not letting him get away with trying to pull a fast one on you. But you need an excuse. Some reason to seek him out and find him where he isnât supposed to be.Â
Racking your brain, you try to think of a plausible explanation for turning up at his house tonight.Â
Still sitting in the parking lot, a car turns past you, headlights shining in through your windshield in a way that makes you squint.Â
In a way that reflects off of the tiny piece of metal jammed in the crevice next to your cupholder. Frowning, you reach down, tugging at it until itâs freed from its confines.Â
Youâre not sure what divine forces are working in your favor, but you make a mental note to properly thank them later. Because clutched between your fingers is Jayâs missing ring. The one that heâs been looking for since he messaged you about it last week.Â
Itâs perfect, you think. An absolutely perfect excuse to drop by his house, even if you should be under the impression that heâs not there at the moment.Â
Turning the piece of jewelry between your fingers, your eyes catch on an inscription on the inner band. Squinting, you can just make it out.Â
2013.11.13 King Pen
Youâre pretty sure the numbers are a date. November 13, 2013, to be exact. But King Pen. You have no idea what that is.Â
It sounds like it could be related to boxing, maybe. Pulling out your phone, you do a quick online search.Â
The results that flood your screen are mostly generic, nothing that gives you any real leads. You try a few different search combinations, including the date and finally, the name of your city.Â
That does send an old article to the top of your search results. Something published in a local newspaper in 2007.Â
Clicking on the link, you scan the article for anything relevant.Â
Samuel Kang, one line towards the beginning reads, shared his plans to open a boxing gym right here in the city. Although there are other similar gyms in nearby towns, this would be the first gymnasium dedicated solely to boxing in the area.Â
You skip down a few more lines.Â
When asked if he knows what heâd like to call his project, Kang just smiles and nods his head. âKing Pen,â he tells us. âI plan to call it King Pen.â
You frown. Your earlier search is proof enough that King Pen never came to fruition. As a final attempt at getting some answers, you type Samuel Kang into the search bar instead.Â
This time, the first article that pops up does carry an air of familiarity. Clicking on it, you confirm your suspicion.Â
Samuel Kang, as it turns out, never opened a boxing gym called King Pen. But he did open one called Kangâs Gym.Â
Looking through the photo gallery, the weightlifting equipment appears to have been in much better shape in 2008 than it was a couple of weeks ago. But even though the paint was still bright and the training pads were fully intact, it is undoubtedly the same exact gym.Â
Thereâs no reason for you to go there now. If anything, you should just drive straight to Jayâs house. But something still doesn't sit right with you.Â
Why does Jayâs ring say King Pen instead of Kangâs Gym? Especially since itâs dated five whole years after the gym opened under its actual name.Â
Besides, the gym is on your way to Jayâs apartment. If anything, itâs just a quick pit stop. A confirmation that youâre not going crazy.Â
Putting your car in drive, you set the ring on your passenger seat and drive out of the parking lot.Â
Itâs already dark by the time youâre pulling into Kangâs Gym. Switching your car off, you remove your key from the ignition.Â
Your automatic headlights still illuminate the strangely full parking lot in front of you. Frowning, you wonder why so many people are here. Even the night that you came with Jay, the parking lot wasnât nearly this full, and yet, most of the boxing rings inside were occupied.Â
Stepping out of your car, you close the door behind you softly. Youâre not sure why youâre overcome with the urge to tiptoe. Itâs not like you need to sneak around. Youâre not doing anything wrong, after all.Â
But the whole thing feels strange, has you on edge. You make it only a few steps before your eyes land on a familiar car.Â
âSisterâs baby shower, my ass,â you whisper out loud to no one. Unless she decided to celebrate her new child at a run down boxing gym, Jay is absolutely lying to you. Because thatâs his sleek black car, right in front of you. Youâd recognize it anywhere.Â
And a few rows down, you confirm your other suspicion. Youâve never seen him drive it, but you have seen that particular navy blue SUV in the office parking garage before. Jungwon. Youâre sure itâs him.Â
For a moment, you hesitate. It might be easier, cleaner, to just take a picture of Jayâs car and send it to him. After all, that would get your point across clearly enough. Especially if you block him afterwards.Â
But heâs been evasive about everything related to this place since he first brought you here. And heâs not the only one.Â
Eyes falling to Jungwonâs car, you decide that catching Jay in a lie isnât the only thing you want to do tonight.Â
You want answers.Â
So the picture you take of Jayâs car remains unsent for now. Instead, you hike your bag a little further up your shoulder and continue walking in the direction of the gym.Â
Nearing the door, you brace yourself to be met with the large crowd that surely waits inside. Judging from the parking lot, this place must be near full capacity. But as you push through the unlocked door, the gym is completely and entirely empty.Â
Eerily so.Â
All around you, workout equipment and boxing rings sit untouched, devoid of life. There isnât so much as a sound to disturb the uncanny silence.Â
Frowning, your brow creases in deep confusion. Nothing about this makes any sense.Â
But you didnât come all the way here to add to your pile of questions. Instead, you push forward, past the rows of boxing rings towards the locker room where Jay left his bag a handful of nights ago.Â
It feels wrong to open the menâs locker room. But if no one is here, then surely it couldnât hurt. Warily, you start to crack open the door, inch by inch.Â
The locker room, to your unending puzzlement, is just as empty as the rest of the gym.Â
Youâre about to turn back to search the rest of the gym when you notice it. Just across from you, behind the first set of empty lockers. Thereâs another door.Â
Itâs probably nothing, you tell yourself, even as your feet carry you closer and closer. It probably just leads to a storage closet or a boiler room orâ
Pushing the door open, the first thing youâre met with is sound.Â
Voices. Loud voices. Lots and lots of them. In your surprise, you drop the door, and it clicks shut again.Â
Immediately, the sound stops. Plunged in silence again, itâs all you can do to not gasp.Â
Soundproof, you realize. Itâs soundproof. And not just the locker room. The entire gym was dead silent until you opened this door.
