this flower won't bloom

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[theflowerthatwontbloom]

Hey guys I was trying to stay away from tumblr to recover and I did not realize I hit 200+ followers omg how

btw idk if anyone cares I'm doing quite okay even though I broke up with my girlfriend but I finally found things and people who make my life a better one

I haven't weight myself in a really long time and even though my body changed a lot I'm okay with it wich is so weird

[sandersstudies]

There is something very special about driving around at 3-4 AM. Like, am I up ridiculously late? Am I up ridiculously early? The world may never know.

[sandersstudies]

*sees other car* and what the FUCK are you doing up

[theflowerthatwontbloom]

On a family get together today and I already got so many positive comments about how beautiful and skinny I look, even though I don't look healthy anymore wow

[theflowerthatwontbloom]

So many things are going wrong right now, I can literally see that my body is dying. I'm loosing all my hair, my skin looks blue and purple like I'm a corpse, I feel like fainting all the time, I get bruises if someone even just pokes me, I'm failing my exams because my brain can't remember anything, I shiver when other people take off their jackets and I simply look dead. I don't look beautiful after loosing all this weight. This is not what I expected. But this is reality and if I continue this one day it's going to be too late. Today I'm going to tell my best friend and tomorrow my psychologist about everything I've been hiding. This time I'm going to recover and I'm going to take it serious, because continuing down this path will kill me.

[thinlikeapin]

I wish alcohol didn’t have calories because I’d be drunk all the time.

[angularboy]

things my ED should make me worry about:

organ failure 

death

things i’m actually worried about:

loose skin

hair loss

[sumflora]

how many calories does suffering burn

[interlibros]

“Depression is being colorblind and constantly told how colorful the world is.”

- Unknown

[obeythesea]

Does anyone else have a hard time believing that somebody will wanna stay with you forever bc same

[theflowerthatwontbloom]

Yoo probably no one cares about this and it's not a lot but thanks for 100+ follows I never thought anyone would follow me haha💛✨

[theflowerthatwontbloom]

My friend and I were smoking and she held up her cigarette looked at me and said "my cigarette looks just like you...like a skinny stick" I just laughed but it kind of made me happy haha I'm fucked up

[allbusybees]

forgive yourself. whether you fail a test, eat too many cookies, say the wrong thing, fail a class, or spend a whole day in bed — learn to forgive yourself. the next day will be better. the next day will be a day closer to your next success. you can do it.

[theflowerthatwontbloom]

this is so important💛

[skelegeist]

does anyone else touch their bones for a sense of security? like, when i’m anxious i’ll touch my wrist bones or collarbones or hipbones or ribs, just to feel that i’m okay.

[theflowerthatwontbloom]

yoo I'm back after a failed attempt at recovery yay how you doing

[theflowerthatwontbloom]

I just took a shower and to see how much hair I'm loosing is seriously killing me I can't keep doing this fuck

[im-going-to-float-myself]

My fashion style would look 10000% better if I was +20lbs lighter.

[vahsaw]

I keep surprising myself of how big of a mess I can be