This time, when you push it open, you expect the cacophonous cheers that greet you. Youâre still too far away to make out what anyone is saying. Right now, it all blends into a wall of sound.Â
Vision is of little help, too. The only thing you see when you open the door is a staircase. In the low light, all you can tell is that it leads down.Â
Hoping that youâre not currently making the stupidest decision of your life, you place one tentative foot on the first step. Follow it with your other foot. And then you let the door close behind you, plunging you into complete darkness.Â
Immediately, a surge of panic claws at your throat. The lack of light, combined with the sheer volume of cheers and shouts, is enough to have you crawling in your skin.Â
Reaching blindly for the door handle behind you, you decide that sending Jay a picture of his car will have to be satisfying enough. But no matter how hard you try to twist the doorknob, it wonât budge.Â
No. No.Â
Youâre trapped. Effectively locked in.Â
As the reality of the situation sinks in, you feel the pit of your stomach begin to drop.Â
Part of you wants to just stay in place, wait for whateverâs going on to end and hope that a stroke of luck will set you free. But then another thought occurs to you.Â
What if this is the only entrance?
You donât know how many people are down there, but if the sound and parking lot are anything to go by, itâs a lot.Â
Youâre sure that Jay and Jungwon are among them, but stillâŠ
Both of their warnings start to come back to you.
âHeâs not who you think he isâŠâ
âI just want you to be carefulâŠâ
âItâs important to me that youâre safeâŠâ
Is this what they were talking about? Is this why Jungwon was so angry with Jay for bringing you here? Not because he didnât want you to see a boxing gym, but because thatâs not what this place is at all?
The more you mull it over, the more it starts to make sense.Â
Still submerged in darkness, you decide that the only way youâll confirm anything is by moving forward. Slowly, you reach for your phone, turning the flashlight on its lowest setting.Â
Keeping it clutched in your hands in case you need to shut it off at a momentâs notice, you begin to walk, descending down the staircase.Â
After two flights on uneven steps, you start to see a light in the distance, a clue that youâre getting closer. And with every step you take, the voices only get louder and louder.Â
On the third landing, youâre given two choices: continue down the stairs or move into a hallway that stretches to your left. Deciding that staying as far away from the crowd as you can is likely your best option, you opt for the hallway.Â
Youâve barely walked a few feet when you nearly stumble into a wall. Itâs not the end though â just a corner. The light from your phone confirms that the hallway takes a sharp turn.Â
Following it, you come to another door. This time, youâre even more hesitant. There could be people on the other side.Â
Pressing your ear against it, the only thing you hear is the same scrambled shouting, the same boisterous crowd. Itâs hard to tell for certain, but you donât hear anything that makes you think thereâs someone waiting on the other side.Â
Slowly, carefully, you begin to open the door.Â
The sudden light is nearly blinding. It takes your eyes a moment to adjust, but once they do, your mouth drops open.Â
You were right, thankfully. The small room you enter is mercifully empty.Â
But itâs also lined with windows that give you a direct view into the room one level beneath you. Jaw dropping, you take in the scene below.Â
There must be at least five hundred people crammed into the stands that encircle the room. All of them are on their feet, shouting jeers and cheering with equal fervor.Â
And in the center of it all is a boxing ring. On the side that faces you, bold letters give it a name:
King Pen.
Itâs empty for now, but youâre only left wondering for another handful of seconds before a middle aged man steps into the center, microphone in hand. With an open palm, he gestures towards the crowd, commanding them to listen.Â
Whoever he is, he holds weight here. With the flick of his hand, literally, the room all but falls silent.Â
âLadies and gentlemen,â he says into the microphone. âNext up is the fight weâve all been waiting for.â
He pauses for a moment as more cheers and shouts fill the room.Â
âI hope your bets are placed, because these two always manage to surprise us. Please welcome our first challenger to the ring. Back to the city for the first time in years, itâs Jaan!â
But itâs not Jaan. Or at least, itâs not someone you know as Jaan.Â
No, itâs Jay. The same Jay that took you to an art exhibition and convinced you to try sweet coffee instead of your usual bitter black. The same Jay that flirts with you over text and whispers sweet nothings in your ear after a long day of work.Â
The same Jay that lied to you about why he had to cancel your date tonight.Â
The crowd has barely died down when the man presses on, âAnd your second challenger, the reigning champion⊠Please give your warmest welcome for Jakah!âÂ
The alias booms around you, echoing through the room. And of course itâs him. Of course Jakah, the reigning champion, is someone you used to think would have trouble hurting a fly.Â
Someone you thought embodied gentleness, patience, with every ounce of his being.Â
But no matter how badly you want to deny it, no matter how much the cognitive dissonance wars inside your brain, itâs him.Â
Itâs Jungwon who enters from the other side of the ring.Â
âNow, remember,â the man addresses the audience again. âCheer for your favorite. Scream at his opponent. And donât forget our golden rule: in the Kingâs Pen,â he begins.Â
âAnything goes,â the audience shouts back in unison.Â
Anything? Your heart falls from your throat to the pit of your stomach. As if it wasnât bad enough that Jay is here, that he lied to you, that heâs fighting Jungwon.Â
Taking a closer look at the ring beneath you, you notice the odd, rust colored stains that nearly cover it.Â
Blood, you realize after a sickening moment. The ring is covered in blood stains.Â
It makes sense, suddenly, why King Pen didnât appear in any search results. Why this entire place is completely soundproofed. Why Jungwon wanted you to stay far, far away.Â
This isnât a sparring match. Itâs a duel.Â
One where, like the audience just affirmed, anything goes.Â
As the man steps out from the center of the ring, Jay and Jungwon start to circle each other, fists raised in anticipation.Â
Even from a distance, you can see the tight coil of muscle in their shoulders, the way their bodies prepare for the inevitable fight.Â
âSay it with me now, folks,â the man booms, now standing on the side of the ring.Â
âThree.â Jayâs eyes narrow, fists rising an inch higher.
âTwo.â Jungwon flicks a stray strand of hair out of his eyes.Â
âOne.â You feel your last bit of breath whoosh out from your lungs.Â
âFight.â
Itâs like a dance, you think. A sickening, deadly dance that you canât look away from no matter how much you want to.Â
Despite your lack of knowledge, it quickly becomes apparent to you why this is the main event of the evening.Â
Where Jay is sheer, brutal strength, Jungwon is all evasion. He moves with the agility of an athlete, the lightness of a dancer.Â
He makes it look easy, the way he ducks beneath carefully timed swings and always seems to predict what Jay will do next.Â
But even dancers stumble sometimes.Â
You canât help it, the gasp that slips out when one of Jayâs punches lands true. You watch, horrified, as Jungwon staggers backwards, adding to the crimson stains on the floor of the ring.Â
Slightly dazed, he brings the back of his palm to the broken skin along his cheekbone, assessing the damage. When he brings it in front of his face, it comes back red.Â
Jay takes no pity on his opponent. Following his retreat, he aims for another bruising blow. This one hits Jungwon just beneath the ribs. Echoes around the makeshift stadium with a dull thud you hear even from your hiding place.Â
Again, Jungwonâs sure steps falter.Â
The rise and fall of his chest is rapid as he struggles to catch his breath. But when he looks up again, thereâs a fire in his eyes. Pure, unadulterated hatred that permeates the scant distance between him and his rival and sends a shiver down the length of your spine.Â
Not one to take things lying down, Jungwon takes advantage of Jayâs momentary lapse in focus.Â
His fist connects with the bridge of Jayâs nose with a sickening crunch. Head falling backward, the immediate flow of blood is gruesome. It drip down his chin, landing on the floor beneath him in an arrhythmic pattern.Â
Thereâs little grace to it now. Gone are the remaining fragments of inhibition as both boys put away their judgment and leave the rest to instinct.Â
Itâs messy, sloppy, angry.Â
Theyâre so close; itâs hard to tell which blows come from who. Hard to tell whose wounds are multiplying faster, whose blood is falling more freely.Â
And then, just when you think you canât stomach watching any longer, itâs done.Â
Itâs so fast. You canât quite be sure how it happens. But one second, both boys are standing, and the next, Jay is flat on his back, Jungwon hovering above him.Â
Still, the crowd is silent. Everyoneâs eyes are on the ring.Â
Jay is down. Trapped beneath his opponent, itâs clear to you who the victory is. But then you remember the words the crowd chanted at the beginning of the fight.Â
Anything goes.Â
Your stomach twists with nausea.Â
Even from here, you can see the tension that still strains the muscles along Jungwonâs back. The rigidity of his shoulders.Â
For a moment, you think heâs going to do it. To strike again, even though victory is already in his hands.Â
You see his lips move with words you canât hear. Beneath him, Jay remains stoic. Thereâs still fight in his eyes, even if itâs been drained from his body.Â
Jungwonâs mouth moves again.Â
This time, Jay nods. Itâs a tiny movement, barely perceptible. But itâs enough.Â
With an agitated flair, Jungwon stands again.Â
Blood is still dripping from his face, his knuckles. Sweat covers his body, drenches his hair.Â
Heâs won, yes, but the expression on his features is not one of satisfaction.Â
ARound him, the audience begins to boo, throwing jeers and insults like extra change. They were hoping for more than a fight. They were hoping for cruelty Jungwon isnât willing to give.Â
Without a second glance back, he turns and leaves the ring.Â
Still reeling, you nearly jump out of your skin when the handle on the door to your room begins to turn.Â
If you had a stronger grip on your sense of logic, you would do something. Try to hide. Scramble to think of an excuse for your presence.Â
The door opens before you do any of it.Â
âOh,â Heeseung says, eyes widening as he finds the room already occupied. And then it registers with him who exactly is already occupying said room. âOh,â he repeats. âHe is not going to be happy about this.â
âŠ..
Heeseungâs fist rings out against the door in three sharp raps. For a moment, silence is the only response. And thenâ
âIâm not in the mood.â
âUh,â Heeseung glances at you sideways. âI think you should open the door anyway.âÂ
âIâm serious.â Jungwonâs voice is pure ire. âIâm not doing this with you right now, Heeseung.â
âOkay,â Heeseung concedes. âBut I really still think you should open theââ
âWhat?â
Jungwonâs glare lands on his friend before his gaze slides to you. Immediately, his features slacken in surprise. âOh.â
And itâs stupid, foolish, naive. But the first thing you feel when you see him standing on his own two feet is pure, unadulterated relief.Â
Heâs injured. Itâs obvious from the wounds that line his face and the way his breath is still shallow in his chest. But heâs okay.Â
Heâs here and heâs in front of you and heâs okay.Â
âYeah,â Heeseung repeats. âLike I said, I think you shouldââ
âGo away.â
âWhat?â Heeseung balks. âWhere am I supposed toââ
âAway,â Jungwon reiterates, eyes still locked on you.Â
Heeseung is sulking, but he follows Jungwonâs command regardless. And then itâs just the two of you.Â
You both speak at the same time, near identical questions overlapping with one another.Â
âWhat the hell are you doing?â
âWhy are you here?â
A beat of silence passes. Another.Â
As if he is suddenly remembering your surroundings, Jungwon looks around you, a new urgency in his gaze. You donât know what kind of consequences places like this carry, but common sense tells you itâs best that youâre not seen. âCome in,â he opens the door a bit wider, giving you space to enter.Â
You shouldnât. He hasnât lied to you, not exactly, but itâs not like heâs been particularly honest either.Â
And coworkers donât owe you the truth or the nitty gritty details of their lives, but itâs been a long time since Jungwon and you treated one another like coworkers. No matter what you want to call it, the relationship that youâve built between conversations in the workroom and email threads and kind gestures in the office feels a lot more like friendship. Or at the very least some iteration of it.Â
So youâre not mad at him for keeping this from you, not really.Â
But other emotions are swirling in your gut, and you donât know what to do with them. Most of all, youâre worried. For his safety. For his wellbeing. For him.Â
Obeying his command, you step inside the small room. You hear the door click shut behind you.Â
Looking around, there isnât much to see. Itâs a locker room, essentially, designed for one person. Thereâs a counter to your left with a small first aid kit and a chair in the far corner of the room.Â
A gym bag, Jungwonâs you assume, rests next to it.Â
And, of course, thereâs the two of you.Â
Glancing up, you take a look at him. A long, real look.Â
Heâs wearing the same clothes he entered the ring with. A white athletic shirt that moves with him, gives his long, lean muscles space to move. To flex and contract with every shallow breath.Â
Heâs still just as gorgeous as always, even with a split lip and a nasty cut that spans the length of his temple. Even with the bruising thatâs already begun to discolor his near flawless skin.Â
Sighing, you nod towards the chair behind him. âSit down.â
âWhat?â Confusion draws his brow downward, and he hisses in pain at the movement.Â
âDonât tell me your illegal fights have ruined your hearing too.â
âWhat? No.â Jungwon shakes his head. âMy hearing is perfectly fine, I mean.â
âThen sit.â You glance pointedly at the chair again. âDown.â
This time, he doesnât try to argue. You watch from your periphery, frowning at the slight limp in his left leg as he walks toward the chair, easing himself down.Â
Reaching for the first aid kit on the counter, you bring it with you as you move across the room.Â
Your steps are slow and even. They carry you all the way to the far corner, until youâre forced to stop.Â
Standing above Jungwon, your lips pull into a tight line as you begin to assess his injuries. Hesitation might be wise, but you canât find any of it left in you.Â
Your movements are sure, gentle but firm. Hands sliding to his jaw, you adjust his face slightly, turning the gash on his temple towards the light. Itâs an echo of the way he examined you in the workroom, long weeks ago.Â
This time, itâs him thatâs easily manipulable underneath your touch.Â
âWhat are you doing?â He whispers.Â
Your hesitation is gone, but so is your patience. âDonât talk.â Jungwonâs lips fall shut. Heâs pliant in your hands as you adjust him.Â
Reaching for the kit, the first thing you pull out is antiseptic cream.Â
âThis might sting,â you whisper.Â
âItâs okay,â he assures you. But he hisses at the contact all the same. âDoesnât even hurt,â he lies through gritted teeth, forcing a smile.Â
If heâs trying to be funny, his attempt at humor is lost on you.Â
Gaze still narrowed in concentration, you busy yourself by cleaning the worst of his wounds first.Â
As you move from his forehead to his lip, you donât think you imagine the sharp inhale he draws between parted lips.Â
âIt stings?â You ask him.Â
âJust a bit.â You feel the ghost of his whisper against your fingertips.Â
You look up for a moment, and you find his gaze already locked on yours. It takes a significant portion of your willpower to stop yourself from reaching up to brush his hair from his eyes.Â
It feels wrong, even if you call it friendship. Even if you and Jay never discussed exclusivity.Â
Your heart is fluttering, and thatâs what makes it all seem so illicit.Â
With no small amount of effort, you force your eyes down again. Standing above him, your fingers move from his face to his hands. His wrist clasped in your fingers, you sink to your knees in front of him.Â
Jungwon swallows audibly.Â
Pulling his hand closer, you examine the series of shallow cuts, of angry, violet bruises that line his knuckles. With another long sigh, you reach for the cream again, applying it generously before carefully wrapping it in a bandage.Â
After giving the same attention to the other hand, you lean back, assessing your handiwork.
For a moment, neither of you moves. Youâre still kneeling in front of him. He still sits above you.Â
And then, after a breath of hesitation, one carefully wrapped hand finds its way to your face.Â
Gently, with a touch so light you hardly feel it, he lays his open palm against the expanse of your cheek. Cradles it. Â
He whispers your name, and you canât find it in you to look up.Â
âI donâtâŠâ you trail off, not sure how to communicate the swirling mix of emotions simmering just beneath the surface. âI donât want to be mad at you.â
âBut you are,â Jungwon assumes. He accepts it, and he doesnât let it change anything. His hand is steady against your cheek. His thumb starts to draw small circles, just under your earlobe.Â
âIâm not,â you correct. âBut this isnâtâŠâ again your words die. Itâs frustrating, the way you feel like you can never be straightforward with him. The way you always feel like you have to navigate through subtext and half truths and partial reveals just to get a point across.Â
âBut you donât owe me anything right now.â
His thumb stills against your skin.Â
âWeâre coworkers,â you continue. âWeâre just coworkers, so it doesnât matter if you fight in illegal boxing matches. You donât have to worry about what I think of it, and I donât have to be mad at you for it.â
You do look up at him, begging for a bit of his understanding. âYou can be evasive with your excuses and reject all of my invitations. We can meet by chance in the workroom on Monday afternoons, and none of it ever has to mean anything. Neither of us ever has to feel anything about it.â
âBut,â Jungwon whispers.Â
âYeah,â you nod. Your cheek slides easily against the soft skin of his bruised hand. âBut.â
Jungwon is silent for a moment, eyes darting between both of yours. Then, tentatively, he asks, âAre you mad at him?â
He doesnât say Jayâs name, but the venom he wraps around the word is all you need to know who heâs talking about.
You shake your head, eyelids fluttering. âWeâre coworkers.â You reiterate the boundaries heâs always maintained with you. âYou donât get to ask me that.â
Jungwonâs hand slides to your neck, thumb tracing the length of your jaw now. âAnd if I want to?â
You shake your head again. You can only give him so much on a silver platter. If he wants anything to change, heâll have to find a bit of his own bravery. âThatâs not the question you need to ask me.â Looking up at him, you draw another line. âAnd not tonight.â
Youâve both been through enough. Heightened emotions rarely lead to good decisions, and the last thing you want is his indecisiveness. His impulsivity.
Quietly, you stand, his hand falling from your face as you rise to full height in front of him.Â
His eyes look wider from this angle, from above. Even shinier than usual. No matter how many boundaries you draw or how many ways you deny him, heâs someone thatâs hard to say no to. Hard to walk away from.Â
Steeling the last remnants of your resolve, you manage to look him in those dark, sparkling eyes when you tell him, âGood night, Jungwon.â
âGood night, ___,â he whispers to your retreating silhouette.Â
Closing the door behind you, you barely have a moment to catch your breath before a voice interrupts your wandering thoughts.Â
âYou like him, donât you?â
The gasp you give is out of shock more than anything. And the âWhat?â you ask is a knee jerk reaction.
 âYang.â Jay materializes from his position in the darkness, jerking his chin towards the door behind you. âYou like him.â
Immediately, you find yourself on the defense. Even if youâre just delaying the inevitable, itâs cagey when you tell him. âWe work together.â
Jay just looks at you. âMy favorite color is green.â
âWhat?â
âSorry,â Jayâs tone is flat. Heâs not annoyed, but heâs coming close to it. âI thought we were stating irrelevant facts.âÂ
With a sigh, he drags an open palm down his face. âI know you work together. But you like him, too," he sighs again, reading the horror in your expression. Mostly due to the fact that he read you like an open book when you thought you were keeping your feelings close to the chest. âIâm not⊠mad. It sucks, but itâs not like I was honest with you either. Iâm sorry, by the way, for lying about tonight.â
Itâs too much to process, all at once. Your head is swimming and your heart is pounding.Â
It was a shitty thing to do, yes, butâÂ
âYou donât have to say sorryââ
Again, Jay doesnât let you finish. âIâm not saying sorry because I have to. Iâm saying it because I am. I like you.â Heâs so honest. So blunt with his feelings. He makes things so easy. âI like spending time with you. I think we both know thatâs not enough anymore,â he casts another meaningful glance at the door behind him. The one that leads to Jungwonâs locker room, âbut itâs still true.â
âIâŠâ you trail off, unsure what to say. Heâs not wrong. In fact, heâs all but hit the nail right on the head. With deadly accuracy.Â
Heeseung was the one that found you, that brought you to Jungwon, but still.Â
Itâs not Jay that you checked in on fist. Itâs not Jay whose wounds you just cleaned. Itâs not Jay who youâre thinking about now.Â
Like he said, it sucks, but itâs still true.Â
Jay has bruises, too. Has cuts that line his knuckles and his jaw. Heâs here because heâs part of an illegal underground boxing ring. He lied to you about it.Â
But you just⊠youâre not mad at him about it. And thatâs the final nail in the coffin.Â
Jay just looks at you for a moment longer. For the third time, he sighs. âYouâre really gonna make me do this part too?â He inhales, steeling his resolve. âOkay, then. ___, I think we shouldââ
âI think we should stop seeing each other,â you finish for him. You can give him at least that much. âI had a great time getting to know you, but I think we want different things right now. I wish you all the best. Really, youâre a great guy, Jay.â
He is.Â
âI mean it.â
You do.Â
âThank you, ___.â
He means it too.Â
When Jay walks away from you, his shoulders are straight and his head is high.Â
You feel a lot of things, as you watch his retreating figure.Â
But no matter how deep you search, regret isnât one of them.Â
âŠ..
Monday morning brings with it a distinct sort of dread.Â
Partly because it marks the beginning of another long week. Mostly because going back to the office means potentially seeing him.Â
If youâre honest with yourself, youâre not sure if youâre ready for that. If youâre ready to face the feelings youâve been forcing down for months and the potential fallout they may bring with them.Â
So, when you open your inbox first thing in the morning, an unreasonable request from your supervisor isnât the thing youâre most afraid of finding.Â
Jungwon, however, isnât planning to stick to old routines. When he seeks you out, he does it in person.Â
Graceâs eyes are anywhere but on her own work when he walks through the door of the marketing department half past ten.Â
â___,â he breathes.Â
The wounds on his face are already fading, hardly even noticeable. You wish you could say the same for the turmoil raging inside of you. You canât decide if you want to throw your arms around his neck or tell him to fuck off.Â
In the end, you just look at him blankly.Â
âCan weâŠâ he trails off, visibly frustrated. He isnât sure how to do this either. âCan you help me with something? In the workroom. I think the printer is acting up again.â
The printer is fine. You used it five minutes ago.Â
But heâs not asking you to help him with work or the printer or anything else. Heâs asking for a bit of your time, a fraction of your understanding.Â
Itâs messy. It has so much potential for heartbreak, for complication.Â
But heâs here and heâs looking at you like your answer means the world to him. Like he might forget how to breathe if you donât say yes.Â
So, with a rising bout of uncertainty, you tell him, âLetâs go take a look at it.â
The printer, just as you suspected, is in perfect working order. Jungwon doesnât even spare it a second look.Â
Instead, he closes the door to the workroom behind you. And then he says, âI started boxing when I was a kid. I think I was eight, nine maybe.â
âWhat are youââ
âJust listen,â Jungwon begs. âPlease.â
You want to protest. Youâre not sure why, but the urge is strong. But after a moment of warring with yourself, you finally nod, giving him permission to continue.Â
âIt was just a hobby. Something to keep me busy on long afternoons when both of my parents were working in the restaurant my family owned. But I kept at it, and they could see how much I enjoyed it. By the time I was ten, my mom enrolled me in actual classes.â
Jungwon smiles, reminiscing on the tidbits of a happy childhood. But then his smile starts to falter. âA few months later, my grandpa died. It wasnât a surprise exactly, but it did have some unexpected consequences on the business. My family started to struggle. With money, more than anything.â
He sighs, and your heart hurts for a past version of him, too young to make sense of all of the sudden changes in his life. âI had to quit taking lessons. I kept practicing on my own, though. And when I started middle school, there was a free boxing club I joined. I met a lot of my friends there. Heeseung, who you met the other night, along with a few others. I also met Jay.â
Jungwonâs lips pull into a line. âI didnât hate him. Not exactly. He was nice enough, and we had a lot in common. But he had everything that I wanted. Money, mostly. His family never had to worry about it. He could take private lessons and always had all the nicest gear. He didnât flaunt it, but I noticed. And I envied him for it.â
Looking back at you, he continues, âHeeseung was the one that found the King Pen. He was like me, in a way. His family didnât come from money. We were young, too young, but we were good. We made them money, so they let us fight. Jay found out and wanted in too. It didnât matter that he didnât need the prize money. He just wanted to prove that he was better than us. That he was the best. It was me and him in my very first championship fight. He won, and I hated him for it.â
The ring, you realize. Jayâs ring that he dropped in your car. It was a championship ring.Â
Jungwon looks down at his hands. The bandages that you put there. âHe moved away once high school started. We didnât keep in direct contact or anything, but I always heard about him. Jay and his international boxing titles. Jay and his new sponsorship deal with a major boxing gym. It just added fuel to the fire that was already there. Made me resent him more, even if it wasnât his fault.â
No matter how you spin it, you canât imagine any of that was easy to deal with. Especially as a teenager.Â
âWith him gone, though, I started to make real money fighting. Good money. I lied to my parents and told them I got a part time job. Moving cargo so that they wouldnât be too suspicious when I came home with bruises.â
Jungwon flexes his fingers. âBoxing became my saving grace. I could give a good chunk of my earnings to my family, and the rest of it, I saved. It put me through university. Let me earn my programming degree.â
You understand him a bit more, then. Why he never seemed annoyed by his job. Why even things like jammed printers never seemed to get to him. Heâs thankful for where he is. Has nothing but gratitude for his job when he earned it with years of his own blood, sweat, and tears.Â
âI have a steady income now, but itâs just⊠hard, I guess. To let that part of me go. And if Iâm honest, part of me has always been afraid too. I mean, my parents had a steady income until they didnât, you know? I like knowing that even if something happens here, Iâll still be able to support myself. And them.â
It makes sense. It does.Â
âAnd then Jay came back.â Jungwon scoffs. âHeâd barely been in town for a full twenty-four hours when he showed up at Kangâs with all of his fancy gear and asked to be added to the roster for the next round of fights. And then he showed up there with you and I⊠I thought I was actually going to lose it.â
Even now, Jungwonâs shoulders are visibly tense. âThe actual gym is usually fine, safe for outsiders, but still. He shouldnât have risked your safety like that. He should have known better. And IâŠâ Jungwon trails off again.Â
You donât think youâre imagining the slight tinge of pink that starts to color his cheekbones.
âI was already having a bad enough time with the fact that you were seeing someone. When it turned out to be him, I just⊠Well, you know.â
Jungwon takes a deep breath in, releases a long exhale.Â
âI donât like making bets, and I donât like situations I canât predict. Things I donât have control over. I guess thatâs part of the reason why I always liked boxing so much. In the ring, I feel like I have a say in what happens. That even if I lose, itâs because I didnât move fast enough. I didnât think quick enough. Things I have control over. Things I can get better at.â
Jungwon looks at you. âI hate guessing. I hate having to wonder. I like sure things.âÂ
His chest is rising and falling a little faster now. Your breath is just as shallow.Â
âWhat are you saying?â you ask him.Â
âIâm saying that I donât just want to be coworkers with you. I want you to be mad at me for fighting in illegal underground boxing matches.â Jungwonâs gaze is imploring, pleading for your understanding as his eyes search yours. âI want you to call me when the printer jams and when you have a hard day and when you want someone to go to a stupid work event with you on a Friday night.âÂ
He takes a step closer to you, and you feel your spine press against the door of the workroom.Â
âI want you to be a sure thing,â he breathes, âeven if everything about you â the way I feel about you, the thoughts I have about you, the things I want to do to you â have always felt out of my control.â
âOh.â Your voice is small. Your mouth is dry. Caged in against the door, words are suddenly a hard thing to come by.Â
âOh,â Jungwon echoes. âIs that a yes?â
Heâs even closer now. Nose brushing against yours, he interlaces the fingers of his less injured hand with yours, reaching up until your hands are intertwined above your head.Â
âNo,â you shake your head.Â
âMm,â Jungwon hums, and you feel the vibration travel the length of your spine, settling somewhere deep, just beneath your navel. His lips brush against the corner of your mouth when he asks, âItâs a no, then?â
Again, you shake your head. Trapped in his embrace, the movement is tiny, restricted. Sends goosebumps scattering across your skin everywhere the two of you are touching.Â
âAn oh is just an oh,â you tell him. âThis is a yes.âÂ
There isnât any distance to close. Just pressure to add. He accepts it willingly, even if the sudden contact against the still broken skin of his bottom lip has him releasing a hiss through his teeth.Â
Itâs a discomfort he gets over quickly. His other hand, the one not currently tangled with yours, relocates to the curve of your jaw before heâs doubling down, pain all but forgotten as his lips part against yours.Â
A repeated motion. A rhythm thatâs stilted at first but starts to feel natural the longer you continue.Â
Over and over. Again and again until the action starts to feel useless. Until youâre not quite sure where his breath ends and yours begin.Â
Youâre in the office workroom, pressed against the door, and the printer is starting to beep in protest.Â
Youâre sure youâll be thoroughly embarrassed when you inevitably leave long minutes later with mussed hair and swollen lips and a certain programmer trailing behind you that canât contain his self-satisfied smile.Â
But for now, you get what he means. It feels good. It feels like relief, to finally know where you stand with him.Â
So instead of worrying about what your supervisor will think of your mussed collar and smudged lipstick, you pull him down a little firmer by the back of the neck, fingers tangling in the hair along his nape.Â
You sigh into his mouth, and the fervor he returns with leaves you well and truly breathless.Â
And for once, it feels like a sure thing.Â
âŠ..
epilogueÂ
Jungwon: SOS
Jungwon: Babyyyyyyyy
Jungwon: I know youâre reading my messagesÂ
Jungwon: PLEASE ___ I really need your help
You: Iâm BUSY what do you need
Jungwon: The printer is jammed again
You: And what do you want me to do about that? Call maintenance
Jungwon: Oh pleaseÂ
Jungwon: Last time I called maintenance they sent a guy that couldnât tell A4 from A3 this is not the job for them
Jungwon: Plus they donât have the magic touch like you
You: Literally what are you talking about
You: The last time I tried to fix the printer, I broke it so bad it was out of commission for two whole weeks
You: The entire floor was mad at me
You: I had to buy Grace coffee every day for TWO WEEKS
Jungwon: PLEASEEEEEE
Jungwon: Just try once and if it doesnât work Iâll call maintenance
Jungwon: I promise
You: âŠ
You: FINE
You: On my way
Tucking your phone back into your pocket, you sigh. The workroom door opens with little resistance, but as soon as you step inside, you frown.Â
Jungwon, for starters, is nowhere to be seen.Â
And the printer, at least from first impressions, appears to be working just fine. Completely jam-free.
Youâre not left in the dark for long. A moment later, the door opens behind you.Â
Tumbling in like an overexcited kitten, your boyfriend looks all too enthused to be dealing with a supposed jammed printer.Â
Gesturing towards the machine in question, you frown at him. âWhat were you talking about? The printer is perfectly fââ
He cuts you off with the press of his lips against your own, pushing you backwards until you run into the printer, spine arching against the copier tray.Â
âJungwon,â you protest once he finally lets you up for air. âItâs like you want HR to start a case against us. You have got to stop doing that.â
âDoing what?â He feigns innocence, even as he leans in again for another long kiss.Â
âMm,â you mumble, breaking free again. âYou know exactly what Iâm talking about. Faking printer emergencies as an excuse to make out. Weâre at work.â
Jungwon leans back, but the only thing he uses the space for is to let himself scan you from head to toe. Biting his bottom lip, he runs a set of fingers through the hair that falls across his forehead. âYou know, youâre a really terrible liar.â
âIâm not lyââ
âIf you actually wanted me to stop, you wouldnât fall for it every.â He presses a kiss to the tip of your nose. âSingle.â The top of your cheekbone. âTime.â The corner of your mouth. Â
And you hate to admit it, but he kind of has you there.Â
âWhatever.â You pout, but he just uses it as an excuse to plant another long kiss on your pursed lips. âIâm serious, Jungwon,â you tell him, even if youâre just as breathless as he is, despite the fact that youâre actively pulling him in by the back of his neck. âThis has to be the last time.â
âMm,â he smiles against your lips. âSure thing, ___.â
âŠ..
outtake â seven months ago.
The tinted window of Jungwonâs secondhand car is hardly an ideal mirror, but heâll have to make it work.Â
Giving himself a final once over, he straightens his already immaculate tie. Tugs at the collar of his button down shirt so that it lays just a little bit nicer, the edges of the folds just a fraction of a millimeter sharper.Â
Bending slightly, he smooths down his hair, pushing it away from his eyes. Catching his reflection again, he suddenly has second thoughts about the version of himself that he sees.Â
Bleaching his hair had seemed like a good â no, great â idea a few weeks ago. But now, dressed in business casual and about to begin his first day at a new job, doubts start to swirl through Jungwonâs mind.Â
What if they donât think the blonde is professional enough? What if it breaks some kind of unspoken dress code?
He knows it doesnât break the actual, company mandated dress code. Mostly because heâs already read through the handbook.Â
Twice.Â
With annotations.Â
Frowning slightly, Jungwon tilts his head to the side. Heâs gotten pretty good with concealer, but thereâs still a faint purplish tint that sits just along the edge of his jaw.Â
It takes a decent amount of effort not to wince at the memory. Sunghoon had gotten him good that day.Â
Jungwon forces his shoulders to relax. Forces himself to take one big breath in. Release it out slowly.Â
He has no reason to panic. He went through the same, brutal rounds of interviews as everyone else and was deemed to be the most qualified candidate. He graduated summa cum laude in the same field heâll be employed in now.Â
And itâs not like anyoneâs going to be looking at his face close enough to notice any slight discoloration. Or, at least, he doesnât think they will.Â
To be honest, heâs not really sure how this whole thing works. Office jobs, no matter how many online forums heâs scoured and articles heâs read, are still a bit of a mystery to him.Â
He hates it. Hates feeling out of his depth and ill prepared. Hates knowing that heâll have to ask too many questions and stumble through tasks until he gets the basics down.Â
But part of him is excited too.Â
He did it. Standing in the parking lot of an otherwise rather unremarkable company, it hits him all at once.Â
He actually fucking did it.Â
All those nights in the ring. Every bruise, every scar, every drop of blood. Every saved penny, every skipped opportunity.Â
They landed him here. An 8 to 5 office job that isnât flashy or anything special from the outside, but to him, means the world.Â
Heâll have it all: a steady salary, a place to be in the mornings, coworkers to notice when heâs not around. Itâs not much, but itâs his.Â
So, with one last deep inhale, Jungwon turns away from his car window and tracks a steady path on even footsteps towards the front door.Â
And a handful of hours later, when Terry from accounting is still talking his ear off about his sonâs latest hockey match in the doorway of the staff kitchen, Jungwonâs heart gives an unsteady lurch.Â
âHey, Terry,â you nod in acknowledgement, entering the kitchen in search of an early afternoon refill for your empty coffee mug. âHey, oh.â Your eyes meet his, lips parting. Your words die when you realize you donât know what to call him. When you realize youâve never actually seen him before.Â
And itâs not like Jungwon has never seen a pretty girl before, but â oh.Â
Oh.Â
Dressed in a rather simple, work approved ensemble, hair loose around your face, thereâs nothing specific that he can pinpoint. All Jungwon knows is that thereâs something about you that makes him want to keep looking.Â
âJungwon,â he supplies, a bit breathlessly.Â
Behind him, Terry is still regaling the details of his kidâs game-winning goal.Â
Eyes locked on him, a beat of heavy silence passes. And then â
âHi, Jungwon.âÂ
Your eyes. He thinks it must be your eyes. Or maybe your lips. The delicate curve of your cheekbone. His gaze canât decide where to land.Â
âHi,â he manages.Â
Eyes sliding over his shoulder to Terry, you release a small, amused breath. âHey, Terry?â
Stopping mid sentence, the middle aged man turns to you. âOh, hi, ____. How are you?â
___. Jungwon thinks it suits you. A pretty name for a pretty girl.Â
âJust fine, thanks.â You flash him a quick smile. Just a bare hint, and Jungwon feels his knees getting a little wobbly beneath him. âBut I was wondering if you could help me with something.â
âOf course,â Terry nods a little too enthusiastically. Fifteen years at the same company, and heâs the kind of person that still jumps at the opportunity to be needed. Helpful. Jungwon thinks itâs kind of sweet, even if he wishes the manâs gift for brevity in storytelling could be a bit more apparent.Â
âYou know the printer in the workroom?â
Terry nods.Â
âItâs jammed again,â you frown, the slightest hint of a pout pulling at your lips. Jungwon canât quite find it in himself to look away from the movement. âDo you think you could take a look at it for me?â
Terry beams. âOf course! Iâd be happy to.âÂ
And then itâs just the two of you.Â
âHe means well.â You smile again, softer this time. Like youâre discussing an inside joke only the two of you know about.Â
Jungwon is suddenly finding his breath a difficult thing to maintain.Â
âDoes the printer do that a lot?â He finally manages to ask. âJam, I mean.â
âAll the time.â You roll your eyes. âYouâd think a company raking in this much profit would have the cash to spare on a new machine, but no. This entire floor is just ill fated to sufferâ Thereâs an air of humor to your words, a slight hint of teasing, even if Jungwon thinks thereâs an undercurrent of truth to your words.Â
You smile again. Teeth tugging at your bottom lip, Jungwon can only describe your expression as slightly devious. âItâs not jammed now, though.â
His brow furrows. âItâs not?â
You shake your head. âI was given the gory details of Terryâs sonâs soccer game yesterday. Trust me, I saved you a headache and an extra thirty minutes.â You wink at him, and Jungwon really, really hopes the sudden heat in his cheeks doesnât look as obvious as it feels.Â
âI think it was a hockey match, actually.â
âOh.â You pause for a moment, considering. âRight.â
A moment of silence passes. Another. Jungwon has never minded the quiet, but heâs not quite ready for this interaction to end. Suddenly, he feels like heâs scrambling for something to prolong it.Â
âThank you.â
Your brow furrows. âFor what.â
âThe extra thirty minutes and the absence of a headache.â Jungwon taps two fingers against his temple. âI appreciate it.â
âAh,â you smile, and this time itâs a bit brighter, wider. Jungwon, not for the first time today, thanks his lucky stars that he was accepted for this position. That it landed him here, sharing a staff kitchen with someone like you. âAnytime.â
He hopes you mean it.Â
And when you turn away from him a few moments later, original mission to refill your coffee remembered, Jungwon looks up at the ceiling with his eyes screwed shut and takes a long, much needed breath.Â
âJungwon,â you turn back. Luckily, heâs just returned to a more natural standing position.Â
âYeah?â
âItâs nice to meet you. Donât let this place get you down too quickly.â You wink again. Jungwon does his best to keep his features neutral. âIâll see you around, yeah?â
âYeah,â he agrees, even though youâve already turned back to the coffee machine. âSure thing, ___.â
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note: and we're done! thank you for reading! and thank you for bearing with me and the fact that this unfortunately had to be split into two parts. I hope you enjoyed this story, and as always, I would love to hear any thoughts you have. all the best âĄ